IAMCHRIS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=IAMCHRIS IAMCHRIS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ What's outside the box...everything you want but don't have. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5303413 Yes, I know, I don't visit here often. I also know most of the time I do come here its just to vent or ramble. That's the disclaimer, keep reading if you like lol. <BR> <BR> I was thinking, well have been thinking the last couple weeks actually, about who I am. I'm almost 40, in the last stretch of my 30's anyway, and I don't feel old which rocks. I do however feel lost, empty and bewildered as to who I am and what direction I should be going in. <BR> <BR> I was watching a documentary abou... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 15:37:45 EST Lots to say but nothing in the form of a "title" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5237521 I quit smoking today...ish. I have this little electronic cig and so far its working for me. I guess its not really quitting, but it is not smoke, tar etc and not very satisfying. Smoking sucks, being weaksauce and not able to quit sucks more though. <BR> <BR> I did the treadmill thing today too. I think I broke it though. I was doing great, playing on my tablet and strolling at 3mph...after 45 minutes the tread thing stopped moving and a code flashed across the screen and said P007. I can o... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 17:11:10 EST It's a start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220851 So I came up with a few places I think I need to correct or address before I do anything crazy. <BR> <BR> 1. I'm very stiff so I want to work on my flexibility. I need to create a stretching routine for myself that I do throughout the day. Sounds simple enough, but it has to include everything. I cant put on socks like a normal person. I know lots of people say that but I cant lift my ankle to my knee. It doesn't have anything to do with my gut being in the way, I'm too stiff to bend my leg ... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 22:26:00 EST Short and sweet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5219348 There was a time when I had a clear mental image of the path I wanted to go down. Everything made sense, all the puzzle pieces fit, it was like the whole thing had been mapped out for me. Now I get little fragments or glimpses of what I should do but they are fleeting and I can't connect them. I feel like I need to sit down and and focus and put it all back together. <BR> <BR> I think tomorrow will be dedicated to that. Hopefully once it all makes sense again and I have a direction I am movi... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 22:38:59 EST A journal...and a sense of self. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5193838 I must write in a journal three times a week. Not because I have anything in particular to say, but because I placed this goal upon myself. It seemed the proper thing to do at the time. I do like to talk about myself and I often find myself enjoying conversations with myself. After all it takes skill and crafting and a certain capacity for mundane and trivial things to figure out a way to say "myself" three times in one sentence, to myself, about myself, for myself. Four times in that sentenc... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 21:05:23 EST