HEYITSLISA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HEYITSLISA HEYITSLISA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ what could I do if I REALLY tried? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5725478 So I'm happy to report a loss again this week. Part of me, that devil on my shoulder, is trying to tell me it doesn't count. I've lost this weight before. This isn't "new" weight loss. For the most part, in spite of that little devil, I am still happy about my progress this week. <BR> <BR> Here's the thing; I really only ate on plan 3 days this past week. So imagine what I could do if I stayed on plan 6 or even 7 days!! It boggles the mind! <BR> <BR> I may have had a little extra exercise ... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 09:11:15 EST Life is all about change, but I don't have to like it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717821 Twenty years from now I will remember 2014 as "the year of change." I'll have to get back to you on whether or not that is a good thing. <BR> <BR> I am not a big fan of change, but I recognize it is part of life. For the most part I like routine. I shop at the same grocery stores, get gas the same places, even drive the same roads because of the familiarity. In 1996 when we moved to our current house I drove back to our previous town for months to get groceries from "my" grocery store. <BR> ... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 11:48:23 EST What goes on inside Lisa's mind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712023 Sometimes it's funny how the brain works; the connections and ramblings that go on. When I tell DH about my musings he looks at me like I'm crazy. I don't think I'm crazy, at least I'm pretty sure... <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> So it all started with: <BR> I need to go to the grocery store. <BR> I should walk there. <BR> Wait, it's Thursday, I should go to the Farmers Market <BR> That's too far to walk. <BR> I should ride a bike. <BR> I don't have a bike. <BR> There is one in the garage belo... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 10:50:50 EST I can resist anything, except temptation and sugar cookies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704225 I have had a horrible time with my eating the past few days. A long weekend, a couple of cookouts, and just being out of my usual schedule. I told myself today was the day to get back at it. And then I ate a package of sugar cookies. <BR> <BR> Baked goods are my kryptonite and I know that. So why did I even go down that aisle at the grocery store? At least I chose the package of 8 unfrosted cookies and not the dozen frosted ones. Small consolation. <BR> <BR> Only good choices the rest of th... Tue, 27 May 2014 09:38:51 EST Searching for motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5702646 I've been struggling for a while with my motivation. I started this journey for several reasons: <BR> <BR> I had some not so good blood work come back. <BR> My numbers have been great now for over a year. <BR> <BR> All of my 3x clothes were starting to get snug. <BR> I now can wear most 1x, and the capris I was wearing yesterday were a (stretchy) size 16. <BR> <BR> I felt horrible, inactive and sluggish all the time. All I did was sit and watch TV when I was home, and sit in front of the... Sun, 25 May 2014 09:04:09 EST my body is amazing. So is yours. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694201 I was sitting here trying to decide what to blog about, or if I wanted to blog at all, when I absentmindedly clicked on an old blog I'd written some time ago. <BR> <BR> Kind of funny to go back and read old blogs. I used to blog AT LEAST once a week. I used to be optimistic about my health goals. I used to be buoyant and revel in every little NSV. <BR> <BR> What happened to me? When did I lose my can-do attitude? Good question, and here is the answer; right about the same time things star... Tue, 13 May 2014 13:27:15 EST Rabbit rabbit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684851 Happy May Day all! I remember back in elementary school making May baskets to give to our moms'. Construction paper rolled into a cone and stapled with a strip of paper taped on for a handle. I would collect flowers from neighbors yards on my walk home to put in it. I especially loved the lilac bushes... <em>184</em> <BR> <BR> Ah, those were the days! Back when school was fun. i am currently spending about 5 hours a day on my administrative medical assisting and human anatomy classe... Thu, 1 May 2014 11:22:20 EST the good, the bad, and the downright frustrating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675953 My neighborhood has a Facebook page for residents, former residents, business owners, etc. It is used for people looking for recommendations for getting work done, needing help with stuff, reporting crime, and stuff like that. A couple days ago someone posted "would anyone like to do a neighborhood weight loss challenge?" I immediately responded with "I would!" We set up a time to meet and discuss it for this morning. Normally something like this would be completely outside my comfort zone... Sat, 19 Apr 2014 21:21:06 EST but I never get sick! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665941 I've been feeling a bit off for a couple days now. When DH suggested I might be getting sick I railed against the idea. I mean, I just don't get sick. So Saturday I woke up with a sore throat. Never a good sign. Didn't feel too bad otherwise so I just went about my day. Went to a casino and lost some money last night. Ate way too much at the buffet. Stayed up way too late. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2073889282.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Today, full force head cold. ... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 19:53:14 EST April 1st (no jokes, just goals) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662103 April is here and I am starting it with high hopes. March started pretty dismally but I have been making steady progress and am hoping to continue with momentum through April. <BR> <BR> My exercise is going well. I do a cardio kickboxing class on Monday, zumba on Wednesday, zumba toning followed by swimming on Friday, and spinning every other Saturday. As the weather gets better, going for walks on the days I don't have class will get easier and easier. I met and exceeded my 1000 minute ex... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 21:15:11 EST I needed this today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652537 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1420290209.jpg"> <BR> <BR> A friend posted this on Facebook today. Thought someone else might need to see it too. Thu, 20 Mar 2014 15:23:44 EST I'm not perfect and that's ok http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644844 Guess what? I'm not perfect. Some days I eat too much. Some days I don't feel like exercising. Some days I'm extremely motivated to follow through with the actions needed for a healthy lifestyle and other days not so much. <BR> <BR> That's ok. This isn't a sprint to the finish line, in fact there is no finish line. So I keep putting one foot in front of the other and try not get down on myself when I stumble. <BR> <BR> I found this and it really spoke to me: <BR> <img src="http://photos-... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 21:38:38 EST time for a reset http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637086 I don't acknowledge weight gain. Those little 1-2 lb fluctuations? Just blips. I don't worry about them because normally they're gone within a week or so. And if I log them, when I do lose them it looks like I actually lost weight when in all actuality I haven't; I've re-lost it which to me just doesn't count. <BR> <BR> So most of last year was spent gaining and losing the same 7-8 lbs over and over. Occasionally I would actually lose a 1/2 lb, but 216 lb has been the number to beat f... Sat, 1 Mar 2014 18:14:11 EST goals, joyful movement, and February has got to be better... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615295 I am a horrible goal setter. There is such a fine line between attainable and not challenging. I have an exercise minute goal of 1000 a month. This is attainable when the weather is decent and I can get outside for walks. I have videos and a gym membership so even in bad weather it is attainable, but I like walking outside best. So I could lower my minutes during these winter months, but then is that challenging myself? Shouldn't my exercise minutes increase over time? Like I said, I am a... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 19:34:29 EST Sunday reset http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5606095 It's been quite a week. I've had a couple of really good days, but also a couple really bad days. And a couple only so-so days. I've started to recognize a pattern. The days I stay busy with errands, cleaning, cooking, going to the gym, I don't eat near as much as the days I sit and watch movies and and surf the net all day. Those days I find myself just munching all day, and not necessarily on good stuff either! <BR> <BR> Structure is my friend. Despite not having a job to go to every... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 11:39:21 EST Tired of looking at snow? Then don't read this... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585652 The travel emergency has been lifted as of 43 minutes ago. That means I can go out on the roads without getting a ticket. But honestly I can't think of anywhere I want to go so I'll probably just stay in and putter around the house. I haven't left the house since Saturday, but when it's nasty outside I really have no inclination to. It's still only -2 out but it's supposed to get all the way up to 5 degrees today so I'll go do some shoveling then. And probably start my van, just to make s... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 12:57:06 EST I'm not going to do it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5576140 I'm not going to be in my calorie range today. <BR> I'm not going to meet my exercise minute goal for this month. <BR> I'm not going to reach my weight loss goal for the year. <BR> <BR> I'm not going to stop trying. <BR> I'm not going to give up. <BR> I'm not going to let minor set backs derail me. Mon, 30 Dec 2013 23:33:39 EST Well that was fun... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5572391 The festivities are over. I gave myself a week to just not care. About what I ate, about exercising, about finding a job. I immersed myself in the here and now; spending time with family and friends. Enjoying the sights, sounds, and tastes of the season. I didn't even track my food for a couple days, which I NEVER do. (I'll admit I'm tempted to try and go back and remember everything I ate yesterday even though I know it would be pointless.) <BR> <BR> Today is day 7 and I'm trying to ea... Thu, 26 Dec 2013 16:07:07 EST Today is my 2 yr Sparkversary! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557002 Well, technically today is the day I joined SP. I didn't know it was the beginning of my journey at the time because I didn't realize I was starting one. I just wondered in to look around, and I was inspired! <BR> <BR> I wanted to write this long, deep, meaningful post about how much I've learned and grown in the past two years, but how do you put such things into words? <BR> <BR> I know what a proper portion looks like now. I still over do it at times, but I know that tomorrow is a new ... Wed, 4 Dec 2013 18:38:32 EST Interesting stuff I'd like to share http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5542722 I don't really have anything to say today, which I take as a good sign. Usually the only time I feel like blogging is when I'm complaining. <em>24</em> No complaints today. My week is going well, all of my exercise goals are on track, and my weight is holding steady. <BR> <BR> As I'm sure a lot of us do, I read quite a few diet and fitness websites. So today I thought I would just share some fun things I've encountered this week. <BR> <BR> <link>menustat.org/ </link> just went liv... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 13:57:21 EST Don't panic, it's the weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5536107 As much as I love weekends some times the thought of one approaching makes me feel a bit apprehensive. I have a notoriously difficult time staying on plan on the weekends. More time for exercise, yes, but also more time for mindless munching. <BR> <BR> But I'm feeling very optimistic about this weekend. I really think I can curtail the bad eating while still enjoying a couple little splurges. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I'm going to a Women's luncheon. They always serve very well portioned healt... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 20:56:40 EST what is my plan? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530332 Here we are at a new month. My plans for last month had a limited amount of success. <BR> <BR> 1. take pictures of my meals and blog about them every day. While I think this would work great if I actually did it, it is just too time consuming to be practical. <BR> <BR> 2. take the focus off the scale by not weighing all month. Although I didn't make it all month I did manage to cut down drastically. My first thought upon waking isn't about weighing myself anymore which is a good thing. <... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 19:57:17 EST Halloween edition of Throw-back Thursday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5528459 Here's a picture of my DH and I at a Halloween party in 1988. I can't believe how young we look! It's funny, I thought I was so huge then and now I would LOVE to be that "huge"! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/7/l471465678.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And some funnies for your day: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/2/l626403399.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2025235717.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeopl... Thu, 31 Oct 2013 14:57:16 EST Roald Dahl's inspirational words http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523326 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2017439621.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1475367711.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l564881609.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And my absolute favorite: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1112451120.jpg"> Fri, 25 Oct 2013 16:32:14 EST Ahh, Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519113 Taking pictures of your meals and posting them really will help keep you on track. For the couple of days I did it I did great. A lot of work and kind of a hassle, but I think I'm going to try to keep doing it. <BR> <BR> Here are last Thursday's <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1489285022.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1579574810.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1493559710.jpg"> <BR> Pretty good all day, ... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 07:47:06 EST Tuesday and Wednesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5515958 Tuesday's tend to be "leftover" days at our house. I do a lot of cooking on the weekend so by Tuesday we're trying to finish up the last of it. <BR> <BR> Breakfast: the last two pumpkin muffins and a banana <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l567437513.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Lunch: the last of the taco meat and an apple <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2029659397.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Dinner: the last of the weinerschnitzle, mashed potatoes, and gravy <BR> ... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 10:26:58 EST What I ate yesterday and today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513690 I've noticed some of my friends doing food blogs in pictures. I think that is a really good idea. I think if I knew I had to take and post a picture of what I'm eating I might think twice about my choices. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I made pumpkin muffins, so thats what I had for breakfast and lunch yesterday and also breakfast today. I know I have a pretty heavy baked good habit! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1250111401.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeop... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 22:31:19 EST weekends are tough, but I'm tougher http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5511471 Ah the weekend has arrived finally! I have been battling a cold all week and it felt good to be able to sleep in this morning. Unfortunately I can't sit here and relax for long. No rest for the wicked, as the saying goes. (which I understand is from the book of Isaiah, but I digress...) <BR> <BR> I have not been eating well at all this week. Not feeling well has made me turn to comfort foods in the forms of double stuffed oreos and pop-tarts. And today holds a couple extra challenges; I ... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 11:20:31 EST Hanging in there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501533 First off a big <em>304</em> to everyone who offered their support and advice on my previous blog. I have received Sparkmail and Goodies and they all made me smile! <BR> <BR> My intention was to take a few days off from tracking my food and exercising. It never seems to work out; I always end up going back to my tracker and putting my food in anyway! Habits, they aren't all bad. I didn't do any exercise on Friday or Saturday, and Thursday I only did a couple of seated arm strength vid... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 15:04:52 EST Looking for a reason http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5497778 I've never been a sharer. I have a couple close friends that I can tell anything to, but beyond that I pretty much keep to myself. I have coworkers I've know for 28 years who barely know me. They know what I choose to let them know, and those things are basically esoteric. Nothing deep or meaningful. Nothing about the REAL me. <BR> <BR> So it's a struggle for me at times here on SP to share. I read these lovely blogs where people pour out their hearts for all to see, and I think why ca... Fri, 27 Sep 2013 12:50:02 EST Thought for today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5487697 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1637667607.jpg"> Mon, 16 Sep 2013 21:39:05 EST Portion sizes, revising goals, and feeling empowered... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484478 ...except that's not quite right. Empowered implies that I have been GIVEN authority over something. I haven't. I've TAKEN it. Power to choose what I will eat and in what quantities. When, how, why, and what kind of exercise I will do. It's all up to me. <BR> <BR> I've always been a firm believer in the fact that it is no one else's job to make me happy. Why I never applied that philosophy to weight loss is beyond me. Today I am feeling very optimistic and happy and empowered. And... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 10:42:38 EST Woo hoo Friday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477779 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1798531215.jpg"> Fri, 6 Sep 2013 12:28:06 EST September 1st http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5472925 If every day is a new beginning, as I truly believe, then each new month is a fresh start. I thought August would be better than it was, but I really have a feeling about September. This will be the month I pull up my big girl panties and get back to doing what I need to do. Not half-assed either All the way, like I know I need to. <BR> <BR> I let the scale discourage me. It just doesn't seem to want to move no matter how well I think I'm doing. The body is weird like that; never behav... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 20:51:06 EST Take that, plateau! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5457896 Officially, I guess, I busted that plateau a month ago. All through April, May and June I was stuck at 218.8. I would bounce up a couple of pounds and back down but never any lower than 218.8. <BR> <BR> About a month ago I finally saw 218.4. So technically that was the plateau breaker, but it just didn't feel like it to me. It was still in the 218's and I just wanted to see a new number! Is that so much to ask??!! <BR> <BR> Lo and behold this morning I step on the scale and bam! 217.8 ... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 09:20:25 EST Same ole same ole http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5453931 I haven't blogged in a while. I'm on SP every day, but every time I think about blogging I just feel like I have nothing new to say. Over the last year and a half I have blogged about overeating approximately a gazillion times. Ditto on the not feeling like working out, not feeling like tracking my food, not losing any weight. <BR> <BR> I have blogged about fitting into smaller size clothes, trying new foods, and doing things I never dreamed I could do. But lately I'm just feeling kind of... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 11:53:27 EST Happy Friday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442464 It's been two weeks since my last blog. Pretty indicative of my mood these last couple of weeks. This plateau I've been stuck on has been really dragging me down. Such a vicious circle; not losing weight makes it harder to care about my eating and exercise which keeps me from losing weight. And so on and so forth. <BR> <BR> Since yesterday was the start of a new month I decided to refocus my efforts on just one thing; eating in my calorie range 6 out 7 days a week. Everything else is j... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 15:39:11 EST Whew, it's a hot one! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5426807 Just spent two days camping in some of the hottest temperatures I have ever experienced! Good news is the heat made me have no appetite so I hardly ate anything. Bad news is that I didn't feel like moving a whole lot either! All I did was drink water and crave salty snacks. <BR> <BR> I didn't do the zipline like I had hoped. First off, it wasn't part of the wristband, it cost extra. I still would have considered it, but you had to have shoes with heel straps. I only had flip flops wi... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 20:49:30 EST gone fishing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5423002 Well, ok, maybe not fishing but I am gonna be gone! Just finished loading up the car to head out on our annual family vacation. It's only two days this year; as the kids get old it gets harder and harder to make everyone's schedule coincide. My son is actually working today and coming down tonight. My daughters boyfriend has to leave early on Thursday to get to work. But tomorrow, we will all be together. We have a cabin next door to an amusement park/water park. Tomorrow is wristband ... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 11:51:05 EST vacation and other things that completely derail me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5419673 As of 5 o'clock yesterday I am on vacation until July 22nd (I was actually at work until 7, and I have to go in on Monday for a little bit...but I digress....) <BR> <BR> Last night DH, DD#2, and I went out for dinner. It was just so hard to order sensibly! I just seem to have this "I'm on vacation mentality" going on and I need to nip it firmly in the bud before it takes over. <BR> <BR> I did ok ordering last night; grilled chicken breast on a bed of wild rice. I ate half and brought the... Sat, 13 Jul 2013 10:02:50 EST NSV's of the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5412725 I've been very apprehensive about this week and the coming one. Last year during the first two weeks of July (Independence Day, my birthday, vacation) I gained 8 lbs. I managed to take it off again by the end of July but was still upset at having wasted a month. So far I am doing pretty well. Not perfect, but I am learning there is no such thing as perfection. <BR> <BR> Fell into a bag of tortilla chips on Thursday, and did not choose wisely my dinner last night, but today has been one... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 21:41:47 EST Motivation Thursday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5410448 Just about to head out for a walk before going to my MIL for a cookout. Trying to psych myself up for the unhealthy fare she is bound to have. I am taking some fruit and a healthy pasta salad so I know I'll have something to eat. <BR> <BR> I am a member of a group on Facebook called Women for a Healthy Body Image. It was started by a woman who almost died from anorexia. She had gotten down to 76 lbs and her kidneys started to shut down. That was her wake up call. That is always a remin... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 09:39:23 EST Throwback Thursday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5403682 I couple of my friends are doing this today, and I thought it was a great idea! I am very much an 'in the now' kind of girl. Live every day, don't worry about yesterday or tomorrow. Sometimes though, it's good to look back. I tend to forget how far I've come. I tend to dwell on the kind of day TODAY is rather than how it all plays in the big picture. So I made myself a little collage of pictures of myself from 'before'...... before January 2012 when I started on the this marvelous Spark... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 15:08:24 EST June is winding down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5400156 It's hard to believe that June is almost over. The weather has such that it's just now beginning to feel like summer. (as a side note; only 6 months until Christmas! <em>446</em> <em>40</em> ) <BR> <BR> It's looking like I will end June at the same weight I started it at. Which is also the same weight I started May at. Some days it's hard to not get discouraged. Some days I just throw up my hands and think "heck with it. It's not doing any good so why bother." Other days I'm super... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 11:54:04 EST Inspiration in sore feet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5389965 Got up super early this morning (well, actually regular time, early for a Saturday) so I could get ready for the Susan G. Komen race for the cure going on here. It didn't start until 9, but my favorite zumba instructor was doing a warm up starting at 8 so I wanted to get there for that. I also wanted to walk there since I'm only 1.25 miles from where it started. <BR> <BR> Out the door at 7:35 hoofing it down the street. I got some strange looks because I had a banana tucked in my belt l... Sat, 15 Jun 2013 12:46:20 EST I'm beginning to bore myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388134 I decided to go back and read some of my older blogs today. Trying to remember exactly how it felt to be really motivated. As it turns out, I had the same bad days and times of disenchantment that I have now. I had days when I just didn't feel like eating healthy. I had days when I didn't feel like exercising. I had days when I lost large amounts of weight, and days when I didn't lose anything. And on those days of no loss I whined and cried and pissed and moaned. Pretty much like I've... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 14:49:36 EST First official 5k of the year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5374645 Just got back from a lovely morning walk with friends. It was my first official 5K of 2013. I have done two other charity walks this year, but they weren't official races like this one. I have another the week after next and then 3 more in August. July is empty so far, but I'm going on vacation in July so that might be for the best. <BR> <BR> What a difference a year makes! In 2012, this 5K was the first one I had ever done. I was nervous, worried I wouldn't be able to make it, or wors... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 13:22:33 EST wishing won't make it happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5363664 I really need to come to grips with the fact that just because I WISH I would lose more weight I need to do the work to make it happen. I need to control my eating. I need do more exercise, and make the exercise I do count. <BR> <BR> I find myself standing in the kitchen with a spoon in one hand and a jar of Nutella in the other thinking "boy, I hope the scale is kind to me this week." What???? Seriously? I take a walk and bask in the number of exercise minutes I'm getting. But if th... Tue, 21 May 2013 16:00:53 EST And now for something completely different http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5357579 I'm over my pity party from Sunday. It's just one day and I know my kids love me even if they may not show it in the way I would like them to. Enough self-destructive behavior over something so petty. <BR> <BR> Today's mood is brought to you by no movement on the scale. <em>11</em> <em>24</em> I was feeling so hopeful when I stepped on it this morning. But no, my body seems firmly entrenched at 219 lbs. This is the 5th week, so it must really like that number!! <BR> <BR> I decide... Wed, 15 May 2013 15:07:47 EST Bloggity blog blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5354003 I decided to write a blog today because I haven't written one in over a week. Problem is, I really have no idea what to write about. <BR> <BR> Today is Mother's Day, and although I am a mother I doubt my children will do anything special. It doesn't bother me really; they are busy and have their own lives and I get that. It would still be nice for them to recognize the occasion. I mailed my mom a card and then called her this morning. Not because I really wanted to or because she would ... Sun, 12 May 2013 12:16:04 EST