HLANIER4's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HLANIER4 HLANIER4's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ A little bit of jogging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6258059 Today, I packed my walking clothes to go walking after work. I headed to the local hiking trails and walked, but during the walk I added in some jogging. It felt good. I actually jogged!!! Thu, 27 Oct 2016 19:20:35 EST Bad habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6256181 So, I'm fat and I realize this. It's not like I gained it over night or by eating healthily. It's so hard when I'm trying to do better, but then my defunct habits that have served me for years sneak in to take me down. Uggg. As we approach the holidays I'm fearful. Mon, 24 Oct 2016 05:31:18 EST I found muscle under the jiggle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6254190 So, I was cleaning out our spare room, which is my current resting place. In cleaning it out, I found some DVDs I ordered and never used. Well, with my expired gym membership I am missing cardio classes, so I decided to check it out tonight. Uggg. It was tough, but I finished. Now my jiggle is jelly. Wed, 19 Oct 2016 20:59:07 EST Moving down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6247144 Last week the scale didn't budget. It was the first time this had happened since I started in July. I was so sad. Then, I started having personal problems with my partner. Ack! Too much! Well, I've given up and moved into the guest bedroom. He's not worth my emotional well being anymore. Thankfully, I weighed in today and was down 4 lbs! Yay!!!! Thank God for dieting, since it's one reason I am not emotionally eating. Thu, 6 Oct 2016 05:07:34 EST Early start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6242518 My hubby has cataract surgery today at 10, so our idea was to sleep in late. Yeah, right. We were up earlier today than usual, so I put my time to good use. I took my doggy for an early morning walk and put in an hour of exercise:) Tue, 27 Sep 2016 08:12:09 EST Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6240965 Ok, here I go with my goals. My first major goal is approaching and I am worried. I'm down 46 lbs. And my first major goal is 70 lbs. I've lost before and when I get to a certain weight I always seem to fall off the wagon. I'm worried as the holidays approach and SP does my first big goal. I'm thinking about trying to find a support group or counselor to help me with the skills I need to be successful. Any suggestions? Sat, 24 Sep 2016 06:53:10 EST Blahs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6237928 I have a serious case of: -the blahs -munchies, though I'm full -sleepiness -all around lack of motivation Wish I could hit restart on the day. Sun, 18 Sep 2016 14:07:40 EST Going for it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6235556 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a778eebe-390e-4b3e-a797-e94142f4bf2d.jpg"> <BR> I decided on Sunday to make breakfast for the week ahead. I'm so glad I did! I've been able to add in healthy options that I wouldn't normally have time for in the morning. Wed, 14 Sep 2016 05:37:47 EST Hiking day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6233986 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/3ab0251b-30fa-4ae7-bacc-4b7802bfb62a.jpg"> <BR> We went hiking today. I thought I was making progress, but boy was this experience humbling. I found myself panting as we neared a steep incline. I didn't make it all the way to the top, but hopefully will next time. I'm not giving up on improving. I just realized I still have a lot to do to be where I want. Sun, 11 Sep 2016 12:43:13 EST Hiking day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6233985 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/594254de-6269-4d7d-8b1a-4d357480f54d.jpg"> <BR> We went hiking today. I thought I was making progress, but boy was this experience humbling. I found myself panting as we neared a steep incline. I didn't make it all the way to the top, but hopefully will next time. I'm not giving up on improving. I just realized I still have a lot to do to be where I want. Sun, 11 Sep 2016 12:42:50 EST Still hot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6233484 Ug, it's 90° once again today. I always enjoy warm weather, but enough is enough. I ended up on the treadmill this morning, because I didn't have the motivation to walk in hot weather once again. I want to go on cooler weather hikes, walk from one place to another without sweating, and just be comfortable again. Maybe I'll try a hike tomorrow or maybe swim. Sat, 10 Sep 2016 16:14:08 EST Keeping on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6231498 Have a wonderful day! May God bless your soul as you make your way through the journey of health. Wed, 7 Sep 2016 06:14:25 EST Still learning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6225448 So, I'm a perpetual dieter. I go up and down so much I feel like a plane. Well, I want this time to be the last time I start again on this journey. When I'm on it, I'm on it. But, when I fall I always fall back into bad habits. Well, we eat out a lot and one of the things I'm trying to learn to do is eat out healthier. I'm learning about what works and what doesn't. I've had a few stumbles, but so far I'm down 33 lbs. With 91 to go. I'm quarter of the way there and am excited to learn eve... Sat, 27 Aug 2016 14:37:47 EST Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6219015 Sometimes I feel "overgoaled". As part of my performance growth I'm to come up with goals for the year. Jeez, it's so much more difficult than I thought it would be. As I travel down the road to life I'm constantly having to come up with goals for various things, such as: finances, my family, my weight, my life in general and sometimes dinner goals. So, it's no wonder I'm beginning to feel like I'm being "overgoaled" and a little stressed about goals. Goals, goals, goals are everywhere. Wh... Tue, 16 Aug 2016 11:57:39 EST Surely fall is coming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6217320 I love fall. And I mean I love everything about Fall. I'm looking forward to fall, but as I've found with school starting back it's harder to stay on track. I love watching football and eating junk, while drinking a beer or two. But, this is one way I've landed where I am on the scale. My fall commitment, I hope: eat healthy snacks, while watching my Dawgs. Start hiking and enjoying the weather instead of just hanging out at festivals. Continue what I've started and not let myself down ag... Sat, 13 Aug 2016 14:39:09 EST Staying the course http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6213582 Some days I want to give up and go back to what's comfortable. It's so difficult to constantly feel like I'm being forced to make changes, but these are forced changes from within. I've been here before, but I always stumble, fall, stumble more, and fail. I stumbled in a big fashion on Friday, but Saturday I walked more and made better choices. But, still, comes the guilt. Now, I need to learn to love me and not hate myself when I stumble. Sun, 7 Aug 2016 07:53:30 EST First month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6209255 Well, my first month has come and I've met with the doctor. I've lost 20lbs. and my bmi is down by 4 percent. In my rational mind I know this will probably be the month with the greatest loss, since I made a lot of changes. And I mean a lot. But, my irrational mind, the dreamers part, starts spinning fantasies of losing this much every month. Wouldn't it be great to be at goal by the holidays? La la la. Dream world created, as well as setting myself up for failure. This has always been ... Sat, 30 Jul 2016 11:56:58 EST Unexpected walk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6207812 I had a really busy day today, but found myself with a little down time after dropping my son off at band camp. Since I had my dog with me I decided to check out a nearby lake park. While the park wasn't a huge distance, it was a great 30 minute piddly walk with my doggy. We enjoyed the wind coming off of the lake and the pleasure of just strolling around without his leash. This was my second walk of the day with him, but oddly more satisfying than our morning walks. Wed, 27 Jul 2016 19:49:24 EST Going back to school http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6206906 In a few days I will return to work for a new school year with some returning students and some new. Last year was my first year teaching both middle school and Sped. I had taught Pre-k for years, but was burned out and needed a change. It was a breath of fresh air switching to a whole new age and school. See, the last school I taught at was incredibly negative and after having to have knee surgery I felt tired, achy, and blah. It was definitely time for a change. What I didn't count on was... Tue, 26 Jul 2016 09:15:43 EST Charma http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6206045 So, last night we decided to go out for pizza. I was jazzed and at peace with the fact I was probably going to go over my daily calorie range. I've been really good with eating choices, as well as exercising. So, a little treat by eating what my family was eating was exciting. Well, I'm currently taking Adipex to help with my lifestyle change. It helps me to fill fuller faster and I'm not craving food as much. Well, I decided to also have a couple of light beers with dinner last night. Som... Sun, 24 Jul 2016 21:05:24 EST Rude or not rude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6205220 My honey bunny is very strict about cell phones at the dinner table, which to me is a good thing. I've always backed him and made sure to leave mine in another room, as well as our teenager also does. I feel guilty, though, lately when I pull out my phone during a meal and start tracking my calories at the beginning of dinner. My hubby never says anything, but it still feels like I'm hypocritical. Guilt. Sat, 23 Jul 2016 07:38:46 EST I'm going to float away... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6205032 I was told by the doctor to drink half of my weight in water everyday in order to lose weight. As she said this, I thought to myself "man am I glad I'm in the 2's and to the 3's". But with that being said, I'm beginning to feel like a boat sailing away in the water. Water, water, water everywhere. After 3 weeks, though, I am enjoying it more and more. I even found a cute Mason jar jug that has a cute, red straw. Fri, 22 Jul 2016 19:26:21 EST Childish... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6204389 I have recently found that acting, or at least eating, like a child benefits my weight loss goals. Unfortunately, we eat out more than I would like, so I've had to readjust my eating out mindset. I have recently begun ordering off of the kid's menu at some of my favorite places (Chick-fil-a, Cheddars) and have left very satisfied with the experience. In the past, I would eat way too much and walk away feeling stuffed. Now, though, I am left feeling satiated. Thu, 21 Jul 2016 14:24:31 EST A little more today... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6203074 Today, I feel better since I slept better than the previous night. I'm still suffering from a general lack of motivation. I have a million things I need and want to do, such as a nice long walk with the dog. Tue, 19 Jul 2016 09:20:12 EST Trying... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6202413 Today, I am trying to be upbeat and positive, but already on the inside I'm talking myself out of it. There are times when the confident person inside of me has all of the answers, but the there are the other times. It's not being depressed or a type of sadness, but more of a negative mindset I've accumulated over years of being fat and failed diets. Today, I'm tired from not sleeping well, but I'm going to try to make the best of my day. And hey, maybe I will try that Into to spin class. Ju... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 08:31:58 EST Learning to eat what I want http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201892 So, last night we went to Texas Roadhouse for dinner. Thankfully, I looked up the nutritional information before we went and had a loose plan in mind. Well, when we get there my hubby orders a drink, so I ordered a Mich. Ultra. Then, since he was starving he ordered a fried onion for the table😣. I started to pass, but instead stuck with eating a small amount and didn't feel deprived 😊. Hubby and I decided to share a steak, which means two sides. We both ordered the house salad, ... Sun, 17 Jul 2016 09:18:11 EST Doing better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4900012 I did horrible Friday night, but so far I have stayed on track today and yesterday. One day at a time. I am not beating myself up, but am trying to stay positive and do the best that I can do for the moment. And realize I did not put all this weight on over night nor did I develop bad eating habits and laziness over night. No matter what I am a newer me and have already lost 39 lbs. I have a long way to go, but I have already gone so far. Sun, 27 May 2012 14:00:10 EST Unplanned break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4897432 I knew I was going out of town, but I was unprepared about the mentality I would have for my week away from home. Some surprises: I made sure to eat off the salad bar every meal and a fruit at every meal, I watched for carbs and most importantly I skipped the morning bar traps (cinnamon buns and french toast sticks, as well as real bacon in favor of turkey bacon). I did allow myself to eat pancakes one morning, but only had one pancake. <BR> What shocked me? I came home with a blah mentality... Fri, 25 May 2012 10:27:39 EST Starving one day...Full the next http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4863771 Some days I feel as though I cannot get enough to eat and the calories for my diet just seem to not be enough. Then, some days I feel like the bare minimum is too many and I'm scrambling to eat my days worth of calories. <BR> <BR> How is it so? <BR> <BR> I try not to question the logistics of why my body is either starving or full, but it does make me wonder. I know that there can be many factors, such as, activity level, social atmosphere, stress, etc. But, I would just like my body and a... Wed, 2 May 2012 21:31:43 EST Summer is coming...Hide the swimsuit? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4858131 It happens every year: Summer comes and I stress about what I am going to look like in my swimsuit this year. Am I going to stress out this year? Absolutely, but I'll do it knowing that I am working on how I look and feel about myself. I don't think there will ever be a time in my life that I don't stress out this time of year, but my biggest hope is that I improve my health that this stress will diminish. <BR> <BR> I did read an article on SP that said one of the first things you should get... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 20:10:00 EST biggest loser class http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4850612 Okay, it's official, the Biggest Loser class at RockSolid kicked my out of shape butt. I came home coughing and hacking. What a great workout. Tue, 24 Apr 2012 21:23:38 EST Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4848857 Today, I was able to find my scale and weigh in for my weekly weigh in, which I missed last week. Well, my scale was packed and it made weighing a difficult thing. I was elated as I looked down and after returning to my diet I had lost 4.6 lbs in the 2 weeks since my last check in. <BR> <BR> Then, I went to put on my knee length boots. When I bought them they were so tight on my legs I would have to pull them over my legs. It's been 2 moths since I wore them (it's just been that hot outside... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 21:15:05 EST Moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4826448 Ok, as is my life couldn't be more complicated, we decided to move after living in the same home for four years. We decided it would be nice for a change, and that our landlord is just a little (lot) crazy and we needed a break from her. So, here I am recovering and trying to rest with half of my house in the old house and the other half in boxes at the new house. <BR> I haven't cooked in 4 days and forget tracking your food when all you do is eat out. I know that I have the tools to do bett... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 06:00:59 EST Post surgery thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4810313 Okay, my surgery went really well and I'm at home recovering. I feel a lot better than I thought I would. At this time, I only have tenderness and discomfort, which is good and bad. I am bored and having to rest, but feel well enough to do stuff. Oh, well. <BR> The good news is that my blood pressure was 112/84 at the pre-op. I am so very excited, because in October it was 144/98 and 133/98 at my physical in December. I have lost 29 pounds and this is the most remarkable development yet. I ... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 09:14:26 EST They fit!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4804558 I am the new advertisement for "they fit". My favorite capris that I used to wear now fit, which they haven't in over a year. Yay!!! Sun, 25 Mar 2012 20:54:59 EST Recooping http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4800485 Okay, so I party hard for St. Paddy's. I blew my diet the whole weekend and I knew it was bad the whole time, but I am back on my diet. I know I shouldn't have done it, but I also knew that I was burning out from the constant dieting. I know I need to learn to be bad in moderation, but some times it is so difficult. <BR> I am working on being a new, better me. But at times, I wonder "what is a new, better me?" <BR> I have done so many diets before, but only to find myself back to being a b... Thu, 22 Mar 2012 21:57:34 EST Hard work out. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4786287 So, as part of our commitment to being a healthier family my son and I have signed up for martial arts classes. Our package includes 2 classes a week plus the fitness class for weight loss/conditioning. Tonight, we did our first class and what a shock it was to realize how hard this class is going to work us. <BR> We were sweating, out of breath, and I believe a few oaths left under my breath as I had to push the weighted, kicking stand. But, what I did realize was that this was the first ni... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 21:29:22 EST ode to chocolate, sugar-free ice cream and peanut butter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4776360 Oh, how I love ice cream and peanut butter. It makes me sooooo happy after a nice long work out. I could sign it's praises to Jingle Bells. Wed, 7 Mar 2012 21:23:45 EST One more day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4767455 One more day at home with a sick child and fighting the boredom cravings. Hopefully, we'll all be back to normal, so that we can start getting outside and playing soon. Fri, 2 Mar 2012 16:10:14 EST Trying to get everyone else healthy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4764914 I have found that not only being sick can derail my diet, but my family being sick can derail all of my efforts. after being sick, I thought I was finally getting back on track. I was beginning to feel better and getting back to being healthy. Now, my hubby is sick and recovering. My son is now sick and on his way to the doctor here in a bit. I know that I am stressed, which if not careful leads to overeating. Here's hoping I can be strong and healthy during the time of sickness. Thu, 1 Mar 2012 09:31:43 EST Trying to feel normal after being sick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4757800 Okay, so I have been sick for the last 10 days. I have not worked out since 2/15/12, because I have had so much chest congestion. I decided that today I was going to get back to my 5k training plan, because I don't want to lose sight of my goals. I took the dog out and we walked 1.7 miles (at a very slow pace). I kept coughing and hacking, but overall it helped me to be able to get out and exercise. <BR> I know that I need to take it slow, and I felt that I did. I just want to be able to eat... Sun, 26 Feb 2012 11:22:11 EST Heart Healthy calendar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4713673 Yay! February is Heart healthy month! I plan on posting the calendar of tips at my school for parents to see. Tue, 31 Jan 2012 06:16:00 EST Yay. 2 more lbs down. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4711534 8 lbs down and 42 more to go for my first goal. Mon, 30 Jan 2012 06:05:11 EST Monday, again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4699663 This morning I woke up, then did the unbearable: weighed myself. I lost and I lost big!!! What a wonderful way to start one of the worst days of the week. Mon, 23 Jan 2012 19:03:11 EST Trying to change my lifestyle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4697550 Ok, here it goes, again, I am trying to make a lifestyle change. I commit, once again, to workout, change my eating habits, and (yes) to eventually quit smoking. I feel this time is different, though, because my first step was to actually visit my doctor and enlist his help. I'm glad I did, because I have learned my cholesterol is high and my weight really does need to come off. <BR> I pledge to do it this time, but not just for me. I pledge to do it for 11 year-old as well. He deserves to h... Sun, 22 Jan 2012 19:57:45 EST