HELPME50LBS's SparkPeople Blog HELPME50LBS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Chip on my shoulder So I can't seem to shake this feeling. I am mad all the time. Mad about anything and nothing all at the same time. Mad because I can't stop eating, mad that I am stressed, mad because I have no time to myself, but I made it that way. Mad that bills are piling up. Please tell me I'm not the only one who feels like this sometimes. Something has got to change soon or I think I am going to loses my mind. <BR> Sorry just needed to vent. Tue, 5 Jul 2011 21:48:31 EST Stressed Out Let me fill you in. My Mom moved in with us last week. She moved from Ohio to Missouri. So last week was rough while everyone was adjusting. While trying to keep everyone happy last week, I did not take time for myself. So I began eating everything and anything, and did not exercise. <BR> <BR> So while I lost a week. I am not giving up all together. So back on track this week. Mon, 9 May 2011 14:56:51 EST Need advise Ok this week I have kicked up my cardio and strength training, but I have gained weight this week. So this makes me think I am not consuming enough calories. This is where I need advise. How much do I increase? I know our bodies are different but just wondering what some of you have done in this situation. Please any advise would be helpful. <em>304</em> Wed, 6 Apr 2011 22:51:24 EST Urge to PIG OUT!! Ok so all weekend I have had the urge to pig out. I haven't yet but feeling like I am going to cave today. I have done so good for the last 2 weeks. I really don't want to go backwards. Not yet anyway. Trying to keep my mind on other things, but I keep coming back to the thought of food. Really hope these thoughts go away soon. <em>29</em> Mon, 4 Apr 2011 12:52:03 EST The Ticker Changing the ticker for me is admitting defeat. Which I can do. While I was gaining the weight back. I lost site of my goals. I have changed the ticker and my attitude. This year I will not turn to food when things get tough. I have come to realize I am worth the time and effort this takes. Thu, 6 Jan 2011 09:44:30 EST Walk of shame Okay every blog lately has been about me not doing well on this journey. For the last two months I have not weighed myself. Well I take that back I haven't posted my weight, because I was ashamed. I let bad choices go from a couple of days to a couple of months. So I am done beating myself up. I am going to look at it as a detour for the last two months, and now I am getting back on this journey. Goals will be set again and good choices will be made. I am not ready to give up. Wed, 7 Jul 2010 10:15:47 EST Not going well I go back and forth between the same 3 or 4 pounds. Which is no surprise I have not eaten what I should. I haven't exercised in over a month. It's summer time now is when you would think I would have motivation. I know what to do and what not to do. Here lately I have been stressed and letting that take over. Why is it I was doing all the right things and know I am not. I know I will get back to a good place. I think I got comfortable with what weight I had lost. Even though I wasn'... Tue, 8 Jun 2010 14:18:17 EST What is going on For about the last three weeks all I can think about is food. I have not been making good choices. I want to eat everything and anything all through out the day. I haven't been tracking my food like I was. So I know that is part of the problem. Just can't figure out why these thoughts of food are consuming me. I keep myself busy and try to focus on other things. So what is going on in my brain. Really wish it would stop. <BR> Thu, 29 Apr 2010 11:28:49 EST Changing weigh in day When I first started this I weighed in on Tuesdays. Then I joined some teams and there WI days were Fridays no one made me change. Just thought I would give it a try. For the last two weeks I WI in on Friday and then I seem to go crazy. I eat what ever all weekend and do not exercise. Then I work like crazy all week to get back to where I was. So I am going back to Tuesday. I watched what I ate and exercised on the weekends when I weighed in on Tuesday. So tomorrows WI probably won't b... Mon, 26 Apr 2010 13:20:08 EST Half way to 1st goal My first goal is to lose 50lbs. I am half way there <em>244</em> . I never thought I would do so good. It's all due to this site and my amazing spark friends. Thank you all so much for the support and motivation. Fri, 16 Apr 2010 08:48:14 EST Update on knee I went to the doctor for my right knee. Now I feel old I have arthritis and the front of my knee is worn out as he put it. I am only 35 yrs old. He said this is a very genetic thing. I also may have a meniscus tear-torn cartilage. I did x-rays and a MRI. I find out the results next Thursday. <BR> <BR> I still have been exercising just not pushing myself like I could be. I am still staying within my calorie range so guess I am doing ok with what I have been doing. If anyone has the s... Thu, 15 Apr 2010 22:44:09 EST Knee My right knee has been hurting for about the last month. Today I am going to the doctor to see what they say. Of course today it feels better. I can't do lunges or fully bend it back. I have been exercising just not as hard or as much lately. I am ready to get back to my routine. Thu, 15 Apr 2010 09:04:07 EST Oh that scale Last night according to the scale I have gained 4lbs in one day. I haven't done that since I have started this journey. Okay yes I did have some Easter candy but not that much. I was active all weekend. So where did those pounds come from.. ugh. Thought I was going to get ahead this week. Guess I just have to work even harder. This up and down is getting frustrating, but i know it's all part of this process. Maybe I will get this all figured out one of these days hopefully soon. Tue, 6 Apr 2010 09:41:33 EST Great weekend Wow we had a wonderful weekend. It was spent with family and outdoors. The weather here was fabulous. The kids got new kites and got to fly them yesterday. My daughter got the wii game Just Dance. We have played that over and over. For the most part I have stayed on track. I did have a few pieces of candy but nothing that bad. Worked it off playing outside and the Just Dance wii game. That game will give you a good workout if you play long enough. Mon, 5 Apr 2010 10:22:00 EST Ugh... About the last week and a half of every month, I just don't want to do anything(TOM). Haven't exercised much in the last week and it shows. Can't seem to break this cycle. Each month I think I am going to make it through and I don't. I am not going to let it get me down anymore. This week I am going to get back on track. The sun is shinning and it is going to be a beautiful day here. <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> Going to play outside with the kids, and do some cardio later. Hope everyone ... Tue, 30 Mar 2010 11:49:37 EST Stressful Day One thing after another has happened today. I haven't been this stressed out for awhile. Two months ago I would have been eating anything and everything by now. Today so far I have done good but have been tempted. Going to go exercise <em>198</em> and relieve this stress and hopefully get rid of the temptation to eat things that I don't need. This weather is not helping either, cold and raining here in MO. I don't think it knows it's spring time yet. Thu, 25 Mar 2010 13:46:17 EST Learn it Live it Love it. My son said this to me the other day and ever since then I can't stop thing about these words. Learn it.. learn all you can about nutrition and exercise. Live it.. live every day with this knowledge, and live every day to it's fullest. Love it.. love yourself and how your body feels when you exercise and give it the right nutrition. <BR> <BR> Mon, 15 Mar 2010 13:55:44 EST Slowing down Yesterday I didn't make the best of choices but I didn't make the worst either. Have been tired the last couple of days. Still doing my exercise just not pushing myself like I was, and have stayed at the same weight. You will only get what you put into this. So I will add more exercise and push myself more. So that I can see more results. Fri, 12 Mar 2010 09:11:09 EST March/Exercise Did so good for February but not starting good for this month. Just read an article and realized I am not getting enough exercise in a day. The article stated an obese person (that's me) needs at least 250 min or more of exercise a week, about 50 min a day 5 days a week. Thought I was doing good. So this will be a goal also from now on. <em>9</em> Thu, 4 Mar 2010 09:17:36 EST Monthly goal I did it I lost 10 lbs in February. Really didn't think I was going to make it. This is going to be my monthly goal. Hope every one is progressing as well, keep it up. <em>306</em> Thu, 25 Feb 2010 11:26:55 EST Soda/Sweet Tea I was a big soda drinker, proud to say I gave that up. However, here lately I have been drinking a lot of sweet tea. Thinking it had to be better than soda. Realized today my thinking was wrong. I have been drinking my water so guess I will try and drink less tea and eventually just water. Hopefully more pounds will come off if I cut out the tea. Fri, 19 Feb 2010 13:58:05 EST Discouraged Getting discouraged I have exercise all week, drank water, and stayed within my calories and gained. Haven't officially weighed yet so maybe something will change. I increased calories a little since I have been exercising more thinking that would help. I don't know what else to do, I guess just give it time. Sometimes that's hard to do. <em>39</em> Sun, 14 Feb 2010 18:07:43 EST Lost 9lbs I weighed in this morning and have lost 9lbs! It's nice to see your hard work paying off and the scale going down. Tue, 9 Feb 2010 09:00:29 EST Finally Ya I exercised today. Not much, exercised with the wii fit plus for 30 minutes and played tennis for about 20 minutes. It's finally a start since I haven't done anything for awhile. I have done well with drinking the water. Boy does my skin look better. Now if I can get my body to look better I'll be doing good. Fri, 5 Feb 2010 21:32:45 EST Tierd I have to admit I have not worked out at all this week. My 4yr old has been up for the last three nights, fever and coughing. Took him to the Dr. he has bronchitis. I don't feel good and now my other son is running a fever and coughing also. I know I should still exercise I just can't get myself to do it. Wed, 3 Feb 2010 10:24:48 EST Eating I have gotten off track already. Can't seem to exercise or eat right the last few days. Sun, 31 Jan 2010 17:01:36 EST