GRATTECIELLA's SparkPeople Blog GRATTECIELLA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Happy April I'd been sort of slacking on my Spark commitment -- I'd been getting my login points, but not always tracking food rigorously. But I'm back with a new commitment. Happy April! <BR> <BR> Passover ended this evening, so starting tomorrow it will be easier to eat healthy since I can have my morning oatmeal, granola on my yogurt, beans in my salad, etc., etc. And at the same time harder, since I love bread :) <BR> <BR> I also realized that I'm quite stressed out. I actually turned down one free... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 00:20:08 EST Weight and sense of self Just read a fascinating article from someone who had weight loss surgery and felt that since she hadn't changed her habits and thought processes, she lost her sense of self along with the weight. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>g-180-pounds-really-does-body-8212-160<BR>-163900419.html </link> <BR> <BR> What do you think? Is your weight associated with your sense of self? <BR> <BR> I may be kidding myself, but I don't think I feel any of the self-loathing that "f... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 14:40:10 EST Go weigh your food! I recently fell in love with my kitchen scale. OK, love/hate. I love that it tells me accurately how much I am eating. I hate that what I used to think was a single serving of cereal, now I know is actually 2 servings by weight! <BR> <BR> It was very eye opening to weigh my food for the past few mornings. I wish more foods had weights on them in the Spark nutrition counter. For example, a "medium" baked potato is so confusing -- but if you had a weight in grams, I would know exactly how big... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 20:36:22 EST Thankful for my Spark friends I have noticed that some people on Spark make an effort to respond to every comment that's written on their blog. They'll send a goodie, or leave a comment on that user's page. I prefer to do it a different way. I try to keep track of what's going on with my friends, leave comments on their blogs, and send goodies when they're down -- and I expect them to do the same for me. So if I don't acknowledge each comment individually, it's not that I don't care. I just see it as part of the exchange ... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 20:38:47 EST Me vs. Depression Since I was an adult, I've spent some time on antidepressants. The first time was when I was at a point in my life where I didn't know where my career was going, where my relationship was going, where my life was going ... I fixed my career problems, and my boyfriend proposed, and I was able to get off the antidepressants with no negative effects. <BR> <BR> More recently, when my baby was 5 months old I was diagnosed with postpartum depression. I cried a lot, worried incessantly about wheth... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 01:39:15 EST Getting fitter all the time To paraphrase the Beatles: "I have to admit I'm getting fitter, a little fitter all the time!" <BR> <BR> I've been working on my Couch to 5k program (I run while listening to music on my phone, and at appropriate intervals the program tells me to run, or to walk). Today I finished Week 4 Day 1, which includes 6 minutes of consecutive running. I was a little scared to get this far. After all, I'm not a runner, and I've failed at running several times in the past. <BR> <BR> And yet, I found t... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 23:48:43 EST Mentally recovering from a gain It's been a tough week. On Thursday I was working all day despite having the flu. I took the day off on Friday, which put me behind on the work I needed to get done by the end of the weekend. I taught all day on Saturday -- fortunately I was feeling good, but I didn't have the chance to exercise. Sunday I was finally feeling good and finally got to do C25k again for the first time in almost a week. <BR> <BR> Today I made it to the gym, and weighed myself ... to find that I'd gained 2 lbs. Ve... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 23:48:18 EST New resolution: no more nighttime binges. I found a pattern: I can be eating well all day, and then after dinner, it all goes to pot. I'll have some fruit, some microwave popcorn, some yogurt, some light ice cream, maybe a little chocolate ... I especially tend to pig out after my husband is upstairs for the night, since I hide my ice cream consumption from him. Always a bad sign when I'm hiding my eating. <BR> <BR> None of what I eat are bad food themselves, but they add up! Yesterday I consumed over 400 calories in nighttime sn... Sat, 9 Feb 2013 09:41:32 EST Great way to stay under calorie range Hey! I found a great way to stay well under my calorie range for the day! It's the stomach flu! <BR> <BR> I haven't actually thrown up, but I've been pretty darn nauseous for a few days now. I'm going to be teaching all day again tomorrow, so hope I can hold out for the 6 hour class. I have managed to take a few walks in between bouts of nausea, so that's good. (Since my husband and son both have the stomach flu, I'm pretty sure it's just that and not anything else that's causing me to be so... Sat, 9 Feb 2013 00:39:19 EST It was the best of times, it was the worst of times Very long day today. Got up at 6:15 to be ready to teach at 9am. When I got to my classroom I found the sweetest note waiting for me on the board: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I taught from 9am-4pm, which is always grueling, even with breaks. I returned home to find that my husband still had a cold, my son now has a cold and is whiny, and my niece, who had come over to play, is also sick. And of course the house was a wreck because... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 01:50:17 EST Just one hour/day ... I am totally thrilled! After a 10-day vacation in Hawaii, some half-hearted journaling and exercising when I came back, and baking 2 cakes for my son's first birthday party, I finally got my rear in gear this week. I started tracking my food religiously again, went to yoga on Monday, ran yesterday, and went to the gym to do a short strength workout today. (I highly recommend the full body exercises in this blog post, FYI. They were quick but effective! <link> Thu, 31 Jan 2013 01:09:59 EST Just one hour/day ... I am totally thrilled! After a 10-day vacation in Hawaii, some half-hearted journaling and exercising when I came back, and baking 2 cakes for my son's first birthday party, I finally got my rear in gear this week. I started tracking my food religiously again, went to yoga on Monday, ran yesterday, and went to the gym to do a short strength workout today. (I highly recommend the full body exercises in this blog post, FYI. They were quick but effective! <link> Thu, 31 Jan 2013 00:13:19 EST Anatomy of two days of eating Yesterday I went about 700 cal over my limit. I ate a lot. One thing that happened was that I had a mini binge at night, but of course, the damage didn't start there. It happened all day long. So I decided to use my blog to go back over my food choices yesterday, and see how they all contributed to a day where I consumed far too much. <BR> <BR> I got up especially early because I had to get to work early. I had gone to sleep at 12:30 the night before, so I got less than six hours of sleep. N... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 02:08:26 EST If a walrus can do it ... Just saw this video of a walrus doing something that looked a lot like parts of my workout earlier this evening. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>=player_embedded&v=KfFjt9EXFgc#! </link> <BR> <BR> Enjoy a laugh -- that burns calories too! Tue, 22 Jan 2013 23:56:15 EST Back on the Wagon We just returned from a 9-day trip to Maui. It was a wonderful trip -- my parents, my husband's mother, and my brother-in-law, his wife, and their daughter accompanied us on the trip, for a total of 9 adults and 2 babies. We swam everyday in the pool or in the ocean. I snorkeled three times and saw a variety of fish and even a giant sea turtle! I gazed at the ocean views, enjoyed Hawaiian sunsets, and walked and jogged along the beachfront path. <BR> <BR> I got there intending to keep up wi... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 01:53:05 EST Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a nobleman, and dinner like a peasant! My body is feeling tired. I've been working out like crazy, and I'm still trying to find the right balance between that and my eating. Earlier today I was just craving all kinds of junk food right after lunch -- and guess what? I think it was because my lunch just didn't satisfy me after a light breakfast and morning exercise. So my goal for the rest of today is to eat healthy foods to satiety rather than worrying about the number of calories. <BR> <BR> Worrying too much about calories is a... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 20:30:41 EST Resentment gone! Not so long ago, I used to feel resentful whenever I heard that someone I knew had lost weight. I used to think, bully for them, but I can't do that. I used to get upset, not at myself, because I thought it was impossible for me – but at them, for succeeding where I couldn't. <BR> <BR> Now, part of the reason that I couldn't lose weight was because of an undiagnosed thyroid problem. But another part of why I couldn't lose weight, even after the thyroid problem was corrected, was that I just ... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 02:04:11 EST Catching up on life First of all, thank you to Wingless for inspiring me to blog even though I don't feel like I've fully thought through what I want to say. <BR> <BR> So today was a big day of eating. I signed up for a food tour of downtown Los Angeles with my parents -- so basically, we went to 6 different eateries and had nibbles at each one. I didn't pig out, but tried to eat reasonably -- I took a few things home without trying them, and stopped eating other things after a bite or two. I still went over my... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 01:56:27 EST I got flirted with! Must be my fab new body! So yesterday I went for a jog (OK, jog/walk) instead of going to the gym. Some days it's nice to get outside and exercise. I'd love to be able to do a race someday, but since I'd rather exercise in the gym most days, I'm not sure my running will really improve. <BR> <BR> Anyway ... <BR> <BR> As I was jogging along, a cyclist on the bike path nearby asked me, "You look like someone I know. Are you Tracy?" <BR> <BR> I replied, "No, I'm Hilary. But Tracy must be really good looking!" :) <BR>... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 23:31:38 EST Advice needed on setting goals I was recently reading an article (or maybe a quiz) on Spark about setting goals. The recommended goals, it says, are specific -- they have dates and amounts. So, for example, "Exercise for at least 30 minutes 5x/week" would be a much better goal than just, "exercise more." I totally get that. <BR> <BR> But it also recommended weight loss goals -- lose 5 lbs by the end of January, for example. I'd certainly love to achieve that. And in my friends' blogs, I see that kind of goal popping up to... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 03:37:13 EST Planning for a splurge Merry Christmas to everyone who celebrates it! Since I don't, my family and I are going out for a traditional Jewish Xmas: dim sum in Chinatown! <BR> <BR> There's no way I won't overeat. I LOVE dim sum. And I love eating. So how does Spark work when you know that there are times when you don't want to worry about calories? Is that ok? Or rather, is there a way to still lose weight while having those days? Food gives me a lot of joy, and while I still enjoy what I'm eating now on a day to day... Tue, 25 Dec 2012 03:02:31 EST Thinking like a fat person? Just read this article about a personal trainer who purposely gained, and then lost, 70 lbs in the course of a year: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>anning-fit2fat2fit-lessons/index.html?<BR>hpt=hp_c1 </link> <BR> <BR> First of all, this seems like a terrible idea to me. Not only is gaining and losing weight so quickly unhealthy, but I think most of us (especially those of us on Spark!) would only go through with the first part of it. And finally, it's just creep... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 00:38:43 EST Trying to Find Hope I continue to be sad and angry about the state of our country. Sad about the shooting, of course, but angry and frustrated that I just don't realistically see a way to solve the problem. I would like to see a solution that combines stronger gun regulation with more mental health resources. I hope that this most recent shooting provides a wake-up call to legislature, because this can't go on. <BR> <BR> When I think about the shooting I get so depressed. Will my son grow up in a world where t... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 22:55:17 EST Nanny issues, and under calories? It was a very full weekend, and now that the week is started, we've learned that our nanny is sick. Uh oh! Today and tomorrow I'm taking care of Adrian in the morning, and my father in law is coming in the afternoon so that I can get work done, exercise, and cook. <BR> <BR> On Weds. and Thurs., we're having our old nanny come. It's nice that she knows our house and won't need a ton of orientation. It's not so nice that the reason we don't have her any more is that she basically told me to m... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 00:16:09 EST Weight lost! The bad news: the radio is still talking about the aftermath of the school shooting. Such a tragedy. I just can't listen to it. <BR> <BR> The good news: I went to the gym for 2 hours! 40 minutes of cardio and a full body weight routine, and I feel great. I treated myself to Starbucks afterwards -- plain coffee with a little milk and sugar free syrup, an almost calorie free indulgence. But my real reward is that I weighed myself and I am down to 168! I can't believe it! My goal (for now) is m... Sat, 15 Dec 2012 18:34:38 EST Feeling Depressed - please help! The food was fine yesterday, and I should have time to get a quick workout in this afternoon before going to my parents' house for a Hanukkah dinner. <BR> <BR> But I'm feeling depressed. The news sucks: school shootings? a guy carving his six-year-old son's back on 12/12/12? older parents far more likely to have infertility problems and/or children with health problems, a fact of particular interest to me as I near 35 and my husband is almost 40? a reality TV show about funerals? (Actually,... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 17:46:38 EST Successful day It was a difficult day – I had to get up two hours early for work. I only had six hours of sleep, and I was exhausted all day. <BR> <BR> But I'm pleased to say it was also a very successful day! My first session at work was canceled, so with some free time on my hands, I managed to go to the gym and do cardio for 40 minutes. I'm so proud of myself! This also underscores the importance of keeping a gym bag in the car for unforeseen circumstances. In this case, so glad I had it! The only thing... Thu, 13 Dec 2012 02:23:56 EST Sleep vs. Exercise I've been thinking lately about the benefits of sleep vs. exercise. <BR> <BR> I feel like we all, especially women and most especially mothers, are showed the standard of someone who gets up at 5am, before her kids, to get her workout in, and then stays up late at night pursuing other goals -- studying for a degree, doing work that she didn't have time for during the day, cleaning and cooking, or even spending time with her partner. She is an amazing superwoman, and we would all like to be ... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 01:54:09 EST Mermaid, whale, or ... One of my friends posted the following on Facebook: <BR> <BR> " <BR> A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman. The caption was "This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?" <BR> <BR> The story goes, a woman (of clothing size unknown) answered the following way: <BR> <BR> "Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tendern... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 14:12:28 EST I'm back! Very excited to be back exercising and tracking my food again. Just writing down what I eat has given me so much insight into when I'm snacking, when I'm actually hungry, and what things I eat that are unnecessary. <BR> <BR> My weakness is sweets, so my new rule is that I won't eat sweets unless I'm in a social situation. The reason for this is that they can be a trigger food for me, and I don't want to indulge (even in things like low-cal ice cream) that could lead to a binge. But I also do... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 02:34:44 EST Proud I was bad about tracking food this weekend. But today, I'm back on track, eating within my calories (not even at the top of my range) and exercising. Good thing, too, because this is going to be a ridiculously busy week. I should try to get to the gym tomorrow before my full day of lab testing. And when I'll see my trainer again? Best not to ask. But we do the best we can when we're working two jobs ... this, too, shall pass. Tue, 15 Dec 2009 01:12:37 EST Still on track! I'm within my calories again today! Go me! <BR> <BR> Disturbing day, since I got a call from an irate creepy guy who was supposed to be a part of a study (though he's not anymore). But the eating was great. <BR> <BR> I had so much tea today since it's about 40 degrees outside and our condo is sporadically heated at best. But tea counts as water. <BR> <BR> Oh, great sale at Land's End -- I bought quite a few pairs of shoes. For $15 each, that's not too bad, right? <BR> <BR> And as for ... Wed, 9 Dec 2009 01:51:26 EST And still on track! Day 4! Today I took a break from exercising, which I don't think is a bad thing every once in a while. And I'm within my calories for the day AGAIN -- I believe this makes day 4. Yay! <BR> <BR> In other news: <BR> <BR> - apples baked in the microwave are delicious, even with nothing on them. <BR> - my very healthy whole grain muffins are much better with honey on them (and if it stops me from sniffling, so much the better). <BR> - Noises Off is a hilarious play <BR> - I got all my holiday pres... Mon, 7 Dec 2009 02:16:49 EST On track and proud I was within my calories again yesterday! Let's make it today for 3 days in a row!!! <BR> <BR> I've been bored at the gym lately, so yesterday I asked my trainer to do a more difficult workout (circuit training). It was great and I was exhausted afterwards. This month I'm going to try to do more different things. I attended a spin class on Thurs, which was awesome -- I'll try to do that once a week, and maybe attend some of the other fun classes at the gym like hip-hop dance, yoga, or sw... Sat, 5 Dec 2009 21:33:22 EST On calorie ranges, and staying within them Yesterday I was within my calorie range. Wahoo! <BR> <BR> No big deal, you might think. But this is unusual for me. Usually I am about 100 calories over. And as for yesterday? It wasn't too hard. But I ate all my meals at home (somewhat unusual), and by myself (very unusual and also a little depressing), and I also got up at noon and so didn't have breakfast per se. <BR> <BR> I love the positive nature of these communities and all the things I do on Spark. But it is time for NO M... Fri, 4 Dec 2009 13:10:05 EST A good day Under calories for once! Of course, I slept until noon, so I didn't have breakfast per se. But I'm still proud of myself for having a substantial snack in the afternoon when I was starting to get hungry rather than waiting until I was starving. Yogurt, granola, and pear with honey and cinnamon - delicious and quite filling, Though I still need a luna bar before the spin class at 6:15pm. <BR> <BR> I also had a delicious dessert of hot cocoa with a bit of Bailey's. I didn't realize until ... Fri, 4 Dec 2009 02:28:13 EST Restaurant food Once again, it's really really hard to estimate the caloric content of restaurant food. My tracker says I was under calories yesterday (at least until my dessert of raisins) and way over today. But who really knows? Frustrating! <BR> <BR> On the plus side, I've been getting my exercise and drinking my water. Does water drunk during exercise count? It sure makes me thirsty. <BR> <BR> I've got to start keeping a regular schedule. Of course, this is really only a problem since my husba... Thu, 3 Dec 2009 02:33:38 EST Thoughts on being healthy Back from my brief Thanksgiving break. I didn't count calories while away, though I did try to follow my general healthy eating guidelines. But I really needed a break, and if this vacation is like previous ones, I didn't gain any weight and I can now go back to my regularly scheduled weight loss efforts. <BR> <BR> Through Spark, I found the blog Oh She Glows <link> </link> . It's written by a woman who found that she was eating unhealthy in college, so she started eating ... Tue, 1 Dec 2009 02:35:16 EST I'm back, baby! This weekend I was feeling blah. But today was a good day. I'm proud to report that I was back on target, back on the gym, and back within my calories and nutrients (protein, fat, carbs -- all of it). It wasn't even that hard because pretty much everything I keep in my house is healthy and on program, so unless I decide to binge, I'm on program (I might go over calories a little, but not much). I'm so proud. Thanks to Buffshine and Lhlady517 for the support, which truly did help. Yes, I... Tue, 24 Nov 2009 01:47:30 EST Motivation, or lack thereof I think I've lost my motivation. You'd think it'd be there in droves, with my husband telling me he thinks I've lost weight (finally). But somehow, it's cold and all I want to do is lie around and eat candy. I think I need a vacation. And in fact, there are only 3 days left until we really do get a vacation -- but even that doesn't mean I can just slack off in my eating. Fortunately, the exercising seems to be intact, but how do I ramp back up to eating healthy? Maybe just having a week... Mon, 23 Nov 2009 01:57:08 EST Another good day Had an awesome day today, food-wise. I had lunch with my friend -- sushi, which is delicious but also low-cal -- and then after lunch we found a great frozen yogurt place. I got the most divine dark chocolate froyo with raspberries. <BR> <BR> For dinner, I made crispy chicken a l'orange, which was easy and quite tasty -- highly recommended. And a lot of veggies, so I didn't go hungry -- broccoli, left over sweet and sour cabbage, and a little soup. And I'm within my calorie range! Hoora... Sat, 21 Nov 2009 01:10:51 EST The blahs So on Tuesday I was within my calories -- in fact on the low end of the range -- and I was ecstatic. Yesterday wasn't nearly as fortuitous -- I ended up over the top end of the range. I'm not exactly sure why. Possibly due to a more caloriffic soup than usual with dinner, paired with sweet potatoes and beef meatballs, all not very low calorie. But I tried hard and was very disappointed that the accounting came out so high. However, at dinner time I was too tired to worry too much about w... Thu, 19 Nov 2009 22:40:23 EST Under calories! Somehow I was under my calories today. So whatever I did today, it must have been good, and I'm going to keep on doing it. Notable factors: <BR> <BR> - breakfast included protein, veggies, fruits, and whole grains (spinach mushroom frittata and oatmeal with strawberries) and seemed to keep me full until 12:30pm. <BR> <BR> - lunch was pretty typical: canned salmon salad, celery sticks, crackers <BR> <BR> - I waited too long for lunch (got really hungry!) and too long for a snack (again, g... Wed, 18 Nov 2009 02:03:07 EST Under calories! Somehow I was under my calories today. So whatever I did today, it must have been good, and I'm going to keep on doing it. Notable factors: <BR> <BR> - breakfast included protein, veggies, fruits, and whole grains (spinach mushroom frittata and oatmeal with strawberries) and seemed to keep me full until 12:30pm. <BR> <BR> - lunch was pretty typical: canned salmon salad, celery sticks, crackers <BR> <BR> - I waited too long for lunch (got really hungry!) and too long for a snack (again, g... Wed, 18 Nov 2009 02:02:39 EST Post-Thanksgiving recap OK, it's two weeks early, but my sister-in-law threw a Thanksgiving style dinner tonight, and I think I did pretty well. <BR> <BR> I started out the day with a hearty breakfast around noon (OK, we get up late on weekends): a fritatta (eggs and veggies) and wholegrain oatmeal topped with fruit. <BR> <BR> I ate a snack before going to the party. <BR> <BR> I managed to sneak in 38 minutes on the elliptical. <BR> <BR> At the dinner, I only ate the things I was really interested in. I skipped... Mon, 16 Nov 2009 03:01:23 EST Hiking in Griffith Park Went on a beautiful 2.5 hour hike today in Griffith park. Great views of downtown, the ocean, the Observatory, and the Hollywood sign. I led everyone up the steepest part! Yes, I'm very proud of that since I'm usually the slowest one. <BR> <BR> I also went over my calories today, even though I had only 2 real meals. It was the (nutritious but calorically dense) trail mix and lara bar I ate while hiking, along with gorging myself on sushi afterwards. But it was a lot of exercise, so I ... Sat, 14 Nov 2009 23:05:31 EST Turkey avocado sandwich! and, the importance of whole foods. Just had the most delicious sandwich ever for lunch: <BR> <BR> 2 slices Sara Lee Delightful Whole Wheat Bread <BR> 2 slices Honey Roasted & Smoked Turkey Breast <BR> 1 leaf red cabbage (for crunch) <BR> Half an avocado spread on for fat and mouth feel <BR> Dijon mustard <BR> <BR> Very filling for under 300 calories (and it would be a lot less without the avocado, but I think that was what made it so good). <BR> <BR> In other news, I made some very dense whole wheat bread, but I think it's... Fri, 13 Nov 2009 15:32:15 EST Pumpkin flan So, today I got up late and didn't go to the gym in the morning. My thought process was this: yesterday I got to the gym early, and by mid afternoon, felt all depressed and like I had nothing to do. So today, I thought, I'll go to the gym in the afternoon and get my boost of feel-good endorphins then. Plus, naturally I like sleeping in. <em>102</em> <BR> <BR> So of course that backfired. In addition to lunch with my grandmother, I found out that I was invited to an opening party for th... Thu, 12 Nov 2009 18:47:32 EST The case of the malted milk balls Had a good day today. My exercise and my healthy lunch felt good. Though I have to admit that I went a bit astray on my grocery trip and snuck 4 peanut butter chocolate malted milk balls out of the bulk bins. I still was within my calories, but I need to stop that -- first of all, it's immoral (and probably illegal), and second of all, it's bad for me. Even if they are organic. I never used to do this! <BR> <BR> I started getting really depressed as it was getting dark, around 4:30, but... Thu, 12 Nov 2009 00:56:28 EST Hungrier and hungrier Yesterday I was hungry ALL DAY. I kept eating just a little bit more healthy, low-cal food, and nothing helped. I went to bed hungry (after going over my calories with some low-fat ice cream and a piece of chocolate, since I was still hungry after dinner) and woke up in the middle of the night hungry. <BR> <BR> Today I had to get up extra early. I had a piece of quiche for breakfast, along with some whole-grain bread, in accordance with my newfound resolution to eat more protein for break... Tue, 10 Nov 2009 19:28:23 EST