IAMBIZI's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=IAMBIZI IAMBIZI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I am alittle hypo.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6213827 Really happy. <BR> In 90 degree weather I did 2 hours of yard work trimming back bushes, (I created a large yard waste pile) pulling vines out virginia creeper that was wrapped around the jasmine on the fence. <BR> I accidentally pulled up one of the few plants left so I dug a little hole and put it back into the ground and covered it with good dirt and then watered it. It is now raining so that will water it some more. I hope that it grows other wise I will lose the whole remaining vine ...u... Sun, 7 Aug 2016 16:10:52 EST The dreaded measurements! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6213681 Just to be real I measured my self. <BR> I will put down measurements from october of last year and then this morning <BR> <BR> Body part measured:......... <BR> Oct 2015.......August 2016 <BR> right upper arm.................. <BR> 11.................12.5 <BR> butt.................................... <BR> 38.25............41.25 <BR> calf.................................... <BR> 14.25............14.5 <BR> 2" above belly button......... <BR> 27.5..............30.75 <BR> hips..................... Sun, 7 Aug 2016 10:53:10 EST some random notes of our trip to italy and paris! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6189600 Un fortunately, I am already forgetting the details of our trip. <BR> I had to ask jeff about the time that we sat out doors at a fancy cafe and had espressos and listened to a quartet, playing classical music, and a mixture of styles, even a tango.. It was in the huge piazza(plaza) of St. marks catherdral in venise. This piazza floods frequently now during high tides, Venice is sinking. <BR> I promise that I will post more pictures. <BR> While having diner one night in paris we listened to a... Sat, 25 Jun 2016 21:20:26 EST Stats: Drinking/Sleep/Mood for month of May http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6172914 Goals and Stats: <BR> 7-12 drinks per week. <BR> 50% AF days vs. 50% Drinking days <BR> None DD days <BR> 6-8 hours of sleep a night. <BR> 3-4 mood scale. <BR> <BR> AF= Alcohol free <BR> Mod= 1-3 drinks <BR> High-Mod(H-Mod)=4 drinks <BR> DD= 5 or more drinks in a setting, Which is usually considered a binge. <BR> <BR> Mood values/numbers: <BR> <BR> 0=suicidal <BR> 1=depressed <BR> 2=low mood <BR> 3=baseline mood <BR> 4=a little above baseline <BR> 5=hypomanic <BR> 6=manic <BR> 7=psychotic ... Mon, 30 May 2016 08:41:49 EST Busy saturday! Getting organized for trip.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6163315 Yesterday was a work day for me....and a busy one after that: <BR> I got up early and went out of town to see 5 clients at this assisted living home. It was all very nice and pleasant except for one client who refused and was quite nasty about it. <BR> So I went on to the next one who was as pleasant and talkative as could be. I love my job( minus the occasional refusal that is). So that will put me down to 4 clients there, hoping to pick up another client or two there, nice to se them all in... Sun, 15 May 2016 09:33:52 EST Europe trip! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6144797 Thursday 10am arrive in Rome, limo to bed and breakfast, lunch then <BR> 2pm a 3-hour guided walking tour of the Roman forum and colliseum with underground tour and palatine hill. <BR> <BR> Friday <BR> The Vatican: <BR> 1;30pm 2-hour walking tour thru st. peters basilica(worlds largest church) tour to the top of the dome. <BR> <BR> friday 7:30pm the vatican museums night tour with sistine chapel <BR> <BR> saturday Rick Steves walking tour to the spanish steps and trevi fountain. <BR> <BR>... Mon, 18 Apr 2016 09:31:03 EST HAMS= Harm reduction for alcohol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6129799 I just got back from the gym, planet fitness. Walked for 45 minutes 2.5 miles. <BR> I had been there last 11-27-15 that was 107 days ago. <BR> Since 11-1-15 I have gained 20 pounds. <BR> This has me very depressed. <BR> The medication changes made last year proved to do more harm than good. <BR> The trazadone made me manic. <BR> The decreased in geodon did nothing to improve my memory it only lowered my thresh hold for hypo mania and uncontrolled drinking. Yet somehow I did have a period in j... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 00:33:39 EST I am inching toward sanity..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6126279 I am inching along toward sanity. <BR> <BR> Really, I think the increased geodon has finally kicked in. <BR> But I feel I have gained some control again. <BR> What a relief! <BR> Tried to give up alcohol for lent but that only lasted one day. <BR> Am back to my old dose of geodon at 80mg twice a day. <BR> Think that I will have enough until I see Dr. Orazio again. <BR> Stopped taking the extra lamictal in the am as I felt that it could be stimulating. <BR> Started taking black cohosh for hor... Wed, 23 Mar 2016 22:13:16 EST First I need toget more stable.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6117029 Am going to give up on the idea of naltrexone..for now. <BR> Started taking the black cohosh yesterday. <BR> Will take 80mg of geodon twice daily until I feel stable. <BR> Did not stop for a beer/or two before heading home. I have done that easily the last week. <BR> Had not planned to drink today. then jeff said he was still going to play trivia with some friends. so I said well I guess I can go and just have 2 pints.(he said" its friday reward yourself") So then Jeff went ahead to try and f... Fri, 11 Mar 2016 20:15:00 EST Oh well.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6112799 I did not make it AF today.... <BR> Donna was in the bar at whole foods when I went there to get veggies for soup. <BR> anyway <BR> I made the soup from scratch! <BR> lentils, natural turkey breast chunks, beef and chicken stock, carrots, onions, spinach, hot sauce. <BR> Called a friend of mine whom I have not seen in a while asked her over for soup and she could not come due to stacks of paperwork. Robin is a wonderful physical therapist. <BR> We briefly got caught up with her, medical stuff... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 18:00:10 EST Today will be an Alcohol free day for me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6112631 I think that I am being a bit compulsive right now, joining more forums about drinking, spending more time on the computer, eating more. <BR> Today I am trying to reel it in. <BR> Ate a healthy breakfast: <BR> 3 eggs scrambled with fresh spinach <BR> side of steamed brocolli <BR> Freshly made black bean salsa placed over my eggs. <BR> delicious! At our local diner that we eat at most sundays. <BR> (except last sunday when I had 5 wine sangrias at bone fish grill) <BR> I plan to be AF today...... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 13:12:51 EST What is wrong with me?????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6111887 Am glad that I am going to see a substance abuse tdoc on tuesday. <BR> I really need someone to help me. <BR> Last week I saw my pdoc and asked her to increase my geodon because I felt like I was becoming hypomanic. She agreed. So I am taking 40mg in am and 80mg in the evening. But I need to take them with food for proper absorption. <BR> Need to get some milk to drink before bed or maybe take my geodon with dinner. <BR> We have been going out to eat more often and both have been drinking muc... Sat, 5 Mar 2016 12:59:05 EST down 4 pounds and day 11 Alcohol free! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6069688 Ate alone yesterday because the gang did not text me by accident. Mark did the texting group message and left me out unbeknownst. They went to whole foods and I had taco soup at sandras. <BR> Today they were there. <BR> Had a great meal. Ribeye steak medallions medium rare. <BR> zuchinni squash, collards and bread pudding, all were delicious! <BR> <BR> Saw my clients, ended up cutting a toe while cutting off a callus, she has a hammer toe. I felt HORRIBLE! I found out that she was on a blood... Thu, 14 Jan 2016 21:00:32 EST Day one Alcohol free! 100 day challenge. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6060577 3 cups of coffee with half and half and stevia sweetener. <BR> Half a gallon of water. <BR> quick lunch at sandras: <BR> large bowl of veggie soup. <BR> cup of curry chicken salad with veganase and pecans and apples. <BR> dinner bone fish grill: <BR> lillys chicken which I love!!!!!! <BR> it has goat cheese and spinach and basil and artichoke hearts topped with a lemon butter. It is my favorite. <BR> I also had a side of broccoli and a side of spinach. Delicious! <BR> Catching up on my lack o... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 22:40:00 EST one more day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6049046 One more day of work and I am finished for 2 weeks! <BR> <BR> Tonight for dinner: <BR> Hubby and I cooked something different together. <BR> It was called hello fresh. <BR> They sent us 3 boxed meals with fresh ingredients. and all of the ingredients in little containers. <BR> WE had steak tonight with a soy/ginger reduction glaze. <BR> wasabi mashed potatoes <BR> seseme spinach <BR> There was a big white potato that had to be peeled and quartered and boiled so every thing needs to be cooked... Thu, 17 Dec 2015 21:14:15 EST new December blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6041468 Hi there! Thanks to those who read my thread...thank you thank you! <BR> <BR> Today was a great day. <BR> saw a client at 10;30 and went over the thai cuisine restaurant to meet my lunch bunch. Had 2 bowls of my favorite soup: <BR> chicken, tomatoes, onions, lemon grass, coconut milk. It is delicious and I can't get enough of it when I go there (not very often that is). Then had a small bowl of red curry chicken with sweet potatoes. boy was that good! <BR> Saw my 96 year old who just got put... Wed, 2 Dec 2015 22:52:52 EST mmmm....cheese curds! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6035970 Friday night after having drank half a gallon of beer, I tried to go to sleep with the .5mg klonipin and when I was still awake after 2am I got up and took another 1mg so that I could sleep. I did sleep (shut the alarm off )and overslept and got up at 9;30am called my 10 am appointment and told her I would be late. <BR> It was a great day. <BR> For lunch I had chicken salad and cream of brocolli soup, delicious. <BR> For the day, I ended up seeing 4 clients and they needed care and support so... Sun, 22 Nov 2015 02:08:06 EST happy about my life. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6035160 Happiness is visiting my 100 year old client and painting her toe nails bright red, like usual! <BR> <BR> 137.5 this morning. I keep fluctuating these past couple of weeks. was 141 recently... <BR> 2 weeks ago I was 137. I know that I should not weigh daily but I would be really depressed if I put on 4 pounds in a week! It just must be water weight that keeps fluctuating, my diet has not changed although I did have extra snackies last night at wine tasting thing at whole foods. yummy cheeses... Fri, 20 Nov 2015 09:50:33 EST I am so sore today after my 10 K yesterday!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6032796 I did not sleep well last night due to the sangria.... <BR> I knew that would happen. So perhaps I will limit my drinking to just weekend nights when I know that I don't have to get up early. Sounds like a good plan. <BR> Ate a good lunch of meatloaf stuffed with spinach and monterary jack cheese and bacon...oh so good! Had mac and cheese and green beans. <BR> <BR> I was so sore that I decided to lay down after lunch on a heating pad. That felt good but really did not help. <BR> It is just g... Sun, 15 Nov 2015 23:13:40 EST I did it! I did the 10K Cajun Cup !!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6032020 Yes!!!! <BR> I finished 11 minutes faster this year at 1 hour 20 minutes for 6.2 miles. <BR> (13 minute mile) <BR> I am very sore now. Maybe I should get a message? my hips are really sore. <BR> thank you for the nice words. <BR> I guess it was fun...I really pushed myself the last mile, my hips were hurting and I thought they hurt when I walk so I might as well jog! <BR> I sprinted the last .2 miles....my thighs were quivering. <BR> There was music and food at the finish park. <BR> Looked fo... Sat, 14 Nov 2015 12:01:44 EST proud of myself..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6031237 I am very proud of my self. <BR> Went to a musician's talk where little Nat talked and played. <BR> It was very entertaining! <BR> There was free beer there, none that I liked so that was easy to pass up. <BR> But then I saw the mango margaritas....oh my favorite! <BR> That was a test. <BR> Good sleep won! <BR> It was a no brainer for me! <BR> I did not feel deprived at all. I happily made the choice. <BR> wow! <BR> bizi Thu, 12 Nov 2015 22:50:28 EST Thinking about a dry November.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6025925 I did make it to the gym last night. <BR> Some how it feels indulgent. I watched tv while there which I don't do at home. Walked 40 minutes about 2.2 miles at 3.5 mph. felt good. <BR> I think my hypomania has subsided. <BR> I feel like the happy feelings have disappeared. <BR> I got up early today to make chilli. We are having some friends over for dinner. <BR> Will see if the social anxiety comes back...I hope not. That was the best thing about the hypomania was not being anxious around peop... Tue, 3 Nov 2015 09:52:17 EST Terrible sleep last night.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6020955 I had the worst night sleep.... <BR> rats <BR> I slept so well friday night.... <BR> sigh <BR> Restless legs big time, multiple interruptions, the cat crying almost non stop...could have shot her. The trazadone causes my mouth to be dry, it has gotten worse since my friend told me about her reactions to it. Now I am noticing it. Nose was hard to breath out of so I tried mouth breathing...that dried my mouth out even more. Got up and Cleaned the water bottle because it smelled...then later Hub... Sun, 25 Oct 2015 14:37:58 EST Saturday.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6016517 We went to "Downtown Live" last night. <BR> There was a blues guitarist( JImmy Vahn..think that is how you spell it. Stevie ray vahns son) playing at the free outdoor event that drew thousands of people because there was also a preview of the Antique and hot rod cars showing. And the clydsdales budwieser horses have been in town all week. We were lucky to see them loading back up into their trailers up close and personal. <BR> Beautiful horses!!!!! <BR> The cars were awesome!!! <BR> The main ... Sat, 17 Oct 2015 12:13:48 EST Thursday.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6015386 On day 52 alcohol free this morning. <BR> <BR> Meeting some friends for lunch today...going to a place I have never been to called Grub. I always enjoy their company....my lunch bunch from sandras the health food cafe that we met at a few years ago. <BR> <BR> I stretched this morning and pulled a muscle for crying out loud!!!!!! <BR> Geesh my body is falling apart. <BR> arthritis in my neck and back and hips I believe.... <BR> oh well I guess I will just age gracefully. <BR> Does complainin... Thu, 15 Oct 2015 09:39:55 EST Changes can be good. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6012618 140.5 this morning. <BR> <BR> day 47 alcohol free. <BR> <BR> Last night hubby and I went to whole foods to meet a friend <BR> (in the bar)and eat dinner off their food bar, I had Indian pork and grilled veggies, egg plant, squash, onions and mushrooms. <BR> Both were delicious. <BR> I drank water in the bar.... <BR> Trivia started at 7 and went until 9pm. <BR> I am miserable at trivia, jeff thought he was good but turned out he wasn't. lol. <BR> <BR> I was starting to get "itchy" not drink... Sat, 10 Oct 2015 11:14:57 EST Today is sunday.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6000822 We went to a concert last night. It was good but hard to listen to. <BR> It was a well known piece by Egor Stravinsky called: <BR> L'historie du Soldat (The soldier's tale). <BR> Met Stephanie and Susan there. Every one commented after the performance about how challenging it was to play, odd timings thru out the entire piece. Steph said it was interesting and quickly left. I texted her later that I thought it was a weird piece and she said it was good to try new things.... <BR> <BR> Hubby h... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 13:11:02 EST Another good day! so far..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5992170 14 days sober and medication changes have sort of started me feeling better. I was unable to sleep until 330am then got up and took another klonipin anti anxiety med that I take to sleep. 1st one did not work so took the second one at 330am. then got to sleep and slept until 11am. hubby came to wake me up. I needed to sleep that much. He was hungry and wanted to go out to eat like we usually do. I had 3 eggs scrambled with spinach and a side of black bean salsa heated over my eggs and a side... Sun, 6 Sep 2015 16:35:37 EST 9-4-15 friday 145 this am! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5991379 fridays blog posted this last night else where. <BR> Got up just before the alarm at 8. Hubby was gone already but fridays are his short days so he will be home early. <BR> Had 3 cups of coffee....Started looking getting ideas for our 20 wedding anniversary trip to europe next june, going to go to stone henge for sure, a tour after hours where you actually can go thru the stones, it is expensive but I think it will be worth it! <BR> Saw a client before lunch, which was delicious. Shrimp stir ... Sat, 5 Sep 2015 08:33:59 EST Great day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5989179 145.5 this am <BR> 8am breakfast consists of 2 cups of coffee with half and half and liquid stevia sweetener. <BR> Saw a client who had an ingrown toe nail so I cut it out for her and thinned her big toe nail, saved her a trip to the podiatrist. <BR> noon lunch: grilled tuna steak, collards, beets, cantelope. <BR> my 1pm visit was canceled my little lady fell out of bed last night and broke her hip. poor thing. <BR> Saw my next client early and she was interesting like most of my clients, gav... Tue, 1 Sep 2015 22:42:22 EST Finally got my work caught up! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5987678 our friends came over last night. This is the friend of mine who was very depressed and is having marital problems. WE had a nice dinner took a short walk because it was hot and then watched a movie. the holiday a romantic comedy with jack black, jude law, kate winslet, cameron diez. I enjoyed seeing it again so did jeff, susan and paul, not so much. <BR> Oh well it was something to do. <BR> While jeff and susan fed some neighbors cats I asked to paul about how things were going and he said 5... Sun, 30 Aug 2015 21:55:43 EST meds changes....nervous http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5980491 I have told you that I am bipolar 1 and Have been taking medications for 20 years. <BR> I saw my psych doctor today....told her that I was not happy with my meds. that I was not ok and that I was feeling unmotivated and tired and depressed about my life in general. I stopped doing the things that I used to do. and that I was very concerned about my memory issues, have been for years! <BR> So this is her plan. <BR> Increase the lamictal. decrease the geodon, stop the klonipin and start with tr... Tue, 18 Aug 2015 21:32:32 EST new york was eventful..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5976308 August 1st, I flew to atlanta georgia and met up with my folks they flew in from Indiana. Then flew into laGaurdia airport. Took a cab to manhatten, we stayed in The famous Roosevelt hotel. <BR> WE arrived at 1;30 pm and checked our bags as our room was not ready yet. So we walked a bit then took a bus uptown to have a late lunch at the outback steak house.....We ate there 3 times. (My parents get gift cards from their children...me included and they save them up for their trip to new york e... Tue, 11 Aug 2015 23:46:56 EST new york, new york here I come ready or not! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5967847 Got up early for me 6;15am, before the alarm. set at 8am. I threw in a load of clothes. Am starting to think about my trip to new york on saturday. IT is going to be hot there and I don't have too many clothes rather shorts that fit. I have a bunch of shorts that are too small. and one pair that I really like that fits just right since I put on 5 pounds. 146 this am. I am going to wear running shoes as we will be doing a lot of walking thru museums and such. Going to see 2 shows, phantom of t... Tue, 28 Jul 2015 08:24:31 EST I am a binge drinker....sigh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5966903 Drank 9 beers yesterday starting at 1;30pm before my hair appointment then stopped by whole foods for a quick beer there before heading home to cook tacos for hubby before he left for his gig, he plays jazz guitar for the big band here called the Sky liners. He looks good in a tux! <BR> Then proceeded to drink the rest over the next 6 hours while being on line in a chat room for a lot of that time. The SMART recovery chat room. A place for people who want to stop their addictions. So was hypo... Sun, 26 Jul 2015 14:00:11 EST Have had some company.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5952636 Well The cat was crying and we still have a guest(17 year old abigail) sleeping in our living room. (It has been a cat free zone since we moved in 13 years ago.) She moved there when the cat hair really bothered her sleeping(neck itching) on our guest bedroom bed, cats like to sleep there. Before she arrived jeff tried to brush off all of the cat fur but you can't get the dander off that way. Anyway she is sleeping well on the couch and the cat crying did not wake her up. <BR> <BR> It has be... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 09:21:45 EST What an excellent day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5944701 Well today went very well. In fact it turned out to be an excellent day! <BR> Up early before the alarm went off. Coffee and out the door at 8:30am. <BR> Saw 2 clients and picked up Jeff (His car has some sort of electrical problem and is unreliable...the car has an appointment on tuesday)and went to lunch. Had delicious chicken and sausage gumbo, like our usual Saturdays. <BR> Dropped him off at home and then saw 3 more clients, getting home before 5. Even though it rained off and on all day... Sat, 13 Jun 2015 23:58:59 EST my ordinary day.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943236 My leg is getting better every day I can feel it less of an issue. <BR> I was a drenched rat yesterday when I got caught in the rain so had a rain coat today. I put 92 miles on my car today and managed to stay out of the rain for the most part. Drove thru a down pour! <BR> <BR> Had a great lunch at the greek place. Ate off the buffet but did not over do it and only had one plateful. But at $12 I don't think I ate my moneys worth. Had cardamon tea with honey and milk. did not taste any differ... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 01:27:46 EST Where is that yogurt? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5942106 well today I ate well: <BR> 2 cups of coffee with half and half and stevia sweetener. <BR> lunch was stuffed talapia with shrimp and spinach, purple carrots, collards and a piece of bread "pudding"..think cinnamon, raisins, thick moist cake. Not a big piece. <BR> I snacked on some almonds before dinner. <BR> <BR> Jeff cooked dinner: sauteed 4 oz of chicken in a peanut thai sauce, was not spicy and 1 cup steamed califlower, and half an avacado. 2 dark chocolate kisses= yum! <BR> Went to the g... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 01:21:24 EST good things and some things... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931721 I weighed 140 this morning! <BR> it is 118 day Alcohol free. <BR> I lost 3 inches all over when I measured this morning. <BR> 3 weeks ago I had a hip injury. <BR> I backed off of jogging and was really bummed out because of my progress that I was making. <BR> Jogged some last night so that was good and the hip felt fine. <BR> so that is good. <BR> My computer is giving me fits the last 3 days. It has malware. And we can't seem to get rid of it. <BR> Have run different programs and still conti... Thu, 21 May 2015 00:37:26 EST Hard work out last night! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5922933 down to 141 this morning again <em>30</em> <BR> slept until 7 am so that is 6 1/2 hours sleep, but I feel really rested. (I will stick to the 1 mg of klonipin.) <BR> Last night at the gym, it was harder...did not run as long took me longer to cool down, sweat quite a bit. ruined my t shirt because the hair color just ran down my shirt with the sweat. sigh <BR> maybe it will come out? <BR> 4.76 miles one hour, 5k=40:30, total 5 miles 65 minutes. <BR> I know in my head that I will have ups ... Tue, 5 May 2015 09:05:13 EST I am happy with my progress! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5921068 I definitely jogged longer with out a break like 6 minutes jog(5mph) <BR> 1 min walk(3.5mph) for most of the hour. 9 minutes straight at the end. <BR> Here are my stats if anyone is interested: <BR> <BR> 1 mile=12min:35sec <BR> 3 miles=37:37 <BR> 3.2 (5K)=40 mins <em>30</em> <BR> 4 miles=50 mins <BR> 4.81 miles=60 mins <BR> 5 miles including cool down=64 minutes <BR> <BR> I have to say that I was impressed with myself that I could remember the mileage numbers! <BR> <BR> Fit bit totals=... Fri, 1 May 2015 23:29:06 EST I survived a beer garden...whew! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917450 It is pouring and we have festival international this weekend. We went last night. Fun but I can't just stand around and listen to music, it hurts my back. <BR> When we went to the beer garden area with craft beers and everyone was socializing and drinking it was difficult to remain alcohol free. But i survived. yeah! Later when we ran into friends, I shared with her how that was hard. She too is not drinking right now because of meds that she is taking. WE commiserated. <BR> I really want to... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 11:56:57 EST pushing my self too hard.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916309 How does one determine max heart rate? <BR> It took me a long time to get it back to 100. <BR> This is how I know that I am not in good shape. I have to remember I am a beginner and it takes a while to get in shape. <BR> I sweat a lot but last night did not sweat as much. I have gone up to 160. It was 154 last night. <BR> 220-52 = 168 x85%=143 <BR> so I have been pushing myself too hard. <BR> <BR> bizi <BR> 142 this morning, have not been this weight for over a year!!!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Wha... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 09:42:12 EST jogging history http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914889 Aug 2013-Jan 2014 165 days AF, July 30- AF, August 19- AF, 8 DD, 4 mod., September 21- AF, 6 DD, 3 mod. October 14- AF, 3 mod, 14 DD, November: 17- AF, 2 mod, 11-DD. December: 12- AF, 2 mod, 17 DD. January: 12-AF, 18-DD.1 mod. January 23rd day one AF. February: 28- AF. March: 31- AF(68 AF longest in a year!) <BR> <BR> 2-1 AF (day 10 AF) <BR> 2-2 AF <BR> 2-3 AF <BR> 2-4 AF <BR> 2-5 AF <BR> 2-6 AF <BR> 2-7 AF <BR> 2-8 AF <BR> 2-9 AF <BR> 2-10 AF. <BR> 2-11 AF <BR> 2-12 AF <BR> 2-13 AF <BR> 2-1... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 23:46:54 EST Goals! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913185 Well .... <BR> I made it 3 days off the internet. <BR> Better than none. <BR> I can't believe I just said to my husband that "I am going to be alcohol free until july 11th when we start our vacation." <BR> He gave me a thumbs up and said "I'll drink to that" <BR> lol <BR> I jogged/walked 4.6 miles in an hour wednesday night. That is a 13 minute mile. My friend told me I could run a marathon with that time. I was exhausted after that hour. I was jogging 3 minutes at 5mph then walking 1 minu... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 23:03:46 EST taking a break from the internet. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909710 I am taking a break from the internet. Have been running hypomanic for a while now and I need to reel it in so to speak. I will check back in next weekend. <BR> I will miss you. <BR> bizi Sun, 12 Apr 2015 01:31:43 EST sort of survived a dinner party. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909140 We went to a dinner party. <BR> There were about 10 of us there. <BR> Right away they wanted to give us alcohol...I told the hostess Molly that I was not drinking and would like some hot tea. So she put some water to boil they don't have a microwave. <BR> They served delicious food. guacamole, salsa, 2 halves of Twice baked sweet potatoes covered with cheese. I ate shredded pork, spicy beans, and finally a piece of ice cream cake. I drank about 3-4 cups of hot tea over the course of an hour..... Fri, 10 Apr 2015 23:14:24 EST Great day!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5908603 Today was a great day! <BR> Saw a nursing home client this morning...her feet were in such bad shape. I washed and soaked them and worked off all of the dead skin exfoliating them from neglect. IT took a long time and was not comfortable for her but she was very happy with me when we were finished. They looked pretty too! Orange polish! <BR> Had seared tuna for lunch with kale, squash, and beets at the health food store. Jeff is still on spring break so he joined the lunch bunch today. <BR> T... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 23:46:08 EST 1st time fit bit user! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5907551 Aug 2013-Jan 2014 165 days AF, July 30- AF, August 19- AF, 8 DD, 4 mod., September 21- AF, 6 DD, 3 mod. October 14- AF, 3 mod, 14 DD, November: 17- AF, 2 mod, 11-DD. December: 12- AF, 2 mod, 17 DD. January: 12-AF, 18-DD.1 mod. January 23rd day one AF. February: 28- AF. March: 31- AF(68 AF longest in a year!) <BR> <BR> 4-1 AF <BR> 4-2 AF (70) gym 60 minutes tred mill of which 45 minutes jog/ walk intervals 3.5/5.0mph <BR> 4-3 AF 45 minute walk in neighborhood~2 miles??? <BR> 4-4 AF another wa... Wed, 8 Apr 2015 08:11:12 EST