HC-SKI's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HC%2DSKI HC-SKI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 3: marveling & today I ate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5701536 Yesterday also went really well. I made a conscious decision yesterday to rest and relax instead of going for a walk/run because I knew if I went out, I'd be a harsh critic of myself if I didn't walk the full five mile path I'm used to taking. And with my knee hurting and just feeling a bit tired, I figured I'd take a second rest day. <BR> <BR> Still, the day was fantastic. I burned more calories yesterday that the day before (2699 calories) and I met my 1000 cal deficit. It was surpri... Fri, 23 May 2014 14:01:21 EST Day 2: passing up temptations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700681 Well, yesterday went better than expected. I packed a lunch/dinner for myself at work that was heavy on the fruits and veggies with a diet Snapple tea as my treat. I had the opportunity to eat a cookie yesterday and I passed it up preferring to bring it home for today's dessert. (And it's a soft yummy sugar cookie!) <BR> <BR> I burned more calories than expected and wasn't that hungry so I had some fruit leftover. Then, I heard a coworker complain that they were starving after twelve hour... Thu, 22 May 2014 10:40:12 EST Day 1: recommitment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699953 I stopped blogging way back when because I realized I was self-sabotaging and maintaining, then gaining weight back. There was a disconnect between what I said I was feeling (committed), and what I actually felt (apathetic, anxious, with lists of defeatist thoughts). Over those weeks, I've been noticing more knee pain, increased boredom with my sedentary again lifestyle, and of course weight gain. <BR> <BR> Back on April 24, 2014 I took a few moments at bedtime to consider where my current... Wed, 21 May 2014 11:18:08 EST Day 196: can this be true? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654208 Ok, I haven't checked my body fat percentage in a couple of months because I got sad that my home scale numbers weren't changing. So I waited. But today, (actually earlier this week and a couple of times since), I've checked the body fat scale and it keeps telling me that I've gone from 27.2% body fat to 26.7%. And my scale weight has shifted down a pound...(I'm pretty sure it's official because I've been checking it pretty regularly for a couple of weeks now). :) <BR> <BR> According to m... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 22:29:35 EST Day 184: my energy is officially back! :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644151 Hello, all! Winter is finally over...well, at least according to my body. I woke up this morning at a very early hour (5am/6am if Daylight savings hadn't happened yesterday), and I have tons of energy. As far as I can remember from the last few years, this is how I normally act in the peak of summer. <BR> <BR> So, maybe that hypothyroid diagnosis was right. In any case, this winter was infinitely easier than last year's. I was much warmer...no more freezing to the bone except when it... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 05:42:08 EST Hour 139: chores and errands finally completed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5607537 Today has been a busy day. A happy, productive kind of busy. <BR> <BR> Got chores, laundry (including the bedding), and some homemade freezer meals completed. The laundry is currently air drying and so folding will be a task two days from now. The chores had been needing done for weeks and I finally buckled down and took care of them...and the house sparkles by comparison now. :). Pretty! <BR> <BR> I got more cooking done today than I planned on doing, so I've got a bit more variety in ... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 20:11:27 EST Hour 130: the magic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5598195 I realized today as I tried to force a nap before work, that I haven't woken up feeling the magic of a sunny, fresh, "clean slate" day in months. Maybe you know the sort of day I'm talking about. It's a day where anything is possible. It's a day when everything in nature seems to conspire to make you happy, joyful, and content. It's a day full of love and adventure. And evenings full of starry skies, moonbeams, and magic. It's a day that fills you with childlike wonder at its simplicity... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 16:50:59 EST Hour 115: New Years motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581084 This year I am starting out at 168# by the doctors scale (164.6 by the home scale and 171.4 by the work scale). In 2012 I lost 5# and maintained that weight throughout the year within five pounds...making my total weight loss to date 23# down. <BR> <BR> Will post more in a bit... <BR> <BR> oops, thanks FritFit, I forgot to finish my post, lol. <BR> <BR> In 2012 I spent most of the year beating myself up for not having enough motivation and passion to reach my goal weight or even to lose... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 18:11:21 EST Hour 108: NSV 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5573222 Last year at about this time I was sad because I had gone from being 33# down to about 18# down (or 191 to 173). I had gone from barely fitting into size 8's to being forced to wear size 12 because 10's were too uncomfortable. It was stupid and sad. And I ate. <BR> <BR> This year, I'm looking back and seeing that I've been lacking motivation just about all year long. I've eaten all the wrong foods in all the wrong amounts, but with a few days a month of exercise and keeping my calorie co... Fri, 27 Dec 2013 17:35:06 EST Hour 91: iPads in and monopoly $ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561447 Just a couple quick thoughts, my iPad mini is here! And it does sync my FitBit almost automatically! *squeal* <BR> <BR> Also, have you guys seen this new monopoly-money-like hundred dollar bills? I get direct deposit so I didn't really realize just how ugly looking this new money was until today when mom tried paying me for something and I gave her a weird look. <BR> This money looks wrong, but I guess we'll get used to it with time. Everytime I look at it though, I get a strange hankeri... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 16:21:51 EST Hour 90: positives winning the balance today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5560819 A couple of positive things that I'm excited about that have occurred/been fulfilled in the past few days. <BR> <BR> My FitBit report for the week showed that I was less than 200 calories away from burning more calories than I ate this week. At first, I saw that and sighed because I remembered I had left myself a list of high-calorie meals that I thought I hadn't "told" FitBit about. But I was wrong! I had entered in all the foods I ate this past week. :). I don't even remember doing so... Mon, 9 Dec 2013 21:12:45 EST Hour 86: struggling, fighting, juggling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557589 Since my last post, I haven't had much to say. Here in the last few days though (since Dec 2), I've been struggling and fighting with my emotions. I'm wary of sitting and cataloging them all, but I know I've been juggling with anger, depression, a feeling that I'm lacking/not quite "complete" (if that makes sense, like I'm missing some important part that other people have), vindictiveness, and a diminished sense of self-worth. <BR> <BR> Part of me wants to give up on life and drown my e... Thu, 5 Dec 2013 12:16:07 EST Hour 80: learning? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5552886 The book I'm reading at the moment, "This Year I Will...", says that I have begun the process of learning if I start to notice times that I am failing while they are occurring and not after the fact. <BR> <BR> So that means that when I overate last year and the years before at Thanksgiving through past New Years, I had not yet started the learning process. This year, when I am overeating and noticing it as I overeating - and yet still don't feel able to or don't want to quit - then I have e... Fri, 29 Nov 2013 16:28:23 EST Hour 79: learning about customer support http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5552059 Thank you Sparkfriends! After some hesitation, I decided to contact FitBit support and after some communication with them I learned a lot about both my FitBit history and how to access my order history on both FitBit.com and Amazon. Both sites make it really easy! <BR> <BR> And I learned that inserting a screenshot into an email is ridiculously simple with the iPad...as compared with the computer. I may never go fully back to my computer. Lol. <BR> <BR> But funny thing, I can't seem to ... Thu, 28 Nov 2013 08:31:27 EST Hour 78: a sad FitBit day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5551621 Today I lost my FitBit One. When I realized that I actually had lost it and not just left it sitting somewhere, I figured out that I must have lost it at some point while I was out shopping. It wasn't in the house, in the car, or in the shopping bags...and I try my best not to take it off during the day. <BR> <BR> Lately bough it has been starting to slide along my jeans pocket and a couple of times it's actually fallen off. So I figure that is what happened today. <BR> <BR> Because I ha... Wed, 27 Nov 2013 15:31:00 EST Hour 77: scale victory and fighting boredom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5550617 I'm down to 160.4# today on my home scale which would be roughly 163.8# at the doctor's office. That's more than two pounds down this week! And again, with the scale out of sight, I didn't start "jonsing" for the scale until Sunday...just two days before my planned Tuesday weigh-in. So far so good! <BR> <BR> Today, however, is rainy and chilly outside and I'm missing the outdoors. I'm bored and feeling as cooped up as a puppy who got banished to its kennel. So I think I'll be careful wi... Tue, 26 Nov 2013 10:08:06 EST Hour 76: possible run accomplishment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5550143 I think I may have almost run a mile straight. May have because I'm not certain of the exact distance I ran and almost because I had to walk for maybe like twenty feet. <BR> <BR> But I definitely ran the farthest I ever have gone with just a short little break. (I ran almost the entire straight section of Tinsley Park with just a short twenty foot walk break and I had to stop twenty feet short of the end of the straight section because I thought I was gonna either pad out or puke my guts... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 18:27:20 EST Hour 75: I did a bad, bad thing :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5549206 I did a bad, bad thing and I loved it. And I'm trying to do my best not to feel guilty because I know that will set me up on a vicious cycle of over reliance on the scale and overeating. <BR> <BR> Ok, the bad thing. The last few days, I haven't been planning my meals and I've been running on the low side of my calorie intake - to the tune of having an almost 4000 calorie deficit when I came home today from work. And I'm only trying to lose about half a pound a week plus I had a very bad ... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 16:09:38 EST Hour 74: a scale-based weight loss funny http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5548254 I saw this article today on when not to weight in - the top seven reasons. <BR> <BR> And number 7, way over on the last page says: <BR> <BR> <BR> "7. Practically any time during your menstrual cycle. <BR> <BR> For women, it's a crapshoot. The changes that happen in your body throughout your menstrual cycle make your weight fluctuate constantly by up to two pounds during menstruation, your follicular phase, ovulation and PMS. Even more reason not to stress about a couple of pounds here or ... Sat, 23 Nov 2013 08:15:05 EST Hour 72 part 2: striking a balance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5547172 Earlier in the day, I was in a hateful mood that lasted emtirely too long. If I were in the mood for making excuses I'd be blaming Aunt Flo who decided to drain me of some blood today too. But I don't feel like making excuses, so I'll just say it, I was pissed because I felt like I keep hitting a wall with Mom...a wall that I had built over the years full of argumemts, little rebellions, and lots of back talk. Now, since I don't know how to fix the problems I've helped create, I aim to avo... Thu, 21 Nov 2013 19:28:33 EST Hour 72 part 1: talking to a wall http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5546656 If there's one positive thing I can take out of this morning's conversation, it's that I have a mom that worries herself literally sick and to where she can't sleep at night over me. Mom is right about that...I should be thankful. A lot of children and adults never get to know what it's like to be really loved by a parent. <BR> <BR> For the record, it can be hell. Lol. Kinda kidding. <BR> <BR> No matter what I do or say related to my work, my eating habits, my weight, my social life, SP... Thu, 21 Nov 2013 06:37:53 EST Hour 71: reading other people's blogs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5546610 I've been reading the recent blogs and comments of daisybell6, whoviangirl23, and steph-knee and a few others and it's making me realize that the fears, doubts, and insecurities I've been facing lately about my ability and willingness to be a slim person again are normal! I'm not crazy or over emotional or hypercritical of myself (not exactly). I'm just a person coming to terms with the fact that achieving my goals means facing change with new environments, new "packaging", and new feeling... Thu, 21 Nov 2013 04:11:34 EST Hour 70: moving onward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5545661 Wow, I've missed quite a few days on SP lately. Let's see what I want to catch you guys up on (and me in the future when I look back on these logs). <BR> <BR> I hid the scale and it was great not having it in sight every time I walked in the bathroom. I think the bathroom closet will henceforth be its new home. Also I lost a pound. Nice since I'm in my PMS-ish time frame where things go wonky water retention and emotion wise. I did get a box of ho-ho's a couple of days ago. OMG, I fo... Tue, 19 Nov 2013 22:41:22 EST Hour 65: I'm about ready to hide the scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5541268 This week, since Sunday, I've been eating within my calorie ranges and keeping busy. But yesterday and today, the home scale is showing me at 165.6# when Tuesday I had been 163.6#. <BR> I know I'm starting to obsess about the number again and I really don't like the feeling that my weight fluctuations are giving me. So I'm going to hid my scale until next Tuesday at least. That number is not going to take away my pride in staying on track again (streak day almost 5). Just thinking about th... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 17:15:59 EST Hour 63 and 64: preplanning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5540130 Yesterday I accepted extra hours at work and before I headed out for a half shift, I took the time to make sure I had the supplies for a meal plan that worked a few days back. Yes it's all fast foods and convenience foods, but it stays within my calorie budget and is relatively balanced in fats, proteins, and carbs...well, heavier in fat. Plus it has the added benefit of not requiring any more effort on my part than to reach into the fridge and eat it. And it is tasty. <BR> <BR> Yesterday... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 12:23:04 EST Hour 62: reading and nose bleeds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5538637 Today I've been fighting a monster nose bleed that refuses to quit. Annoying thing. <BR> <BR> Today, I have accomplished Day 3 of drinking 60 (slight plus) ounces of water. I ate fewer calories than I burned again today, day 2 of that. Feeling proud of myself for that...such small things, but still a positive step or two. <BR> <BR> And I read some more from "This year I will...". The book makes a lot of sense and SP articles and it agree in many places, which I take to be a good sign. ... Mon, 11 Nov 2013 21:27:43 EST Hour 61: control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5537313 The past few days sitting at home, I've been thinking about what I can do to do my job both better and easier. I've been comparing the process I work with with that of my teammates, and I'm going to start implementing some of those ideas tonight and see if it helps me feel more in control. <BR> <BR> I know from this journey that the more control I feel I have in one aspect of my life, the more control I start to "regain" in other aspects of my life. It's slow, but it's steady. <BR> <BR> A... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 12:28:02 EST Hour 60: I wish I'd blogged earlier http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5536821 Over the last few days, as I've jumped about as completely off the wagon as I can while still blogging and worrying, I've been wishing I'd started blogging earlier in this weight loss journey. Maybe then I'd have forestalled this. Maybe I'd be more motivated. <BR> Or take today for instance. This is the second day I've gone to bed with my belly so full that I feel almost sick...in fact I nearly wish I was sick so that maybe I wouldn't have eaten so much! :( So I'm slowly starting to remem... Sat, 9 Nov 2013 20:30:12 EST Hour 59: taking away negative reinforcement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5536036 Negative reinforcement has never worked well with me. Too often it hits my "reverse psychology"-type switch and I become even more likely to do whatever behavior caused the punishment or I feel really guilty and my internal dialogue becomes so negative that eventually I believe I don't deserve anything positive. <BR> <BR> My point? Well, when I was fist starting this weight loss journey, I found that rewards and special events (my brother's and, later, a friend's weddings) helped keep me o... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 18:36:10 EST Hour 55: writing and Ender's Game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5532265 My achievement of the day is that I'm up to date with my personal Nano goal as of yesterday. I'm up to 1626 words written! I'm trying hard to only see them as quantitative words, with no positive or negative qualities. I don't want to raise my hopes or prematurely dash my spirits. The deadline of NaNo's end approaches and that will be a big enough cause for despair and abandonment of hope. I'm refusing to see too far into the future for now. <BR> <BR> Saw Ender's Game today with a frien... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 19:30:12 EST Hour 54: rested zombie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531074 That's me! I'm a rested zombie. No joke, I finished my blog last night and went straight to bed. I slept fourteen hours straight through. 14!!! <BR> <BR> I know better I do, but I think my body needed it. I woke up feeling like I'd gotten beaten with a 2" by 4." But after a shower, stretching, protein and carb rich food, and then a five-mile walk...I think I'm a little more alive than the shambling zombie. <BR> <BR> Yeesh! Speaking of zombies, I better try to write a few words today ... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 16:25:54 EST Hour 53: sick and tired? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530381 A few hours ago I was going to blog and complain that I didn't know what was going on. Yesterday, the first day of my plan I over ate due to hunger, grumbling stomach, and nausea. So I shared those calories with today to try I stay on track with my goals. <BR> <BR> Today, I woke up starving, ate some food and kept on starving, ate some more and was still physically hungry. Frustrated and trying to keep from eating I closed my eyes as I thought about how "whiny" my blog would sound. Who... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 21:01:13 EST Hour 52: revisiting the plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5529051 Running: I have not been able to run with my usual vigor, and I've stopped timing my runs until I can be fully over this sinus problem (AGAIN!). However, I have been taking my walk/runs and continuing to push myself to run as far as I can, then break for recovery and run again --intervals. It makes me feel in control and strong, so I'll keep doing that. <BR> <BR> Fit 2 Feast: I haven't been exercising everyday, but it sounds like a wonderful idea (and I'll get to run, bike, and swim more... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 09:19:39 EST Hour 48: decompressing :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5525273 SparkCoach invited me to share my biggest accomplishment of the day. So far, it's been coming home with the knowledge that the next four days are off from work...no stress, no plans, no wound crises or bad pharmacy customer service reps to deal with. I can forget about work, and just be me, for the next four days. <BR> It feels like an absolute gift! And I have to say, judging by how much weight I felt just slide off my shoulders, I will do my best to never ever again pick up that much o... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 08:08:56 EST Hour 47: haunting quote http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5524781 Today's motivational SP quote is (paraphrasing) "It's not who you are that's holding you back, it's who you think you are not." <BR> <BR> What can I do today to help myself believe that I am already someone who can become the person I want be? Sun, 27 Oct 2013 17:14:00 EST Hour 46: communicating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5524016 Communication: it's my number one problem especially when it's not in written form. <BR> Mom came to me yesterday and told me that she had heard from some source or another that my sister who is 18 years older than me has been doing much the same thing as I've been doing with y'all. Bad mouthing mom and saying she doesn't want to be around mom. Mom found this out on her birthday a couple days ago. :( <BR> I had already told Mom I was talking with y'all trying to figure "me" out and brea... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 16:32:32 EST Hour 45: why I started before. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522818 Yes, all the commentators on yesterday's blog are correct. <BR> <BR> Yes, I am worth it. I have enough self respect to want to be healthy and want to bother. Yes, why bother is the real question. But to me it seems (and yes I know it's just my mindset) flippant to ask it that way. Saying why bother makes me want to give up...I use that phrase often in my life when I want to give up which is why I tried avoiding it in yesterday's blog. (I need to stop giving up so much, I think). :) ... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 02:31:52 EST Hour 44: why me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522573 This is a question I've been struggling with for the last few months (especially since January). Why do I want to lose this weight? Why do I want to find my truest self? Why shouldn't I be afraid to stop needing people to motivate and inspire me? Why shouldn't I inspire myself? How can I inspire myself? Why should I choose me? Why would anyone choose me? <BR> <BR> What is my motivation for this journey? <BR> <BR> I don't a real answer that works. <BR> <BR> I know being 125 will be ... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 19:47:22 EST Hour 42: goodness! I suck at math http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5520056 It's not new info for me, but it always surprises me how easy it is for me to make mistakes with math and get the answer totally wrong. I understand and can reach the process, but reaching the answer is for me about 75/25. Yesterday was one of my 25% wrong in math days. <BR> <BR> My FitBit report came in last night and informed me that I was 900 or so calories from starting to reach for me 1750 calorie deficit. Ergo, I was 900 calories away from breaking even or 2600-ish calories from ... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 07:31:56 EST Hour 41: update calories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519128 Hey! I'm "only" 913 calories away from my deficit of 1750 calories. That's less than the thousand that I was off two days ago. I did ok! <BR> <BR> I "should" (if this were a textbook perfect world) lose 0.2# this week still. But I KNOW that won't be the case because its been reading high lately. Side effect of sleeping too little, too much work, and sugar/caffeine/fast food/junk. Still, when the scale shows me up this week, I'll be comforted by the fact that calorie-wise at least I... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 08:09:03 EST Hour 41: moment of honesty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519116 I'm free from work for today. Tomorrow night I go back for two more nights before being off for two! :) I've worked 91 hours in the last 8 days. My paycheck will be happy for me. (I'm a little loopy, just a little). :) <BR> <BR> But something I'm not happy about is the fact that I over ate this week. I'm not sure how much, but I know it was all junk food and fast food and freezer food. No produce in sight unless it was frozen and even then int was only broccoli or okra. :( <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 07:55:45 EST Hour 39: catching up food logs and sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517912 I got seven and a half hours of sleep tonight and I feel so much more rested than yesterday when I had only three and a half. Aahhh! <BR> I have a bit of time before work so I'm catching up my food logs as best I can since some of the foods I ate aren't really listed in the food directory. Like the am crunch wrap from Taco Bell that I am addicted to. Actually, just potatoes in general are soooo delicious these last few days. <BR> So I found out that I'm about 1087 calories from reaching ... Sat, 19 Oct 2013 17:10:13 EST Hours 35 - 39: the zombie effect http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517485 It's official; I've worked too many hours of overtime with too little enforced sleep schedule (and too little sleep total). I'm dragging. <BR> <BR> I haven't logged my food though I'm still tracking it. I don't know how many calories I've eaten. I haven't done my run as planned, so I'll reschedule that for Wednesday the 30 for the same goal (2 minutes 12 seconds). <BR> I've got a lot of catching up to do, but right now...all night that I've been at work, there has been one thought on my... Sat, 19 Oct 2013 04:45:39 EST Hour 35 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5514480 Lost 0.6 pounds this week. Took care of some more errands and caught up on Scandal and Castle. Relaxing day. <BR> Now lets see what tonight will bring. I'm armed with a high protein high fiber supper. An candy corn taffy bribes for my CNAs. :) Tue, 15 Oct 2013 17:31:51 EST Hour 34: renewed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513591 So today's health hour I ran errands, went window shopping, ate a cookie and deli food, and slept. It only took me about three and a half hours to be rested enough to have some more fun. ;). So I went grocery shopping for mom and had a bit of pizza. And maybe figured out what I (we?) need @ work so we can stop having stressful nights and meltdowns like the one last night. <BR> I'm going to run it by my coworkers (like a sounding board) and try to get their signatures on the "petition" to... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 20:21:01 EST Hour 34: dealing with a c&@$ night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513005 (1stateofdenial, you must have had a moment of ESP to leave that comment on yesterday's blog.) <BR> Last night at work was the worst in at least a year. Because of inter facility dynamics, I was afraid to ask for help, but I felt so overwhelmed and lonely and my night was out of my control. Eventually there was a tiny inconsequential (on a normal day) last straw that broke the camel's back and I cried and cried and cried in the bathroom. Eventually a coworker offered help and I nabbed it. ... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 09:15:42 EST Hour 33 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5512483 The preliminary results for this week on my FitBit are in. So far, it seems that though I did not reach all my assigned FitBit goals for this week, I did much better than last week an in most cases, better than two or three weeks ago. I may also be on track to have hit my calorie deficit goal for this week...but I'll hold my breath on that one until I get the email with the finalized report on Monday or Tuesday. <BR> <BR> I sleep well today and woke up early and alert enough to get in a ... Sun, 13 Oct 2013 17:39:31 EST Hour 32: 5 word feeling challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5511683 I have blogged a month! <BR> Ok the grammar in that five word sentence may be stretching, but I am excited that I have come back to SparkCoach everyday and blogged nearly everyone of those for over a month. This is so much better than the first time I tried the SparkCoach trial period (about a year ago) when I have sporadic appearances during the two week period with no blogging. Now I have SparkFriends that read through my gripes and groans and celebrate my successes and give me good advic... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 16:58:36 EST Hour 30 and 31: sleep, eat, sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5510955 Yesterday's health hour I took an hour long nap before work. I had slept nearly 13 hours through night, but after being up nearly 28 hours no sleep, I guess I still needed a little R&R. Yesterday, despite my best efforts, was a gripe fest for me at work. No matter what nothing was positive for me at work, and the bosses were asking us to do the impossible and my emotions kept flip-flopping faster than a metronome. And no matter what I ate I still felt hungry. But, I didn't cross over 4k ... Fri, 11 Oct 2013 17:27:51 EST Hour 29: running http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5509239 Today's meeting after work went well. It was boring and there were many many times where my attention wandered away and I lost large segments of meeting, but I wasn't really sleepy until the last two hours when I hit about 22-23 hours awake. (Much better than last years meeting where before all was said and done, I'd been up 32 hours.) <BR> <BR> After work, I went grocery shopping with mom mainly cause I felt like keeping her company and I felt like walking and stretching my muscles, had s... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 19:44:09 EST