IB.FLUFFYNOTFAT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=IB%2EFLUFFYNOTFAT IB.FLUFFYNOTFAT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Man I feel good today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1401745 Yesterday I decided to get back to being organized, So I redid my S.H.E. box as well as tidied the house a bit more than usual. This morning waking up to a clean house and having cards to remind me of everything I wanted to do today gave me such a mood lift! By noon the house looked geat and I was raring to get to the pool. <BR> <BR> At the pool I worked out for an hour. I did everything I could think for my legs and arms. Including treading really hard and fast. When I got pooped enough we ... Thu, 14 Aug 2008 19:30:59 EST Things are getting better! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1379698 I feel so much better! My lower back is NOT kiiling me anymore! My overall pain level is much better. I can take up to 6 norco a day, and until now have been needing that much. NOW, I only NEED 2-4 a day! This is HUGE! <BR> <BR> I attribute it to eating better(and less using Paul McKenna's hunger scale) and more exercise. I have been SOME exercise every day. I've been doing crunches and reverse crunches everyday, sometimes up to 3 times a day. When I get an energy slump I walk in place, do s... Mon, 4 Aug 2008 12:01:16 EST Ups and downs of my life. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1349295 Ok so seriously things have been tough around here. We lost our apartment a few months ago (due to too much money going to my medical bills). So we had to move in a weekly motel place. The good news is last week we changed rooms, now we have a HUGE room more like a studio apartment, and it is absolutely beautiful (newly remodeled with gorgeous furniture and a full size fridge which we didn't have before). BUT we have no stove. I use the george Foreman grill, an electric skillet, a crock pot, ... Mon, 21 Jul 2008 14:39:47 EST Pain RELIEF!!!!! SP has sunk in! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=715925 Wednesday I got into a pain management Dr. He is fabulous! He gave me some interesting meds and trigger point shots in the base of my skull and neck. The headache was gone instantly! I am feeling much better. One of the meds he gave me really kills my appetite. THAT IS SO COOL! <BR> <BR> I am holding steady on the weight. I'm not tracking or following the meal plans per se. BUT I have learned so much from here that my meals are pretty much SP approved! LOL My portions are correct and I am p... Fri, 24 Aug 2007 15:56:06 EST Gotta pull myself outta this FUNK! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=704408 I'm STILL off plan. and gaining back slowly. I just can't make myself do much of anything due to the pain. I need to quit making excuses. I've been feeling sorry for myself and allowing myself to wallow in self-pity. The PT killed me and she barely touched me! I am supposed to go back in tomorrow but I am not sure if I want to. The doc refilled my pain killers (4 days worth) but is dodging my calls to send me to a pain management guy. <BR> <BR> I went back to step 1. I was on step 3 and doin... Thu, 16 Aug 2007 15:54:49 EST Not on plan this week... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=694503 I have been totally off plan for most of the week. My eating is getting pretty ingrained now, so I don't think I am doing too bad. I haven't weighed in a few days. I'm afraid to. I've been on the couch for most of the week. I FINALLY got the Dr. to prescribe some pain killers, but they don't work that well. So I am still in a lot of pain. Haven't been able to excercise since Mon, I think. I am doing well just to get up with the kids, get us all dressed and pick up the house a little bit. I go... Fri, 10 Aug 2007 01:08:19 EST Pain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=689621 Today was a pretty bad day painwise. I still did both my ST and cardio but it took a HUGE effort to do so. I am so afraid that if I skip one day it will snowball into not doing it regularly...and falling back into my old habits. The Dr. thinks the pain is not only from the discs in my neck but also my FMS. It has been pretty good for the last couple years but is back with a vengance. He won't give me anything to treat the FMS or anything for the pain until I go to Physical Therepy for awhile.... Tue, 7 Aug 2007 02:04:23 EST Choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=689618 I need to start focusing on my choices. Whether I choos to do something, not do something or doing nothing and see what happens. The last of those I seem to do too much. I wait and see therefore not taking responsibility for what happens because I think "I didn't choose this"...BUT in a sense I did choose. I chose not to act and let the situation impact me for better or worse. Instead of agonizing it had I chosen to do something or NOT do something I think I would feel better about the outcom... Tue, 7 Aug 2007 01:57:55 EST Making progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=686028 Well I guess I am making progress. The scale only shows a loss of a bout 10 pounds since I have been on SP(about 6.5 weeks), but I guess that's better than gaining. My progress comes from excercise. I can do tread water for 60 min without much time off for a breather! At first I was only able to 15 min and I'd have to stop for about 5 then start again. NOW I can pretty much get through a whole hour. Only stopping occassionally to help one of the kids! I burn 960 in one hour! The only drawback... Sat, 4 Aug 2007 14:52:58 EST After the hospital... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=663838 Ok I got out of the hospital yesterday. MIL was here(she took her vacation Tuesday and was pretty pissed I went into the hospital because she FELT she HAD to bere here with Brian and the kids) so she is very hostile with me. LIKE I WANTED to go in the hospital. She thinks my problems are all in my head...BUT if it was her son it would have been perfectly ok(she wouldn't have been mad in the least). Today Brian's sister came down, which further pissed of MIL because MIL was supposed to go up t... Sat, 21 Jul 2007 03:02:45 EST Stress Test http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=656938 I am stressed about my stress test! I talked to my mom tonight and told her about my "episode" Wednesday night and she freaked! She said it sounded to her like I had a heart attack and needed to go to the hospital. I know she's right but dammit I am too young for this to be happening! She said to tell them at the cardiology dept. tomorrow about what happend. I will tonight though I feel strange. My resting heart rate was 104 when Brian checked it once and then down to about 96 an hour later. ... Tue, 17 Jul 2007 03:00:25 EST Well I guess simple questions are relative... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=652436 Tonight I asked Brian a simple question "are you still in love with me?"...simple question right? he couldn't answer simply so I guess that means the answer is no. <BR> <BR> Where does that leave me? I am very simply head over heals in love with him.... Sat, 14 Jul 2007 00:14:14 EST Bad night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=650024 I'll be posting here and to my July Challenge message board but that's about it. <BR> <BR> Hubby says I am overly "obsessed". He may be right. Last night I had an "episode" don't know what else to call it. I did my ST in the afternoon then was off on cardio after 12 min(I usually do 40) I got really short of breath and very dizzy so I stopped. BUT then last night I took the kids to the pool nad treaded for about 30 min. When I came in I was pretty disoriented and dizzy. My chest got real ti... Thu, 12 Jul 2007 14:12:15 EST Tomorrow..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=647432 Well today I was down to 212!!!!! YAY! <BR> <BR> If I can manage to get down to 211.3 tomorrow I will have offically lost 10% of my body weight! <BR> <BR> I am doing so good. Eating so well, excercising(and LOVING it) and being good to me. <BR> <BR> I don't mention much of my "diet" to Brian anymore. It's just a waste of time. He'll just think "there she goes again..." But at least I have Marcia! I feel really good. <BR> <BR> I just wish I could explain myself better and quit arguing with... Wed, 11 Jul 2007 02:43:14 EST Yesterday's quote http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=638391 Something we were withholding made us weak, until we found it was ourselves. <BR> <BR> - Robert Frost <BR> <BR> This is so true. I OFTEN tell myslef how hard it is to lose weight, how unfair it is that I can't eat what I want(like DH)...There are others too, but I think these are the worst of them. <BR> <BR> Yes it is unfair. BUT whoever said life would be fair? It's not(if it was I'd look like Jennifer Aniston), so get a life and move on. Man I need to be my own best cheerleader. and stop... Thu, 5 Jul 2007 14:48:19 EST The giving away of power http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=637425 Why do I do this? I give my power to my husband. I ALLOW him to make me feel terrible. Last night and the fight I realized I allowed him to make me get depressed. Today that feeling still lingers. Tonight I told the kids to go to bed. He asked why are you in such a hurry to get them in bed? (it was later than I wanted them to be up). See I usually put them in bed then turn their TV on til they fall asleep and sometimes it takes them awhile to go to sleep. I explained this. He said we just tal... Thu, 5 Jul 2007 01:49:12 EST Bad night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=637188 Last night was a Very bad night! Brian and I got into a HUGE argument. He then tells me I talk too much about my diet, how my clothes fit and how much weight I lost. This is supposed to be the ONE person who supports me in this effort. He once told me that the thing that turns him off most about my body is my stomach(it hangs grotesquely). Yes I HAVE made many attempts to lose weight since we got together 9 years ago...BUT this time is different. I am making myself a healthy lifestyle...AND I... Wed, 4 Jul 2007 21:28:40 EST Why doesn't the mirror reflect how I feel??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=635506 This is sooooo weird. I FEEL like a new me. I FEEL thin and healthy! When I walk past a mirror or window it is a HUGE shock! I really can't believe I look like that! Last night I asked Brian if I looked the same(I have a "fat" picture of myslef on the fridge) He said no...I guess I lose in my face first?! I took 2 loads of laundry out to the laundry room today and DID NOT get out of breath, nor did my back hurt! In 2.5 more pounds I'll be down 10% from where I was when I started this year (23... Tue, 3 Jul 2007 17:23:26 EST Anniversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=632278 Well Today is our 7 th wedding anniversary. <BR> <BR> Last night MIL had us over to celebrate! We arrived to a mountain of presents, flowers, balloons, filet mignon and a teeny tiny little cake. It was a LOT of fun. She bought us a set of stainless steel cookware and a pyrex baking dish with a rack for cooking so the fat drips down, among a TON of other stuff. I did really good 4 oz filet mignon, 12 med shrimp with a Tablespoon of cocktail sauce, half a baked potato with T. sour cream, 1/2 ... Sun, 1 Jul 2007 20:08:54 EST Great DAY! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=628759 Well, the Chinese didn't kill me like I thought I actually still lost a little(.2 or .4 I think but hey still a loss). Although I did feel kinds puffy all day(yuck!) <BR> <BR> Brian still doesn't know what to think about this. Poor guy! I've been on so many diets, took so many pills and potions, I think he is afraid this will be the same. It's different now. I don't feel bad when I eat differently then they do. During the day the kids eat pretty much what I do and sometimes at dinner too. B... Fri, 29 Jun 2007 02:37:07 EST Good and BAD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=627230 OK today I went a little nuts...ON TOP of my regular 30 min of cardio, I did 40 min of yoga, walked for 20, then did more Cardio and almost DOUBLE my strength training plan! I just had so much energy I didn't know what to do with myself. I mean my house is clean(really really clean), meals planned, kids happy...so I worked out. NOW I am sore(in a good way) I had Brian rub out the knots in my legs and they feel so much better now though. We'll see what tomorrow brings. <BR> <BR> Brian wanted ... Thu, 28 Jun 2007 02:49:22 EST A bit concerned... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=626064 I have lost 5 pounds since I started this last week. I'm afraid that I lost it too fast and it will come back again. I am eating WAY healthy and excercising regularly for the first time in a L-o--n-g time. I FEEL fabulous! I just hope this weight loss is permanent. Brian wants to go get Chinese food this weekend. I am worried because I don't each much salt anymore so all the soy sauce will probably pack back on the weight! Wed, 27 Jun 2007 12:07:43 EST I DID IT! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=623765 I went ahead and moved to Stage 2 tonight! Fast Break was just way to easy. I am so proud of myself. I can't believe I am doing so good. I ate WAY under calories today and I wasn't even hungry. This is amazing! Tue, 26 Jun 2007 02:46:33 EST So sore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=622744 I have been strength training every other day and boy! do I feel it! I am sore in places I didn't even know I had muscles! My energy level is better though and I have lost 3 pounds in less than a week! I am drinking less beer. I am staying positive and moving as much as I can. My house is looking better all the time. Instead of sitting I get up and move. This whole Cardio thing is great dancing while cleaning makes it not feel like excercise! Yay me! Mon, 25 Jun 2007 13:20:45 EST GO ME! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=618001 I am so proud! I came in under calories(okay barely but still under) I also drank something like 12 or 14 glasses of water today. I also DID All of my strength training(and then some) AND I did something like 145 min of cardio. I ROCK! Fri, 22 Jun 2007 02:12:33 EST