HAZYSKIES's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HAZYSKIES HAZYSKIES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I hate being this fat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818318 I have to stick with the program this time. I have to do this! <BR> <BR> The last time I did the program and had lots of success with it, but I got sick and started falling back on old habits...ie...tons of candy and junk food. <BR> <BR> I WILL do this this time. I will get thin so I can fit in normal sizes again...so I can walk without wheezing...so that I can strengthen my bad back...so I don't feel so slovenly... <BR> <BR> My motivation this time is different than the first time. The fi... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 11:57:57 EST Day One - Back again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5479435 I didn't just give up on the diet & exercise I took a flying leap away from it all. It started about the time of my birthday celebration and my eating habits deteriorated...I got depressed...I stopped exercising...I gave up. <BR> <BR> So I am starting again today. My goals right now are small. I want to use the food diary everyday & I want to stick to my exercise plan. <BR> <BR> I will avoid tape measures and scales until I feel like I am 100% back on track again. <BR> <BR> I wish I knew w... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 11:36:13 EST Easter Candy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5322915 There are two big "Candy Seasons" in the grocery market: Easter & Halloween. <BR> <BR> There two things I have a really hard time NOT buying: 1)lots of books at the book store & 2)lots of candy at the supermarket. <BR> <BR> I bought some Easter Candy and have been going back and forth between eating candy and feeling guilty and exercising my butt off. LOL <BR> <BR> I don't feel as bad about it as I used to. I figure that in the scheme of things if I can just force myself to keep exercisi... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 15:01:07 EST Big Milestone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5274444 It has been almost a year I've been dieting and exercising and I've finally lost 60lbs! <BR> <BR> *happy dance* <BR> <BR> *happy dance* <BR> <BR> *happy dance* <BR> <BR> <em>9</em> Tue, 5 Mar 2013 14:00:03 EST Real Food vs Junk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5266113 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2033477124.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is true, but sometimes the stuff at the bottom of the pic...the candy...is just SOOOO good LOL. <BR> <BR> Wed, 27 Feb 2013 14:25:45 EST Love yourself as you are NOW at this Moment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5243041 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l182174811.jpg"> Fri, 8 Feb 2013 15:46:06 EST This is Sad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230402 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l69801441.jpg"> Wed, 30 Jan 2013 14:45:35 EST Step Aerobics is Fun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227066 If you ever need a hardcore plateau buster step aerobics is AWESOME. Seriously...you can hit the zone in about 10 minutes and you stay there sweating your arse off. <BR> <BR> WOW. <BR> <BR> Whatsmore it is SO FUN! <BR> <BR> With my vampires-are-more-tan-than-me complexion I look BEET RED after a step workout though...LOL... <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <em>198</em> <em>198</em> <em>198</em> <em>198</em> Mon, 28 Jan 2013 12:09:02 EST 2013 Reset http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220130 I really haven't been doing a good job of keeping up with stuff this year. <BR> <BR> When I workout...especially running...I feel great. It is just getting myself to do it. <BR> <BR> Also I've slacked on the portion control too :( <BR> <BR> I've put on about 4 lbs thanks to my inattention to my food diary and lack of regular exercise. Not good... I know. <BR> <BR> It is tough to have sensible sized portions when what you REALLY want is the BIG plate of mashed potatoes or etc. <BR> <BR> S... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 12:43:50 EST I am obsessed with my Kindle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182188 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1832633358.jpg"> Mon, 31 Dec 2012 12:24:03 EST A little jog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5174426 I actually went for a short walk/jog today. I am finally light enough to run without feeling things violently wobbling around LOL. It was a exhilarating feeling with a cold wind in my face. My endurance is higher than it has been in ages. Mostly I power walked, but I was actually able to cover some distance at a steady jog. <BR> <BR> What fun <em>30</em> ! Sun, 23 Dec 2012 12:48:20 EST Holiday Treats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5170855 I'll admit I've been slacking a bit as of late. I am still exercising like mad but there are SO many holiday foods available right now...I've been indulging a bit while slacking on keeping track using my food diary. If it weren't for the hard core exercising I would have definitely gained a bit of weight. <BR> <BR> It is SO easy to go back to snacking. Too easy... <BR> <BR> So here is yet another start-over again moments *sigh* <BR> <BR> Friends and family have brought lots of treats into... Wed, 19 Dec 2012 08:20:08 EST Hot outside http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5153664 Unseasonably HOT weather today is making everything miserable outside. I am glad I usually exercise indoors! <BR> <BR> Did a little holiday baking. I am enjoying the season and hoping for cooler weather. <BR> <BR> The whole weight loss thing has slowed way down as your body penalizes you by losing weight more slowly when you are thinner. Keeping on keeping on. <BR> <BR> Happy December 1st everyone. <em>446</em> Sun, 2 Dec 2012 14:39:11 EST Had a good Thanksgiving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5144093 This the first Thanksgiving that I can remember where I DIDN'T stuff myself. I ate small portions so I could enjoy a little of everything. I even had a little piece of devil's food cake with that new delicious Cool Whip Chocolate Frosting (which I highly recommend BTW). When I checked my food diary, (after the festivities) I came in within my calorie budget too. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> It was much easier to enjoy myself not feeling like I was sloshing about in a haze of gluttony. <BR> <B... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 09:49:02 EST This made me laugh... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5120340 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1331708965.jpg"> Thu, 1 Nov 2012 13:40:55 EST Shopping is fun again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5115388 I love being able to find clothes in my size in all kinds of different shops. After years of being relegated to the section mixed-in with the preggers clothes it is wonderful to have variety again! <BR> <BR> What fun! <em>188</em> Sun, 28 Oct 2012 08:54:02 EST Happy Dance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5108425 I am officially no longer overweight :) <BR> <BR> The remaining weight I want to lose to make my hips less pear shape and to put myself more towards the center of the healthy BMI range. <BR> <BR> I went shopping the other day to get a few new pairs of pants so I can stop using safety pins to "shrink" the waistline. I had to guess at the size again and my first guess which fit when I last went shopping about a month or so ago was WAY too big. <em>9</em> I was SOOOOO happy. <BR> <BR> I a... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 12:33:38 EST Hardwork pays off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5103800 I really hunkered down and started yet again...LOLZ...I am back to carefully tracking my food...busting my booty working out in aerobics...and the one thing I really love about fitness...lifting weights. <BR> <BR> This time I have made one major adjustment though, I am not striving to exercise myself into complete exhaustion. Instead I set a doable minimum time, which for me I have discovered through trial and error to be 30 minutes. I can do 30 minutes even if I am feeling like I don't want... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 13:30:57 EST Plus three minus happiness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5099614 I injured my back again a few days ago. It was bad enough that I spent four days in bed taking pain medicine and recovering. Today I still feel it a little bit but I am much more mobile and the muscle spasms have stopped. <BR> <BR> I fell back into my old habits of eating to comfort myself. I stopped measuring portions. I bought a bag of Halloween candy (candy is my supreme weakness) and I ate all of the cookies I wanted to...and I gained three pounds in four days...*weeps* <em>46</em> <... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 09:28:50 EST Heavy Duty Yard Work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5082306 We've had several trees that are rather overgrown in the backyard so Martha and I went out back and cut and trimmed them down to size using a ladder and a heavy duty electric saw. Today we had to break them down and haul all of the pieces out to be picked up. The is second time in the past few years that we've had to tackle the great tree project LOL....and we still have eight more trees to go... <BR> <BR> I worked up a huge sweat hoisting, hauling, cutting, and lifting...repeat ad infinitu... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 13:53:34 EST Of Health and Money http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5078191 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l611958662.jpg"> Fri, 28 Sep 2012 09:46:37 EST Minor Back Injury and Recovery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5072439 I injured my back again last Wednesday. So I was sidelined for a few days. I am back to exercising again. I weigh less than I have in a very long time! <BR> <BR> I'll admit that I have fallen off the proverbial wagon and just pigged out on some stuff a bit because I got depressed over my stupid back going out on me again...Still I am working out again (being mindful of my back)... <BR> <BR> Also, the interesting thing is that, because I have spent so much time building up my strength and tr... Mon, 24 Sep 2012 06:55:52 EST Back on track now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5048140 It has literally taken me this long to get back up to speed on all fronts. In the week following the health scare I was barely able to workout half the time I had been and I had begun snacking again... <BR> <BR> But I am back up to speed now <em>30</em> ! I am back to eating right and exercising around 50 to 60 minutes per day and lifting weights. <BR> <BR> One of the changes I have made is I am a bit more flexible with which day per week I take off to rest. If I am feeling particula... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 07:42:32 EST Starting Up Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5025976 Today's the last day of the powerful drugs the doctor has me on. I've been through the gambit with lots of bloodwork and etc. I had a pretty serious health scare on top of the stomach bug so I have to be more mindful now of when my body tells me to let up a bit. I let myself get a bit run down and my immunity suffered as a result. <BR> <BR> It is going to take a few days to get back up to speed again because being ill has taken SO much out of me. Admittedly falling back into couch-potato mod... Wed, 22 Aug 2012 08:21:40 EST Very Ill Right Now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5021733 I spent Friday barfing my guts out. Counting calories wasn't an issue because I literally couldn't keep anything down. I am taking medicine to try and fight off the illness but I am really weak and tired. I haven't been able to exercise due to my illness and weakness. I hope to be able to start up again in a few days. <BR> <BR> In the meantime I have decided to give myself a break so far as worrying about my weight. I know I'll get back on track again. Right now I just need to fall back and ... Sun, 19 Aug 2012 11:42:58 EST A Little Less and a Little Slower http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5018116 I haven't been feeling really great this week. Some old medical problems have made themselves known again. I have doctor's appointment tomorrow to address the issues. So I've backed off on the exercise a bit and I haven't been on Sparkpeople as much. Yesterday I only did 45 minutes of aerobics today I only did 30 minutes. I'll pump it back up to 45 to 60 minutes after I know I have the issue under control. <BR> <BR> I am sticking to the diet still and I am currently thinner than I have been... Thu, 16 Aug 2012 13:00:59 EST Not so bendy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5004857 I guess I overdid it on the exercise yesterday 'cause I woke up in the middle of the night sore. I had to take a pain-killer this morning. I am not sure if I'll work out day or just take a day off. I am pissed at myself for being too overenthusiastic in my kicks. Ouchy ouch ouch. <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> My own lack of muscle flexibility (which I'll been working on) has been as much of a struggle if not more of a struggle than my overall weight. I've never ever been very bendy. The result is m... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 10:51:24 EST Counting the Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4996240 First Day of Autumn <BR> Days until Saturday, September 22nd, 2012 ---> 51 <BR> <BR> I am happy but grumpy today...go figure... <BR> <BR> Sticking with the routine. Diet and exercise. Exercise and diet. Why can't meat lover's pizza be diet food LOL? I've looked at the "low-cal" pizza ideas and it just isn't worth it. Even if they can make some pseudo pizza with wheat (gag-me) crust. Why bother? Honestly it is just one of those foods whose whole taste factor relies upon the "bad" ingredient... Wed, 1 Aug 2012 11:20:02 EST So CLOSE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4989344 I am so close to having lost 40lbs! I still have a ways until I reach my ultimate goal but seeing progress is nice. Today is cast-on day for the Ravelry games. I am looking forward to it. <BR> <BR> I really busted my butt doing aerobics this week. Lots of sweat. I love the Shapely Girl DVDs. I find her more inspirational and less repetitive (and Chatty Kathy) than Leslie Sansone. (I still love the Walk to Fit series though.) <BR> <BR> It has been raining like crazy every afternoon which ha... Fri, 27 Jul 2012 13:30:00 EST Lil Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4985859 I lost about a pound and a half this week. I've been sticking to the diet...though I am drinking Diet Coke again LOL. Plain popcorn sprayed with calorie-free butter spray has been a real help when I am REALLY wanting a snack. You can eat a bunch of popcorn and it is filling enough that you aren't hungry for a long while. <BR> <BR> I've been switching up my exercise routines fairly frequently. I aim for 45 to 50 minutes of aerobics on average, though on some days I go all out and do a full 76... Wed, 25 Jul 2012 07:45:30 EST Walking again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4970929 It has finally stopped raining here. I was beginning to consider building an ark (LOL). Honestly, I did enjoy NOT having to head outside for a walk though. <BR> <BR> I was able to go for a walk yesterday and I am planning on setting out soon for a walk today now that the sun has reappeared. <BR> <BR> I weighed in this morning and realized I have lost about 2 pounds this week. It seems to happen all of sudden and all at once when it does happen. On Friday I was the same weight I'd been for... Sun, 15 Jul 2012 08:36:31 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4968773 Haven't lost any weight since the 4th...but my weight hasn't gone up yet either. Keeping on...keeping on... <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> Enjoying aerobics still <em>198</em> <BR> The feeling you get after a workout is strangely energizing. I have some new DVDs that do interval training which adds some definite variety to things. <BR> <BR> This whole weight loss journey is an exercise in patience LOL. <BR> <BR> Loving life right now and enjoying all of my favorite hobbies. I am currently knitti... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 13:27:34 EST Down 35 pounds NOW http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4955149 HOORAH! <BR> <BR> I wish SparkPeople had a 35 pound trophy ;) <BR> <BR> Progress is SO sweet! <BR> <BR> Coach Nicole's 28 Day Bootcamp is burning away the pounds! <BR> <BR> Slow and Steady I will get there! <em>9</em> Wed, 4 Jul 2012 13:30:22 EST Slow and steady http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4951678 Still exercising and I am losing weight slowly. I actually think I might be gaining muscle too. <BR> <BR> I am feeling generally upbeat. <BR> <BR> The low-calorie snacks help a lot when it comes to sticking to the diet. I am definitely less grumpy than when I was eating like a rabbit all of the time. It has probably slowed my weight loss down a bit, but I have lost plenty of inches around my waist. <BR> <BR> It is a matter of balancing diet & exercise with morale...LOL...I think I've foun... Mon, 2 Jul 2012 10:23:32 EST Day off yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4947467 Sinus trouble and the accompanying nausea made me skip aerobics yesterday. I am going to do a longer session today since the allergy meds have kicked in. Usually I make Saturday my rest day, but since I've already used up my rest day I'll have to go to aerobics on Sat. Oh well things are still on track and that is what is important. <BR> <BR> Still counting the days until fall though... Fri, 29 Jun 2012 10:16:04 EST Heat Wave http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4942958 This weather is oppressive. UGH. <BR> <BR> Super high humidity and triple digit temperatures... <em>259</em> <BR> <BR> When I go for walks even early in the morning is is HORRIBLE. UGH. <BR> <BR> I've changed my route so there are as many trees as possible. <BR> <BR> I hate the summertime. I am counting down the days until fall which is my favorite time of the year. <em>465</em> Tue, 26 Jun 2012 10:21:58 EST Oops Blood Sugar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4938886 Had my favorite light breakfast this morning and then headed out into the blazing heat and humidity to go the store. I was strangely short of breath and weak when I started shopping. Also I felt like I was sitting in a furnace. <BR> <BR> I stopped for a moment to lean against a case because I was really starting to feel BAD. Some b-word yelled at me to move so I decided to go to the back of the store and get a drink to see if I'd feel better. It helped a little but then I figured it must be ... Sat, 23 Jun 2012 12:04:28 EST A little sore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4937508 My morning back exercises have made me a little sore. It is just one of those things. I have back trouble so the doctor wants me to do the stretches every morning. Some days I feel stiffer than others. Overall I am feeling better today than yesterday though <em>41</em> . <BR> <BR> Going to aerobics in a few minutes. Sweatin' out those bad vibes again :) <BR> <BR> So the journey continues... Fri, 22 Jun 2012 10:52:31 EST UGH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4935766 I gained a pound :( <BR> <BR> I started drinking Diet Cokes...which led to snacking...which led to me eating cookies... <BR> <BR> I have to stay away from the sodas in any form and I cannot snack because it always pushes me over the edge. <BR> <BR> I am disgusted with myself right now. I know better than this. I was doing so well. <BR> <BR> All that exercising. All that effort and suffering...and I know it takes several days to gain a pound so that is several days of blowing it. UGH!!! ... Thu, 21 Jun 2012 07:28:08 EST Truth for Hope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4927470 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l869144036.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It is important to remember this...but tough sometimes to FEEL it. Fri, 15 Jun 2012 09:34:28 EST Rained Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4926454 My morning walk was rained out which made me grumpy to start the day. <BR> <BR> Did my morning aerobics and followed up with a second session this afternoon to balance out the fact the stupid rain decided NOT to let up for an hour or so. <BR> <BR> I really don't enjoy exercising in the afternoon. The morning is SO much better. Stupid gloomy weather. If I was the queen of the universe it would only rain at night because I like the sound of the rain in the evening as I fall asleep. <BR> <BR>... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 14:20:30 EST Meditation and Determination http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4914599 I was a practicing active Buddhist for almost ten years. I have decided to take up the practice again. I am replacing my old beat-up coming-apart much-loved zafu set with a nice new one from Samadhi Cushions. I brought out and set up my old altar to help me focus. It is a way to fill in the "missing" piece of the healthy puzzle. <BR> <BR> Still hanging in there despite the plateau I am on! <BR> <BR> <em>33</em> Wed, 6 Jun 2012 10:59:42 EST The Shred should be called the Bouncy Butt Video http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4913223 Tried the Jullian Michaels video "The Shred" today. Doing jumping jacks when you are carrying extra weight is awful. Flab bounces up and down...ugh...just awful... I was wondering if I was denting the stupid floor... <BR> <BR> Also, I am not physically strong enough to push myself up even in a modified push-up. I was truly a pathetic sight to behold trying to do all of this stuff. <BR> <BR> Sod everything I am going back to the walking videos. The important thing is to keep moving... I can... Tue, 5 Jun 2012 12:57:35 EST Re-evaluating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4911012 I've hit a plateau and I feel myself sliding back into depression again <em>39</em> . I am going to have up my meds again I guess. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I did do all of my scheduled exercises but afterward I spent the majority of the day lying in bed too unhappy to do anything at all. <BR> <BR> I am looking over my diet and exercise plan to tweak things to try and get the weight loss moving again. I am averaging around 1,200 cal per day while the SparkPeople thing says I should be at aroun... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 06:56:03 EST Cravings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4908915 I have been wanting to consume a half of a large meat lovers Pizza Hut pizza all day. <BR> <BR> It is the strongest craving I've had since I started this diet/exercise thing. <BR> <BR> UGH want... <BR> <BR> I am resisting it though. Sat, 2 Jun 2012 15:27:17 EST Kinda Sore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4906927 I have strength training scheduled for today but I am going to skip it. My upper back and shoulders were achey yesterday evening, through the night (UGH), and are still a little sore. Today is a Tylenol and Icy Hot kinda day. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I will still do some cardio in a little while but I am gonna skip the quick arm movements. Some days you really feel your age LOL. Fri, 1 Jun 2012 07:31:33 EST Weird Weather Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4905951 I got rained on my walk today. It lowered the temperature though so I am not complaining. <BR> <BR> Did a full 70 minutes of cardio today. Also cleaned up the entire front of the house because company is coming over later. Two dogs generate an amazing amount of furballs no matter how often you sweep/dustmop. <BR> <BR> Feeling good now and waiting for the biggest part of the storm to roll in off the Gulf. Thu, 31 May 2012 13:59:51 EST Aerobics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4904328 I've bumped up my daily aerobics time to 1 hr and 16 min. The funny thing is that I know my endurance has improved because when I am done I feel just like I used to feel after 30 minutes. It is exhausting, but I am hoping for a better than usual weigh-in at the end of the week. <BR> Wed, 30 May 2012 12:52:57 EST A New Outlook http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4900847 I actually bought some clothes the other day. It has been a long while since I've bought something just because it looked pretty. My mindset for so many years has been when bother...you know, pearls on a pig...like I've said before I have fought with depression for a long long time... <BR> <BR> I am finally starting to feel better about everything now. Losing the weight and dropping pant sizes is a great motivator. I am liking the way I am beginning to look again :) Though my pear shape is s... Mon, 28 May 2012 08:43:57 EST A little fun and a little frustration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4897096 I bought myself some new blouses yesterday. It is the first time in a long while I've bought anything dressy so I am looking forward to the mail arriving today. <BR> <BR> My weight and overall size seems to be unchanging this week. I am hoping this weekend when I weigh in there will be at least a little weight loss. I have made a pledge never to let myself get this heavy again. It is SO much work to get rid of the weight BLEH. <BR> <BR> My pear shape seems determined to keep the weight on ... Fri, 25 May 2012 05:58:47 EST