HJFOGARTY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HJFOGARTY HJFOGARTY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 7/26. Thank you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6392267 The other day I posted a blog about starting over again. And I had the usual encouraging comments that I appreciate so greatly. And you know who you are and I thank you. But I also had a comment that frankly pissed me off. At first. This person doesn't know me or my situation. But quickly turned my blog into something that it wasn't. And turned me into something I'm not. But it also made me think. For what this person doesn't know is I have declared my life already. I have walked away from ... Wed, 26 Jul 2017 11:03:45 EST 7/24. Another starting over post http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6391414 Yep I'm starting over again. I can't seem to find my stride. And I keep falling off track. Life gets busy and I slack off. That is something I cannot do. I'm finding as I'm getting older it gets harder and harder to stay focused on the task of getting my weight back down to something healthy for me. So I'm going to try again. Today I got up and right into exercising. Because of rain I chose to spin so I wouldn't skip my cardio. I also joined a couple small challenges. For example 30 days t... Mon, 24 Jul 2017 10:45:36 EST 6/5. Looks like I've done it again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6371427 I sometimes don't know what's wrong with me. I can't seem to stay on track for more than two days. Here it is 5 June and I've already missed blogging once and I'm eating ice cream again. I am not staying focused. I have every good intention of losing this weight. And I realize I don't have the support I should. But I do want to try. I just keep setting myself up for failure. Easily sidetracked. And I'm not staying focused. I need help. Losing weight isn't easy. I know this already but why oh... Mon, 5 Jun 2017 23:15:00 EST 6/3 beautiful day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6370505 Well, my garden is almost done. We had a week of rain that set me back. But things grow like mad here so I'm not worried. I'm hoping for a great garden. And it actually is the first "real" garden of this size in years. The past few years I've had container gardens and have been very successful. So tomorrow I'll be done. And I tried something new. I put newspaper down under a light layer of top soil to help prevent weeds and also help hold in moisture. I've read a lot about it and that at the ... Sat, 3 Jun 2017 22:45:23 EST 6/2. Another busy day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6370083 Yes it was busy but I'm here and owning up to my brownie sundae for dessert. I added it to my day and with all the gardening I did today I was still within my limits. Who would have thunk it. Lol. I'm an ice cream-a-holic. I admit it. One bite and I could eat it all. So a bit proud that I didn't have more. So I feel accomplished. A good thing and a good day. Then after dinner I saw the most amazing rainbow. So bright and lovely. Icing on my day. Guess it goes to show me that this is my ... Fri, 2 Jun 2017 21:42:13 EST 6/1-another new start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6369548 I am not going to lie. Having to start over stinks. The good thing is I did not regain the weight that I had taken off when I started over again the first part of this year. However my new life is a bit more hectic than I thought it would be. When caring for an older person you can't always predict what's going to happen. When they might end up in the hospital for longer periods of time. Which make staying on track a lot more difficult. When lots of people are at the house and you need to sta... Thu, 1 Jun 2017 15:31:41 EST Days 18, 19, and 20. Where does the time go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6345957 I have been trying to make it a point to blog every day. The last two days I have missed. I have no excuse other then I was exhausted and did not get to a computer. The person I'm taking care for has had the flu or something so that's been a lot of hands-on care-giving. Not hard work but constant. I'm not complaining but it wipes you out. I've had no time for me and the scale proved that this morning. My first gain since getting back on track. Only a pound. But it was a gain. I've been happy ... Sun, 9 Apr 2017 10:53:42 EST Day 17. Long day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6344499 it was just a very long day. I didn't get to bed till after midnight. And I didn't get my blog posted. So this is just a blog to keep me on track and not miss my day. Today was just packed full of things that needed to get done. My house has sold and therefore we need to finish cleaning out the shed by the 21st. We still had stuff in the trailer from the last time Jim had emptied the house. So we had to take it to the storage unit. He also started his new job and had to be at orientation. Th... Thu, 6 Apr 2017 05:18:58 EST Day 15 & 16: mini goal complete! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6343573 Well I couldn't post yesterday due to the wind storm that took out the Internet. But I reached my mini goal of reaching 185! 185.2 to be exact but I started at 206.2 so I consider it goal met! Now to my next mini goal of being out of under 180. I know I can do it. Just need to take it slow and steady. <BR> <BR> I can make it happen. I'm staying on track with food and drinking lots of water. But what is making it happen for me is exercise. On days I get it in I have a good scale day on da... Tue, 4 Apr 2017 08:35:22 EST Day 14: down 20 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6342892 It's official! I've dropped my first 20 lbs. I'm happy to reach this point and just 1 more lb and I'm at my first mini goal. I can do it!! <BR> <BR> I realize that I'm going to have good and bad days. I'm glad the last few have been good. Today the sun was shining and it was about 50 degrees out. Today was a rest day but I still got in some walking. Tomorrow I'll be am ping up the workout again.with my goal within reach I can't wait to make it a reality. <BR> <BR> One day at a time. I ... Sun, 2 Apr 2017 22:23:32 EST Day 13: a new month with new goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6342184 To date since starting over again I have removed 19 pounds. Several inches. And for the most part my energy has increased. I called this A huge win! For whatever reason starting things on the first of the month works better for me. I'm able to visualize the days and how long I've been doing something. So my efforts to start this in the middle of the month I'm sure aided to a bit of my lackluster performance. Now I'm not saying my performance has been bad. But it certainly hasn't been what ... Sat, 1 Apr 2017 11:18:05 EST Day 11 & 12. Struggling but not gaining http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6341973 Well yesterday I was just plain hungry. No idea why, just so hungry. I tried to make good choices but I struggled. Then the person I'm here supporting had an episode that caused me to be up most of the night worrying and not sleeping. Thankfully she was fine just scared herself then gave herself a panic attach which in itself is scary. So she was fine today and I was exhausted. <BR> <BR> Today I didn't eat everything near me but I didn't get in any spinning. I was hoping to, but it just di... Fri, 31 Mar 2017 22:48:26 EST Day 10. On the go but planned ahead http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6341022 Today was trying but by planning ahead I was ok. The person I'm caring for had to have cataract surgery today. We had to be there early and then hurry up an wait. Not knowing how long we would be made it a but of a challenge. But I thought ahead and brought some healthy snacks to allow me to make it until we got home for lunch. I sure was glad because we didn't get home til 2:30. A long morning but it went well and she is doing great. Can't wait to see if the scale is kind in the morning. Ev... Wed, 29 Mar 2017 22:58:20 EST Day 9- a better day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6340300 Well today feels like a better day. My hunger is under control. My eating has been on target. Having more rain here today. So my walk was cut short. But I got something in. Also did a lot of housework. So I'm getting things done and I'm finding a routine in my new environment. I'm stressing just a bit because my house is now under contract and a sale pending date on 21 April. Although I'm very relieved that it's under contract, I'm also nervous because that means I have no back up plan. Owni... Tue, 28 Mar 2017 14:59:01 EST Day 8. A very hard day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6339950 Well I survived this day. But I was hungry all day and had to fight myself not to eat. And not only eat but I craved the wrong things. But I didn't cave in. I drank water and kept to plan. I didn't get outside as much as I wanted because of rain. But I'm hoping tomorrow will be a better day. Stay strong and tomorrow will be a better day. Mon, 27 Mar 2017 22:48:39 EST Day 7. Weekending always stinks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6339421 Lol. Weekends are hard. I have always struggled with weekends because I have so many things to get done that I don't make the time for me. I forget to eat properly and delay my progress. This weekend I feel I did well enough yesterday and ok today. Could have drank more water but food was ok. I could have avoided the cup cake but it was just one so could have been worse. I'm still going to live and making better choices on my plan. So I consider the weekend a success. But it still stinks that... Sun, 26 Mar 2017 22:12:00 EST Day 6 - staying on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6338857 Well today the scale was up just a bit from yesterday. But that's fine because I'm still under the 190 Mark. I know it was from staying up late and snacking more than I should have. Today is a better day. My food is on target. I'm drinking plenty of water. And I've been walking more today I'll keep this post short because I've got things to do weekends are always busy. <BR> <BR> Stay strong and take care of yourself. Make each day count. I repeat these things to myself several times a ... Sat, 25 Mar 2017 16:01:12 EST Day 5. Taking the good with the bad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6338423 Well not really all that bad. Lol. Today I woke to a small removal. And any removal is better than a gain. I did it to myself - after waking to see myself under 190 for the first time in a long time I knew I would need to keep going strong. That's when life tosses you a curve ball. It is the time you find out just how committed you are. I'm trying to not eat after 7 pm which is hard on me because I like to have a snack before bed. I've been doing well and then I needed to stay up much later t... Fri, 24 Mar 2017 16:23:42 EST Day 4 - I'm out of the 190's http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6337819 Well it is a great day!! my scale read 189!! I can't believe I'm out of the 190's again!! It seems like all I could do was gain and gain so it feels great to remove! <BR> <BR> I'm sticking to my plan and drinking water - water - water and making good food choices. Today I'm going to add in a bit of additional exercise. I've been just walking but I know to tone I need weights or atleast full body exercises. so I'm going to add some in today. slow at first so I don't burn myself out. ... Thu, 23 Mar 2017 11:44:29 EST Day 2 and 3 - making it happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6337266 Well, in all my excitement - I didn't make it online to blog yesterday. It was in my plan, however, my new job/lifestyle is very different and doesn't always afford me the time to get to a computer. I do try to use my phone as often as I can, however, it isn't the easiest thing to blog from. the computer is easier by far. So a lame excuse, but the truth. <BR> <BR> I had a great day yesterday - stuck to my plan and was awarded with a weight removal this morning. I am almost out of the 19... Wed, 22 Mar 2017 09:30:04 EST Day 1. Again - starting over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6335747 Well here I am again. Starting over. I finally settled in to our new location. I'm getting organized. Making good choices. But I need to buckle down and get on track. It's the only way I'm going to reach the goals I've set for myself. I need to add more exercise not just walking. I need to add more water. And then I'll start to see changes happen. I'm feeling positive about my plan and that gives me encouragement. I need that. Since starting over in January I've dropped 13 lbs. so that i... Mon, 20 Mar 2017 10:40:57 EST Day ????? I can't keep up! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6304474 This is terrible. I really hoped I could make some time every single day to just blog a little bit about what's going on and how I'm doing. And I haven't been able to make the time. Trying to get my house ready to sell. The thought of moving and all the packing I'm doing. Still working 48 hours a week. I'm running on empty. I've lost almost 12 pounds. Not really where I had hoped to be but it's better than gaining any of it back. I've managed to stay away from dairy for the most part. And mo... Tue, 24 Jan 2017 13:46:31 EST Day 17: working hard to get things done. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6300004 I'm going to keep it short and sweet today. I'm working hard to get things done. Every day is one day closer to moving day. And once that happens life will decompress. Stress will be gone. And I will have the ability to concentrate on myself more. So I'm just going to take one day at a time. Do the best that I can each day. And move forward. Knowing that my future is bright. Things will go well. On a side note. The weekend weight that I regained which was only a pound. Has come back off plus... Tue, 17 Jan 2017 12:53:27 EST day 16: weekend kicked my butt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6299343 well - I suck! LOL I said I would try to stay on track on the weekend and I failed. <BR> <BR> This morning I hopped on the scale and yup - up a pound. I know it isn't much and it will come back off - but really! why do I do this to myself? weekends tend to get so busy and I forget to eat or drink my water - I am in the get it done mode and I don't stop. Yesterday I spend the day painting my house. I can't list it until I have the cosmetics done and it needs to get done. Listing mea... Mon, 16 Jan 2017 14:37:20 EST Day 15: missed the day completely http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6299334 Well nothing much to say other than I hate weekends!! not really! but I do hate that I'm so busy that my life basically stops. I lose track of myself and am on the get it done now train. which means I'm off the stay on track train. <BR> <BR> This is why working is good for me - I stay focused and on track. <BR> <BR> end of todays blog - note to self - STAY ON TRACK! even on weekends. LOL Mon, 16 Jan 2017 14:24:36 EST Day 14: weekends are too busy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6298183 I sit here knowing that today is Saturday. And find myself falling back into my old habits. A busy day. No time to stop. No time to think. Just keep going. Errands to run. Things to pack. I just keep going. I did get in the water today but not enough yet. Thankfully there's still more time. I did eat today. And I actually had no time for mindless snacking. So that alone saved me a lot of problems. But I have so much to get done. And I need to keep going. Normally I wake up in the morning an... Sat, 14 Jan 2017 19:56:20 EST Day 13: TGIF it's all about follow through for me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6297381 Today is Friday. I am gearing up for yet another busy weekend. Weekends are when I fall off track. And undo all the progress I've made. But I'm not going to allow it this weekend. I've set the timer on my phone. So I'm reminded it's time to drink my water or time to eat. I don't want to get too busy that I forget. I haven't seen the scale move anymore this week. But I'm not gaining even though I'm not removing. I'm not going to beat myself up about it. I know the first week is a huge loss. ... Fri, 13 Jan 2017 12:56:45 EST Day 12: make the time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6296941 So today is day 12 of being back on track. And all in all I think I've done pretty well. I did miss blogging one day, yesterday. But I'm determined to stay the course. I know missing one day of blogging isn't a big deal. But it sets me up to miss more days. So I know I need to stay the course. Be diligent and make sure I follow through. Tonight was a test for me. We were invited out to dinner. In my mind I passed. I got a small turkey dinner gravy on the side which I did not use. I usually... Thu, 12 Jan 2017 20:07:04 EST Day 11: missed a day blogging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6296471 Ug! I missed blogging. I don't want to fall into that routine because that means my mind is off on something other than making this work. And yes I was really busy yesterday. No excuse! I thought of it right before bed but once I'm tired I'm out like a light. So today you get a double dose. Here is my scolding myself for not making this time for me to reflect about what I'm doing and feeling. It helps me sort it all out. And yes stay on track. It's important to find a direction to succ... Thu, 12 Jan 2017 06:32:17 EST Day 10: staying positive is key http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6295404 Today is day 10. I don't like roller coasters! But it appears that is exactly what life is. one really big roller coaster! The ups, the downs, the fast turns, the slow climbs, it's all there. And really most of a roller coaster ride I don't mind. The part that gets me is the sudden drop. That makes your stomach feel like it's going to come right out of your ears. I hate that!!! And that's why I don't ride roller coasters. But trying to get myself healthy again. Get myself back on track.... Tue, 10 Jan 2017 14:41:50 EST Day 9: finding my way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6294651 Today is a milestone. I've been a whole week without dairy products. And I survived. Lol. It's been a really good week for me. I haven't really craved sugar and sweets. And I've cut all of that back drastically. I've stuck hard and fast to the straight narrow. Making sure I'm getting in my vegetables plenty of protein and I've even limited the carbs. Another big one for me was increasing my water intake. It was something that I needed to do. And I'm feeling better. One day at a time that'... Mon, 9 Jan 2017 14:10:32 EST Day 8: change can be hard http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6294045 Today has been a long day. I have held onto some of my mothers things since she passed over 26 years. Ceramic molds. Tons of ceramic molds. I was hoping to one day have a shop of my very own to carry on her legacy. But it won't be happening. Today I gave them all away to a young girl who has big dreams. Because I've taken a job out of state I have to move and I don't want to move or store them again. So it's time to let go. And although I'm a bit sad. I'm relieved to have it over. She was t... Sun, 8 Jan 2017 17:48:23 EST Day 7: weekends worry me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6293122 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c92cef5b-0c2c-4bd3-8d2c-ef21dd6999c0.jpg"> Today I woke up and I do my morning thing and I take my morning weight. I used to write it down and hide it in a drawer. Just for me. But lately since starting this new year, I take a picture of it. I know it's weird. But today I was below 200 pounds. When I'm having a weak moment I can look at the picture and feel proud for what I've accomplished in just a week. Weekends are where I blow it. Are u... Sat, 7 Jan 2017 10:08:06 EST Day 6: one day at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6292409 Yesterday I blogged about stress eating and making sure I pay attention to what I'm eating. Being mindful of my meals. Making sure I drink all my water. And I did just that. This morning when I stepped on the scale as I have every morning since I started this renewed journey. The scale read 200 pounds. I haven't been there in a long while. Honestly this has been the heaviest I've ever weighed in my entire life. Not only regaining what I had previously lost but gaining more and it wasn't stop... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 07:37:12 EST Day 5: working hard to keep stress eating at bay http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6291943 I've been here before. Stress. It can get to you. It's not like I'm really stressed. It's more mental for me at the moment because I'm going to be changing jobs I'm going to be moving out of state i'm going to be tipping my life upside down. All for the better. But it doesn't change that it's stressful. For me, I tend to fall back to my old habits of mindless eating. Something I do not want to do. So I be sure to pack my lunch. healthy snacks. And I set out my water so I know I'll drink it... Thu, 5 Jan 2017 13:24:00 EST Day 4: 2017 is my year to make things happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6291390 Today I'm at an all-time high. I weighed in this morning and I've dropped 5 pounds since I began. Makes me feel great but I'm staying the course and I'm on track. I'm eating healthy I haven't been having cravings I'm drinking my water I'm doing the right things. Life has been a bit stressful the past few years between getting divorced, moving, changing jobs, it's been a struggle at times. This was a large part of why I regained all my weight. So wanted to get back on track this year was a ... Wed, 4 Jan 2017 19:21:59 EST Day 3: making it work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6290358 Today I'm feeling good. I'm excited to be back on track and my attitude is strong and positive. The scale was good today and I'm down 4 lbs. I realize that the first week back on track you drop a "big" number so I know this won't be a normal amount. But it sure does make me smile. It gives me strength to keep going. I packed my lunch this morning and Jim even asked me to help him along. He is a coffee drinker and likes his sugar. He asked my help in finding a good alternative and was able t... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 11:54:07 EST Day 2: making positive choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6289577 So it's day two and I stayed on track yesterday which makes me very happy. I'm down a pound. That also makes me happy, but I realize it's just water weight and the first week is just your body adjusting to the changes you're making. Honestly I'm just happy to see the scale move in a downward direction. I've been watching it go up and up and up for so long that this is a good thing. Today's food was packed and ready to go no second-guessing and that's the type of accountability I need. I'v... Mon, 2 Jan 2017 13:48:11 EST Day 1. A new start for a new year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6288686 I realize the first of the year marks a lot of firsts but for me it's not a first I've been here before. I started the journey in 2006 to get healthy and it took me several years but I was there, I made it. But then life happened I got divorced, I injured my knee,I change jobs, I moved, I changed jobs again, and I regained all the weight I had lost, Plus some extra pounds. I'm not healthy, I'm not happy, and I need to make a change today. So I'm starting over. One day at a time. Makin... Sun, 1 Jan 2017 13:32:33 EST 10/10 ready to vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5510209 this one will be quick - I'm packed and ready for my vacation - one more day of work and we leave early Saturday morning. I'm excited to get going and enjoying the week of relaxation and then when we get home we talked and we are going to re dedicate ourselves to us and healthy lifestyles - he wants to feel better and so do I <BR> <BR> my food was ok today but again no workout to speak of - walking and that was all but it wasn't a straight 30 minutes it was scattered here and there throug... Thu, 10 Oct 2013 21:27:45 EST 10/8 no results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5508298 this blog isn't about weight loss this week - I've been holding my own and i'm ok with that. <BR> <BR> this one is about my hearing. something I've not talked about. I have hated to even think about this much but I am losing my hearing. I have been having issues with my ears for a few years - last march before my vacation I had a mild infection and went to the doctors before we left - I didn't want to cause damage flying if it could happen. they looked at my ears and said your fine - i... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 20:13:02 EST 10/7 rainy day blues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507044 I really don't enjoy rainy days but we need them. Today is rainy and cold and just damp to the bone. makes my body ache more than usual. a sign that yes, I'm getting older. it does happen to us all one day or another. lol on the bright side I'm leaving for my vacation on Saturday and the temps there have been in the 80's - yup - I've been watching! lol I can't wait to be on the beach enjoying that sun and just relaxing!!! I need it! <BR> <BR> If there was a reget to be had about thi... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 13:37:27 EST 10/6 getting closer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5505938 well today is a rainy day here and I'm busy volunteering at the assisted care facility. we have been enjoying the morning with coffee and donuts - both of which I don't eat. I've never been a coffee drinker at all - when I was expecting my daughters I couldn't even have it in my house just the smell of it made me sick. thankfully that doesn't happen now - lol - but I still don't drink it and probably never will. But I do enjoy hot chocolate and tea from time to time. today being wet and ... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 11:41:42 EST 10/4 head colds don't help http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5504569 yup it's true - a head cold doesn't help at all!!! I had such great intentions today - and wham a full blown head cold complete with sneezing and coughing and the pressure behind my eyes is incredible. It has, however, hampered my eating because nothing at all tastes good. so one bonus no junk food - lol although I have been good lately I do drift to the bad side every once in a while. lol <BR> <BR> but I also had plans to walk at lunch today and just couldn't my head is pounding and my... Fri, 4 Oct 2013 16:02:34 EST 10/2&3 changing your mindset first http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5503166 I know this sounds like a broken record - but for me it is so true. I have to change my mind set first. . . . <BR> <BR> I'm not young anymore - I don't bounce right back into shape. haha not that I ever did bounce into shape - haha but my mind does terrible things to me. it allows me to become complacent and relaxed. not a good thing when you are fighting for better health. <BR> <BR> so for me - I lose a few pounds and figure sure I can have onion rings - really???? no I can't. bec... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 06:37:52 EST 10/1 a new month and a new day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501836 I always believed in making the best of what you have been given. I have found over the years that I haven't always done that. I have allowed myself to feel down and not worthy. I let my sadness take over and really believed that I just didn't deserve to be happy. well I do deserve to be happy. I have been given a second chance at happiness and I for one am going to capitalize on that second chance and new day. <BR> <BR> Now I have to keep moving forward even if it is only one step at... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 21:08:51 EST 9/29 volunteer day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5499281 here I am volunteering at the assisted care facility today and loving it. we do coffee and donuts in the morning and then today I get to make some apple pie cup cakes. Everyone seems excited about them and I'm happy to make them too. It is one thing I do enjoy - baking. <BR> <BR> It has been a good weekend - we had great weather yesterday and got to get out and grab a few things needed to wind up the packing for our trip in a few weeks. 8 days away will really do us both some good. I'... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 12:27:37 EST 9/26 feeling stronger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5496711 today was a good day - I got up earlier than usual and took my time making my morning plans - my sweetie had my breakfast ready to roll and even packed me a great lunch he sure does take good care of me. it set me up for a great day and I have a positive attitude going into my day - work will be full and busy but I have the confidence needed to make it happen the right way. <BR> <BR> isn't it funny how an act of sweetness can really make your day just that - sweet! I have alot to get done,... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 09:29:43 EST 9/25 a long long day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5496285 well today just was long - work was not fun and my boss has been like a crazy person lately and because of that he makes me crazy too. I can't seem to get anything done because as I get started he is right there giving me something else to do or adding more to my plate - today I was on my last string. not a good day. I did however, stay strong with my food - stuck to the plan. no extra exercise but I did get in a bunch of walking. so it felt good. had to grocery shop tonight and was hap... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 21:12:24 EST 9/24 taking the time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5495200 well I'm sure we all know how precious time is. but do we all realize that even on a busy day we can take the time for ourselves? I'm working on relearning that. I've been trying to regain my footing and relearning about myself and what I need to succeed. it isn't always easy. I have a lot going on and sometimes I just forget about taking care of me. this can't happen any longer. I need to be strong and make my day happen to keep my eye on my goal of better health. my food has been g... 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