IAMJOYFUL2's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=IAMJOYFUL2 IAMJOYFUL2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Addictions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5686404 What characterizes an addiction? Simply this: <BR> <BR> "you no longer feel that you have the choice to stop. It seems stronger than you. It also gives you a false sense of pleasure, pleasure that invariable turns into pain." <BR> <BR> One can have false hunger so I guess one can also have a false sense of pleasure. Never thought of it that way. Sat, 3 May 2014 11:07:57 EST God's Warning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684980 <link>pfitblog.com/2014/05/01/food-body-go<BR>ds-warning/ </link> <BR> <BR> Food. Do you have a hold of it or does it have a hold over you? Thu, 1 May 2014 13:31:49 EST Eating with awareness. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683270 Day 25 <BR> The magic is within me. <em>188</em> <BR> <BR> I have been working on making eating with awareness a habit and each day I get better at it. <BR> <BR> This morning DH made some homemade wheat bread and it smelled so good. I didn't even consider eating any but I did enjoy smelling the aroma. I wasn't hungry and I knew if I still wanted some this afternoon I could enjoy a small slice then. A month ago I would have wanted some, had some even though I wasn't hungry and my excus... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 14:52:58 EST Day 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668138 <BR> The magic is in me. <em>188</em> <BR> <BR> I have completed my plan to follow for the next 95 days. I will just make minor changes as needed. <BR> <BR> Start date 4/4/14 - 140 lbs; CW: 139.2 and on track <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> Short term goal: weigh 138 lbs. by 4/14. <em>521</em> <BR> <BR> Milestone: make eating w/awareness a habit by May 5th. <em>105</em> <em>236</em> <BR> I have had 25 meal/snacks to practice on so far and I see progress each day. Eating with awa... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 10:33:01 EST Getting Stronger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5620394 <em>311</em> . . . . . . . . . <em>311</em> . . . . . . . . . <em>311</em> . . . . . . . . . <em>311</em> . . . . . . . . . <BR> <BR> I use to think because of heart failure and the aging process, that it was natural to lose my strength. I would wake up feeling tired and do very little. I was in a constant deterioration cycle - feel tired, do little, have even less strength, repeat. I believed that was to be my life. <BR> <BR> Although I knew "Change your thoughts and you chang... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 12:21:56 EST My Teacher is Only 2 Years Old http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5617203 We take care of our 2 year old grandson and we have learned so much from him. <BR> <BR> 1. He smiles for no reason. <BR> 2. If it is a dreary day, he still thinks it is a wonderful day. <BR> 3. Besides his food and naps, he needs very little. <BR> 4. At meal times, when he is satisfied, he stops eating. <BR> 5. He finds joy in little things. <BR> 6. He lives in the present moment. <BR> 7. He never holds a grudge. <BR> 8. He is never bored or depressed. <BR> <BR> I am sure I have muc... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 19:03:48 EST An "Aha" Moment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5608114 Yesterday's blog was an "aha" moment for me. Everything clicked. <BR> <BR> I realized I was upset (angry) because I believed life was so unfair. At times I would think of other things but the belief of unfairness was always there to come back to. As long as I believed life was unfair, I had an excuse to feel sorry for myself, to not do certain things and to stay overweight. <BR> <BR> Is it true that life is unfair? No. I am the sum total of all my choices. Then why do I keep the beli... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 11:01:30 EST A Course in Miracles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5607350 Anyone interested in studying A Course in Miracles I invite you to visit: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i<BR>ndividual.asp?gid=27703 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> Lesson 22 - "What I see is a form of vengeance." <BR> <BR> The logic all rests on the idea that we see the world through angry eyes. As a result, we are convinced that the world must want to get revenge on us for our attack thoughts. The vengeful world we see is our own projection. It exists only in our imagination. It is ... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 16:06:09 EST The Cookie Battle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5603330 Last night I had a cookie battle. I kept wanting to comfort myself with a cookie. I kept saying "no". Finally it dawned on me that my body was telling me something and I wanted to shut it up with a cookie. I cleared my mind and asked what was I hungry for. I immediately knew I was tired and wanted to rest. I laid down, relaxed and listen to a book on a CD. The craving for the cookie disappeared. I had a wonderful rest. <BR> I can make like so difficult. <em>198</em> Thu, 23 Jan 2014 11:52:50 EST Lemonade from Lemons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5495016 Awesome story! <BR> <BR> When an engaged couple calls off the wedding, it is usually a time of sadness and anger. But one family in Atlanta found a way to turn a terrible situation into a beautiful one. They invited 200 of the city's homeless to feast on the four-course meal that would have been part of the wedding reception. <BR> <BR> <link>news.yahoo.com/blogs/trending-now/fa<BR>mily-hosts-200-homeless-people-for-din<BR>ner-after-daughter-s-wedding-gets-call<BR>ed-off-180643590.html?vp=... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 15:05:47 EST A Binge Meditation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5485379 I was super tired this week and a little depressed yesterday. When this happens I revert back to old insane thinking that junk food comforts me. <BR> <BR> I wanted the comfort but not the calories so I planned a mini binge party. <BR> <BR> I enjoyed: <BR> 1 potato chip --" you can't have just one" is simply not true <BR> 3 tsp of ice cream, and <BR> 4 peanut m&m's <BR> <BR> As usual, after indulging in my little mini binge, I did not feel any better -- junk food does not comfort me. <BR... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 12:45:03 EST I am an Olympian Athlete in Training http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477964 One has to have a sense of humor to enjoy life. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I call myself an Olympian because I am competing in my own special olympics for the weak and ill. I consider myself an athlete because I am working at a sport -- distance walking. Heck, in the past I use to believe crazier things. <BR> <BR> My son-in-law is a marathon runner. We have a lot of things in common. We are both dedicated athletes. We both have a plan. He is working to improve his time, I am working to... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 16:18:44 EST A Stress Free Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477048 Today was another stress free day. Was it hard? Not really. I have been working at this forever. If I do not quit, I will succeed. I have failed many times but I never quit. I will still have to work at it for a long time until it becomes second nature. <BR> <BR> Last month I had a mini stress meltdown. I will probably get another one some day. One thing I realized is that my mini meltdown use to be the norm for me. I was always stressing over one thing or another. <BR> <BR> What... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 18:53:13 EST Hungry and Relaxed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5475646 Yesterday I was tired and emotional hunger thoughts entered my mind. Instead of listening to those thoughts I took a nap. <BR> <BR> Before, I would have rested by watching mindless television. Emotional hunger would of kept tempting me until I mindlessly gave in. <BR> <BR> But yesterday, when tired, I took a nice nap. I woke up feeling a bit hungry, very relaxed and refreshed. Rather than eat, I just laid in bed enjoying the moment. <BR> <BR> I thought how different physical and e... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 11:31:54 EST Taste http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474746 This morning I saw a recipe for chocolate muffins. (link is below) <BR> <BR> They sounded healthy and yummy. The reviews sounded good. I was also in the mood for some <em>493</em> so I made a batch. I rarely add sugar to my baked goods (I use dates or a ripe banana for sweetener). The recipe called for splenda and I used half what it called for. They were ok but the sweet taste of splenda stayed in my mouth for at least an hour -- I didn't care for that part. <BR> <BR> I guess I c... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 14:44:09 EST Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5444721 Yesterday, I wasted a beautiful day by stressing over a "what if". <em>198</em> <BR> My "what if" might very well come to pass. But it didn't do any good stressing about it. <BR> In fact, stressing left me exhausted. <BR> <BR> Today, I decided it does no good to worry today about the future. I can only do the best I can today and enjoy the day. <BR> <BR> Nothing has changed between yesterday and today except on how I choose to react. <BR> Happiness is a choice. It seems choosing to s... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 00:06:44 EST Happiness is http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5441976 appreciating what one has. <BR> <BR> DS has been an english teacher for the last 5 years and wished he could be a history teacher instead. This semester he got his wish. Now he wishes he was back teaching english. <BR> Be careful what you ask for. <em>211</em> Fri, 2 Aug 2013 08:30:01 EST Packaging and Marketing Works http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5441066 Last week I saw a version of Les Mis with one of the Jonas Bros. The difference between his voice and the rest of the cast was huge. His voice was timid and weak while the rest of the cast had strong voices that projected the emotion needed for their roles. <BR> <BR> Because the kid is a celebrity, he earns millions through his concerts. Professional singers who have beautiful voices earn a lot less for singing in the different productions. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, while flipping through c... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 12:40:26 EST How easily I forget that http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5436591 1. I need very little food to be satisfied. <BR> 2. The first four bites taste the best. <BR> 3. I enjoy a meal when I am a tad hungry. <BR> 4. When I eat mindlessly, I lose awareness of how much or what I ate. <BR> 5. The fountain of youth is a healthy diet and exercise. <BR> 6. Emotional eating does not comfort me. It keeps me overweight and sluggish. <BR> 7. Refusing to overeat will not hurt someone else's feelings. Sun, 28 Jul 2013 20:07:14 EST Dungeon of Insanity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5436590 This morning I once again escaped from my Dungeon of Insanity (similar to Pinocchio's Pleasure Island). I am happy now and do not want to go back. Eventually, my negative energy will push me back in. <BR> <BR> You see, I have all these insane beliefs such as: <BR> Food comforts me. <BR> I can start my new lifestyle tomorrow. <BR> I blew it by indulging in a mini binge so I might as well take advantage of the situation and eat all I want for the rest of the day. <BR> It is too hard. <BR>... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 20:07:14 EST Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5366570 New Habits: <BR> <BR> 1. Plan my meals. <BR> 2. When tempted with EE, remember my goals. <BR> <BR> Goal: To be healthy and fit comfortably in a size 8. <BR> <BR> Plan: <BR> Track daily <BR> Learn and improve my plan each day <BR> Have fun Fri, 24 May 2013 09:52:07 EST Day 1 - Another Try http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5365635 "I succeed because I keep failing". I understand this quote now. Before, when I would fail, I would use it as an excuse to throw in the towel. Why try? Insane thinking. <BR> <BR> I would go back to eating whatever and whenever I felt. After gaining 3 to 4 pounds, I would panic and set high expectations on myself that I could not keep for long -- setting myself up for failure. <BR> <BR> I guess you could call this cycle the "yo-yo diet", "depression diet", "unhealthy diet", etc. <BR> <... Thu, 23 May 2013 11:36:34 EST