HAPPYWALKER's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HAPPYWALKER HAPPYWALKER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ What is this elusive thing called Motivation? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5642784 Sometimes I wonder how it is I can become motivated to stick to something for a long time, when other times I can't no matter how hard I try. <BR> <BR> For the whole of 2013 I could not get a handle on my bad eating behaviors and lack of activity. I felt stuck. I was unhappy and yet it seemed like I couldn't get started on any sort of plan to improve my situation. By the end of the year, I had worrisome physical problems. Namely, I had a pain in my right side that scared me. It came an... Sat, 8 Mar 2014 10:11:00 EST Farewell 2013, Welcome 2014! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5576548 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1644235287.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I always love New Years Day....a fresh start, full of possibilities. My recurring intention for the upcoming year is always the same: reach my healthy goal weight by my birthday in October and maintain it throughout the holiday season. <BR> <BR> You'd think I'd lose faith after failing to do this in years past. But it took Thomas Edison over 10,000 attempts until he successfully invented the light bulb. You... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 10:43:45 EST How do you enjoy the holiday season and stay on track? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523107 Today starts my most challenging time of the year. I'm thinking about it now so I can come up with some sort of strategy to not let it derail me. <BR> <BR> First off, today is my birthday. My dearest husband made me a delicious veggie, ham and cheese omlette for breakfast, and for dinner he's broiling lobster tails and grilling steaks. It's a beautiful fall day and I plan to take a long walk this afternoon and then do some flowerbed clean-up. I have lunch plans with one friend tomorrow... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 11:01:25 EST Trying this again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5521637 After a long absence that was preceded by sporadic activity, I find myself back here again. Using SP helped me to take off 40 lbs. back in 2007. I've tried a few alternate routes since then and have come full circle. <BR> <BR> I like the new Spark START page. I like the look of it, and everything is organized well. I set up my motivation board, set some goals, read a bunch of articles. I'm still not going to jump onto any teams at this point. I don't want to end up spending a lot of ti... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 19:50:21 EST I LOVE this visual http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5336126 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1942967049.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This picture truly inspires me. I have it as the screen saver on my computer so I can see it everyday and affirm that my transition, although slow, will be complete. I can imagine myself getting slimmer and slimmer as the days and months go by and then jumping for joy at finally reaching my goal in a healthy, sustainable way. <BR> <BR> I feel so free without the scale. It's the best decision I have ever made. ... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 09:01:37 EST it's working! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5333948 The one thing about not weighing in is that it's difficult to know exactly if you're doing enough to make a difference. It takes a long time to feel thinner, especially when you've had a larger body image for many years. I was thinking the other day that I don't feel thinner. And yet, I have to admit my jeans seem to be a little looser since I started changing my eating habits. <BR> <BR> I still haven't gotten on a scale, but this morning I decided to take my measurements. I was astounde... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 10:01:51 EST Feeling peaceful for the first time in a long time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5331514 Now that I'm not stressing over food or my weight, I feel this huge sense of relief and peace. I have vision of what I want my life to be like, and I am living towards it. There is no doubt or anxiety. The depression I was struggling with over the winter months has lifted. I feel content most of the time. <BR> <BR> I've tried to give up dieting a few times in past years, but never seemed to quite trust myself and always ran back to some new diet, sometimes an old familiar diet. I lost ... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 09:48:51 EST On my 16th day without sugar, pasta or bread - oh my! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5325001 I'm not saying it's been easy, but it is do-able. <BR> <BR> I've had my moments; in fact, I had one last night. It's that feeling of need....but it's really a feeling of want. It hits me like a tidal wave out of nowhere. Last night I did something different. I sat and allowed myself to feel the craving and not feed it. I don't remember ever doing that. In the past, I'd more often go get something to make me "feel better" or I'd try to distract myself in some way. This time, I sat th... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 09:57:53 EST Stopping by to say "hello" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5313719 I've been absent for a while on SparkPeople and some of my friends may be wondering what I've been up to. <BR> <BR> As of last Sunday, 3-31, I had gained back the 20 lbs. I lost earlier last year and added 10 to that....from 175 to 204.8....from comfortable size 12 to slightly snug size 16. <BR> <BR> I have been feeling so desperate and came very close to joining Weight Watchers again; in fact, I was 99.9% sure of it and planning on signing up last Wednesday. <BR> <BR> I do everything pray... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 14:25:41 EST Eating more to lose weight and stay healthy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228935 Okay, so I have to be honest.....logging into the Spark tracker lasted about two half days. How did I not know that? I've resisted tracking for 2 years. <BR> <BR> I muddled along for another 3 weeks with no progress, feeling depressed, discouraged, frustrated, even ashamed. <BR> <BR> Yesterday morning I was watching some of Dr. Fuhrman's videos on YouTube. He definitely motivates me when he speaks. He explains the science behind high nutrient foods in terms of how they protect our bodie... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 14:49:52 EST Here I go.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194895 Last night I reached one of those "fed up, had enough" states of mind. Admittedly, sometimes I do more thinking and planning than taking action. <BR> <BR> I wasn't feeling well physically and since my sister passed away in Oct. 2011 at only age 65 from cancer, my own state of health is often on my mind. I also hated what I saw in the mirror. I've felt for a while that my energy level has been steadily decreasing. I took a vacation from "dieting" and from the scale for many months and w... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 11:54:22 EST Follow YOUR yellow brick road http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5192159 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1548263707.jpg"> <BR> In the past, whenever I would see or hear about someone’s successful weight loss, the tendency was always to ask, “how did you do it?” It’s human nature to want to follow in the footsteps of those who succeed at what we are seeking. The truth is the same for me and for you; and that is: you must create your own path…there is no perfect way. There is only the way for works for the individual. <BR> <img src="http:/... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 20:44:01 EST 2012 in review and looking forward to 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180291 As each year nears an end, I always take some time to reflect on days gone by and what lies ahead. I have to say that 2012 was somewhat uneventful. I feel like it was an indifferent year. Nothing significant comes to mind. There may have been things noteworthy, but not enough for me to remember them. I think I'll keep better track of the year's most precious moments. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1934926089.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My underlying theme for 2012 was peac... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 21:58:13 EST Some decisions just turn out well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5170900 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2072092931.jpg"> <BR> In January of this year, I made the decision to stop dyeing my hair. It was purely for health reasons. I saw my first gray hair at age 27 and have been coloring it ever since. I just turned 61 in October, so that's a lot of years. It had gotten to the point that I had to do it every 4 weeks and colored it myself after I retired because I could no longer afford the expense at the hair salon. <BR> <BR> I thought ab... Wed, 19 Dec 2012 09:27:03 EST My Zen Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5159304 Some people really enjoy the holiday season and do lots of decorating, baking, shopping & wrapping, sending out cards, and what-not. Some people hate it and do it anyway and become stressed to the max. <BR> <BR> I gave up sending Christmas cards years ago...I think a phone call to out-of-towners and a personal visit to those nearby is so much better. <BR> <BR> I have decorated less and less over the years. Last year was just candles in the windows and a wreath on the door, with a few sp... Fri, 7 Dec 2012 12:47:52 EST Act AS IF - using visualization (plus a little bit of a food blog) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5123696 If I can thoroughly convince my mind that I am a slender person, do you suppose I will act like a slender person? That's what's behind the power of visualization. This is a tool that I intend to use every day. <BR> <BR> Today I went for a walk with my dogs. The area is lovely. It's a nice path around a pond that is beautifully landscaped. All the summer flowers and the fall leaves are gone right now, but it still has a lot of character. Each season brings it's own special signature. ... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 14:41:33 EST November 1- new beginnings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5120202 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1566375578.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Okay, confession time. I've been spiraling out of control for a couple of months. I've worked my way though the Downward Spiral from frustration/overwhelm/disappointment/doubt<BR>/worry/discouragement...skipped hatred, jealousy, & guilt....and went straight to fear/grief/depression/powerlessness. <BR> <BR> Part of it is the aftershock of my sister's passing a year ago on October 2. Fall was OUR season. We b... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 11:36:36 EST Why I believe you don’t have to count calories, and why "just a little" CAN hurt you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5080549 You will either find this blog very depressing, or very inspiring. Sometimes the truth hurts, the truth will also set you free. <BR> <BR> I think as a society we’ve all come to the agreement that “diets don’t work”. The problem is, we’ve repackaged dieting and are now calling it “lifestyle changes”. Who’s kidding who? If you are measuring out food, logging what you eat into a journal, counting calories-carbs-points-whatever, you are dieting. <BR> <BR> Lots and lots of people lose weig... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 12:25:04 EST Day 21 - wasn't this supposed to get EASIER?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5031479 I'm 3 weeks into my program. I've been steadfast and determined. I went from feeling grouchy, depressed, and anxious....to feeling energetic, happy, and jazzed....and then....back to feeling lousy and discouraged ???? What's up with that? <BR> <BR> As I blogged before, the last few days I had lost my appetite completely. I mean, I didn't even want to eat my meals. Of course, I did eat and felt better afterwards. But then yesterday I hit a wall. I didn't feel well when I got up and had ... Sun, 26 Aug 2012 09:58:46 EST Day 19 - I've lost my appetite http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5029289 This is a strange occurrence for me that I have never experienced before. I have noticed lately that I no longer live to eat, I eat to live in every sense of the phrase. I haven't felt hungry between meals for several days now. This morning I didn't have any desire to even eat breakfast, which is not really a good thing. It felt like my appetite for food in total had gone away. <BR> <BR> The book that describes my plan in detail "It Starts With Food" covers this and says that it can oc... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 12:19:09 EST Day 16 and feeling spectacular http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5025110 I'm past the halfway point of my 30-day program and I think I turned the corner. I no longer feel all the emotional ups and downs. <BR> <BR> Most of all, I do NOT have cravings!! Really, truly, honestly!! I eat 3 meals a day. The food I eat satisfies me right up until the next meal. I don't think about food inbetween. I wouldn't have believed it myself a few weeks ago. <BR> <BR> I'm not out of the woods yet. This is usually when I have in the past gotten tired of it and started t... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 15:20:33 EST Feeling Great! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5018311 It's Day 11 and I'm still going strong. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a little stressful for me but I still stayed the course. It was National Miche Party Day and I had a party scheduled at a local coffee house. I was feeling a bit nervous and anxious about it but it went really well. I didn't win one of the grand prizes Miche was handing out to Reps having parties, but my party was a success and everyone had a good time so I was happy. <BR> <BR> This is a picture of me (on the left) and my H... Thu, 16 Aug 2012 15:43:48 EST Day 9 and OMG http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5014804 I can't believe how great I feel !!!! <BR> <BR> Yesterday and today I bounced out of bed feeling raring to go. My energy level is out the roof! I went to Zumba yesterday at 9 am and the ladies said I looked like I lost weight. I know I've lost the bloat I've been carrying around the past few months but I have stayed away from the scale. I'm not even the least bit tempted to get on it. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/3/l534440565.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.spar... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 09:20:42 EST Day 5 check-in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5009542 I decided to not wait until Day 15 to give a report on how I'm doing. This is a complete life change and I want to remember what it was like, so I'm going to try to write about it often so I can go back later and realize how far I came. <BR> <BR> So.....Day 1 was Monday. That wasn't too bad. I was still high in motivation and full of determination, which helped me stick to it 100%. <BR> <BR> Tuesday was a little different in that I got up feeling like a BEAR! Edgy, anxious, bothered by ... Fri, 10 Aug 2012 10:38:18 EST It starts with commitment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5002033 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/0/l806737085.jpg"> <BR> It starts with commitment, and I am 100% committed. <BR> <BR> Let me start by explaining what sparked this new commitment for me. Last week I got a call out of the blue from a friend I haven't seen in over a year. She and I originally met at Weight Watchers a couple of years ago. She was mainly interested in the purses she heard I was selling and came over to see them. <BR> <BR> She looks fantastic! Slimmer and the... Sun, 5 Aug 2012 14:05:46 EST Cutting summer vacation short....and a report on my hair http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4970109 I had to cut my summer vacation a little short. So much for taking the summer off and just being happy with maintaining....I've been in a downward spiral the past month and have spun out of control. One thing I've learned is that plans are made to be revised and updated. My maintenance plan didn't work and needs to be tossed and now replaced with my weight loss plan. <BR> <BR> I don't have to look at a scale to know that I've been headed in the wrong direction. You know, that puffy, bl... Sat, 14 Jul 2012 14:17:58 EST Change can feel uncomfortable but is always the precursor to growth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4934477 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/6/l766360843.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l616807500.jpg"> Wed, 20 Jun 2012 10:07:49 EST Checking in and leaving you with a beautiful life lesson http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4927921 I received the story below in an email and it was extremely appropriate. I've been challenged A LOT during the last 4 weeks. I've been up and down with my emotions and bewildered and confused a lot of the time. <BR> <BR> Life experiences of late have made me stop and re-evaluate a lot of things. They've made me think about what is most important to me in my life, who I am, and where I want to go. <BR> <BR> I haven't been on Spark this past month and my heart & soul have been touched by... Fri, 15 Jun 2012 14:57:00 EST A Tribute to all Moms http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4879164 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/0/l602466206.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Paying tribute to my Mom who was called on 7-8-1996; my mother-in-law who was called on 2-14-2004; and my dear sister who was a wonderful mother and was called on 10-2-2011. <BR> <BR> Happy Mothers Day to all mothers...those who have given birth and those who have loved children as if they were their own....here on earth and in Heaven. Sun, 13 May 2012 08:52:47 EST the Confession http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4877002 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/0/l406832636.jpg"> <BR> <BR> After avoiding SP the past week or so, I've decided to come clean and admit to you all that I blew my T-Tapp bootcamp. I have decided that I don't need to add guilt to all of the emotions I've been experiencing lately. If I write about my failure, maybe I can move past it better. <BR> <BR> I may have jinxed it by blogging about it beforehand. That seems to always happen to me. I don't know if it puts more pres... Fri, 11 May 2012 11:58:15 EST Starting T-Tapp Bootcamp to reduce 2 sizes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4853037 I've been toying with this thought in my mind for several weeks - doing a T-Tapp bootcamp. It's a desire of mine, but I've had to pysche myself up to do it because it's a major commitment and I knew that once I decide I HAVE to see it through 100%. <BR> <BR> According to the book, I can go down 2 sizes by doing a Total Workout 7 days in a row, then every other day for 4 weeks, then two days off between workouts for another 4 weeks. I'm in a size 14, and that would mean a size 10 in 9 weeks... Thu, 26 Apr 2012 09:52:23 EST Yippee! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4842379 I think I may have finally hit my stride! You know, the point where you've made enough progress that there's NO going back. It's what Steve Siebold (fatloser.com) says is the stage of "knowing". You hit your sweet spot of motivation and it just keeps building upon itself. If only I could bottle it, sigh. <BR> <BR> I've been doing something I call "interval dieting". It's going to sound a little nutty to some, but it seems to be working for me thus far. <BR> <BR> It all started when ... Thu, 19 Apr 2012 10:45:23 EST Do you weigh daily, weekly, monthly, or not at all? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4835409 There was a time when I was set on ditching the scale completely and no longer allowing it to affect my mood or self worth. <em>225</em> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/3/l939226992.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l205168148.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l132250754.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I've lately changed my thought process in regard to weighing. It's all about attitude. I have recently been able to get on th... Sat, 14 Apr 2012 23:02:28 EST Still learning how to deal with loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4830124 I awoke this morning from a dream about my sister. It's been six and a half months since she passed away and sometimes it still hurts like it was yesterday. <BR> <BR> In my dream she was alive, but in the hospital and we all knew she was dying. My Dad was there (he passed in 1996). I sobbed throughout the entire dream. I couldn't bear the thought of losing her and was having trouble accepting it. <BR> <BR> When I awoke I felt so full of pain. It was like experiencing the whole thin... Wed, 11 Apr 2012 10:30:04 EST Manic Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4826963 We were invited to my brother and sister-in-law's for Easter Sunday dinner and I definitely overate! Maybe part of it was emotional. This was my first Easter without my sister and my thoughts turned to her often during the weekend. <BR> <BR> I had food overload so much that I couldn't bear to eat anything when I got up and I was feeling really lethargic and generally lousy !! Proof positive that food affects mood! <BR> <BR> I went to Zumba class at 9 a.m. To be honest, I didn't feel ... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 12:02:58 EST Subtle changes mean a lot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4821791 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l3650348.jpg"> <BR> Since several weeks ago when I decided to abanden yet another diet, I've been doing fairly well with making healthier food choices. <BR> <BR> This morning I ate one of my favorite breakfasts: saute'ing an assortment of fresh veggies (garlic, onion, carrots, broccoli, green & red bell peppers, mushrooms, sweet potato) in some vegetable broth and a bit of lite soy sauce plus a moderate amount of black beans. I wrap it u... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 12:00:14 EST Taking responsibility and making it happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4812595 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l986753764.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Steve Siebold (fatloser.com) says: "If you're fat, it's all your fault". I LOVE that guy and his no-nonsence mental toughness coaching!!! <BR> <BR> The good news about taking responsibility is that it means I'm in control and I have all the power to change things. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l569642587.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Honestly, the way I have sabotaged myself in the past it's l... Fri, 30 Mar 2012 17:20:00 EST Swimsuit season coming up- this time I'm ready for it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4807209 I stopped at the mall the other day to run in and get my favorite hairspray. I always walk through one particular store and the swimsuits caught my eye. Every year I dread wearing a bathing suit. Typically, I procastinate and by the time I'm shopping for one they're all picked over. <BR> <BR> So I grabbed a few I liked and headed over to the dressing room. I was so happy with the one I chose and delighted that it was a size 14. It's like a skirt and halter so I don't feel overly expos... Tue, 27 Mar 2012 11:58:36 EST I am doing it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4754953 I have been reluctant to blog lately because frankly I’ve been guilty in the past of just offering up words on what I INTEND to do. It all sounded good but I was having a little trouble with the follow through. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/8/l280915631.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Now that I’m on a roll, I’ve decided to blog about my journey. It’s for me – to document my progress and motivate myself – but if I can inspire even one other person along the way, I’d love that. <B... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 11:38:31 EST Mega Dose of Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4742027 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/8/l486823789.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/2/l920931706.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l177432679.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/2/l327485391.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/5/l553395317.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l468153352.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l8695401... Thu, 16 Feb 2012 14:47:08 EST learning to go with the flow and treat my body well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4702960 A couple of weeks ago I ranted about Zumba being too hard since January 1. Two days later I came down with a horrific cold that lasted about 10 days. I went back to Zumba last night and, to my delight, had no trouble at all keeping up. Looking back, I think I may have possibly been coming down with the cold on those two days when I was having trouble doing the Zumba routines. My lack of energy was my body telling me to slow down because it needed the energy to fight the cold. I marvel at... Wed, 25 Jan 2012 10:12:06 EST sometimes ya just gotta have a sense of humor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4695117 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/8/l484788231.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Sometimes I think I take myself way too seriously. I'm not sure how I got so intense, but that doesn't really matter. I don't need to analyze it, or figure out anything that happened during my formative years for that matter, because whatever happened in the past is gone and we are in control of who we are today....which means we can change anything we don't like. <BR> <BR> Of course, we have to acknowledge and ... Sat, 21 Jan 2012 12:20:21 EST feed a cold ?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4693170 UGH! The common cold... <BR> <BR> This really captures how I feel <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l656083380.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It started Monday morning when I woke up with a sore throat and the sniffles. I woke up every morning thereafter with a sore throat and a completely stuffed up nose. I've gone through 2 boxes of tissues. <BR> <BR> I nurtured myself with natural remedies of gargling with salt water, drinking hot lemon water, green tea & honey, taking supplemen... Fri, 20 Jan 2012 11:18:10 EST Thanks for the support...you Spark Friends rock! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4676507 I so appreciate the comments on my last blog. I was feeling so low, and it's nice to be able to come here, get it all out, and receive such encouragement. <BR> <BR> I feel much better. In fact, I think I am going to get right back on the Zumba horse tonight, wearing a different attitude! That's what makes all the difference, and thanks to all you who helped me see that. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l367109660.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So what if I'm a sweaty mess... Thu, 12 Jan 2012 15:52:15 EST A Rant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4675632 Sometimes I feel as though there are strong forces working against me. Every time I seem to be making positive strides, BAM! <BR> <BR> I'm still not over my last sad story whereby I join Weight Watchers, lose 40 lbs., feel great and am only 13 lbs. from my goal weight...and then my sister is diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer and the floor drops out whereby I can't seem to handle it emotionally and during the following year I gain back a little more than half of what I lost. I los... Thu, 12 Jan 2012 09:12:15 EST My one and only "rule" that will help me become slim http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4670902 Sometimes when I try to impose too many restrictions in order to drop pounds, it backfires and I give up completely. <BR> <BR> I was inspired this morning by reading my friend MORERED's blog. She said she is "being strict with no unplanned snacking and no after dinner eating" and lost 2.5 lbs. I got to thinking that if I did nothing more than this, I know I would lose weight every single week. Even if it's 1 pound a week, I'd be happy as long as it was steady and consistent. <BR> <BR>... Tue, 10 Jan 2012 09:59:57 EST Off to a rough start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4656484 I have to be honest here and admit that this week hasn't started out as good as I'd anticipated. My food choices haven't been the wisest and my portions are still too much. I'm disappointed, but this morning feeling more determined than ever. I remind myself that it's just January 4, and I'm on a lifelong path. <BR> <BR> A couple of things have motivated me greatly. One is my Zumba class. My instructor really kicked our butts last night! There were a lot of new people, which was expe... Wed, 4 Jan 2012 10:03:34 EST The Four Agreements as my intentions for 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4647269 My intentions for 2012 are summed up beautifully by don Miguel Ruiz in his book "The Four Agreements". <BR> <BR> The Four Agreements are: <BR> <BR> 1. "Be Impeccable with your Word: Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the Word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your Word in the direction of truth and love. <BR> <BR> 2. Don’t Take Anything Personally <BR> Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection o... Sat, 31 Dec 2011 21:31:08 EST Enjoyed my Christmas in the City...looking forward to 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4642085 This year DH and I spent Christmas in New York City. It was the perfect thing to do this year. I'm sure we seem like grinches, or at the very least a bit odd. My husband and I don't do all the traditional things at Christmas....there is no tree, no lights, and very few decorations. We don't exchange gifts. This year, there was no shopping at all, no wrapping, no baked goods. We got married in December of 1990 and spent Christmas & New Years in Aruba. I loved swimming in the ocean on ... Wed, 28 Dec 2011 17:33:57 EST Reflections of 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4635099 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/6/l662064825.jpg"> <BR> I must say 2011 was one of the most difficult of my life thus far. Every single week I traveled and hour away to see my sister, who had been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer the previous October 2010. There were many ups and downs, highs and lows. She suffered, she got better, she went to the brink, she stabilized, she lapsed, she recovered, she relapsed, and then it was over on October 2 2011 as her spirit had enoug... Thu, 22 Dec 2011 11:10:56 EST