HLANIER4's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HLANIER4 HLANIER4's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ The start and now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6340593 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/0306f8d0-54de-4111-a6ce-2d4bc17366d0.jpg"> <BR> So, I bought a new swimsuit off of Amazon and it came in yesterday. I tried it on and it fit! A size large! I started my journey at the end of June and have lost 101.5, so far. I have a hard time seeing it at times, so I did a then and now pic. I still have more to lose and I need to work on my mindset, but I'm getting there. In 24 lbs I will be at a healthy BMI range and at 34 I will be at an a... Wed, 29 Mar 2017 06:22:40 EST Monday done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6340052 Now, on to Tuesday and another busy day. Let's rock this. My goal: to be more pleasant, though I am exhausted. Tue, 28 Mar 2017 06:17:27 EST Weekends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6339533 Weekends are so hard. I find myself losing it every time. I need to focus and make it my goal to do better on Fridays. Once I get my Fridays down, then I can work on Saturdays. Must do better. It's about changing my mindset and my thinking. This is not a race, but a lifelong journey. Something that I do like: I get a lot of exercise and fitness in on the weekends. I will build on this 😎 Mon, 27 Mar 2017 06:12:05 EST Motivation blundering http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6337155 Well, I reached a huge goal, then went on a mini vacation. Uggg. It seems like my motivation after losing and going on vacation seems to have blundered. I need to refocus and remember this is not a race, but a lifelong journey. Wed, 22 Mar 2017 06:04:57 EST Down 101 lbs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6333719 So, I made it to my next really big goal: lose 100 lbs. I started on June 28th at 264.5 and have been really trying to find a way to change my mindset along the way. I'm down to 163.5 and my next goal is 140 lbs. Wow, 140. I never thought this might be possible. I had given up hope. I'm so blessed to have a great support system and when I feel discouraged they help to cheer me. As I am nearing my ultimate goal, I am beginning to realize I need to increase my positive attitude and realize... Thu, 16 Mar 2017 05:57:13 EST Oops http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6333230 I have a doctor's appointment on Friday and forgot to have my labs done. I guess I have to fast today and go after work 😣 Wed, 15 Mar 2017 06:15:17 EST Accepting compliments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6333092 Why is it so hard to accept a compliment? People are complimentary about my loss and all it feels like is an insult. Maybe it's because all I can still see is me from when I started. I try to tell my hubby that I have an issue, but he thinks I'm silly... I'm grateful for the loss, but still see the weight I still need to lose. Anyone else have this issue? Tue, 14 Mar 2017 21:27:54 EST Silly time change... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6332167 I know I feel miserable today and it's a Monday after time change. Uggg. Couldn't sleep last night. I had issues with food over the weekend. Ok, I'm done whining and ready to rock this morning. Mon, 13 Mar 2017 05:30:21 EST Rain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6330650 Woke up to a torrential rain storm. It's going to be a day. Fri, 10 Mar 2017 06:06:32 EST Consequences http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6330110 Well, I gained 1.5 lbs this week 😣😣😣. I keep going crazy on the weekends and eating way too much. I've been fine on other weeks, but it's finally caught up with me. I need a mind reset and to focus more on being healthier. Thu, 9 Mar 2017 05:42:13 EST Exhaustion and goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6329955 Well, tomorrow is weigh in day and my fingers are crossed for the big goal. It's been a long week and I am exhausted. Wed, 8 Mar 2017 20:30:10 EST Stress and time off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6329068 Well, soon I'm going to have a couple of days off from work. I teach middle school and I have a teenager, as well. So, when my son leaves to go on a band trip next I am going to take 2 days off and away from all teens. I love my son and my job, but sometimes even I need a break. Well, with needed rest comes anxiety and stress over making sure everything is going to be okay. Just breathe in and out one breath at a time is my new mantra. Tue, 7 Mar 2017 05:19:15 EST Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6324118 I had a feeling today was going to be a stressful day. I need a break. Thu, 2 Mar 2017 19:27:44 EST Leftovers and sandwiches http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6323550 I'm in a funk when it comes to cooking dinner, so instead we're having a find your own dinner tonight. Thankfully, I have a teenager and mostly self-sufficient partner. Me? I'm going to eat a tuna sandwich. Not my favorite, but very healthy. Wed, 1 Mar 2017 17:42:03 EST Another photo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6322111 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/8ab7f459-0871-457d-937c-d3fbfc726cda.jpg"> <BR> Keeping my time with my mom and son in mind as I head back to work. Mondays are always so rough and I feel like I could use more time at home. Once again, I have a busy week ahead of me. It's nice to have this picture of us for inspiration this week. Mon, 27 Feb 2017 05:39:57 EST Nice day to hike http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6321930 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/922c6fa0-3248-4456-a48b-0b14026b958a.jpg"> <BR> I'm going to let the photo say it all: Sun, 26 Feb 2017 19:08:20 EST Exhaustion http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6320188 I am having issues sleeping, which usually I try to take either an Advil PM or Melatonin. Last night I felt so tired, so I didn't take anything. Big mistake. I'm going to try to rock this day! Thu, 23 Feb 2017 05:57:45 EST Fitness Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6319502 Today is my 3rd Tuesday in a row of walking at school. It's nice to walk with others as I work on my fitness goals. Tue, 21 Feb 2017 20:05:08 EST Mondays http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6318979 What a beautiful day to have off today. I managed to take the doggy for a walk after I exercised this morning. It felt so good. It makes me more anxious for Spring, spring flowers, and more importantly, beautiful days. Mon, 20 Feb 2017 19:09:14 EST A sunny day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6318243 Well, it's sunny outside today. I think it's supposed to be good weather today. I'm going to try to clean house, get a nice dog walk and hopefully get some stuff done today. Sun, 19 Feb 2017 08:32:22 EST Exhaustion and goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6317290 I'm exhausted and finding the daily grind of everything is wearing on me. Maybe I need to set some small goals to help me focus on feeling better. Any ideas? Fri, 17 Feb 2017 06:18:13 EST Down 3.5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6316814 I'm down 3.5 lbs this week for a total of 96.5 lbs lost. I'm so close to my next goal that I can taste it. I'm so excited!!! Thu, 16 Feb 2017 05:26:07 EST Sidelined http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6316666 Here I sit with my workout clothes on and trying to get motivated. Well, I'm not sure I'm going to make it. I have bad knee pains where I once had ACL surgery and my side hurts for some weird reason. Maybe it's my body's way of sidelining me, so that I don't make the knee worse. I want to workout, but instead I'm making excuses and complaining. Well, I guess it will be a rest day and I will cut myself some slack. No more whining. We are growing. Wed, 15 Feb 2017 20:24:03 EST Good thing about insomnia http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6315803 The good thing about is that I was aware enough to get a short workout in this morning, which I plan on doing another short workout after work. My school has a "wellness Tuesday" initiative where we are able to earn a jeans pass for walking at least a mile after school on Tuesdays. I was nervous about it, but it was definitely fun last week. Also, I ended up walking/running with a coworker and had one of my best times for doing a mile. Let's rock this bad start with a good ending. Tue, 14 Feb 2017 06:08:42 EST Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6315246 It's a Monday and again I feel like I am just exhausted and going through the motions. I hope you have a great day! I'm going to try to fake it until I make it:) Mon, 13 Feb 2017 06:11:23 EST Good weather for an easy hike http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6314969 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/cf6ed09a-5bf0-44f7-9353-bac4ee6e3e96.jpg"> <BR> Well, it was gloomy today, but the perfect weather for a hike. I enjoyed some me time out in the woods. I'm glad I was able to carve out some time today. Sun, 12 Feb 2017 14:33:18 EST Gym membership http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6313794 Well, I've emailed a local gym to book a tour. I was going to one, but when the 3 month membership was up in decided to start hiking and working out at home. I need more, thpugh, so here I go. Fri, 10 Feb 2017 06:12:10 EST Negative feedback http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6313222 Last night, I was looking at wedding dresses and made a comment about how I liked one, but it would look horrible on me. Then, my partner made a comment about how I would look great in it. Of course, I dismissed him. Then, he goes on to say I'm starting to turn into skin and bones. Whaaaaat? I still have weight to lose. I'm not crazy. My bmi is still in the overweight range, so I know it's not a body image issues. I really believe that he's afraid of me loosing too much weight. We've been to... Thu, 9 Feb 2017 05:51:31 EST Ug. Rain=headache http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6313066 Yuck. My workout was sidelined by a headache. That totally bites! Wed, 8 Feb 2017 20:50:37 EST One week until VD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6312128 It's one week until Valentines Day. I like this holiday, because it's one of the few times my hubby becomes romantic. I find myself thinking, though, about some of the negatives about it, though. I keep thinking about the fact that chocolate is a big part of the day and part of me doesn't want it to be, but the other part does. I have a deep down love and obsession with it. Hearts, chocolate and wine, who could pass on these? Me. Well, I need to, because I can't handle them in moderation. ... Tue, 7 Feb 2017 06:14:32 EST It's Monday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6311559 Such a busy week this week between work, class tonight, doctor's appointment tomorrow, school meeting Thursday, and being the mom taxi it makes life crazy. My goal is to put in at least 300-350 minutes of fitness this week and stay on track for 6 out of 7 days, since I seem to be only to stick to 5/7. Weekends are so tough on eating correctly, but it's a mindset. I have to work on this. Mon, 6 Feb 2017 06:13:37 EST Go Falcons! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6311390 So, we decided to watch our home team at home this year. Food wise, I'm happy to not to focus on what I can eat and drink. I miss hanging out with my friends, but my crazy husband is such a fan that he didn't want to be bothered with others tonight. So, a mixed blessing? I guess so :) Sun, 5 Feb 2017 20:00:32 EST Size 12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6310826 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/2f74dc7d-9766-4c61-b59f-fb1d44a7b7b6.jpg"> <BR> I can't believe it! I can wear a size 12! I'm in complete and utter shock. Sat, 4 Feb 2017 18:34:07 EST Yay, it's Friday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6310006 I will be good today. I want to be good today. Friday is a tough day for me, so my goal is to make good choices today. I can do it! Fri, 3 Feb 2017 06:21:47 EST Oh, no http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6309853 My hubby went to bed early, so when I finished working out I turned off the tv. I could hear him snoring loud and clear already. Better to go ahead and just sleep in the guest bedroom, a.k.a. dog's room. He's in the process of completing a sleep test, so hopefully we'll get some answers soon. Somethings going to have to give soon. Thu, 2 Feb 2017 20:58:31 EST Hey everyone! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6309252 I always think that I want to write a profound blog with depth and emotion, but tonight I just want to say "hi". Wed, 1 Feb 2017 20:06:56 EST Do you think... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6308671 Those 30 day work out plans really work? Tue, 31 Jan 2017 20:27:55 EST So tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6307646 I'm so tired today and it's a Monday. How am I going to make it? I wish on days like today that I had a job where I could just shut the door and be a recluse, but with teaching it's not possible. My hubby has a sleep study this week, so hopefully we'll get some answers soon. He's killing me. I guess I need to look for something stronger to help with sleep. Long day today, of course. I have work, then class until whenever. I hurt my knee while stretching out, so working out is off the ta... Mon, 30 Jan 2017 06:12:57 EST Criticism http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6307304 I went to see a movie last night that had horrible reviews, but I loved it and was left wondering why it had horrible reviews. It makes me think of my life, though. I'm always looking for the horrible reviews of who I am. I'm not just looking for the reviews that target my looks, but of me as a person, a mom, a teacher, a student, and really everything else I am in life. I sometimes get so caught up in the negative that I forget to look towards the wonderful person I am and can be. It's on... Sun, 29 Jan 2017 14:37:03 EST When there's worry... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6306027 My partner told me last night that he's concerned about me loosing too much weight and becoming unhealthy. Now, I've lost 90 lbs and still have 15-20 lbs until I am at a healthy BMI . I would like to lose another 44 lbs, which will still keep me at a healthy BMI. I think he's more worried about me changing who I am and our relationship. We've been together for 13 years now and have had our issues, which getting married is one of the biggest ones. So, loosing weight is now highlighting othe... Fri, 27 Jan 2017 05:53:30 EST Down a little more http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6305423 Today was weigh in day. I'm down 90 lbs. I'm so close to my next goal of 100 lbs! It's so exciting. I'm hoping I make it by St. Patrick's day. I'm trying to start thinking about what happens when I make it to my ultimate goal, which is 44 lbs from my weight now. It seems so close, but yet so far away at the same time. I've got this! Thu, 26 Jan 2017 05:17:34 EST Nice weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6304830 I long for Spring time when the weather will be nicer and I will have enough daylight to actually feel like going outside to work out. I long for the time when I can plan my garden and start planting flowers. Oh, sunny days how I miss you. I love Spring and Fall, because they are mood changers. I need to dig deeper into me, so that I can find a way to motivate a winter blues mood change. Wed, 25 Jan 2017 06:05:07 EST Brussel sprouts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6303979 My dog loves brussel sprouts. It's hilarious, because he'll beg and beg for them when I cook them. He eats most vegetables, except lettuce. My husband says that the dog will eat anything I eat, which is kind of like children. My son will eat most anything I eat, both good and bad. It's hard to always eat healthy, but I realize I have two more reasons to eat healthily. I have to be a positive role model for my son and dog. Well, one more than those two, as well. When I eat fruit and veg... Mon, 23 Jan 2017 19:41:27 EST Sunday Football http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6303331 Well, today was a lazy and a busy day all at the same time. What? How does that happen? Well, I awoke early this morning and lazed around and watched t.v. for a bit, while drinking coffee. Eventually, I changed and worked out, then took the doggy for a walk. About the time I showered and dressed it was time to leave. We drove for over an hour to UGA to pick up my son from the band thing he's been at for 4 days. Sit and wait. Sit and ride. Then, we picked up my son and walked around Athens... Sun, 22 Jan 2017 20:12:02 EST Must. Have. Sleep. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6302750 So, I started my day by working the concession stand at my school's BB tournament. It was great. Also, I passed up pizza, which is huge for me. I was still a little tired from many nights of not sleeping when I came home. I had a million things to do, but ended up taking a 3 hour nap. It felt really good, but I ended up not working out or doing some other things I needed to do. Oh, well. Sleep is always welcome after not doing so for so long. Hopefully, I will sleep tonight. Sat, 21 Jan 2017 21:32:01 EST Fasting and weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6301755 I started my Daniel's Fast almost 3 weeks ago. I decided to log my calories and nutrition this year, which I'm glad I did. I found that I was taking in so few calories and realized that was why I have been so fatigued in years past. I started adding more and more fruits, vegetables and flax seed, as well as some peanut butter. I love that this has helped me to reset my mindset about food awareness and health. There are so many other spiritual benefits, but those are some of the things I ... Fri, 20 Jan 2017 05:56:23 EST Oops...Way, way too much salt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6301520 For some reason I crave salt all of the time. I put it on everything. Uggg. I find myself dumping it and dumping it on on my food. It tastes wonderful and I keep wondering when I'm going to blow up with salt. Anyone else have this problem? Thu, 19 Jan 2017 18:53:39 EST My crazy kitty cat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6300942 I sit here sweaty, smelly and reeking of workout smells. Everyone else is keeping their distance, but not my crazy kitty Katniss. It's amazing how much animals love us no matter how smelly, fat, crazy or out of this world we are. For Christmas, my hubby gave me a dog necklace, so that my dog is always with me. Now, when I'm stressed at work I can play with it and now I'm going to be okay. Crazy cat lady? Goofy dog lover? Most likely to both. Wed, 18 Jan 2017 20:25:25 EST So, tired... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6300215 It's so rough when my hubby keeps me up with his snoring. I feel like I move through the motions of the day. So, today I was so tired that I was super wound up and unable to stay on task with anything. Of course my students loved it. One was trying to fall asleep today and a big part of me thought that it would be so nice to institute nap time. I made it through the day, but with a headache and sheer exhaustion. Tomorrow will be better. I can do this. Must stay awake for one more hour and... Tue, 17 Jan 2017 19:54:38 EST "Remember who the enemy is..." http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6299150 I was watching "Hunger Games " last night and this morning. They said this to Katniss a few times in the movie and it had me thinking. Who is the real enemy in my weight loss journey? Am I? Is food? Is it the unrealistic goals I set? Maybe there's no real enemy, but it did inspire me to think about my mindset and how I keep saying I want to work on mindfulness with my weight loss. Most days it's tough and I find I go through the motions without thinking about what I'm doing. My goal thi... Mon, 16 Jan 2017 09:51:02 EST