HEYITSLISA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HEYITSLISA HEYITSLISA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ when life comes knocking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6158211 You have to answer. Despite REALLY wanting to just pull the blinds, lock the doors, and pretend you're not home! <BR> <BR> I'm not one to adapt to change very well. I like things to stay the same. For a long time my life was just that. And I was thriving. <BR> <BR> At the end of 2013 I weighed the lowest I had in decades. I also found out that the company I had worked for since 1985 was closing its doors. <BR> <BR> March 2014 I went back to school. <BR> June 2014 the gym I had been going... Sat, 7 May 2016 11:55:17 EST I'm still here... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6147066 Just popping in to say hi to all my Spark friends. It may seem I've been MIA, but I'm still around. <BR> <BR> Doing some serious struggling lately, not only with diet and exercise but just with life in general. <BR> <BR> I really have nothing to complain about, yet I still do. Having a hard time finding my "happy", but I'm still looking. Hoping the more spring-like weather will help. <BR> <BR> So, I'm here, I'm trudging along, I'm lurking. Reading blogs but just staying rather low-key. ... Thu, 21 Apr 2016 08:12:36 EST notes to self http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6108302 10 minutes of exercise is completely doable. Quite your whining, pause the TV show you're watching, and just get up and do it. <BR> <BR> It is not unreasonable to have a healthy snack in the evening, but you know that one snack leads to two, which leads to way too many. Unless you are seriously starving and on the verge of passing out from hunger, the kitchen is closed after dinner. <BR> <BR> So you say you are on the verge of passing out? Ok, there are 6 different kinds of tea bags in the... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 07:57:42 EST random musings on a cold snowy morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6095673 First off, let me get the most important part out of the way: <BR> I APPRECIATE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU! So many of you send me goodies, comment on my page, send me spark mail, etc, and I read everything and appreciate it all. I'm just not a social creature and don't always reply back. But I want you all to know that it really does touch my heart! <BR> <BR> My 4 year Sparkversary was last December, and I really wanted to write a blog about the things I have learned over the past four years. ... Sun, 14 Feb 2016 12:12:51 EST December 1st-ish http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6041072 So, can we just pretend November didn't happen? <BR> <BR> Ok, maybe not the whole thing, but that last half? <BR> <BR> Wow, so much for blogging every day, huh? <BR> <BR> As much as I probably need to get back to a 30 day challenge this month, I'm not going to. I wouldn't do it. I know I wouldn't, so no need to even start. Maybe in January. <BR> <BR> I have seriously fallen off the wagon the last 1 1/2-2 weeks. No tracking. Not wearing my fitbit, not a single trip to the gym. No exerci... Wed, 2 Dec 2015 07:52:09 EST days 11,12,13,14,15,16 (man do I suck at this daily blogging thing!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6033546 Not a great second week, but there are successes in every week if you just look for them. <BR> Overate several days, but was well within my range on several too. <BR> Didn't make it to the gym at all, but still managed to add extra movement to several busy days. <BR> Didn't lose any weight, but didn't gain either. <BR> <BR> So all in all, I'm still here, trudging along, trying to make my life a little better. <BR> <BR> 30 day Small Changes Challenge: <BR> 11-drink 8 glasses of water <em>4... Tue, 17 Nov 2015 08:27:41 EST Days 8, 9, and 10... playing catch up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6030093 Had a couple no-so-good days. I just can't handle having any kind of junk in the house. Today is going ok, and I think I've got it under control for now. <BR> <BR> For the 30 days small changes challenge, day 8 was to drink only no calorie drinks for the day. This is pretty much a daily for me anyway so <em>248</em> <BR> Day 9 was to set out exercise clothes and then exercise first thing this morning. Despite planning on doing that, I was awake for several hours during the night so decid... Tue, 10 Nov 2015 21:49:28 EST Day 7, week 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6028700 Day 7 was not a great day. Weekends are so hard, we always have company over to watch college football and DH always cooks for the game. I ate 3 large homemade cinnamon rolls yesterday along with a pile of home fried potatoes. <em>24</em> It was yummy, for sure, but decidedly NOT on plan. <BR> <BR> I also didn't get any exercise yesterday. I could have, but chose not too. <BR> <BR> Not one of my best days. <BR> <BR> Day 7 of 30 days of small changes was to get 8 hours sleep. Normally... Sun, 8 Nov 2015 11:47:48 EST Day 6, and a Friday too! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6027985 Day 6 is winding down, and I must say it was a pretty good day. Was able to go out to dinner and still stay in calorie range. Fat is a little high, but still in range. Went to my hip-hop dance class for the first time in several weeks. I'm probably going to be feeling that tomorrow! <em>33</em> <BR> <BR> Day 6 of the 30 days of small changes was to spend 15 minutes on "me time." I'm pretty good about doing this. I consider the time I spend here on SP, blogging, checking in with my teams,... Fri, 6 Nov 2015 22:52:47 EST Day 5 and all is well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6027416 Another good day. Calories in range. Went to a 45 minute POUND class at the gym tonight, so I'm pretty beat. Ready to settle in with a little a TV watching and a sugar free hot cocoa. <BR> <BR> Day 5 of the 30 day small changes challenge was to get up and move once an hour. While I do have a desk job, it isn't one where I can sit for hours on end. I am up and down quite a lot, so this was an easy one. <BR> <BR> Day 5 of 30 days of thankfulness is: FUN <BR> When I think of fun I think of my ... Thu, 5 Nov 2015 21:35:35 EST day 4, can I get a woo hoo??!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6026870 Day 4 was a rousing success. No snacking on candy at work. Walked at lunch. Ate only the amount of dinner I had logged. And when I started feeling like munching, I booted up a SP cardio video and busted out 10 minutes! Calories in range. <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> So, day 4 of small changes challenge was to try a new healthy food. Instead of our usual tortilla chips I bought some made with black beans an quinoa. DH was dubious but admitted they were tasty. Different than regular corn chips, ... Wed, 4 Nov 2015 21:43:21 EST day 3, mixed success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6026481 I went over my calories yesterday, I think. DH cooked dinner last night. Tuna casserole, one of his specialties. I put the recipe in my tracker years ago, but he's kind of a "a little of this, a dab of that" kind of cook and never makes it exactly the same way twice. So, based on the recipe, I ate too much. <BR> <BR> But honestly, it was probably the 4 fun size bags of skittles that really did me in. I really need to get those out of my office. I thought I could just eat one. <em>198</em> ... Wed, 4 Nov 2015 08:15:26 EST Day 2.... just a few hours late http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6025884 Last night I decided to go to bed rather than write my daily blog. I had been fighting with myself all evening, my stomach was growling, but my calories were in range and I had no intention of ruining that! So I just went to bed. <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> So, day two of the Small changes challenge was to find at least 10 minutes to exercise. I went for a 20 minute walk on my lunch break. It was a beautiful November day (almost 70 degrees!) and I didn't want to waste it. In 2 months I'll nee... Tue, 3 Nov 2015 08:48:09 EST 30 days of thankful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6024677 Woke up this morning feeling a bit defeated. Here it is, a new month, and what do I have to show for the old one? I have been gaining and losing the same 2-3 lbs for months now. With the "eating" holidays quickly approaching, I definitely felt like "why even bother?" <BR> <BR> I know people who try every gimmick on the market; low carb/no carb, juicing, fasting, drink this, pop this supplement, etc, etc. I've always been of the opinion that food is food and a calorie is a calorie and if your... Sun, 1 Nov 2015 11:36:23 EST and so goes another week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6020855 Another week has come and gone. Time goes so fast it seems. <BR> <BR> My new assistant started this week. She doing absolutely awesome and I am confident she will pick this up quickly. Quite a relief, because until she does I have to work 11 hours days. I am not a fan of that! <BR> <BR> No one brought food in this week. <em>244</em> I can't remember the last time that happened. <BR> <BR> I am still struggling with night time eating. Planning on focusing on that this week. Several days ... Sun, 25 Oct 2015 10:58:11 EST walked into a time warp again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6013147 Somehow I missed blogging last week. I'm just not sure where the time goes! The older I get the faster it goes! <BR> <BR> Lots of big changes going on at work. I'm not a big fan of changes but I think I'm handling this pretty well. The two ladies I work with are leaving for another location and I will be training replacements. It sucks because I really like them and will miss them. We've become pretty good friends over the past year. I keep telling myself they aren't dying, I can still see t... Sun, 11 Oct 2015 11:58:30 EST sometimes my brain doesn't know when to shut up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6005874 Wow, what a day! Had to be at work early this morning, couldn't sleep last night, functioning on about 4 hours sleep. I know there are people who can do that, but I am not one of them! I'm a 9 hour a night kind of girl! <BR> <BR> So I worked all day and didn't feel too bad. After work ran to Aldi's for some stuff, got gas, put air in my tires. All good. Come home and DH has dinner virtually done. Score! My favorite dinner is the one I don't have to cook! <BR> <BR> After dinner we sit down t... Mon, 28 Sep 2015 23:25:31 EST uneventful week, and that's a good thing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6000743 I almost didn't blog today because I didn't think there was anything to say. But I really want to get in the habit of blogging every Sunday so here I am. <BR> <BR> Work is still busy. We're opening a second location and both of my coworkers are moving out there, so I am in the process of hiring someone new. Paging through resumes trying to decide who to interview. I don't like feeling like I am dictating the course of someone's future. <BR> <BR> I tested for and received my certification a... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 10:51:32 EST making those steps count http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5996049 So a few weeks ago my friend group chipped in and got me a Fitbit ChargeHR for my birthday. We all have one, and we do challenges every week to keep motivated. <BR> <BR> I do not walk much at work. Like at all. So I am pretty much always in last place. I have one friend who is a traveling salesperson for a food distributor and drives all day for her job. Sometimes I beat her. But otherwise I'm in last place. <BR> <BR> Sometimes I feel really down about it. Like, why bother, I'm never going... Sat, 12 Sep 2015 12:53:52 EST shaking the don't wanna's http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5987320 Again I want to thank all of my Spark friends who commented on last weeks blog. It really truly helped to see in black and white that other people are going through the same stuff as me. Despite already knowing that it's still nice to have that reinforced. <BR> <BR> I had a pretty good week. Not perfect, but perfect isn't what I'm going for. I kept the night time snacking to a minimum most days. I actually hung a sign on the TV and one on the cabinet door that says "you're not hungry, you're... Sun, 30 Aug 2015 10:01:33 EST every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5983121 I always tell me myself that I'm going to start blogging more often. Ha! I haven't blogged since July 3rd! <BR> <BR> So this week the two challenges I participate in ended. I finished both of them at basically the same weight I started at. I start out with such high hopes and good intentions and then what happens? Well, I'm not really sure. <BR> <BR> I finally faced the truth of the matter that I am in a bit of a depression right now. I always hesitate to use the D word because so many peo... Sun, 23 Aug 2015 11:06:56 EST The impulse to give up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5954883 This last week has been a mixed bag. <BR> <BR> Eating ok, not stellar, but ok. <BR> <BR> Exercise decent. No big workouts but lots of extra movement throughout the day. <BR> <BR> So I was dismayed to have a 3 lb gain at weigh in this morning. <BR> <BR> The 'why do I bother?" thoughts start to creep in. The "whats the point?" defeatist in me tries to raise its ugly head. <BR> <BR> Amazingly, I'm ok though. Still bummed about the gain, but based on the tightness of my ring I'm thinking I ... Fri, 3 Jul 2015 10:42:52 EST much ado about nothing (this is a long one) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5944877 OK, you've been warned! Continue at your own risk! <BR> <BR> First, thank you all for the words of encouragement, Sparkmail, and goodies about my 5k last week. It is very much appreciated! <BR> <BR> Like I said in my last post, I really wasn't worried about being able to do it. It was just a matter of how difficult it was going to be. Just a year ago I would walk a 5k 2-3 times a week. It was just a walk. <BR> <BR> And while I know that comparing yourself to others steals your joy, I just... Sun, 14 Jun 2015 10:21:38 EST a little nervous http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5940096 Tomorrow morning I am walking a 5k. For the first time in literally YEARS I'm feeling a bit nervous about my ability to do it. It's been a year since my last one, and I haven't been very active during that time. <BR> <BR> Since my gym closed last June my zumba/hip-hop class attendance has been sporadic. <BR> <BR> Since I started my new job in September my walking has only been in 10-20 minute bursts. <BR> <BR> I walked 2 miles yesterday with no problem, so what's one more right? I know I c... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 08:30:55 EST one good week deserves another http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5936717 This week went pretty well. <BR> <BR> I made a point to get up and move most every day, even if it was just a 10 minute walk on my lunch break. <BR> <BR> My eating, while not great, was much more in control and conscious than it has been in a while. Went a little off the rails yesterday, but feel like my head is back in the game today. <BR> <BR> I have the wedding of a friend to go to this evening. She's Mennonite so no drinking or dancing. Just as well; the kind of drinks I like have far... Sat, 30 May 2015 10:22:56 EST thoughts over coffee http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5925242 No new news here. The past year has been a tough one. Can't seem to find my groove. <BR> <BR> I know what I need to do to be successful with weight loss; I've done it before. I know I can do it again. <BR> <BR> It's just so EXHAUSTING! I hate having my first morning thought be "what will I eat today?" followed by "how will I get some exercise today?" I want to enjoy life, but how can I do that if I have to constantly deny myself of things I want? <BR> <BR> Of course, that's a rhetorical ... Sat, 9 May 2015 09:29:03 EST Spring Firecracker exercise commitment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5901634 The spring 5% challenge starts on Saturday, and step one of the pre-challege is to put your exercise plan in writing. <BR> <BR> Mine is as follows: <BR> AT LEAST 10 minutes of exercise every single day, with a mix of cardio and strength. <BR> This shouldn't be as hard as I make it since I have a Y membership and I work at a gym! <BR> <BR> Take at least one class a week. Look up the class schedule at the Y and find one that works for my schedule. <BR> <BR> Walk outside whenever it gets ab... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 11:13:32 EST the verdict is still out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5876120 I have officially been trying the intermittent fasting for a week now, and I'm still not quite sure what to think about it. I'm still doing some refining. <BR> <BR> As it was pointed out to me, really all it is is skipping breakfast. Yeah, that's pretty much it and I have no problems with that. I still have my morning coffee. It's the no eating after 8 pm that is harder for me. I get panicky when I think I can't have any more food. I've been having a 20 calorie hot cocoa before bed some nigh... Sun, 15 Feb 2015 10:55:05 EST trying something new and the Italian Renaissance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871205 I have become pretty good friends with one of my coworkers. We only work together about 6 hours a week, but we have tons in common. We're about the same age, kids around the same age, married to the same man since we were young, and a life long battle with our weight. <BR> <BR> We have our differences too, one of which being that she enjoys trying different "gimmicks" in her weight loss journey. Where I have always been a proponent of "eat whatever you want, just not too much" weight loss pl... Sat, 7 Feb 2015 11:09:24 EST The good, the bad, and the ugly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867113 Doing a little "month in review" on a cold, snowy morning... <BR> <BR> THE GOOD <BR> -despite everything, I am still here <BR> -I am ending January .2 lbs lighter than I started it. I will take it and say thank you to the weight loss gods. <BR> -I joined the 30 day walkabout challenge to keep me moving through February. <BR> <BR> THE BAD <BR> -my husband is once again in the kitchen frying bacon. No potatoes though so I'll take my small victories. <BR> -I only did 336 fitness minutes in Jan... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 11:52:04 EST Not necessarily a weight loss blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862137 My husband is in the kitchen frying bacon and eggs and potatoes. He read some where years ago that food made at home is better for you than eating out, so when I complain about the unhealthy food he is cooking he sites the fact that it is being made at home so it must be ok. <BR> <BR> We've been going round and round about this for years, and I am exhausted. I'm so tired of fighting. It would be so nice to have a partner instead of an adversary. <BR> <BR> Not just him, but everyone. <BR> ... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 10:41:03 EST figuring out the "'whys" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857093 I seem to have fallen off the weekly blogging wagon. I really need to get back to it. It's a good way to think through all the thoughts swirling around in my brain. <BR> <BR> Why do I feel such a need to eat sweets? And why, once I give in and eat one, does having more become an all consuming obsession? <BR> <BR> Why do I allow myself to be talked out of exercise, even when I know how much better I'll feel if I do it? Why do I allow myself to believe all of the lies I come up with for why I... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 12:01:45 EST the aftermath http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839876 Somehow I missed blogging for a couple of weeks. I thought about it a couple of times, but just didn't want to take the time to do it. Or I just didn't know what I wanted to say. Still don't really, but here it goes anyway. <BR> <BR> I was really struggling with getting in the Christmas spirit. There are no small children in my life, and really that is who Christmas is for. My youngest is 16 and she lives 3 hours away, so until I picked her up on the 17th I had done virtually no Christmas sh... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 12:31:17 EST I almost forgot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829513 I normally do my thankful blogs on Sunday but I got busy yesterday and forgot. <BR> <BR> It has not been a good week, Spark-wise. Too much food, not enough exercise. Too many binges, not enough tracking. <BR> <BR> I am thankful that every morning when I wake up I am given another chance to do it right. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/7/l375833554.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am thankful that at any time I am in control of my choices whether they be good or bad. <BR> <BR> And t... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 07:58:34 EST new week, new month, new Spark year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825610 I had a big long blog typed up yesterday, and when I went to post it my computer froze up. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I took a little Spark sabbatical this past week. No food tracking and virtually no exercise. It's amazing how quickly bad habits can creep back in without some diligence and perseverance to keep them at bay. <BR> <BR> DD#2 was home from school for Thanksgiving break. She is a horribly unhealthy eater. She also loves to bake. During her 9 days home she made 4 dozen cupcakes, c... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 07:26:25 EST accidental experiment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5821612 Had a fairly uneventful week, which isn't a bad thing. Worked a lot, vegged a lot, slept as much as I could. <BR> <BR> I sort of accidentally discovered something about myself this week. One day I woke up and just didn't want to track my food. I'm not sure why, but the thought of doing made me physically queasy. Normally I am fastidious about logging every bite I take. Even if I eat 4000 calories I log it all. But I just didn't want to do it, so I didn't. Same thing the next day. The followi... Sun, 23 Nov 2014 12:05:33 EST and don't get me started on the freaking' snow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5817888 Let me tell you first what I am NOT thankful for: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l170554076.jpg"> <BR> We ended up getting over 12" this past Thursday. Slow moving band of lake effect just sat over us for most of a day. Drive 10 miles in any direction and they barely got a dusting. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> But here is what I AM thankful for: <BR> -the snow plow drivers who spent the entire night plowing, sanding, and salting so that my drive on Friday morning was n... Sun, 16 Nov 2014 19:10:07 EST Friends and family; family and friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813596 Had a fairly uneventful week, which isn't a bad thing. Work is settling down some with one coworker coming back from bereavement leave (her grandmother and father passed away about 12 hours apart!) and a new person hired and starting very soon. Once I get back into a set schedule I think I will be better able to concentrate on me. Right now I am working such screwy, varying hours that its hard. <BR> <BR> The building I work in is right on the river, and there is a beautiful walkway and seati... Sun, 9 Nov 2014 12:34:26 EST Some weeks 'thankful' is harder than others http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5809318 This week is the perfect example of why I started doing this weekly thankful blog. It hasn't been a bad week, just kind of blah and looking for the good in it is good for me. <BR> <BR> First I'm thankful for my husband, even though he drives me crazy! (or as he would say "honey that's not a drive, its just a putt!) After 28 years of seeing someone every day I guess you have to expect them to get under your skin at times. He is not perfect by any stretch, but then neither am I. He puts up wit... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 12:09:25 EST An ode to pumpkins and other things I love http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805001 I love pumpkin and could eat it year round, but this time of year it is every where you look. I had been resisting getting anything because, lets face it, most of what is out there is super high in calories/fat/sugar. But I knew eventually I would break down and try something. <BR> <BR> When DD was home from school we went to Sam's Club to get some provisions for her dorm room. While there I bought three large cans of Libby 100% pure pumpkin. They were sitting on the dining room table just b... Sun, 26 Oct 2014 11:34:37 EST If you like it then you should write a blog about it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5800826 I really do try to be a positive person. I avoid writing blogs when I'm in a "down" mood. I mean really, everyone has their own trials and tribulations and who really wants to hear about mine? Especially since mine are so minor. (I am self aware enough to realize this!) <BR> <BR> --there are people on this planet that don't know where their next meal is coming from. The fact that I have access to so much food that I've gained 25 lbs in the past year is a "problem" many would love to have. <... Sun, 19 Oct 2014 10:51:50 EST 5 things I need to remember http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791092 1. I am a great cheerleader..... for everyone else. I need to work on speaking to myself kindly as if I were talking to my best friend. <BR> <BR> 2. despite that fact that I have been gaining and losing the same 5 lbs all year, I am still down over 60 lbs from my highest weight. That is something to be proud of. <BR> <BR> 3. when I started the thought of walking a mile would have been unfathomable. Now I'm more likely to think of it as "only" a mile. <BR> <BR> 4. the number on tag of m... Thu, 2 Oct 2014 11:38:39 EST just because http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784108 Usually I reserve my blogs for when I have something to say, but I just realized it has been a while since my last blog and I should probably do one. <BR> <BR> I started a new job on Tuesday. It is only going to be part time, but for right now I am working 8-5 every day. After being off work for so long it is hard to get back into the habit of going to bed at a decent time and getting up in the morning. (for those of you that haven't been following every detail of my life, the company wher... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 14:15:45 EST things that make you go hmmmm... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5776824 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1793356432.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/3/l539841355.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l468133198.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Tue, 9 Sep 2014 21:13:54 EST Things I'm loving right now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774487 I was thinking last night about the learning process and how it never stops. I have been on my Spark journey for close to three years and still surprise myself when I find a new function, food, or fitness tip. Then I thought if I wasn't aware of these things others probably aren't either. <BR> <BR> First and foremost: unsweetened cocoa powder. OMG! Why did this not occur to me before? I like the Special Dark, and an entire tablespoon only has 5 calories! I love adding it to my smoothies, st... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 10:14:29 EST There goes another month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5770547 Last day of August, wow. Where did it go? And how did I accomplish so little during it? <BR> <BR> I will not make my 1300 fitness minute goal for this month. Unless I work out for like 7 hours today which isn't going to happen! <BR> <BR> I didn't lose any weight, in fact I gained 1.4 lbs. <BR> <BR> I ate an average of 2500 calories per day in August. And I wonder why I didn't lose any weight! <BR> <BR> I could just chalk August up as a failure and leave it at that, but I won't. <BR> B... Sun, 31 Aug 2014 14:51:00 EST Hanging in there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764985 It's been a while since I've written a blog so I thought I would. Doing ok. I'll have several good days in a row and then completely ruin it with a 4000 calorie day. <em>24</em> Consistency has never been my strong suit. I am able to recognize what triggers my binges and am successful at stopping them some of the time but not all. <BR> <BR> My daughter has been away at school for 2 weeks. My son is starting on Monday. It seems like whenever I adjust to one change another comes along. ... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 14:20:28 EST Reunion lessons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757506 This past Saturday I went to my 30 year class reunion. It was a combined reunion of the class of '83, '84, and '85 since in the past having only one class has provided such a low turn out. The organizers eventually opened it up to any grade from our school so we had a few from '82 and someone's younger brother from '87. It was fun. Very laid back and casual. They had BBQ catered by a former classmate, and the bands lead singer was a former classmate also. They played beach music of the Jim... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 11:16:50 EST trials and tribulations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755988 I have been having some very trying days lately. I normally make a point of not dwelling on the bad and focusing on the good but some times that is difficult to do. <BR> <BR> Wednesday I got up at 4 am, loaded up the truck, and drove my 16 yr old daughter to her new school 2 1/2 hours away. She will be living there for the next 10 months, coming home every 6 weeks or so for an extended weekend. It's tough not having her here. Unlike my other two children who by this age were gone most of t... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 21:42:24 EST Ready or not, here comes August! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750396 When I was a kid, it seemed like the summer lasted forever. Time seemingly stood still throughout June and July and by the time August presented itself I was ready to get back to school. <BR> <BR> The older I get the more quickly time flies. I can't believe August is here already, with a lot of changes about to happen. <BR> <BR> My youngest will be moving into her dorm next Wednesday. She is only 16 and will essentially living on her own taking college level courses. Although she is ver... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 13:10:11 EST