HORSESHOEHONEY's SparkPeople Blog HORSESHOEHONEY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Major non-scale victory!! Yesterday evening was our Pastor's retirement dinner celebration. First of all, it was extremely helpful that I knew the menu in advance so I could plan ahead and eat accordingly for breakfast & lunch. Appetizers included carrots and cheese cubes, so I did great with that! I ate chicken, a bunch of green beans, and a tiny spoonful of rice for my main course. More importantly I ate slowly and really took time to enjoy the food and the conversation at the table. Then came dessert. I mulled it o... Sun, 30 Jul 2017 09:18:13 EST OBESITY, HIGH CHOLESTEROL, DIABETES These are all words I was faced with at my doctor appoint for routine labs. My weight at the doctor that day was 257, and I have toyed with this for far too long. I have allowed excuses to overcome my progress. These words are exactly the motivation I needed. These words remind me that there are consequences for my negative actions. But there are going to be rewards for my positive actions. I have now been sugar free for 5 days because I know sugar is my drug of choice. Fri, 14 Apr 2017 10:27:00 EST OBESITY, HIGH CHOLESTEROL, DIABETES These are all words I was faced with at my doctor appoint for routine labs. My weight at the doctor that day was 257, and I have toyed with this for far too long. I have allowed excuses to overcome my progress. These words are exactly the motivation I needed. These words remind me that there are consequences for my negative actions. But there are going to be rewards for my positive actions. I have now been sugar free for 5 days because I know sugar is my drug of choice. Fri, 14 Apr 2017 10:26:34 EST A defining moment I just gave my mom a pair of shorts that are too small for me. She held them up then exclaimed, "Oh Lord! I hope those don't fit me, they are HUGE! Look at these, look how big they are!" Now I'm hiding in the bathroom crying. Does she ever think before she talks? Why would anyone think that was an acceptable response? Like getting ready to go to the beach wasn't stressful enough since none of my shorts or bathing suits fit. I'm okay, it just hurt my feelings. Worse than that, she's completely... Thu, 26 May 2016 11:15:52 EST Think about sweating today. Sweating has many benefits other than weight loss. Sweat helps increase our body's circulation, clean pores, and helps relieve stress and tension. So I'm going to get out there and sweat it out! Cheers to a great day! Wed, 25 May 2016 07:02:14 EST Emotional Eating Today's topic is my biggest hurdle. I eat because of an array of emotions: boredom, anxiety, stress, loneliness. So I started looking deeper, what do these all have in's times when I don't have control of the situation. When my best friend passed away unexpectedly...I ate. When my dad died of cancer...I ate. When I went through a divorce...I ate. When I was laid off from my job...I ate. <BR> <BR> I started eating emotionally when I was in the abusive relationship, and my whole l... Tue, 24 May 2016 07:37:57 EST The real in there somewhere. Today, I feel the need to be real with all of you, so after a lot of prayer here it is. <BR> <BR> I started eating excessively when I was in an abusive relationship from 2006 - 2008, it was my way of coping because at the time it was the only thing I had any control over. Since then I have struggled to overcome the desire to comfort myself with food. I'm tired of being unhealthy, of having random aches and pains, of struggling to do the things I have to do, and rarely feeling capable of doi... Tue, 10 May 2016 09:41:17 EST His ways are higher than my ways. Tonight we had our last night of Sisters in Christ for the year. We will resume in September (everything gets planned around tourists down here). We elected new officers and I was elected President. It was unanimous with the exception of my vote. God is placing me in a place to lead other women, and it scares me and thrills me all at the same time. If this is where He has called me, I will humbly go. Thu, 5 May 2016 21:24:17 EST Eating disorder awareness. Yesterday I was reading an article about a woman that lost 537 pounds through bariatric surgery, but is now suffering from anorexia. The way the article is written it sounds as if the girl lost weight, and then gained an eating disorder. NEWSFLASH: She had an eating disorder before the surgery, she didn't develop one after surgery. The unhealthy relationship with food didn't just start after surgery, it also didn't go away just because she lost weight and got skinny. Until obese people are tr... Thu, 14 Apr 2016 09:11:34 EST Traveling and healthy eating. I was traveling this weekend, which wreaked havoc on my healthy eating. Had anyone been with me I probably would have been far more motivated to plan options that didn't come from a drive thru window. Unfortunately, I was alone and went with simplicity. <BR> <BR> I was camping, but do to unseasonably cold temperatures (30 the South!) and 20 mph winds I wasn't at liberty to build a campfire and cook delicious foods as I normally would. That's why I opted to eat out f... Sun, 10 Apr 2016 10:31:05 EST Photo Journaling I have been using photos to keep in touch with my accountability partner, and to remind myself that I'm making good choices. It's a easy to do, and impossible to fudge on what I tell my accountability partner. You know what they say, "A picture is worth a thousand words." Fri, 1 Apr 2016 19:31:37 EST It's that kind of day. I have been extremely motivated and energetic today. I've had a much more hectic schedule for the past week, and I think it has gotten me in the habit of being very active. It's like the more I do, the more I want to do. That is a great feeling! Thu, 31 Mar 2016 21:27:53 EST Accountability is where it's at! I have an accountability partner. To keep it simple we are going to use pictures. We will send pics of what we eat and selfies while we are at the gym working out. I found that I certainly made a better choice for breakfast because I had to show her what I was eating. So maybe this will be a motivator to make better choices. Wed, 30 Mar 2016 11:23:22 EST It's time to choose. Every day I am faced with hundreds, maybe even thousands, of choices. Each choice I make either brings me closer to, or farther away from, the goal I so desperately long to reach. Nobody makes those choices for me, so I have no right to complain when I make a poor choice. I choose whether I eat chips & dip, or fruits & veggies. I choose whether I sit on the sofa watching tv, or get up and go for a walk. I choose whether I drink soft drinks, or water. I choose whether I eat sugar, or opt for s... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 07:18:50 EST That's so motivating! I am very visual, so I have incorporated a new strategy for tracking my weight loss. I have started using a "Pounds to Go" jar and a "Pounds Lost" jar. I started with 77 marbles in my "Pounds to Go" jar, a marble for each pound I need to lose in order to reach my goal. Each week on weigh day, I move the appropriate number of pound to the pounds lost jar. <BR> <BR> When I first saw this idea I just thought it was a cute idea to add it to my journey. I started with more that 100 pounds to los... Thu, 25 Feb 2016 15:04:21 EST I may be down, but I'm not out. I have been away for several days because things have been up and down for a couple weeks now. It all began with a neighbor and dear friend discovering that she had bone cancer and passed away eight days later. I was crushed because it all happened so fast. The next week I started struggling with severe sinus headaches which were bordering on becoming a migraine. I finally pulled out of that Thursday, then Friday I was laid off from work because they eliminated my position. I am single and no... Wed, 24 Feb 2016 18:19:59 EST There's an athlete in there, and she's begging to be released. I look at my journey, and I see a lot of successes and also many failures. Today, I have started reading over some of my past blogs to see where I've struggled and celebrated along the way. I find that this has really been renewing my motivation. One thing I have been consistently seeing in these blogs is that I really love it when I work out. I enjoy being active and feeling like an athlete when I'm done. I like the accomplishments I make as I'm progressing. So why do I get to a point, the... Sun, 7 Feb 2016 08:29:33 EST Beware of the sniper. I have been a habitual over eater for about 8 years, it became my defense mechanism in an abusive relationship. When I got out of that situation I discovered that some very self-destructive behaviors had formed. After a lot of prayer, and many years of struggles I'm slowly overcoming my personal challenges. However, I have someone I work with who is extremely insecure & can't stand it if others are successful. So now that my weight loss is beginning to really succeed, she is starting to do ... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 07:17:16 EST Overcoming temptation with one small phrase. When I am faced with temptation I have started repeating to myself, "That doesn't help me reach my goal." It reminds me of the reasons I should skip the treat without making me feel deprived. Sure I can eat that treat, or skip that workout, but ultimately it does me more harm than good so I choose not to. <BR> <BR> So, the next time you're staring at that tasty treat, or contemplating hitting the snooze button rather than the gym, give this simple phrase a try. "That doesn't help me reach m... Sun, 14 Jun 2015 14:22:05 EST I have been my own worst enemy. Okay, so last week I weighed and thought I had gained despite all the hard work I had put in. This derailed me a bit and I got discouraged. I stopped counting my calories as consistently, drinking water, working out and most destructive of all I started eating sugar. I had the "what does it matter" attitude. I later discovered that I hadn't gained, rather the battery in my scales was dying and it wasn't weighing accurately. <BR> <BR> So, this morning I faced weigh day and now I remember why... Mon, 11 May 2015 06:05:53 EST That was a mistake! I didn't actually gain last week, it turns out the battery in my scales was dying. Yay!! Relief washes over me! Woo Hoo!! Sat, 9 May 2015 20:36:52 EST I am genuinely, legitimately, thoroughly confused by this turn of events. I did everything right this week & somehow I gained. Sure it was only .6 of a pound, but a gain is a gain. Usually if I gain I can pin point things that need improvement, but this time I really don't know. <BR> <BR> Okay I'm done having a pity party, thank you for letting me vent. Now if you'll excuse me I need to go analyze my week & see what improvements can be made. <BR> <BR> Happy Sparking! Mon, 4 May 2015 07:03:47 EST Goal Achieved!! on February 25, I reached 25 pounds lost. I then made a new goal of losing another 10 pounds by April 17 (this Friday). As of yesterday morning, I reached that goal!!! WooHoo!! Now, I have to make another goal to stay motivated. My new goal is to lose 10 more pounds by June 1st (my birthday). That gives me 7 weeks to lose 10 pounds, which comes to 1.4 pounds per week. I though that was a reasonable goal because I'm starting workout at a higher intensity. I can achieve this goal, and I wil... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 06:30:24 EST Spark Friends are the best! Every time I'm faced with challenges, or want to celebrate victories my Spark friends are there for me. You give great feedback when I need suggestions, and pat me on the back when I have done something well. Seriously, this journey would be impossible without my Spark friends. <BR> <BR> If you are not in the habit of posting blogs for others to read and comment on, or never ask questions on the message boards, then you should definitely start because it will make a world of difference! The... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 09:02:08 EST How do you combat pushy friends? I have a friend that every time we hang out she conveniently has all my favorite sugary treats available. It would be fine if they were just available, but she just won't quit trying to get me to "have some" and it's starting to frustrate me. <BR> <BR> This sounds terrible, but it's as if she is intentionally trying to atop all my progress. I've lost over 30 pounds & I'm not going back there. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling better, and forgive me if I sound arrogant, but I look better too. People ar... Fri, 10 Apr 2015 23:40:04 EST A little harder, but I did it. I was up a little later today because I didn't get home until 9:00. I had to wind down a little before going to bed. This made it a little more challenging to get up & work out, but I did it. I know it will get easier, so I will keep pushing forward. Tue, 7 Apr 2015 07:00:01 EST Count it a win! I went to bed early, got up early, and did my work out first thing this morning. I loved it! I feel so much better when I work out in the morning. Plus, I am starting my morning off feeling successful. Mon, 6 Apr 2015 06:54:09 EST What does "mindful eating" mean? I kept hearing about the importance of mindful eating, and I really wanted to put it into practice. When you have the habit of scarfing down your food, you have no concept of what "eating mindfully" even means. So I started doing research about strategies to practice this "mindful eating" everyone was talking about. Here is what I found. <BR> <BR> First, it's important to recognize that there is no right or wrong way to do it. It is called practice for a reason, the more you do it the more ... Sun, 5 Apr 2015 10:47:15 EST Dream big! I am trying to come up with a plan for the next 7 days. In doing so, I'm trying to come up with one thing I can implement that will move me another step closer to my ultimate goal. I have decided on two things actually. <BR> <BR> The first is to start getting up earlier & working out before work in the morning. That means I'll wake up at 5:30, work out before my mom wakes up & the day gets started, then get ready for work. <BR> <BR> What do I need to do in order to be successful? I will ... Fri, 3 Apr 2015 10:13:59 EST On a scale of 1-10 If I were evaluating my relationship with food, with 1 being unhealthy and 10 being the healthiest possible, what would my score be? <BR> <BR> If you had asked me that at the beginning of November I would have said 1 or lower if that were possible. I struggled with eating fast food & binge eating. I had reached my heaviest weight of 284 & didn't believe I had what it takes to turn it around. <BR> <BR> Today I would say I'm at about a 5-6. I still get tempted by off the wall things, and sti... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 06:26:11 EST These cravings are a real struggle I've really been struggling with a craving for sweets this week. When it first started, I tried to ignore it. Then when it continued for a period of time I tried eating fruit or other substitutions to satisfy it. Finally, I thought I would indulge & satisfy the cravings, but all that did was awaken a sleeping beast. I want to buy an entire cheesecake & eat it all. There was a time I would have done that, but thankfully I am far enough along on my journey that I won't do that this time. <BR> ... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 15:49:23 EST These cravings are a real struggle I've really been struggling with a craving for sweets this week. When it first started, I tried to ignore it. Then when it continued for a period of time I tried eating fruit or other substitutions to satisfy it. Finally, I thought I would indulge & satisfy the cravings, but all that did was awaken a sleeping beast. I want to buy an entire cheesecake & eat it all. There was a time I would have done that, but thankfully I am far enough along on my journey that I won't do that this time. <BR> ... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 15:49:23 EST Per your advice I read over all the comments regarding how to workout sans guilt. I really appreciate everyone's ideas, and am working on incorporating a couple of them. <BR> <BR> Let me start by clarifying that I really enjoying spending time with my Mom & it's not like she is forcing me to do stuff for her. I am equally at fault because when workouts weren't a priority, my routine was to come home & jump into doing stuff with her. The problem is in changing my routine, and realistically how many of us li... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 13:13:40 EST I feel so guilty, how do I make it stop? I have done so well with food, but I really struggle to work in a workout. I have a roommate who also happens to be my Mother. This is typically fine because we know each other & are really good friends. I never feel like I "live with my Mom" it truly feels as if we are roommates. <BR> <BR> However, she is retired & I work, so as soon as I get home she already has a plan about things that need to be done around the house or even at her friend's house. I don't mind helping with anything, but... Thu, 26 Mar 2015 07:14:27 EST Yep, I messed up. I have gotten a little off track this past week. I started getting distracted by a busy schudule, & carbs. I tasted sugar the other day for the first time in a while & it quickly started causing me cravings again. This minor detour very rapidly wiped away 2 weeks worth of work; I gained 2.2 pounds! <BR> <BR> On this journey, I am learning that I have to forgive myself but not forget the lesson I've learned. <BR> <BR> So this week, I will be getting back on track by detoxing from the sugar... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 07:36:34 EST 5 words or less. Describe how you feel in 5 words or less. <BR> <BR> I feel a motivated! Fri, 20 Mar 2015 08:19:47 EST Note taking This week I decided to take my measurements for the first time since December. After proudly logging my current measurements, I realized I couldn't find my notes that had the numbers I started at. Well, today I found the my notes & the results are incredible!! I was so excited! <BR> <BR> Waist: -5" <BR> Hips: -2" <BR> Chest: -2.5" <BR> Arms: -.75" <BR> <BR> <em>9</em> <em>521</em> <em>244</em> <BR> Wed, 18 Mar 2015 15:39:37 EST Fill in the blanks! I am grateful for __________ because ______________. <BR> <BR> I am grateful for God because I'm a wreck without Him. Thu, 12 Mar 2015 07:36:26 EST Finally... my migraine is gone!! I am back on my feet again. Thanks for all the well wishes. <BR> <BR> I am extremely happy to get back to my healthy habits. I have found some of my healthy habits can occasionally be difficult to keep. The most difficult is drinking water, especially on cold days. It's no secret, I hate to be cold. Needless to say drinking something cold on a cold day is less than appealing to me. I have found that if I fill my bottle up and let it set until it's room temperature, it'... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 18:05:12 EST Migraine city I am on day four of contending with this migraine & it is wearing me out. I have maybe been out of bed a total of 3 hours in four days. Today I went to the emergency room & they gave me some meds that appear to be working. I hope. Mon, 9 Mar 2015 16:25:52 EST Glass half full or half empty? I am a glass half full kind of girl. However, after several unsuccessful attempts I started to lose my positive attitude. I started doubting my capabilities, and began to lose hope little by little. Now that I have found a strategy that works for me, I am starting to regain my positive attitude & it is making all the difference! I am starting to believe in myself again, which gives me the desire to push ahead & keep trying. It also, makes it easier to handle the bumps in the road that are i... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 15:46:14 EST My sincerest appreciation. Since I have joined SparkPeople I have found so much encouragement and support that it is truly overwhelming. Words can't express how truly grateful I am to have so many people cheering me on when I'm doing well, and giving me words of encouragement when I'm struggling. I am truly appreciative and thankful for the part you have played in my journey. <BR> <BR> Thank you! <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> <em>252</em> Tue, 3 Mar 2015 19:14:31 EST Fat clothes, you're outta here! This weekend I spent 4 hours trying on every piece of clothing I own. It was time consuming & exhausting to say the least, but it really showed me how far I've come. <BR> <BR> Anything that was too big I took to a store that buys more stylish clothes. Once they went through the assortment, the rest was delivered to Goodwill. It was an exhilarating experience. Not only did I clean out my house, I also got $40 for my clothes that are too big! Now, I just have to reinvest that in some new pant... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 06:54:00 EST 10 years from now. When I wake up ten years from now, who will I be? The goals that I'm working so hard to accomplish, have I reached them? What will an average day be like? Will it include the healthy habits I'm trying to set in place now, or will I be very much the same? If my future self could call my present self, would I tell myself to just give up now because I'm never going to get there. Or would I tell myself to keep trying and never give up because eventually I start living the life I dream of. <BR> ... Fri, 27 Feb 2015 08:33:37 EST It's like magic! This past week I have started eating a grapefruit as part of my breakfast. Originally I did this because I'd had them a little while & didn't want them to go bad. However, in doing so, I have discovered that I haven't been as hungry or having cravings for all! <BR> <BR> At first I was a little concerned I was getting sick, then I started to make the connection. So, I tested my theory yesterday & skipped the grapefruit. I did okay, but I had minor cravings in the morning. At lunc... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 07:24:03 EST And miles to go before I sleep. After hitting such a huge milestone, I have been reflecting on things I've learned during the process and goals that will inspire me to forge ahead. <BR> <BR> Ultimately, my goal is to be between 175-180 by March 1, 2016. Yes, I know that's almost a year away, but that allows me to lose at a rate of 1.5 pounds per week. This allows for plateaus & other abnormalities we never expect to happen. <BR> <BR> Since I know that's my over arching goal, I have to set small goals that will get me wh... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 07:37:09 EST Weigh Day, you have challenged me yet again... and I whipped your butt!!! As of today I have lost 25.2 pounds!! I feel great and have more energy. My choices are better because I want to succeed. Everyday it gets a little easier to turn down the cake or donuts in the break room at work, or to say no to second helpings. <BR> <BR> I am thrilled about my success, but I also know I still have quite a way to go. I still have 78,8 pounds to lose, so it's going to be a painfully slow process, but that's okay. I have lost 1/4 of the weight I ha... Mon, 23 Feb 2015 06:57:16 EST Challenge for you How would you finish the following statement: <BR> <BR> To me "health" means _____. <BR> <BR> To me "health" means being in a happy place spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically. <BR> Fri, 20 Feb 2015 09:37:16 EST I don't know what changed. I'm not sure if it's the cold weather, but in the evenings after work I am hungry all the time. Okay, so maybe it's not actually hunger, but all I want to do is eat. I have really struggled to avoid eating in the evening. Thu, 19 Feb 2015 06:50:11 EST Ideas needed Alright my fellow Sparkers, I'm enlisting your help for ideas. Next week, if all goes according to plan, I will cross the 25 pound mark. So, I am looking for ideas of non-food rewards for myself. I have been saving a dollar for every pound lost, so I will have approximately $25 for my budget. <BR> <BR> Please post any ideas you have in the comments below. <BR> <BR> Thanks, <BR> <BR> Happy Sparking Mon, 16 Feb 2015 06:56:40 EST