HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HOLLYS%5FNEW%5FLIFE HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ What a summer! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766836 Today is the last day of freedom for the kids. They go back to school tomorrow, and I just can't believe how fast the summer went. My daughter is finishing up her career as an elementary school student, and my son is entering uncharted territory in the middle school... I'm not sure which of us is more nervous... <BR> <BR> This is also a big week for me. Labor day weekend in 2011, I hit the "100 pounds lost" benchmark, and this week marks my 3rd anniversary for keeping that weight OFF! Wha... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 16:13:07 EST Can anyone help me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5725578 I have a heart rate monitor with a chest strap, which I love, and when I go to the gym, their Cybex machines pick up my heart rate through wireless monitoring. Technically, I wouldn't have to wear the watch part of my HRM because the machine does it. <BR> <BR> Now I wear the watch because the the Cybex machine consistently says I burn 100-150 MORE calories than my watch is saying. Both devices have my weight on it, and the machine, as well as my watch, are correctly reporting my heart ra... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 11:33:27 EST Biggest Loser Race http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724298 I did the race on Sunday with my SiL, and then the kids had a 1 mile fun run. Usually, most of the races around here are done at the peninsula, which is flat and shady. This year, they decided to have TBL race at our local Penn State campus... which is all hills, literally, ALL HILLS.. You know, when your grampa tells you he walked to school, up hills, both ways... he was talking about Penn State Behrend... HOLY CRAP!!! Oh, and NO shade, anywhere! <BR> <BR> So I really thought we were in ... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 16:48:40 EST My view from the wagon... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700927 OR, Two weeks back on the healthy living train... <BR> OR, Why did I ever get off? <BR> <BR> So it's only been 2 weeks since I decided to take my life back. I've gained 30 pounds from my lowest weight in September 2013. I've bee talking to a few of you, and I said it was 25... so my math skills aren't stellar, but you still love me, so accept it! <BR> <BR> I've been eating with in the recommended Spark calories range... <BR> I've been working out at the gym, 4 days a week, and alternatin... Thu, 22 May 2014 16:55:18 EST I think I have it backwards... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5659831 Since I've started my "6week plan" I've noticed a trend in my eating. The only days I have problems with binge eating are the days I DON'T workout... You know, the days where your calories REALLY need to be in check?!? Unfortunately, I've just now realized this, 1 week before "times up." I didn't have a specific weight goal in mind or anything like that, but when a deadline is looming, it's still nerve wracking. <BR> <BR> I have to say the last 6 weeks, especially the last couple, have... Sun, 30 Mar 2014 08:18:16 EST Sooo cool! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5641076 I've lived in Erie, PA my whole life, with the exception of college, and I never fully appreciated what we had here until the last year or so. We have a lake, and amusement park, theaters, comedy clubs, museums, and all sorts of things for the kids to do. <BR> <BR> The park educators at the Peninsula offer a "beach walk" every week starting the first Wednesday after the new year. They do it to help start the New Year with some exercise, and to allow us to see the peninsula at night, a TOTA... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 07:32:29 EST I'm F.I.N.E. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631720 Frustrated <BR> Insecure <BR> Neurotic <BR> Emotional <BR> <BR> Yep, that's me, I'm FINE... <BR> <BR> Frustrated... with weight gain, binge eating, lack of exercise and my bad attitude about all of it. I have no one to blame but myself. <BR> <BR> Insecure... about my body. I haven't felt this bad about myself... ever. My clothes don't fit right, I had to buy jeans and dress pants that are 2 sizes bigger than I've been wearing for the last year and a half. <BR> <BR> Neurotic... about th... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 15:15:35 EST MY truths about weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599044 I don't know how or where to begin this blog... there has been so much going on in my head lately about my weight loss, or lack there of... I just can't get out of my own head. I've been fighting to see the big picture, what I've accomplished, how far I've come... Instead, all I can see is the weight I've gained, the puffy face, the muffin top and how much farther I have to go now... I've been fighting to feel good about what I've done and who I've helped. Instead, I feel like a fraud and... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 14:33:49 EST A very honest magazine article http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585959 This is a magazine article that my SP friend Amanda posted. The statements that are made in this article are 110% true to MY journey. I can definitely relate to the Harvard grad student... <BR> <BR> If you click on the link for Julia's photography, please be aware that they are nude images. FYI, she also used to be on SP. How cool is that? <BR> <BR> <link>nymag.com/thecut/2013/11/what-no-one<BR>-tells-you-about-dramatic-weight-loss.<BR>html </link> Tue, 7 Jan 2014 18:04:02 EST Hey Fat Girl! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584698 I loved this post when I read it a year ago, and it still brings tears to my eyes. It really encouraged me to continue on. I hope you all enjoy it and get as much out of it as I did. <BR> <BR> <link>flintland.blogspot.com/2012/05/hey-f<BR>at-girl.html </link> <BR> <BR> Mon, 6 Jan 2014 18:21:24 EST Reflections on 2013 and thoughts on 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578405 2013 was an interesting and exciting year... <BR> <BR> In 2013... <BR> I ended this year weighing a bit more than when it started... <BR> I hit my lowest weight ever... <BR> I have maintained within the same 10-12 pounds all year... <BR> I still have not made it to my goal weight... <BR> I ran a Biggest Loser 5k and met some really cool people... <BR> I completed my FIRST EVER Dirty Girl 5k with favorite Spark Girls, ENDERLI and NAYKNITS... <BR> I ran my 4th Turkey Trot and I got to do it w... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 19:04:14 EST I'm So Thankful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5552408 Since the Dirty Girl in September, I've be pretty down... I haven't had anything to look forward to or train for... I've gained a few too many pounds, and I'm starting to feel it and I definitely think it shows. You know, saying that out loud is pretty freeing. It's so hard to admit when things haven't been going well, it's like I'm letting EVERYONE down, not just myself. Amidst the crappy feeling, both physically and mentally, I truly am thankful for sooo much. <BR> <BR> I am obviously th... Thu, 28 Nov 2013 20:12:59 EST I'm a DIRTY GIRL!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5486130 On September 7, my BFF Melissa, 2 of my most FAVORITE Sparklies and I, did a Dirty Girl mud run. It's a 3 mile mud run with 12 obstacles along the way. We had to crawl through muddy tunnels, jump into a water and mud filled pool, climb up cargo nets, scale an 8 foot wall, climb over "bouncy house" pyramids, and many more! BEST TIME EVER!!! I've been wanting to do an obstacle race like this for more that a year, and I finally found some suckers, I mean friends, who were willing to do it wi... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 11:21:18 EST Just remember... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5473249 When you're upset with how much farther you have to go... <BR> When you think you're never gonna get there... <BR> When you eat tuna instead of the pizza you want, and you're SO not happy about it... <BR> <BR> Have a friend remind you of who you used to be... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l752806337.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1711139220.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l699591107.jpg"... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 08:50:49 EST The Biggest Loser 5k http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5468187 Wow, was that a lot of fun! Friday night, my husband and I went to the packet pick up and I got to meet a few of the Biggest Loser contestants. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1022126516.jpg"> <BR> Dan and Jackie from season 5 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1214966187.jpg"> <BR> Pam from season 14 <BR> I LOVE her! She smart and sassy just like she was on the show! <BR> <BR> There was a woman there who was giving advice for fir... Tue, 27 Aug 2013 19:35:07 EST When you think things are bad, someone else has it worse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5445666 Did you ever just feel pathetic and selfish? Why me, why can't I, why not... why do I have to... like a whiny, self absorbed 4 year old. That's how I've felt all day. Poor me. I know it all stems from the 1.5lb gain on Friday. You know, I tried to convince myself that I was "ok with it" but I'm really not. Especially when I kicked a$$ all week and was meticulous about my food. I know things aren't nearly as "easy" as they used to be. I know I have to do a bit more than walk around the ... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 20:34:16 EST Note to self... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5430645 When you eat better, you feel better... <BR> When you workout, you feel better... <BR> When you love yourself, you ARE better... <BR> You love yourself when you eat better and workout... hmmmm... <BR> You can't love anyone else unless you love yourself... <BR> You have family and friends that love you, and want to see you succeed, don't let YOURSELF down... <BR> <BR> I'm all over this!!! Tue, 23 Jul 2013 13:12:48 EST Need some motivation? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5424498 Check out one of my FAVORITE Sparkfriends! His journey is amazing! Make sure you show him some sparklove! <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5423818 </link> <BR> <BR> Congrats Brad! Wed, 17 Jul 2013 18:56:26 EST This has been the first weekend in a long time... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399303 that I've done well with food. Everything goes great during the week, and then the weekend gets here and I lose all sense of reality. It's a never ending cycle... do well all week, eat whatever on the weekend, and then try to get back into the swing of things come Monday. I have to say that it's been a losing battle lately. <BR> <BR> I'm always re-evaluating goals and trying to decide what I want to do, and where I want to go, and how I'm going to get there... again, it's just one more t... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 16:31:21 EST 3 Years and Counting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5375865 My journey actually started Memorial Day weekend in 2010. Who starts a "diet" on a major Holiday weekend?!? Little did I know that Monday was going to be the first day of the rest of my life. Yes, it's a little cliche, but it's a lot true! <BR> <BR> The week before, I had my big "aha" moment when I was volunteering in my son Jake's classroom. We were standing in line to go outside and Jake introduced me to one of his friends. The little boy looked at me, then looked at Jake and said, "y... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 18:49:08 EST Who... ME?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5363857 I've taken off the last 2 afternoons from work to spend time at the kids school for field days. Jake had his Monday and Kat's was today. I hardly get to spend anytime with the kids at school because I work full time, so I try to take off for things like this. <BR> <BR> We live in a small town and the entire elementary school is made up of maybe 500 kids. So the kids you go to pre-school with, are the kids you'll be graduating with. Because of that, I do "know" some of the parents. Bot... Tue, 21 May 2013 20:04:17 EST Moment of truth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5342074 Weigh in was today.... dun dun duuuunnnn..... Haha! No, it's fine. I'm down a pound and a half from the last time I touched my ticker. A little background on that I guess. The last time I weighed and input my info was March 15. SInce then, I've had a very rough time. I've been uber depressed from the never ending winter which lead to enormous amounts of food and serious lack of exercise. I did get on the scale a few times, and I don't know why. I'd get on, cuss at the scale, and kick... Wed, 1 May 2013 13:53:57 EST South Carolina blog! Well, it's mostly about the food = ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339877 Seriously, if you don't want to see some really good food, I suggest you LOOK AWAY! <BR> <BR> I'll give you a little info on the trip because I had a really great time. I am so blessed to have been able to take this trip with my dad too. <BR> <BR> We left at 4am Wednesday morning and, including pit stops, it took about 13.5 hrs to get to Bluffton, SC, which I didn't think was bad at all. We got down there and my Aunt (dad's sister) took us to a great Mexican restaurant, Mi Tierra. My d... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 19:09:19 EST Weekend Fun! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339568 I just wanted to share a couple of pics from the first nice weekend we've had! <BR> <BR> We went to the peninsula on Saturday and enjoyed a 3 mile walk. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1504307613.jpg"> <BR> <BR> After the walk, we went to Sara's which is basically hot dogs, burgers and ice cream. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2075617666.jpg"> <BR> Sooo good! <BR> <BR> Then Sunday, even though it was going to rain, we did the... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 14:00:20 EST Review: The Spark Solution http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5321195 I am super excited that I was asked to be one of the few people who got to preview and write a review of SparkPeople's new book. <BR> <BR> "The Spark Solution: A Complete Two-Week Diet Program to Fast-Track Weight Loss and Total Body Health" -- By Becky Hand, R.D., and Stepfanie Romine. Chef Meg Galvin created the recipes, and Coach Nicole Nichols designed the workouts. Chris "SparkGuy" Downie wrote the introduction. <BR> <BR> <link>sparkpeople.com/sparksolution/ </link> <BR> <BR>... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 19:53:23 EST What can you do?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5314542 I have been SO down in the dumps... in a terrible funk... just plain blah... I know the weather has a LOT to do with it. Living in Erie, PA has a lot of ups... we live 6 minutes from the lake, we have an amusement park, and tons of things to do ALL the time. The down side is... we could have nearly 6 months of winter, or at least it feels that way. I can't complain too much, we don't often get sub zero temps, or more than 4-6 feet of snow at one time like other parts of the country. That... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 10:58:08 EST What do I want... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5301108 I don't know... You all must think I'm the wishiest, washiest person on this site, and I don't blame you. I weigh just what I did one year ago and I'm up 4 pounds from my lowest weight. I can't say that I've been busting my butt... I can't say that my eating has been stellar... the ONLY thing I can say is that I've maintained my 137 pound weight loss for 1 year. <BR> <BR> Don't misunderstand me, I'm SUPER happy about it, but I'm frustrated because I can't find the motivation to go any ... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 18:20:30 EST What the heck SP?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5289025 I've had the SP app for my phone for the last 2 years. Today, I got a new phone, and I had to pay $3.99 for the exact same app. It's still an andriod phone... still the same carrier... what's up sparkpeople??? WHY after 2 years do I now have to pay for this app? I'm probably just behind and they've been charging for the app... I don't know, and that's ok... <BR> <em>252</em> <em>252</em> <em>252</em> <em>252</em> <em>252</em> <em>252</em> <em>252</em> <em>252</em> ... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 18:03:52 EST March of Dimes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5270778 My son, Jake, is currently a student at a local Martial Arts Academy and they do a TON of fundraising for our community. They've done toy drives for Toys for Tots, food drives for the homeless shelters, and recently, they did a break-a-thon where the kids raised money based on the number of boards they could break, for the Asbury Woods Nature Center. <BR> <BR> At the end of April they are participating in the "March for Babies" which is a 6.2 mile walk for the March of Dimes. Jake was pr... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 08:31:38 EST Review of SP Total Body Sculpting DVD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5253526 ***I received this DVD free from SparkPeople but did not receive any form of payment for my review*** <BR> <BR> I was very hesitant to do this because of my total dislike for all things strength training. I asked a friend of mine, Lisa, to do it with me, and this worked well for 2 reasons. Being an SP outsider, I could get an honest opinion from her, and if we did it together... that meant I HAD to do it! <BR> <BR> Like I said, I hate strength training... any and all forms of it. It's my... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 11:18:54 EST Changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215366 I've changed my page, changed my ticker and changed my attitude. Thanks friends, for once again, reminding me I'm not alone with these thoughts and doubts. <BR> <BR> I need to focus more on what I've done instead of how far I need to go. I have to remember that I've lost almost 140 pounds... that I've walked and jogged numerous 5k's... I've climbed rocks... gone for long bike rides... and changed my and my family's life for the better. <BR> <BR> For me to move forward, I have to keep look... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 10:03:00 EST I'm tired... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5213411 I'm telling you, this is REALLY whiny... I know you all have the same thoughts at times I'm sure, but I need to get it out... <BR> <BR> I'm tired... <BR> <BR> - of looking for missing sparkfriends <BR> - of spending time giving goodies, tying to encourage, and sending love to those that don't care <BR> - of fighting... counting calories and working out, when it doesn't seem to matter anyhow <BR> - of the fact that I'll STILL be obese until I lose another 20 pounds <BR> - of not knowing... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 18:35:39 EST An interesting thing happened at the office... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5188751 At lunch today, I was was watching clips on GMA about People's "Half My Size" issue. There are 3 of us in our tiny little office, so of course, my coworkers could hear what I was listening to. Co-worker #1, who knew me "before," also had a weight problem when she was younger. Co-worker #2, who just started with us a couple of weeks ago, has no idea how fat I used to be, or that #1 had a weight problem at all. <BR> <BR> After a few minutes of listening to these inspiring stories, #2 says, ... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 19:11:30 EST Ghosts of Christmas Past... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5176945 This is my 3rd Christmas with Sparkpeople, so I thought I'd share my ghosts of years past. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1328698150.jpg"> <BR> 2009, the Christmas before Spark 307+ pounds <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l685003588.jpg"> <BR> 2010, my first Holiday with Spark about 250 pounds <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/1/l311519445.jpg"> <BR> 2011, right around 195 pounds <BR> <BR> <img src="http://ph... Wed, 26 Dec 2012 18:29:49 EST You're NOT gonna die!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163615 That's what I kept telling myself as I was jogging on treadmill tonight. TRUE CONFESSION... I haven't done any jogging at all since the Turkey Trot. I haven't done anything but ONE 6 mile walk... in 2 1/2 weeks... so pathetic. <BR> <BR> Well, tonight was a bit of an eye opener... I struggled with every at step. I still completed 3 miles in 38 minutes, but I felt like I was going to D. I. E. There are no excuses for my lack of activity, I just haven't done anything. <BR> <BR> I'm doing... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 20:14:46 EST It's a GREAT day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5143446 It's Thanksgiving, and I have SO much to be thankful for. First of all, I'm thankful for my new, healthy lifestyle. Because of the changes I've made, my whole family is living a better existence and I couldn't be happier about it. I'm thankful for my family and the constant support through all of the exciting milestone as well and all the tears and struggles. I'm thankful for all my friends, real and here at SP. I couldn't have done this without your support, and virtual goodies, and well... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 12:05:53 EST It doesn't matter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5126180 What happened yesterday, happened yesterday. I can't undo it. I can't fix it. All I can do is deal with the aftermath and try to get my head right and move on. I know I'll never be THAT girl again. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/9/l893113146.jpg"> Tue, 6 Nov 2012 12:59:41 EST It can be so overwhelming sometimes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5123797 The kids had their last cross country race this weekend. It was cancelled last weekend because of all the rain we were getting. This weekend was beautiful, but SO cold. Thankfully they only had to do 1 1/2 miles, get their medals and go home, lol! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1898369803.jpg"> <BR> <BR> As I was watching them run around the track, I suddenly became overwhelmed with emotions. Our lives are SO completely different now then they were 2 ye... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 16:25:09 EST Hmmmm... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5121202 So I gained 1/2 pound this week. It sucks, and I really didn't expect to lose coming off a 3 pound loss last week, but I REALLY didn't think I gained. Food and exercise were both great this week, so I don't know. What really sucks, is that immediately, I thought, what can I change. WHY do I feel the need to change things every single week when I don't get the results I want? I decided to run 4 5k's a week to prepare for the Turkey Trot next month, and this was the first week... I'm doing... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 08:40:00 EST I feel AMAZING!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5114097 Seriously, for the last couple days, I've been in the BEST mood! I don't know if it's the cool temps, the beautiful leaves, fun conversation, or the fact that the damn scale finally moved in the right direction, WooHoo! <BR> <BR> I've been in the 170's since MARCH! Today I saw 170.0. I got off and on 3 times! I know it could go back up next week, and yes, it'll suck just like it sucks EVERY time the scale goes up. But this is the lowest number I've seen since July. I haven't been able t... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 20:47:49 EST Anniversary Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5107500 How different our anniversary weekends have turned out. We used to do things like... go out of town to a little B&B... or spend the weekend in a jacuzzi suite right here in town. This year, we spent all morning at the kid's cross country race and all afternoon at the fall festival... and I wouldn't have changed a thing. <BR> <BR> Saturday, however, was a little more grown up. We got to go to dinner, and spend the evening alone watching movies while my mom had the kids. This morning, we g... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 19:50:07 EST I guess I can't complain... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5096627 I've been on this journey for 29 months... I thought I 'd be done by now... I've been at the same weight since March... <BR> <BR> I started looking back through all the trackers. Food, exercise, weight loss, trying to find SOMETHING to help me progress. I didn't lose an ounce this week. Food was good.. True, I missed 2 workouts, but 5 out of 7 isn't bad. But I would think I'd get some kind of loss out of it. <BR> <BR> Of course when you start, you lose TONS of weight right away. It w... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 15:13:34 EST Her Times 5k http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5090205 My best friend came to town this weekend to spend some much needed time together and do a 5k on Saturday. We had a fantastic time together this weekend, and this is the second year that we've done the 5k together. It's for woman only and it's a great race to do if it's your first one. It's a completely flat terrain, and it's a nice walk. Last year it was about 50 degrees and very rainy. This year, we lucked out. It was 51 degrees and NOT raining, lol! There were a lot of woman of all sh... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 16:01:44 EST It's been a day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5086980 It started with my daughter having issues with EVERYTHING this morning. From breakfast, to what she was going to wear, to cross country practice after school. Usually, she acts VERY mature for her age. SO mature, that when she acts like the 7 year old that she is and has a bit of a fit, I just don't know how to handle it. GREAT start to the day, but we got through it. <BR> <BR> My one and only co-worker is off on maternity, and it's starting to get to me. I'm a social person, and it's har... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 19:04:23 EST An Honest Conversation with... Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5078421 So you haven't lost any weight since... well, let's be honest, since June 15. You've been in the 170's since March 9 ... and your lowest weight was 170, ALL the way back in July. WHAT have you been doing? Not a whole lot, huh?!? This entire summer, exercise has been, meh... and there have been a LOT of liberties taken with food... So you think that by being "this way" you're going to get to goal? I don't think so! Do you even want it? It's doesn't seem like it. <BR> <BR> Oh, but wait... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 12:47:30 EST OK, so this is what's going to happen... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5061958 First, thanks to my amazing friends who read my blog and left encouragement, advice, and some tough love. I can't tell you how much I appreciate all the goodies, messages and sparkmail. <BR> <BR> While I was at camp this weekend, I had tons of time to reflect on my journey and decide what it is that I want. It's so difficult to find the strength to continue on when you have to fight for every ounce lost. I know a lot of you know how that is. I'm glad to say, I've found my strength. Wh... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 18:07:18 EST WHAT is going on?!? Some serious ramblings... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5058278 "I'm tired. I'm tired of being good all the time, I'm tired of maintaining. I'm tired of feeling like my value in the world is the fact that I lost the weight, and feeling like I'm judged for it. If I keep the weight off, I'm annoying the people who are struggling. And if I put it back on, it just proves that fat people never have enough willpower or determination to not be fat." -- From "Good Enough to Eat" by Stacey Ballis <BR> <BR> A friend gave me this book a few months ago, and I o... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 21:52:16 EST I'm not as upset as I think I should be... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5002385 Complacent - satisfied to a fault and unconcerned.... Yep, that's about right! <BR> <BR> I read a blog this morning where the author was talking about backsliding and a friend of hers suggested she take a good look as to WHY. I've been trying to figure this out for weeks. I don't see it as backsliding, simply because I've also been going forward. I've been losing and gaining the same weight for months. When this happened about a year ago, it was truly frustrating. I was angry and ups... Sun, 5 Aug 2012 19:41:21 EST Panama Rocks in pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4993678 We went to Panama, NY on Sunday to check out Panama Rocks. It's a one mile long trail thru the rock that was formed by glaciers how ever many years ago. You can visit the website... panamarocks.com to get the whole story. I've never been there before, because I knew, BEFORE, I could never climb on or fit in between the rocks. This was a fantastic day trip and SO much fun for all of us. <BR> <BR> The trail is one mile and should take about 20 minutes to leisurely walk thru it. If ... Mon, 30 Jul 2012 20:00:03 EST Motivation and A New Goal(s) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4988437 For the last few weeks, I've been working out with one of my oldest and dearest friends, Lisa. I had no idea how much more motivating it is to have someone right beside. When we're together, I push myself A LOT more. She's not a fitness nut, she just started getting healthy about 6 weeks ago. She's lost 10 pounds and wants to lose another 10 to be healthy, but her big goal is to get fit. Now, if I can only get her to quit smoking... When I work out with her though, I always want to go f... Thu, 26 Jul 2012 21:18:34 EST