GRIFF2734's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=GRIFF2734 GRIFF2734's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ A year cancer free http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4950257 All praise to my Lord Jesus!!! This year has been an interesting one as I was healing from my surgery for cancer and getting the ok to start working out again I found out that I had 2 hernias that needed to be taken care of asap. I thought to myself "Oh No not another surgery" On March 30th I went in to have it taken care of just 9 months from the last surgery. The doctor had to cut me again in the same place I was cut before to place a mesh inside my body. Needless to say recovery from th... Sun, 1 Jul 2012 12:19:22 EST CANCER FREE!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4630062 I went to my doctor last Tuesday Dec 13th and she gave me the great news...I AM CANCER FREE!!! All I could do is praise my Jesus!!! There really are no words just hands lifted up in Praise to the one who hears and answers prayers JESUS!!! <BR> <BR> Psalm 30:4 <BR> "Sing to the LORD, you saints of his; praise his holy name" <BR> <BR> Psalm 35:28 <BR> "My tongue will speak of your righteousness and of your praises all day long" <BR> <BR> He has shown me he is always with me even during time... Sun, 18 Dec 2011 10:34:15 EST My final 6th chemo treatment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4596598 I must start by saying thank you to all of you who have prayed for me and to my Jesus for getting me through my chemo treatments. Not one time was I sick or tired or felt nauseated my blood counts never went below normal and I lift my hands to my Jesus who have heard your prayers for me and answered them. Im overwhelmed by all of you for your love support and friendship towards me and I am here for any of you who need prayer for yourself or for your family. <BR> <BR> I came upon this script... Wed, 23 Nov 2011 10:07:44 EST My 5th Chemo treatment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4566574 Philippians 1:21 <BR> For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. <BR> <BR> Ive read this scripture many times but when my eyes landed on it again I gave it alot more thought. With this phrase, Paul is saying "I can't speak for you but I can speak for myself." This is similar to our common expression today "As far as I am concerned" Paul was faced with the prospect of death at the hands of the Roman government. It in those "dying times" that one often thinks about the things that are th... Thu, 3 Nov 2011 11:30:52 EST My 4th Chemo treatment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4522278 I had my 4th chemo treatment yesterday I saw my doctor and as we were talking she said to me Carol you are doing ABNORMALLY WELL during your chemo treatment and your blood counts have been FABULOUS not one time have your blood counts been low since you started your chemo..She even asked me are you getting chemo?? We both laughed and I said yes I watch them put it in my body every time Im here. <BR> <BR> It all comes down to one person JESUS, he has healed my body, the fact that Im in my 4th... Thu, 6 Oct 2011 10:20:37 EST My 3rd chemo treatment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4474283 Went to the doctor today, I have to see her before I go to my chemo treatment for examination everything went well she is very pleased with my progress and she has given me the green light to WORK OUT!! Im so excited because Ive gained a little weight since all this has happened and I dont want to gain anymore. Even though the chemo has a steroid in it that makes you gain weight Im going to do everything I can not to let my weight get out of control Ive worked to hard to get to where Im at..... Thu, 8 Sep 2011 19:59:42 EST Obesity and Cancer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4434889 Many thoughts run through my head from day to day ever since I found out I have endrometrial cancer (cancer of the uterus). Like how did this happen? How did this tumor develop and how long has it been in my body? I remember sitting in the doctors office with my family and my sister asked the doctor this very question she asked do you know how this tumor got there and how long its been there? I remember the doctors first word she said..... OBESITY..along with other speculations that she had. ... Thu, 18 Aug 2011 14:01:00 EST 2nd chemo treatment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4423719 How I thank the Lord for his grace and mercy towards me as I entered my 2nd chemo treatment. I have had no side effects of the treatment no fatigue no nausea no feeling sick to my stomach NOTHING and I cant help but to give the Lord thanks for answering all your prayers for me. I stand in AWE of the Lords faithfulness to his word to me. He said he would never leave me or forsake me he is always by my side. My doctor and the nurses look at me in wonderment and shock of how well Im doing. W... Fri, 12 Aug 2011 22:07:39 EST My 1st chemo treatment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4373894 Today I had my first chemo treatment I met with my doctor talked over the treatment and what to expect and realizing in the next 6 months this will be a big part of my life. Going to hospital to get lab work done 3 days before the treatment then going to the treatment itself. Im having to learn to re-adjust my life in how I do things and of course how the chemo is and will be effecting my body. Having to make arrangements at work to take time off for the lab work and the chemo treatment, mak... Wed, 20 Jul 2011 00:12:34 EST Chemo class http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4356578 Today I had to go back to the Seidmans Cancer Center in Cleveland Ohio to attend a chemo class where we would meet the nurse who will be taking care of us during our chemo treatments. My sister and my mom went with me and there were two other ladies there with there loved ones for support. We met and discussed what we all have been recently through and I could see the fear, the pain and the uncertainty in both there eyes and the question of can this truly be happening to me?? Will this work... Mon, 11 Jul 2011 21:59:34 EST Endometrial Cancer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4343910 I went to my doctors appointment today to get my staples removed from surgery and to get the results of the biopsy of the tumor. I was lead to believe that I was dealing with ovarian cancer that I was in stage one and that I would be needing a light treatment of chemo. Well that didnt happen I could tell by the look on my doctors face there was something wrong. She told me that it wasnt ovarian cancer as she thought that it turned out to be endometrial cancer and that I am in stage 3a and ... Wed, 6 Jul 2011 00:49:51 EST Psalm 121 My help comes from the Lord http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4308561 1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains— <BR> where does my help come from? <BR> 2 My help comes from the LORD, <BR> the Maker of heaven and earth. <BR> <BR> 3 He will not let your foot slip— <BR> he who watches over you will not slumber; <BR> 4 indeed, he who watches over Israel <BR> will neither slumber nor sleep. <BR> <BR> 5 The LORD watches over you— <BR> the LORD is your shade at your right hand; <BR> 6 the sun will not harm you by day, <BR> nor the moon by ni... Sun, 19 Jun 2011 14:15:52 EST My day at the surgeons office http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4287596 These past 7 days dealing with the findings of a large mass and testing positive for ovarian cancer has given me a time to reflect on how blessed I have been in my health. Im strong and healthier now at 50 than I was when I was in my 20's and 30's. Most of my life Ive spent obese and I cant imagine going through all of this at my heaviest weight of 430lbs. The only surgery Ive had was getting my tonsils out at the age of 31. <BR> <BR> So Im in the surgeons office shes asking me all kinds o... Thu, 9 Jun 2011 11:11:15 EST Joy in trials and sufferings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4280335 About a month ago I was experiencing some uncomfortableness in my abdomen. I felt it every time I would bend down to tie my shoes, or just pick up something. My first thought was that I had overtrained and I might have pulled or strained a muscle. Then I started feeling a sharp pain on my lower left side as I was training my client the pain was getting worse and worse I dont know how I got through the session but I did and the pain finally went away. As time went on it got more uncomfortable... Mon, 6 Jun 2011 10:45:35 EST I surrender http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4027913 There is no love sweeter than the love you pour on me. There is no song sweeter than the song you sing to me. <BR> There is no place that I would rather be. <BR> Then here at your feet laying down everything. <BR> All to you I surrender everything every part of me. <BR> All to you I surrender all of my dreams, all of me. <BR> <BR> If worship's like perfume, I will pour mine out on you. <BR> For there is none as deserving of my love like you. <BR> So take my hand and draw me into you. <BR> I ... Fri, 18 Feb 2011 12:38:54 EST In Loving memory of my dear friend Greg http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3370433 My sweet gentle Greg how I long to see you just one more time. To hear your voice and to laugh with you to hear you call me your love kitten, your honey love and your angel how special you are too me. I thank our Lord for the 19yrs we have shared together all the ups and downs we both have gone through to know you were always there for me to calm me when I needed it most, to reassure me when my faith was weak and to build me back up again when I saw no light at the end of the tunnel. <BR> <B... Fri, 25 Jun 2010 13:19:49 EST My training session with Jesus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2982241 As I was going to my training session like I do on every Monday little did I know that the Lord would fully take over my session. I have a wonderful trainer named Matt I have been with for almost 2 months now and we are getting to know each other. The first thing he told me about himself was that he was a Christian. It was to my delight to find that out and I just praised God for that. I meet with him 3 days a week so we have gotten to know each other rather quickly. Since I have met Mat... Wed, 10 Mar 2010 11:12:35 EST Psalm 63 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2962767 O God, you are my God, <BR> earnestly I seek you; <BR> my soul thirsts for you, <BR> my body longs for you, <BR> in a dry and weary land <BR> where there is no water. <BR> I have seen you in the sanctuary <BR> and beheld your power and your glory. <BR> <BR> Because your love is better than life, <BR> my lips will glorify you. <BR> <BR> I will praise you as long as I live, <BR> and in your name I will lift up my hands. <BR> ... Fri, 5 Mar 2010 15:07:01 EST New gym New trainer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2761333 The last 3yrs I have been working out with a personal trainer and he has taught me so much not just about working out with weights, kettlebells and cardio but also he taught me about food and how it all interacts with my workout. What he taught me I will have for the rest of my life and he has been so instrumental in my weight loss I am truly thankful to him. As my weight has been coming off I was noticing that I am ready to go to the next level in my workouts. What I could not do last year I... Mon, 18 Jan 2010 10:54:01 EST Onederland!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2739151 If you would have said to me 4 yrs ago I would be 237lbs lighter today I would not have believed you. Through many set backs many injuries and many plateaus Im 65lbs away from my goal weight. All I can do is Praise the Lord for his faithfulness the last time I was in the 100's I was 18yrs old and that was 30yrs ago. I am so overjoyed, overwhelmed and so thankful to the Lord for what he has done for me. The Lord has shown me that if we trust him and take him at his word he will help us and ... Wed, 13 Jan 2010 10:37:42 EST Roadblocks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2626438 Life is full of roadblocks whether it be your health, family, relationships, a job sometimes it seems never ending and you find yourself saying "When is this going to end". But with each roadblock Im finding that its making me stronger its teaching me to grow and mature and its changing me from within. Ive realized that Im not the same person I was before I started this weight loss journey 4yrs ago. <BR> <BR> Roadblock of injuries, health and family. Injuries due to working out health issue... Fri, 11 Dec 2009 09:05:36 EST 2 months into insulin resistance diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2578496 Its been 2 months since I have been on the insulin resistance diet and its been difficult but doable. Its the hardest thing I have ever had to do but with the Lord by my side there is nothing that I cannot do. I saw the doctor on 11/20 and when he saw me this big smile came on his face because in the 2 months I have dropped 25lbs and lost a size I was in a 18/20 I am now in a 14/16. He said and I quote "Look at you Im so proud of what you have accomplished in 2 months". We went over all my bl... Sat, 21 Nov 2009 10:00:35 EST Our Beautiful Jesus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2481340 Revelation 2:8-9 <BR> “To the angel of the church in Smyrna write: <BR> These are the words of him who is the First and the Last, who died and came to life again. I know your afflictions and your poverty—yet you are rich! I know the slander of those who say they are Jews and are not, but are a synagogue of Satan.” <BR> <BR> Going through these 2 verses I also see that Jesus has a powerful purpose in this churches pain. The first purpose that we see is nothing goes to waste with God pain c... Thu, 15 Oct 2009 12:58:09 EST 23 days into my insulin resistant diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2467573 Im 23 days into this diet and I have lost 14lbs!! and I have gone down a size. My energy levels are great which Im so surprised at especially when Im working out. I saw my dietician yesterday and she informed me that I was right on track and that I will be on this diet throughout the holidays. I have to admit when she told me that my first thought was OH NO!! how am I going to stick to this diet throughout the holidays. Its getting harder already with Halloween coming up there is candy everyw... Sat, 10 Oct 2009 08:45:05 EST My 1st week on Insulin Resistant diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2430708 Its my first week on my insulin resistant diet and it has been a challenge...THIS IS SOOOOO HARD but I keep in mind that this is about my health as well as weight loss. I have lost 7lbs!! and what a joy it is to see a weight loss I was so overjoyed I wanted to take a picture of it...lol I havent been able to lose weight all year and there goes 7lbs WOW!! Im thankful to the Lord for allowing me to go through this because if I wasnt tracking my food and staying dedicated to my workouts I would ... Sat, 26 Sep 2009 14:08:11 EST What are the risk factors for Insulin Resistance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2412410 You’re more likely to have insulin resistance <BR> if you: <BR> • are overweight <BR> • are physically inactive <BR> • are a woman with a waist measurement at your belly button over 35 inches or a man with a waist measure over 40 inches <BR> • have a parent, brother, or sister with type 2 diabetes <BR> • have polycystic ovary syndrome <BR> • are over age 45 <BR> • have a blood pressure over 140/90 mmHg <BR> • have low HDL (good) cholesterol levels <BR> (35 mg/dl or lower)• have high levels of... Sat, 19 Sep 2009 14:10:14 EST Insulin Resistance a setback I think not http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2391692 I have been gaining weight this whole year and couldn't figure out why. My diet is clean Im working out 5 sometimes 6 days a week with weight training and boxing. All of a sudden my body just seemed to shut down and instead of losing weight I started gaining weight. So through many tweaks of the diet and many changes of my workout routine and many frustrated days my trainer suggested that there may be something wrong and to go to the doctor to get checked out. <BR> <BR> Last week I went to t... Fri, 11 Sep 2009 14:12:14 EST JESUS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2344772 No other name gets your attention more than the name of Jesus. Whether you love him or hate him you hear his name and people react. Why do you think that is? Is it because of the words he spoke, or the healings and miracles he performed. Or was it his compassion for the down hearted, the lonely, the lost, or was it his display of amazing love toward those who didn’t deserve to be loved. Allowing us as sinners to beat him, whip him and then nail him to a tree and still with his very last b... Tue, 25 Aug 2009 11:16:18 EST Sparring Session http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2168906 Its incredible to get in the ring and spar with an opponent and its also scary and intimidating all at the same time. As I was preparing to get into the ring to spar I was a bundle of nerves, I was excited and I was confident I thought I was ready to go. I got into the ring still feeling confident and then the bell rang for the round to start. I froze I couldn’t believe it I stood there watching my opponent come at me with fists drawn and she was ready to go. My trainer had to actually pu... Sun, 21 Jun 2009 14:59:58 EST A SLOW PROCESS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2115773 Call it a diet call it a lifestyle change call it whatever you want it all still comes down to the same thing a Slow Process. Ive been losing weight now for the last 3yrs all on my own and I still have 50-60 more lbs to lose. I knew that when I started this that having to lose almost 300lbs would not happen over night. A lot of people suggested that I look into having the weight loss surgery and I did think about it but I thought no, I need to take control of myself I need to learn how to e... Tue, 2 Jun 2009 11:11:47 EST Strength training and boxing update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1940004 Whew!! is all I can say what a blast Im having. I have been with sparkpeople since last July and I am happy to say I have lost an additional 50lbs and many inches off my body. This year has been frustrating in weight loss Im so used to dropping big numbers and the weight loss has slowed drastically but I am still losing but at a slower pace and I know its due to me trying to build muscle and lose weight at the same time. <BR> <BR> The positive side to this is that I have build muscle all o... Fri, 3 Apr 2009 13:07:14 EST Jesus Christ is everything http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1881011 They despised his name and they didnt even know it. You and I do the same when ever anything fills our minds more than God. ITS ALL ABOUT HIM. Because you see the problem in America and in our churches is a lack of zeal for God and for the Glory of God. If you are zealous for the things of God if you realize what has been done the purchase that has been made for you in order to save you from your sin and the wrath of God. If you realize the greatness of the one who sits upon the throne who c... Sun, 15 Mar 2009 13:03:01 EST Attain Righteousness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1828937 The righteousness of Christ is personal to every believer. <BR> The righteousness of Christ means that when God lets me into heaven he doesnt do it by dropping the standard. He does it by meeting the standard. Gods mercy does not ever set aside or contradicts Gods justice it fulfills it. In other words when God brings a believer to heaven he does so justly. Look when I get to heaven I will be able to say <BR> I deserve to be there. Not that I deserve it by the works I did in my life thats not... Wed, 25 Feb 2009 12:26:16 EST He saved me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1826219 Jeremiah 17:9-10 <BR> <BR> "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? I the LORD search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings". <BR> <BR> Romans 3:10-18 <BR> "As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one: <BR> There is none that understandeth, there is none that seeketh after God. They are all gone out of the way, they are together become unprofitable; there is non... Tue, 24 Feb 2009 14:38:43 EST The one treasure is Christ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1808724 When I was 16 I said the sinners prayer and I believed I was saved. I wish someone would have come up to me and said: "You are dead, you are dying you are deceived you have nothing and your life is worthless unless Christ is your life". I can say that because of what he has done for me. Because I can look at Philippians 3:8 where Paul talks about it all being lost its a verse of victory its Paul he conquered everything through faith in Christ he conquered it all. I can look and I can try t... Wed, 18 Feb 2009 10:01:05 EST Hell; are you going there? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1783984 How many of you think that you will go to hell? The world has themselves convinced that this is a place they are not going to. No man wants to believe he is going there. I know that there are some of you based on what Gods word tells me some of you will go to that place. Some of you are headed there you don’t think you are because you have not Christ you have no hope your without God. But you don’t think you will go there, you think that somehow your going to reason, your going to figure ... Mon, 9 Feb 2009 14:04:55 EST The Narrow Way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1773003 Fallen fallen fallen turn to him and be saved. Fallen fallen fallen you need a savior. I have a question How can a dead man pass through a narrow gate? This is so important and since salvation is more about; than anything else the declaration of Gods power to the universe you can be asured that if God has saved a person he has changed that person in the very core of their being and he will continue working in that person to bring about sanctification and conformity to Christ. <BR> <BR> Ma... Thu, 5 Feb 2009 14:08:31 EST There is no QUIT in me!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1744521 My Battle Cry: <BR> <BR> I AM NOT AN INNOCENT BYSTANDER I AM A THREAT TO MY ENEMY <BR> I AM POWERFUL I AM STRATEGIC AND BOLD I WILL NOT SIT IDLELY BY I WILL TAKE GROUND AND I WILL ADVANCE. <BR> I WILL TEAR THROUGH MY ENEMY AND MY ENEMY WILL HATE ME <BR> I WILL NOT AVOID THE DIFFICULT FIGHT. <BR> <BR> I WILL FIGHT I WILL BE WOUNDED I WILL BE TARGETED AND I WILL BLEED I WILL NOT TIRE AND MY WOUNDS WILL BE HEALED <BR> I WILL SEE TRAGEDY AND I WILL FEEL PAIN BUT I WILL BE RESTORED. MY FEET W... Tue, 27 Jan 2009 13:32:21 EST Bootcamp http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1724156 Doing the bootcamp challenges has been an added incentive for me to keep pushing myself to get to my goal. I have learned alot of new workout challenges that are alot of fun and have given me more tools to use to achieve my weight loss and keep it off. I have dropped a couple more pounds and some inches while doing these workouts and I am grateful to coach Nicole for all her hard work and dedication to help us all stay on track and reach our goals. It has help me to stay disciplined, to keep... Wed, 21 Jan 2009 12:03:59 EST This Year is his Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1685161 I have decided to make this year more about Jesus than about me. This year might be a year of uncertainty but God will supply all my needs. When sorrow comes his joy will rescue me. This year could hold many trials but faith will be built on perseverance. This year may bring a season of pain but seasons change. This year may bring many things but there is one who never changes. Through trial or triumphs, joy or sorrow God is always there. This is his year to work in my life, change my ... Sun, 11 Jan 2009 11:15:26 EST Pushing myself harder than ever http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1618110 As I walk into the gym my personal trainer informs me that he is going to push me harder than ever. My thoughts turned to Oh no can I do this? As he was showing me the "new harder than ever workout" doubts start to settle inside my thoughts, and my old self of 420lbs crept into my thoughts, saying "I Cant Do This Its Too Hard". So we started the workout and within 15 minutes my muscles started to burn like they were on fire my body started to shake and I was sweating big time. I was ready... Sat, 20 Dec 2008 11:25:33 EST My 3rd year of weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1611133 My trainer told me I would not drop alot of weight this year he said this year will be about inches lost, chisling and sculpting the body and he was right. Even though I havent lost a significant amount of weight this year my body has never looked so good. I mean the definition Im seeing is truly remarkable. Ive dropped 2 sizes which is just as important as a weight loss. To think that 3yrs ago I was busting out of a 5x top and a size 30w in pants. I now wear a size 16-18 in a top and a s... Mon, 15 Dec 2008 10:39:17 EST Adjusting to the 210lbs weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1595832 Wow!!! I never thought I would say that. It certainly has been life changing. Just in the way that I feel is totally remarkable. I have so much energy now its hard for me to sit still. No more aches in my bones and joints they feel the best they have ever felt. I have severe arthritis in both my knees but that doesnt even bother me anymore. Through my weight training and boxing I have muscles that I never ever thought I would have, Im actually seeing a figure and a butt!!! that has been ... Thu, 4 Dec 2008 12:43:21 EST Weight training and boxing update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1569658 Weight training is going awesome. Switch my time from 4:00pm to 5:30am and its been great to work out so early in the morning. I have been doing that for a little over a month and Ive dropped 11lbs which brings my total weight loss to 210lbs and I am estatic I even dropped inches and have gone down 2 sizes this year. My weight trainer is the best I could ever find. He is a bodybuilder and competed for the first time last year in the Mr. Ohio contest and he won first place in the heavy wei... Mon, 17 Nov 2008 09:51:02 EST My eyes are filled with tears http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1531401 Being obese most of my adult life was very lonely, hating myself for allowing myself to get so out of control. I tried so many times to lose weight and failed time after time. There was not a day that went by that my eyes weren't filled with tears. Tears of disappointment, pity, loneliness, hatred, failures, excuses and no self control. I couldn't seem to pick myself up out of the hole I dug for myself. It was too hard, it hurt too much and there was no motivation to do anything about my s... Sat, 25 Oct 2008 12:53:04 EST Weight loss Gods way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1518816 When I gave my weight loss over to the Lord he first taught me to see myself as he sees me which was not an easy task because I felt and talked very negative about myself and he reminded me that I was his child and that he loved me even at 400lbs. I had many crying sessions with him and he taught me to set my eyes on him and not how much weight I have to lose or how long it would take me. Spend time with him in prayer everyday. <BR> <BR> I went to his word and looked up the word gluttony an... Sat, 18 Oct 2008 10:19:52 EST Think inches not pounds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1501729 This year has not been a good weight loss for me. In the last 2 yrs I have lost over 190lbs this year not the case. Weight loss was not there like it has been. But learning about my body has been an educational one. Even though I havent lost a significant amount of weight this year I have dropped 2 sizes this year and I am now in a size 16-18 from a size 20-22 and I couldnt be happier. I have not been in these sizes since high school. <BR> <BR> So I have to ask myself whats more importa... Wed, 8 Oct 2008 13:46:02 EST Because He loves you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1489325 The Lord says that there is nothing that you can do that would make him love you more and there is also nothing you can do that would make him love you less. <BR> He loves you, because he loves you, because he loves you, because he loves you, because he loves you, because he loves you. <BR> <BR> Because that is what he is like, it is his nature to love and you will always be the beloved and his love is unchanging and he loves you 100% He wont love you any better when you become better he lo... Wed, 1 Oct 2008 13:53:29 EST Boxing at 48yrs old http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1484926 If you were to tell me I would be boxing at this age I would have said your nuts but Im doing it and loving it. I did not realize how much there is to learn in boxing. I have a new respect for boxers the dedication and the discipline required to do this sport is remarkable. Learning just the footwork is a awesome tasks all by itself and then trying to put all the combinations together and learning offense and defense dipping and slipping the bobbing and weaving it is such an awesome workou... Mon, 29 Sep 2008 11:12:23 EST What motivates you? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1455149 I have been asked this question many times by friends and even people I dont know they ask what keeps you going how do you stay motivated? I simply say "ME" I motivate me because if I relied on someone or something to motivate me it wouldnt last very long because you cant count on anything or anyone to keep you motivated you can only count on and trust yourself and ask yourself how bad do I want this? Am I willing to do what I know to do to get the job done? <BR> <BR> Yes I get tired, ye... Fri, 12 Sep 2008 10:51:31 EST