HORSESHOEHONEY's SparkPeople Blog HORSESHOEHONEY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community On a scale of 1-10 If I were evaluating my relationship with food, with 1 being unhealthy and 10 being the healthiest possible, what would my score be? <BR> <BR> If you had asked me that at the beginning of November I would have said 1 or lower if that were possible. I struggled with eating fast food & binge eating. I had reached my heaviest weight of 284 & didn't believe I had what it takes to turn it around. <BR> <BR> Today I would say I'm at about a 5-6. I still get tempted by off the wall things, and sti... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 06:26:11 EST These cravings are a real struggle I've really been struggling with a craving for sweets this week. When it first started, I tried to ignore it. Then when it continued for a period of time I tried eating fruit or other substitutions to satisfy it. Finally, I thought I would indulge & satisfy the cravings, but all that did was awaken a sleeping beast. I want to buy an entire cheesecake & eat it all. There was a time I would have done that, but thankfully I am far enough along on my journey that I won't do that this time. <BR> ... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 15:49:23 EST These cravings are a real struggle I've really been struggling with a craving for sweets this week. When it first started, I tried to ignore it. Then when it continued for a period of time I tried eating fruit or other substitutions to satisfy it. Finally, I thought I would indulge & satisfy the cravings, but all that did was awaken a sleeping beast. I want to buy an entire cheesecake & eat it all. There was a time I would have done that, but thankfully I am far enough along on my journey that I won't do that this time. <BR> ... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 15:49:23 EST Per your advice I read over all the comments regarding how to workout sans guilt. I really appreciate everyone's ideas, and am working on incorporating a couple of them. <BR> <BR> Let me start by clarifying that I really enjoying spending time with my Mom & it's not like she is forcing me to do stuff for her. I am equally at fault because when workouts weren't a priority, my routine was to come home & jump into doing stuff with her. The problem is in changing my routine, and realistically how many of us li... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 13:13:40 EST I feel so guilty, how do I make it stop? I have done so well with food, but I really struggle to work in a workout. I have a roommate who also happens to be my Mother. This is typically fine because we know each other & are really good friends. I never feel like I "live with my Mom" it truly feels as if we are roommates. <BR> <BR> However, she is retired & I work, so as soon as I get home she already has a plan about things that need to be done around the house or even at her friend's house. I don't mind helping with anything, but... Thu, 26 Mar 2015 07:14:27 EST Yep, I messed up. I have gotten a little off track this past week. I started getting distracted by a busy schudule, & carbs. I tasted sugar the other day for the first time in a while & it quickly started causing me cravings again. This minor detour very rapidly wiped away 2 weeks worth of work; I gained 2.2 pounds! <BR> <BR> On this journey, I am learning that I have to forgive myself but not forget the lesson I've learned. <BR> <BR> So this week, I will be getting back on track by detoxing from the sugar... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 07:36:34 EST 5 words or less. Describe how you feel in 5 words or less. <BR> <BR> I feel a motivated! Fri, 20 Mar 2015 08:19:47 EST Note taking This week I decided to take my measurements for the first time since December. After proudly logging my current measurements, I realized I couldn't find my notes that had the numbers I started at. Well, today I found the my notes & the results are incredible!! I was so excited! <BR> <BR> Waist: -5" <BR> Hips: -2" <BR> Chest: -2.5" <BR> Arms: -.75" <BR> <BR> <em>9</em> <em>521</em> <em>244</em> <BR> Wed, 18 Mar 2015 15:39:37 EST Fill in the blanks! I am grateful for __________ because ______________. <BR> <BR> I am grateful for God because I'm a wreck without Him. Thu, 12 Mar 2015 07:36:26 EST Finally... my migraine is gone!! I am back on my feet again. Thanks for all the well wishes. <BR> <BR> I am extremely happy to get back to my healthy habits. I have found some of my healthy habits can occasionally be difficult to keep. The most difficult is drinking water, especially on cold days. It's no secret, I hate to be cold. Needless to say drinking something cold on a cold day is less than appealing to me. I have found that if I fill my bottle up and let it set until it's room temperature, it'... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 18:05:12 EST Migraine city I am on day four of contending with this migraine & it is wearing me out. I have maybe been out of bed a total of 3 hours in four days. Today I went to the emergency room & they gave me some meds that appear to be working. I hope. Mon, 9 Mar 2015 16:25:52 EST Glass half full or half empty? I am a glass half full kind of girl. However, after several unsuccessful attempts I started to lose my positive attitude. I started doubting my capabilities, and began to lose hope little by little. Now that I have found a strategy that works for me, I am starting to regain my positive attitude & it is making all the difference! I am starting to believe in myself again, which gives me the desire to push ahead & keep trying. It also, makes it easier to handle the bumps in the road that are i... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 15:46:14 EST My sincerest appreciation. Since I have joined SparkPeople I have found so much encouragement and support that it is truly overwhelming. Words can't express how truly grateful I am to have so many people cheering me on when I'm doing well, and giving me words of encouragement when I'm struggling. I am truly appreciative and thankful for the part you have played in my journey. <BR> <BR> Thank you! <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> <em>252</em> Tue, 3 Mar 2015 19:14:31 EST Fat clothes, you're outta here! This weekend I spent 4 hours trying on every piece of clothing I own. It was time consuming & exhausting to say the least, but it really showed me how far I've come. <BR> <BR> Anything that was too big I took to a store that buys more stylish clothes. Once they went through the assortment, the rest was delivered to Goodwill. It was an exhilarating experience. Not only did I clean out my house, I also got $40 for my clothes that are too big! Now, I just have to reinvest that in some new pant... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 06:54:00 EST 10 years from now. When I wake up ten years from now, who will I be? The goals that I'm working so hard to accomplish, have I reached them? What will an average day be like? Will it include the healthy habits I'm trying to set in place now, or will I be very much the same? If my future self could call my present self, would I tell myself to just give up now because I'm never going to get there. Or would I tell myself to keep trying and never give up because eventually I start living the life I dream of. <BR> ... Fri, 27 Feb 2015 08:33:37 EST It's like magic! This past week I have started eating a grapefruit as part of my breakfast. Originally I did this because I'd had them a little while & didn't want them to go bad. However, in doing so, I have discovered that I haven't been as hungry or having cravings for all! <BR> <BR> At first I was a little concerned I was getting sick, then I started to make the connection. So, I tested my theory yesterday & skipped the grapefruit. I did okay, but I had minor cravings in the morning. At lunc... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 07:24:03 EST And miles to go before I sleep. After hitting such a huge milestone, I have been reflecting on things I've learned during the process and goals that will inspire me to forge ahead. <BR> <BR> Ultimately, my goal is to be between 175-180 by March 1, 2016. Yes, I know that's almost a year away, but that allows me to lose at a rate of 1.5 pounds per week. This allows for plateaus & other abnormalities we never expect to happen. <BR> <BR> Since I know that's my over arching goal, I have to set small goals that will get me wh... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 07:37:09 EST Weigh Day, you have challenged me yet again... and I whipped your butt!!! As of today I have lost 25.2 pounds!! I feel great and have more energy. My choices are better because I want to succeed. Everyday it gets a little easier to turn down the cake or donuts in the break room at work, or to say no to second helpings. <BR> <BR> I am thrilled about my success, but I also know I still have quite a way to go. I still have 78,8 pounds to lose, so it's going to be a painfully slow process, but that's okay. I have lost 1/4 of the weight I ha... Mon, 23 Feb 2015 06:57:16 EST Challenge for you How would you finish the following statement: <BR> <BR> To me "health" means _____. <BR> <BR> To me "health" means being in a happy place spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically. <BR> Fri, 20 Feb 2015 09:37:16 EST I don't know what changed. I'm not sure if it's the cold weather, but in the evenings after work I am hungry all the time. Okay, so maybe it's not actually hunger, but all I want to do is eat. I have really struggled to avoid eating in the evening. Thu, 19 Feb 2015 06:50:11 EST Ideas needed Alright my fellow Sparkers, I'm enlisting your help for ideas. Next week, if all goes according to plan, I will cross the 25 pound mark. So, I am looking for ideas of non-food rewards for myself. I have been saving a dollar for every pound lost, so I will have approximately $25 for my budget. <BR> <BR> Please post any ideas you have in the comments below. <BR> <BR> Thanks, <BR> <BR> Happy Sparking Mon, 16 Feb 2015 06:56:40 EST Motivation, where are you? The cold weather weather is really bringing me down. The last couple days I have really struggled with working out. I know Spring is just around the corner, but how big is that corner? <BR> <BR> To all my fellow Sparker's that are in the Northeast contending with all the snow, I'm sorry. Just the cold weather has me down, so I can't (don't want to) imagine being in your shoes. <BR> <BR> I've been wondering where my motivation is, only to realize it must be hibernating until Spring. Can't ... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 06:47:15 EST When it comes to exercise... This morning I was given the challenge of using the statement, "When it comes to exercise I'm pretty good at _________, but I could use some improvement on __________." <BR> <BR> I have written mine below, but I'd love to hear some of yours in the comments. If you have suggestions for me and others on how to make improvements I welcome any suggestions. <BR> <BR> When it comes to exercise I'm pretty good at cardio, but I could use some improvements on strength training. <BR> <BR> Happy S... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 06:55:15 EST Making my move. I have really done a lot of research about strategies for eating in moderation lately. I know I was eating way too much, way too often and I had to get it under control. In doing my research one strategy really caught my attention, and decided to give it a try the last couple weeks. <BR> I have found that I am more successful if I eat 200-300 calories every two hours. It allows me more freedom to eat things that aren't quite so healthy. Since I have been practicing this eating strategy, I ha... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 17:14:02 EST You can learn a lot from yourself...if you pay attention. I've been tracking when I'm having sugar cravings so I can overcome my sweet tooth. After paying attention to my feelings and thoughts for a while I have discovered there are 2 times when I am really consumed with sugar. The first is when it's available. One day I was at work when someone brought in a cream cheese dip with chocolate chips, which you spread on graham crackers. I didn't indulge because I didn't think I could control myself. Later that same day I found myself swimming in a sea o... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 07:05:03 EST I hate being hungry! It seems I am always going to extremes to try to lose the weight. I'll get really excited about my plan, then approach it with an all or nothing attitude. I start off great exercising regularly, counting calories, and eating all healthy foods. But sooner or later it happens, i get hungry, and I hate to be hungry. It's an uncomfortable feeling. Sometimes I'm not actually hungry though I'm simply having a craving, that awful craving for a piece a cheesecake, ice cream, fries, or some other food... Sat, 31 Jan 2015 08:20:42 EST Weekend Reflection This past weekend I went to visit my brother, who also has distorted views of food. The entire weekend was extremely food oriented, and was essentially an excuse to eat whatever we wanted whenever we wanted. On the way home Sunday, I started reflecting about why I was so obsessed with food after weeks of doing really well. I think I have finally started to understand. My brother views food very much the same way I do, so he doesn't judge me for my eating behaviors that aren't acceptable. Ther... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 07:05:19 EST Pulling my sweet tooth Monday I am going to start ridding myself of sugary sweets. This will be one of my biggest challenges, but I know I can do it. I will give myself $1 for every day that I go without sweets, and at the end of the month I'll use the money for a pedicure. I've got this! <BR> Thu, 22 Jan 2015 18:28:49 EST Baby steps I have become very consistent in tracking my calories. Now I'm trying to be more consistent in my workouts. Wed, 21 Jan 2015 18:07:06 EST It's a challenge Today I am going to challenge myself to start training to hold plank for 3 full minutes. Right now I can only do about 30 seconds so I have work to do, but I have no doubt I can do it. Sat, 17 Jan 2015 10:33:53 EST Today I feel... motivated and confident. Mon, 12 Jan 2015 07:55:23 EST I'm back!! I have survived & passed the horrible Senior project!!!!! I have completely fallen off the wagon. On the up side, I GRADUATE NEXT FRIDAY!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> That being said, I have a lot to accomplish in the next seven days. I am actually moving out of my apartment on graduation day, and I haven't even started packing. Oh my! So, my goal is to not binge eat until I get settled where ever I'm going. That's it, that's the only goal. I don't care about working out, or drinking my water, or eating... Thu, 2 May 2013 10:54:35 EST A very brief update. The project continues. It was due tonight, but they are considering extending the deadline. <BR> <BR> The original comments said I needed to be more specific, this morning I received an email that said I "have too many details, and need to narrow them down." I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!! I am eating somewhat better, but my exercise & sleep patterns are way off. 22 Days until graduation...I hope. Thu, 18 Apr 2013 12:52:28 EST We meet again Emotional Eating Events of this past week are beating me down. Sun, 14 Apr 2013 07:17:21 EST You guys are awesome motivators! Update on my journey. I am glad to be home! I just noticed in this vlog that my face is starting to look skinny. Also, please notice all my trophies in the background. That was unintentional, but since they are there I might as well point them out. The big blue one is my State Championship trophy! <BR> <BR> Thanks to everyone for all the motivation and support you gave me this past week. Sun, 7 Apr 2013 19:45:49 EST Sluggish In need of motivation Wed, 3 Apr 2013 17:21:39 EST Moving = Hardest workout ever Most recent update Mon, 1 Apr 2013 18:57:01 EST Non-scale Victories Woo Hoo!! Tue, 26 Mar 2013 19:18:34 EST One thing I for got to mention I gave up sugar 20 days ago, and yesterday someone came by at work to give me free cookies & I said, "no thanks." It didn't even take any extra will power! It was the most natural thing in the world for me to turn it down. Me, turning down sugar, I have never turned down sugar!! This was such a monumental moment for me!! <BR> Sat, 23 Mar 2013 05:14:35 EST Different is good, right? A new life requires doing things in a new way. Fri, 22 Mar 2013 22:15:48 EST Past results, future goals Last week I weighed on Sunday & I was 248, which was significantly up from before, so I had to assume a lot of that was water weight. <BR> <BR> Today's weight: 242.6! <BR> <BR> I know it's unrealistic to think I lost 5.4 pounds in one week, but it was still a confidence booster. <BR> <BR> This weeks goals: <BR> <BR> 1) Cardio 2 times this week & strength 2 times this week. <BR> <BR> 2) Eat more balanced meals including fruits vegetables, grains, and lean protein. <BR> <BR> 3) Drink... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 08:20:49 EST Too busy This week is chaos & I won't be blogging. I will still be tracking, but I just don't have time this week to keep you posted. I'm sorry, but quick update I'm full of motivation & doing great!! <BR> <BR> Hope everyone has a great week!! Mon, 11 Mar 2013 18:43:01 EST First time in a long time For the first time in a long time I can say I'm making progress!! YAY!! Woo Hoo!! I have not had sugar all week, and my cravings have reduced drastically. I am now best friends with hot tea and sugar free gum, but I have been overcoming the few cravings with which I am faced. <BR> <BR> Tonight is girls night out and since we are going to dinner I have already gone to the restaurants website and planned what I will order. I wrote it on a piece of paper and placed it in my pocket, so I can ord... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 10:00:39 EST Sugar Free: Day 3 I have had numerous cravings, but I have made it to day three. I have been contemplating what my $5 reward will be on Saturday, and I have decided to use the money toward paying my entry fee in the first horseshoe tournament of the year this Saturday. <BR> <BR> As for other updates, I've been doing really well eating two pieces of fruit a day, and enjoying guilt free me time, but I'm only doing okay at driving to the gym three days per week. I'm going to designate which days I will actuall... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 11:55:15 EST Beginning week three's challenge As I mentioned in my previous blog I've been doing pretty well over all. I've lost two pounds in the last two weeks. My Senior project & all that goes with it has kept me from having time to blog & post much, but it hasn't stopped me from accomplishing my small goals. <BR> <BR> I have just completed week two of my "Taming Your Sweet Tooth" challenge. I have tracking when I have cravings, and how much sugar I'm consuming. Week three is going to take a lot more effort for some parts of it. On... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 13:21:02 EST The journey continues Hey guys! So, I haven't been blogging lately but not because I'm doing poorly. Actually, I'm still following the Spark Diet & working my way through the Taming Your Sweet Tooth Challenge. I have just been so busy with my Senior project that I have not had time for extra things like blogging. <BR> <BR> Short update, I'm doing really well right now and the small goals are still working. I will give you all a better update this weekend when I have a couple hours of free time. Wed, 27 Feb 2013 07:50:57 EST Look at me!! Well, this is the second day in a row I've managed to go to the gym after work, eat fruit with at least two meals, and I've tracked what I ate! I'm still not paying attention to the number of calories, but oddly I seem to be staying in my calorie range anyway, or pretty close to it. I am also not actually working out yet, but that wasn't part of my goals so I don't feel guilty about it. There is really something to this small goals thing, I'm feeling really accomplished & I've not actually do... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 17:21:27 EST I did it! Okay, so I managed to drive to the gym right after work! I didn't workout because the gym is right beside the library on ECU's campus & I needed to go to the library more, but that's completely beside the point. The point is I made it to the gym! Second, I've eaten fruit with two meals today. So I'm on target and this week is off to a great start! <BR> <BR> I have also started the "Tame your sweet tooth" challenge. This week is just about setting my goals and getting focused, so I know I'll... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 17:34:12 EST My Fast Break Goals So, during the fast break stage I'm supposed to create extremely easy goals for motivation, nutrition, and fitness. I've thought a lot about this and I've made a list of goals I think will work. <BR> <BR> 1. Nutrition: I'm going to eat a piece of fruit with at least two meals a day. I'm still supposed to track what I eat without worrying about how many calories I'm consuming, which is kind of difficult but I know eventually I'll take that step up so I'm just going to enjoy it for now. <BR> ... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 07:05:56 EST That's not pretty...but Well, I'm following all the recommendations on SparkDiet & I have successfully tracked my calories yesterday and today. The numbers are ugly, but it says that I'm not supposed to worry about that at all for the next few days. <BR> <BR> I have a plan to start the losing your sweet tooth challenge with a SP friend on Monday because I know breaking the sugar addiction will help me reach my goals. <BR> <BR> Speaking of goals, I'm working on setting one goal for nutrition, fitness, and motivat... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 18:27:27 EST