HAWTGRANNY2014's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HAWTGRANNY2014 HAWTGRANNY2014's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I am forcing myself to look within and find the whys http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744409 Ever since I had all those health problems hit me at once..I am afraid. It is silly. It was about 4 years ago now but I limit myself instead of pushing through. I am careful about telling hubby, I am going after the mail so if I don't come back, come get me...even though he couldn't. <BR> I am so afraid of every little thing that I need to stop it. Part of my overeating is from that too. On the outside...I took it well but inside it scared the heck out of me. They must have told me severa... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 18:32:29 EST life is an adventure...live it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737856 This is a small team that I am trying to get more members and keep it going. I already lost one small team and can't bear to lose another. When you get together and get to know people and then have to drop the team...it is like losing friends. <BR> I am co-leader on two big teams and they are going strong but this little one needs a shot in the arm. <BR> <BR> I started a thread...life is a bowl of cherries...so why did I get the pits lol. The way it sounds like a pitiful, negative thread ... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 11:36:05 EST I am back to myself..I think http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5728398 The air went out yesterday and it is so hot in here even with the windows opened. Tomorrow is supposed to be even hotter. He is coming to take a look at the water heater and tell me how much to put it in so hope he will look at the air too. <BR> <BR> I do feel better today. I look at it this way, once they are fixed, 2 less things to worry about. <BR> I am playing the lottery this week lol. If I hit it rich I will fix everything at one time and pay all my families bills and if there is en... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 14:39:31 EST Again and again and again. Is life laughing at me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5728004 I am not tryig to be negative and I don't know how bad it is...but every time things work out, like getting the money to fix the water heater...something else goes wrong. What am I supposed to be learning from all this? Please tell me so I can stop going through it over and over again. <BR> the power went off for a few minutes and then back on. It started to get cold and I noticed the air was not turning off. I went and turned it off but it didn't. It kept going and no matter what we di... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 22:19:36 EST I will live my life without holding my breath, waiting for something to happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727834 I will live my life without holding my breath, waiting for something to happen <BR> I will never give up on myself or my goals <BR> I know that I am worth every minute of my starting again <BR> I will hold my spark friends in highest regards <BR> I will hold in my heart, all those who have come and gone <BR> Though I will wonder how they are and if they made it. <BR> <BR> H ope is a word that rings true in our hearts <BR> O bjects are not worth 1/10 as much as a true friend <BR> P us... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 15:48:11 EST my new hair do and tea tree shampoo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726638 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1682469525.jpg"> It doesn't look much different than before but my hair was all whacked up in lengths and they straightened it out. They moved the part to the other side and layered it for thickness. It was getting pretty thin. The other one I picked they said would make it look even thinner. <BR> I am going to get it colored probably next month....a red shade with a darker reddish brown streaks. It is awesome and they said it would give d... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 20:43:47 EST my new hair do and tea tree shampoo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726634 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1682469525.jpg"> It doesn't look much different than before but my hair was all whacked up in lengths and they straightened it out. They moved the part to the other side and layered it for thickness. It was getting pretty thin. The other one I picked they said would make it look even thinner. <BR> I am going to get it colored probably next month....a red shade with a darker reddish brown streaks. It is awesome and they said it would give d... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 20:37:19 EST my new hair do and tea tree shampoo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726632 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1682469525.jpg"> It doesn't look much different than before but my hair was all whacked up in lengths and they straightened it out. They moved the part to the other side and layered it for thickness. It was getting pretty thin. The other one I picked they said would make it look even thinner. <BR> I am going to get it colored probably next month....a red shade with a darker reddish brown streaks. It is awesome and they said it would give d... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 20:36:06 EST four letter words http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724247 There are positive four letter words too. <BR> <BR> H ave a positive day with positive words <BR> O wn your choices...you made them <BR> P ut a smile on your face and love in your heart <BR> E very day is a brand new start. <BR> <BR> Y ou can be down or you can make life fun <BR> O nly you can eat right and move that body <BR> U nderstand it is your choices you face <BR> R emember to make the right ones <BR> <BR> L ittle steps can make your life better <BR> I know that sitting all day make... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 15:38:11 EST My plan, I I LOST 2 POUNDS, going for more...it feels like the best! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5723453 What a difference a week can make. <BR> 1. I have upped my exercise min. <BR> 2. I broke the habit of jumping on the scale every morning <BR> 3. I lost 2 pounds <BR> <BR> I LOST 2 POUNDS....true they are some that I had gained...but they came off and even though I wanted to lose 4....I LOST 2! Yippee, yahoo. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1961006856.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> I am woman....Hear me roar! I can do it! I am going to post only positive today. I... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 14:44:15 EST The scale was on hold til now...vote in photo contest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5723369 I started a one week stay off the scale challenge and did good at first but then I could not stand it and got on. I lost 2 pounds. Was it from not getting on the scale and feeling the freedom or was it because I upped my exercise or a little of both. <BR> I thought I would have less stress not getting on the scale but it was the opposite. I wanted to get on and see what was going on. It was a habit. Get up, get undressed and step on the scale on the way to my shower. It was hard not just ... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 11:41:36 EST the new old...for 55+ team challenge...who you calling old? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720768 Today many men and woman are staying younger than ever before. Age is jus a number and even if you have a disability or sickness...you can still move your way. <BR> <BR> This is a spark article: It is about a senior Olympics and how many inspiarational people there were. <BR> " <BR> Later that morning we found out that Mo was battling brain cancer and her prognosis was not promising. Nevertheless, she was eager to participate in her 12th year of Senior Olympics. She won a gold medal and our... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 15:14:20 EST Exercise? Is that me...an exercise mover? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720678 We are just getting over a team on team challenge and of course there is things to learn, articles to read, fun, meditation, motivation and a fun bunch of ladies doing there best to support each other. Oops I forgot there is exercise too. <BR> <BR> I did 63 min. 2 days ago, 73 min yesterday and going for 100 min. today. The more I do the more energized and better I feel. I have arthritis but the movement makes me feel more flexible. Of course I didn't start out wih 66 min....but I got t... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 13:04:54 EST see a glimpse of the light....but darn its confusing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720038 I am surrounded by choices like a forest full of trees. Which are right for me? Darned if I know. Meat? No meat? fruits and veggies only? Gluten free? Dairy free? Oh me, oh my. <BR> I run around all day trying to do this and trying to do that. You would think I was a chicken with my head cut off. Where is my brain? <BR> I am listening to my soul but gosh it is hard to do. I am starting to see the light through the trees for exercise. I did 66 min and thought I would be so sore but I fel... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 16:44:22 EST the universe spoke to me....tut, tut, tut....today I am ready! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719215 I don't know if you get messages from the universe for the tut website but today I got my first since starting again. It is so right for today after yesterdays staring truth in the face. <BR> Here it is: <BR> " <BR> It's like, all those really good thoughts of yours, pam, that have NEVER become things, are simply gathering, mingling, and growing like compound interest, until there are just enough to burst into your life, connection to my soul to find magic in my lifes and flowers and ponies ... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 15:22:36 EST My life could be slipping away, my heart is being crushed and my lungs sufficating. Time to face th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719015 ok, I really am scared. After that dream that I am going to die in 3 or 4 weeks, I admit it prays on my mind. My daughter and sil took us out to eat after hubby got down the stairs and we both ate too much and I felt like a beached whale. <BR> I just lose and gain and every time I gain I feel it so bad. I did lose some with the hungry girl diet but put it back on and more. I have not moved my weight tracker because I just hate to keep moving it. I know I can do this! In my heart...I k... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 10:23:53 EST Fathers day hubby finally got to go out of the house and not in an ambulance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5718737 Most of you know my hubby is in a wheelchair because of the huge hole in his foot from diabetes. He can not put any pressure on it. He is also a stage 4 kidney patient . An ambulance takes him to dialysis 3 days a week and to his doctor appointments. <BR> Today my daughter and sil came over and we were outside waiting for them. My daughter was very surprised. They were going to help him down the stairs. While I was in the garage, he took his walker, walked on one whole foot and the toe... Sun, 15 Jun 2014 22:36:47 EST A breakthrough-----connected to my soul and really listening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716903 Tonight, I had just eaten but hunger for something sweet hit me. As normal, I started to go and get something. No! Plain as day, I heard this in my mind. You are not hungry you just want something you don't need right now. I stayed down and thought..." you are right...I don't need it. <BR> <BR> Then it hit me. I heard but never stopped before. There is help if I listen. I don't know if we are connected to spirit by our soul. I thought it was always by our heart but now I think it... Fri, 13 Jun 2014 01:56:58 EST What painful life issues started me to want to lose weight. challenge 55+ females http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716587 Quite a few years ago people were different and made fun of overweight people, a lot more than now. Now there are a lot more overweight people in the U.S. It is like an epidemic. <BR> When I went to school, I was overweight...not like now but enough. When I walked down the halls, people would either stare or they would out and out laugh. When you are walking down a crowded hall and really shy, the last thing you want is attention. It happened many time and I would go home and cry. My s... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 15:04:50 EST soul and day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715939 Ok soul didn't make it all day but did a pretty good job. I did have small pizza with just sauce, cheese and green onions. I know that cheese and sauce and of course the crust are not veggies or fruit. I think I am probably going to go back to Just eating fish for meat but throw in plenty of fruit and veggies. I did that for almost 2 years. I also ate bread but I eat hungry girl foldout flatbread which is really good and only 100 calories for the whole sandwich, not counting the filling ... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 17:23:06 EST A little daily motivation---55+females team challenge post http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715937 <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=R9I5V5A23HY </link> tragedy that made one woman start losing. <BR> <BR> I remember my Mom being overweight and I was embarrassed. I am ashamed now, but when I was younger, It bothered me. I didn't want her to die but I also didn't want others to think bad of her. Now I am that Mom and Grandmom. My daughter is 43 and overweight too and I think maybe I made her that way. She was so tiny when she was young and even as a teen. She wore a size 1 when she was 16 b... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 17:13:33 EST fruits and veggies day one...help and Patrick too? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715241 I did good most of the day but did eat pancakes tonight which reminds me I have to change my food tracker because I didn't eat some of the food either. <BR> <BR> It is so hard not to grab a piece of hg foldout flat bread or a piece of meat. Except for the pancakes I did good. I was going to quit but read some of your comments that said it is hard at first but easier as you go and I did promise my soul. <BR> <BR> Dear Soul: <BR> You had better be right about my feeling better because this ... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 20:35:44 EST A one week challenge to my soul. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714504 Ok you keep telling me fruits and veggies. I tried it before but did not make it. I will take one week to see if you are telling me something or if it is my imagination. <BR> <BR> 1. I will eat fruit and veggies for one week and only fruit and veggies. <BR> 2. I will move for at least 30 min. every day <BR> 3. I will meditate so that I can really listen. <BR> 4. I will add yogurt and peanut butter for protein. <BR> <BR> Ok everyone wish me luck . I will blog it each day for one week. <B... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 21:15:18 EST stop shoulding yourself..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714395 I read an article a little while ago called " you should stop shoulding yourself." It is about how your soul tells you things you should do but you don't always listen. <BR> <BR> For years now something keeps telling to eat only fruit and vegetables...sometimes I listen....I did only eat fish as meat for almost two years and then back to all meat. Did it hurt...yes because I feel worse. I have a hard time giving up bread...not either a fruit or vegetable...what else do we need to stop. <B... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 17:46:52 EST What would I say if you or I wanted to give up? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713551 What would I say if you or I wanted to give up? <BR> I would say are you kidding. Get yourself up and get moving! Are you not alive? Has your body quit moving? Do you want to occupy a place on that couch with your name embroidered on top? Can you say lazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzy? If you don't have a disability where you can not move, or your shoes are embedded in cement, get up! <BR> <BR> I am here to kick your can and tell you....that if you sit around all day...someone might think you are a... Sun, 8 Jun 2014 16:56:03 EST Believe in yourself. Little phrase with a powerful meaning. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710991 B ecause you can do it and so can <BR> E veryone else <BR> L ive the life you really want <BR> I f you just take that first step ! <BR> E verything depends on you making it happen <BR> V erify it right now by <BR> E scaping all the negative thoughts <BR> <BR> You can do this! Believe is a powerful word that when combining yourself is a beginning in taking that step. but you have to do it....every day...just take another step. Take a leap of faith and think positive thoughts. <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 02:58:42 EST booty shake and tai chi....whoo hoo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709914 Well I am upping my exercise and on day 2 of the hungry girl diet of week 2. Actually I should have started over because it had been 2 weeks off before getting groceries. <BR> <BR> I did tai chi for the first time in a long time. I love it and it feels so soothing. I had to wait until I got my new computer because the old one, the browser was too old. This is tai chi for beginners but I love to do it. I hope you try it. It also helps to relieve stress. <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 17:31:16 EST Not down and out...just a little bent http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5706780 Instead of sitting and second guessing if we are doing it right, we just need to do it. Trying is what we need to keep on doing. No matter if we feel so down, we can't get up again, We can feel that energy from just doing and the pride that comes with it. <BR> We can live our life, instead of letting it pass us by. We can open those wings and learn to fly, no matter our age. Playing with children , makes us feel younger. Using our brain keeps it from letting it fog up. Moving our body gives ... Fri, 30 May 2014 12:11:43 EST Exercise boring, becoming down...get that body moving! You can't let your body body just mold! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5701389 Ok ladies and gentleman ( just us team) some of these things are things you do everyday. I have been dragging and so I know how many of you feel about exercising...but there is something for everyone. Isn't it time to do instead of say? Isn't it time to get moving? Our bodies just get older, tireder and stiffer without movement. I know its hard and it is easier to just sit down and fritter the day away, but what is that doing to your health. Here is a chance to even just do a little each day.... Fri, 23 May 2014 10:25:12 EST do it. do it...oh heck Just do it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700891 Who put the bop in the bop she bop she bop? Who what? Do I have a bop? I guess I can shake my bootie but the bop? Boy have the lyrics and words changed since then....but have I? <BR> You bet. I am a grandma with the will to beat the beat into the bop. <BR> <BR> I am "Greased lightning " granny today with the will to walk through that dark forrest, climb that highest mountain and dance to the end of the world. I want my health back. I want to shake my booty until it is smaller to shake... Thu, 22 May 2014 15:54:03 EST Hungry girl diet team and fans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699349 I love this diet and do make substitutions now because it can get expensive. the recipes are great and you get three choices for each meal except week one. The three are the smae everyday. I lost 4 pounds in 3 days. The team is small but hope to grow..So if you are on the diet or just a hungry girl fan give us a try. <BR> I would love to share my experience and tips as well as hers and would like to hear about your tips and experiences. Come in and give us a peek. <BR> <BR> <link>www.spa... Tue, 20 May 2014 16:06:58 EST I have nothing to look forward too...are you kidding me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699346 Hubby has been in a big funk because he can't go outside and get fresh air or watch the cars go by (his favorite pastime but he wasn't eating either and it scared me. So I took him aside an asked him why is he not eating. He floored me. " I don't have anything to look forward too." <BR> He woke me up because I had been feeling a little like that too...just a little mind you. I am generally positive but he has a lot of problems. <BR> So I told him..." Your foot will heal and we will sell t... Tue, 20 May 2014 15:57:55 EST Once a member of team 55+, you are family http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698492 Over the years people have come and gone...there are new members and old...but once a member of the 55+ladies team, you are like family. I guess when people go, I feel like we let them down in some way. I know that is silly. I have left teams before too. Some I felt, 5 didn't fit in, or I just joined too many. I have always been on this team and it would be like losing part of my family to leave. <BR> I just wanted any who have left and feel like they might not be welcomed back to know t... Mon, 19 May 2014 13:39:19 EST He keeps lifting me higher and higher http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5697721 You all know we have had so many problems...one seem to jump on to another. hubby is sick and he missed two dialysis this week...not good. The trailer needs many repairs, our water heater needs to be replace and our van keeps cutting out but there have been a few good things too. The private ambulance service that transports him back and forth to dialysis is going to take him to his doctors appointments too. I can't thank then enough. I don't drive and he can't put any weight on his foot... Sun, 18 May 2014 14:37:02 EST happy mothers day to all http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5692330 M ay your day be bright and full of love <BR> O nly sunshine and cool breezes <BR> T o caress your face with warmth <BR> H appiness is there for you <BR> E ven a blue bird is on your shoulder <BR> R emember all the days gone by <BR> S ome good and some a little off <BR> <BR> A lways keep the positive in your heart <BR> R aising us with gentle care <BR> E very Mother out there is a person extremely rare <BR> <BR> L ove you Mom and hope your days <BR> O nly fill with love. <BR> V ery soon y... Sun, 11 May 2014 00:28:49 EST team spirit and a tribute to a fallen member http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5690839 There are so many great ladies here who have overcome so many hardships, disabilities, illnesses and still keep on going. This team means a lot to me and when I was sick I got letters from so many and they kept coming. It was one of the things, besides my family that kept me going , even when they said i would not make it. <BR> I was shocked when I came back and found out that nan had passed away because when I left she was celebrating being a 1 year survivor. It hurts when one leaves us espe... Thu, 8 May 2014 20:54:45 EST New team, hungry girl diet and fans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5690695 I am loving the hungry girl diet. The food is good and you get so much. You also get 3 snacks. It was checked out by a dietician because she wanted to know that it was healhty. There are 3 recipes for each meal, each day, after week one, so you can pick from many options. you can havee 90 cal. fiber one bars, snack recipes from the book, 100 cal. fruit choices, just some of the snack suggestions. <BR> Whether you are on the diet or just a hungry girl fan give us a peek. Remember we just ... Thu, 8 May 2014 16:24:50 EST help, I need somebodys help! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5689738 this is a message I sent to my teams. Got my positive back and tired of the negative trappings of my mind. Blew it off and let it go! Thought I would share it with the rest of you...my sp friends. We all need a little reminder sometimes. so the help is for you. <BR> <BR> I don't care how much you have lost, gained or have to lose. We are winners because we try and because we care. We want each other to succeed. We come in and post and try to help each other, both with words , suggestions... Wed, 7 May 2014 11:32:32 EST Day one hungry girl diet and oh my gosh, so much food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5688376 Well day one is good. I had the yogurt and frruit for breakfast, turkey sandwich with veggies and dip for lunch and tilapia, hot veggies and salad for dinner and could not eat all the salad. One thing I did not like was one of my 3 snacks was strawberries stuffed with feta cheese and mini chocolate chips. I did not like the feta cheese so going to just put in the mini chips but only the amount I am supposed to have. <BR> My just do it team is small but tryint to revamp it because it is a ne... Mon, 5 May 2014 21:03:42 EST Stop ! Focus and just do it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684347 It doesn't take a rocket scientist to know that if you don't do the work or eat right, you are not going to get results. Oh I know that some do everything possible and still stay at a plateau but I have been using excuse after excuse...hubby is sick...well my getting sick too won't help anything! I am with others and don't want to seem out of place so I eat what they are eating....am I going to jump off a bridge too. <BR> I revamped and changed the name of a team...to JUST DO IT! I am tir... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 20:52:50 EST I am going banana's http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681803 I am safely in my cocoon , patiently waiting for myself to emerge as a beautiful butterfly so I can fly with the freedom and confidence to be a better me. Then along comes spark people and wakes me up. They want me to exercise, but I have to come out of my cocoon, dark , warm and safe. They want me to use the tracker and track my food. Good-bye sugar laden goodies and carb loaded breads and potatoes. <BR> What? I can have anything but in moderation? You supply all the tools and I just h... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 18:26:48 EST I almost crashed , and left spark...but that would be giving up. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5680764 What was i thinking? I didn't have any sleep for two nights and spending a lot of time in the nursing home with hubby and his health problems this week, I was so tired...that I panicked and was going to take a sp break...nothing wrong with that but I was seriously thinking of chucking it all and leaving spark. It would have been another excuse not to keep going...just let it go and eat and do nothing., I truly was so tired, that my judgement was impaired. For many a spark break is just tha... Sat, 26 Apr 2014 08:16:35 EST am I improving since last year? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677488 This is a blog for 55+females team challenge. Am I stronger, healthier or have more energy etc. than last year? <BR> I was doing really good until I had computer trouble and hubby went into the hospital, started dialysis and is now in a nursing home after having foot surgery. <BR> Well I think I am stronger in a way. Without all the things I endured in the last 3 years and without my spark friends, I probably would have pulled my hair out. <BR> I am better at handling stress. I think you ge... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 23:23:39 EST Magic and miracles...learning together http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673827 I changed an old team into a new one. I have revamped the threads and looked into thingsd to put on it. I hope you will join us. <BR> <BR> I have always felt that there was magic and miracles in the air. We are miracles ourselves and need to recognise what a beautiful creation we are. We are all so special and different and that makes the world less boring. But what about the inside? It is so important to help others and it is important to take care of ourselves too. We can't help oth... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 19:49:09 EST Cadbury eggs, a lament to a dear friend. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667721 Time again for that crazy rabbit to fill our baskets with all kinds of fattening goodies. <BR> I say we make that rabbit eat them himself....well maybe just one Cadbury egg for me...Just kidding. <BR> I know that I will eat something good but it is a holiday and they are made for fun. Of course Easter is more than that. It is a day of miracles. It is a day of joy! We need to remember that above all else. It is a day for families to get together and enjoy. Jesus died to save us from our s... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 21:41:31 EST Out of the hospital and off to see the wizard http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665219 I was in the hospital day and night with hubby. His kidney function when down to 10 so now he is on dialysis and fighting 3 kinds of bacteria in his blood. He had dialysis twice and his kidneys have gone up again....20! I feel like the wizard waved his wand and hubby got better. He is eating again and his color is good and he has some energy for the first time in a long time. <BR> I feel as if the wizard of Oz dropped back down in kansas and gave me the ruby slippers. Bad thing is I ga... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 19:08:10 EST today I am riding a high and kicked a habit to the curb! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656973 I have been trying to break the habit of eating after 7 for such a long time. <BR> At night I would sit, grab some munchies and watch t.v. Didn't get the good stuff like carrot and celery, not even popcorn but the bad stuff...high calorie foods, frozen pizza, sandwiches anything that I didn't eat during the day. I did good during the day, then crashed it by stuffing my mouth at night. I didn't really pay attention because I was in the throws of a good action movie or series. Oh I had good ... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 11:43:44 EST Let me out! Its dark in here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654557 I know inside there is a butterfly and she wants to fly! I feel like a caterpillar, crawling on the ground and never getting very far. Then slowly learning, but going backwards, I encased myself in that safe, dark cocoon, but now I want out. I want to transform into a beautiful butterfly and leave the darkness to soar high. I know I am a miracle but I feel as if I am not done. I need that freedom of taking the weight off my body. <BR> Too many times I have cried because I was afraid that... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 12:03:54 EST The odd life of Timothy Green ,a message of hope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654167 Wow. I just saw the odd life of Timothy Green. Odd little concept of a boy coming out of a box of messages buried in a garden. Strange vision and one that could not happen. Who knows? Who says it is impossible? the thing is it takes your heart with it. I cheered with all the triumphs. I wanted to tell some people off lol, and then I cried at the end. <BR> It is a movie with a message, many messages really. It gives you hope that if you really want something bad enough you can make it come tr... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 21:11:38 EST HELP I am being lured into Wonderland http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653120 Have you been to Wonderland? It is the place where you wonder if this diet or that diet will make you lose fast. <BR> I had made it out of that mind boggling place but the four months that I was gone here, I lost support and all the stress of hubbys health issues led me back to emotional eating. Now that I am back, I almost let the white rabbit drag me back to Wonderland by reading about a supposed miracle diet where some lost 73 or more pounds in four months. Oh my mind said it is too goo... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 10:24:04 EST