HAPYGIRL01's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HAPYGIRL01 HAPYGIRL01's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Starting over, again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5505464 Well, here I am. For various reasons I find myself at my original starting weight plus one pound today. I try not to obsess or be upset about regaining the 30 or so pounds I lost 2 years ago. LIfe was very different there and I obviously need to work on my coping skills!! I absolutely refuse to beat myself up for this. Nothing in my life has ever gone in a straight line!! <BR> <BR> I muddled through a really awful half marathon 2 weeks ago. I know I should be proud of myself for finish... Sat, 5 Oct 2013 20:11:55 EST Scatterbrained http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5464913 Wow, it's been quite a while since my last blog. I kind of took a break from everything for a while. I got tired of counting calories and feeling bad for not working out, etc. After a week of vacation, including a few days in Las Vegas where I kept overeating till I needed to nap, I was ready to come back and do this. I get so frustrated because sometimes (often) I feel like I'm never going to get to my goals. I seem to give up too easily when I don't see that I'm making any progress. I... Sat, 24 Aug 2013 13:26:38 EST Ditching the all-or-nothing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267942 Well, today was one of those incredibly stressful days with a sick kiddo and craziness at work. I had packed healthy food to eat during the day. I've been much better about consistently eating breakfast at home before I leave in the morning, but didn't today and then the minute I got to work there was no time. But, now that I think about it, I did "have time" to eat the cookies given to me as a gift. (As I was typing that, I have to kind of laugh because my healthy stuff was right there!)... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 00:34:46 EST Food fight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5260097 Well, I'm really struggling lately to consistently eat healthfully. Last week I had a nasty cold and PMS so all I wanted to do is eat and I sure did. At least once I felt better I burned about 3000 calories doing my half marathon. I consistently struggle with my eating though. I love food and have a hard time with portion control. I try to look back and see that I've improved a bit but it's really wreaking havoc on my weight loss (or lack thereof). I try not to be hard on myself and try... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 13:52:47 EST Fear http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220651 Does anyone out there ever look at everything and just feel scared that they'll never get to where they want to be? I find myself feeling this way off and on lately. I tell myself that I have to keep trying to be active and eating healthier and it will happen. It just sometimes feels that I'm not getting anywhere. I tell myself to focus on what I've accomplished--I've done 2 5Ks and a 10K in the past year--and not the number on the scale or how I look. Why is it so difficult to look at t... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 20:00:08 EST Whining? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163542 I hate to vent and to sound negative, but that's how I'm feeling. I've wanted to make this blog positive and document all my progress, but I'm having the opposite experience lately. I haven't even wanted to weigh myself because I know I've been inconsistent with my healthy lifestyle (to say the least)! Lots of parties with unhealthy food, alcohol, lack of exercise and a lot of lazing around. Sometimes I justify it by saying that I've been so busy and stressed that I need a little fun and ... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 18:36:16 EST Stuck in a rut http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5150616 Well, I can make excuses...I've had a zillion social engagments, most evenings for the past week due to holiday, birthdays, etc. I've been pretty good at planning my eating so as to not terribly go over my calories, though when there are drinks involved then I inevitably do go over. <BR> <BR> One thing I'd like to work on is trying to work out in the mornings. I'm definitely not a morning person, but often when I have things to do in the evenings, I "run out of time" to work out. I have... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 13:04:57 EST Amazing!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5141574 Well, after feeling so down and exhausted yesterday, I woke up feeling fairly energetic and happy. It's amazing how just a couple of days of being on track with eating well and exercising makes such a huge difference physically and emotionally. <BR> <BR> I must say, though, that I'm feeling a little nervous, scared even, about the holidays. I often have difficulty with "self control." And once I get off track, then it's hard to get back on. I'm going to do my best to not overdo it with... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 13:22:37 EST Mind games http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5140473 I had been avoiding weighing myself because I knew it wasn't going to be good. I think it's been a month since I officially logged in a weight. I had a good day yesterday, staying on track with eating and exercising and working on my brain. I woke up this morning feeling exhausted and felt so frustrated. I decided I need to do everything I can to feel better. For me I think that means exercising and eating better. I then decided to confront the scale once again and I was prepared to see... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 13:50:13 EST Fighting the negativity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5137467 As I was watching today's SparkCoach video by Coach Nicole about positive thinking, it really resonated with me. She recommended maybe writing a letter to myself and talking to myself as I would talk to my best friend when she is going through a hard time. It's always interesting how we can be so nice, loving, and supportive of others and so mean and cruel and hard on ourselves. <BR> <BR> I also realized as I tracked my "bad" eating, lack of exercise, and waning motivation that, sure I may... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 13:04:28 EST Excuses... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5126105 I think for me (and probably many of us) consistency is a big challenge. My biggest excuses for not exercising are...there's not enough time, I'm too busy at work, I'm tired. Well, my answer to this is something I've been struggling to implement: even ten minutes a day is enough. Anything more is extra and wonderful, but ten minutes is okay. It's great even! <BR> <BR> Also, it really does help with the stress. Zoning in on exercise with good music playing really helps me unwind. <B... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 11:43:12 EST All or nothing? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5113971 I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I've always been very hard on myself and tend toward the perfectionist attitude, as I've mentioned before. After a couple of weeks religiously following SparkCoach, I've decided it's time I start giving myself a break. How often have I (and probably many of us), thought that unless we were "perfect" with food choices and only felt that 45 min-1 hour workouts were worthwhile, that I would never succeed? These types of demands and expectations on my... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 18:01:32 EST Perfectionism http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5090709 As I read through all of the wonderful and extremely supportive responses to my first blog, I am so thankful to be here and make these connections. I never expected to be blessed with the kind words and advice I received. <BR> <BR> I was also thinking about my tendency to have an "all or nothing" approach. I can be "perfect" and plan, log, and prepare all my healthy foods. And I can be "perfect" in making sure I get my workouts in and, sure, I am rewarded by a good number on the scale and... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 00:47:22 EST Struggling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5087294 Well, as with most times I've tried to lose weight, I've lost my momentum. I've lost a total of 30 pounds in the last year or so, and I'm very proud of that. I'm not yet where I want to be and lately don't seem to be able to stay on track. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to figure out what happened. I had a couple of medical issues that didn't help, but that's really just an excuse. I'm fine now and still not doing what I know works and what makes me feel good mentally and physically. Am I sabot... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 00:16:10 EST