HAWTGRANNY2014's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HAWTGRANNY2014 HAWTGRANNY2014's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ What do I expect from the blc challenge? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783062 I expect to do my best and lose this weight. I am a tiger and they are the best, supportive, friendly team. We are all on this journey and expect to keep on working without leaving any tiger behind. <BR> I expect to lose 20 pounds. <BR> I expect to be able to walk for a longer time. <BR> I expect to learn the way to eat to lose and get healthy. <BR> <BR> I know I can do this. I have become more motivated and inspired by those on the team. Some are in pain and keep on going. I have been ... Fri, 19 Sep 2014 15:51:05 EST Tigers here me roar...my pawse blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781714 The week in nutshell. I always have a cheat day before I start a new eating plan and learned because of that day , I gained .6 tenths of a pound. Not much, you say. Any gain is not good. I learned that exercise and eating go hand in hand. I did a lot of exercise...yesterday did 120 min. but it didn't keep me from gaining while eating the wrong things. <BR> H ealthy is what I am going to be <BR> E ven though I may have to give up or at least <BR> A ccomplish portion control <BR> L earning a... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 14:28:31 EST Tigers are here...saving me from the scary food and giving me support. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780521 I am a tiger in blc26. I am ready to prowl the jungle and make it happen. <BR> It is a scary jungle out there....filled with ice cream, cake, lasagna, tacos and all kinds of other dangerous things. I have to walk softly by the candy section so it does not call my name. The ice cream aisle is enchanting and full of sugar and exploding with all kinds of flavor. The little ones are all right for a special treat but the big ones linger in the dark, waiting for you to have more and more. Oh my... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 19:49:56 EST I did it! walked for one hour straight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5779691 Yesterday and today I walke hubbys wheelchair ramp. It is 90 steps for a full round and I did 50 complete rounds or 4500 steps! I did have to take a breather about every 6 rounds but hey it was only for about a min. A mile is 2500 steps so almost did 2 miles at one time. Yeah me. Friday, for the blc, need to do a 5 k so need to get going every day a little more. <BR> I am so proud of myself for doing it 2 days in a row. I was sore but I did it anyway and will do it every day until it get... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 13:40:48 EST It is my time...I need help! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5778774 I can't believe I let myself gain it back again. I have not weighed for a week and a half and gained again. I am back to 285. I can't seem to focus and need a push....a lot of pushing. <BR> I have quit co leader on 2 teams because I am always focusing on challenges and helping others. I am great at giving advice but not on taking it. <BR> I got down to 279 and then went up again. I sometimes think my head is just crazy. I know I want this so bad and yet...I go along fine and the screw u... Fri, 12 Sep 2014 20:11:49 EST September 11th, hear from the voice of a little girl who talks to her daddy in heaven. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777622 I can't add words that will justify the loss of this little girls father. I cried as I listened to her talk to her daddy in heaven. I tried to think of how and why this could happen in or country or the world at all. It chills me to my heart to think that some people could be so heartless as to kill so many people for nothing...why? There are so many like this little girl without dads, moms nd siblings because of the jealousy and greed of terrorists who think they are doing Gods work. the... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 00:44:41 EST What steps do you have to take to make that life a reality? Instead of WISHING, start DOING. Put a p http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5776582 Imagine that you are perfectly content with every aspect your life. What does that life look like? What steps do you have to take to make that life a reality? Instead of WISHING, start DOING. Put a plan into action today! <BR> <BR> this is the question or visualization on sp today. This takes a lot of thought. I do wish a lot...win the lottery ... a magic wand to wave and be thin. Oh fairy godmother where are you? <BR> <BR> the steps I need to take. break <BR> 1. break the sugar addicti... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 13:05:35 EST making choices and being yourself. Watch those large portions. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774091 Well hello gorgeous. You are an amazing person. You know you inside and out. You know when you are doing right and when you are doing a no-no. <BR> Well last night I thought I did a no-no but not really. I went out to eat and it was buffet...a little hard to call ahead for the menu because it changes. I didn't eat as good as I should have. I had shrimp, not too bad, mashed potatoes and gravy, but just a tiny gravy, stuffing, and a roll with butter. Plus 2 chocolate chip cookies. Who a... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 16:11:49 EST Setting mini smart goals for today for a sense of accomplishment and pride. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5770516 I had a lazy day yesterday....not proud of it...but being honest. That is not good for me because I felt tired all day and it makes it that much harder to do today. Well up I am going to get up and exercise. I can't let even one day go by losing sight of my smart goals. <BR> <BR> Today I set a goal of 60 min. of exercise. Will blog tomorrow to see if I made it or not. <BR> Going to set small goals each day to keep focus on the prize...a healthier life and a thinner body. <BR> <BR> Still ... Sun, 31 Aug 2014 13:34:27 EST Hey! Who put me in this fat suit? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769999 When I was younger, I was overweight but not enough to care. I joined girl scouts, all the way from brownie to leader. funny thing when I was in high school, I was so shy because I was overweight and kids can be cruel...so I kept to myself except for a few friends. <BR> <BR> My gram used to get all the neighborhood kids to play games and I was comfy with them. So I guess I was shy in school and still have fun at home. <BR> <BR> Then somewhere along the line, I grew out instead of up. It ... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 15:12:43 EST my smart goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769447 today on spark coach supposed to make my smart goals. What are smart goals? <BR> taken from spark article. <BR> The Acronym SMART stands for Specific, Measurable, Attainable, Realistic and Timely. By applying each of these principles to your goal-setting, you'll set yourself up for success. <BR> <BR> Say your goal is to lose 20 pounds. <BR> <BR> Is your goal Specific? Does it answer who/what/when/where/why? You have the who (you) and the what (20 pounds), but try to add more detail, like... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 14:16:01 EST warriror mode granny is still going...come on and join me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767490 I like infused water and you make these in mason jars. You could make 2 or 3 and have them ready for when you want them. Just get the jars with the twist on lids. <BR> <link>gethealthyu.com/make-fruit-and-herb-<BR>infused-water/ </link> <BR> <BR> Today is really hot. I am glad I did some exercise this morning because our air is not working. The bad storm yesterday might have something to do with it. Last storm, it got wet and took 2 days before it came on again. I am praying that... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 16:29:14 EST warrior mode granny..on a roll. spark coach revamped my motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766155 Well this morning did 2 videos- stronger senior strength workout and linda edler zuma...total of 25 minutes so far and doing more later. I usually do my exercises in the evening but sp coach recommends doing it in the morning to jump start your day. <BR> <BR> I have only been on sp coach for 3 days and loving it...even though I have been here for a very long time. It is giving me tips, motivation and helping me stick to it....because I check in every day...it gives me focus. <BR> <BR> I h... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 16:30:19 EST senior chair exercises taught by a 99 year old...awesome http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765579 I hope I am this limber when I get to 99. I did all 3 and feel really good. <BR> I did not have a stick, ball or ring but just followed along without them. <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=6m0KjKeF_hY </link> part 1 <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=WkihmmV0Lvc </link> part 2 <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=vOBAe1iF1kE </link> part 3 <BR> <BR> I really enjoyed this...good light workout but just watching this woman was a good motivation. If she can do it....we can! <BR> ... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 16:04:02 EST today is a day when I start to listen and live. Spark is an amazing chance. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765039 I am great at giving ideas, words of motivation and , I hope, helping others. When it comes to myself, it goes in one ear and out the other. I do criticize myself every time I do not do things as they should be done. I am good at hiding myself. <BR> Today is the day when I am going to begin again. I have never really given spark a full on chance. I have played at this plan and another. I know " here I go again." I will prove myself this time. I have to stop being such a baby and liste... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 16:01:35 EST A little down today- too much death in the last two years. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763861 Went to my cancer checkup today and the receptiomist wasn't there. She is such a sweet nice person. On the wall by her desk was her picture and it said she died in a car accident in May. I only go every 6 months now. She was 52. <BR> In the last 2 years, I have lost my only 2 uncles, my best friend, 2 friends that were in the nursing home when I was there, our friend Nick that just died about a week ago and now the receptionist at the cancer center, Lori. She was there all the time I had c... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 21:39:17 EST day two.... what's going on? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763053 Well had a breaded fish square sandwich for breakfast....what' up with that? <BR> Lunch was better, baked beans ( 1 cup, not the best but better than the breaded fish and two pieces of bread) celery with peanut butter, cottage cheese and pineapple chunks. <BR> Really need to stay away from dairy but need to get rid of it. <BR> <BR> Really tired today but walking some. Need to get in that 30 min today. I am going to get it in...no excuses. 30 min is just a speck on the hours of the day. <B... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 16:56:46 EST day one, banana soft serve,blackberry, banana slim down smoothie and others http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762454 Make your own fairy tale and keep your dreams alive. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/9/l893088442.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Day 1 did pretty good. <BR> Calories <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> carbs- <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> 30 min exercise- 10 min. walking, 10 min. dancing. not quite 30. <BR> <BR> 30 min me time on computer and on t.v. more than 30 lol <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> No negatives today. <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> How did you do today? I didn't move enough and... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 21:52:23 EST I dare you! I double dog dare you! Can you handle it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761486 I dare you! I Double Dare you! Can you handle it? <BR> <BR> I am so tired of hearing the negative. I can't do it! I am not worth the time! I will just gain it back anyway. I give up! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1766070033.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is a one week challenge for everyone. If you can think and are a human...its for you! <BR> I challenge you to do this every day for 1 week. What' one week in your life... a little speck. <BR> Oh you want to kno... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 14:41:40 EST lost 7 pounds and hubby comes home tomorrow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760580 Hubby is coming home in the morning and I am so excited. I am not going to write much...surprise as I am usually long winded. Keep it up and keep it going. Never give up. You will make it! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/9/l896535098.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Even if you wish upon a star...you still have to do the work! Fri, 15 Aug 2014 23:16:52 EST Our van is possessed...or the weird experience that happened yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757108 My son in law and daughter came to get me and we were going to use our van so we could put hubbys wheelchair in it and pick him up from the nursing hone to go out and eat. He has not been eating much again, about 5 miles down the road it stopped. We were close to a golf course and coasted into their parking lot. <BR> <BR> We sat for almost an hour, trying it again and again, then letting It rest and try again. I guess the fuel pump is going out now. Anyway it started and we got probabl... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 20:42:22 EST Day four..yesterday...treat day..not cheat day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756318 Well I decided to give myself one day a week as my treat day...not calling it cheat day because it is planned. It is not a reward...even though I lost 4 pounds this week. You should never reward yourself with food because then food becomes something as a gift and that is not good thinking. <BR> <BR> So once a week whether I do good or not so good...I will have one day to eat whatever I want. I don't mean a gallon of ice cream or a whole pie...it could be one piece of pie. <BR> Yesterday w... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 12:07:04 EST day three part 2...the bean burger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755293 Got this recipe out of womens world magazine. <BR> <BR> Combine 1/4 cup chopped sunflower seeds ( didn't have any) <BR> 2 cups kidney beans ( rinsed and mashed) <BR> 1/2 cup minced onion <BR> 2 Tbs. low sodium ketchup <BR> 1 Tbs. old fashioned oats <BR> 1/2 tsp. chili powder <BR> <BR> form into 6 patties. Bake on a lightly oiled sheet at 350 for 25 min. flip, press flat, then bake another 10 min. <BR> <BR> I couldn't mash the beans so I put them in a food processor so came out a little mu... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 19:14:42 EST Day three...making it happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755108 I have planned my food for the whole day and it is in my tracker. <BR> I am going to walk three times around the trailer every hour. <BR> I am going to meditate 3 times a day. <BR> Going to take a nap at 3:oo because my mind is tired from not enough sleep <BR> <BR> I am feeling upbeat this morning, after a slow start. Woke up at 7 and was a little queasy but having trouble with constipation again, Not a good topic but we all need to listen to our bodies...so I did lol. Went back to slee... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 12:30:08 EST day two...going bananas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754618 I was so tired today.. I know it was due partly to boredom. I do need to get out more. Going to go with my mom and two aunts to play cards tomorrow. My Mom looks really bad. Her legs hurt all the time and we usually have to wake her up when it is her turn but she wants to play. My aunt and I are so scared that she is just steadily getting worse. <BR> <BR> At the family reunion she went home early and you could see the tears in her eyes. The wound clinic and the doctor don't seem to be ... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 19:35:10 EST Day one ,.. the beginning of sucess http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754375 I am a warrior in time, fighting for my life <BR> Learning from my mistakes, rising above my strife <BR> Head turning forward, never looking back <BR> Food is for energy, not a stuffing attack <BR> I am going to win this battle, no more backing down <BR> Not hurting on the inside, while smiling like a clown <BR> I am a lifestyle warrior, changing the bad habits in me. <BR> I will go forward, wait and you will see. <BR> Join me in this battle, lets make this the day <BR> We will do what we pro... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 12:31:09 EST I am a warrior...hear me roar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751056 I am a lifestyle warrior and I am out for change...with a Capital C. I am starting to eat better today even without getting groceries yet...so be a big change then. I have been in the hospital with hubby for 2 days but had to come home because they are building his ramp...so I need to move it! <BR> <BR> I will be honest though...our family reunion is Sunday and I will eat but by the time the holidays come...I will be ready. going to find new recipes, new ways and more action. <BR> <BR> I... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 12:15:04 EST Lifestyle warriors...keeping it real http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748946 I am tired of excuses...tired of the old me and tired of my lifestyle. Changed a team and am going to make every effort to take responsibility for my life. This team has weekly weigh in...monthly measurements...hunger fix way of eating or your own, Fit to live by same author and just doing instead of saying <BR> It is a new start and a new ...no more..." I'll start tomorrow because tomorrow may never come. <BR> I have restarted my life...restarted my way of eating and come to the realizat... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 12:34:44 EST I am forcing myself to look within and find the whys http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744409 Ever since I had all those health problems hit me at once..I am afraid. It is silly. It was about 4 years ago now but I limit myself instead of pushing through. I am careful about telling hubby, I am going after the mail so if I don't come back, come get me...even though he couldn't. <BR> I am so afraid of every little thing that I need to stop it. Part of my overeating is from that too. On the outside...I took it well but inside it scared the heck out of me. They must have told me severa... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 18:32:29 EST life is an adventure...live it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737856 This is a small team that I am trying to get more members and keep it going. I already lost one small team and can't bear to lose another. When you get together and get to know people and then have to drop the team...it is like losing friends. <BR> I am co-leader on two big teams and they are going strong but this little one needs a shot in the arm. <BR> <BR> I started a thread...life is a bowl of cherries...so why did I get the pits lol. The way it sounds like a pitiful, negative thread ... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 11:36:05 EST I am back to myself..I think http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5728398 The air went out yesterday and it is so hot in here even with the windows opened. Tomorrow is supposed to be even hotter. He is coming to take a look at the water heater and tell me how much to put it in so hope he will look at the air too. <BR> <BR> I do feel better today. I look at it this way, once they are fixed, 2 less things to worry about. <BR> I am playing the lottery this week lol. If I hit it rich I will fix everything at one time and pay all my families bills and if there is en... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 14:39:31 EST Again and again and again. Is life laughing at me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5728004 I am not tryig to be negative and I don't know how bad it is...but every time things work out, like getting the money to fix the water heater...something else goes wrong. What am I supposed to be learning from all this? Please tell me so I can stop going through it over and over again. <BR> the power went off for a few minutes and then back on. It started to get cold and I noticed the air was not turning off. I went and turned it off but it didn't. It kept going and no matter what we di... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 22:19:36 EST I will live my life without holding my breath, waiting for something to happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727834 I will live my life without holding my breath, waiting for something to happen <BR> I will never give up on myself or my goals <BR> I know that I am worth every minute of my starting again <BR> I will hold my spark friends in highest regards <BR> I will hold in my heart, all those who have come and gone <BR> Though I will wonder how they are and if they made it. <BR> <BR> H ope is a word that rings true in our hearts <BR> O bjects are not worth 1/10 as much as a true friend <BR> P us... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 15:48:11 EST my new hair do and tea tree shampoo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726638 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1682469525.jpg"> It doesn't look much different than before but my hair was all whacked up in lengths and they straightened it out. They moved the part to the other side and layered it for thickness. It was getting pretty thin. The other one I picked they said would make it look even thinner. <BR> I am going to get it colored probably next month....a red shade with a darker reddish brown streaks. It is awesome and they said it would give d... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 20:43:47 EST my new hair do and tea tree shampoo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726634 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1682469525.jpg"> It doesn't look much different than before but my hair was all whacked up in lengths and they straightened it out. They moved the part to the other side and layered it for thickness. It was getting pretty thin. The other one I picked they said would make it look even thinner. <BR> I am going to get it colored probably next month....a red shade with a darker reddish brown streaks. It is awesome and they said it would give d... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 20:37:19 EST my new hair do and tea tree shampoo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726632 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1682469525.jpg"> It doesn't look much different than before but my hair was all whacked up in lengths and they straightened it out. They moved the part to the other side and layered it for thickness. It was getting pretty thin. The other one I picked they said would make it look even thinner. <BR> I am going to get it colored probably next month....a red shade with a darker reddish brown streaks. It is awesome and they said it would give d... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 20:36:06 EST four letter words http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724247 There are positive four letter words too. <BR> <BR> H ave a positive day with positive words <BR> O wn your choices...you made them <BR> P ut a smile on your face and love in your heart <BR> E very day is a brand new start. <BR> <BR> Y ou can be down or you can make life fun <BR> O nly you can eat right and move that body <BR> U nderstand it is your choices you face <BR> R emember to make the right ones <BR> <BR> L ittle steps can make your life better <BR> I know that sitting all day make... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 15:38:11 EST My plan, I I LOST 2 POUNDS, going for more...it feels like the best! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5723453 What a difference a week can make. <BR> 1. I have upped my exercise min. <BR> 2. I broke the habit of jumping on the scale every morning <BR> 3. I lost 2 pounds <BR> <BR> I LOST 2 POUNDS....true they are some that I had gained...but they came off and even though I wanted to lose 4....I LOST 2! Yippee, yahoo. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1961006856.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> I am woman....Hear me roar! I can do it! I am going to post only positive today. I... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 14:44:15 EST The scale was on hold til now...vote in photo contest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5723369 I started a one week stay off the scale challenge and did good at first but then I could not stand it and got on. I lost 2 pounds. Was it from not getting on the scale and feeling the freedom or was it because I upped my exercise or a little of both. <BR> I thought I would have less stress not getting on the scale but it was the opposite. I wanted to get on and see what was going on. It was a habit. Get up, get undressed and step on the scale on the way to my shower. It was hard not just ... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 11:41:36 EST the new old...for 55+ team challenge...who you calling old? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720768 Today many men and woman are staying younger than ever before. Age is jus a number and even if you have a disability or sickness...you can still move your way. <BR> <BR> This is a spark article: It is about a senior Olympics and how many inspiarational people there were. <BR> " <BR> Later that morning we found out that Mo was battling brain cancer and her prognosis was not promising. Nevertheless, she was eager to participate in her 12th year of Senior Olympics. She won a gold medal and our... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 15:14:20 EST Exercise? Is that me...an exercise mover? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720678 We are just getting over a team on team challenge and of course there is things to learn, articles to read, fun, meditation, motivation and a fun bunch of ladies doing there best to support each other. Oops I forgot there is exercise too. <BR> <BR> I did 63 min. 2 days ago, 73 min yesterday and going for 100 min. today. The more I do the more energized and better I feel. I have arthritis but the movement makes me feel more flexible. Of course I didn't start out wih 66 min....but I got t... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 13:04:54 EST see a glimpse of the light....but darn its confusing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720038 I am surrounded by choices like a forest full of trees. Which are right for me? Darned if I know. Meat? No meat? fruits and veggies only? Gluten free? Dairy free? Oh me, oh my. <BR> I run around all day trying to do this and trying to do that. You would think I was a chicken with my head cut off. Where is my brain? <BR> I am listening to my soul but gosh it is hard to do. I am starting to see the light through the trees for exercise. I did 66 min and thought I would be so sore but I fel... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 16:44:22 EST the universe spoke to me....tut, tut, tut....today I am ready! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719215 I don't know if you get messages from the universe for the tut website but today I got my first since starting again. It is so right for today after yesterdays staring truth in the face. <BR> Here it is: <BR> " <BR> It's like, all those really good thoughts of yours, pam, that have NEVER become things, are simply gathering, mingling, and growing like compound interest, until there are just enough to burst into your life, connection to my soul to find magic in my lifes and flowers and ponies ... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 15:22:36 EST My life could be slipping away, my heart is being crushed and my lungs sufficating. Time to face th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719015 ok, I really am scared. After that dream that I am going to die in 3 or 4 weeks, I admit it prays on my mind. My daughter and sil took us out to eat after hubby got down the stairs and we both ate too much and I felt like a beached whale. <BR> I just lose and gain and every time I gain I feel it so bad. I did lose some with the hungry girl diet but put it back on and more. I have not moved my weight tracker because I just hate to keep moving it. I know I can do this! In my heart...I k... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 10:23:53 EST Fathers day hubby finally got to go out of the house and not in an ambulance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5718737 Most of you know my hubby is in a wheelchair because of the huge hole in his foot from diabetes. He can not put any pressure on it. He is also a stage 4 kidney patient . An ambulance takes him to dialysis 3 days a week and to his doctor appointments. <BR> Today my daughter and sil came over and we were outside waiting for them. My daughter was very surprised. They were going to help him down the stairs. While I was in the garage, he took his walker, walked on one whole foot and the toe... Sun, 15 Jun 2014 22:36:47 EST A breakthrough-----connected to my soul and really listening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716903 Tonight, I had just eaten but hunger for something sweet hit me. As normal, I started to go and get something. No! Plain as day, I heard this in my mind. You are not hungry you just want something you don't need right now. I stayed down and thought..." you are right...I don't need it. <BR> <BR> Then it hit me. I heard but never stopped before. There is help if I listen. I don't know if we are connected to spirit by our soul. I thought it was always by our heart but now I think it... Fri, 13 Jun 2014 01:56:58 EST What painful life issues started me to want to lose weight. challenge 55+ females http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716587 Quite a few years ago people were different and made fun of overweight people, a lot more than now. Now there are a lot more overweight people in the U.S. It is like an epidemic. <BR> When I went to school, I was overweight...not like now but enough. When I walked down the halls, people would either stare or they would out and out laugh. When you are walking down a crowded hall and really shy, the last thing you want is attention. It happened many time and I would go home and cry. My s... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 15:04:50 EST soul and day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715939 Ok soul didn't make it all day but did a pretty good job. I did have small pizza with just sauce, cheese and green onions. I know that cheese and sauce and of course the crust are not veggies or fruit. I think I am probably going to go back to Just eating fish for meat but throw in plenty of fruit and veggies. I did that for almost 2 years. I also ate bread but I eat hungry girl foldout flatbread which is really good and only 100 calories for the whole sandwich, not counting the filling ... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 17:23:06 EST A little daily motivation---55+females team challenge post http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715937 <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=R9I5V5A23HY </link> tragedy that made one woman start losing. <BR> <BR> I remember my Mom being overweight and I was embarrassed. I am ashamed now, but when I was younger, It bothered me. I didn't want her to die but I also didn't want others to think bad of her. Now I am that Mom and Grandmom. My daughter is 43 and overweight too and I think maybe I made her that way. She was so tiny when she was young and even as a teen. She wore a size 1 when she was 16 b... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 17:13:33 EST fruits and veggies day one...help and Patrick too? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715241 I did good most of the day but did eat pancakes tonight which reminds me I have to change my food tracker because I didn't eat some of the food either. <BR> <BR> It is so hard not to grab a piece of hg foldout flat bread or a piece of meat. Except for the pancakes I did good. I was going to quit but read some of your comments that said it is hard at first but easier as you go and I did promise my soul. <BR> <BR> Dear Soul: <BR> You had better be right about my feeling better because this ... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 20:35:44 EST