HMEGLI's SparkPeople Blog HMEGLI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Reapplying myself, re-entering Spark I've had a wild and fabulous year enjoying my new teenage son, handling the challenges, watching him turn 18, watching him graduate from High School (a miracle), and best of all, having him tell me he loves me and calling me mom. And now it's time for me. <BR> <BR> I've gained about 30 pounds over this past year. I've had foot injuries that prevent me from running, hopefully not permanent. I've had shoulder pain that have made my sleep horrible. I don't care about all of this. I can still lo... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 10:36:22 EST It's official: Momdom! Tuesday our adoption became final in front of about 35 friends, family and social workers. And one awesome judge who gave our son, David, a quilt made by her friend. It's a little like living with someone and getting married. Nothing changes day to day, but you feel in increased sense of responsibility and awe having said vows in front of a lot of people. <BR> <BR> About two months ago when we were trying to get an adoption date with this specific judge, we thought we'd have to wait until Ap... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 19:19:58 EST I'm a thrash metal band mom! This is a quickie, but I haven't posted in so long it's better to start small, right? <BR> <BR> So our 17 year old foster son is in a thrash metal band, and we attended their second show last night. We staffed the "merch" table, where they were selling picks and patches. And of course wore their band shirt with the logo. It's so fun - he sees me come in, puts down his bass, walks over, gives me a hug, and says "Hi mother!". Ok, really? How much better does life get? Our adoption should be fu... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 12:37:58 EST Things are super good! Well, maybe not on the weight loss front, although I am holding reasonably steady despite my crazy new life as a mom as a new teenage son. And my back is spasming because during a foster youth summer camp we volunteered at, he jumped on my back for a piggyback ride and he's 160 pounds... <BR> <BR> But life is so awesome! At the camp we volunteered at, he ran around calling me mum, introducing me as "his mom", and giving me lots of hugs. For a 16 year old punk rocker, who lived in group homes... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 17:29:41 EST Wait...I have a family! I was looking at my sparkpage and the reasons for wanting to lose weight. One was for my "future family", as I wanted to foster a youth. But hey! We took in a 16 year old in December, and I celebrated my first Mother's Day ever! It's tricky because somewhere he has a biological mom out there - you never know what these days trigger for someone like him. But he was super into it! We all went whale watching, had lunch, and saw IronMan 3. And he and his friends wished me Happy Mother's Day on Fa... Mon, 13 May 2013 10:33:42 EST Ran a 10K So. The furthest I've run is a little over a 5K-about 3.5 miles. I signed up for a 10K that was today so I had a bigger goal to shoot and train for. I knew I wouldn't be able to run the whole thing, as my training had stalled a bit, but I was hoping to run maybe 2/3 of it. <BR> <BR> After the first mile, I thought "Hey, I can run at least the first half, as that's just a 5K. I'll stop and rest at the turn around point and walk some". I stopped briefly to stretch, and then thought I could ke... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 00:55:46 EST Just did it! I haven't skiied in 15 years. But the kid wanted to learn to snowboard, and that got me out to the slopes. You'd think I'd be nervous. Well, I guess a little. But since I took on our foster son a couple of months ago, I feel now like anything is less scary than that. And it was amazing how much I remembered. I literally heard voices in my head from an instructor I had telling me to lean in on my edges, to sit back. It was cool. And by the middle of the afternoon, I got the guts to get off the... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 01:21:36 EST HUGE life change I did it. I was really, really brave. I knew I wanted something that would change every single molecule of my existence (and my husband's). And so with that intro... <BR> <BR> We now have a 16-year-old foster boy living with us! OMG, right? It was like finding out you're pregnant and giving birth to a teenage boy in 5 days. Pretty much exactly like that without the physical birth part. It's by far the craziest thing I've ever done. <BR> <BR> I know this young man - he was my CASA kid. I've ... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 11:17:16 EST Checking in! Yes, Pewterbunny, it IS time for a new blog entry! <BR> <BR> Well, I've been training for a 5K - that is, to RUN a 5K, all the way through. I am not a runner. That's what I always thought. I can bike 100 miles in a day, but I couldn't run more than 2 minutes without getting completely winded. Well, my cousin and I walked/ran a 5K a few month ago, and I was hooked! I decided I really wanted to run one all the way through. <BR> <BR> I've been training using an iPhone app Couch to 5K app, and... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 23:33:46 EST Did something bold I was brainstorming yesterday morning on what things would really help me lose 10 pounds by the end of April. There were the usual things, but the one that stuck out was accountability. It made me think about Weight Watchers again, but then I thought, "I can do the same things on Spark, except for the personal accountability part". I've tried getting fitness buddies before, and I've had a hard time finding someone who really stuck it out with me. <BR> <BR> So I did something bold. I posted s... Tue, 6 Mar 2012 10:34:30 EST Falling into the same hole Arg! I've been reverting to my old ways. I'm frustrated at myself just a little. I seem to go through spells where I don't think before I eat, or I plan something and let a last minute social opportunity derail my plans.Here I am, walking down the same street, falling into the same hole. <BR> <BR> So how do I walk down a different street? I had been going to OA meetings and getting good reminders and support there. So going to these at least once a week is paramount. I'm still exercising, bu... Fri, 2 Mar 2012 10:45:12 EST Morning rituals and truths I have been thinking of morning rituals lately. I know I am the type of person who simply can't do the same thing every day. I rebel. I'm in fact surprised I am able to stay married to one person, but then he is a special guy. <BR> <BR> Back to morning rituals. Despite my ever-changing nature, I do know some truths about myself. Here they are: <BR> 1. My day goes better when I get exercise early on in the day. Can I always do this? No, and I have to be ok with this. I can't let it ruin my d... Fri, 10 Feb 2012 11:30:32 EST Another day! Still kicking' with Spark! I'm having a rough week - depressed for some reason - but I've still exercised and am thinking about what I will eat. Or trying - I'm not perfect. But I've reduced the "sit in front of the TV with food and eat mindlessly" to maybe twice a week, which is an improvement. And now when I do it, it's like I didn't think about it, like a habit, not that I thought about it and did it anyway. So I feel it's progress. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling more energetic today, which is goo... Fri, 20 Jan 2012 12:28:43 EST Those darn rabbits Well, now I know how it will feel when Ophelia, our first bunny, dies. Ophelia is somewhere between 11-12 years old. The first bunny who stole our hearts and got us into this whole bunny rescue and advocacy thing. And even at her age, she is still a corker. <BR> <BR> So I'm sitting on the sofa in the afternoon. Ophelia and Sam are sitting under their cardboard castle. Sam is grooming her face, and her neck is lolling outside the castle. She isn't moving. This happens periodically, so I get u... Sat, 31 Dec 2011 13:32:46 EST Rolling with the unexpected Wow, things have been so crazy lately. I've been doing so much unexpected work at the shelter with the rescued buns, plus all the other things life throws at you. Sunday I'd expected to drop my foster bun off to get spayed, get a bunch of things done, then visit my friend's new baby for an hour or so. Well, from 9am to 4 pm, I was at the shelter helping buns come out of surgery and recover, help with IV fluids, etc. At 5, I drove to see my friends, got their adorable 2-week old thrust into my... Tue, 6 Dec 2011 11:11:18 EST Random Tuesday-ness I'm blogging today without a real thought on what to blog about. I'm hoping it comes to me while typing. Good news is I'm being much more creative lately, and this makes me so happy. And working at the shelter for the rescue buns has hit a chord. I really feel I'm in the zone there. I've missed this work. I volunteered at the shelter for about 6 years, and then ran a non-profit for the shelter for 3 years after that. Then work got in the way. Just cleaning their cages, feeding them, and helpi... Tue, 22 Nov 2011 11:44:28 EST Hanging in there, and large rabbit rescue effort Keeping this short for tonight, as it's late. I've been so blah the last few days. Not good for energy, eating right, etc. But I have exercised every day, and today I ate great. Cooked up a storm Wednesday. Feel much better today. In fact, it was rainy so I pulled out a line dancing DVD, pulled the curtains closed, and scared the bejeesus out of my dog and bunnies doing the grapevine and shuffle. <BR> <BR> There was a huge rabbit rescue locally, about 114 rabbits taken from a breeder. Some... Sat, 12 Nov 2011 01:46:55 EST Exercise milestone and Nov 6/7 Challenge Results I hit an interesting milestone for myself regarding exercise. I track my exercise in this iPhone tracker I have that's just a "I did it" sort of thing. I have been tracking exercise for 30 minutes at least, and whether I've hit the goal of doing this at least 5 times per week. Since September, I have achieved this, so that's 50 times I've exercised at least 5 times per week for 30 minutes! Obviously the number 50 doesn't include the days I didn't exercise, but my gadget resets itself to zero ... Mon, 7 Nov 2011 19:43:45 EST November 4 Daily Challenge Results Did awesome until I got major munches in the evening. However, I didn't eat as terribly as I wanted to, and I was able to focus on what I was craving, not just eating whatever was in the way. <BR> <BR> Weight Today: 253.8 Yay, down a little. <BR> <BR> 1. Motivation for staying on my plan today: I will look freaking awesome 10 pounds lighter! <BR> 2. Challenges today and ideas for annihilating them: today should be good, want to cook, so shop and make good recipes! <BR> <BR> Yesterday: <... Sat, 5 Nov 2011 12:30:40 EST Nov 3 Challenge Results Dinner challenged me today, but I menu planned and had a great rest of the day as a result. <BR> <BR> Starting Weight: 255.6 <BR> <BR> 1. Motivation for staying on my plan today: You lose weight when you eat within your calorie range! <BR> 2. Challenges today and ideas for annihilating them: eating lunch out with my friend. Plan ahead! Look online at menu! <BR> <BR> Yesterday: <BR> 3. Water intake, 8-12 C: Yes, 8 C <BR> 4. Calorie range, 1630-1980, can go over 1 day per week: went over ... Fri, 4 Nov 2011 00:58:59 EST November Daily Challenge results Not perfect, but I feel it's a positive start! <BR> <BR> Starting Weight: 255.6 (1 pound up, but I did eat late in the evening, and it was salty.) <BR> <BR> 1. Motivation for staying on my plan today: I feel better when I exercise and eat well. Period. <BR> 2. Challenges today and ideas for annihilating them: I have a busy, day, so bringing healthy snacks and planning lunch will be important. <BR> <BR> Yesterday: <BR> 3. Water intake, 8-12 C: Yes, 9 C <BR> 4. Calorie range, 1630-1980, can ... Thu, 3 Nov 2011 10:46:54 EST November Challenge goals OMG, two blog posts in a day! Faint, gasp, etc. There is a challenging challenge I want to do for November, so with a few variations of my own rebellious choosing, here I go! Note that I haven't done it yet today since it's 8am where I am (I am so full of excuses), but these are to daily goals for November: <BR> <BR> Starting Weight: 254.6 <BR> <BR> 1. Motivation for staying on my plan today: <BR> 2. Challenges today and ideas for anahilating them: <BR> 3. Water intake, 8-12 C: <BR> 4. Cal... Wed, 2 Nov 2011 11:22:01 EST Back for Hump Day! This is the first time in a while I've been able to sit down in the morning and hang out on SparkPeople. It feels good-I've missed it. I was thinking about the past few weeks, and while I've not been terrible, I've not been as disciplined as I'd like. And what a visceral reaction I'm having to even writing the word discipline! I was so disciplined in school. College and graduate school were all about studying. While I don't regret that, I regreted not experiencing the college life a bit more.... Wed, 2 Nov 2011 10:52:19 EST Just move on Funny, I did really well on my vacation. Did fine when I got back. Then I had a really stressful meeting pertaining to my CASA kid's placement and was totally depressed. I did eat something not as healthy as I'd like because of it, and I totally was aware of it. The next day I was really feeling blah from a sinus infection, so it was not a stellar day either. It's a lesson about not letting it get away from me. And not separating "good" days and "bad" days. It's all life, and I need to lean h... Fri, 21 Oct 2011 11:10:06 EST Bunny health issues Feeling a little bad for Joe, my abscess-ridden bunny. For the last year, he had gone into the vet about every 2 weeks for a lancing, full-on surgery, or a checkup on his reoccurring abscesses. The poor guy. He had all the lower left teeth removed and antibiotic beads implanted twice in his jaw. But he recovered well each time, often ate immediately after surgery, and was still a happy, goofy guy. He's been lump free for about 2 months now. <BR> <BR> But poor Joe, he can't drink really well,... Fri, 7 Oct 2011 09:54:25 EST Cool things in life A list of cool things I did or saw recently: <BR> <BR> *A momma sea otter near our coastline with something on her stomach-a baby! <BR> <BR> *Got my nephew from school, took him to lunch, blasted Dubstep out the windows and cruised. <BR> <BR> *My abscess-ridden bunny has been non-lumpy for over two months. <BR> <BR> *Got a donated surfboard AND wetsuit for my CASA kid! <BR> <BR> *A new digital camera is on order, following the loss of our old one and our flip camera. I'm going to take a... Thu, 6 Oct 2011 10:56:01 EST Feeling Grateful I'm feeling really grateful. I'm not sure what exactly switched on in my head, but something major did. Instead of going through the motions of weight loss-the feelings of deprivation, the eating too much at a restaurant with the promise I would make it up elsewhere, the knowing you have to try it despite the fact your head isn't in it-something has happened. I've been tracking food and keeping in my ranges every day (ok, I was over a little one day!) for the last few weeks. I've been cooking... Mon, 3 Oct 2011 10:58:54 EST A real life Miracle I wanted to share this non-weight loss related experience of a miracle that's personal for me. <BR> <BR> In 2005, I did Team in Training and rode my bike 100 miles around Lake Tahoe as a fundraiser in honor of my boss who has non-Hodgkins Lymphoma. I was proud, and so, so glad I didn't have to do THAT again. The training is excellent, but crazy. <BR> <BR> In the summer of 2009, my cousin, Jennifer, was diagnosed with Leukemia. I grew up close to all my cousins, and she was only half a year ... Wed, 28 Sep 2011 15:07:56 EST Working on my aches and pains Woowee, I've been sleeping like crap the last few weeks. I've got some issue with my shoulders, and my back has been funky. But last night I took an Advil and slept awesome!!! I woke up with piss and vinegar and hustled off to the gym while the feeling held. My chiropractor wants me to go get X-rays, which is probably a good idea. I've also had allergy issues for a while, and all the tests show up negative so there isn't much that can be done. Food doesn't seem to be the allergy source either... Tue, 27 Sep 2011 14:01:10 EST Clawing my way to a 1 pound loss So I successfully tracked food for a whole week. Except for one day, I kept under my points. I was so thoughtful when I dined out, and weekends didn't kill me this time! So I admit, I was a little disappointed in my 1 pound weight loss. I mean, really. With that much attention, shouldn't it have been more? But then I realized that was probably 1 real pound lost, not water or because I ate really early the night before. Oh, and there was that other thing where my calorie range was too high bec... Mon, 26 Sep 2011 10:54:28 EST My reward I will lose 20 pounds by the end of the year-which won't be easy for me, but my reward will be I get to buy something Sharks hockey related from the store at the arena. I saw a shirt I might really like, and I said to my husband, "I think I should be able to shop at this store when I lose my 20 pounds at the end of the year". He agreed. And the next 20 pounds I lose will earn me a brand new Sharks jersey! This is a great reward! Sun, 25 Sep 2011 11:02:26 EST Sharks game and tracking successes I am super psyched to say I am on my sixth consecutive tracking day! Doesn't it help? I've stayed within or under my ranges each day, and have successfully eaten out. So huge for me, that's where I mess up the most. Tonight I'm going to Oktoberfest with my Hubby and some friends. Now there's a test. Just gotta eat mellow today. <BR> <BR> Sharks pre-season game was awesome. There was this completely obnoxious, possibly drunk young woman a few rows back who was so flippin loud. Then she starte... Sat, 24 Sep 2011 11:13:19 EST A Pivotal Moment in Starbucks So I went into Starbucks this afternoon. It's been warm, so it felt and smelled great. I was medium hungry and thirsty, and I thought I'd have a nonfat frozen mocha. As I stood in line, I thought maybe I'd have a mini scone. I looked up the nutritional values quick on my Spark mobile app, and thought, you know, a mocha will fill me up enough. <BR> <BR> That was wow enough, but then I saw they had a new drink-salted caramel frozen mochas. I am a huge salted caramel fan. So I thought, I total... Wed, 21 Sep 2011 19:52:50 EST Small successes Small steps, but I'm proud I ate within my calories and such and I tracked all my food. Two days in a row. I feel this is a huge step for me, even though it's only two days. If I can make it two whole days of tracking, why not three? And I really want to track for a solid week. Consistency is where I get stuck each time. If I can make it a habit, I know I can succeed. And the more I'm on Spark, the more tracking is on my mind! <BR> <BR> Have a great day, wherever you are! <BR> <BR> <em>48<... Wed, 21 Sep 2011 10:24:00 EST Food as fuel I am proud of how we handled food at the fair. We brought lunches in a cooler and ate it during the Best Dressed Goat competition. I can't believe all the fried crap they have there! It was fairly hot for our area, so luckily it didn't even look good. But I remember cinnamon rolls at the fair growing up-they were so amazing and gooey. I was tempted to get one because of the feeling. But I remembered that was a memory, and eating one again doesn't bring back the good times. It just makes you ... Tue, 20 Sep 2011 11:35:27 EST Off to the County Fair I'm so excited, I have not been to the fair in years! I was a little worried about fair food, so I did a little dialogue with myself about it using my non-dominant hand. Which, by the way, is such an interesting experience. I've heard it in several places, and was reminded about it in a Martha Beck book about weight loss. It's a way to access that inner voice you often ignore in the day to day. Anyway, I don't think it's going to be an issue, and I feel ok about bringing food with me. <BR> ... Sun, 18 Sep 2011 09:36:43 EST How to prevail Sigh. I'm frustrated at myself. I have been trying to lose weight by developing good habits and using my true enthusiasm for the reasons I want to lose weight. But I'm really having issues when I go out socially. When I plan ahead, it usually goes better. And I am doing better at home. I am super proud of myself in that area. I am much more in tune about what my body really wants versus eating what sounds good. But I'm still making poor choices, and of course the scale isn't moving. At least ... Mon, 12 Sep 2011 11:18:34 EST Weekend guests: a fun challenge! A quick entry here before I need to creep back into my studio to finish the baby kimono before the shower in 4 hours... <BR> <BR> We have lovely guests coming for the weekend. And I view this as a challenge! A challenge to eat well, to not overindulge, and to read the menu ahead of time if I can to be prepared! Bring fruit on drives, pretzel thins in my purse. I can totally do this! Sat, 3 Sep 2011 10:49:05 EST Starting the day with Power I've heard about this series of questions you ask yourself each morning to focus more on your day. I'm gonna try it here. <BR> <BR> 1. What important things do I want to accomplish today? <BR> I want to work on the items for my cousin's baby shower. I want to get a few chores around the house done. I want to eat well. I want to exercise. <BR> <BR> 2. How will I make today more productive and fun than yesterday? <BR> I will not watch TV as a break. I'll read or just thumb through a magazine ... Tue, 30 Aug 2011 11:34:04 EST Making strange but significant changes I'm leaving for San Diego this afternoon, from Santa Cruz. It is about 400 miles of driving. I won't get there until about 9pm. Maybe later. I almost always get up at the butt crack of dawn for a driving trip. I like to get places early and relax. This is a huge change for me, to be sitting here at 9am in my robe, not even packed. <BR> <BR> So why is this significant for Spark? <BR> <BR> Because this is a stretch for me to change my routine, how I do things, my workflow if you will. I ten... Tue, 17 May 2011 12:01:12 EST Morning pages work for health! I've been working on my creativity for a long time. By that I mean making time to do it, not being afraid of trying something and making a mistake or failing, maybe even making money from my projects someday. I followed The Artist's Way for a long time, mainly the morning pages. You are supposed to write three pages first thing in the morning. Yup, takes time out of the day, but the theory is you work through a lot of the stupid stuff that can hold you back the rest of the day. I've had succe... Mon, 16 May 2011 13:15:55 EST Try, try again Well...the whole eat when I'm hungry thing didn't go quite as planned, but you know, I'm just going to try again and not mentally flog myself for it. I will, however, own up to it here, somewhat publicly. I thought about why I ate when I was not hungry, and I really think I eat when I'm bored or procrastinating or need a break from my task at hand. It's like a weird hobby or something. I think I need to explore that more. <BR> <BR> So I just had some breakfast, and now I'm not hungry, and I... Sun, 15 May 2011 14:18:03 EST A crazy idea It's Friday the 13th, and I have this crazy idea today. I am going to eat when I'm hungry and stop when I'm not. Regardless how good the food is. I'm just gonna stop. I'm not going to eat anything today that I can't get again, so why not stop when I'm no longer hungry? The only potential hitch is... <BR> <BR> Can I recognize when I'm full, and will I listen to it? <BR> <BR> Sometimes I know I'm full and yet it tastes so yummy I keep on truckin', like it's an endurance event. Just push throu... Fri, 13 May 2011 11:50:02 EST Uncomfortable Self Discovery I guess they can't all be pleasant, or I wouldn't have an issue with my weight and health, right? After an uncomfortable conversation with my husband this morning, I realized how much I'm still using food as an emotional crutch. How I use it to soothe something inside that I haven't even acknowledged is troubling me. How I use my weight to keep away unwanted attention, or even maybe wanted attention. Hard stuff to think and talk about. And I'm so lucky my husband is understanding and compassi... Wed, 11 May 2011 11:43:22 EST How do I really feel about exercise? I always hated exercise. It meant I was giving up lunch at work, sleep at home, or time with my husband in weekends. I was sweaty at work or else had to shower there, taking more time. I get blotchy red in the face, like I'm about to collapse. I don't look gorgeous in workout clothes. I don't look like other people exercising. What's to like? <BR> <BR> My new job was getting really out of control, the group was totally disorganized, my commute was long. I stopped my exercise routine in order... Tue, 10 May 2011 10:35:59 EST Short memo to myself What do I need today? I'm feeling burnt out. Maybe skip watercolor class. Stay home, cook good food, and sew. What's the balance between skipping commitments when needed and keeping them? Is my body telling me to slow down already, or am I just tired? It's a rainy day, maybe I'm just missing my coffee since I got off of caffeine. <BR> <BR> I have so many questions for myself. But right now, this very second, I am enjoying the quiet house and thinking I should stay home, shower, and start se... Wed, 2 Mar 2011 10:49:59 EST Potatoes rock I just monopolized the office microwave for like 10 minutes and it was WORTH IT! I had such a great lunch. I nuked a potato and then heated up the Giant's Broccoli and Cheese frozen veggie side dish. When all was done (ok I admit it, I actually used our room's microwave and another down the hall at the same time), I had a huge bowl full of potato and broccoli and cheese. It is so freaking satisfying. I have to remember this because it's more healthy than most of the frozen entrees I bring and... Mon, 1 Mar 2010 15:42:22 EST Snowshoeing saved my weight loss Yah, ok, MAYBE I am being a little melodramatic. But in my last blog I talked about my 2-week houseguest who I allowed to throw off my groove. I had gained maybe 3 pounds which I was distressed about (having had a successful and relatively evenly paced weight loss prior). Then over Valentines Day, my hubby and I went off snowshoeing in the CA Sierra's near Boreal. I had always wanted to go. <BR> <BR> We took an Outdoor Class from REI, and they drove us from Roseville to Boreal. We tromped o... Wed, 17 Feb 2010 15:44:16 EST Creature of Habit Frankly I'm stunned at how much habit drives my weight loss routine. While some things in my life are very organized, I don't think of myself as a creature of habit. I often do things at the spur of the moment, I love change, and I'm very flexible. Yet with the arrival of a beloved friend who is staying with us for 2 weeks, I find myself 3 pounds up and stunned at my lackadaisical approach to my program (which had been really strong up to now). <BR> <BR> What is happening? <BR> <BR> 1. Lack... Mon, 8 Feb 2010 18:02:47 EST