GREENCAT1's SparkPeople Blog GREENCAT1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Knee Replacement Tomorrow! My surgery date is finally here. Tomorrow I am having my left knee replaced. I had my right knee done a year ago and I hope everything goes as smoothly as that did! Anyhow - I am looking forward to walks in the Spring! It will feel good to be able to move! Wish me well! Tue, 15 Jan 2013 16:22:45 EST Knee in Pain Sometimes it is overwhelming trying to do this. My knee has gotten significantly worse over the last week. I can hardly move. Sitting here is awful. I have to go....can't handle the pain. I am actually looking forward to my surgery, January 16th. Sat, 8 Dec 2012 04:24:39 EST Small Things Add Up I am having a good day! I am finding that adding a little more protein to my day helps me enormously. It really knocks back those cravings for sweets. <BR> <BR> I made some changes in my life that will better support me in my weight loss journey. I told my daughter that I couldn't bake for her this week. I thought she might be upset but she totally understood! I went to see "Breaking Dawn" with my daughters and passed on the popcorn! I didn't even miss it... <BR> <BR> I have so much w... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 13:06:49 EST A Little Setback Today I had a set back. I baked some holiday cookies for my daughter's business. One tray came out of the oven too brown. I decided that I had license to eat all of them - yes, I said all of them! I feel SO GROSS!!!!! I am disappointed in myself. This is going to be a challenging month. I really can't do this again! I am having surgery in January and I need to be at the best I can be from here. I am also aching all over (my joints) from the cold weather and probably from the sugar,... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 20:38:25 EST Post Thanksgiving and Still Going Strong Thanksgiving at our house was very nice. The food was delicious and the company even better! I have much to be grateful for and I never forget it. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I indulged myself but I didn't go crazy. I still tracked my food even though I was over my calorie range. Today - I have already exercised and I have begun tracking my food. My goal is to get all of my water in and at least 6 servings of fruit and veggies. I will eat some leftovers, but in amounts that I can track and kee... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 08:56:44 EST Lots of Energy Today! Today was a great day! I wasn't sure that I would be able to do everything that I did, but I am pleased to report that my energy was through the roof..... <BR> <BR> My daughter owns a small farm and sells CSA baskets and what she calls - "foodie shares". These shares contain all kinds of homemade baked goods, jams, conserves, pickles, etc. For the Thanksgiving holiday she sold pies. She asked me to help her with the baking to fill these orders since I am the family expert on pie baking. ... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 18:12:13 EST My Muscles Hurt! I am experiencing something that I have not felt for a very long time. My muscles are killing me from exercising! It hurts but it is a hurt that makes me feel good! I can't complain - I am just grateful that I can move enough to get sore. <BR> <BR> It is starting to get challenging around here with all of the Thanksgiving goodies filling up the kitchen. I have six (grown!) children and partners and everyone has their favorites. I love it all! I am looking forward to the brussel sprou... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 20:10:34 EST Feeling Good!!!! I am feeling good about things today. I have lost that bloated stuffed feeling in my body and I feel a lot more energetic. My muscles are sore but it feels good. I am also feeling positive that I will arrive at my surgery date in the best shape that I can be in right now. I already feel stronger in my legs from the walking and the PT exercises. <BR> <BR> I am also getting my Thanksgiving preparations underway. My daughter and I sell Thanksgiving pies and we have quite a few orders. ... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 12:46:11 EST I Lost!!!! I am so happy! I lost 2 pounds this week! Yay me! It was a hard week but thanks to words of encouragement and the example of others on here, I was successful. Now - on to next week! It is funny but a couple of days ago I was struggling so much with my sweet tooth and today it feels so much better. One thing that seems to be helping me has been to eat a little more protein. I also have been watching my nutrient intake on the nutrition tracker and really eating to meet those needs. I am ... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 09:35:44 EST Better Day Today I had a pretty good day today. I tracked all of my food, tried a new Spark recipe and I did my PT exercises (I am sore!). I drank all of my water and wrote in my journal. When today started, I was not sure how the day would turn out. I just kept plugging away and now that the day is behind me I can say "good job!". I didn't KNOW how the day would go but I had FAITH that if I went through all the motions, that it would be a good one. Now - on to tomorrow - reload and repeat! Tue, 13 Nov 2012 18:11:36 EST Do You Have What I AM Looking For????? I am really struggling today with my sweet tooth. I am definitely NOT hungry, yet all that I can think of is eating something sweet. I could eat sweets - I have some cookies in the freezer. Then I could start all over tomorrow....... except it is always "tomorrow". The same with my exercising. I am just walking down the (very long) lane and back and doing my PT exercises in prep for my surgery in January. Yesterday I did it and it nearly killed me! Yes - I am that out of condition! Bu... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 14:10:17 EST Busy Day But A Good Day of Food Choices! Today was a busy day but I still managed to eat well. We started off with a tofu scramble with lots of veggies and cream of wheat for breakfast. And coffee! Lunch was some lentil soup, carrot sticks and a small piece of HH cornbread left from last night. Tonight was a vegan sloppy joe on a small homemade bun, green beans and a cup of imagine foods sweet potato soup. In a little while we are going to have a dessert of blueberries from the freezer and pineapple that we canned. Lots of wat... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 17:45:17 EST I Am Getting a New Knee I went to the orthopedist yesterday. My left knee is bone on bone, so I will need a replacement. I am scheduled for January 16th! Wow - I hope it goes as well as the right knee did. That was a blessing! Anyhow, the doctor wants me to eat very well, hydrate and to lose weight prior to the surgery. Now I have even more motivation to succeed. Some folks might think that this is a rough time of year to try to lose weight. I am excited to plan meals and celebrations revolving around good h... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 17:38:50 EST I Am Back - Day 2 Yesterday was crazy! I spent the day baking bread for my daughter's farm CSA. And - I only ate two thin slices of rye with dinner. That was successful. I also had success in slowing myself down as I eat. I surprises me at how often I completely zone out as soon as I put food in my mouth. Doing the centering ritual really makes me aware of when I am eating for hunger and when it is purely recreational eating! <BR> <BR> The day ended with my daughter and her husband, my two sons and my h... Thu, 8 Nov 2012 07:23:05 EST Back Again and Here to Stay! The last year has not been successful for me as far as weight loss goes. My husband and I went plant strong vegan in February. I love eating and cooking this way - so creative! While it has been good for my blood work, (my cholesterol dropped 50 points!) It has not been good for my weight. My husband has lost quite a bit. I have gained 15 pounds. Sigh.... I actually lose better eating meat but I do not want to return to that. I have not been active on SparkPeople though I did check i... Wed, 7 Nov 2012 10:20:09 EST Update and Where I Am....... I haven't been active on Sparkpeople the last couple of months. I check in everyday, but I haven't been tracking my food or exercise... I don't know why. I feel so much better, both in mind and body, now that I am six months out from my knee replacement. I haven't given up sugar completely but I am using FAR less and I don't feel that it is affecting me like it used to. I am not a slave to it any longer. My husband and I started following a vegan diet a couple of months ago - and - wai... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 05:24:21 EST I Am a Sugar Adddict and I Admit It! I am so disgusted with myself right now. I have a big problem. I am a sugar addict! Finally, I said it out loud! I admit that I am powerless over it. I have been praying that God will help me with this. today - I feel like He has. Yesterday, I baked the most perfect vegan chocolate chip cookies. They were delicious. I can hardly write that now because I am so nauseous. I got up this morning and instead of eating the oatmeal that I had planned - I ate FOUR cookies. I immediately sta... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 06:02:41 EST Growth I always feel like I shouldn't blog unless I have something profound to say. I don't really have anything special to say today. I am just plugging along - learning - adjusting - and learning some more. It would seem from looking at my Sparkpage that I haven't really accomplished much. Actually, I have grown a lot over the course of my time here at Sparkpeople. The things that I am currently learning have to do with mindfulness - being fully present with myself ALWAYS - but especially whe... Mon, 9 Jan 2012 06:37:17 EST I Love the New Year! The New Year is especially meaningful to me because I also have a birthday on December 31st! This gives me even more motivation to reflect on my life and to set goals for myself. I quit making New Year's resolutions years ago. Instead, I set goals which I evaluate periodically. In 2011, I had a total knee replacement of my right knee. This has been a profound experience for me. I experienced the situation of not being able to walk - prior to my surgery. After the surgery, I feel like I... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 06:33:04 EST The Glory of Movement Yesterday I started outpatient Physical therapy. First of all, my therapist was amazed (truly!) at how far I have progressed in my recovery from the TKR. She said that I had recovered to a point that many people never achieve. I feel very blessed. So, she put me on the accelerated track! I rode the stationary bike, did leg presses, along with many other prone and standing exercises. She also stretched me. She kept asking me if it hurt but it never did. I didn't even get sore afterwar... Tue, 29 Nov 2011 07:50:21 EST My Knee Replacement I have been struggling for the last year with an injured knee. I finally got down to bone on bone. I was TERRIFIED of having a knee replacement done. I had heard so may stories of how awful the recovery is, etc. I can testify that for me it wasn't so! This has been one of the best things I have ever done! The pain is completely manageable and for me was less than the arthritis pain. I did everything the doctors told me to do and I have had a remarkable recovery. I used a walker for 5 d... Mon, 28 Nov 2011 03:09:45 EST PLEASE VOTE!!!!! Please vote for my son's band! You get a free download in the process! THANK YOU!!!!! <BR> <BR><BR>s.aspx?b=27213&sr=false&bn=The+LBG+Pro<BR>ject Wed, 6 Apr 2011 13:00:55 EST More About the Knee..... I went to see my orthopedist yesterday. I am now almost 5 weeks post-op. I am still having significant pain and weakness. The doctor said that she wants me to take a full 3-4 months to recuperate because the surgery that I had caused the arthritis in my knee to flair and it could take that long to heal. She also suggested that I get a cortisone shot in my knee. I did and the pain relief has been significant already! However, I got the bad headache and the flush and sweats - all of whic... Tue, 5 Apr 2011 10:16:15 EST I Lost! It is paying off! After a good week or so of really working my program, I lost a couple of pounds and I feel much less bloated. It feels good! I had a good week but not a perfect week and I still lost. I just kept getting back to center and paid attention to what I was eating and why. I have even been fighting some anxiety and depression and I haven't given up and turned to food to cope. This is huge for me! My success this week has me hopeful that I can continue this way and reach my ... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 07:17:11 EST Decide to Decide! I have been thinking about decisions. I am sort of a perfectionist in some ways. One thing that I do lately is waver back and forth when I have a decision to make. I haven't had this problem in the past. In fact, I easily made decisions. Lately, I think a lot about my age. (I am 54.) I want to get things right from now on. I don't know how many more times a chance to correct a wrong decision will come along. I don't want to waste precious time going down the wrong path. The thing is... Mon, 21 Mar 2011 07:12:22 EST Feelin' Good! I feel really good today. This week, I have been working it! I have been doing a good job with my food, my attitude and with moving my body. Last night, I was craving something sweet so strongly. My husband and I went to the bank, which is located in a grocery store. We also had a couple of things to pick up at the store. We went before dinner, so we were both hungry. My husband first suggested stopping for Chinese food at our favorite Chinese restaurant. I voted for going home and e... Thu, 17 Mar 2011 07:34:55 EST New Energy I feel energized by the results of my doctor visit yesterday. Even though there are still unknowns, I suddenly feel deeply planted in the here and now. I really had let my fear overcome me - not a very comfortable or enlightened place to be! For some reason, today I am more centered, more present with what is happening today and in this minute. I think that it is clear, after what is happening around the world as I sit here, that we only have NOW, this very moment. I am gingerly choosing... Tue, 15 Mar 2011 10:21:15 EST The Doctor Visit Today I saw my doctor today. The visit was encouraging. She said that since I am only 10 days out from surgery, my pain level is normal. She said that she was surprised with the amount of arthritis that she found, and that the surgery sometimes makes it flair up. It will be at least 8 more weeks before we can assess the success of the procedure. She recommended that I continue with movement as I feel comfortable with. She recommended that I take a warm water exercise class. Continue ice and ... Mon, 14 Mar 2011 19:37:17 EST Scared! I am writing this blog in a hurry - in between my puppy's adventures! I am scared. My knee seemed to be doing better the first few days after the surgery, but has gotten steadily worse over the past few days. It feels like somebody is stabbing me with an ice pick and it is hard to bear weight on it. Last night my girls were here and they told me that the Dr. said that I had significant arthritis and that she did all that she could. I am terrified that I am headed for a knee replacement! ... Sun, 13 Mar 2011 09:57:43 EST Pride I lost over 150 pounds in 2001 and kept them off for 8 years. Sigh... Gained back 100 of them. Here is the rub - I did it before and I think I should be able to do it again! I did it completely on my own. I was mindful about what I ate. I decided what I wanted to eat and I stopped eating when I was full. That was it. I didn't even exercise until I had lost about 100 pounds. Then I walked, swam and did yoga everyday. My life was different then. I lived on an island in Florida. My da... Thu, 10 Mar 2011 07:39:06 EST It Is a Good Day I am feeling good today. It is a new day. Anything is possible. It is sunny here today, though tomorrow brings the threat of flooding rains. But today, it is sunny. I am excited to go through my day today, making choices that allow me to love myself. As I chose my breakfast, I truly included God and chose foods that would support my body. It felt good. I am going to take a little walk today to stretch out my knee. It is getting better, but doesn't feel as good as I had hoped. I hope... Wed, 9 Mar 2011 09:00:11 EST My Progress Over a Year I have been Sparking for almost a year now. I feel almost ashamed at my lack of progress. I expected to be in a different place by now. It is hard to look myself in the mirror some days. I make some progress as far as losing weight, only to slide back up. I don't want to be at battle. I have learned a lot about myself. I have learned a lot about being still, present and engaged. I have learned a lot about giving up the "fight" and releasing this to God. Still, I have may moments of f... Tue, 8 Mar 2011 07:15:15 EST Knee Surgery Tomorrow! Tomorrow is my knee surgery day. Yeah! Anything to relieve the pain I am in! I have every intention of the surgery being successful. I am putting it and myself in God's hands on this. I am going to imagine every person that touches me, doing so with healing hands. It is always a little scary getting anesthesia and have a rough track record with it. But I am sure that this time things will go smoothly. What is past is past and this is now. So, I am asking for prayers and good thought... Thu, 3 Mar 2011 07:57:22 EST Do You Focus on Pleasure or on Pain? Enjoy your day. I wrote this phrase on a post today and it got me thinking.... It is SO easy when trying to make major adjustments in life, to dwell on the difficulties and to forget about the pleasures. I try to stay present with myself and to experience the moments in my life. I have to admit that I too often focus on how hard it is to make these changes that I am trying to implement, on how much I miss some things, and how uncomfortable it is to deal with the feelings that come up when... Wed, 2 Mar 2011 07:11:05 EST Don't Read This I try to be a positive person. This pain that I am in with my knee is really draining. I don't sleep well so I am tired all day. I have so much to do to get ready for the surgery on Friday and the down time afterward, but I am feeling overwhelmed in trying to do it all. Wow. Something has to give. My daughters are coming over today so that we can cook and freeze some meals for next week. My college boy will be home for Spring break next week. I wonder if I could convince the girls to r... Tue, 1 Mar 2011 08:10:49 EST Appreciate the Privilege of Exercise! I have arthroscopic knee surgery coming up on Friday. Today, I run around getting the pre-op testing and I also have an unrelated mammogram scheduled. My son is also coming home for a 10 day spring break on Friday. So, I am trying to cook and freeze meals ahead so that I will be prepared while I am recuperating. Sigh. So much to do and so much PAIN! In preparation for the surgery, I had to go off of my anti inflammatory drug and the pain I am in is horrible. I can hardly move! Again, ... Mon, 28 Feb 2011 07:00:52 EST On Being Human A recent advertisement (for chocolate) declares, "You are only human", and then states, "Isn't that enough?". I have been thinking about this (actually thinking about the chocolate...) and I wonder, why do we so often say, "I am only human" as if it were an excuse for some weakness? <BR> <BR> It might be just me but I think that being human is pretty darn spectacular! I am glad that I have a body, mind and spirit that allow me to move, think and respond to all of the experiences that I h... Wed, 23 Feb 2011 06:54:26 EST Thin Self + Fat Self = True Love I realized last night as I was reading, "A Course in Weight Loss", by Marianne Williamson, that I truly have two sides of myself that are at war with one another. The sides are my thin self and my fat self. I realized that I show a lot of favoritism to my thin self. Well of course, one might say this is normal and desirable. This favoritism does not serve me well. My fat self is me with a coat on, as Williamson put it. She is just as important as the thin self. My fat self has a messag... Tue, 22 Feb 2011 09:18:48 EST Changing Family Traditions and Emotional Eating I am definitely an emotional eater. I grew up in an American-Italian family and food is the answer to everything that is stressful, happy or sad! It is a sin for anyone to leave the table without being stuffed! While I am working to make lifestyle changes and changes in how and what I eat, I am often haunted by the memories of the many grand meals served at my grandmother's table. My grandmother was beautiful inside and out. People were attracted to her and my grandfather because of thei... Mon, 21 Feb 2011 07:56:12 EST My Family are Foodies! Help! My family are a bunch of foodies! I have to accept responsibility for leading them in this direction. My children (6 of them!) are all spectacular cooks - well maybe not Seth. My oldest daughter even has a catering business. Sigh. This is another challenge as I work towards health. This week I have had to face homemade pasta, homemade bagels, and mint brownie cookies, and that is not all. I did not do so well. What do I do? I find it so hard to resist this food when it is in front of... Fri, 18 Feb 2011 10:31:24 EST Winter into Spring It is a beautiful morning. The sunshine is so welcome after such a hard winter. I know that winter isn't quite over, but it is nice to have a taste of Spring anyway. This journey to health is like the transformation from Winter into Spring. We start from such a dark place. soon some light shines through - though we know the journey isn't quite over. Eventually, there are many beautiful days. Sometimes it rains, but the rain brings the flowers, just like our adversities bring personal g... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 09:00:22 EST Change and Fear Today I have a number of errands to run. One of them is to fill out paperwork related to my knee surgery, which is scheduled for March 4th. First, I am going to my daughter's home to give her a massage. She has been suffering with back pain related to tension. I am a massage therapist but I am struggling because every time someone asks for a massage, I sort of dread it. I don't want to bring this energy into the massage! I ground myself first and by the time I am working, the feeling ha... Wed, 16 Feb 2011 09:29:30 EST It is Scary Being Mindful One of my biggest problems right now has to do with honesty. If I am honest, I will admit that I do a lot of fudging when it comes to admitting how much and what all I am eating. For instance, when eating a newman-o, I will count two, when I actually ate three because I wanted to leave an even amount in the package. Or I will drink my morning coffee but not count the cream and sugar. And on it goes. Does anyone else do this? It definitely affects my weight loss. It is important to me t... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 08:52:49 EST How to have a Happy Marriage Today I am thinking about love. A few years ago, I was looking through a catalog and saw the name of a class that interested me. It was called, "Couplehood as a Spiritual Journey". That title or phrase inspired me. It is so easy in a relationship of many years, or even a few years, to get caught up in the everydayness - the little challenges and aggravations. It is so important to keep the bigger picture in mind. My husband and I separated for three years. It was the darkest time of m... Mon, 14 Feb 2011 07:14:52 EST Gratitude - Family Adversity to Family Joy I feel excited and happy today. I don't really have a specific reason - I just do! I also am feeling very grateful today. I have so much to be thankful for. Last night, I went to a dinner party hosted by my daughter. She is starting a catering company. The food was FABULOUS! I am so proud of her and her determination and creativity! Another son has a band. They just put out their first CD and they are awesome. Another son just passed his second test to be certified for computers and... Sun, 13 Feb 2011 08:45:32 EST Relief! And upcoming Surgery I am so relieved! Yesterday the doctor told me that I have a large tear in the meniscus of my right knee. It can't be repaired but it can be relieved with some minor surgery. I have already tried the medication, PT, and injections. So my best bet for relief is the surgery. I can't wait to have it done! She said that the recovery is usually quick and that I would have pain relief and better mobility in that knee. I am SO GRATEFUL! I was afraid that I would never be able to move well ag... Thu, 10 Feb 2011 07:30:12 EST I wish that I could walk a mile..... Today I will find out the results of an MRI that I had done on my knee on Friday. I am nervous about the results. I have been unable to put any pressure on my right leg and have barely been able to walk for the past two weeks. The knee has been bothering me for awhile but this was off the charts. My knee problems are partly heredity, partly the result of years of ballet, partly due to a front end collision a number of years back and all made worse by my weight. Hmmm. I am scared. I hav... Wed, 9 Feb 2011 08:46:29 EST Day 2 - 21 Day Vegan Kickstart My husband and I are doing the 21 day Vegan Kickstart organized by PCRM. It has lots of information and support for those who want to try a vegan diet. There are so many benefits to a plant based diet - better health in many ways. There is much support at the PCRM site. I even got a call from Alicia Silverstone yesterday! Fun because her book, The Kind Life, is one of my favorites. If you are flirting with veganism or have thought about trying it - check it out! The 21 day kickstart is... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 06:03:42 EST The New Year I love the new year! It is a chance for all things to be fresh and new. My birthday is also New Year's Eve - so I get a double feeling of starting fresh! It is a beautiful feeling! Anything is possible. Today I am committing to a low fat plant based diet. I am going to start all over with exercising - just 10 minutes for this week plus walking my dog down the lane. I am going to do it! Mon, 3 Jan 2011 10:02:01 EST Why am I such a Misfit? I am not Just a Nitwit.... Life has been so busy lately. I found out I was going to be a Grandmother for the first time. Sadly, my daughter miscarried a few weeks into the pregnancy. She was able to be at home, in the loving arms of her family. So much easier than in the hospital - which seemed right since she was planning on a homebirth. Something happened to me when I found out a grandchild was on the way. I felt almost panicked by my body - my weight - almost like I was trapped in here. I have been truly suff... Mon, 15 Nov 2010 08:43:52 EST