GRRLNXTDR's SparkPeople Blog GRRLNXTDR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community First Time Ever This will be the first time I've ever attempted to do some New Year's Resolutions type things. My NYR is to be good to myself. So I'm starting this morning. <BR> <BR> My goal is to get off the medications: 1750mg of metformin, 20mg pravastatin, 40mg lisinopril, 2.5mg glyburide. I quit taking Prozac about 2 weeks ago, because it made me nauseous. I think the wellbutrin made me permanently testy – I still have some pretty bad road rage but since I quit taking them, it’s a bit more conta... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 07:01:23 EST What is Wrong with Me? Why can't I seem to stick to anything? I did so good from June to August - I dropped about 15 pounds. And then suddenly, I just go right back to my old ways and gain it all right back. I'm so miserable, sad, depressed, and lonely and I just don't know how much more i can do. How many more times I can start over. I'm fading fast. I really could use a friend who lived close enough to come with me to the gym in the early mornings - I just am too exhausted after working 10 hours to go in the... Sun, 18 Nov 2012 19:30:29 EST Scared Straight I actually moved back in February like I wanted to, because I just couldn't deal with living with other people anymore. I now live alone. Recently I went on the South Beach Diet with a coworker in support of her husband because he was told if he didn't lose weight he'd have to go on insulin shots. <BR> <BR> I've been doing good, but I haven't lost a lot like the claim the phase 1 of the diet will do. And, I noticed when I started the diet, I had a nagging pain in my chest that I ignored ... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 07:00:22 EST I Was Zapped. It Worked (Mostly). So, I had the laser treatments since August. I'd say 80% of the hair is gone. I now wax every few weeks and it's like I don't have issues at all. <BR> <BR> With this out of the way, I'm wanting to start going to the gym - but alas, I moved in with this friend and it's not convenient and my work obligations and commuting all are making for interesting obstacles. I am hoping to move to the south end of Baltimore in the fall so i can be closer to work, and without distraction. Not fond of h... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 02:01:29 EST Something Happened to Me. I believe I've mentioned previously that I suffer from PCOS. The symptoms of this awful condition include, among other things, hair growth in places a woman shouldn't have hair. I've suffered with this for over 10 years now, and it has impacted my life so horribly - I don't want to hug people, for fear they will feel my "5 o'clock shadow". I won't go out in the sunlight, for fear people will notice my face is dark around the chin area. I won't get up and just go to the gym, because I don'... Mon, 25 Jul 2011 07:25:48 EST Ch-ch-changes... I got into school and I start an online course in July, followed by some traditional courses mixed in at the end of August. Time to finish my degree and be good to myself. <BR> <BR> I can't sleep tonight, and I wish I had some Tylenol P.M. I drank decaf tea earlier but I think there's caffeine even in that! <BR> <BR> <BR> Mon, 14 Mar 2011 23:31:32 EST Thursday, 64 DEGREES?!!! in February??? What!!!? I walk to work. Walking to work provides me with a mile of walking five days a week. Over the winter it's been so bitter cold, I sometimes cheat and drive in, and pay a rediculous amount of money to park in the city. <BR> <BR> So when I saw 64 degrees this morning, I am sure you all know I did the Happy Dance as I made my coffee at 5:30 this morning and ran a load of laundry. <BR> <BR> Spring is on its way!!! This means outdoor fun, like exploring the arboretums and parks in my area,... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 06:28:31 EST Bloggity Blog Blog - Awareness!!!! It Works! I am experimenting. This week alone I've dropped 3 pounds already and I'm not even dieting. How, you are asking. I know you are thinking, she's starving herself. NOPE. I am AWARE. Becoming AWARE may be the single most important thing you can do for yourself in your journey to health. <BR> <BR> I know this sounds OCD, but I weigh myself about three times in the morning: Once when I first get up, once after my first bm, and once before I get in the shower. I then average those numbers.... Wed, 16 Feb 2011 06:45:35 EST What Am I So Afraid Of? I feel like I'm testing "how many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?" The center of the tootsie pop is the root of everything that makes me so awesome, and the tootsie pop itself is the sweet, sweet layer of indecision, insecurity, and every possible excuse to not become what I really want to become. How many times will I get fed up, go on a binge diet, lose a few pounds, and then gain it all back again? <BR> <BR> As I sit here, and as I promise to myself that I WILL ... Sun, 2 Jan 2011 17:50:42 EST I'm Not Happy. I can't motivate. I can't sleep. I eat like crap. I'm lonely. I'm miserable. I hate my life. Thu, 25 Feb 2010 22:48:13 EST Perhaps This is the Answer I've Been Waiting to Hear... I joined the gym last year, and in the summer I got a bike and started riding the trails. I tried, sometimes I'd fail and I'd go right back to doing the things I shouldn't. I had friends who were active and trying to tell me how to do things even though I know now how to do it. It would get frustrating at times, sitting in an italiann restaurant and trying to explain to a thin person that I can't eat pasta - especially a hard-headed person with ADHD, haha. But I was doing good. Things wer... Mon, 2 Feb 2009 08:52:38 EST Putting an End to "Nothing's Changed About Her" So I joined SparkPeople in 2005 or 2006, and to date, I've done very little, if anything at all to stay motivated. The emails I get on a daily basis from SparkPeople was making me depressed, knowing I'd never really look at the new recipe or new article for the day. <BR> <BR> I'm 31. I moved out from my folks at one point, but moved back home recently since there's no housing in this area and I have to be near my work. My life has been one big binge schedule: Wake up, eat something junk... Thu, 3 Jan 2008 01:08:48 EST Weekends This past weekend was very difficult to maintain my sanity. I love my mom and dad, and it was nice to have my nephew out of the house visiting his mother - but the temptation to binge is always looming in the distance. I still catch myself opening the fridge and wondering when I walked over there to do it. <BR> <BR> I felt lonely this weekend. Which is bad because I'm never really alone. I'm single but I have family and friends. Loneliness is my #1 binge trigger. <BR> <BR> I had some tr... Mon, 13 Nov 2006 11:33:43 EST The First One (I posted this on MySpace, too) Hello my friends! <BR> <BR> As I am sure you all very well know, I've been slacking and overindulging, I've let my body become a slum - so, as part of my goal on my Fast Track for the next two weeks, I have to tell at least one person a day about my weight loss goals and what I hope to accomplish. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I'm using an assistant website that you guys might enjoy reading about, it's called and it has tons of information on it about losing weight, getting in sha... Mon, 6 Nov 2006 12:36:08 EST