GRAMMY_22's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=GRAMMY%5F22 GRAMMY_22's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Going MIA for a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5413921 I have decided to take some time away from SP. I have totally lost my spark for the past 2 1/2 months now and I just haven't figured out how to get it back. My weight continues to go up and totally out of control. I have appreciated all the love and comments that everyone has given me. <BR> <BR> Mon, 8 Jul 2013 05:57:38 EST Nice Anniversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5408178 Hubby and I went out for dinner last night at Longhorn Steakhouse. I did really good. I had a 6 oz sirloin, sweet potato without the cinnamon and butter, and a salad with light ranch dressing on the side. I only had maybe a tablespoon of dressing. I made the waitress return the first salad because I had specifically told her to put the dressing on the side and it was smothered in dressing. All I had to drink was water. On our anniversary I usually have a strawberry daiquiri too. <BR> <... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 06:02:21 EST Starting Over ... Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5407003 I need to seriously some how regain my spark. I am sick and tired of the scale constantly going up. It's up 5.8 lbs in the past 6 weeks. <BR> <BR> Today is my 13th anniversary. We went to Corpus Christi for a couple of days, then drove down to South Padre before we spent Saturday night in Harlingen. We drove back home yesterday. We used to always take our anniversary week off and just go some place but our jobs won't allow it. Donnie had to take 2 days of leave for the weekend for us t... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 05:43:49 EST The power of choice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395031 I was reading this in one of my textbooks for this fall and it hit home. <BR> <BR> "Do beliefs cause behaviors, or do behaviors lead to beliefs? Like the chicken and the egg, it's hard to say which came first. This much is clear: Once you choose a positive belief or an effective behavior, you usually find yourself in a cycle of success. Positive beliefs lead to effective behaviors. Effective behaviors lead to success. And success reinforces the positive beliefs." <BR> <BR> OTT--endoscop... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 10:08:45 EST The power of choice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395022 I was reading this in one of my textbooks for this fall and it hit home. <BR> <BR> "Do beliefs cause behaviors, or do behaviors lead to beliefs? Like the chicken and the egg, it's hard to say which came first. This much is clear: Once you choose a positive belief or an effective behavior, you usually find yourself in a cycle of success. Positive beliefs lead to effective behaviors. Effective behaviors lead to success. And success reinforces the positive beliefs." <BR> <BR> OTT--endoscop... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 10:04:24 EST t minus 1 week and counting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388349 I was up for hours last night coughing my head off. My pills are getting caught in my throat. This is the biggest reason why I'm having problems swallowing. All the coughing woke up hubby. He got so upset I wound up getting up and trying to sleep on the couch. <BR> <BR> I would do anything to have the doctors figure out what is actually wrong with me without it costing us hundreds of thousands of dollars that we don't have. The endoscope is next Thursday. I'm not holding my breath t... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 20:00:43 EST I need sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386560 Monday night I didn't sleep at all and last night I only got about 5 hours of sleep. I'm so exhausted this morning. I could sleep for a week. Motivation is totally down the toilet. Eating is awful and exercise isn't happening. I just don't know where all my motivation and spirit went to. I was so doing this for me...doing it for all the right reasons too. Wed, 12 Jun 2013 05:56:48 EST I'm spiraling downward again...I need help!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382351 I seem to be more in control of my life when I go to the gym. I have been away from the gym for about a month now...and I have been totally out of control ever since then too. <BR> <BR> I have stopped logging all my food. I have even polished down 2 full bags of m&m's in the past 2 days just because they were around. Candy = weight gain and I know this. <BR> <BR> I have been in this funk far too long now and I need to figure out how to get out of it. Sat, 8 Jun 2013 11:11:57 EST Double hooray to me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381904 I did my heavy housework today and cut the grass (before it rained) so I didn't have to do it tomorrow. Hooray!!! <BR> <BR> We won the first game of our super regional tonight...hooray again!!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l355106515.jpg"> Fri, 7 Jun 2013 21:57:41 EST What a week it's been! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380438 We just got back from seeing Fleetwood Mac in concert. Incredible!!! If you get the chance to see the show, it's well worth the money!!! <BR> <BR> The cardiologist said that all my tests came back fine...I'm so incredibly happy about that one! He is going to put me back on Lipitor because of my high cholesterol. I had showed him the numbers from my blood work 2 months ago. Family doctor wouldn't put me on anything. The cardiologist is going to keep following me up due to my cholesterol... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 14:29:14 EST Yes I'm tired this morning...nothing new http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5376302 Without even trying I actually lost 0.8lbs this week...woo hoo! <BR> <BR> I stayed up late to see our baseball team win their regional. Oh how tired I am this morning!!! They get to play Oklahoma at home next weekend. They live to see another day. <BR> <BR> It figures...it takes me forever to get an appt. with a gastro and I'm feeling good right now. I got a pill grinder last week and that has really helped. <BR> <BR> We went over to my daughter's house with food and cake and more gi... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 06:09:21 EST Asher's birthday party http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5375587 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/4/l747994817.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My daughter had a little party for my grandson's first birthday at a park up in New Braunfels yesterday. Since I was by myself, I followed them up to the party. I hadn't been up there since they had a baby shower for Lindsey when she was pregnant for my granddaughter. We got lost that time too. I came over early enough to help watch the kids so that mommy and daddy could get themselves together. They had been ... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 12:59:28 EST bad week...still not on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5373946 Eating has totally sucked this week (week 2). I have done minimal walking this week. I haven't been back to the gym in 2 weeks. I was going to start back to the gym next week but that's not going to happen now. I have to go to the gastro on Monday and the cardiologist on Tuesday. Wednesday and Thursday we're going to Houston to see Fleetwood Mac so those days are out too. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is my grandson's 1st birthday party and on Sunday we're going to have our own little party for ... Fri, 31 May 2013 19:06:04 EST ok...the party's over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5369985 We're up 1.6 lbs this week after being totally out of control on my eating and absolutely no exercise. It's time to get back on track before my weight goes any higher. We worked far too hard to get the weight off that I've already lost. <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> Tue, 28 May 2013 06:00:25 EST another sleepless night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5369921 I will be SO glad when someone can figure out what is wrong with me. I have an appt. next Monday with a gastro. I take a handful of vitamins after dinner every day. I have problems swallowing them and then for hours later I have problems swallowing. I'm coughing for hours after I take them too. I do have problems with food and pills getting stuck about half way down too. I can pretty much figure that the chest pains and nausea that I have been having for months now is due to whatever th... Tue, 28 May 2013 01:33:14 EST Can you tell that I love college baseball??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5369348 Our baseball team actually won the SEC tournament (a total shock on our end) yesterday. They only got a #4 seed in the NCAA tournament...and they beat the #2 seed yesterday too. 2 of the 3 teams in our regional will be a cinch to beat but they might have problems against the home run hitting ULL team down the road. <BR> <BR> I really love college baseball. This was the first year we didn't have season tickets in years. I love tournament time of the year. Going to the College World Serie... Mon, 27 May 2013 13:27:48 EST Lazy Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5368371 It's just a lazy day around here today. It's supposed to rain again today. The airport reported 9.87" of rain yesterday. When it rains here, it pours. 99.9% of the year we're in severe drought conditions. <em>257</em> <BR> <BR> We're going to get the grandkids this afternoon...yeah!!! Mommy and daddy are going to go to the movies during their free time alone. My grandson will be 1 next week and my granddaughter will be 3 on 9/11. They're a handful but I really do love spending ti... Sun, 26 May 2013 11:33:54 EST We're flooded in...again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5367536 Every time we get just a little bit of rain, we get flooded. This morning when it was still raining, they said that the airport already had 8" of rain since yesterday afternoon...and the part of the county that we live in got the worst of the rain too (the airport isn't on the north side not on our side of the county). We so need the rain but not like this though. <BR> <BR> Rain, rain go away...come again some other day!!! <BR> <BR> <em>27</em> <em>257</em> <em>54</em> <BR> <BR... Sat, 25 May 2013 11:59:28 EST I am so ready for the weekend...how about you? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5366862 I've had to cram 5 days worth of work into 3 days this week...but I did it. I even had someone call me a f***ing bitch yesterday on my work voice mail. Obviously I can't make everyone happy. <BR> <BR> We're going to get the grandyoungins on Sunday after church so mommy and daddy can catch a movie. Another grandma gets to spend time with the kids tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Since hubby has to work on Monday, I've asked my daughter to go with me to Six Flags on Monday. The park will be packed b... Fri, 24 May 2013 15:58:36 EST Thanks for everyone's love and support http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5365981 It seems like I've been on the downward drop in the roller coaster this week. I know that once I get over this funk I've seen to gotten myself in, I will be ok. <BR> <BR> I feel really safe to say that all my problems are not from my heart. The EKG that was running right after they pumped all that radioactive material into my IV looked really good...better than the troubling one I had done last month. They told me that our estimated cost after the insurance paid would be almost $1,000 not... Thu, 23 May 2013 18:49:58 EST I'm very nervous and scared this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5364213 I have been on SP for almost 2 months now and never bothered to do a blog entry until now. I am spiraling down fast...like I'm crashing and burning...and I need to get myself back on track...and fast! <BR> <BR> This morning I'm having a ECG and a Lexi-Scan done at the cardiologist. Part of me knows that this will not show anything. I need to go through clearing out my heart before I can go to the gastro and have them look at my esophagus. The Lexi-Scan costs so much money that my insuran... Wed, 22 May 2013 06:46:13 EST