HOPN2SUMMER's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HOPN2SUMMER HOPN2SUMMER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Summer lovin' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4901071 I haven't been on for a while-I've been so busy with work and trying to get back into going to the gym that blogging has fallen by the wayside. HOWEVER, now that school is almost over, I am really psyched to make healthy living a TOP, TOP PRIORITY in my life. <BR> <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> My daughter is on board with losing weight, my son already was on board, (they're teenagers) and my BF says that he will try, which is to say that he won't put up too much fuss when I'm trying to change an... Mon, 28 May 2012 11:15:52 EST Mother's Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4879606 I'm having a wonderful day today and I hope that all the mothers out there are also enjoying their day. I woke up to my teenagers bringing me flowers, an iced tea maker (to help me stop drinking diet sodas) and 24 cupcakes!!! <BR> <em>475</em> <BR> OH NO! They are precious children (sometimes) and I know they meant well, but holy crap! 24 CUPCAKES?! I think someone or something out there is really testing my resolve. <BR> <em>306</em> <BR> But as my son so wisely said to my daughter, ... Sun, 13 May 2012 16:10:55 EST Watch what you say! (to yourself) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4878543 I'm realizing that I'm not a very good friend to myself. I call myself names, insult my body, and set myself up for failure by having unrealistic expectations that then lead me straight back to calling myself names. Geez! I wouldn't say these mean things to other people, why do I do it to myself? <BR> <em>28</em> <BR> I must be getting some pay off as Dr.Phil says. There must be some benefit somewhere. So what would be the benefit of saying to myself "You're fat." "You have no self-... Sat, 12 May 2012 17:27:12 EST Blew it and crashed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4872794 It's teacher appreciation week and I really got appreciated today! I ate and ate and ate during the breakfast the PTO had for us. Later in the morning I tracked my food and discovered that I had eaten 1000 calories!!! <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> Wow!!! That's just soooo out there! Not surprisingly, I got shaky and weak and cranky right before lunch. Sugar crash! <BR> <em>55</em> <BR> I'm not making a whole lot of progress on losing weight, but I feel like I am really learning a lot and t... Tue, 8 May 2012 18:33:31 EST Sugar Cravings! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4870983 I joined the Tame Your Sweet Tooth team to see if I can beat this sugar craving addiction. I did great this morning, bypassed a chocolate chip cookie, my favorite thing, and was feeling pretty good about myself. <BR> <em>495</em> <BR> Until lunch that is. I finished my chef's salad and had time to ponder that chocolate chip cookie that my student gave me for teacher appreciation week. "Hmmm, one cookie is okay. I've been good." Well, one cookie led to two cookies, which led to a diet co... Mon, 7 May 2012 17:18:58 EST Finding my happy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4867876 So my newest assignment in the "weight loss journey"(such an overused phrase!) is to find my happy. I'm trying to find things, events, people, moments, etc that make me feel good, so that I don't have just food to look forward to every day. Sooo, last night we went to our downtown mall and listened to a free concert and had a healthy dinner! <BR> <em>4</em> <BR> Yea me! It was a lot of fun, saw some people we knew, but alas, my cold/virus/creeping cruddy caught up with me and I became ex... Sat, 5 May 2012 16:25:04 EST Revelation in the bathroom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4866331 <em>202</em> <BR> While getting ready this morning, I had a revelation! Not an answer to my current problem- How to alleviate stress- but insight into why I eat so much. It's a bit pathetic really, but I'm happy to have a "spark" here. Ready?! <BR> <BR> I EAT BECAUSE IT'S THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES ME HAPPY. I HAVE VERY LITTLE ELSE TO LOOK FORWARD TO IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> I literally stopped in my tracks. It bowled me over. But I couldn't deny the truth. ... Fri, 4 May 2012 12:44:40 EST Never been so big http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4865225 I went to the doctor this afternoon for a fever and cough and got on the scale. I feel like a fat lard ass. I've gained 15 pounds in 6 months. I'm disgusted with myself. I know better than this and I just can't seem to get over my addiction to food. When things start getting stressful, I eat. I've read the books, articles, etc. Nothing helps. The answer must be to remove some of the stress in my life. But how? I have to work. I'm sick and can't work out. Injured my foot before tha... Thu, 3 May 2012 19:11:55 EST 5 Things I'm Grateful For http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4738317 1. My sweetheart-he's so loving and thoughtful <BR> 2. My kids for taking care of me while I'm sick <BR> 3. A warm house on this cold day <BR> 4. Valentine's day chocolate <BR> 5. God's love <BR> <em>26</em> Tue, 14 Feb 2012 10:52:37 EST The Race! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4478922 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/3/l334714182.jpg"> <BR> Okay, see the tall blond in the middle with the gray shirt? That's me! You can't?! Oh well, there were a lot of us- about 3500 women running for the breast cancer care center. I beat my best time from a few years ago and I felt really good about the race. In the past I've run in the summer and then completely stopped come fall, but this year I've decided to keep going. Yesterday I ran 3 miles. <em>41</em> Sun, 11 Sep 2011 14:41:03 EST Ran 4 miles today! :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4438137 I wasn't sure that I could do it, but I did! When I'd start to doubt that I could run 4 miles, I just kept telling myself that I can do it. Just like May Mobely from the movie, The Help, I kept saying, "I is smart. I is kind. I is important." And that would make me smile and I'd forget about stopping. My 4 miler race is 2 weeks from today, and I'm really excited to see if I can beat the time that I got today. One step in front of the other!! Sat, 20 Aug 2011 10:34:32 EST Happier! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4418579 I'm not a whole lot thinner (4 pounds) but I am a whole lot happier! Sparkpeople has helped me set realistic goals and given me tools to reach them, and not just about my weight. I have set goals about my family life, taking a vitamin and even goals about my teeth! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l344624585.jpg"> Wed, 10 Aug 2011 11:42:42 EST Kids are home! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4387274 My teenage son and daughter were gone for 2 1/2 weeks visiting their father. Oh my Clifford, I had no idea that I would miss them so much. After being a single mom, I thought it would be great to have some alone time. And it was, at first. The first week was great and then it got lonely. Started talking to the dogs and inanimate objects lonely. <em>40</em> I went to the gym and out with friends and read some good books, so the time went by okay, but when they got off that plane today... Tue, 26 Jul 2011 11:52:48 EST Shawshank Redemption http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4382826 I just entered stage 3 of the sparkdiet and it suggested watching an inspirational movie. As fate would have it, Shawshank was suggested and it was on ALL DAY yesterday on TCM. That's kind of a subtle hint from above huh? I had seen the movie before, but I focused more on the relationships than the goal setting and achievement. Without giving it away, one of the characters chipped away at his goal for 20 years!! He achieves his goal through patience and NEVER GIVING UP HOPE. The main ch... Sun, 24 Jul 2011 13:27:28 EST Albert Einstein quote http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4380900 "There are only two ways to live your life. One is as if nothing is a miracle. The other is as if everything is." <BR> <BR> This is motivational to me for a couple of reasons. <BR> 1. It helps me keep my spirits up when things seem to be difficult. When I am in a state of gratitude, I realize how great my life really is. <BR> <BR> 2. I see that I am special and I should treat myself as if I am someone special. That means being healthy and fit so that I can do all that I am meant to do... Sat, 23 Jul 2011 11:19:31 EST The Break Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4375377 I broke up with my boyfriend on Sunday night. Even though it was my idea, I'm still sad. Monday I ate 2 brownies, a pack of M&M's and a pack of Twix. <BR> I thought, well, it's just one day, I'll do better tomorrow. I'm allowed one day. So Tuesday I ate 3 brownies. Hmm, a little better, but still- 3?! Okay, so again, better tomorrow, which is now today. I did exercise Monday and Tuesday. And also today, and I only ate 1 brownie. (But only because I ran out.) Ugh. Well, at least ... Wed, 20 Jul 2011 17:31:27 EST Puzzle pieces http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4367683 I got on the scale this morning and I lost 2 pounds!! WooHoo! Now I know what you're thinking, "don't put too much emphasis on the numbers on that scale." I completely agree- it's not all about the numbers, but it's also not NOT about the numbers. They are just one piece of a puzzle. I've had a great week (which was preceded by two crappy weeks), so I'm celebrating that as well. It is so great when the scale reflects your diligent efforts. That doesn't always happen, but I'm soooo happ... Sun, 17 Jul 2011 08:59:35 EST Stepping towards goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4366560 I have three big goals for myself. <BR> 1. Be fit and healthy <BR> 2. Overcome shyness and anxiety <BR> 3. Be a good role model and have close family relationships <BR> <BR> And I'm really psyched to say that I'm taking real honest-to-goodness steps towards my goals!! <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> 1. I ran 2.5 miles this morning! I haven't done that in years. <em>331</em> <BR> <BR> 2. I had lunch with some new friends and I'm going to another friends birthday party tonight and got invite... Sat, 16 Jul 2011 14:40:02 EST I am not on a diet! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4365111 I'm thrilled to say that I am not on a diet!! <em>104</em> <BR> There is no point to go on a diet. Every time I do, I fail or lose some weight, but then gain it all back, and then some more!! <BR> What I am doing is trying little by little to make healthy choices. I was explaining sparkpeople to a friend yesterday and it hit me. <em>3</em> <BR> I finally get it that diets are dumb. Healthy eating is smart! Phew! I really get it now. <BR> Yea! Fri, 15 Jul 2011 17:33:51 EST Haircut gave me a new start! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4355935 My last entry was soo negative. I was feeling very defeated. I was so discouraged and depressed. That afternoon, after a morning of feeling sorry for myself I took a shower. When I got back to my room to get ready, I took a look in the mirror. I noticed that my bangs were a little long and started trimming them. Then I started cutting a little more, and a little more. Somehow, the haircut worked out great! It was very cathartic. Cutting off the split ends became symbolic of cutting a... Mon, 11 Jul 2011 16:24:39 EST Gained 4 pounds in the last month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4351175 Here's what I said to myself: I quit. I freakin' quit. This sucks. I'm too stupid to lose weight. I can't do it. What's wrong with me? This is too hard. <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> Here's what I ate: brownie <BR> <em>493</em> <BR> <BR> Here's what I did: logged onto sparkpeople, wrote this blog. <BR> <em>17</em> <BR> <BR> Here's what I feel: defeated by myself <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> That's the problem-I did this to myself. No one else did this to me. I was the on... Sat, 9 Jul 2011 11:31:34 EST Women's 4 miler training program http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4336914 It was week one for me at the 4 miler training program this morning. I got up bright and early and was at the track at 7:30. We had a speaker who talked about good snacking - definitely good information for me. They gave away some door prizes and then we were off! We walked a quarter of a mile to warm up, then jogged 1 mile. I love it that they call it running and call us runners. I don't feel like a runner, more like a jogger, but it makes me feel good to hear them call us runners. I ... Sat, 2 Jul 2011 10:01:25 EST Signed up for a 4 mile race! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4321988 I'm really excited and kinda anxious about the race, but I know it will be really good motivation for me to have this race coming up. The race is on September 3rd and there is a training program every Saturday up until the race to help get us ready. It's really fun and motivating to be with a group of women who are all trying to work together towards a common goal, praising and supporting each other. <em>209</em> I've done the race before, but I had to walk some of it, this year, I'm hopi... Sat, 25 Jun 2011 13:09:32 EST Yea Me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4320090 I have joined a group of women that is training for a 4 miler. Yesterdays goal was to run just a quarter of a mile. I decided that I would try for a half mile and it would probably take me about 6 minutes. Jogging for 6 minutes without stopping seemed like a very big challenge to me. A few years ago I started jogging (lasted 3 months) and I could only jog for 5 minute stretches and then had to slow to a walk. So I went to the gym and walked for about 5 minutes as a warm up and then incre... Fri, 24 Jun 2011 12:42:18 EST Grocery shopping blunder http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4317470 I did sooo badly yesterday it's not even funny. <em>40</em> I've been trying to save money on my grocery bill and I let my focus move from healthy eating to saving money with my coupons. I now realize my mistake. I didn't make a weekly menu before I wrote my grocery list. Rookie mistake that will not happen again. The only problem now is what do I do with the brownie mixes, chex mix, cookie dough and ice cream that I bought? Dang, I hate screwing up. I feel like such an idiot!! I KNO... Thu, 23 Jun 2011 10:20:43 EST Lost 3 inches in 3 weeks!! :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4309030 Yea! <em>252</em> Nothing has ever worked for me like this has. <BR> It feels so natural, like I really CAN do this. Like I really COULD do this as a part of my new lifestyle. <em>30</em> Sun, 19 Jun 2011 19:49:49 EST Vision Board http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4303526 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/5/l852579490.jpg"> <BR> My vision board!! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/3/l53616380.jpg"> <BR> And an upclose shot of my goals!! <BR> This really got put to the test today. I think I lost the battle, but I WILL win the war. THIS IS NOT OVER!! Thu, 16 Jun 2011 19:50:29 EST Doors are meant to be opened! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4300116 Living with two teenagers, I encounter a lot of closed doors, literally and figuratively, with them. This morning, as i walked down the hall, their doors were both open and it made me think how nice it was to see the doors open. Then my next thought was, doors are meant to be opened. My brain made a connection to my own experiences and I realized, that yes, doors are made to be opened and walked through. We are designed to move forward and keep having new adventures and new challenges. K... Wed, 15 Jun 2011 10:15:00 EST Summer vacation!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4298896 <em>141</em> Summer vacation starts today!! <em>244</em> <BR> I'm taking a class and teaching summer school, but for the time being, I'm free!!!!! <em>58</em> <BR> I'm really looking forward to having time to concentrating on happiness, health and FUN!! Tue, 14 Jun 2011 19:09:53 EST Hungry!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4293561 Okay, so the last two days I have been freakishly hungry. I had a HUMUNGOUS dinner (at the melting pot) which was completely not on the SparkDiet, but was soooo good. And the next morning I was STILL hungry. Today I woke up to eat, slept, ate again, slept, ate again. I'm stuck in a cycle of high calorie days and then low calorie days and I think my body is very confused!! Now that summer vacation has started (I'm a teacher) I'm hoping that I can get this nutrition thing on track. Good n... Sun, 12 Jun 2011 12:58:18 EST Lost 2 pounds :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4290319 I lost 2 pounds this week! I'm so excited! Sparkpeople is the best thing for me at this time in my life. This program makes me feel so good about myself. When I feel good on the inside, it is sooo much easier to lose weight. I went to my daughter's 8th grade graduation today. I'm so proud of her. It's a milestone in our lives, both kids in high school and growing up and becoming amazing people. I started to get a little anxiety on my way over to the school this morning and I remembere... Fri, 10 Jun 2011 15:11:51 EST Sparkpeople helped get my house clean! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4286496 I had no idea that building small successes consistently could make such a difference in my life. I LOVE the spark streaks and checking my goals off each day. I know that these small successes are going to lead to bigger ones, not just in health and fitness, but other areas too. Like cleaning my house a little each day! Who would've thought that exercising and eating right can also get you a cleaner house!! <em>334</em> Wed, 8 Jun 2011 21:24:03 EST Balloon Belly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4284210 Why did I do it? <em>38</em> I hadn't had a soda in a while and for some reason today, I was able to convince myself that a caffeinated soda would be just the thing to help me stay up late tonight. <em>222</em> About 2 hours later, my stomach was puffed up like a balloon! I had been feeling pretty good about my belly until then. I guess I should look at this from a positive view- now I know that soda is not good for my tummy!! Drink water!! <em>194</em> Tue, 7 Jun 2011 21:44:26 EST Over ate? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4281610 I guess I overate today, but wow! I was soooo hungry all day long! I only ate when I was hungry, which was like every 2 hours. I'm 200 calories above my calorie range for the day, which isn't too bad I guess. It was also field day at school and I was outside being more active than usual, so maybe that explains the extra hunger. Okay, so I'm not going to worry about this. I was listening to my body, which is new for me, and so I think it's okay that I ate a little more today. I was real... Mon, 6 Jun 2011 20:33:44 EST The Seed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4278791 My students and I were discussing whether a seed is alive or not. It doesn't grow or eat or change until given the right things-water, sun, soil. We even googled it and still could not come up with a definitive answer! It occurred to me this morning that we all have a seed inside us. When given the right circumstances we grow and change too! We have inside of us the power to be the best we can be. To change and grow into that person that we've always wanted to be. We just need to take ... Sun, 5 Jun 2011 16:53:42 EST staying motivated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4276671 I've been struggling with staying motivated. I can BE motivated for a while, but it seems like as soon as I get some success, I feel a need to reward myself with food! That's so silly. I am realizing while typing this right now that the answer is simple-plan a reward for each pound lost that IS NOT FOOD! Whew! this journaling thing is amazing! Okay, so my reward for my first pound lost (again) is to get a manicure. <em>334</em> Sat, 4 Jun 2011 12:09:47 EST