HONEYBEEZ's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HONEYBEEZ HONEYBEEZ's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day one...again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4911083 So, I'm a few days from the big 5-0...an accomplishment really, considering how my life has gone so far, and all the things I've done in the past to sabotage it. But, the good news is I don't have to stay that way. <BR> One of my favorite quotes is a Japanese proverb..."Fall down seven times, get up eight." So, I'm back up again, on Day 1. <BR> I won't say, "This time will be different"...it doesn't work anyway. But, I can say, I'm beginning again...I can say I will be gentler on myself...I... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 08:06:04 EST So tired and so scared http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4820749 Have you ever read an article on a health condition and thought..."I have that..."? Sometimes we create so much anxiety for ourselves by building up a list of symptoms for every disease condition we read about..I've done that, using those lists as an excuse not to exercise or control what I'm eating. Of course, I've also used life situations or conditions to make excuses for not eating healthfully, or abstaining from exercise. I recognize it for what it is....an excuse. <BR> <BR> But now my ... Wed, 4 Apr 2012 18:49:51 EST Here We Go Again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4724048 "Once more into the breach dear friends..." or at least that's how I think it goes. Every year the same thing....was doing okay until the computer went down last year...now I have access again. So now, it is time to start afresh....hopefully soon I'll be on my way. Sun, 5 Feb 2012 20:23:28 EST Time for a reward...woohoo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4259144 I checked the scale this morning...down a total of 10 pounds from starting weight. Woohoo! <BR> <BR> I've been wanting a book to read in the tub, or while on the bike riding. I had bought a few last week from the bargain bin at the grocery store last week. Now, I get a chance to start one (I had resisted the urge to crack one last week as I wanted them for non-food rewards. <BR> <BR> The books title...."Hope in a Jar"...looked interesting. I'll let you know how it goes. Fri, 27 May 2011 06:12:42 EST Time for a reward...woohoo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4259143 I checked the scale this morning...down a total of 10 pounds from starting weight. Woohoo! <BR> <BR> I've been wanting a book to read in the tub, or while on the bike riding. I had bought a few last week from the bargain bin at the grocery store last week. Now, I get a chance to start one (I had resisted the urge to crack one last week as I wanted them for non-food rewards. <BR> <BR> The books title...."Hope in a Jar"...looked interesting. I'll let you know how it goes. Fri, 27 May 2011 06:12:42 EST Eating out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4250103 Went out to eat yesterday...twice. Didn't really plan it that way...my son decided, on the spur of the moment, to take us out to a barbque restaurant. Then, we ended up going out with a group of people from church...we had planned to go weeks ago, but I forgot all about it, so was surprised it was supposed to be yesterday. But, life is full of surprises, and change is what I normally have difficulty dealing with...I believe I met the challenges of the day with grace. <BR> <BR> While my hubb... Mon, 23 May 2011 04:04:00 EST 25% of the way to the 10% solution. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4247171 My newest goal, since returning to sparkpeople, is to lose 10% of my body weight. That's a huge amount for me....35 lbs...but I'm 1/4 of the way there. It feels so good to have this success after being out of control for so long. <BR> <BR> I've decided to make a short list of rewards for each 10 lbs. lost right now. I got some books (Iove to read, especially while soaking in a bubble bath) that were in the bargain bin (so it doesn't cost me too much....less than a buck a pound), and decided... Sat, 21 May 2011 13:05:58 EST Starting again....again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4145478 I've been here at the start so many times it feels like I'm moving backwards. But, I can't give up...at least I can't give up on "getting back on this horse". <BR> So, here it is...day 1. Tue, 5 Apr 2011 22:17:22 EST sick and tired of being sick and tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4063285 Just venting a bit. This seems to be my year for lung illness. I have asthma, and before Christmas it was under control. Christmas Day, 2010, I came down with the flu...which turned into pneumonia....Given a couple of weeks, I started to recover and started eating healthy and getting back on track, and then.....another cold/flu....which led to bronchitis...and a major flare with asthma. Add Lupus to that, and you have a lovely cocktail of misery. <BR> <BR> I really do know that there are peo... Thu, 3 Mar 2011 12:25:41 EST Struggling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3983751 Stress! I'm feeling it...and I've been letting it coax me into doing things I know are healthy or good for me. <BR> <BR> The past couple of days I've used stress as an excuse to binge...not as I have in the past, but any binge (even on good stuff, like veggies) is dangerous for me. One binge leads to another, and soon I'm back with constant bingeing and self-loathing. Not a good combination. <BR> <BR> But, even with the stress of the past few days, and the past two days binges, I'm ready t... Wed, 2 Feb 2011 11:48:13 EST Breakfast Sandwich http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3932692 I've been checking out different sites for ways to make my meals more exciting and satisfying. One of my favorite sites is "Hungry Girl". I also own one of her cookbooks, but hadn't looked at it too deeply (will after today). <BR> <BR> One recipe I absolutely love is the Egg Mugs. I change mine up a bit though. This morning I made a spinach omelet breakfast sandwich that was so yummy, I thought I'd share it with you. <BR> <BR> I toasted one multigrain sandwich thin. <BR> In a cereal bowl, I... Mon, 17 Jan 2011 09:32:18 EST Finding my Mojo (my motivation) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3899240 While reading messages today, I came across one that caused me to pause and think about my motivation for wanting to lose weight. Clothing size, while being able to spur some on to dropping a few pounds, just doesn't seem to do it for me. I've looked good in larger sizes, and felt healthy, and it's not as it was years ago when only small sizes were available (or you had to go shopping at Omar, the tentmakers). <BR> <BR> I can't say I've always been the size I am now, but I can say that my ti... Fri, 7 Jan 2011 06:02:04 EST Reading as Brain Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3590910 <BR> I read the entry for daily reflection, and although I do agree with it for the most part, there is one part I disagree with. <BR> <BR> I agree that what we read must have good content, and must be digested to do us much good. If I only "read at" an article or book, then I'm pretty much wasting my time. This is like reading the words without comprehending what they say. <BR> <BR> However, sometimes the funny paper, or some light reading can be useful, and digested. The humor in the ... Mon, 30 Aug 2010 22:27:32 EST Painful Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3455786 Haven't been on much for a couple of weeks......been in too much pain...still am, but rebelling against it. So, I'm back on SP, even if I can hold on perfectly (even I need to remember that it's "progress, not perfection"). I've allowed that pain to give me the excuse to binge. I may not have been able to cook much or prepare foods myself, but I can choose the healthier, best choice for me. (Darn binge monster-----he's a big liar, telling me it'll all be better with pizza or ice cream....of c... Wed, 21 Jul 2010 18:10:42 EST Happy Independence Days......SparkPeople Freedom. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3398119 Okay, so it's kinda corny....but, that's kinda how I feel right now. I'm celebrating nearly 10 weeks of independence from the binge-monster...from the sluggish feelings I've had in the past after my unhealthy high-carb/fat/salt/sugar benders from as recent as 10 weeks ago. Although SparkPeople is not completely responsible for this freedom, they have been a major part of the success I've experienced, and am still experiencing...they provide the tools, the meeting place with others in this st... Sun, 4 Jul 2010 13:56:49 EST SparkRecipes....awesome. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3390389 I gotta brag about the sparkrecipes for a minute. I usually don't like a lot of new "healthy-eating" recipes, because a lot of them are just tasteless and bland. But, a lot of the recipes on this site (even the healthy ones, are really good. I just tried the Slow Cooker Chicken stew, and have to say this one is a definite keeper. I had to change up some of the spices for what I had on hand, but the rest was the same. I used a bit more garlic powder, rosemary, bay leaf, a pinch of sage, and a ... Thu, 1 Jul 2010 17:26:47 EST Working on my motivation worksheet. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3388031 <BR> <BR> List the motivators that you chose by writing them down in the My Major Motivation Points below. The next step is to transform those motivators into something you’ll see and be inspired by every day! A blank worksheet is attached for this. What follows are the directions to fill in the worksheet: <BR> My Major Motivation Points <BR> <BR> Personal Appearance: I want to: <BR> <BR> •Look younger •Look better naked! <BR> •Have my clothes fit better <BR> <BR> <BR> Heal... Thu, 1 Jul 2010 01:11:03 EST Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3381214 <em>192</em> I don't have a specific weigh day (just sometime during a week), but I'm glad I chose Monday, again. This evening, after a long day, and even longer challenging week, I stepped on my scale. It's down 1.4 pounds. Not phenomenal weight loss. I would never be able to stay long on the biggest loser....I like the slow progress results better...they are longer lasting. But, the scale finally moved down after two weeks. I know that doesn't seem like long, but it seemed to stretch on fo... Tue, 29 Jun 2010 03:06:00 EST Changeing tastes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3372732 It's been about 9 weeks since I started my lifestyle change. It's not been perfect, but I've done the best I could with what I've had. Are all processed foods out of my life? No. Sometimes, in a pinch, I've had to rely on them. But, they aren't a major part of my diet anymore, either. I'm changeing, but not all at once. I've learned my lesson about that one. When I try too much too soon, I give up too easily. I am changeing, though, bit by bit. <BR> <BR> One of the changes I've noticed is th... Sat, 26 Jun 2010 11:12:50 EST Day 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3369737 I'm on day 5 of my 10 minute per day exersize streak. For the most part it has felt good, but today it has been a little rough. My feet sometimes feel as though they are going to explode with the cycling, like today...but, the rest of this week has been fine. Oh well, tomorrow is another day. Maybe the rest I get today will help in this area. Fri, 25 Jun 2010 10:09:35 EST 10 minutes daily exercise streak. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3362846 Okay. I've been trying to add exercise into my daily goals, but as usual, I've gone overboard, and then had to spend days recovering. While I've acheived my 90 minutes per week goal of cardio, it's usually been on my two days off that I'm doing the exercise. This can't really be all that good for me, and I know I burn out easily on things I try to do at rocket speed. <BR> <BR> So, since that hasn't worked, I decided to try the suggested 10 minutes per day. I believe I can do that much. Even... Wed, 23 Jun 2010 10:28:19 EST Plateaus (or however you spell it) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3359099 Okay, I lost 30 pounds....now the scale isn't moving (stubborn machine). But really, it's okay. Again, my clothes are looser, I'm gaining a little muscle (yes, I can see AND feel them), I'm less jiggly, more energetic, and not in as much pain after coming home from work. <BR> <BR> Still need to work on consistency in exercising, but I'm getting there. All in all, a good week. <BR> Maybe reading chapter 3 in The Spark will help me be more consistent in fitness. Tue, 22 Jun 2010 10:02:00 EST In the "cans" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3354654 How many times a day do I tell myself, "I just can't". I'm not talking about realistically evaluating my ability to do something right now...with Lupus and some physical limitations and flare-ups of a disease, there are times when I have to say "stop". <BR> <BR> How many times a day do I tell myself, "I will be able to do this"? So much of my life is spent in the can'ts that I can barely see myself in the cans. <BR> <BR> I've been reading in "The Spark" how people who acheive their goals ... Mon, 21 Jun 2010 07:23:13 EST Achy and Hurting Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3354567 I woke up after a longer than usual sleep, and have had that deep ache in my bones, plus the stiffness from being immobile for too long. Some days it's like this and I need an extra push to get through my day. Believe it or not, I actually have to make myself get up and get something to eat on these days, because all I usually want to do is curl up in a ball and not move. I've come to realize that that doesn't always help, so here I am, in between making lunches for this week at work, stretch... Mon, 21 Jun 2010 05:55:05 EST Goal Setting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3353206 I'm re-reading "The Spark", this time actually taking the steps it suggests. I'm working on goal-setting...not the easiest thing in the world for me. I tend to procrastinate on this because I've always been what other people have wanted me to be (well, all except for short spurts of rebellion when I'd had enough of fulfilling everyone else's ideas of what and who I should be). <BR> <BR> I have had this little thought in the back of my mind, though, that there are a few things I'd like to wor... Sun, 20 Jun 2010 17:10:13 EST Eight week update. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3350504 Just got in from my swim. Wow, I spent nearly two hours at the pool. Met a neighbor, talked for awhile, all the while water-jogging (the only way to run). Swam 20 laps, but spent a good hour jogging, and treading water. Went to the pool feeling very heavy (like I could barely lift my feet, and my brain was in a fog...part of Lupus), but came out feeling clearer, and lighter. <BR> <BR> Worked on my scrapbook pages (will post them when I can get pictures of the pages...I've got a couple of mor... Sat, 19 Jun 2010 15:11:12 EST Oops...my scale lied. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3337069 Went to the doctor with DH this morning. I wasn't seeing the doctor, but asked if I could borrow their scale for a moment (I knew mine was off a few pounds...I just didn't know it was this many). When I stepped on the scale at the doctor's I weighed 20 lbs. more than my WW scale said at home. I'm not really too down about it...That also means that when I started it weighed me 20 lbs lighter, so I've still lost over 30 lbs...I'm just not as low on the scale as I was thinking. This is a good th... Tue, 15 Jun 2010 13:54:59 EST 7 weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3331796 7 weeks binge-free. Mostly good, but feeling a bit woozy the past couple of days. I looked over my nutrition info, and seem to be eating a relatively balanced diet. I did over-exercise this past Saturday in the pool, so maybe that is the problem. I will be taking it easy for the next few days to try to get my footing, and staying with the nutrition tracker, and see how it goes. Mon, 14 Jun 2010 07:03:36 EST Summer Swimming Fun...Woohoo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3327430 I love my new digital toy....but seriously these are some pictures of me and my son going to the pool. <BR> " <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/1/l512132038.jpg"> <BR> My son goes with me to the pool when I go...although he isn't officially a part of sparkpeople, he's eating healthier and getting more exercise, so he's losing weight along with me. Ain't it great to have a pal. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/3/l231033462.jpg"> <BR> Okay, I'm getting b... Sat, 12 Jun 2010 15:09:24 EST Thank You! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3315121 Thanks to everyone who has sent me Happy Birthday wishes....it's been a wonderful day. <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>244</em> <em>409</em> <BR> <em>410</em> <em>129</em> <em>410</em> <em>129</em> <em>410</em> <em>129</em> <em>410</em> <em>129</em> <em>410</em> <em>129</em> <em>410</em> <em>129</em> <em>410</em> <em>129</em> <em>410</em> <em>129</em> <em>410</em> <em>129</em> <em>410</em> <em>129</em> Tue, 8 Jun 2010 21:07:00 EST Happy Birthday To Me....A day early http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3311104 Most of my family knows that I'm not really one for birthday cakes. Oh, I love the celebration, but the usual birthday cake just doesn't appeal to me. If I'm going to eat cake, it had better be a darn good one (and that never means anything really healthy), like a caramel cake, oatmeal cake, or very rich chocolate cake (this either requires much money for a specialty bakery, or the efforts and expense of making it myself...I'm just not much of a cake person. Which is why my oldest son surpris... Mon, 7 Jun 2010 20:18:53 EST Monday, Monday...What a Great Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3308787 Wow! I can't believe I just wrote that. But, it is a great day for me. I've been to work, and got off earlier than I thought..I've been able to get in my full workout (cardio and strength)...Taken a relaxing bath...Eaten after my workout to re-fuel....read some of "The Spark" (actually paying more attention this time)...and answered most of my e-mail and spark mail. I feel like I've accomplished a lot, and it feels so good. <BR> <BR> I've been tracking my binge-free days....I've made it thro... Mon, 7 Jun 2010 09:40:17 EST One small step.....one giant leap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3305188 Spent a couple of days at the pool. Was so thrilled to get into the water and feel the weightlessness. I was able to move freely, and exercise like I haven't been able to for a long time. One thing I forgot though...muscles will still ache from overuse, even if you exercise in the pool. <em>198</em> I am sore and stiff, and my back hurts a bit...but I am loving it. I was able to work my muscles under water unlike anything I am able to do with gravity pulling at me. I was able to run, bicycle,... Sun, 6 Jun 2010 07:08:29 EST Color My Palate World http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3294577 I've never been a veggie hater....my mom introduced me to all sorts of different tastes when I was a youngun', and even if I didn't always like what was served, I learned to appreciate the different tastes....eventually (although I still haven't gained much of an appreciation for okra or bussels sprouts....sheepish grin). <BR> <BR> During my years of unhealthy eating, however, vegetables kinda took a side job. They appeared mostly on my pizza as toppings, on my burgers, subs, as a sauce to d... Wed, 2 Jun 2010 22:00:42 EST Whatever and whenever http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3285105 I saw a new subject on the message boards today....what's the best time (to exercise) for you? I answered in the morning when I get off from work...which it usually is. However, since my schedule and my life are so chaotic, I usually will get my workout in any way I can. Five minutes here, 15 pushups there....whenever and wherever I can. <BR> You see, I used to be an all or nothing kind of gal. Everything had to be just perfect, or not done at all. That way I could procrastinate, and have an... Mon, 31 May 2010 13:24:52 EST 34 days binge-free...starting my scrapbook. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3281643 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/3/l338512487.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I've got my scrapbook....got my camera...now to start my vision collage and scrapbook of my journey to get there. I got the scrapbook for 21 days binge-free.....rewards for binge-free days works so much better for me. I can actually reach that goal in a relatively short period of time. My scale doesn't always cooperate with me. Now I just need to take some pictures of me, and get them printed to start the first pa... Sun, 30 May 2010 08:53:10 EST Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3278934 For the past few days, I've been tired...no exhausted...work has worn me down, and I haven't quite felt up to doing any extra exersizing, or even fixing much to take for work for the past couple of days.,. just recuperating from too much work at work...too many hours on top of too much physical effort. Motivation was starting to wane a bit...made me want to just fudge a little bit...go out to the buffet (a very dangerous spot for me), or just pick up a pizza. I did grab a couple of frozen di... Sat, 29 May 2010 05:05:21 EST 31 days binge-free http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3273087 I've hung in there for 31 days. Most of them have been great. I've felt better physically and emotionally, and I have all my friends here on sparkpeople that help me in ways immeasurable, just by cheering me on, and rejoicing in my successes. <BR> <BR> Today, however, is difficult. My job is rough right now, calling for more physical strength and stamina than I feel I have, and exhaustion has set in. I have at least one more night of pushing myself really hard, before I get another day off,... Thu, 27 May 2010 09:42:07 EST It was a picnic. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3259918 27 days binge-free...even after the picnic. You know the type...church picnic where everybody usually brings the best recipes (and usually the most fatty and calorie laden) to share with everyone. I brought a salad I usually make every day (or nearly so), so I would have something I knew I'd enjoy. I went, I ate, and I did not get out of control. Even when desert was offered (I had a couple of bites of oatmeal cake and put it down). I had what I wanted and left the rest.I talked to people I ... Sun, 23 May 2010 16:07:36 EST Inspiration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3258068 Thanks to all my buddies and friends here on sparkpeople....you inspire me to look deeper at myself and motivations, to continue keeping on when I have a bad day emotionally (that I don't have to eat at the bad feelings), to get up and dust myself off when I make a mistake, and to do one more workout,even if I am feeling a bit tired and lazy. Your encouragement keeps me going when I can't find the strength within to do so. Thanks, <em>220</em> and <em>223</em> . <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Sat, 22 May 2010 22:46:40 EST Slow and Steady wins the race http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3255356 I don't know if I really am in a race. I want to lose weight, but only for the purpose of moving around a lot faster, and easier...not to mention pain free. Also, want to lose weight, because it's healthier. I don't really want to give up and throw in the towel at age 50 to 55 years. I'm not quite ready to quit this life yet. I'd like another 50 years or so. <BR> Another reason why I want to go slow and steady is that fast and furious has never worked for me in the long run. I've succeeded an... Fri, 21 May 2010 22:09:01 EST I'll do it when..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3251669 Boy, does that statement apply to me. I'll apply for the new job after I lose some weight (go under the magic "299"). I'll start exercising when I've lost more weight, and can do a full workout. I'll go to the pool when I lose enough weight so that no one will stare...I'll do it when I feel better (whatever "it" is.). <BR> <BR> Time to start living, girl! <BR> <BR> Have progressed to exercising in small bits, though. I've realized that the only way I will be able to progress to the full wo... Thu, 20 May 2010 20:27:04 EST Under the Influence http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3248026 I've never really considered myself to be much of a leader. Oh, I know that other people have watched me, and done things because they see me doing them, but I don't have a lot of command skills. I can lead, but do so reluctantly...it's not a position I'm comfortable with. <BR> But, leading by example........ <BR> I noticed, today, than I am leading again...influencing someone else to change. It's little things. My younger son is obese like me, and unfortunately, he got a lot of his eating h... Wed, 19 May 2010 20:42:19 EST Feeling stronger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3244018 22 days binge-free, and feeling stronger. Was able to get in exercise two days in a row, 30 mins. cardio, and a strength workout. Feeling a bit sore from the exercise, but was able to sleep sounder, so that's a great improvement. <BR> Water has been a great help (I drink about a gallon a day, because of the work I do), and so has prepping my lunches with good healthy stuff at the beginning of the week, so I don't have to do so much prep during the week...I can just grab and go, and fill in w... Tue, 18 May 2010 20:09:18 EST I made it...21 days! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3237693 <em>248</em> I just completed 21 days binge-free. <em>244</em> <em>410</em> <em>236</em> <BR> The feeling is exhilirating...it's the first time in years that I've been able to hold consistently to normal eating patterns (9 years ago, I think). Might seem like a small accomplishment to some, but to me, a compulsive overeater, it's a big step. In most 12-step programs, you get a chip, or a marker of some sort for 30 days sobriety/abstinance. This is kinda like that. <BR> As my "chip", I'm ... Mon, 17 May 2010 08:50:20 EST Almost there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3235216 20 days binge-free. Almost there....and yet, I'm already looking forward to another 21 day challenge. These days have brought me more peace with my body. Although I still have many health problems, and am now having difficulty with much pain in my legs and feet, I'm feeling generally better. My thinking is clearer, my skin is clearer (may have a lot to do with the amount of water I'm now drinking), and I'm not feeling nearly as sluggish as I was. Not all my clothes are feeling less tight, but... Sun, 16 May 2010 13:33:01 EST I'm angry, but still binge-free http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3225857 I have a Hyundai parked in my yard....we call it the albatross, because it has seemed a herald of bad luck for the past couple of years (no, I don't really believe in bad luck, per se, but it seems nothing good has come from the purchase of yet another Korean car). We had it financed, but at a very high percentage rate (almost 11%), and paid through the nose for 5 + years. I had made the final payment this past Friday, and thought I was free of it, finally. But no, the company tells me that t... Thu, 13 May 2010 12:23:45 EST Close call, but still going strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3218878 Something happened at work last night. I work overnights in a convenience store. Although, I work with another clerk, there is no guaratee of safety all the time. Last night someone came in with a shotgun, and robbed the store. I was scared, but I made it through without a scratch...physically. Emotionally, I was pretty shaken up, but after the initial adrenaline rush (all that shaking has to count for some exercise, doesn't it), I was able to settle down and think pretty rationally....all ex... Tue, 11 May 2010 15:20:02 EST Fourteen going on 21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3214340 14 days binge-free. They say it takes 21 days to break a habit. Here's to 21 days. <BR> In the meantime, I'm cooking more at home, making my own meals, eating far less convenience foods, and feeling cleaner every day. I never really paid attention to how what I was eating made me feel. I knew I felt a little sluggish, but I didn't realize just how much it dragged me down, and just how much better I'm feeling every day. I'm not saying that I've sworn completely off of eating out, or convenien... Mon, 10 May 2010 12:35:14 EST 14 days binge-free going on 21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3214087 14 days binge-free. Gosh it feels good. It's a lot of work for me, preparing meals at home. I used to get something I could pop in the oven or microwave, or just pick something up. And, seldom was it healthy. Okay, every once in awhile Popeye's chicken or Taco Bell may be okay, but we were beginning to eat out more than in. And, it was expensive. Cooking at home meant making a frozen pizza, or wings and fries, with a nod to the green stuff by way of a salad (complete with creamy dressing, lot... Mon, 10 May 2010 11:48:31 EST