HAWTGRANNY2014's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HAWTGRANNY2014 HAWTGRANNY2014's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Today is starting out as a down day....ever have one of those? Stop the merry go round http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6256782 Don't know why they come just know they pop up unexpectantly. I feel like just laying around and letting my mind take over. But when it does, it sometimes pushes toward the " lets give it a rest." Yesterday I walked 8567, not my 10,000. I feel as if I am missing something this morning...like I failed myself. The scale has a gain and not just a pound. I ate things I should not have the last couple of days and know that is weighing on my mind too. Not guilt exactly ...although it is ther... Tue, 25 Oct 2016 08:05:23 EST I just want to thank SparkPeople and my friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6255218 You know every day we go and come in here, read articles, experience teams and make new friends. I want to thank all of the people on here for making it so much fun and so informative. <BR> I got the premium spark and love it. I don't take advantage of all that is offered here because there is so much. I have heard some people complain off and on and I admit I have too. Some of the advances I thought were better the other way but we have been lucky to have this place where we can all gathe... Sat, 22 Oct 2016 01:16:01 EST this little light of mine...I'm going to let it shine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6253879 This is a message I sent to my team this morning because I believe in them and I believe in all of us. <BR> <BR> We all have a light inside of us...too often we stop believing in ourselves and dim our light. <BR> You are all special and together we can feel that light, feed it and make it shine brightly. <BR> Don't get discouraged, get pumped! <BR> Don't give in, get going! <BR> Let that light shine and keep it getting brighter. <BR> Laugh, dance and enjoy life because it is so fleeting. <... Wed, 19 Oct 2016 08:07:49 EST You can make today or let it break you. The choice is yours http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6253355 YOu can make this day yours or let it break you. The choice is ours. We wake up and think today is the day but as the day wears on many things jump out to make you think you just need to eat one bite of that sugary confection or calorie laden food. Why? Is it chaining you to a chair and forcing itself down your throat? Of course not. Your mind can play many tricks and let you believe its all right. iT IS NOT ALL RIGHT! It will lead you to eat more and more and before you know it you... Tue, 18 Oct 2016 08:18:24 EST Christmas treat challenge started today...not to late to join in. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6252909 If you win, you get a 25 dollar amazon gift certificate. Just go to my page and click on the stop the excuses lets win this together team and click on Christmas treat challenge. Whos going to win. It is a small team so you have a good chance. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/cc2d25c1-7ebb-4821-8b1d-36ed249a89a1.jpg"> Mon, 17 Oct 2016 10:41:50 EST Halloween http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6252675 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c0f8a3d7-255f-47a4-aa68-1311d1cdaa4e.jpg"> <BR> H owl at the scale and show it who's boss A 'll together now, let's make it show a loss L ook out for ghosts and candy Laden treats L ook for good tasting healthy eats O my gosh candy cravings chasing me W hat should I do, where should I go E veryone help, more ghostly candy than I could know E xpect my support and I know I have yours N o more opening those candy cupboard doors Now I am warning... Sun, 16 Oct 2016 23:56:53 EST Questions to face , honest answers with http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6251477 These are weekend questions from the blc challenge .See if you can answer them honestly too. <BR> <BR> 1. It’s okay to struggle, it’s okay to wear (and own) your imperfections, and to fall flat on your face – as long as you keep reaching out for support and maintaining the courage to put one foot in front of the other. Who can you reach out to for support? Are they positive? <BR> I have my daughter and son in law. They have gone on this same journey and each has lost over 100 pounds so they... Fri, 14 Oct 2016 12:37:58 EST What I am doing different this blc http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6248563 for one thing I am sticking to it and trying to accomplish my goals. I am listening to the stories of others and taking hints and cheering them on as they cheer for me. <BR> <BR> I am setting more goals and wanting to share with others to help them anyway that I can so we can succeed together. <BR> <BR> I am not letting guilt make me give up on myself and have faith that I can do it. <BR> Rg Sat, 8 Oct 2016 22:31:47 EST Christmas treat challenge needs more participants who want to succeed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6247394 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/cfeda3f8-9f1f-49ef-a16a-95aa1f5a518a.jpg"> <BR> Our small team ..stop the excuses..let's win this together needs more participants to make it fun. <BR> It is for 8 weeks and the one who wins will win a 25 dollar gift certificate. Join our little team and have fun and support. <link>www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i<BR>ndividual.asp?gid=66833 </link> Thu, 6 Oct 2016 14:01:03 EST going round and round until you wise up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6246383 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/7e06b253-14e4-4d38-9052-bf7403324a05.jpg"> I have spent many years going around in circles. I would go forward armed with a determined attitude then I ran out of gas and slowed down, losing faith in myself and eventually quitting. Such a waste of time and energy? No it was a learning time....now I Know I can do it. Don't keep going around in circles and give up but learn from it and keep going...stop giving up or you will spend your life goi... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 18:14:31 EST Join our little challenge and help us to help each other http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6246297 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/787acda3-9546-40ef-b5a4-0de4a401542a.jpg"> <BR> Starting Oct 15th...I challenge you to come on a journey to explore yourself and help each other succeed. Just join the stop the excuses..let's do this together team and read the blog before this one. It will be a fun way to challenge yourself and have a chance at winning a 25 dollar gift certificate from amazon. Don't stand alone..Join in. Tue, 4 Oct 2016 14:17:30 EST A new challenge, and a Christmas treat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6245300 On October 15th our little team is holding a challenge that will be for 8 weeks. <BR> When I was a co-leader for 50+, I led challenges like team against team and one on one. Our little team is small so to do a one on one challenge and to help our team grow and succeed, Kat and I are starting a one on one challenge Oct. 15th. <BR> The prize is a 25.00 gift certificate from Amazon. It will be awarded on the 16th of December. <BR> I have been doing this for a few years in the other team but wi... Sun, 2 Oct 2016 19:25:06 EST Just a little thought, don't let yourself lose faith, you can do it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6243386 I know you are working hard to make that darn scale move and sometimes it is so stubborn, you want to throw it against the wall. Me too lol. <BR> <BR> It took a long time to put on that weight and it doesn't magically disappear...you have to work at it. Old habits take time to push down and you have to pull yourself up, believe you can do it and do it! <BR> <BR> I wish I could say abbra cadabra and the weight would fly away...wishes are great and some do come true but not this one. You ca... Wed, 28 Sep 2016 22:42:15 EST No pot of gold http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6240014 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/984d13e7-b44c-4567-8584-87b1c33d4cfc.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/1b349d03-10b9-4b20-9b81-3dfbc41c1181.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e60e662d-0eed-4348-82ab-253fa1046ff6.jpg"> Well I thought we would be eating at restraunts but they are stopping at fast food and pizza places and I let myself get carried away. Hopefully I can pull myself back together and get back on track. We saw somethi... Thu, 22 Sep 2016 06:37:52 EST A week of vacation, can I make it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6238062 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9d0a095d-f444-4036-9732-14b7da309154.jpg"> <BR> Vacation,a time of resting,heck, no. My daughter and sil have a lot of plans lol. Eating good? Hope so but will be in restraunts. We will see. I should be able to get in some walking. When I get back will need strength exercises for sure. Hopefully the motels will all have internet so I can chat. Keep it going and moving. Have some fun . Sun, 18 Sep 2016 19:15:28 EST my smart goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6231868 WHO: Who will be involved in helping you reach your goal (including yourself)? Me, my family, groovy geckos, and friend Kat <BR> <BR> • WHAT: What exact goal do you want to accomplish? Be very specific. Rather than "lose weight" or "get fit," define those terms: "I will lose 25 pounds," or "I will be able to run a 5K." <BR> 1. I will be able to walk 10000 steps every day <BR> 2. will lose 25 more pounds <BR> <BR> <BR> • WHEN: When will you start and when will you reach your goal? <BR> ... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 18:46:42 EST turn on your power..make the choice to do it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6226159 Smile, laugh and turn on that power. Inside of all of us we have the power to do what we want...to change our bodies and to make it our life. We all have been through sickness,, cravings and just plain tiredness. sometimes we feel so tired we think we just can't get out of bed...but is it tiredness, boredom or depression. <BR> <BR> Sometimes I just want to pretend that I am healthy the way I am...boy did that backfire. I had an infection surgery that they cut me from one side of my bod... Sun, 28 Aug 2016 21:26:51 EST So many times I cried and said I can't do this http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6225260 its raining and it reminds me of how many times I sat and cried because I lost faith in myself. I let that trigger food get to me. I let life push me down and felt that I just could not go on. I felt alone and scared. Especially when I was sick with my cancers. Even though I had family around me , I thought they don't understand that I just can't control my craving for sugar. <BR> Oh it still rears its ugly head off and on, and I still slip sometimes but this is my life and I am the one... Sat, 27 Aug 2016 08:24:58 EST earn that time sitting on the computer or in front of the t.v. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6224200 I was a couch potato either on the computer or t.v. That was last year. Then I decided I had to earn my time on both. You just do 10 min of exercise or walking to earn that hour on either one. That is every hour. You do 10 min. of exercise or walking and then get the hour on the t.v or computer. do this every hour and you will feel so much better. Then after a week do 15 min. each hour. Too much sitting is really bad for you. <BR> <BR> <link>www.mayoclinic.org/healthy-lifestyle<BR>/... Thu, 25 Aug 2016 08:44:56 EST Stop feeling sorry for yourself..I believe in you..now time for you to do it also http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6223406 I am sitting here on the computer thinking about my day. I let it get away from me without even listening to my body. It didn't feel hungry until dinner and that is a mistake because I thought, hmmm, I didn't eat today so why not get a few extra calories...have something good. <BR> <BR> We stopped by Janekes which is a root beer stand and I got 2 chili cheese dogs. Of course I couldn't eat them both at once so I ate one and then about 3 hours later ate the other one. Not a good idea. We ... Tue, 23 Aug 2016 22:25:49 EST When that carb calls your name...kick it back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6220781 Today is great and it is a new day to be alive. I am going back on mostly protein for 2 weeks to restart my eating. Carbs call call all they want...my ears are closed. <BR> Going to have protein shake with sugar free butterscotch pudding and pb2( teaspoon of each) and make me a butterfinger shake. Really good lol. <BR> <BR> I have been a little down but time to get up again. Did my strength exercise from my little teams august challenge and feel ready to kick carbs in the seat of its pan... Fri, 19 Aug 2016 08:38:39 EST I am in trouble and got to get unstuck from the sweet goo of quicksand http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6220449 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ebaf614b-66f4-4e70-9ccf-46a85dfd21d7.jpg"> I sometimes feel like I need a helmet over my mind to block out the pictures....a tape over my mouth to keep the goo from going in and A keeper to lock up the sweets and carbs. Traci made banana bread and chicken and noodles last night. I resisted the chicken and noodles but last night ate a piece of banana bread that led to another one today. Since my surgery in Dec. I have gotten off all diabetes ... Thu, 18 Aug 2016 17:08:13 EST No more excuses, let's do this together http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6218431 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c6c3487d-394b-48a1-aba8-40c12c897f55.jpg">Excuses, excuses. There are a million of them. Here are just a few. <BR> <BR> 1.I will start tomorrow. Why not today? <BR> <BR> 2.This one little bite won't hurt. Doesn't it? Does it lead you to take just one more bite. Heck I already messed up today so why not keep on going. Don't let yourself do this. If you messed up once today just stop and do it. If you slip...do the flip and get back...on tra... Mon, 15 Aug 2016 13:58:40 EST believe in yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6216846 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/f97a4c82-fb66-440d-8d7f-409d481506bc.jpg"> I am at 195 and plan to be down to be at 180 in September's end when we go on vacation to get my grandson. That is 15 pounds in about a month. I know I can do it if I keep sugar out of my mouth.we can all do this. You just have to: Fri, 12 Aug 2016 15:37:31 EST are you using your child as an excuse? supporting or defeating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6198782 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/42707052-f390-44e0-851c-ecc811137790.jpg"> A brownie,sweet,delectable and dangerous? I am a sugar addict and one bite leads to another. Where I live my granddaughter in law bakes,cookies,cupcakes, cakes,brownies every week,usually two or three times a week. Then on other days she makes pudding pops etc. I ate a brownie yesterday and the day before. Why can't she just stop for a. Couple of weeks until I can get it under control . The common... Mon, 11 Jul 2016 16:05:45 EST It is your choice....I made mine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6197599 This journey is long and winding. One day we are up and the next bumpy. It is that we have to keep going forward because if we go back,then we have to lose those pounds again. We can lose 20 pounds and gain back 10...and have to lose them again...on. and on. And on or we can keep going forward,getting healthier and smaller and able to do more things..have a better quality of life and enjoy...instead of hiding away and missing out on life. <BR> <BR> You are beautiful...no matter your size... Sat, 9 Jul 2016 14:10:24 EST Landed in wonderland http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6196288 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/3411e765-dbb2-4b53-baed-36d9e8817614.jpg"> I landed in wonderland today. Take that you bunch of flubber! I am not going to let you bounce back either. It was a long journey but oh so worth it. I am back on my two protein shakes a day and that is what busted through. I hope you all keep at it so you can get this great feeling too. I am at 199.today I am flying. Thu, 7 Jul 2016 07:04:03 EST 87pounds flushed down the drain and then they plugged it up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6194937 boy I am stuck but doing the 2 protein shakes again to get the drain unplugged. I don't like standing still for long. I go back to the bmi doc the 2o th and want to be down at least another 10 so I need to get plunging. <BR> <BR> get my walking back to 10000 a day <BR> get my protein shakes back to 2 a day to cut away the cravings <BR> get my butt in gear and do my exercises. <BR> <BR> Plunge, plunge, hope to unclog. Weigh in is Saturday. Wish me luck <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photo... Tue, 5 Jul 2016 00:30:16 EST Food is not a crutch and won't make you feel better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6191614 I used to grab food when I was down or felt bad...when I had a bump in the road. Food is not a crutch and won't make you feel better. If you don't feel like cooking...fast food is not the answer...it is an excuse. If life hands you a bump in the road...food will not coat it. <BR> <BR> Sure we need food to survive but we don't need it as the answer to lifes problems. Our emotions will occasionally be down but exercise lifts them...not food. Do you really want that sweet treat to call you... Wed, 29 Jun 2016 07:45:34 EST The little team that is trying, I think I can, I think I can, I know I can grow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6190901 We started a little team and it has 4 beautiful members who are trying to succeed. As our little team chugs along the tracks, it picks up speed and waits for those others who need to band together to grow. We are small but fight for our place among so many mighty teams. <BR> <BR> With all beginnings, ideas blossom and continue to grow with more members. So if you would like to see and check it out go to.... but remember we are just starting...so we are few. <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeop... Tue, 28 Jun 2016 00:13:28 EST Today I became a daisy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6189262 I started the 5% challenge. Never did it before. I am a determined Daisy. Good one they gave me because I want to fly like a butterfly so now I can flit on the daisy. Take a deep breath today and lets get walking, chair exercising or anything you are allowed to do. If just starting take it easy. If you have been doing it, do a step more. We can do this. <BR> <BR> Losing weight and getting to your healthy weight, not so thin, you float away with the breeze, but healthy weight, ca... Sat, 25 Jun 2016 08:50:47 EST rollin, rollin, rollin, keep those bodies moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6186142 Walking today and it is beautiful. Positive is the word of the day. Get off that tush and move it. If you can't walk do movement in the chair. There are many chair exercises here and on you tube. Lets get it together and ditch that fat. Oh yeah it will try and get you to quit and get saggier and baggier but do you want to let it win! Heck no! Lets beat this thing and give ourselves a body that can do more. Don't let it get you down. You are beautiful the way you are but don't you want ... Mon, 20 Jun 2016 08:43:48 EST Woe is me...a tale of what to do. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6185077 Ok, I know you are there. I know you are reading this. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and stop with the excuses. Sooner or later you will realize it is you that is ruining your health and not losing weight. I have used that excuse...I don't know why I am not losing. I am doing what I am supposed to and eating healthy. Really? What about that little snack or bite here and there. It counts. How long have you been sitting and watching t.v or playing on the computer. That counts. Get ... Sat, 18 Jun 2016 09:07:05 EST light at the end of the tunnel....kicked them to the curb. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6178244 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c300f516-7a9a-47ed-bc51-1e902fd22b88.jpg"> "The road is long." Boy does the start to that song ring true. I have tried so many diets, pills,etc. And lost then gained. I know how you feel. Every time I read a success story, I thought "why can't I do it, what's wrong with me? Well I am doing it! You can too. Yes I had gastric sleeve surgery but I still have to watch what eat. All those carbs that were my life are now not available to m... Tue, 7 Jun 2016 10:43:37 EST Lets do this together, and this time win. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6171848 this is our new small team and we are starting a challenge called Lets do it together. Here is the first day. <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/team_mes<BR>sageboard_thread.asp?board=31434x66833<BR>x64437004 </link> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/b9bff83e-1b74-4053-bdf1-47099ead9708.jpg"> taken from google free to use images <BR> <BR> Ever wonder what 5 pounds of fat looks like? It is disgusting. Now imagine that crushing your heart. Why would we... Sat, 28 May 2016 10:13:12 EST not going to let food bring me down this time. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6171392 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/4710499f-726c-4f38-a8e9-12c1a4903574.jpg"> I have been on diets all my life and they don't work. Lost an elephant here (50 pounds) at least twice and gained it back. You need to change your life and way of eating to make it work. I had my gastric sleeve,most of you know.Dec 15th. Lost 60 pounds in the first 4 months. Then I slowed to a stop when I added veggies and got me frustrated. I ate a pop tart then a week later some cake then last w... Fri, 27 May 2016 12:30:14 EST A new day to be alive, kick don't let the negative break through your walls. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6167992 Good morning beautiful people. It is a glorious day. We have a day full of life to live. I am going to get in my 10,000 today but it is up to you to rest or move. It is your day. You make it positive or you can let the negative in to ruin it. Lets get positive. <BR> <BR> We are all beautiful and I think half the battle is loving yourself. If you love yourself, you want what is best for you and your body. It is not selfish to make time for you and to make life wonderful. Our family needs us ... Sun, 22 May 2016 08:39:04 EST Fat is a word that should not be heard http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6167046 F orever feeling down <BR> A ccused of eating everything in sight <BR> T ortured because of your size. <BR> <BR> Fat is just a word. You can say it or write it or just ignore it. It makes us depressed, sometimes ill and feeling worthless. People who don't know what it feels like sometimes make fun of those who are large. Don't let it get to you...take it down. Make it go away...fat is not a thing that is conducive to our health. It eats away at our body and brings it down. <BR> Get rid o... Fri, 20 May 2016 15:13:15 EST leaders are people too..transforming your mind to believe in you. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6166980 Maybe as a leader we are expected to know things and be role models....only thing is we are human. Maybe some leaders have accomplished amazing things and can live up to that...but not me. I have lost over 80 pounds but 63 of that was from bmi gastric sleeve surgery. I am like you fighting every day to lose and keep off those pounds. <BR> <BR> Actually I think a leader is someone who shares your journey and tries to help you along the way. We walk beside you not ahead of you. We have he... Fri, 20 May 2016 13:10:06 EST A new day, a new team and a sample of my team newletter, help us grow. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6166779 May is the month for renewal and a start for a new team. It may be small but it has heart and I know it will grow. If you want to invite friends or someone else be my guest. I used to think a team needed a big amount of people but now I think it just needs people who care and need to share their journey..so we can help boost them and ourselves along. So lets finish May in a strong way. I know we all have the capacity to do this and all we need is to find that something that makes us want... Fri, 20 May 2016 08:08:07 EST New team of sharing the journey together http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6166415 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/95115003-273d-427e-a26b-7dcee1989e04.jpg"> I wanted to start a team where we can all share our journey,any age or gender. A team where members are important and can start posts....challenge themselves or not. The choice is yours. I wanted a team where we can share our triumphs and our downfalls. A team that wants everyone to succeed. I had the him surgery gastric sleeve but you don't have to have surgery to succeed. Many people have done i... Thu, 19 May 2016 15:58:50 EST I made it over 10,000 steps today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6162517 I walked 11,122 steps today. I have never even made it to 10,000 before. I am so excited to have made it that far. I am feeling really good. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/268326b6-293c-4c7e-9ced-818469940514.jpg"> Sat, 14 May 2016 00:47:42 EST my emotional eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6161387 This month is hard...my first mothers day without my mom...my Jack died on mothers day a year ago..and I am an emotional eater I have slipped a few times this month and a few last month. I am not proud of that only trying to grab a hold on it before I crash and gain. I can not let that happen. I have done so good and really thought I had it under control. I had a few pop tarts a couple of times and today a piece of my grandsons birthday cake. I have not been on much lately.trying to get... Thu, 12 May 2016 09:27:29 EST such a crazy month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6136423 I have been in the hospital,fell, got really sick but yesterday felt much better. I am so sorry geckos. Going to try and get on the computer tonight. I don't know Ow why I can't get to teams on my kindle unless I am doing something wrong. If I don't get on can a gecko put in my weight 210. Hope it still counts. Wed, 6 Apr 2016 14:31:48 EST Thank God for facebook http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6132071 I fell a few days ago and hit my head on the corner of the kitchen island counter. I can't get up once I hit the floor. I fell face first and turned over. I scooted on my bottom to the living room, only to remember my phone was on the counter in the kitchen..so I cornerback. I was in a panic and tried many times to get up. I had a large bump on my head and it felt wet. I scooted over to a drawer and took out the waxed paper. I could not see up there to where my phone and tablet were. ... Thu, 31 Mar 2016 21:47:12 EST 70 pounds down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6124530 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/69befc1a-b32b-42ab-a652-95f8c427caf3.jpg"> I had my gastric sleeve surgery 3 months ago and since then have lost 51 pounds but with the weight had lost before down 70 pounds. I now weigh 218 and only 19. Pounds to go before in will be under 200. I don't remember the last time I was there. It has been a journey of ups and downs but the only complication so far is the constipation and I had that way before surgery. I have slowed way down on t... Mon, 21 Mar 2016 16:26:13 EST If you feel like quitting... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6105969 <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=OgCRgjn4fI8 </link> You want motivation? You can do this! Not tomorrow but start today. <BR> <BR> Remember that song....I believe I can fly?" <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=LbUpPVOEkdA </link> <BR> <BR> I know we all have it inside. We just have to believe it. When you feel like you can't do it anymore listen to this song and let it bring out that strength from within. I know you can and I believe in you. What have you go... Sat, 27 Feb 2016 09:44:12 EST Going to make March my do it month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6101686 Going to take each day and do something either fun, learning or getting things done. <BR> <BR> 1. going to get that sewing table and material to get sewing again. <BR> 2. going to get a spring purse for fun and organization <BR> 3. going to organize my desk and room <BR> 4. going to read that book I started. <BR> 5. going to list one week at a time so I get it done. Try a new recipe <BR> 6. going to walk 20 min at a time and dance for 10 <BR> 7.My day of rest and time to make a list for ne... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 23:59:36 EST Trying to bring the me I want to be...out. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6098804 Having a little trouble this week. My feelings got hurt but for the better. I thought I was a team player but was told.." I like to take over and run the team." Not a good thing for a team leader to hear but maybe they were right. I thought I was posting a lot to get people to be interested enough to come back. Maybe I do like to feel needed. Is that a bad thing? <BR> I know the person who said it meant well and maybe I took it the wrong way. It just hit my heart and hurt. <BR> Any... Thu, 18 Feb 2016 07:46:39 EST Back in the groove with new internet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6065355 doing good. Lost 30 pounds since the 2nd of Dec. Tuesday I get to add 1/2 cup of veggies to my protein. Have been waiting for that day. Just eating meat, cheese, eggs and fish can be pretty boring. Now I can have beans, so chili and tacos with 1/2 cup of lettuce and tomato mixture or salsa sounds like heaven. <BR> I notice my pants getting bigger and funny thing, my feet fit my shoes better. I still can't have fruit or any starchy veggies but will have a bigger selection. I am going ... Sat, 9 Jan 2016 23:54:15 EST