HEALTHIERMAMA57's SparkPeople Blog HEALTHIERMAMA57's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community August 19th emotional struggling sucks! <BR> <BR> I have really been trying to get a handle on the emotional eating. I think it's better, the choices are sure better! I am trying to drink more water. <BR> <BR> My exercise is still a battle. <BR> <BR> I hope, someday, it will all get easier. I guess I need to be happy that I have not given up, that I do, in fact, work hard at it every day. I need to understand that all of the medications play into everything as well. <BR> <BR> I g... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 15:16:45 EST Day #1 AGAIN I think it has been a somewhat successful day............ <BR> <BR> Greek yogurt for breakfast <BR> <BR> Chicken salad with lettuce and wasa crackers for lunch <BR> <BR> Southwestern chicken over greens in prep stage now <BR> <BR> Nutrigrain bar for snack <BR> <BR> fruit salad with cottage cheese for snack <BR> <BR> 1.5 mile walk <BR> <BR> I think the plan is good, I think the plan is sensible, I think Day #1 will be successful! <BR> <BR> I must keep in mind that this is for m... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 15:20:27 EST August 7, 2013 - a dismal day Well, I haven't blogged in a such a long time, I felt like I just couldn't deal with reality on every level. <BR> <BR> My family has been in upheaval for a while. My child and spouse, (who is military) have been stationed in Japan. I found out on one day I was to be a grandma, and 24 hours later, that they would be leaving the United States for several years. I certainly did not handle it well..................I ate, I cried, I ate, I was sad, and I ate. I did exercise some...... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 15:54:30 EST May 30, 2013 well, it has been a very busy month for sure. I am still lousy at blogging lol. I did however journal and track every single day of the month. I have been concentrating on my vegetable eating and experimenting with new things. I have totally increased my fruit intake and I have lowered my carbs substantially. My blood sugars are a bit better so it seems we are headed in the right direction. <BR> Thu, 30 May 2013 20:30:12 EST May 4, 2013 It appears that my "blogging" this week has helped me! I think about the comments encouraging me, I think about my stress eating, and I am, at least, attempting to realize what my issues are, and deal with them. <BR> <BR> I've got a very very long way to go for sure. But the fact that I am realizing is huge. <BR> <BR> Yes, I am still a stress eater, I have for more than 50 years! I'm not going to stop it overnight, but I am more conscious of it. I am attempting to surround myself w... Sat, 4 May 2013 12:23:46 EST May 2, 2013 so last night I blogged my pity party. Some kind comments were made and it really was a bit of a pep talk for me! I'm not saying I've done well today, but I have done better. I made conscious choices, I put my mind in the game a little more. <BR> <BR> the snacks today have been "good snacks" a cantaloupe was cut up into bite size pieces, it's in the fridge and ready to go, pepper strips and carrots along with sliced apple. <BR> <BR> I may not be ready to deal with stress eating, in... Thu, 2 May 2013 19:47:35 EST May Day 2013 I am so lousy at blogging. Just plain lousy!!! It has been quite the month, and I have been doing some very serious stress eating, like BIGTIME! I am in need of huge encouragement. <BR> <BR> So, my only child is a military wife. She has just announced that she is pregnate with my first grandchild. Less than 24 hours later (after waiting for many months) they got their orders to transfer. to JAPAN!!!!! For 3 years!!!!! If that's not bad enough, they were to move 2 weeks before ... Wed, 1 May 2013 20:10:09 EST April 14th, 2013 TOUGH WEEKEND!!! BUSY WEEKEND!!!!! <BR> <BR> From Friday noon when I am through work until I go back Monday morning, I have 8 meals to eat, plus snacks. Out of the 8, with my crazy schedule this weekend, 5 meals are eaten out. ICK!!!! For me that's tough. One meal, I'm fine, two I'm ok, this is horrible, all the extra added oils, salt, larger portions, grrrrrrr. <BR> <BR> So far, I haven't done terrible, although I have not done as well as I would have liked. I have been abl... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 10:22:43 EST March 17, 2013 I have not posted a blog in a month............that's bad! It's been wicked busy, throw in a nasty flat on my back, miss 2 days of work cold.............that was a bonus! or rather the fever blister under my nose the size of a crater is the bonus! I am happy to say that through it all, I did not gain too much. I did not lose to much either, but I did not gain.....................whew! <BR> <BR> I have not been to the gym in 2 weeks, I was just having too much trouble catching my breath a... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 22:04:12 EST 2/19/13 Doctor visit yay for me!!! <BR> <BR> Doctor visit was really good today. <BR> <BR> EKG: perfect <BR> <BR> mobility tests: perfect <BR> <BR> food journal: almost perfect <BR> <BR> most bloodwork came back very very good (all normal ranges) <BR> <BR> a little bloodwork came back improving, definitely much better, but not quite <BR> <BR> weight loss was very good <BR> <BR> water intake was excellent <BR> <BR> exercise (muscle definition) much better <BR> <BR> color, blood flow, reflex was goo... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 18:21:40 EST February 8. 2013 I have the day off, I'm waiting for a blizzard..............I only work a few hours a day, and I got the call last night, no work today, school is closed, and we only had a half day. I did not understand this, we NEVER close the day before! This must be a bad bad storm coming I watch the weather. <BR> <BR> Weather channel and local weather concur. We are having a blizzard, however, light dusty snow, then rain, then mixed then late afternoon heavy snow into the evening ... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 11:02:24 EST February 3, 34th day of the new and improved me! although i am struggling, and every day is difficult, I plug along, I am alot more comfortable with my food choices, grocery shopping is not as difficult. I don't feel as overwhelmed with all of this. <BR> <BR> I still have to push myself on the exercise, but I have been more diligent and faithful about getting in my time, almost daily. <BR> <BR> There is progress, I am down 5.5 lbs. in 34 days.................with all of the medications and difficulties with my pancreas, this is HUG... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 21:30:08 EST January 10, 2013 - day 10 BLOG TIME! I'm bored tonight, I'm lonely, I'm wanting to nibble on everything! <BR> <BR> so boredom eating, not tonight! I am aware, I am not going to do it! I also am not going to stay near the kitchen. I believe I will clean out the fireplace, then go to bed early with a cup of tea and maybe a new book .............. <BR> <BR> Have a nice evening all! Thu, 10 Jan 2013 21:15:50 EST Day 9 - January 9th, 2013 BLOG, BLOG, BLOG, BLAH, BLAH, BLAH.......... <BR> <BR> I am a very boring person. I already knew that! And, now I get to share that with all of you. I love to be by myself, I work days, my husband works nights. Because of night driving issues with the diabetes, I am in by dark. I go to work, I go to gym, I go home. I read, do puzzles, watch tv, play on the computer. <BR> <BR> In the winter, that's life in the fast lane around here. Tonight's big excitement, I am going to clean all... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 17:30:23 EST January 8th, 2013 = Day 8 I am still lousy at blogging, LOUSY! <BR> <BR> I am such a private person, I find this incredibly difficult. <BR> <BR> I had a scare in the middle of the night.......MY SUGAR WAS TOO LOW! <BR> That is difinitely different, for sure. It is usually too high. I tried to lower my carbs even more. I woke up around 2am, drenched in sweat, disoriented, clammy, and blurred vision......I stumbled into the bathroom, did my thing, and stood there, I kinda forgot what to do next. I stumbled to... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 20:14:52 EST January 7, 2013 - Day 7 I am lousy at blogging. LOUSY! Part of a challenge I am doing is to work at something you want to improve.......blogging was the lucky winner! So....... <BR> <BR> I have spent alot of time thinking about the last year and how good and how bad I have been. I have done very well. No, I have not lost a ton of weight, I have lost a few pounds, but I am thrilled with all that I have accomplished. <BR> <BR> I started this spark page with Diabetic numbers (fasting) at high 200s and low 300s.... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 16:07:55 EST end of year-2012 I had all sorts of ideas on what to write for my end of the year blog. None of which matter at this point. <BR> <BR> My husband has been in the hospital. The man who is never sick, the man who is my rock, the man who cherishes me and keeps me on track with the diabetes. The man who keeps me on track with life. He never ever is ill, he doesn't even get a head ache. He argues about going to a doctor. He has taken 14 tylenol/asprin in 32 years! He rarely even gets a cold! <BR> <BR> He i... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 21:44:58 EST December 9, 2012 Well, what a week! The gist of it is I exercised alot more, I did not track food well at all, I gained a pound. I beat myself up for about an hour this morning, now I'm done. I need to realize what I'm doing, or not doing. My plan is still the same, watch and work and try, try, try. My plan is to to be healthier. To drop the pounds in a good healthy way, and learn to like exercise, and to do it daily. I want to spend some time today going through the food journals, I, obviously, am n... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 09:08:59 EST December 1, 2012 I lost 4 lbs. this week! I had a super week for sure! I got my new cell phone, and my fitbit zip on Thursday. I got Jury Duty on Friday............awesome (sarcasm).............I c an't get this stupid fitbit set up properly, I don't know what i am doing wrong, but I am so frustrated I could spit! I finally got it downloaded properly and it works well with, but I can't get it to work properly with spark. I don't have a freakin clue what I am doing wrong, but I know it aint rig... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 00:17:48 EST November 25, 2012 Today was a quiet day, a day to rest, in every way, shape and form. I literally did nothing but rest. I have been over stressed, over worked and way over tired. Today was all about me. I ate well, very healthy, I rested alot, I caught up on alot of reading, I even caught up on tv time. Sun, 25 Nov 2012 19:01:30 EST Thanksgiving Day I had been doing so well, then work chaos intervened. I tried, I really did, over and over, and then it just all fell apart. Thank goodness it wasn't for a terribly long time, and I don't think I totally screwed up, there were a few meals, a few times that I thought about what I was eating, what I was going to order, and I did ok. <BR> <BR> So I then beat myself up, over and over, every day, every meal. I didn't exercise, but I yelled at myself, and ate a cookie, then I made excuses. ... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 23:29:51 EST Day 32 of the rest of my life......... I am all moved out of the summer home and back to the winter place. It is so difficult to keep up with the food and exercise while living in limbo for 6 weeks! ah well, I did it.........I gained 2 lbs but I did it. I can only imagine how bad it would have been had I not been "careful". <BR> <BR> So, back home, groceries stocked up, gym back in the picture. <BR> <BR> I learned alot this summer. I learned that I can make all of the excuses I want, bottom line is, if you don't work at... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 15:20:51 EST Day 22 of the rest of my life A good day today, I stayed within calories. I exercised some.......walked a good share, but now I am finally home, I think I may do a little wii fit tonight. Diabetic numbers were good all day, all in all I will take it, and hope for more like it! <BR> <BR> Mon, 1 Oct 2012 20:39:01 EST day 21 of the rest of my life I'm struggling, but still hanging in there. Another week of crazy amounts of overtime and weird hours, and things will settle down. I stopped at the supermarket today after work and picked up apples, pears, broccoli, lettuce and tomato and eggs to boil, hopefully I can get through with some chicken and yogurt. <BR> <BR> Back to wearing the pedometer, just so I can get steps in in between.........I can do this!!!!!! <BR> Sun, 30 Sep 2012 16:38:12 EST Day 10 of the rest of my life Today is not at all what I have expected! I can do this......I can do this......I can do this!!!! <BR> <BR> Because of the storms, we got an unexpected day off from school!! Yippee!!! No power at school means "free day"!!! Hubby has to go to work, so I am alone.....a nice quiet day, peaceful, unexpected, yaaaaaaay. <BR> <BR> I decide I will get a good GOOD workout in, I get into sweats, I do what chores need to be done, and jump on the treadmill. It's right next to the washer, so ... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 11:44:44 EST Day 8 of the rest of my life I haven't had a lot of time to track on spark, but I have purchased a small notebook to keep in my pocketbook so I have no excuse for not tracking. I used it the last few days, I can write it all down then enter it at a later date. I have tried to exercise every day, even if only a few moments......until school tax season is over, this is the way it is.......but i have done well with choices since my meltdown a couple of weeks ago and I am aware......I park at the end of the parking lot,... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 17:36:08 EST Day 2 of the rest of my life I've had a good day! I did well during the day, and I know this strange but totally enjoyed my dinner of spinach and chicken. I have my snack planned for after exercise, lunch for tomorrow is prepared and ready to go, breakfast will be a fruit smoothie on the run tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I guess maybe my meltdown a few days ago was a good thing! Tue, 11 Sep 2012 19:13:27 EST Day 1 of the rest of my life So yesterday I had myself a bit of a pity party. I appreciate all of the thoughts and advice given to me. <BR> <BR> I have made an attempt to stop beating myself up. I have failed a gazillion times, and will continue to fail, until I succeed, and succeed I will, maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but I will. <BR> <BR> So today, again, I celebrate Day 1 of the rest of my life, day 1 of healthy eating, day 1 of better blood sugar levels, day 1 of the dreaded exercise, <BR> <BR> It's... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 19:55:33 EST The end............ I have been slowly spiraling out of control.......I have watched it happening, I have seen the mistakes happening, the weight going up, again, the blood glucose levels going higher and higher. I have turned a blind I have weighed in......I am thoroughly disgusted with myself, what the hell have I been working so hard for.......why did I let this happen, yet again.......grrrrrrrr <BR> <BR> I'm pretty angry with myself, I am trying to figure out what the heck is going on wit... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 21:41:25 EST September 5, 2012 Well I am back to my house, back to my winter job at the school, and still doing weekends at the campground and living there 3 days a week. The next 8 weeks are hectic and crazy and I am more separated then with my husband. This is always a difficult time.......I am far.......I am ready for the change up in the exercise! <BR> <BR> I have better internet service here so I am hopeful I can get back into the habit of logging my exercise. <BR> <BR> So......................... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 17:35:26 EST birthday what a fantastic day I had. I got to spend an overnight with my husband, daughter and son in law, we were/are camping, so a nice bonfire, glass of wine, awesome conversation. I have learned its not the quantity of time, but the quality. Now that I finally stopped feeling sorry for myself that she has moved away, I enjoy our time. We went to the local county fair, had "fair food" for dinner, and did ok, not wonderful, but ok. Saw a wonderful friend I hadn't seen in a very long time, of c... Fri, 31 Aug 2012 08:23:56 EST day 26 of26 = Doctor's visit today was doctor day. I lost: 2 1/2 lbs. blood pressure: 130/60, blood sugar: grrrrrrr 200. Leg dimension: better, flexibilities: good Not the worst visit by any means, but not wonderful either. <BR> <BR> On a good note, I don't go back until the end of October. <BR> <BR> Gotta get the blood sugar lower, gotta get the weight lower, gotta exercise more. <BR> <BR> Now I got my gottas, now I gotta DO IT!!! Fri, 24 Aug 2012 14:50:18 EST Day 22 of 26 until next Dr. visit I was afraid yesterday was going to be a huge struggle, birthday party for my daughter. She also is a Sparker so it actually went reasonably well. I think we both had a little "light bulb" moment. We were planning the menu........for the first time in 23 years there was no macaroni tuna salad, there was no potato salad, no baked beans........we still had the summer picnic, but we made some lifestyle changes. We had corn on the cob, toss salad, sliced tomatoes, cucumber salad and barbecue... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 10:41:53 EST Day 18 of 26 - until next Doctor's visit nothing exciting is going on, at all.........did some grocery shopping yesterday finally, I really enjoyed not having to scramble to make a healthy meal this morning. I will be so glad when my life settles a bit, but for now it is what it is, and I can't make excuses, I just need to keep at it. I think/hope I put enough thought into the next couple of weeks until the next grocery trip. I made sure I got extra frozen fruit and veges, that was my issue last long as I have ingr... Thu, 16 Aug 2012 10:44:10 EST Day 16 of 26 - until next doctor visit I haven't been doing wonderful.......I haven't been doing awful........I've just been!!! I need to buckle down, I gotta go to the supermarket, I gotta lengthen my walk! <BR> <BR> I know what I gotta do, now I've gotta get crackin!! Doc wanted me to shoot for -2 lbs. this month........I'm at -.5, with 10 days to go!! Yikes Tue, 14 Aug 2012 08:32:15 EST day 11 of 26 until next doctor's visit Yaaaaaaay me! I needed to buy some black pants for a social function. My last ones are a size 22......last I wore them my mom, bless her, pulled me aside after and said, "please don't wear those again, I'm not sure if you are aware the crotch hangs pretty low, and you have one seriously baggy butt"! So I've done nothing, it's summer, I've no need to dress in anything but shorts, or exercise gear until school starts in 4 weeks. So, this function comes up, I run to the local Kmart.....m... Thu, 9 Aug 2012 22:20:05 EST Day 10 of 26 until next Doctor visit the day is getting away from me.......I have work this afternoon and evening.......I hate the night shift, it is so difficult when I need to switch my day all around. I guess the precooked chicken will come in handy to throw in the toss salad that will be dinner. Maybe I will get KA to walk with me later, I won't get out until after dark....... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 12:38:57 EST Day 8 of 26, until next doctor visit well I certainly have been struggling to eat properly and keep the blood glucose numbers in range. I did have some good exercise today. I did my walk, and then I did a little bit of run! Yep, all of me jiggled, wiggled, and flopped around, but I ran, not a lot, around 200 feet, but I did it 3 times!!! I did rest in between, but I did it! I am pretty pleased with myself today! Mon, 6 Aug 2012 22:41:16 EST Day 4 of 26 - until next Doctor visit I felt like I ws having a good day, I had fruit and cottage cheese for breakfast. I had tuna lettuce wraps for lunch, steak and corn for dinner, and then I blew it, TOTALLY. we went to see friends and I nibbled a little, I munched a little, I grazed a little......I came home and gorged ALOT. As soon as I realized what was happening, I was able to stop........but geeeeze, it took a long time and alot of calories to realize. Now I'm disgusted with myself.......when will I get it......dan... Thu, 2 Aug 2012 21:56:00 EST Day 3 of 26 - until next dr. visit I didnt do so well yesterday. A little chaos in my life I'm used to.......yesterday, not so much! I was able to exercise, I was able to eat right most of the day. The problem is my willpower is low, I work in a campground store, lots of candy, ice creams, etc. It's easy to pop a caramel or tootsie roll in your mouth! Today, a longer shift for me, and better willpower, I hope. I don't know why, after a gazillion years of working here, this year the candy is a problem for me. Or is it th... Wed, 1 Aug 2012 09:57:51 EST Day 1 of 26 - till next doctor visit It has b een a crazy month, I must admit I have not done well at all, and I can make all of the excuses, I've been busy, I have had a lot of stress, I didn't feel well, the computer was broke, and on and on we go! The real truth is that I have been lazy. Period. There, I said it! <BR> <BR> We are very busy at the campground, we work strange hours and it does take some getting used to for sure, unfortunately, I struggled to fit it all in, be a good wife, mom, mom in law, worker, friend and... Mon, 30 Jul 2012 21:21:06 EST June 26, 2102 - Well yesterday was the monthly doctor day.......AGAIN....... <BR> <BR> Yesterday's visit was much better, I dropped 4 lbs this last 34 days, and blood pressure was down. He's not ready yet to change anything around but after the last med change, I am pleased. <BR> <BR> It's starting to make sense to me, it's starting to all come together, I still have to work on the exercise in a big way and I still have to lose tons of weight but much better doctor visit.......whew! Tue, 26 Jun 2012 08:32:08 EST June 8, 2012 - exhausted I guess the title says it all - I am pooped! <BR> <BR> I work at a school so we are winding down for the summer break, and I work at a campground that is just gearing up for the summer - there is a 8-10 week transition wherein I do both jobs, 7 days a week, and travel the hour between the two, at the same time I am closing up my house for the summer months, and opening the trailer for those same months. It's a very hectic time for sure. <BR> <BR> I am pleased to say, I have somewhat prepar... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 23:30:05 EST meltdown My last blog was May 7, 2012......I had been doing so well! And then the bottom fell out of my world.......too many emotional issues.........I felt bogged down, I felt overwhelmed.......I felt like my life was total chaos. <BR> <BR> Emotional issues equals plus 4 pounds of emotional eating, and eating and eating. I would and have eaten until I was sick to my stomach, and then I would eat! <BR> <BR> I did it, I beat myself up, and then I did it again. I guess, eventually, I will l... Tue, 29 May 2012 21:35:04 EST May 7, 2012 - Day 17 of 35 back on track with the food, diab etes issues seem to be settling down........I hate med changes, they are so difficult for me! ah well, it is what it is.........and I'm living it! <BR> <BR> Have a super day! <BR> Mon, 7 May 2012 14:53:21 EST May 4, 2012 - Day 14 of 35 I have not been doing well. I have not been doing horrible. But, I am still doing!!! My work schedule is such that I am on the move, literally, from 7AM until 8 PMish. Then a late rushed dinner, and if I'm not totally wiped out, a little exercise........I am exhausted, and noticed today that the as it gets later in the day, and I'm pooped, I make my eating mistakes. My willpower just leaves (probably to take a nap). <BR> <BR> I have acknowledged a I am writing this, ... Fri, 4 May 2012 19:52:00 EST May 1, 2012 - Day 11 of 35 allergies are wicked this week........lets hope things settle down, I'm miserable..... <BR> Tue, 1 May 2012 20:02:21 EST April 29, 2012 - Day 9 of 35 I'm so angry with myself........I have had two, yep 2, horrible days as far as eating and exercise go.......I just fell off the healthier train! No excuses, I just did! It sure made me realize that I need very structured eating and exercise. I am no where near ready to not track! <BR> <BR> I just lost time to track, to plan, to think about what I was eating........I couldn't fit in the exercise. Well at least that's the excuse I have we all know I was just lazy. I had t... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 10:35:07 EST April 25, 2012 - Day 5 of 35, Again Well, I haven't had a computer for a couple of days, mine was out of commission, I think it was a good thing, it made me realize just how much time I spend on it, playing games, reading, etc. I was alone last night, and totally lost, I honestly didn't know what to do with myself.....hmmmmm I could have exercised, ah no, I could have journaled, ahhh nope, I could have read, nope again, I sat on my big ole behind and did nothing, I started to watch tv, and didn't wanna do that, I start... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 21:11:21 EST April 23rd, 2012 - Day 3 of 35, Again Today, I am making a couple of changes. Slow and steady.......After doing so much reading and research for the last few weeks, I am going to attempt to implement some of the things I have read and (hopefully) grasped. <BR> <BR> The tools are in place, now I must use them......... <BR> <BR> I am still on Cloud 10 with the deletion of 3 medications in the last 42 days. It certainly gives me some encouragement! I expressed my disappointment to the Doctor at the amount of weight I lost and... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 08:40:42 EST