HAWTGRANNY2014's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HAWTGRANNY2014 HAWTGRANNY2014's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ trying to find the hippie side of me and making choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5951802 Did you ever feel like you are just now learning what it feels like to listen to a freer, more relaxed side of life, without worrying about what is coming tomorrow? I was feeling lost this last few years of health problems and hubby problems and wondering where to get the money to pay all these bills? <BR> Well I have been thinking...you can only do what you can and pay what you can. Your health is not worth tearing down by all these worries. You can only do what you can and money can only... Sat, 27 Jun 2015 12:42:42 EST doing tai chi in the sharing the journey team http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5950950 we started learning about and doing tai chi just today in the " Sharing the journey" team. <BR> If you are interested in checking it out go to <link>www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/team_mes<BR>sageboard_thread.asp?board=27086x61293<BR>x61850131 </link> hope you give us a peek. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c17d7c76-b2fb-4c1c-9243-d46542e575c9.jpg"> Thu, 25 Jun 2015 18:08:27 EST Inspiring video, I cried and Get up and Move it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5950817 I started back on my protein shakes today now that I am taking Magnesium. It does help my constipation but there are also warnings, so if you do it, make sure you read the warnings and talk to your doctor. The shakes do fill me up better. <BR> <BR> I also started a 30 day , small changes from spark challenge central. Never even noticed this before but there are all kinds of challenges and you can do them at your own rate. Looks like a good plan but did not read through it so each day wil... Thu, 25 Jun 2015 12:05:54 EST I don't know what it is but I want to feel this way forever http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5947789 It seems like a fog lifted this morning and I have taken a fresh breath of air that is filled with dreams and hopes. I feel like a weight has been lifted and I could float above the clouds and find myself in Oz. I don't know what it si but I want to feel this way forever. <BR> <BR> Remember that song " He ain't heavy, he's my brother." I wish all of us could just treat each <BR> other like family without sibling rivalry lol. The movie delivery man held that message and more. Even thoug... Fri, 19 Jun 2015 14:12:05 EST chained to the toilet...rated R for seniors http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5947719 I am listening to the gentle lulling of a buzz saw. They are cutting up the almost half a tree that fell and then , not sure when, the landlord is getting the rest of the tree cut down. Hopefully soon because there is another big branch just hanging up there and it looks like more rain, hopefully without that severe wind. <BR> <BR> I started magnesium last night to hopefully control constipation. They say it takes a few days so the waiting begins, Call this the days of constipation. Good dr... Fri, 19 Jun 2015 11:12:04 EST Big wind, half a tree gone almost. Hit a little of the house next door http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5947347 Wind so strong , the rain was going sideways and I heard something hit the house. I got up and saw a kind of big branch in the front yard and thought that was what it was. It is what hit the house but I thought that was all.....Psych...the tree in the back yard, part of it split and 3 giant branches and part of the tree is between this house and the one next door. Most if it is in our yard but the top of the tree hit the gutter on the house next door. It just missed my grandson's grill. ... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 17:32:14 EST I have to get up! I have to move on! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5946380 Well I guess I am starting a new chapter in my life that I don't have a choice about...a widow. <BR> What a strange word...almost like window. I have to wipe off the fog and see where it leads me. I sometimes feel lost but not helpless. <BR> We can do this . We can jump start our day just like we can jump start our weight loss. I believe in you. I know you can do it and so can I...but how long are we going to drag along. We need new purpose and new energy. Do we have it in us? You... Tue, 16 Jun 2015 23:22:17 EST love this...Plus new chapter in my life. I am going for it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5946361 The Mayonnaise Jar <BR> <BR> When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day is not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and two cups of coffee. <BR> <BR> A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. <BR> <BR> When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and fills it with golf balls. <BR> <BR> He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. <BR> <B... Tue, 16 Jun 2015 22:53:28 EST My clothes fit better and day 2 of the challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5945572 My clothes do feel loser but don't have my scale here yet to weigh in, Crossing my fingers. <BR> Those protein shakes had better be doing something. <BR> <BR> Day two challenge. did my chair salsa, doing the denise Austin funk dance after writing this. We have to tell how we feel starting this challenge so we can tell how we feel at the tend of 2 weeks. <BR> <BR> Well I feel good because I have done these before. We do about 4 a year on the 55+female team. I am a little bit nervous abou... Mon, 15 Jun 2015 12:45:27 EST Day one of team on team challenge and 2nd week of protein shakes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5945043 Today started are first day of team on team challenge in 55+female team and I have done my exercises, eaten one meatless meal and did my positive posting on my teams pages. <BR> Usually Sunday is a free day but didn't realize it when I put the date down. I do these about 4 times a year and we have all kinds of fun. <BR> This is the exercise for today... for example. <BR> lfun exercise for seniors- 50 points <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> lfun exercise for seniors- 50 points <BR> <BR> <link> ww... Sun, 14 Jun 2015 14:48:32 EST Just a thank you, again, I can't say enough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5940994 Just want to tell you all , again, just how much you all mean to me. I was comforted by your prayers, your kind words, and how much you all showed you cared. I will never be able to say this enough, but you are like a second family. Hugs to you all. Pam Sun, 7 Jun 2015 01:10:41 EST Take your life back and do it now! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5939080 I have to say that it is not easy to keep going. It is less work to just sit and watch t.v. or get on the computer and mess around all day. We think there is so much time to work on our health but there isn't. Each and every day you have to move your body or it becomes , like an old machine without oil and use, rusty and unhealthy. <BR> <BR> You say it is too late. You have been this way all your life. Well it is not too late. I am in that position now. My back hurts. I have a bad knee and... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 13:10:13 EST The little team with heart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5937030 I know how hard you are all trying and I really appreciate it because I want us all to succeed. When you see someone struggling..just a kind word or message on their page can mean so much to them. Theu say words can never hurt you but whoever wrote that must have been hard hearted or just didn't care. <BR> Words can go straight to the heart and sink in to your very soul, so please watch what you say and stop and think before you say it. Just one nice word can put a smile on someones face an... Sat, 30 May 2015 23:49:31 EST His last breath http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5933867 He picked his day. We were going to take him off the ventilator on May 18th and I don't know if I could and would have felt guilty for the rest of my life. He did things his way and always had. <BR> He lay there for weeks just staring here and there , so he looked normal but he didn't talk or respond and I know he was already gone. It hurt to look at him and know he didn't know me or see me but was in his own little world , except for that one day when he turned his head to Lisa and then... Mon, 25 May 2015 08:57:01 EST his eyeas are open http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919850 he is doing better today. lisa said hi dad and he turned his head and looked at her. I called his name and he looked at me. he didn't say anything but he turned his head and looked right at each of us. sorry I have not been on in awhile. I didn't know if I can sleep on the pull out cot but will find some way. <BR> Rml is very nice. I don't know what those other people were talking about and the nurses are awesome. the building is in very good condition. Outside is really nice and there are b... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 20:04:27 EST to all my friends and spark family http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5912126 I feel as if you are all my extended family and I truly appreciate each and every one of you. I am sorry I can't thank you all personally. You each are special and your words help to ease my stress and worry. Of course I still do worry but you help me to feel not alone. Thanks and God bless you all. Pam Thu, 16 Apr 2015 01:43:02 EST still not awake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5911934 He is still not awake but his trake came out about three or four times so they ordered a specially made one but it won't come in for about 3 weeks and that is when we are having another doctor conference to see if he is any better or not. He was sent to rml for weaning off the ventilator but they sent him back in one day because they said he was leaking from the bowels. So we are back in the university of Chicago. <BR> They fixed whatever was wrong. They said they thought it was an air le... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 18:59:43 EST going home for 3 or 4 days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902255 I have to go home for a few days. I am so tired and need a break. I don't have internet at home right now so probably won't update until I get back to the hospital. Going to stay at intervals of 7 days then home for 3 or 4 or I will be sick. <BR> Broke down again this morning because his thumb is black now and they are tying to save it. How much more can they cut off! I feel like I am losing him, one cut at a time. <BR> You can see how much I need to leave for a few days but also scared ... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 11:13:16 EST Starting today to eat better, don't want to have all this happen to me and update on hubby http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5901881 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1757711377.jpg"> <BR> These are substitutes for sugar. Diabetes is what started a lot of what is happening to Jack right now. He has lost both legs. <BR> Eating wrong is part of what started the infection in his heart that had to be rebuilt. I pray that this does not happen to any of you or me and that we listen to the message and eat right. He also didn't exercise so his circulation is bad. He drove everywhere and didn't walk much. I ... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 20:08:40 EST big scare today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5901319 His blood pressure dropped really low and his blood sugar dropped to 30. Three doctors came in. They put him back on the ventilator and everything stablelised. the nurse explained to me that they took him off the ventilator too soon. Tonight he is back to still being quiet and sleeping but at least he is back to normal pressure and blood sugar. I was so scared that he wouldn't make it. <BR> <BR> I have been so cold that I was afraid I was coming down with the pneumonia that he has again.... Sat, 28 Mar 2015 19:13:22 EST Another set back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5901082 Now he has pneumonia again. I don't know how much more he has to suffer. <BR> Still not responding and sleeping most of the time. He does open his eyes a little longer but less times a day. <BR> I spent the day on the computer because I ran out of my books. Anything to take my mind off of everything for a few minutes. They are doing everything to find out why he is not awakening mentally and I am afraid, he might never. <BR> I appreciate all of your prayers and wishes and sorry I am n... Sat, 28 Mar 2015 09:41:40 EST he opened his eyes and squeezed my finger today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5899698 Two good steps. He opened his eyes a lot...he didn't keep them open but he did open them wide. He also squeezed my finger. He still has to have the trachea but they say he will still be able to talk just not as loud. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2062097539.jpg"> maybe his guardian Angel is with him <BR> Wed, 25 Mar 2015 21:53:50 EST doing the trachea http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5899526 Doctor said it would be needed because if he can't follow commands, he won't cough up the stuff in his throat and that would lead to pneumonia. Then he would have even more problems. Thing is he won't be able to talk and I think he is finally saying a word, hi. <BR> It is temporary and will be taken out as soon as he responds to commands. <BR> He is also getting a feeding tube put in his side of stomach and they will be able to take the one out of his nose. That should feel better , at lea... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 15:26:23 EST another down day....sometimes I think it would have been better if he had just taken the 3 to 5 mont http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897088 He was taken off sedation and the breathing tube this morning and still not out of it. He just pulls on the restraints and doesn't respond to commands or mu voice. He opens his eyes but I don't think he sees anything. He does not talk or even seem to know I am there. <BR> He is coughing off and on to the extent of throwing up. After the pacemaker was pit in, he seems like he is not here again. <BR> They, too , are worried about his mental state and might have a newurologist see him. He w... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 16:39:04 EST pacemaker today and getting back my hope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5896497 I think I have found a little peace today. He slept very good last night but was also on sedation medicine. I asked myself why he has endured so much and I know we make our bodies either healthy with good food and movement. It is hard, however to watch a loving man have so much pain and slowly have to remove so much of his body, much because of diabetes and years of not taking care of himself. I too have done that and it is why I had 2 cancers. <BR> I asked the doctor after this surgery, ... Fri, 20 Mar 2015 12:42:52 EST The nightmare continues and I can't take much more http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895493 they are amputating his other leg tomorrow. How much pain can he take? Wed, 18 Mar 2015 20:37:43 EST The nightmare never ends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895239 one step forward and one step back. Yesterday he knew us and today he doesn't who he is either. He just thrashes his arms and body around and sometimes cries and sometimes just yells ohhhh like he is hurting. when you ask him if it hurts he says no. They are going to try a pain doctor because they can't keep giving him pain medicine because of his heart. Tey did take off he breathing tube so a step in the right direction but I try not to cry. I go in the bathroom. He doesn't really loo... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 12:26:44 EST major heart reconstruction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892359 Hubby had surgery yesterday. Three valves of his heart was destroyed by i nfection. There was more damage too and they had to reconstruct it the surgery took a long time and then about six hours to stop tje bleeding. They started at 10 am and didnt stop until about 12 am. He is on a breathing tube and not awake. I am doing this on the phone so wont be on much. Please say a prayer to bring him back to me Fri, 13 Mar 2015 15:42:41 EST My heart is crying and I can't do one thing about it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886541 They are doing what they can for hubby...all kinds of tests but he is weak and only eats about 3 bites a meal. They gave him something to make him hungry but not working. He just lays there all day sleeping and moving his hands off and on in the air like he is doing something. When he wakes up you don't know what to expect. <BR> <BR> Last night was a bad one. He said he had a nail gun up his sleeve and wanted me to get it out. I told him it was not a nail gun but a heart monitor and he k... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 22:56:51 EST The new me and a yearning to get there and create a new life. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885174 What's in a life? Do we ever really take time to focus on who we are and what we need? Not what we want because it is seldom what we need. You know I lost my Mom last week and now my husband is really shocking me. He went from doing so much to not being able to do in just about a week. I don't understand but it makes me worry about how short life is. You can be just fine one day and your strength is snatched away the next. <BR> <BR> Life take a lot of work...yet some work so much...are... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 23:35:50 EST Are you listening? Changing into a new you. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5883891 Wow I just realized that I need to make a new me. I have been just on the brink of things. I listen to my body but most of the time ignore it because I want the foods , it says," Do not eat or eat in a small portion as on occasional treat." Oh I don't want to completely shut the door on me but I want to listen to the inside, and not grab that yummy sweet treat every day. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1037375283.jpg"> My body says you can but at the speed o... Fri, 27 Feb 2015 18:42:06 EST messages, internet and hubby in hospital again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882722 Mom has not been gone long but I miss her so much. I grabbed the phone yesterday to tell her Jack was in the hospital then realized she isn't here. <BR> My hubby is in the hospital; again. I am there with him so as long as he is here we will have the internet. We need to get a new internet. Ours is not working very well. They are not sure but might put in a pacemaker. His heart was all over the place they said/ They are going to do an angiagram first. He also has a little pneumonia.... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 20:44:27 EST messages, internet and hubby in hospital again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882720 Mom has not been gone long but I miss her so much. I grabbed the phone yesterday to tell her Jack was in the hospital then realized she isn't here. <BR> My hubby is in the hospital; again. I am there with him so as long as he is here we will have the internet. We need to get a new internet. Ours is not working very well. They are not sure but might put in a pacemaker. His heart was all over the place they said/ They are going to do an angiagram first. He also has a little pneumonia.... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 20:44:10 EST Thank you all for being special friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878338 I have received so many messages, goodies and sp mail, I just want to thank you all. It meant a lot. I don't know what to say right now except thank you. I love you all. I am not very focused on anything except tomorrow and the funeral Friday. I just can't seem to think right now so again thank you very much. Pam Wed, 18 Feb 2015 20:05:27 EST Lost my Mom today and didn't even get to tell her goodbye http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5877055 My Mom went to the er 11 pm last night but call mno one called me til 5 this morning. Jack went to the er at 10 pm. He got a shot..has arthritis. My mom had gangrene in her bowels . We didn't get to see her...nurse said she would call us when she had Mom settled and never did. My daughter and one Aunt went to see why while I waited with my other aunt to get out of bathroom. my daughter and my aunt came in crying and upset. they called a code blue because my Mom was choking. My daughte... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 21:45:51 EST Day 6 love yourself and shine. What an adventure life is. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5875722 H ope you all have the best day filled with love <BR> A nd kindness, so that we will remember to shine. <BR> P arty everyday by celebrating the good things <BR> P erhaps with the people who love us the most. <BR> Y ou are a special, one of a kind person <BR> <BR> V alue yourself with love and kindness <BR> A lways be who you are...not who others want you to be. <BR> L ove yourself as you would love others <BR> E very day is a new day to shine and follow the adventure <BR> N ever pas... Sat, 14 Feb 2015 16:07:06 EST Day 4- learning new things...looking forward to a new life ...thank God for spark and the spark guy. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874585 I am trying to focus and find where this adventure will lead me. I joined the gastric sleeve team and the people on there are awesome. Thank God for Spark, its tools and teams for every situation. If it was not here, I would never have met my friends and the friend who led me to this team. <BR> <BR> I have been looking forward to each day and where it will lead me to new things and learning. I am doing meditation again as you know from previous blogs. I have a new positive outlook on my l... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 14:43:36 EST day 3A new ritual to start the morning and funny how one thing leads to another http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873221 I meditated last night and it was better than the day before. I did ohm instead of counting. It was easier but still a long way to go <BR> <BR> I found this today and it sounds good. I did do the fire breathing and it was nice. Going to start my day off with this tomorrow and see where it goes. I have been wanting to get back to learning. I had a team but it didn't get very far last year called the lightworkers. I wanted to explore new things and ways to help the earth and it people. ... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 13:05:37 EST Day two...As I was told not given the 21 day fix a fair trial http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5872840 Ok tomorrow I am going to start on day one of the 21 day fix and keep going until the 21 days are over. Did buy some fruit and veggies but didn't know I was going to start it again until tonight. so still need some other things. Until I can get them going to do the closest I can. Oh boy, here we go again. I feel like I am on a tilt a whirl and my head is spinning. How about you? Tired of hearing me say the same old, same ole. My granddaughter used to say that lol. <BR> You don't know... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 22:42:22 EST Sharing my journey good or bad...I need to let it out. Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871879 Writing or blogging helps me by letting it go. Once I write it down, I feel better and maybe <BR> reading it will help those who are feeling this know they are not alone. <BR> The other blog I wrote today helped me by telling it to someone and I appreciate those who want to read it. somedays may be positive and some negative but I was crying as I wrote it and let it out. I know some of you may find it repetitive because sometimes it is. I change my mind faster than a bolt of lightening in... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 14:01:54 EST If anyone had the stomach sleeve operation please let me know http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871863 I am still thinking of doing the operation. My fall just reminded me of what a mess I am. <BR> It is so embarrassing to have to call an ambulance just to pick you up. I sometimes feel like I can't breathe anymore just to get up and then I get the spark to do again for awhile. Does anyone feel this hopelessness like you will never achieve success and always be stuck in this body. Sometimes I get that hope and feel positive only fall or face another illness and just wish you could start ov... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 13:35:10 EST Over and over again, I have said my slippers will kill me and today they tried. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871316 Well today I had a fall. My slippers don't have backs ...are old...and I have said over and over again.." Someday these things will kill me." Well today they tried. I have walked right out of them many times. I have stepped backward and they fell off. I have stepped on the back and almost fallen. Well today as I went to turn around, I stepped on the one and fell flat on my back. To make matters worse I hit my head on a metal rod from hubby's clothes wardrobe. <BR> It was not a gracefu... Sat, 7 Feb 2015 14:56:28 EST A snow funk and lost 4 inches but what about pounds? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870881 If it snows again, supposed to next week, I may just scream. I am tired of all this white stuff. It is like the clouds have dandruff and are washing it out by throwing it at us. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l350980691.jpg"> <BR> <BR> No more! Enough is enough..for heavens sake. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/5/l85953120.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I lost 2 pounds but I am on a gain lose, gain, lose cycle and have been forever. Can't those pound... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 19:56:59 EST I am finding the positive to squash the negative inside SparkPeople are strong. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5866918 I have made so many excuses due to all that happened to us in 2014. <BR> well it is time to squash out that negative year and find the beauty around us and the magic inside of us. If we think about the negative...it will surround us and wrap us in misery and depression. Who needs that? <BR> Yes I will fail, time and again. Thing is to keep trying. Find that positive within....hold on to it and let it shine brighter and brighter letting it carry us to that spot within that shines brightly. ... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 05:28:28 EST stomach sleeve operation or keep on trying? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863883 My daughter and sil are going to do the stomach sleeve operation. I am thinking about it but think I have myself almost talked out of it. I have a lot of scar tissue and they say that increases the risks. I sure would like to lose fast but one of the risks is also death and I don't think I want to take that chance. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I have tried a lot of diets, pills ( when I was younger) and other things. When I was young they had one that you swallowed cotton balls and it would ... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 16:05:15 EST Getting back my feet and energy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855228 Well today is day 2 of blc. I did 30 min. of exercise today. It seemed like it wore me up. I have done many times 60 min. of exercise but that was before I got lazy and didn't really have time or room. Trying to get my feet and energy back because right now, I am pooped. <BR> I will get there though... One day at a time. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/1/l919869241.jpg"> I like my nap. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1771565... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 18:32:57 EST last set of pictures for team icon on sharing the journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852636 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1606653720.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1185989548.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1528087452.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1421904929.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1272552616.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2144921983.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http:/... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 11:44:08 EST new team icon on sharing the journey? Which one? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851907 These were all on free to use on your website. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l196854747.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1817446927.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1864993804.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1117176751.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> or leave the butterfly <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l462877390.jpg"> <BR> ... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 15:18:42 EST Lets make a change today both for ourselves and our children http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851854 America is full of overweight people. We need to change this. Our future generations are being passed on this habit by there parents and grandparent. We try to make our children happy with fast food and sugary treats. Are we making them happy or feeding our own habits which they pass on to their children and grandchildren. How are we taking care of them? Making them sick and getting diseases like diabetes. <BR> I have been overweight my whole life and I have had diabetes, 2 cancers and ... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 14:13:18 EST took me 30 years to lose 70 pounds. Used to look like this. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842031 lWhen we lived In San Antonio Texas, 39 years ago, I looked like this. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l161719644.jpg"> I weighed 340 pounds, which was 70 pounds heavier and the most I have ever weighed in my life. Look at my face! <BR> This is me now, 70 pounds lighter. It took me 30 years to lose those 70 pounds! That is a long time. <BR> this is me now. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/4/l847944892.jpg"> <BR> Still big but a lot thinner face. I w... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 13:36:04 EST