GRACE2GRACE's SparkPeople Blog GRACE2GRACE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Revisiting My Perma Grin. In June 2009 my perma grin post was highlight post on Spark. I revisited that tonight. I have gained 25 pounds back and I've been struggling to get the weight moving so I wanted to remotivate myself and remember how incredible it felt. I hope it helps you too. <BR> <BR> <BR> A Perma Grin - (written june 2009 after losing 54 lbs.) <BR> The other day I went shopping, and I don't think my feet were touching the ground when I left. I have a strange facial thing happening ...I think it's c... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 19:52:38 EST Drink V8 Green Juice if you wish to meet your Inner Swearing Sailor! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> While visiting my mom last weekend I was missing my juice. So I purchased a bottle of v8 simply green juice, no fruit in it at all to off set the green veggies or the lovely spirilina pond scum floating in it. To say it was a putrid concoction that induces an immediate shudder dance accompanied to a steady flow of foul language is a bit of an understatement. It was however fairly pricey and is in fact healthy so ra... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 11:40:56 EST I've gone Koookooo for Veggies. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Fat Sick and Nearly Dead, Food Inc. Hungry for Change, Food Matters and Farmageddon.... <BR> <BR> All documentarys I watched on Netflix. Normally I wouldn't have watched them, but after watching Fat Sick and nearly dead I was drawn to them, like a moth to a flame, and yes I got singed. I will never be able to live in the bliss of ignorance again...but...I will never again have to live in the horror of ignoranc... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 13:03:16 EST Its all about the power of a Decision. One Decision can change your life. <BR> <BR> I'm making that decision today. I met my weight loss goal in Oct. of 2009 losing 52 pounds, and today its March 22, 2013. <BR> <BR> My scale as of today reads 170 pounds up 15, but the damage is even worse. Since the summer I've been eating pretty much junk and stopped exercising, I've gotten flabby, lost my tone so I look even bigger, my clothes are getting tight, and I generally just feel blah. <BR> <BR> I recall being in my healthy groove a... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 20:50:44 EST You can change your state from Blah to Va va Varoooom Instantly. <img src="">This year I learned an amazing thing from Tony Robbins a well known Life Coach, speaker and author. What he taught me is our body responds to our thoughts. If you are feeling blah and kind of sad....your body reflects that. You feel drug out, your moving slow, your body would rather not move. When your happy and excited its the opposite...your body loves to move, everything is quick and easy, you feel light as a feather, y... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 15:47:14 EST Allowing Danni from the Biggest Loser to Inspire me. Who watched Biggest Loser this Season and did you watch last nights finale? <BR> <BR> I watched and from very early on became a huge fan of Danni. Her team was wiped out almost immediately and so sometimes in challenges she had to do every thing herself but she never let it stop her, discourage her or get her down. With her team situation being she was the only one left.,who could have blamed her if she got discouraged. At that point the workouts were brutal for her, she was on her own and h... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 12:57:08 EST An incredible surprise and some encouragement for everyone. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> One of those surprises that take your breath away...figuratively and in this case litterely....went out for my walk turned right out of the driveway have only been that way once...encounter a hill keep walking...then the road kind of levels out...I'm just enjoying the beautiful day and the scenary but a few times I notice I'm breathing heavily I just think wow girl you really have to get back to <BR> working out. ... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 12:53:19 EST Whoooo Hooo I'm getting back on track and it feels fabulous. I'm so happy today. For the first time in a couple of years I was able to exceed my fitness goals for the week. I received the sparkpeople trophy for 1000 fitness minutes in a month and we are only 2 weeks into july. I've been drinking my water, eating loads of fruits and veggies and tracking much more consistently than I was. My scale is being incredibly stubborn despite all this but eventually I know it will have to cave. I finally think I've got my groove back and it feels fantastic.... Sun, 15 Jul 2012 10:06:54 EST Well I now am without excuse... I've spent a good part of the last two years bemoaning my job taxing all my time. <BR> <BR> WEll last month the hotel I managed burnt down and I'm working only part time at home now. So I have no excuse for not getting back into shape. <BR> <BR> I quit smoking on Christmas day and this saturday it will be 2 months, which is good, but I'm up 15 pounds from my goal weight which is not good. I have to take action now. <BR> <BR> My daughter is getting married in June and I want to look fabul... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 13:30:18 EST May I introduce my new running partner.... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is Lei the wonderdog. We call her wonderdog because she doesn't appear to ever stop growing. lol <BR> <BR> Lia is one of my grandpuppies and we love each other and we've been trying to run together for a while now. The great thing about Lia is if I get tired I can always ride her back. lol Fri, 30 Dec 2011 20:45:10 EST I Feel Gooooood....I knew that I would ya! its day 5 of my healthy, peaceful, smokefree new life and I'm happier than I've been in a long time just because I made my mind up to start making myself a priority and start creating the life I want rather than whining about the life I have and all its stress. Theres a great freedom that comes when you truly get to the end of yourself in a situation and finally just have to throw up your hands and say I'm through trying to control, or feel the responsiblity for what I cannot control. Halleju... Fri, 30 Dec 2011 10:52:35 EST Feeling super proud of myself today... Was up at 5:30 am and ate a healthy breakfast, drank some water. Did 35 minutes of cardio on the treadmill and didn't let my decline of fitness get me down...just kept reminding myself that I was doing the right things and it will come back. <BR> Tracked my breakfast and water....drank some more water. <BR> Came to work and took a small 5 minute fitness break, then drank some more water, <BR> then did a one minute visualization to combat the stress that was building due to the job. Actually... Tue, 27 Dec 2011 12:44:59 EST It is what it is...but I'm gonna change it. Feel like I'm back to ground zero. Can't believe how out of shape I am. Running is very difficult. Legs aching hard to breath. I'm astonished how fast I lost my fitness. However, I'm reminding myself it is what it is...and will only change if I choose to change it. I do choose to change it. I know how good I can feel. I know you make gains in fitness quickly. The past few months I've felt awful, no energy, not feeling well, not eating right, stressed out all the time. Its just not right and I... Mon, 26 Dec 2011 13:21:33 EST What I want in 2012. I want to learn how to let go of the things I cannot control. <BR> I want to learn more about stress management and meditation. <BR> I want to make myself a priority again and focus on regaining the fitness I have lost this past year. <BR> I want to live in awareness of blessing and gratitude and joy. <BR> <BR> My life hasn't felt right this year, the good news is...I get to have a say. <BR> <BR> So rather than just being swept up, I'm digging in my feet, I'm giving up excuses, I'm taking r... Sun, 25 Dec 2011 21:09:33 EST Celebrating a Successful Day. I've been struggling for a long time now trying to figure out how to balance my workload with a healthy lifestyle. Last month I had a real shock to my system, the realization that one day you can be healthy and the next you are not. <BR> Last month was a month of extreme sickness and extreme pain for me. Kidney stones, extreme kidney infection, high fever, then more kidney stones, then <BR> finally the news that my kidney was no longer functioning and an emergency surgery. Three weeks of... Thu, 14 Jul 2011 19:42:46 EST What do you do when you've blown it? I've been feeling pretty proud of myself for getting back on the wagon, tracking my food, exercising regularly and then yesterday....Disaster! <BR> <BR> At 2AM I was woken from sleep by one of the staff at the hotel I manage. Couldn't get back to sleep and long story short I ended up with 3 hours sleep. Yesterday was the longest day and my coffee cup was my best friend. When the work day...finnnnnnaaaaallllly ended. I came home pretty much dead on my feet fell into bed for a nap, but not... Wed, 12 Jan 2011 06:43:39 EST I feel sooooo good. I'm feeling so good right now. Its amazing what just having a few extra days off can do when your normal life is so insane. I have been struggling as my team mates know for the last year trying to find time and the way to balance a healthy life style with my work schedule. I was getting very discouraged and slowly gaining back weight. Over Christmas I had a 4 day break and this weekend I had my sat. and sun. and Monday. Shortly after Christmas I stood on the scale and was horrified to se... Mon, 3 Jan 2011 16:32:18 EST I managed to get in three workouts this week... May not seem like much to some but I've been struggling for time and energy and the last while I've gone weeks at a time with no exercise. So I'm celebrating... <BR> <BR> I feel like I've found my resolve recently to stop letting my job demands rob me of a healthy life. However, I must confess I'm worried too. The owner is coming on Thursday for a few weeks and I will be run ragged during this visit. I'm afraid I'll end up not sticking to it and lose the momentum I've finally managed to ... Sat, 1 Jan 2011 10:07:04 EST Time to find my backbone...I know I left it around here somewhere. Okay enough is enough. I have a million very valid excuses...but the reality is I have gained back13 pounds of my weight over the last year and all my healthy habits and exercise have fallen to the wayside. Its the first 13 on my way back to 206 or worse and I swore I was done being that girl in a previous post. <BR> <BR> A lot has happened this year and I have been soooooooo busy and sooooooo tired I just couldn't seem to get in the exercise and would open my mouth for whatever junk was... Fri, 31 Dec 2010 19:20:23 EST Back to Baby Steps. AFter struggling with exercise for quite some time now due to an insane work schedule, gaining 10 pounds and trying to recover from a knee injury. I'm back and going to try to make Sept. Count. I managed to get up at 4:30 am this morning....groan....but I did and I managed to get in a 40 minute walk/run interval work out in for a total of 5.32 km. Not a lot but its a start. Hopefully I can stay awake and alert at work today. Really could use some encouragment and support as I try to get ... Wed, 1 Sep 2010 06:32:58 EST Haven't blogged since Nov. 2009 Today I read my last blog post "EEEEWWWW done being that girl! <BR> It was good for me to read it and remember. <BR> <BR> The reason I haven't been blogging, or participating regularly, or even exercising regularly was because of a promotion to Sales and Convention manager at the hotel where I work. I was promoted and next thing I knew they laid off many essential staff people. So I have been trying to do my job and about 3 others. Life has been crazy!!! I have simply had no time and n... Sat, 6 Mar 2010 09:29:06 EST EEEEWWWWW!!!! Done being that Girl! <img src=""> <BR> Looking thru some old photos my sisterinlaw had and came across this picture of me. Its about 8 years ago. I just shuddered when I saw it, because over those 8 years my weight went up and down but the smallest I got was 183. When I decided to get serious with spark last year I was back to this weight 206. I didn't have a before picture because for years I had avoided having my picture taken unless it was just a head sho... Sun, 15 Nov 2009 16:39:59 EST I've been struggling since reaching goal. I've really been struggling since reaching my goal weight. <BR> <BR> I was promoted at work into a position that is very demanding of my time and energy and leaves me a good part of the time feeling stressed. <BR> <BR> My old job as a front desk agent allowed me to work 3-11 pm. Lots of time to plan your food and get in your exercise. This job is day shifts and anyone who knows me knows I'm not a morning person. So to get in my exercise I have to get up with the birds...or exercise when ... Sat, 7 Nov 2009 15:39:54 EST Whoooo HOOO Finally goal and not just goal below goal..yeeehaw! For the last few months no way could I get that last pound off. In fact I was kind of just settling things in my mind that I'd have to put up with it, and consoled myself pound isn't going to change how you look. <BR> <BR> Then this week happened and I was feeling really bad, because its the first week in a year of absolutly no exercise. I've been sick and working and just didn't have it in me. Then today I pulled out the scale and whooooooooooooooooo hoooooooooooooooo <BR> no... Fri, 16 Oct 2009 09:37:35 EST Life Lesson learned in Hip Hop Class. hahaha it's kailee's revenge. Went to the hip hop class last night pretty sure I had it down. They stretched us really good before we danced and so I'm not nearly as sore as I was last week when Kailee was showing me the choreography I missed. Anyway, I'm not shy but I got in there and we had to do the steps in a different way across the floor. For each individual segment. So your going across the floor and the rest of the class is watching. LOL. Well I got so self conscious I was cons... Fri, 25 Sep 2009 11:18:33 EST Oh so thats what they mean by Hip Hop Battle! Yesterday I had my first hip hop class...well not really class...I missed the first one do to work, so my daughter came by to teach me the choregraphy I missed. So for an hour we worked on it. <BR> <BR> It was super fun, we had several laughs...My brain to body messages seemed to be on a time delayed system. lol <BR> <BR> I was amazed how much of a workout this was...after running I thought I'd be good as far as the cardio goes, but I was breathing hard. <BR> <BR> Then I woke up this ... Sun, 20 Sep 2009 11:19:22 EST Clothing sizes must have gotten larger over the years. Maybe thats why we have a size 0. Or have you even seen the 00 size. I mean what is a 0 or a 00. Probably my sons little girlfriend. <BR> <BR> Anyway I went shopping today at Suzy Shier for dress pants for work and jumped in, zipped up, buttoned up...without any problem size 7/8, <BR> <BR> Well I was excited about this of course., but upon reflection I it doesn't seem right to me. Right now I weigh 156, but I remember clearly being a size 9/10 in junior high and weighing 126. <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 18 Sep 2009 12:19:53 EST Our Bodies are so Weird!!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> GRACE2GRACE <BR> SparkPoints: (15,192) <BR> Fitness Minutes: (15,339) <BR> Posts: 1,759 <BR> 9/2/09 2:56 P <BR> <BR> <BR> I decided today I need to mix up my workouts and get the furnace burning. Our bodies are so weird. Last year I couldn't run to the end of the driveway and now although I'll never be a marathoner I can run enough to impress myself. I'm pretty proud of that by the way! lol What ... Wed, 2 Sep 2009 14:09:50 EST Boogie Boarding in the Pre Hurricane Bill Surf! All provincial beaches here in Nova Scotia were closed as of 5 pm today. <BR> <BR> Before that though we loaded the family and headed out for Rissers Beach in hopes of some great waves for boogie boarding. Whooo hoooo did we find some. Some though I must admit were pretty scary and slammed into you with alot of force. All of us took a few tumbles, but the fun out weighed the bad. Now were home and tired out and yes I'm gonna hurt tomorrow...but I had a ball, made some great memories w... Sat, 22 Aug 2009 18:15:32 EST I thought I'd fell into the Twilight zone for a moment. Today was a crazy day, I had to run a gazzillion errands and get the groceries. I'd like to say I was doing this in a healthy way but truth be known I grabbed a boston cream filled donut my husband had picked up, scarfed that down and a coffee and ate that sugary mess and called it breakfast. <BR> <BR> Around 2pm I realized I was starving and still a long way from finished. So I go into a MacDonalds and decide to grab a couple jr. chickens. As I'm waiting for my order I pick a nutrition... Sat, 1 Aug 2009 19:59:47 EST My new beach experience! I went to the beach yesterday and had a fantastic much fun! <BR> <BR> The waves were huge and we had a ball riding them with our boogie boards. <BR> <BR> The thing that really made this trip to the beach special though...occurred to me afterwards. It was the first time in years that the experience wasn't marred with thoughts of my weight. <BR> <BR> I wasn't in a bikini...not ready for that...don't think I'll ever be ready for that. hahaha <BR> <BR> I had on a one piece bathing ... Tue, 21 Jul 2009 08:58:19 EST Great Motivation... Its day four of my quit smoking journey. On the forum I'm using to help me quit the following was posted. I decided to post it here because it not only encouraged me to keep on quitting, but to get on with reaching my weight loss goal that is so close. <BR> <BR> I hope you will be encouraged by it too. <BR> <BR> Do what it takes: <BR> <BR> What if you knew that you could reach your goal by taking just one more step? Would you take that step? <BR> At some point in the process of achiev... Thu, 9 Jul 2009 09:13:27 EST It's blowing my mind!!! The other day I went shopping and I don't think my feet were touching the ground when I left and I have a strange facial thing happening ...I think its called perma grin. <BR> <BR> I used to hate shopping, dressing rooms were depressing...I used to wish they'd light them by candlelight so I couldn't really see what would depress me. <BR> <BR> Now...I love shopping, I love trying on clothes and the fun of wondering what size am I now. <BR> <BR> The thing that put the perma grin on my face w... Sun, 31 May 2009 15:39:42 EST It finally clicked...I'm not on a diet! I was thinking we want the weight off fast and sometimes I hear of people who have lost twice the weight I have in half the time and feel jealous...booo hooo why can't I do that. Now I'm thinking differently. Losing so slowly has caused me to learn how to have a healthy lifestyle for life, rather than a diet for a few months. I've realized that its not all or nothing. In the past had I had a derailment like I have this week with sickness. I'd have had a real hard time starting again...I'd hav... Wed, 15 Apr 2009 10:46:27 EST I just ran 5.36 miles and I feel Fantastic!!! When I think that a year ago running to the end of the driveway would have done me in. I just can't help but smile and stand in abject wonder. Thank you so much spark people you have taught me that anything is possible...if your patient and willing to keep making baby steps. <BR> <BR> 5.36 miles and I actually feel I could do more...How totally Kewl is that!!! <BR> <BR> I can't wait to give up the ciggerettes for good and see what I can do then. <BR> <BR> I'm gonna try that again on Tues... Sun, 5 Apr 2009 17:09:07 EST Singing...I feel good...nah, nah, nah, I knew that I would now! What a difference, yesterday at this time I felt like crying. Today I feel awesome. Instead of giving into the pity party I wanted to have yesterday I decided to go to the Mall for some shop therapy. I haven't bought anything new since I started losing. Normally the dressing room was depressing and frustrating, but yesterday wow. Clothes were fitting, nice ones and I was lookin so good in them. I couldn't believe it...what fun! <BR> <BR> Then when I came home my daughter wanted a fas... Wed, 18 Mar 2009 11:36:14 EST Down another pound whooo hooo thats three pounds this week. I'm excited! Sun, 15 Mar 2009 11:15:30 EST Whoooo HOOOOO Down another 2. 172 pounds today 17 pounds to goal. I'm doing my happy Dance. <BR> This past month has been hard going, I've been feeling just blah because of winter and can't wait for spring. I'm proud of myself though because I kept on going even though there were a good many days that I didn't want to. Seeing that 2 pounds gone today was a real boost its all worth it. <BR> <BR> Last night at work one of the pool pass members came in and she hadn't seen me in a couple of months. She f... Sat, 14 Mar 2009 12:12:08 EST Winter Blahs...How are you coping. In Jan. I was raring to go and made great achievements with my team mates at the new team. This month although we all are still doing well. Alot of us seem to be losing our enthusiasm. I've given it alot of thought and seems to me its the winter blahs. Due to the snow and cold and slippery conditions the treadmill has become a daily thing and now a source of dread...I have to get on and do it. I do it, but I don't enjoy it. Each day seems to be harder to talk myself into it. A good bo... Tue, 24 Feb 2009 14:17:43 EST I Just Got Into My Husbands Pantz!!!! Whooo HOOOOo and no this is not an R rated post. lol <BR> <BR> I remember a time when my husbands pants looked so ridiculously small compared to mine that I hated to have to hang them up. That tiny little 30 inch waist. <BR> <BR> The other week just for fun I decided to try on his pants, I got them on and zipped up but didn't dare leave them long, I thought the zipper might rip. <BR> <BR> Today I tried again, and they fit perfectly whoooooo hoooooo! Of course they are mens jeans so th... Thu, 12 Feb 2009 11:35:04 EST Tiger Woods congratulated me today!!! and Yes for real! lol <BR> <BR> Now mind you he spoke to me thru my ipod and Nike+ fitness system. He said Hi I'm Tiger Woods and I just want to congratulate you. Today you ran your fastest mile on record. Whoooo hoooo. Works for me. lol <BR> <BR> Last time I had a running milestone it was Lance Armstrong who whispered sweet nothings in my ear. hahaha. <BR> <BR> Seriously though if you haven't heard of Nike+ipod you should check it out because it has got to be the most motivating thin... Mon, 9 Feb 2009 11:32:41 EST Must be sung in a loud opera voice to get the full effect. Haaaaallejuhah, Haaaaaallejuhah, halejuhah, halejuhah...Heather's scale finally moved! <BR> Yes it finally moved! <BR> Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalejuhah!!! <BR> <BR> I guess the men in the white coats won't have to make a trip to cart me away after all, at least this week. lol <BR> <BR> Whooo hoooo after 5 weeks of doing all the right things, and starting to get very discouraged, my scale finally moved...only a pound, but it moved and it put me into the land of the 170's a strange and myster... Sat, 7 Feb 2009 11:06:57 EST 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5,4,3,2,1....Blast Off!!!! Whooo hooo...don't ya love it. The first day of a new month....a month to set goals and shoot for the stars and give it all you got....and dream about what you will have accomplished come the end of the month. <BR> <BR> I'm excited...Last month we had a miles challenge at the NEW team. I logged 76 miles all by myself, my 3 other teamates in the challenge, one of whom is in her last couple weeks before having a baby...contributed big time. With just the four of us...we logged over 300 mile... Sun, 1 Feb 2009 21:36:19 EST Zumba....I did it...and I love it! I first heard about zumba from some people on spark last year. I asked what is it and they <BR> pointed me to a video of zumba. It looked like so much fun and the people doing it were crazy about it. So I tried to find a class but Zumba had not yet arrived on the east coast of Canada. Then it finally arrived at a local dance studio a year later. I was so happy, excited and terrified! <BR> <BR> It meant going to this class by myself, and I didn't know what it would be like. The video I ... Wed, 28 Jan 2009 10:58:47 EST Yipppieeeee Yahooyeeeeee I did It!!!! I'm so proud of me today I can't stop beaming. I was finally able to run an entire 5 K. Actually I ran 5.48 km in 34 minutes. Its been a long time coming and I'm absolutely thrilled. <BR> <BR> It came at a good time too, I was disappointed this morning to see my scale for the second week in a row had refused to budge despite doing the right things. <BR> <BR> Then I ran and got to feel the thrill of this achievement I've been working towards for so long and I realized all the different... Fri, 23 Jan 2009 14:09:33 EST Spark Earth Fitness Challenge This site is so amazing. I'm constantly discovering new things. Today I discovered there isn't just Spark America fitness challenge which made me as a canadian feel totally out of the in crowd. : ) There is Spark Earth for the rest of us. WE can set a fitness goal for the year and it is tracked too. So I joined...because I'm hoping this will keep me looking at the big picture...not just exercising until the weight is off, but as a part of a daily lifestyle. <BR> <BR> I'm kinda excited...... Wed, 21 Jan 2009 20:27:11 EST This is one of my favorite Christmas presents. With my gym, my treadmill, my resistance bands and an assortment of dvd's I never have to leave the house if I don't want to. Makes it so much easier on the days I work. <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 9 Jan 2009 11:08:33 EST Doin My Happy Dance...whooooo hooooooo. Started the week at 185 and ended 180. I'm so incredibly happy about that. <BR> <BR> It will be hard to get the smile of my face today. Look out 170's cuz here I come!!!!! <img src=""> Fri, 9 Jan 2009 10:49:41 EST The holidays caught up to me and jumped me! I so didn't want to write of my defeat by the holidays. I looked forward to a triumphant they couldn't get me blog. Alas its not to be. I stepped on the scale today and was up 3 pounds. I'm feeling bad about that...but the holidays were fun. I'm going to spend this week detoxing from all the delicious but horribly bad junk and sweet that has me craving constantly. Company is all gone as of today and I'm looking forward to gettig back into the groove. I'm in a distance challenge witht h... Sat, 3 Jan 2009 20:13:19 EST Whooooooo HOOOOO yippie yahooooeeeeeeee! I'm smilin my face right off!!! Having been sick the last couple of weeks I didn't get much exercise in and far too many times I blew it with my eating. Today I thought I have got to exercise sick or not. Then I thought I better look at the scale... <BR> I was holding my breath and frantically in my mind saying don't be up, don't be up, don't be up. It never even occurred to me the scale which is so contrary for me...would go down. <BR> <BR> But whooooooooooooooooooo hooooooooooooo it dr... Mon, 22 Dec 2008 14:40:39 EST