HAPPYDOES's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=HAPPYDOES HAPPYDOES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ P.A.W.S.E. (Feb 7, 2018) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6460654 P: Plan/Prepare for Upcoming Week (Menus, Exercise Plan, Preparations) <BR> A: Act with consistency and determination(healthy food choices and tracking nutrition) <BR> W: Write a Blog reflecting on the past week- what were the obstacles, how to overcome them <BR> S: Set a goal for the coming week <BR> E: Engage in positive thoughts with NSV from previous week, or positive affirmation for the coming week <BR> <BR> **** <BR> Week of Jan 31-Feb 6 <BR> P: Menu (I have several made to choose from... Wed, 7 Feb 2018 12:42:20 EST I MUST REMEMBER NEWTON! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6460459 Newton's first law of motion - sometimes referred to as the law of inertia. <BR> <BR> An object at rest stays at rest, and an object in motion stays in motion (with the same speed and in the same direction) unless acted upon by an unbalanced force. <BR> <BR> THIS is why I need to stay on track during holidays, vacations, and celebrations! <BR> <BR> (Thanks, Dee!) Wed, 7 Feb 2018 00:43:45 EST Circuit Training at Home http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6460308 I remember when I was doing the BLC (Biggest Loser Challenge) here on SP, and I was a member of the Tenacious Jungle Tigers, there was a particular workout that we would do that I absolutely loved doing. <BR> <BR> It was called Monday Maneuvers. and it included doing step ups and 3 different exercises per body area (upper, core, and lower). I loved that workout, but I stopped doing it a while back, and I don't remember why. <BR> <BR> I haven't done it at all for several months. I used to do... Tue, 6 Feb 2018 14:33:18 EST The Top 50 Best Gym Motivation Videos on the Web http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6459409 Are you like me? Do you need to see a motivational video from time to time or even every day? <BR> <BR> Here are 50 of the best motivational videos for fitness. <BR> <BR> <link>https://wealthygorilla.com/gym-motiv<BR>ation-videos/ </link> Sun, 4 Feb 2018 09:44:40 EST Grrrr: Trying to Establish a Strength Training Habit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6459063 I hate strength training, but I know I NEED to do it. <BR> I don't know why I am having such a hard time mentally with doing it. <BR> <BR> When I think of doing strength training, I imagine myself as a 5-year-old girl sitting on the ground with her arms crossed, her bottom lip poking out, and a scowl on her face. <BR> <BR> I just don't have the motivation to do it, but I know if I don't do it, I am definitely going to regret it when I am old. <BR> <BR> How does one fall in love with stren... Sat, 3 Feb 2018 09:45:29 EST Preparing to go to Selma: Rosa Parks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6458100 Rosa Parks is one of the women I admire most. <BR> <BR> I decided to begin my preparations for my trip to Selma by reading a book she wrote titled: <BR> <BR> Reflections by Rosa Parks: The Quiet Strength and Faith of a Woman Who Changed a Nation <BR> by Rosa L. Parks with Gregory J. Reed <BR> <BR> She was on her way home from work that fateful day. <BR> Some people said the reason she didn't give up her seat on the bus to a white man that day was that she was tired. <BR> <BR> She was ind... Wed, 31 Jan 2018 17:45:33 EST Happy is as HappyDoes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6456426 I just love the feel of a new year! <BR> This year though, I feel especially happy. I have my focus on the goal of good health. My husband is on board as my accountability partner. I have my "10,00o Journal" in hand, a good plan to reach my goals, friends for support, and God on my side. What more could a girl as for? :) <BR> <BR> I discovered last year that I am happiest when I stay on track with my eating plan, exercise daily and stay active, have my days planned out so that I don't have t... Sat, 27 Jan 2018 09:16:11 EST Learning to Listen Well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6453794 “Wisdom is the reward you get for a lifetime of listening when you would rather have talked.” ~ Mark Twain (I stole this quote from JOHNMARTINMILES' SparkPage.) <BR> <BR> I have been listening to audio books on the subject of listening, and I have decided that this will be the main thing I try to learn during 2018. <BR> <BR> I guess there really isn't much else to say about this except that my plans are to read and re-read books and articles on listening in order to keep it in the forefront... Sat, 20 Jan 2018 11:19:32 EST 10,000 Hours: My Own Experiment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6453782 According to Malcolm Gladwell, the authour of the book "Outliers," it is not natural born talent that makes peoplenmasters at what they do, but rather 10,000 hours of deliberate practice that pushes the limits of one's abilities in the area to be mastered. <BR> <BR> There is much debate over Mr. Gladwell's "rule of mastery." A Princeton study tears it down. <BR> (http://journals.sagepub.com/doi/abs/10.<BR>1177/0956797614535810) <BR> <BR> However, I think that if I were to practice something... Sat, 20 Jan 2018 10:48:52 EST Selma, Alabama (Virtual Walk) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6451432 I have decided that I want to go to Selma, Alabama to visit the National Voting Rights Museum, and all the other museums in that town. I want to walk across the Edmund Pettus Bridge, and contemplate the things my African-American brothers and sisters went through in order to have the right to vote. I want to pay my respects to those who have suffered so much for something that should have been theirs from the start: equality. <BR> <BR> I hate racism. I have never understood it, or how people... Sun, 14 Jan 2018 14:45:30 EST Keeping Things in Perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6451230 My daughter has cancer in West Texas, and tonight my husband was put in the hospital in North Dakota with chest pains. I am trying to figure out how to be two places at once. <BR> <BR> It is such a comfort to know that the Lord has us all in the palm of His hand, and He will do what is best for us all. <BR> <BR> "I came naked from my mother's womb, and I shall have nothing when I die. The LORD gave me everything I have, and they are His to take away. Blessed be the name of the LORD." Job 1:... Sun, 14 Jan 2018 00:58:03 EST Mike and I http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6450428 Have you heard of Mike the Chicken (04-20-1945 - 03-17-1947)? <BR> He lived for 18 months after his head was cut off. <BR> <BR> But I didn't really write this blog to talk about Mike, except to say that I have been running around the past month or so like Mike the Chicken. <BR> <BR> And I am not through running yet. I have one more roadtrip to make and then I will settle down and lay out my plans for 2018. <BR> <BR> Did you feel like a chicken with no head this past holiday season? Now tha... Thu, 11 Jan 2018 22:06:08 EST Editing My Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6443805 I have just finished reading Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear by Elizabeth Gilbert (author of Eat, Pray, Love). <BR> <BR> There are so many good nuggets in this book that I intend to hold on to and use in my life. It isn't that I necessarily want to succeed in an artistic way in my life that makes me really love this book. It is rather a sentence here or there that she writes, or a quote from someone else that she includes, that captures my heart and makes me want to paint the words on... Wed, 27 Dec 2017 17:01:11 EST things my heart savors http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6440365 freedom! <BR> <BR> my husband's face, voice, and love <BR> <BR> texting with my daughters every day (because we live so far apart) <BR> <BR> videos, phone calls, and face time with my grandchildren <BR> <BR> hanging out with my people! <BR> <BR> great music ...with everything I do! <BR> <BR> serendipity!!! <BR> <BR> live theater <BR> <BR> bubble baths by candlelight <BR> <BR> pedicures <BR> <BR> gorgeous architecture <BR> <BR> Hygge <BR> <BR> a cat purring on my lap <BR> <BR> win... Thu, 14 Dec 2017 23:32:41 EST PTSD, Anxiety, and Creativity---What about you? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6438818 I know that I am creative because we all are. <BR> That said, my creativity is blocked because of the anxiety that has come from abuse and PTSD. <BR> <BR> I have struggled for years trying to figure out how to unlock my creativity. What I mean is, there are things I want to do, but anxiety stands in my way. Therefore, I have been trying to figure out how to face the anxiety and break through it. <BR> <BR> Today I found a book that I think help me do exactly that: <BR> <BR> <BR> Mastering ... Sat, 9 Dec 2017 13:21:41 EST Lao Tzu: Kindness and loving myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6438564 "Kindness in words creates confidence. Kindness in thinking creates profoundness. Kindness in giving creates love." - Lao Tzu <BR> <BR> Hmm... <BR> <BR> I'm thinking, and will be thinking about this for sometime --- hopefully my entire life. <BR> I will memorize it. <BR> And I will practice it towards myself FIRST. <BR> <BR> "Kindness in words creates confidence." <BR> If I am kind to myself when I falter, I will have confidence that I will never beat myself up. Beating myself up for bad... Fri, 8 Dec 2017 13:02:01 EST Visualization: Remembering for motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6438523 There was a time, in my 20s, when I was thin. It wasn't a "healthy thin," but I was thin nonetheless. <BR> <BR> As I take time to just breathe and relax, I remember how it felt to move when I was thin. I can still feel it when I get quiet, close my eyes, and just remember. I can see and feel myself doing things I used to do. There is real motivation in doing this. <BR> <BR> Ok, so I am adding this to my daily plan for reaching my goals. <BR> I am worth the time it takes to remember. Fri, 8 Dec 2017 10:35:59 EST Just breathe, Josie. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6438286 The holidays are SO stressful for me this year! <BR> <BR> I must remember to take time to just breathe deeply. That really helps me to de-stress. <BR> Well, that and great music! <BR> <BR> I am making my To Do list today that also includes my meals, exercise, and relaxation. I don't want to have to think too much while I'm trying to get things done, or I'll get bogged down. Therefore, like writing a thesis, I am taking time to plan what I need to do and eat, and put them in some kind of loo... Thu, 7 Dec 2017 13:20:22 EST "What does it take to be awesome?" (A Kid President Question) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6436691 You can learn a lot from a kid! <BR> <BR> So the question Kid President posed, and that I grabbed hold of this morning and decided to answer for myself, is this: <BR> <BR> "What does it take [for me] to be awesome?" <BR> <BR> The short answer is this: <BR> <BR> Live vulnerably and wholeheartedly again. <BR> <BR> <BR> ... <BR> <BR> <BR> Wow. There is a LOT packed inside that answer. <BR> It's going to take some work to break that down into its elements. <BR> And I'm on my way... <BR> ... Sat, 2 Dec 2017 10:26:54 EST "What does courage look like for me?" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6436568 I continued listening to Dr. Brene' Brown's audiobook titled "Imperfect" today while I drove to and from my PTSD therapy. <BR> <BR> What she said in one of the chapters really sparked something inside me, even to the point that I imagined getting my 1st tattoo: a small pink "Brave" along the edge of my hand near the base of my left thumb! lol But because I know it will look horrible at age 90, I will not get it. <BR> <BR> We all have default responses when unexpected shaming come our way, W... Fri, 1 Dec 2017 21:52:27 EST D.I.G. (Thank you, Dr. Brene' Brown) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6436172 I have been thinking a lot about why the positive comments of acquaintances concerning my looks (around the time I lose about 30 pounds), causes me to shut down, quit exercising, and stop following my eating plan. When I do this, I always gain weight. <BR> <BR> I don't know why I do this, and I don't know if it is really necessary for me to know, buy I am definitely looking for ways to overcome this habit of shutting down and regressing. <BR> <BR> I probably really do need to figure out w... Thu, 30 Nov 2017 15:11:01 EST Mental Hurdles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6435519 I saw that Spark Person LAEROPORT wrote that breaking the 150 lb. mark was as much of a mental hurdle as it was a physical one. <BR> <BR> She is right: there definitely are mental hurdles to overcome in this journey toward good health and being fit. <BR> <BR> I have one that I have been trying to over come for about 6 years now. Every time I lose 30 pounds and people begin to notice and comment on my weight loss, I begin to overeat and stop exercising, and the weight comes back on, usually ... Tue, 28 Nov 2017 13:07:51 EST Thank you, SparkPeople!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6435505 It feels so good to be back on track. <BR> <BR> I think I just hit overload and shut down for a couple of weeks. <BR> I'm a pretty low key person---laid back and easy going---so when stress piles on for months at a time, I think I just hit a point where it is more than I can handle. That's when depression knocks me down. <BR> <BR> I am so glad that I have the tools SparkPeople gives us all so that I can begin to focus again and get back in the swing of doing what is good for me. <BR> <BR>... Tue, 28 Nov 2017 12:31:00 EST Exercise really does help depression! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6435292 So today I made myself get up and exercise right off the bat. <BR> <BR> Exercise really does help depression, and today I felt better than I have in about two weeks. <BR> <BR> Just making myself get up and do 5000 steps first thing this morning was enough to make me not want to stop. I am over 15,000 steps tonight. Yippee! I love the way making myself exercise first thing in the morning changes my mindset for the whole day. It just sets me up for success, and I feel satisfied when I fall in... Mon, 27 Nov 2017 20:07:23 EST Resilience in the face of PTSD and Depression http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6433749 Lately it has been a real struggle for me. The PTSD therapy has brought up so many memories, nightmares, fears and doubts. Sometimes I just want to hide myself away somewhere, and to not answer the phone or emails or texts. <BR> <BR> The last few days have been filled with a sort of paralysis that comes with depression. I have felt a loss of interest in all the things I care to do, and know I need to do. Stress eating has raised its head again, which is something I thought I had overcome, an... Wed, 22 Nov 2017 11:03:45 EST About Losing "My Groove" and Finding It Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6429744 During the PTSD therapy (the last couple of months), I have slowly been getting off track with my eating and fitness due to allowing the stress of the therapy to be my excuse. <BR> <BR> My eating has gotten sloppy. I have failed to eat some meals, I have allowed myself too many "comfort foods," and I have, well, I have just gotten off track a with my food. And I have not been pushing myself with my fitness. I haven't been meeting my goals the way I want to do. <BR> <BR> The result: <BR> I ... Thu, 9 Nov 2017 11:11:35 EST The Bottom Line on Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6427835 When I feel as though I am helpless in various situations, I lose motivation to stay on track. <BR> Example: I just can't eat right on Thanksgiving. (That is a lie.) <BR> <BR> I refuse to believe that there is absolutely nothing I can do to help myself stay on track. <BR> <BR> I can. <BR> <BR> I will. <BR> <BR> Even small things, like sweet potatoes (baked) VS sweet potato casserole is a step in the right direction. <BR> I wonder how many steps in the right direction I can get this Thank... Fri, 3 Nov 2017 13:45:45 EST How I'm Avoiding Type 2 Diabetes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6427223 Type 2 Diabetes runs in my family. My paternal grandmother, my dad, and my sister all deal or have dealt with it. <BR> <BR> When I first had my A1C tested, it was 6.4. <BR> <BR> Normal A1C is 5.6 and below. <BR> Pre-diabetic A1C is 5.7 - 6.4. <BR> Diabetic A1C is 6.5 and above. <BR> <BR> I was so scared of becoming diabetic. I know what diabetes can do to a body, and I don't want that to be my fate. So here is what I have done to lower my A1C: <BR> <BR> I eat around 45 net carbs per mea... Wed, 1 Nov 2017 16:22:45 EST Things That Helped Me Find "My Groove" For Weight Loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6423545 I call it "my groove," but everybody has one, including you. <BR> <BR> It's the sweet spot where you FINALLY find what works for your body that allows you to lose weight at a relatively quick pace. <BR> It's the place where you know that you have FINALLY found the lifestyle you can maintain. <BR> It's the place where you feel comfortable and excited about losing weight. <BR> And it's the place where you really love doing what you need to do in order to be slim, healthy, and fit. <BR> <BR> I... Sat, 21 Oct 2017 09:48:19 EST When I begin to shut down, I will... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6421995 When the PTSD therapy causes me to begin to shutdown, I will... <BR> <BR> *Read Psalms from the Bible. <BR> <BR> *Follow FlyLady daily in order to feel like I am in control, and depression will not overtake me. <BR> <BR> *Feed my body what makes it feel best: My eating plan, lots of freggies, water, and use Stevia in all sweetened foods. <BR> <BR> *Walk! Focus on reaching FitBit step goals. <BR> <BR> *Strength train 20 minutes every day, focusing on upper, core, OR lower body each day. (... Mon, 16 Oct 2017 09:31:59 EST I Found a New "Why" for Losing Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6417962 I am going through PTSD therapy right now to try to get rid of the one symptom that remains from a particularly vicious rape. One of the things I did to feel safe after the rape was to pack on a LOT of pounds. I remember how I felt like a ragdoll in the hands of my rapist. I was thin and only 5' 2" tall, and he was over 300 pounds and much stronger than I was. <BR> <BR> Afterwards, I reasoned that no guy would even notice me if I was fat, so therefore I would be safe when I went into the pub... Wed, 4 Oct 2017 09:13:39 EST My Goals for BLC35 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6408955 BLC35 Goals: <BR> <BR> Track every meal and snack (I rarely eat enough to reach my calorie range, but I am going to do the best I can to get at least 1500 to 1800 calories per day) <BR> <BR> ST 2-3 times per week <BR> <BR> Establish regular ST routine <BR> <BR> Weekly fitness minutes goal: 500 <BR> <BR> Daily step goal 15,000 (5 days) Weekly: 45,000 <BR> <BR> Lose 5% of my weight (11 pounds) <BR> Fri, 8 Sep 2017 09:01:01 EST Thank you! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6397819 I was skimming through some of my old blogs this morning, and I found comments that I had no idea were there! <BR> <BR> I am overwhelmed by the caring thoughts and words so many of you have toward me, especially when I reached the end of my weight-loss rope. I had given up completely after decades of trying and succeeding for a little while and then watching myself destroy all that success. <BR> <BR> Why do I do this to myself? <BR> <BR> After almost a year of professional help, I think I ... Wed, 9 Aug 2017 09:25:41 EST Things to do besides eat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6395202 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d2e3a613-66c9-4249-a3e0-bb793da7f5ce.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is just another tool I have added to my plan. <BR> I found some suggestions on Pinterest, which then inspired me to think of others that I could add to the jar. <BR> <BR> It is sitting on my kitchen counter where I measure the foods I eat, so now all I have to do when I am tempted to eat outside my food plan, I can simply reach in the jar for inspiration. I tend to fail in coming up ... Wed, 2 Aug 2017 17:00:08 EST My Non-Weight-Focused Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6393936 For years I have used the scale as my indication of whether or not I am successful in my attempts to lose weight. Then I read an Spark article by Molly Galbraith concerning setting goals that are not focused on weight loss. <BR> <BR> Here is the link to the article (although I think you'll have to copy and paste it): <BR> <BR> http://www.sparkpeople.com/blog/blog.asp<BR>?post=5_goals_to_focus_on_instead_of_t<BR>he_scale <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> I took her advice. <BR> Here is the result: <BR... Sun, 30 Jul 2017 18:21:49 EST Continuing to plan for success: My Binder http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6393929 Today, part of my planning for success included writing My Life Vision Statement (LVS). It involves writing the things that are important to me, as well as writing my vision for my life 5-, 10-, and 15 years from now. I also wrote about the way I envision a my ideal day. <BR> <BR> Also, I put together my binder. It is 1" binder that has a clear cover where I can slip in a piece of paper as a cover. On that paper is printed all my reasons for doing the hard work of choosing to eat right and e... Sun, 30 Jul 2017 17:56:35 EST P.A.W.S.E. - still part of my plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6393919 Thanks to the Tenacious Jungle Tigers team, who graciously allowed me to be one during the last BLC that they existed, I now have several tools in kit to help me plan for BLC35. <BR> <BR> Every week during that time, they had something they used to help keep us on track.. <BR> <BR> Since Wednesdays were the day after we finished the previous week's challenge, and also was the day before we received the next Weekend Challenge (WEC), it was sort of a day of rest (but not really). Instead of r... Sun, 30 Jul 2017 17:28:06 EST My Rewards System http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6391378 As I am gearing up for success in BLC35, I have created a rewards system that is based on an article I read here: <BR> <BR> http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/moti<BR>vation_articles.asp?id=1990 <BR> <BR> Here is my reward system... <BR> <BR> <BR> Collecting Stars: <BR> 1 star for going to bed by 10pm <BR> 1 star for getting up by 6am (not hitting snooze) <BR> 1 star for dressing to makeup <BR> 1 star for keeping my morning flylady routine <BR> 1 star for keeping my flylady afternoo... Mon, 24 Jul 2017 09:43:57 EST Planning for Success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6390732 I am getting ready for the Biggest Loser Challenge #35 (BLC35), and I am planning for success. <BR> <BR> Today I have been working on menus and fitness plans. <BR> <BR> Here are some menus I have prepared, but I still want to write several more so I'll have plenty to choose from. <BR> <BR> Menus: <BR> <BR> Breakfast #1 <BR> <BR> 2 egg whites <BR> Oatmeal <BR> Sunflower seeds (1/2 ounce) <BR> ½ c. cherry/berry blend, thawed <BR> 1 WW Toast <BR> Almond milk <BR> <BR> Calories: 340 <BR> Ca... Sat, 22 Jul 2017 20:09:29 EST My 60th Birthday Gift to Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6388647 First I said I would lose all the excess weight by the time I was 40. <BR> Then 45. <BR> Then 50. <BR> Then 55. <BR> <BR> Enough is enough! <BR> <BR> I have a LOT of weight to lose: at least 90 pounds. <BR> <BR> It will take me a looooong time to do it safely. <BR> <BR> If I begin now and do all I can to lose 5% of my weight per each 12-week period of time, it will take me 2 1/2 years to take it all off. <BR> <BR> (stunned expression) <BR> <BR> Yeah, as though I didn't see this coming. ... Mon, 17 Jul 2017 18:44:13 EST Finding my way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6345541 I have been in therapy for my eating disorder for several months now, and although I have accepted that what I need to do to be healthy is to eat balanced meals without the junk food, I am still struggling with meal plans. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I started a weight loss class at the nearby VA hospital. It was strange to be sitting in a class with people who look not all that different from me and yet finding that our needs are different. <BR> <BR> We were all told about the need to choose the ... Sat, 8 Apr 2017 11:30:41 EST Therapy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6277805 I have decided to seek treatment for my eating disorder, and I have been diagnosed as anorexic with purging tendencies in partial remission. <BR> <BR> My therapist has told me to throw away my bathroom scales because they only make the problem worse for me. <BR> <BR> So I guess I will remain a part of this community so that I can track my food, but I will no longer be weighing in. I guess that means I can no longer take part in Biggest Loser Challenges. <em>39</em> I did so enjoy them. <... Wed, 7 Dec 2016 21:27:58 EST Change your mind and you will change your life. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6264796 I heard this on a book I was listening to the other day, and it was like an epiphany. I don't know why I haven't "gotten" this before now: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/cf7f187e-07a0-4163-af94-fa4e6bc17b61.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So I am working to change my mind. <BR> <BR> 10 Habits of Optimists: <BR> 1. Have Gratitude <BR> 2. Share Your Stories to Inspire Others (and listen to other’s stories as well) <BR> 3. Forgive <BR> 4. Be a Better Listener <BR> 5. Turn Envy and... Thu, 10 Nov 2016 11:50:58 EST Where I am today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6212200 It's been a little over two weeks since I wrote my last blog. <BR> And I'm glad I wrote it. It's important in my journey to freedom from obesity. <BR> <BR> Since that day, I began to read other books unrelated to weight loss. They were books about my faith (Christianity). <BR> <BR> Then I did a 5-day water fast. In the process I cleared out my system, sought the Lord, and lost about 12 pounds. <BR> <BR> Because I have so much trouble with my gut, I am now beginning to experiment with foods... Thu, 4 Aug 2016 13:45:18 EST I don't know what's wrong with me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6202704 I really don't know what's wrong with me. <BR> <BR> I just feel blah. <BR> <BR> Feeling pulled in several directions at one time, it is hard for me to stay focused on my 100 Days to Weight Loss. <BR> <BR> Simply put, I have zero motivation inside me for anything that I am attempting to do, and I feel battle fatigue. <BR> <BR> Quite frankly, I am so very tempted to just accept that I am fat and this is simply going to remain my lot in life. There are so many other things I would rather spe... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 16:41:02 EST Day 5 - 100 Days to Weight Loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6200071 I had to do 2 entries today because I got sidetracked yesterday with a family emergency. <BR> <BR> "No one will ever care as much about your diet plan as you. So it's your job to prevent people or events from pulling you off track." - Linda Spangle <BR> <BR> Well THAT'S true! <BR> <BR> I will make a commitment to protect my program at all costs. <BR> <BR> I will look for ways I can use to avoid going off track. <BR> If someone wants me to eat something with them I know will derail my pla... Wed, 13 Jul 2016 22:26:04 EST Day 4 - 100 Days to Weight Loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6200063 Create a "Magic Notebook." <BR> <BR> "When you think about a particular food that you want, write it down, how much you will eat, and then wait for a later time. Then practice this whenever you want to eat something when you are not really hungry. Also, practice making the time you wait to eat it last longer and longer between the time you think you want to eat it and the time you actually DO eat it." <BR> <BR> This is a paraphrase of what is written in the book. <BR> <BR> Today, when I wa... Wed, 13 Jul 2016 22:07:30 EST Day 3 - 100 Days to Weight Loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6198423 My sleep is really messed up now that my husband is not working. So here I am writing out my plan for today at 2:30AM. <BR> <BR> Today, in this challenge, we are talking about the differences in people who are only interested in losing weight and those who are COMMITTED to losing weight. <BR> <BR> Because I am still awake at this time of the morning, I assume that when I wake up in a few hours I will not want to do my circuit training. Therefore, right now I commit to JUST DO IT! <BR> <BR>... Mon, 11 Jul 2016 03:35:46 EST Day 2 - 100 Days to Weight Loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6197978 I must COMMIT to my plan for weight loss and fitness instead of simply being interested in it. To be committed is to DO the plan every single day, NO. MATTER. WHAT. <BR> <BR> Therefore, my plan for COMMITTING is this: <BR> <BR> I will rise in the morning and DECIDE to work my plan for just one more day---to just DO it. I can do anything for one day. And since every day is a new day, I can commit to do the plan for just one more day. <BR> <BR> It is Sunday, July 10, 2016. <BR> I commit to ... Sun, 10 Jul 2016 09:58:31 EST Day 1 - 100 Days to Weight Loss Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6197692 1) I used to quit my weight loss and fitness plan after a 20-30 pound loss, but now I commit EACH DAY to do it just one. more. day. <BR> <BR> 2) I used to eat junk whenever I would get stressed, and before I did, I would always think, "I want something sweet," but now, when I think I want something sweet, I eat a dill pickle instead and drink a full glass of water. <BR> <BR> 3) I used to keep junk food in the bottom drawer of my kitchen cabinets, thinking that I would avoid eating them if I... Sat, 9 Jul 2016 18:40:18 EST