HAWTGRANNY2014's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HAWTGRANNY2014 HAWTGRANNY2014's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ am I improving since last year? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677488 This is a blog for 55+females team challenge. Am I stronger, healthier or have more energy etc. than last year? <BR> I was doing really good until I had computer trouble and hubby went into the hospital, started dialysis and is now in a nursing home after having foot surgery. <BR> Well I think I am stronger in a way. Without all the things I endured in the last 3 years and without my spark friends, I probably would have pulled my hair out. <BR> I am better at handling stress. I think you ge... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 23:23:39 EST Magic and miracles...learning together http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673827 I changed an old team into a new one. I have revamped the threads and looked into thingsd to put on it. I hope you will join us. <BR> <BR> I have always felt that there was magic and miracles in the air. We are miracles ourselves and need to recognise what a beautiful creation we are. We are all so special and different and that makes the world less boring. But what about the inside? It is so important to help others and it is important to take care of ourselves too. We can't help oth... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 19:49:09 EST Cadbury eggs, a lament to a dear friend. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667721 Time again for that crazy rabbit to fill our baskets with all kinds of fattening goodies. <BR> I say we make that rabbit eat them himself....well maybe just one Cadbury egg for me...Just kidding. <BR> I know that I will eat something good but it is a holiday and they are made for fun. Of course Easter is more than that. It is a day of miracles. It is a day of joy! We need to remember that above all else. It is a day for families to get together and enjoy. Jesus died to save us from our s... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 21:41:31 EST Out of the hospital and off to see the wizard http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665219 I was in the hospital day and night with hubby. His kidney function when down to 10 so now he is on dialysis and fighting 3 kinds of bacteria in his blood. He had dialysis twice and his kidneys have gone up again....20! I feel like the wizard waved his wand and hubby got better. He is eating again and his color is good and he has some energy for the first time in a long time. <BR> I feel as if the wizard of Oz dropped back down in kansas and gave me the ruby slippers. Bad thing is I ga... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 19:08:10 EST today I am riding a high and kicked a habit to the curb! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656973 I have been trying to break the habit of eating after 7 for such a long time. <BR> At night I would sit, grab some munchies and watch t.v. Didn't get the good stuff like carrot and celery, not even popcorn but the bad stuff...high calorie foods, frozen pizza, sandwiches anything that I didn't eat during the day. I did good during the day, then crashed it by stuffing my mouth at night. I didn't really pay attention because I was in the throws of a good action movie or series. Oh I had good ... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 11:43:44 EST Let me out! Its dark in here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654557 I know inside there is a butterfly and she wants to fly! I feel like a caterpillar, crawling on the ground and never getting very far. Then slowly learning, but going backwards, I encased myself in that safe, dark cocoon, but now I want out. I want to transform into a beautiful butterfly and leave the darkness to soar high. I know I am a miracle but I feel as if I am not done. I need that freedom of taking the weight off my body. <BR> Too many times I have cried because I was afraid that... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 12:03:54 EST The odd life of Timothy Green ,a message of hope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654167 Wow. I just saw the odd life of Timothy Green. Odd little concept of a boy coming out of a box of messages buried in a garden. Strange vision and one that could not happen. Who knows? Who says it is impossible? the thing is it takes your heart with it. I cheered with all the triumphs. I wanted to tell some people off lol, and then I cried at the end. <BR> It is a movie with a message, many messages really. It gives you hope that if you really want something bad enough you can make it come tr... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 21:11:38 EST HELP I am being lured into Wonderland http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653120 Have you been to Wonderland? It is the place where you wonder if this diet or that diet will make you lose fast. <BR> I had made it out of that mind boggling place but the four months that I was gone here, I lost support and all the stress of hubbys health issues led me back to emotional eating. Now that I am back, I almost let the white rabbit drag me back to Wonderland by reading about a supposed miracle diet where some lost 73 or more pounds in four months. Oh my mind said it is too goo... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 10:24:04 EST Should i hide in a hidey hole? Are you? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651724 Wow. I have had so many ups and downs. when I was gone for the 3 years of health problems including 2 cancers...I lost 90 pounds and then I gained over 60 pounds back and then some more before i came back. Then I lost again pounds and inches..then my computer caught a deadly virus and I was off for four months. Now I am back and am a little embarrased that others have kept on going and I went the wrong way. Should hide in a hidey hole? No. I think my experience may help another who is st... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 16:06:36 EST One day I will succeed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651128 I say you can do it. You can succeed if you put your mind to it! <BR> I say that I have been up and down again so many times that I have somehow lost faith in myself and my journey. <BR> Oh brother do you think no one ever had the problems you are having. You just sit there and stuff food into your mouth and say "woe is me. there are many that have much worse problems. <BR> I know but...... <BR> No buts! No excuses! No psycho babble. No going from one thing too another like a chicken wit... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 21:56:45 EST You can have your apple...I want my hp back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650005 Well this is an old girl to be fair...and she does get me on the internet and back to spark. The only thing is she gets hot easy and crackles if on too long. I guess she is tired. She is and iBookG64. I have never had an apple and people swear she is the best. Maybe if I wasn't used to a pc...I would like her better. She cuts off a lot if I do searches and I can't seem to figure out how to copy a picture and add it to my sp page. On my pc, I just right clicked. I have tried to copy th... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 13:48:00 EST Here I am again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5648114 Well I am back and I am so excited. It has been quite a few months since my computer crashed.. Even my hard drive was wiped out. He is replacing that now but my mil send hubby an old apple and now I can get back on the internet. It is like opening a present on Christmas day. I am still trying to figure this computer out. It is now like my hp. My page may not get new pictures for awhile lol. <BR> I have gained back 11 pounds with my emotional eating and we are looking at another surgery... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 00:38:37 EST I am a tired granny who needs to move it!What is wrong with me today? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5540330 Wow where did my energy go? Feel like I have not slept in days. I have not been exercising like I should. I have not wanted to do anything but try to stay awake. I took a nap and that made me more tired. today is cold...38...but nothing new for November. <BR> I have lost a little motivation and it is scary. When you start losing it, you need to get it back right away. Otherwise it grows and you don't get up and do it. I don't know if I am coming down with something but I just don't feel... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 16:48:46 EST crazy photo split team challenge in the 55+ ladies team http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5536899 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l949036343.jpg"> I just saw the turkey and I don't eat meat. What do I do? Yuck! <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1426499617.jpg"> I ate some of the mushroom dressing and it was bitter! Oh no what comes next? <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/2/l529525195.jpg"> The pumpkin pie looks like brown slush with a hole in the middle. How do I tell her it isn't done? <BR> <B... Sat, 9 Nov 2013 22:04:19 EST To all my spark friends: you are all angels http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533837 Yesterday was bad and I almost quit everything until all of you intervened. You are my spark angels. Because of all of you, I got away from the computer before I did something stupid. <BR> Today , of course is a new day and I got some sleep last night...not a lot...but more than I have getting. I am ready, well almost, to face what the kidney doctor has to say today. TCI decided to give my husband another 30 days of supplies, a week at a time, so that helps. <BR> A lady , on freecycle, is... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 11:07:37 EST I feel like I am just crashing. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533279 I am so tired and eating crazy the last two days and so scared..Trying to stay positive and keep on pushing but tonight, I just feel like I am crashing. Oh I will be fine in the morning. It is what I do best, start over. <BR> My hubby's foot ulcer is not healing. His body is swelling and even double water pills are not helping. The wound clinic doctor made us stay there until he called our reg doctor and I think he wanted to put him in the hospital but instead our reg. doctor wants to see ... Tue, 5 Nov 2013 20:37:16 EST Pushed in the right direction and by whom. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5532116 When I was younger our family lived with my Grandma and Grandpa. My gram was like a second mother to me. She made me feel good about myself even though I was overweight, even then. I was outgoing in some ways and very shy in others. I was outgoing with my friends and family but as I grew and gained, I became very shy and almost crawling back into a shell by high school. Some people were bullies back then, maybe not the kind they have today but the ones that made fun of you. <BR> I remem... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 16:07:00 EST Burned out, thinking of leaving spark, giving up on yourself? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5525952 I keep saying listen to your body. I have been craving meat after not eating it for a year and a half....except for seafood. It got so strong that I decided to give it a try. At lunch I was fine with a turkey sandwich but that is before I asked my stomach at dinner if I should not eat meat then let me throw up. I ate the meat and almost immediately I got chest pains and throbbing so I grabbed my nitro and put it beside me and took a couple of aspirin. It was hurting really bad and for a co... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 21:01:38 EST Be true to yourself and if you don't know who that is then introduce yourself and find out.and othe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5524952 Spark people is more than just a diet site. It has helped many to find themselves and meet others who would not make it had they not had their help. <BR> Our journey is not all about food or health of the body but of the mind too. We sabotage ourselves saying I just can't make it. I want to eat all those unhealthy foods. I need them. I crave them. I know I do the same thing. I am so determined until boom something hits me and I just cave in. I don't do that like I used to and am getting ... Sun, 27 Oct 2013 21:04:18 EST Had a long talk with myself and found out I am not so bad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5520403 Pam, you know you are different than a lot of people. You have tried a lot of things...some even a little kooky...but the way you are now...about average. You need to get off this weight for your health but don't let it stress you out. As long as you know you are trying, it doesn't make any difference what others think. Oh I know you would like everyone to think that you are awesome but it is even more important what you think. As far as caring..you have a heap of that. You don't eat righ... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 13:28:05 EST Can we rewrite our life and find our strength to succeed? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5518530 Can we rewrite our lives? Is it so easy that we only have to say it..to believe it...and make it so? <BR> In the book Simon says one kiss on the cheek from a woman he helped made him get outside more and stop feeling sorry for himself. One kiss did all that? <BR> Can we find that moment, that thought and change our lives? <BR> I started a weekly challenge in my the miracle that you are and you can succeed team. <BR> It is simple. <BR> Take 3 or 4 thoughts, write them on a card and say them ... Sun, 20 Oct 2013 13:17:20 EST The Greatest miracle in the world" the small book with a big message. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517896 How , who or why I was led to this book, I don't remember . All I know was that I was led to it. I needed it and its message. I am only on the second chapter and it speaks to my soul. <BR> A miracle happens every day, many times over. People are brought back to life by meeting someone, by reading a book, by using their minds. Many of us go through the day as if dead. We go through the same motions, the same programmed thinking, the same hidden agendas and don't know or see what is there... Sat, 19 Oct 2013 16:51:44 EST Our journey to better health is not something you need a rocket scientist to figure out. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5516112 I have been thinking a lot lately...about life in general and why we do the things we do. What makes some succeed while others just plod along slowly? why do we go so good one minute and then slip the next? Are we making it too hard? <BR> <BR> You know I think sometimes we overanalyze things. Our journey to better health is not something we need a rocket scientist to figure out. It should be personal and a learning experience but it should not stress us out or make us go bonkers. <BR> <B... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 13:09:32 EST Find your why! Take back your life! Let loose the warrior in your heart! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5515217 Watching the biggest loser was like feeling a voice inside me shouting! I did gain 4 pounds and I won't lie, it hurts. Am I mad at the food? No I am mad at myself but I am going to take that anger and let out the warrior in my heart. It was said by a contest last night. He has a tattoo over his heart to remind him of the warrior in his heart. We all have that inner strength to call on. We just have to access it and call on it when we are stressed and when we mean it. <BR> I let my gua... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 13:26:31 EST I am scared for the first time this month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5514746 I face the scale tomorrow and know it is going to be a gain. I have done horrible all week. I have don't good exercising except once or twice, I met 100 min. We have been stressed out with money issues but then so has half the country. I had to borrow money to get medicine, with the government the way it is right now who knows if he will get his next disability check. There are other things but I won't bore you. I am sure you have problems of your own. <BR> I thought I had it in my hea... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 23:37:43 EST Down the rabbit hole, strange creatures and thoughts for the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513353 Just yesterday most of the trees were green but today they are changing in color. this time of year is so full of colors. Fall is winding down after the jolt of a jumping summer...things to do, games to go too and people to meet with. Now it is time to relax and get ready for Old man winter to move in. <BR> Just don't let that lethargic feeling stop you from moving. Don't get stuck in a hum drum attitude and think that the weight you took off won't come back because it will. And believe m... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 15:06:54 EST The miracle that you are and you can suceed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5512348 <link>www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i<BR>ndividual.asp?gid=61293 </link> <BR> <BR> Have you decided that you are a miracle yet? Do you see the amazing person that you are? <BR> You can do anything if you believe in yourself. You are a strong human being and no matter your sex, religion, or nationality, you are special. There is no one like you . Life has helped to shape you but it you can change that. You can make you over or you can accept the good things you like and change t... Sun, 13 Oct 2013 13:33:05 EST Miracles are really there ..so grab one for yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5509500 Did you ever stop and think what a miracle this world is? I look at a tree and see that it started from a little seed that grew into a scrawny little trunk, that grew little branches and sprouted leaves. Then it grew larger, rounder and stronger. <BR> You started as a seed that grew in a protective womb and then you grew and when you were ready to face the world you emerged...unafraid and wailing for care and hunger. As you grew you were taught by the words of your parents and the people a... Thu, 10 Oct 2013 03:27:53 EST the craving monster and how to beat him. my earn it plan. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5509135 Many times I have wanted chocolate so bad that I turned into a raving, craving monster. I just wanted it so bad that I thought I would cry. <BR> My eyes would get huge , round and black. My teeth would multiply so I could eat it faster. I looked like a big craving monster. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1615964184.jpg"> Yeah that's me if I don't get that chocolate. Not a pretty sight. <BR> <BR> How do I defeat him and get back to normal. I eat a piec... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 16:34:49 EST Neverland is a place where all hope is lost. How deep are you in the forest? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5508216 Do you sometimes feel like the walls are closing in and food is coming at you from all sides? <BR> Do you feel like you should just give up because you have tried and failed so many times? <BR> Do you eat the wrong foods and then feel that you might as well just eat whatever and try again tomorrow? <BR> you are stuck in neverland. It is the place where some go to just give up. You may be tired of exercising, tired of eating portions instead of eating what you want. <BR> Food is not your ene... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 17:50:26 EST Do you want to see what's on the other side of the forrest or stay in never, never land http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5506583 We all make choices every day. The thing is we don't always know where they will lead us. <BR> It is like being lost in a forrest of trees. We can stay stuck there or we can fight our way through the forrest and see what's on the other side. It is like being in never land. Never knowing how good it can feel to be healthy. Never knowing how it would feel to go in a store and buy clothes off the rack without fearing it won't fit. Never feeling that rush of being able to run like the wind or ... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 03:39:03 EST Self esteem ...who has it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5506479 I think most people have some insecurity problems but when you think of it, we are miracles. We were babies who grew up and became what we are. We are special. It is a miracle that are heart beats and that we can walk and talk and learn. We do so many things day to day with our body and our brain can think, reason, plan and create ideas. It is awesome this human person that we are. <BR> I ordered a book by Og Mandino called The Greatest miracle in the world and it is about self esteem etc. I ... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 23:27:54 EST An experiment, a poem and doing it my way. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5505463 Well I am experimenting again. I am eating all fruit and veggies today ( no potatoes) and tomorrow can have bread, potatoes, fish ,etc. Still no meat and keeping it in calorie and carb range on the tracker. I want to see how this works. The other diets just have so many can't haves. I know you have been telling me there are not bad foods. For me red meat is a bad food. I guess other foods I am open too in moderation. <BR> <BR> I made this tonight and it was so good. <BR> <BR> 2 cups ... Sat, 5 Oct 2013 20:11:50 EST My blc23 goals and how I keep track. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5504642 I did change some of my goals and I like the way that another fox posted hers all together so she could see it at a glance and put emoticons to make it easier to see. so I stole that idea from her LOL. Hope you don't mind Denise. <BR> <BR> <BR> Friends/Family/Support Goals: <em>220</em> <BR> Make my hubby play one game a night like we used to. It gave us more connection. It also makes the evening less boring. My reward will be fun. <BR> <BR> <BR> Talk to my daughter on the phone tw... Fri, 4 Oct 2013 18:26:37 EST Today I declare my independence to addiction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5503392 You know we are not just here to help each other lose weight but to be friends to help each other keep our sanity. Food addiction is truly a disease just like alcoholism. I took morphine pain pills for almost 2 years when I had all those operations, infections and cancers. I never got hooked on it. My sister says if you took morphine you are addicted. I could care less about it. I took my last pill a week ago and said good riddance. Before I took those last six pills, I hadn't taken any... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 11:06:28 EST A positive frog in the kingdom of negativity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5502019 There once was a kingdom where everyone thought they were no good. they didn't walk but sat around and ate candy bars and milkshakes. Needless to say they needed to lose weight. They didn't care...all they could think of was what kind of bar to eat next. The king and Queen were very unhappy. A long time ago there son, Prince complain a lot disappeared. He was not a happy boy and all he did was complain and tease people. If he wanted a candy bar, he screamed until he got it. <BR>... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 00:26:05 EST nac uoy daer sdrawkcab? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5497133 ti si nuf ot semitemos tel og dna od sgniht sdrawkcab. ti nac ekat ffo emos fo eht sserts. <BR> reven evig pu. fi uoy evah eht ecneitap ot daer sdrawcab, neht uoy nac evom oot. <BR> I eveileb ni uoy. uoy era regnorts naht uoy kniht. <BR> <BR> Now that you have read that, listen to this. You are sitting there wondering what the heck is wrong with this woman? Not sure but it was fun. My friend and I used to do this when we wrote to each other and sometimes it was 3 pages long. One time ... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 19:42:52 EST I thin I can and the little fox that made it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5495199 I loved an earlier blog from whitneyteacher and thought I would have a go at imaging to put myself in a stronger frame of mind. <BR> Once upon a time in a land far away lived a little fox. this fox had a case of the itches and no matter what he did, he itched. Was it painful? Oh yeah. He thought and thought and tried many things. He ate new foods...no luck. He tried to take showers...even worse. He tried thinking it away...but the pain kept on intruding. <img src="http://photos-ak.spar... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 19:18:34 EST I am a fox and I can and will do this. I am not going to be a fox that got left behind. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5495033 Shingles still there, feeling sorry for myself....going away and determination....in its place. I go to the doctor on the 1rst and hope they give me something else to make this go away. <BR> <BR> I am making my 4 goals for the blc23. <BR> 1. lose 15 pounds in 12 weeks ( I put 20 last time and only made 14) <BR> 2. no eating after dinner ( hard to put a time, because sometimes it is 5 and sometimes 7) <BR> 3. Strength training 3 times a week. ( I have trouble with this) <BR> 4. Exercise at l... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 15:29:26 EST I guess its not done with me yet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493394 I am sitting here writing to wait for the morphine to kick in. I was trying so hard not to take anymore but it won. The pain is so bad tonight, I just couldn't take it anymore. I don't know what is worse the pain from the shingles or the pain from going to the bathroom from the pain pills. It feels like having a baby without being able to push it out. <BR> I really felt that I was getting better but it came back three times worse tonight. No matter what I did I could not get it to go aw... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 02:53:05 EST vote for sparkpeople to get a commercial on tv. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5492951 Right now Intuit is running a contest for small businesses. The prize is a commercial during the Super Bowl. I don't know about you, but every time I see a commercial for Weight Watchers or Jenny Craig I wish that SP had the resources to do the same. This is their chance to get the word out on a huge scale. All they need is the support of people like us. <BR> <BR> Go to this website and vote for SparkPeople: (It just takes one click and you can vote once a day.) it is at the bottom. If it c... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 16:35:42 EST A glimmer of hope in a sea of darkness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5490978 I have only mild pain this morning. The morphine kicked in about 6 am. It is now almost 9 so I did get some sleep. It is cooler today so the heat won't be as unbearable. I think more than anything besides the pain, I was scared. I don't want to have the cancer come back and go through it all again . If it does there is nothing I can do about it, except bear it again. so instead of worrying, I am going to try and drag some spark of hope out of this. Maybe it is just another stepping ston... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 09:54:27 EST Pain, pain killers and why can't I stay healthy? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5490800 I may be off and on for awhile. I am in a lot of pain tonight and can't seem to get any comfort. <BR> The pain in my left side from, I guess, the shingles, my neck and my head are just bearing down tonight. I took a pain pill and just waiting for it to work so I hope I will be sleeping late tomorrow. It seems like every time I try and get healthier something takes me back down. I can only hope this doesn't last long. <BR> It is so hot in here because the air quit working and hopefully it... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 05:43:48 EST antibiotics in organic fruit? foods that constipate and foods that give relief http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5490496 I have a problem with constipation. So I decided to look into foods that cause it. <BR> Not the most lady like subject but hey, when you got to go, you got to go and if you can't, it feels like having a baby with no reward. <BR> http://www.everydayhealth.com/constipati<BR>on-pictures/foods-to-avoid-for-constip<BR>ation-relief.aspx#/slide-8 <BR> 7 foosa That can cause constipation: <BR> Dairy foods <BR> red meat <BR> chips <BR> frozen dinners <BR> cookies <BR> unripened green banana's ripe one... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 19:19:51 EST Teams, leaders and a closing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5488535 Today I had to close the out of the box team. It is sad and it hurts. When we first started I put a lot of time and effort into the little team and then ree and Janice did too. I sent out a survey and we added things you wanted added. No one posted but me, ree, Janice, Kathy and paula. Great, strong , caring women who wanted to help. Why am I telling you this. If you are on a team and don't want to be on it anymore then remove your name. don't just keep it on your page as a trophy. It ... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 17:59:54 EST Not myself but better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5487565 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1107159472.jpg">I took the antibiotics last night and this morning. I had dry heaves this morning after taking them I just took another so hopefully it won't be the same. I gained 4 pounds in one day and hoping it is because of all the water I have to drink and the medicine. I had been drinking between 9 and 12 glasses a day anyway but they want me to drink even more. <BR> I am not very spry but going to do my tai chi anyway. It usually ... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 19:23:31 EST Thoughts are about all I have today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5486544 I am just sitting here and thinking about my life and what goes on with people. I have done many things and tried many things but am no closer to finding the real me. I know that I am caring and love to learn. What does this have to do with helpful blog...nothing really. I just wanted to write down my thoughts. <BR> <BR> For lack of saying nothing. I didn't do much today as I am still hurting...maybe that is why I am writing,..to focus on something else. I am ready to take on something n... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 20:19:35 EST Tips, goals, and pep talk to myself. a 55+ladies challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5485642 blog a pep talk to yourself. Tell yourself what you are going to do to keep from regaining. tell yourself why you are worth it and how you have come such a long way. What has made you take this journey? How have you changed this year? What tips do you have for others to help them succeed? Tell yourself what you will do if others don't believe in you. Then tell yourself how you will feel when you have lost this weight. Take it one goal at a time. Set 3 goals that you want to accomplish before ... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 19:43:46 EST Here I am again , in all my glory. Be kind. Getting ready for blc23. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484866 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l208054362.jpg"> Oh no its me again. Can't see much difference but needed to post for the upcoming blc23. At least I think I have to post them again. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l147498333.jpg"> Well maybe someday I will be a little smaller. I am taking it one day at a time and one pound at a time and shaking up the exercise today. With granddaughter there for a couple of days, didn't do much but play gam... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 19:27:23 EST Do you have the spark within to succeed? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484103 55+ ladies challenge <BR> <BR> Spark people changed my life. I joined a lot time ago but then got sick. In that time I met the wonderful ladies on the 55+ ladies team and even though I was off of spark when I had my cancers they wrote to me. That shows that the people on here are some of the most remarkable caring people. <BR> <BR> Spark has all the tools we need to succeed. Without the nutrition tracker, I would be lost. It figures out everything for you. I don't need to look up calo... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 22:55:12 EST