GR8BY48's SparkPeople Blog GR8BY48's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community UGH - where is time going So jeepers, even though I tell myself that I need to get down and make sure I am here, make sure I am getting encouraged, make sure I am reading...I know it does me best, I know it keeps me on track...and yet... <BR> <BR> And yet. Well at least I am not gaining. I'm maintaining, and I will take that. This winter has been THE LONGEST WINTER EVER!! I hate it. But at least it's March and I *think* I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, maybe. <BR> <BR> So, I want to be easing back... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 08:12:33 EST The 5:2 Experiment So for the past 2 weeks, I've been doing the 5:2 (well actually 4:3) diet plan. I must say that it's mostly been rather easy. So here is the way it works: on 2 days out of the week, you don't eat anything till dinnertime. That meal should not be more than about 500 cals. Now, to be honest, really, it's supposed to be 500 cals total for the day, so you *could* eat small meals throughout the day, but most ppl just save the cals for dinnertime. During the day, you drink water, teas, broth... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 15:24:28 EST WooHoo 11 lbs gone! OK, so I got brave enough to step on the scale today -- 11 lbs now gone. So not only did I maintain for the rotten month of January, I lost 2 more so far for February! And that was with a nice date night out this week with hubby where I totally over ate and even had dessert, If my knee was in better shape I'd bee hopping up and down and dancing all around! <BR> <BR> So, yeah, looks like February is shaping up to be better than January, so far! If I can keep up this rate, I will certainly... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 15:14:29 EST I lost a whole month! Wow, it's been a MONTH since I posted here! The month of January was just an awful awful month for me and my life. I tried my best to stay on track diet wise, just looking at food choices and making "good" ones. But I did not track, and I rarely came here. I ended January with thinking "well if this is how 2014 is gonna go, I hate it already", due to the things going on in life. So what happened? <BR> <BR> First, my knee stuff, which I did write about here. Next there was finding out t... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 12:21:41 EST My Rings are Spinning! So, ok, one of the first places I really start to notice things is in my fingers...and this morning I have on a wedding set that I have not been able to wear in quite some time. Due to the arthritis, I have several sizes/styles of wedding sets, but I have not been able to wear below an 8 in long, long time. Today's set is a 7, as the 8 was spinning around on my finger like crazy yesterday!!! <BR> <BR> As small as it may sound, this a HUGE victory for me!!!! And it gives me such motivation ... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 08:37:38 EST Ah Sunday! Nice relaxing slow day ahead here. Today is my prep day for work lunches, so I will be headed to the kitchen shortly to make up batches of: scrambled eggs with salsa, hard boiled eggs, egg salad, tuna salad, chopped veggies. Grab and go each morning! I am terribly excited for what lies ahead this week/month/year. I really feel like this is my year. I am only going to focus on one week at a time however. And if that gets too hard, then I focus on one day at a time; if that gets too hard,... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 15:34:25 EST OMG 9 lbs! OK, so my last known weight was from some time in mid December and as of today, I am down 9 lbs from there!!! To say that I am pleased would be such an understatement! I sure hope I can keep this momentum going! With the junk going on with my knee, I really have such a higher stake in the game now. I really really have to do this. <BR> <BR> I am having moments of DEEP regret and guilty feelings that I have wasted so many years of not losing this weight. I was thinking this morning about... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 14:04:12 EST Well we have a verdict... Found out yesterday that it's a torn medial meniscus (cartiledge), Right now we are bracing, using a cane and resting. Re-eval in two weeks. BUT: there's other stuff going on in that knee: I had a burst Baker's Cyst, there's cartiledge damage (we know that there's possibly osteo in that knee, so this was a confirmation. Some other medical terminology on the copy of the report that I have that I am slowly Googling... <BR> <BR> I am doing well with my eating, altho not tracking. I do hav... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 21:56:10 EST OMG, So Cold! I can't believe how cold it was today! I did NOT even try to go to work today; and I am so glad I have my knee as an excuse! Not gonna be much better tomorrow, but I will have to go in tomorrow. I've not bee tracking food these last few days: weekend was just too crazy busy, and of course, with my adventure yesterday, I can't even remember what I ate! I know it was not choices that I would have made if it wasn't for the circumstances, but oh I am more in control, in a bit le... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 19:16:41 EST Adventure to the ER what a way to start my week! while finding my seat on the bus today, I took a step to the side and felt this awful "pop" in the back of my knee. OUCH doesn't even begin to describe it. Rode the hour ride on the bus feeling discomfort and when I got up to get off bus and walk the 2 blocks to work -- OMG I thought I was going to die! I was practically crawling on the ground, stopped like every 3 or 4 steps and had tears streaming down my face! And here is the sad state of the human race: ... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 23:23:02 EST SNOW! Well we've got snow!! And crazy me went to work, lol. I actually had NO problems to speak of getting here, yay for Transit! It's everyone else in my Department that's not making it in. Oh well, should be a quiet day then <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> So, I am hanging in pretty good so far and already noticing that I am feeling better! Those carbs just weigh me down so bad! I don't know why I keep going back to them, grrr. I will have a challenge tomorrow, as we are expecting company and... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 09:10:48 EST Goals and Things: January So yeah, this is the time of year when everyone sets up goals/resolutions etc. I, like most, have never ever been successful at keeping New Year's resolutions. For me, I always set out so ambitious, have a list a mile long of what I want to accomplish in a whole year, and end up getting overwhelmed, frustrated and giving up. Well who on Earth *could* accomplish a thousand things, BIG THINGS, in year's worth of time? <BR> <BR> This year I'll try a different approach: each month I will s... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 08:07:41 EST Ugh, Tracker Not Working! Well, I was all excited to to track my weigh in today (last known weight was mid December) since I weighed this morning and was down several pounds. Darn tracker is working right and is still showing "0" lbs lost so far. Boo hiss! Last known weight was 241.6, and today is 236.8: there, now it's in HERE for the record; hopefully my pages will catch up and start showing it soon, lol. <BR> <BR> Sure has been a lot of changes here since I was last active; it's still an overwhelming site in w... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 16:55:37 EST Day 1 Done! I made it through day 1. That's the easiest day, cause your'e full of excitement. Let's see what I post at Day 30 :) <BR> <BR> Have my own food brought to work today; did a great food shopping last night so I am totally stocked with the right things to eat. Tonight is New Year's Eve, but I don't have to worry because we just stay home anyway. A glass of champagne cannot be begrudged on New Year's Eve, right? <BR> <BR> Off to work... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 08:03:49 EST Not Waiting...Starting Now! So, I am not telling myself that on January 1, 2014 I'll re-start my path to healthy. Why wait? I am starting today, with the next bite of food that goes in my mouth...that would be LUNCH, since I already blew breakfast, lol. Going back to reduced carbs. Not Atkins, not CAD, not Ideal Protein, and definitely NOT Weight Watchers! Just reducing carbs. <BR> <BR> I feel better that way, I know that I do...I have no discipline, that's my issue. So of course I am thinking about how this whol... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 12:09:15 EST So How Many Times... So I wonder what the record is for "starting again" on the path to weight loss? If there is one, I probably do hold it. Sigh. How many times must I start again? At least one more time... <BR> <BR> Putting the feet forward and moving along again...I have gained a bit over the last months and now I have to work to get that back off, plus the rest. I know I need to come here; I know what it does for me; I know how important this is...I am just so incredibly weak and undisciplined. Bottom... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 08:41:49 EST Last Day Off Blues... Well, it's my last day off on this mini vacation. Part of me is ready to go back to work, and jump into it with gusto. Part of me is not, of course, lol. Part of me is a little bit sad that we really didn't do anything exciting these last 5 days. And then part of me is like "well, you were supposed to be resting and getting the new meds routine all figured out". Oh, yeah I got lots of rest and relaxation. But now I'm kinda like, "gee, I wish ______ could have gotten done while I was hom... Wed, 29 May 2013 18:26:36 EST Aaaahhhhh! Relief! So, it's been a few days on the new/increased med, a few days of R & R, and keeping my fingers crossed (ha, yeah, I can do that this week) -- I am feeling better. I can use my hands, I am sleeping, my leg muscles are under control! This all makes me smile of course! But the real test will be once I go back to work. I will have to see what that does to this all! <BR> <BR> I have been eating OK, but tracking for my WW class has kind of fallen by the wayside. Need to get back to that. I... Tue, 28 May 2013 17:28:06 EST Ouch, Ouch, Ouch! Having 2 weeks from H***, therefore not been around; hands are basically useless and and in so much pain. What little I *can* do has to be saved for my job, 'cause, you know -- they pay the bills. <BR> <BR> Visit with rheumy yesterday: back on RA meds, upped dosing schedule of pain meds, upped dosage of the Fibro med, got muscle relaxant to help when it's really bad (which lately seems to be a lot). <BR> <BR> This is a quick check in to let those who care know I am still alive, but not re... Fri, 24 May 2013 10:23:00 EST Ah, Weekend! So glad to see this weekend come. Had another crazy week at work. Haha, this business at work is really cramping my style with checking in with my buddies all over the internet!! Then when I get home at night and finish with dinner & schooling, I am just too beat to come online. Somethings got to give! <BR> <BR> At least I am staying plan and at tracking on paper. There's something about PAYING for a program that make 'ya stick to it, 'ya know? And having to be in front of a group and ... Sat, 11 May 2013 17:03:22 EST Holy Cow, I lost 2 days! Yikes, I've been so busy that I have literally not had time to check in here since Monday!! Work is crazy, home is crash time after I get through the school work with the kids... <BR> <BR> I'm hanging in there, counting and tracking and counting and tracking...and hey, who knew that chicken pot pie was *so* many points!!! But I guess that's what Flex Points are for, right? Had to use 10 of them in one day, yuck! <BR> <BR> Gotta tighten things up a little bit, I've been eating too many ... Thu, 9 May 2013 08:54:19 EST Down 3.6 Well, I was hoping that it would be higher, and more match my home scale, but I am down 3.6 and I'll take that any day. The meeting today was SO MUCH smaller! Last week there must have been 40 or 50 people in the room. Today there was maybe 20. The leader was, well, eh. It was very much a rah-rah time, with him going around the room and asking who had a loss and how much. He made it clear that you didn't have to share, but most of us did. There were some really BIG losses in that room ... Mon, 6 May 2013 22:41:36 EST End of Week 1 on WW So, I've come to the end of the first week of WW. I feel like I had a good week, I followed their guidelines and stuck to my daily points. I did not use any of the 49 Flex points allowed, and I don't feel like I missed anything or was deprived of anything. I ate some of the special rices I make for family dinner, I ate macaroni and cheese, I hate half a hoagie, I ate some potato chips (yes, I counted out 15 chips from the bag). I had the yogurt that I love, I ate full fat cheese, I used r... Sun, 5 May 2013 22:46:53 EST I Peeked! Well, I peeked: and if my scale is to be believed, I am just over 5 lbs down!! I will try not to get excited as I know my scale may not match the WW scale. But it seems I am going in the right direction at least. We shall see on Monday. <BR> <BR> Glad I peeked, it will keep me on track for continuing to move downward. I've got a LONG way to go, but each 5 lbs certainly helps. <BR> <BR> <em>224</em> Sat, 4 May 2013 20:09:02 EST Dancing the Happy Friday Dance! Well, it's Friday!! Happy Happy! Although I have so much work to do I kind of wish I had another day...sshhhh, you didn't hear me say that! So today is my 5th day on WW. As I've said before, I feel it's going really well, except for when I have to scramble to use up points. It's like, I'm standing in my pantry looking at foods trying to figure out what to eat, even though I am not hungry. So, now I've decided I am not gonna worry about it all. I am going to eat like I have been, and if... Fri, 3 May 2013 08:39:04 EST WW Day 4... OK, so feeling better today and can type without pain, yay! So for the past few days, I've had trouble actually eating my point allowance each day. Yesterday I had 8 left when I was done; day before that it was 7. Today it's better, and only 3. On those other days, I figured I'd use up some of the points with an evening snack, but I never got hungry, so there they were, leftover. I did better today simply because I ate some meat for lunch and a snack, so higher points there. <BR> <BR> O... Thu, 2 May 2013 22:28:12 EST Day 3, still good... but my hands are killing me from all that chop chop chopping yesterday. The RA is kicking in them today. So no clever Blog post today... <BR> <BR> Wed, 1 May 2013 23:55:19 EST Chop, Chop, Chop... Spent a good deal of time chopping up my veggies! Stayed at home with sick daughter today. I now have baggies of cucs, celery, peppers, baby bell peppers, carrots, and grape tomatoes all ready to grab at a moments notice! So glad that these are zero points on WW. Fruits are zero too, which they didn't used to be -- another thing to be happy about. <BR> <BR> So day 2 is going well. I found a breakfast I can live with, and still have the points for the creamer in my coffee, yay! l love ... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 17:20:34 EST Weigh-in at WW... Well the the weigh in at WW today was not as bad as I feared. I've changed my ticker to reflect where I am at on this day; it's up 4 lbs from my last ticker update, but it could've been worse. So I am thankful for that at least. I tracked everything that I ate today, and came in right at my points allowance (35 for anyone who knows the program). If I want a snack tonight, it will have to be a zero point food, which is fine since fruits and veggies are zero point food. An apple works. I'... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 23:17:03 EST New Adventure to start today... So, today I start Weight Watchers at Work. Ten weeks, ten weigh-ins to get myself together. I decided I needed to be accountable to someone besides myself; I am doing a crappy job! I really don't have the $$ to join WW, but God provided a miracle to make it happen. So I start today. I start the thing that I hate: tracking every single bite of food that I take, for someone else to look at and evaluate. Yeah, I know I could get that here on the Spark if I asked in the forums. But these ... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 08:06:35 EST FRIDAY is here! Yay, Friday is HERE! So glad to see this day! <BR> <BR> That's it for now! <em>224</em> Fri, 22 Mar 2013 08:48:05 EST Renewed and Ready! So, I a guess I am officially back on track; I was not even tempted by donuts at work this morning. I see them and while I can't say that I don't want them (I mean, donuts are yummy), I realize that by taking one, I would be sabotaging myself. It's no one else that sabotages my plans, it's ME making a choice. The food does not hop up onto my plate by itself; it does not put its own self into my mouth. I make that happen. I make that choice. <BR> <BR> Is it hard? Totally, like I wrote t... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 08:13:59 EST Better Today Well it's still cold outside, but not wet! Happy Spring anyway! Pain levels better today. I am having some big problems with my right leg/knee though -- the pain is at the back of the knee, and closer to the inside of my body (the left side of the right knee). Not sure what's going on with that. <BR> <BR> OK, so now let's talk about my eating...I have been cleanly eating for 3 days now; today will be day 4. Due to meds, I do think I am sleeping better, and that give me a clearer head --... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 08:23:05 EST Thanks Sparkers! Just a thank you to those who encouraged me to today! It's so appreciated! I was really feeling at a low this morning when I blogged. My pain level today was through the roof and I was miserable at work. I somehow made it through the day and have had a nice relaxing evening at home. My pain has subsided some; it's more bearable. It seems that since I've been diagnosed with the Fibro in addition to the RA, somehow the pain has gotten worse tenfold. It's probably just one of those creepy... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 23:36:13 EST Hard! Well I have resigned myself to the thought that this weight loss journey is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I mean, let's think about this for a minute: it's been over 15 years and it's not happening! It's so much easier to just eat what I want, when I want, how much I want. It's WORK to eat right. I don't like work, never have. <BR> <BR> I am now forced into the situation where if I don't do something, there's NO HOPE that my pain will ever go away. I am not kidding myself, I... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 11:54:10 EST When will it stop for me? So, I have to deal with Fibromyalgia on top of everything else? Geeze Louise, when is it gonna stop? So this is the name for pain I've been feeling; the pain that doesn't go away with the RA drugs; the pain that just feels so weird, it's too hard to explain. Like, who else has the feeling that their clothes hurt? I mean, come on, clothes on skin shouldn't hurt!!! <BR> <BR> Uh, so, yeah, been doing some comfort eating this past week; been doing nothing here on Spark. But now I... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 23:19:31 EST Weigh in... OK, so I stepped back on the scale today: not as scary as I thought it would be. I'm at 236.6, so at least I didn't gain back all that had lost. I really need to make sure I am weighing consistently; it's too sporadic. Need to find a better place to story my scale, as right now it's NOT out in the open -- no room. Since it's not out in the open, I forget to get on it! <BR> <BR> So, even though I went totally wild, I only gained back a little bit. I can live with that. I really need t... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 09:12:53 EST Doing Better... ok, 2 days back in and doing well. I will get on the scale tomorrow, as a small group of other friends and myself have a weigh-in day of Thursdays. I've gotten some new inspirations on how to have way enough food on hand. I may not be able to come here as often as I was before, I have many obligations on my head in many different life areas right now. I will be around in the background most likely, reading and gleaning inspiration from others. I just don't know how much I can commit to a... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 07:52:04 EST Off The Cliff... Well I fell off the wagon and the wagon went over the cliff! So there ya go. No fancy excuses, no real reason other than...well I guess it comes down to laziness in keeping up with preparing and having the right foods within reach. It's easier to reach for cookies, crackers, and breads than to MAKE something that's legal. I wish it weren't so! <BR> <BR> So, picking myself up, dusting myself off and starting over...again. Scared to get on the scale to check for damage. But I know it's t... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 08:40:18 EST Eww, Yuck! So yeah, I just heard the forecast for the return to work tomorrow: snow from 7-11 a.m., then sleet and freezing rain till about 2 p.m. Uber ugly! Makes me want to play hookie for sure! Can't though, too busy. (Someone take this can of nuts away from me please!) <BR> <BR> I am now through day 15 of NO cheats, 100% on plan; I am very proud of myself! I have not had so much as one bit of the typical rice, pasta, bread, potatoes that used to be such a big part of my eating. I make stuff ... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 23:43:24 EST Sloppy Week... Well I've had a pretty sloppy week this week. Food wise, I have stayed on track; it's just that I have not come here and tracked, or posted, or blogged as often as I should. Can't really think of a good excuse why either. Well, I sort of can: work was crazy and I didn't have as many breaks as I can usually sneak in. My laptop at home died this week, and that's how I come online in the evenings. So yeah, maybe I have a few good excuses after all. <BR> <BR> I was down 1.8 this week, but t... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 15:44:57 EST OMG it's So COLD!!! So cold here today! Real feel is like ZERO! I am parking it in my office today. No need for me to go out -- got all my food with me, no lab inspections today, no errands to run! I know this is winter and it's supposed to be cold, but OIY, it's like all of the sudden! <BR> <BR> I am feeling really good and confident in myself today; on a 10-day streak of being 100% on plan and that is BIG deal for me! I have to be careful though that I don't get over confident, and start thinking like "o... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 09:08:50 EST Worked from the Ladies Room Today... well at least that's what it FELT like; I think I spent almost as much time up and down to the ladies room as I did at my desk!! Blah, I did not have off today! Drank one, just ONE extra little cup of coffee, not even my big mug -- why does that equal 10,000 trips to the ladies room? I drank about the same amount of water, so the extra coffee has to be the reason. I mentioned to my co-worker, who I have to walk past on the way, that I was aiming to set a record on "most trips made to the ... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 23:11:54 EST Food Prep Day! So today was food prep day in my kitchen: egg salad; hard boiled eggs; gigantic batch of tuna; cut up celery; washed cherry tomatoes; sliced portions of cheese...I am ready for the work week. Been a busy weekend around the house as well, which is good because then I am not doing any "I'm bored" eating. I think I'm coming back down from the 2 lbs gain, happy about that. <BR> <BR> And here's something not many can appreciate, but I sure do: I am spotting, and yeah, I am happy about it. Ev... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 19:46:09 EST Aaacckkkk! OK, so I have to honest, even when it does not look in my favor: I am UP 2 lbs! I do know why, but it doesn't make it any easier to accept. Too much cheese & pepperoni these last few days. I fall into the cheese trap every time I do LC. I can have *some*; but I know that I over-do it sometimes. It's just so dang good. So lots of extra water today, careful about cheese and pepperoni (oh and nuts) for the next few days, and I will be fine. This is one of the reasons I like what I learn... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 08:57:04 EST Phew! OK, phew, THAT only lasted for yesterday! Feeling better today for sure. It's always there, but at least it's not IN MY FACE today like yesterday! Of course today would have been a way better day to sit at home a be lazy -- cold and rainy, ewwww. So this month is plodding right along; tomorrow is my weigh in day. I've done well so I am confident that the scale will be down. I really don't care how much it goes down at this point, as long as it goes down. <BR> <BR> I've got to figure ... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 12:00:44 EST I Hate RA! Just when I thought things were going fine, BAAAM! Could not even move this morning, down for the count. Took a pain pill, called out of work, went back to bed. Eight hours later I woke up; thank you family for letting me sleep! Eating wise, on track today...this make 4 days straight of 100% on! Nothing much to some, but it's a good streak for me anyway. <BR> <BR> Feeling at least a bit better now; have not had to take another pain med after that first one. I will probably make it to w... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 17:54:27 EST Pants Check Monday morning pants check: same pants that I couldn't button last week? BUTTONED!!! I got on the scale after my fiasco of last week, and was up one pound from last weigh in (which I can't even remember when that was). So I ain't no dummy, I probably had gained a bit more than that 1 lbs, but because I've been really good since Friday-ish, it's only showing me that one pound gain. Still doesn't totally explain the pants fitting, but I am not going to argue! :) <BR> <BR> So far, so good... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 10:09:17 EST Sparkcouragement! Now that's what I'm talking about people! I thank all of you who stopped by here yesterday and wrote such encouraging words!! And those that wrote on my SparkPage, thank you! I just love this place; and I have not even been around that long! One of the things I know I must do for success is to keep coming here. I know that I do better when I read, post, and Blog here. It's kind of like I don't want to let the Sparks down, you know? <BR> <BR> So I've got my food bundles all ready for th... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 14:06:48 EST Totally Blew this Week :( Well I totally blew this week! What the heck is wrong with me??? I am so weak. I will never make any sort of goal if I keep this up. I really don't even have any good excuses. It was pure laziness; I did not make up my batches of eggs, egg salad, tuna salad, chopped veggies like I normally do. Combine that with being totally exhausted and busy at work, and I made such poor choices this week in my eating. <BR> <BR> I am of course paying for it. Not that I've been on the scale, too chic... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 19:10:57 EST