HEATHERFREE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HEATHERFREE HEATHERFREE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 774-785 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5601681 Its been awhile! SO I had a very relaxing weekend with pretty good food portions but the week that followed wasn't great. Lots of junk food, but again it was because I didn't prepare stuff ahead of time, like sliced veggies for quick snacks. etc. I have a icky head cold right now and have work tomorrow, but I 'm hoping to get some good sleep tonight. <BR> The one thing I have been making sure to do, is get sleep. I have had a hard time getting enough sleep for years but a lot of it is my bra... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 21:17:14 EST Day 772, 773, and 774 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5589296 So not much to say other than i keep having a good day and then a bad one and getting myself refocused. It really is one day at a time, so I'm working on it. I finally got myself to use up the rest of the veggies I got for juicing this morning and I can't explain how much energy it gives you when you are getting that raw nutrition from the fruits and veggies. I would never be able to eat that many veggies throughout the day. For lunch since I only have a fifteen minute break today, I'm taking... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 14:00:27 EST Day 771 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585745 Good afternoon spark friends. I am feeling good today, finally got another good nights sleep. I just wish I could get that every night! It would make life altogether better. But anywho, so I wasn't going to weigh today because I didn't want to look at the scale for a long while after I found out I was back to 250. But I did and I lost 2.4 pounds this week with zero exercise. So that makes me happy that week one was a success on just a few simple changes. <BR> Yesterday was a not gr... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 13:57:54 EST Day 767-770 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584702 So I am in catch-up mode. I have been getting in the habit of eating more veggies with every meal and not having any candy or chips for snacks. Only fruits and veggies and an atkins bar or shake when I'm craving something sweeter than fruit. Water intake is up, swapping processed foods for lower calorie whole foods is in the works and I am feeling better. <BR> Today was my day off and I used my christmas money to get my hair done which has not been happening for a LONG time. It was nice... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 18:29:11 EST Day 766 (day 2) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5579411 So I didn't get nearly enough sleep last night....that's how it is most nights but new years eve I slept great but had to get up super early for work. It was my first really good nights sleep in weeks. SO last night I was hoping to get another. Nope didn't happen. So that's got me grumpified. I did get in a good breakfast this morning of a low carb tortilla with potatoes broccoli sausage and cheese. It was a larger calorie breakfast but I am really trying to peg whether I do better with a bi... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 12:31:54 EST Day 765 January 1st http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578351 So I wanted to type day ONE, but it is SO NOT DAY ONE! Really it should be day bazillion! But it is day 765 on spark. I am struggling today, my mind is just self sabotaging. So many negative thoughts going through my head and I can't seem to shake them. Writing this blog seems to be helping already. In my previous blog, I had three simple goals for January. And already today I am pressuring myself to get some exercise in here too, but as soon as I thought about that it made me want to just g... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 18:17:06 EST January goals. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5577273 The new year is here....and I am not going into it how I'd planned. I've beat myself up and made things worse. My emotional/stress eating is out of control and I am drowning. I can't find a workout buddy no matter how much I plead. SO I know that shouldn't keep me from doing what I need to do but it does. Winter is always a bad time for me and so that means I need to get to a gym. But I won't do it alone, no matter how much I convince myself that I will. Ive been there done that, had wasted m... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 23:48:27 EST Fall Challenge. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5503460 So I have had signed up early for a fall challenge....full of motivation and yada yada yada...and the first weeks I didn't even get the water intake point! I didn't weigh in and I didn't even browse spark! So here I am in the middle of week two, thinking crap now I can't even keep on with it. so I log on to spark finally and see that there are a few emails from the team challenge captain, and apparently you can miss three weigh ins before your booted! So that made me happy! This fall challen... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 12:15:31 EST Back under 230 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5467016 I am 228 this morning! I think it really is about dropping the obsession with the number and what the scale says and just avoiding it unless I have a spark of curiosity to see what it says. I am fully focused on just eating smaller amounts and getting away from the emotional eating. But on the other hand things have been going really good lately....so I am waiting for something stressful to happen, a fight with Ry or work conflict or something....But last night I was battling with myself over... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 16:39:59 EST H20 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5456117 quick little update for my few sparkers who give a flip. :) I am still pushing forward I'm just trying to find what works for me RIGHT NOW what I am willing to do consistently to make it a lifestyle change. My biggest issue is portion size, it seems like I HAVE to have that super full feeling, I am just not satisfied with small meals more often. SO I am finding meals that satisfy me but truly let me lose weight, and my exercise is all over the place, I do an hour a day for four days and then ... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 12:03:53 EST shortie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5431187 okay hi guys!!! FIRST OFF congrats to Stephanie for reaching onederland!!!! YAY!! <em>26</em> <BR> so the scale is not my friend lately......BUT I have been doing loads of outdoor activities this summer and will definitely be completing my 2013 physical goals by summer end!!! YAY. Not only have I been checking off that list, I have also been getting more socially involved, which is HUGE for me. I am going to Africa in November on a mission trip, which in itself is amazing! I have never... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 23:24:12 EST Day off tomorrow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5405880 Yay tomorrow is my day off and we are going on our first big hike for this year...I want to do alot of hiking this summer and become that cool hiker outdoor chick! lol Eventually a skinny healthy one at that! But any who, we were actually supposed to hike to granite lake.....until we discovered it is 6 miles in.....SO not gonna happen for the first hike of the year lol.....12 mile day hike...ummm no. So we are going to Bramlet lake, below I have posted a video that I found on youtube of braml... Sat, 29 Jun 2013 22:56:23 EST quick update before work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5397362 Okay guys, so I think I'm finally out of the "I just can't do this"I just can't get myself to say no to bingeing". Ive been doing great all week with the eating. I just have a few more things that I need to tweak that I want to work on this weekend. <BR> <BR> I have GOT to stop drinking soda, I have switched to no caffeine but STILL I am addicted to that as well, I have to have two three or more cans a day, and it is not good for me at all. but the reason I keep going ... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 12:36:06 EST changing my mind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5393761 I have realized that I am beating myself up for all the mistakes I have made which in turn just causes me to keep making mistakes because I'm only thinking negatively. I need to remember the other things I am changing in my life: <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> I quit my old job and this new one is MUCH better, as far as stress goes. <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> I am going to Africa....AFRICA! The old Heather would have never ACTUALLY got the ball rolling to do something like that... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 19:17:43 EST Can't seem to get out of this.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379539 Hey guys! I am still here, I just cannot seem to get myself to track....or stop cravings. It was once so easy to get in a perfect calorie range that my body let go of the weight and I was full and I wasn't craving anything....and now...for the past gazzillion months I just cannot figure it out. I really need to figure it out because I have less than two months left until my final weigh in for my ethiopia pledges. I just wish I had someone who lived here, with the same schedule to work out wi... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 20:29:36 EST hi! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5356402 Hey guys, SO TOM is here again, feeling very miserable but today I went and got another small notebook so I could start tracking again. I really just need to do it, it will make me see what I'm doing when I come home from work and want to binge. <BR> I was doing so good, eating perfectly having no cravings and zero diet pepsi, I then one day started to get a diet pepsi at work each day and after a few days started craving grease and sugar. I havve done research on diet pepsi and I know how ... Tue, 14 May 2013 14:23:43 EST struggle.....struggle struggle....good day.....struggle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5329158 SO I totally bailed on the challenge, makes me sad.....ive had some good meals this week and then end everyday with binge eating.....I don't know what to do. I feel something changing inside me today and I'm hoping its Gods strength that ive been praying for, I did good today so far....im about to eat dinner and if I can make it this ONE night without binge eating I think I can get this weight loss going again. Also I only had one 20 oz diet pepsi today and that is HUGE because Ive been drin... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 22:38:02 EST March into spring week 2 nonfitness challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5300970 So this week for the non fitness challenge they are having us post a blog of our goals for this spring challenge And post them at home as well. So here is my one goal. <BR> <BR> #1 To get to 215 by last weigh-in. In order to accomplish this challenge goal I'm <BR> going to be working on the following things: <BR> <BR> 1) Walk/bike 12 miles per week ... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 15:35:44 EST Another WOOHOOO!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280586 Man, my woo hoo jar is actually getting some action finally!!! I got to 227 officially and significantly under 230. And I have been wanting to change jobs for years....and on thursday I applied at some places had an interview at ace hardware and I just got the call today that I got the job!!! YAY only two more weeks at my old job and then I'm moving on! Finally AND after I'm there for a year this new job has some medical benefits, vacation, any merchandise at cost for me and my family, and 40... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 21:53:06 EST work rant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5277833 why can't wejust work together! Thu, 7 Mar 2013 19:09:08 EST woohoo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5273043 Finally weighed in! 227! YAY!!!! I'll post a bigger blog later very busy day!!! Mon, 4 Mar 2013 16:40:41 EST Come on spring!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5265127 Ok! I know its been a month since I blogged..I KNOW! lol I just have nothing fun or exciting to say I'm just pushing forward very slowly I have one good day and then 8 bad days and then another good day. No big milestones, no weigh ins so every time I'd think to blog I was like about what?! <em>198</em> Ryan and I took all three dogs ( two bostons and a lab) for a walk yesterday, it was cold but the roads were okay...the dogs however were little turds!!!!! But it was nice to just be out... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 19:35:29 EST update yay http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5223621 Just wanted to do an update and tell everyone I'm sorry for not being around!!!! I have been trying to figure out how to get over this plateau and figure out what will work, all while trying to get my mind to cooperate with the basics of not eating everything in sight just because I want it! <BR> I finally forced myself to workout after work today. I bought the 30 day shred dvd on monday and still hadn't done it....so I did the first workout tonight. It was 20 minutes of horribleness! ... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 20:58:48 EST 230 I HATE YOU! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198047 go away 230! Leave! Ya hear me? Git on outta here! Can't ya see I don't want ya anymore?! Wed, 9 Jan 2013 00:51:47 EST Stressful day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189258 BLEH Fri, 4 Jan 2013 00:10:25 EST Some 2013 goals, other than the obvious ones! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184693 SO I decided to write down a couple resolutions last night and a couple other things...not really resolutions, just things I want to accomplish this year. The past few months I have really gotten financial plans in order thanks to a woman from my church helping me get my stuff together. To be FREE from money issues. In the next couple weeks I may be going to part time work which will make things tougher financially, but will mean that I get a day off with Ryan each week. Which is huge for my ... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 20:10:48 EST January Goals very long vlog! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5181488 So heres my 2013 goals, I'm really tired today, didn't get much sleep but am excited to keep pushing forward and have a brand new year to get to where I'm goin'! YEE HAW! lol Sun, 30 Dec 2012 22:20:20 EST WARNING: Before Pictures! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5171480 Okay.....I have been putting off before pictures for a year now.....its dumb I know because during the journey...these pictures will help to keep me going! I have a couple pictures from right before I joined spark last December, and a couple from the summer before at my highest and then the ones I took today. I can't wait to be able to look back on them end of next year and see a huge difference so here we go.... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1253351721.jpg"> ... Wed, 19 Dec 2012 21:55:17 EST December weight loss Goal Blown right out of the water! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5170271 bow chicka wowow!!! I had a December goal of losing 3 pounds, it was huge to me because I have not been able to "get er done" lately. But its only December 18th and I'm down 5 pounds!!! I have stuck to all of my small goals I set for this month, except the past week I haven't kept on top of my vitamin intake. But I am so stoked by the loss so far that I am gonna make sure I get back to take them everyday! Thanks to all of my sparkies!!! I love you all!!! You keep me going, and even the people... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 15:15:40 EST Weigh-In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5170254 AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH<BR>HHHHHHHh Tue, 18 Dec 2012 14:58:22 EST Getting lazy with blogs, I KNOW! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5169750 ahhh I am doing a little update for my die hard fans! :) I did not have time to weigh yesterday (Monday). Had way to much to get done. BUT I will weigh in AND do a vlog at some point today I promise! I am unsure about what result will come from the weigh-in....mostly because I haven't logged my calories or anything I have just been eyeballing meal size and making sure I am getting mostly veggies in each meal with small portions of starch and meat. And having fruit for snacks, I have been doin... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 03:51:31 EST 4 weeks without a weigh in.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5158309 Okay so I finally weighed. 4lbs up in four weeks.......This is not good! But it once again could be worse and I'm really surprised that it wasn't because I have never binged that often before. It was ridiculous!!! But I am going to keep it simple, leave an exercise schedule out of it right now and stick to my four December goals. That's it. And then I will get some new goals for the New Year! <em>43</em> <BR> DECEMBER <BR> ... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 14:10:25 EST December Goals. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5157709 OKAY!!!!!! I am so DONE with failing for the past few months!! I am posting my December goals here. They are very small but I HAVE to get back on this, I do not want to be stuck in the same place....I keep saying that and then do nothing, but seriously I HAVE to do this. Or I will be a mess come summer and will be miserable with myself and probably way worse than I am now! So my few and simple goals for December are as follows: <BR> <BR> 1. Log on to spark at least 5 days a week and rea... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 00:10:54 EST So DONE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5157707 ugh! I need to take my own advice and just do this!!!! Thu, 6 Dec 2012 00:06:20 EST Keeps going and going and going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5146635 This entire year I havent had more than a week or two at a time of doing good. I think I am going to just tell the boyfriend that he just cant have ANY bad stuff in the house until im in 199's. Because I have zero resistance with my fave foods. If its here I eat it....and I have totally ditched water and have gone back to my old self with the diet pepsi. This stuff is like crack, I have withdrawals when I get off of it, it literally calms me down, I use it so I wont eat what I'm not supposed ... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 01:58:31 EST Thanksgiving.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5144254 So I had a couple bad days this week one of which was thanksgiving, not nearly as bad as old me but still. I haven't weighed in two weeks so I'm not sure where I'm at. We will see this Monday. On another note....I have been once again working very hard to stick to budgets for things, especially groceries, so that I can pay off things faster and get to a better more free, less stressful, not constricted lifestyle. So a lady from my church who is a financial wiz, literally knows everything ther... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 12:59:08 EST weighin and boyfriend vlog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5127772 good weigh in and a boyfriend story for Kassie and my other gals who care Wed, 7 Nov 2012 21:14:27 EST finally an actual work out (thursday) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5121776 this is the fourth time Ive tryed to upload this vlog......sick of these issues! two computers and neither one is working right for vlogs.... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 18:14:56 EST Shorty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5118546 Just a short little vlog to say hi and what not. Wed, 31 Oct 2012 00:00:14 EST November Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5114241 Since the whole wisdom teeth thing and several TOMs I am not moving forward very well. So I am refreshing some goals and posting them so that I can get back on track with everything. I'm going to do month by month so that I can see if I'm completing my goals and see what I need to work on more. So here we go AGAIN! :) <BR> <BR> Goal #1 <BR> Cardio 30mins and strength training at least 3 times per week! Just do it! <BR> <BR> Goal #2 <BR> At least 8 glasses of water per day <BR>... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 23:35:19 EST im back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5110645 I was very loopy and tired doin this, pain killers were in full force. Wed, 24 Oct 2012 00:00:55 EST Wooo hoooo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5109377 I am back in vlogging business people!!!!!!!!!!! It is late right now and I'm pooped But tomorrow I am going to vlog it up!!!! I cant wait! I'm gonna make so many! Doing a happy dance right now!!!!!!! Tue, 23 Oct 2012 02:25:54 EST Happens every time..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5106372 Hi guys! Iam still here, I have not been logging in everyday and have not been doing well with my fall challenge as far as participating in the weekly fitness and non fitness challenges and Im sorry! I just got my wisdom teeth removed, and it sucks! The pain killers make me sick to my stomach unless I just go to sleep after taking them, so I can't take them at work. And I have been eating nothing but bad carbs: ramen, mac n cheese, icecream and lots of it! BUT I am already planning my comebac... Sat, 20 Oct 2012 20:06:16 EST hhhhh......still no video. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5091464 Okay, so last week I gained a pound, this week I'm down two and I am DETERMINED not to gain one back like last time! I have been stuck in the 230s for far too long. I have been up and down emotionally and am sliding back into old thinking patterns. The last known time that I was under 230 was when I was 17 so I really NEED to get out of these 230's to keep going. 3 pounds is all i need to do that! Thats it! so why can't i just do it?! <BR> <BR> I have goals on my goal/weight track board he... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 15:01:17 EST AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5085761 SERIOUSLY?!?!?! I get this computer all situated since the other one won't let me upload any videos....and I make an awesome vlog and am SOOOO excited to be able to talk to you all again and I go to upload it and the PAGE WONT EVEN FINISH LOADING FOR ME TO ENTER IN THE TITLE AND DESCRIPTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<BR>!!!! BUT IT WILL LET ME DO A WRITTEN BLOG.......AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH<BR>HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! <BR> Wed, 3 Oct 2012 21:11:13 EST Weigh in day.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5063653 Ok so last weigh in I had gone a month without weighing and gained a pound. Today I am sooo glad to say I lost the one I gained plus another! So I'm at 233, sooo close to the 220s. I am glad and excited but part of me has this really blah feeling again, like its such a slow process and I want to be changed right now! I will get over it, but yeah.....its lame to feel like this. I joined the Back to Basics fall challenge and am soo excited to do that. The first challenge I did this summer, was ... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 17:46:09 EST I am still here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5061740 I have been trying to post vlogs all week! and at first I thought it was just spark, because Ive had it happen before, but I have been trying every single day to post the same video and It always fails! I hate having to type out what I'm thinking for a blog, I like video blogs so much better and this is annoying me to no end! And it is definitely affecting my progress!!! Just a quick vent session about this, because I once again can't post the vlog or any vlog..... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 15:15:47 EST Quick update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5052770 Just went for a 4mile bike ride, back on track! Hope you all are doing great! Kassie and Lacey I want to know how your doing!!! Mon, 10 Sep 2012 15:07:55 EST Follow up from Gain blog. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5047917 Follow up on my goals from this mornings blog.....and a freak out about Stephanie! Fri, 7 Sep 2012 00:02:59 EST BAH....gained. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5047141 Yeah....Its been exactly a month today since I've weighed. I gained 1.6 pounds. And that sucks because I'm SO close to getting into the 220s! BUT it could be soooo much worse and I'm once again shocked that it wasn't so much more, because I have had many binge days the past month AND smoked a cig! EW I KNOW! But I am here right now sparking, about to go to work, and made a fresh peanut butter and berry smoothie, and a couple pieces of turkey breakfast sausage and I'm ready for a better day. ... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 13:31:30 EST