ICAN2DOTHIS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ICAN2DOTHIS ICAN2DOTHIS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I am an athlete! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182512 I may have a bad knee, am really oveweight at present and have trouble staying motivated but I have determined what I really am inside, inspite of the outward appearance: an athlete! I want to copy my friend Monida who has RA and who competes in the Senior Olympics. She only started riding bikes later in life. OMG. I have no excuse! I went today to the outdoors store where Patrick did NOT laugh at the idea of me having a bike to race, Edith who did NOT laugh at the idea of me race walki... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 16:32:52 EST What I want most http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180988 I had given up on myself - again. I realized I was hurting, emotionally and physically and have just come from my own retreat to regroup. I gained weight, hated myself and didn't make time to work out. What I want most out of life is to feel passion for life, eat healthy and mostly laco/ovo vegetarian, write and live in the West. I feel like all I have done in the last year is settle and sell myself short. I do not know how I am going to make the changes I want and need to make but this ... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 14:39:27 EST I gave up. Then I got up. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5079755 I decided I couldn't do it. I had the knee injury, which makes me unstable walking sometimes so pretty sure hiking might be out. For sure, treadmills and race walking are out. Not to mention ellipticals for now. That leaves bikes and spinners without standing - and a combo arm/bike thingy at the YMCA. But did I go? No!!!!! <BR> <BR> I am still in love with my ex and he loves me but it would never work. I hurt him and he hurt me even more and neither of us can forgive ourselves though ... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 16:34:33 EST From the valley to the mountaintop http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5011277 Well, today Heavely Father tested my fortitude in a big way! I was so excited to go to hydrorider class, only to have a nasty spin nazi teaching the beginning class. She told me I was wasting her time...and I should go to another class for beginners. I tried to explain to her that the recommendation from the facility staff was because of my knee injury but she didn't want anyone in there that wasn't bike race ready. (Not that she was either, lol). She said the description was wrong but t... Sat, 11 Aug 2012 19:42:46 EST What an amazing day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5008784 It seemed ordinary...but it turned out not to be! My boss had me work over yesterday so I already knew I was going to leave early. It was raining which I love. A coworker asked if I wanted to go to the play next Tuesday - and tickets are $10 not $45 b/c she had a special. We are going to dinner before but money and food wise I was worried...but there is a great salad and soup that I can have and I can have fun with my friends. Asked a friend who has learned to work with a physical limita... Thu, 9 Aug 2012 20:35:41 EST How I feel going back to the gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5003156 Scared. Excited. Like my true self. It's like that commercial where the guy is walking calmly down the street but his music indicates there's a secret dance going on inside?!? It's that type of joy for me. I feel like an athlete though I look nothing like one. I am remembering what is important to me and those feelings include doing as much athletic stuff as possible. I had the knee injury which gave me two choices - either continue being afraid of everything (since I tripped over unev... Mon, 6 Aug 2012 09:45:01 EST Well, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5003106 Learned a lesson. A big one. When serious about changing your eating habits, clean out the pantry! This is not the Great Depression so anything that is within date range can be donated to a pantry or friends but NOT eaten just to use it up! <BR> <BR> Having said that, I finished off the pizza in the freezer and the way-too-salty sausage sandwiches. I didn't need the carbs, the calories or the salt. So...the rest were given to the neighbor who lost her job and the canned things are hea... Mon, 6 Aug 2012 09:16:00 EST