GOTHICLOLLIPOP's SparkPeople Blog GOTHICLOLLIPOP's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Adjusting the Numbers I might have to adjust my goal weight...down. Either that, or make the deadline a bit closer in, because when I readjusted my calorie range for the weight loss I already had, it said I could eat between something like 1400 - 1700 something calories...which at this point, sounds like a bit much to me ^_^;; <BR> <BR> Well, I do only have 5 lbs to lose in 3 months. At the rate I'm going, I'll probably hit my original goal in a month. <BR> <BR> I'm really not sure how much more weight I want to... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 14:14:46 EST Ugghhh.... This morning I woke up at 11:30 for an 11:30 class. Afterwards, since I hadn't eaten all day I took the bus over to Jack and the Box, and ate a bacon, egg and cheese biscuit and hashbrowns (yum! increadible amounts of oil and fat!) then went to Braums to buy a few things I needed.... <BR> <BR> I picked up a couple of items that had a "save $1 now" sticker. The cashier charged me for the full price, when I complained, he had to call someone else over because he didn't know what to do. This gu... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 18:31:32 EST My Appetite Has Returned... Unfortunately. I knew it would, though. Those wonderful few days when I just can't seem to eat enough to even reach the low end of my calorie range never last. Now all I can think about is eating something...I mean, it's almost 11pm, and I'm only at a little over 1300 calories, so I could eat something (my upper limit is like 1600). <BR> <BR> And I probably will, once I just give in to the realization that my appetite is in fact back! And seeing that I've been eating under my recommended ca... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 23:58:27 EST Everything is Going Well I feel like I should blog just to prove that I haven't fallen off the face of the Earth, lol ^_^;; <BR> <BR> Everything is going well right now, though. Eating within my calorie range has become easy again. I don't exercise as much as I had planned, but actually, I'm walk a lot every day anyway, and I've been losing weight. <BR> <BR> Classes are going well. Game lab is...interesting. I no longer feel like I'm going to let my team down (I have the feeling that if the game fails, it won't be ... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 22:34:36 EST @$#% the @#$% Scale... So I just weighed myself for the first time since I've been back in Richardson, and the scale here says 159.4. That's almost a pound over the last weight that I tracked, but I'm using a different scale, so screw it, I'm not going to actually track that number until it goes down a little (it's probably a difference in the scales, and it hasn't been a week since my last weigh in anyway). <BR> <BR> I used my exercise bike on Monday night. I think I forgot how difficult using an exercise bike ac... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 11:06:56 EST Anxiety About School I'm going back to Richardson tommorow (actually, it's 12:46 am right now, so technically it is already "tommorow"). I'm starting to get really nervous and anxious. Part of it is that I'm already getting that "homesick" feeling, and the other part is that I'm really starting to worry about Game Lab. <BR> <BR> Game Lab is an industry simulation class at UTD, where we're put on a production team, and we...well, make a game. What I'm worried about is my role assignment...the assignment I was giv... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 02:17:39 EST Setting a Reward for a Small Goal As a big fan of both Japanese RPGs and Studio Ghibli, I was already planning on using the money I still have from Christmas to buy Ni No Kuni: Wrath of the White Witch when it comes out. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So I figure, might as well use this as an opportunity to bribe myself into staying on track ^_^ <BR> <BR> This is the plan: as a reward for exercising 30 minutes a day and drinking at least 4 cups of water between Janu... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 16:09:45 EST Okay, I Really Am Back This Time. I had kind of a false start back in November ^_^;; I think I tried for a couple of days to get back into the weightloss frame of mine, but it didn't really work out because it was a busy/stressful time for school, and it just wasn't a good moment to add a new challenge into the mix. <BR> <BR> Right now I've still got a week before school starts again, and then the first week of school is never really so bad (since classes are mostly about handing out syllabuses and getting ready for the rest... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 16:51:34 EST No Clue How Much I Weigh Now... I just know I've gained weight again ^_^;; Oh well, kind of getting used to it, really. I gain it, I lose it, I want to lose more, but at some point I lose motivation. Then I forget and gain the weight back. I think it helps that I can look back at all my blogs on this website and see the pattern, and think "yep, that's just kind of how it works." <BR> <BR> Then I can just go right back and lose the weight again before things get really out of hand. So I'm not complaining. I'm resigned to m... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 23:57:13 EST "Don't Count Your Chickens...blah, blah, blah" Okay, so I didn't actually meet my goal on time. I guess my celebration was a bit premature. It just seemed like I had plenty of time left and not that much weight to lose... <BR> <BR> So I'm still 146 (if I'm honest, 146.6) and it's March 2nd. My goal was to be 145 by February 28th. <BR> <BR> I don't really care that much. Would have been kind of nice (a novelty really) to actually make it on time, but...meh. <BR> <BR> I'll be there soon. I can't control when I plateau. All I can do is w... Sat, 3 Mar 2012 00:41:54 EST Almost forgot I had a goal, but I'm almost there... I focus so much on the daily things now, just eatting within my calorie range, trying to get at least a couple of servings of fruit and a couple of servings of veggies, etc., that I forgot that I actually did make a weight loss goal when I came back to Sparkpeople about a month ago. Thing is, I've almost reached it, and without really noticing. My goal was to go from 157lbs to 145lbs by Feb. 28th, and right now, I'm at 147. Chances are good that I'm going to make it this time! Might be the f... Thu, 9 Feb 2012 23:09:55 EST Another Day, Not Quite as Eventful... Still haven't found my keys. The woman I dropped off my paperwork with yesterday wasn't in the office, so I just had to leave my email for her, and hopefully she'll get back to me tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I went to my first Computer Science II for Non-Majors class of the semester (java programming). It looks like it will be easy; last semester I actually took the CS I class that the computer science majors take, and it actually covered at least half of what we're going to be covering in this clas... Wed, 18 Jan 2012 19:21:38 EST An Eventful Day... Today, I sold my car, turned in the paperwork for my new workstudy job, went to my first class of the semester, went grocery shopping, returned home and then promptly found that I did not have my keys. I called emergency maintenace to let me into my apartment, and the guy asked me where he could meet me (um, at my apartment?). When I said I was at my apartment, he asked if I was inside or outside of my apartment (no, I'm locked out of my apartment INSIDE my apartment). <BR> <BR> I think I mi... Tue, 17 Jan 2012 22:53:29 EST Weighed Myself... and as it turns out, I've only gained about 9 lbs since September @_@ <BR> <BR> Oh, I suppose it could have been worse...or could it? How much weight can one possibly gain in four months? <BR> <BR> if I was to go on gaining weight at the same rate, and gain 9 lbs every semester until I graduate, by graduation I'd weigh...184 lbs. If I got my masters degree, and I'd end up weighing at least 210 lbs by the time I left school. <BR> <BR> Of course, I don't really think that's very lik... Sun, 15 Jan 2012 09:57:19 EST I'm Back Again Okay, I'm back. Looks like the last time I was on here was in September, and I'd just transferred to UTD and had gotten a job with the President's office. <BR> <BR> I've had a pretty busy semester. In short, it turns out that my new job SUCKED. I'm not going to go into detail, but this semester I have a new job, in the performing arts department (turns out that guy was serious when he said he'd keep my resume and contact me when a position became available!). Hopefully it goes better. <BR> ... Sat, 14 Jan 2012 15:00:31 EST Perhaps I'm a Charming Babbling Idiot? Well, I didn't get the job with the physics department (all I got back from them was a very short email that said they had hired the person they felt was the best match for the department and good luck with my career at the university), but that's fine since I ended up getting a job with the President's office. <BR> <BR> After three interviews at which I felt went spectacularly (and I did get a very nice phone call back from the other department I interviewed in saying that I had "blown them... Sat, 3 Sep 2011 22:18:41 EST Still Looking for a Job So, I got this back from the performing arts department: <BR> <BR> "Thank you for your interest and interview for the Events Usher position in the Arts & Humanities office. Your resume and skillset are impressive. At this time, the position has been filled. Due to your strong interview, I have your resume on file and will contact you, should another position with our department become available. " <BR> <BR> Hmm...right. Oh well, I guess it just wasn't meant to be. <BR> <BR> I had another ... Tue, 30 Aug 2011 08:25:34 EST My Internet Finally Works! I finally got my internet working this morning. I also got some measuring cups and spoons when I went out shopping yesterday, so I guess that means I have no excuse not to track my food anymore. Of course, I've still lost a pound and a half just in the past few days ^_^ Probably because of all the walking I've been doing around campus and going shopping on the shuttle (which I've done three times now this week). Also, I kind of wonder if I have a tendency to eat less when I don't track! <BR> ... Sat, 27 Aug 2011 18:14:49 EST Internet Cross Connection Fees, UTD Shuttle Bus Tours...A Very Tiring Day Indeed. So this time I'm sitting in the Student Union building using the internet, because I still don't have an internet connection in my apartment. It turns out I have to pay a $35 "cross connection" fee, I guess because of the "free" wireless internet that's in the apartment (I finally figured out how to get that, by the way, but it was running at about .25 mb per second, which I think might actually be slower than dial up...). Anyway, I have been told that my connection should be up and running b... Tue, 23 Aug 2011 22:25:35 EST Officially Moved In I have officially moved into my new apartment at UTD. Yay! I even cooked my first meal in my new kitchen last night, which was frozen veggie pizza and champagne, followed by strawberries and more champagne ^_^ I didn't actually track my calories yesterday since I was so busy moving in (and since lunch was out, and not completely trackable anyway) but I probably didn't do so bad on calories. I'm back to tracking today anyway, although one of the things I haven't gotten yet in my new appartmen... Tue, 16 Aug 2011 16:58:37 EST Paint, Pack, Goof Off, Repeat... Today I started painting the dinette table I picked up at Goodwill. I tried to get it done this morning, but it was windy and the primer wasn't sticking well. I ended up having to go get more paint at Walmart (I decided to forgo more primer and just picked up some white spray paint to use as primer instead). Despite being 10 am on a Thursday, it was packed. I guess people are starting their back to school shopping. I hadn't had breakfast, so I ended up grabbing a doughnut from the bakery. <BR... Thu, 11 Aug 2011 21:25:04 EST Moving in One Week Busy, still kind of stressed because I'm moving in exactly one week (and I feel completely NOT ready). I only have two more days at my job after today. Haven't felt much like blogging, but since I'm at work and I really don't have anything to do I might as well... <BR> <BR> I've been packing, and shopping for a few things I'm going to need in my new appartment. Things like kitchen goods and this vintage poster print showercurtain: <link><BR>Shower-Curtai... Mon, 8 Aug 2011 18:10:47 EST Why Does it Always Seem Like I'm Looking for a Swimsuit Out of Season? Long title, but it pretty much sums it up. For some reason, every time I need a new swimsuit it's July or August and there's nothing left! Which makes no sense, in a way. This is Texas! Sometimes swimsuit season lasts until October here, but still, by mid-July, the stores are starting to put the swimsuits on clearance as they break out the back to school supplies. <BR> <BR> I need a new swimsuit because I'd like to continue to swim once I move (which is less than a couple of weeks away now).... Tue, 2 Aug 2011 18:55:32 EST $@%!# anxiety! I'm possibly on the verge of having a full on anxiety attack today. Yay! (Sorry, that's just me becoming slightly hysteric...) <BR> <BR> It started while I was getting ready to go to work (I work in the afternoon, so it was about 12:30). I think it suddenly hit me that I only have about 2 weeks before I move I leave my job here and move to Richardson to go to school (Richardson is just North of Dallas, and where the University of Texas at Dallas is technically located, for those who don't kn... Wed, 27 Jul 2011 16:42:14 EST The Worst Case Scenario I actually haven't lost any weight this week, but I'm not too concerned. Or, I'm trying not to be, anyway. It's just one week, after all. If I haven't lost any more weight by next week, then I'll really start worrying. Not that it isn't a little frustrating and disappointing, but I know that there are plenty of possible reasons that the scale isn't moving, and it's not necessisarily that I've done something wrong. But still, I do have to wonder what it is...I can tell you, one thing that's ch... Mon, 25 Jul 2011 15:39:45 EST I cut my own hair! I just cut my own hair tonight, and I think I actually didn't do too bad! <BR> <BR> It's really something I'd always thought about doing - after all, the hairstyles I tend to like are the modern looking ones that just about look like you could have cut your hair yourself, lol - but I'd never had the courage. I always figured it was safer to pay a stylist to do it, or at least go to a cosmotology school and have a student do it, because at least the student would be able to see the back of my... Thu, 21 Jul 2011 02:10:12 EST Hoarding Tendencies I have about four weeks now until my move. I've started packing, and it's a little overwhelming, because I have WAY too much stuff...I'm not kidding. I'm really kind of worried that one day I'm going to end up being like those people on the tv show "Hoarders." Again, I'm not even kidding. I'm already obsessive compulsive and have anxiety disorder and ADD...which is in fact the recipe for an eventual hoarder. <BR> <BR> If you saw my bedroom, you would understand that I'm not over exaggerating... Mon, 18 Jul 2011 16:40:34 EST When will I be happy? I wonder, when will I be happy this time? Looking back over my past blogs, it looks like I really started feeling good about the way I was looking last year when I got down to about 150 lbs. That's when the photo of me in that dress I loved so much was taken (the one that's on my Sparkpage underneath my graduation photo). But I wonder if I'm going to be as happy when I get back to 150 this time, because looking at that photo, I'm not sure I really like what I see. I think back then I might ha... Wed, 13 Jul 2011 15:45:25 EST I Can Haz Optimism??? I'm down to 157, which means I've lost about 6 pounds in only about 2 and a half weeks. I might just make it to my goal by my original deadline after all. I kind of wonder if my weight loss isn't too rapid, but I've been following my calorie intake guidelines, most often in the middle of my calorie range, and I haven't even been exercising as much as I should, so I don't know.... <BR> <BR> Hmm, maybe my metabolism is higher than I thought? Or maybe it's just coming off this fast because it'... Mon, 11 Jul 2011 19:31:48 EST I just feel like I want to scream... I wonder if it's really a good idea to diet when you're on your period. Seriously, let's combine a time of the month when I'm already agitated, and then add the frustration of trying to keep track of everything I'm putting in my mouth while attempting to slowly starve myself (because let's face it, that's what dieting is). <BR> <BR> Dieting right before your period isn't much fun either. I'm fairly sure your body actually needs extra calories at that time. So you know your body is just going... Thu, 7 Jul 2011 22:24:21 EST Aiming for the Moon As much as I hate to admit it, I'm beginning to suspect that my original goal of getting back down to 145 pounds before school starts might have been a tad unrealistic. While Sparkpeople did allow me to set that goal because I wouldn't have to lose more than 2 pounds a week, from what I've been reading, I'm probably not going to be able to lose more than a pound a week, since my BMI is already under 30. Which, if I've done the math correctly, probably means that I'll only be able to make it ... Wed, 6 Jul 2011 23:26:49 EST Options I've still been thinking about what I'm going to do about my personal budget deficit once I get to UTD. I think what I'm probably going to do at this point is wait until I'm up there and see what options are available to me as far as work study. If I can find something that works, then great, and I'll have plenty of money to keep my car and have a more than comfortable existence. If not, I have three more options, the way I see it: <BR> <BR> Option 1: Don't sell my car, and start a blog abou... Tue, 5 Jul 2011 19:40:58 EST My Appetite is Back Blog from 7/02 (posted on 7/03) <BR> <BR> Well, I was wrong about getting to the point in my diet where I didn't want to eat anymore - yesterday my appetite came back full force, I'm afraid, and I made it to 1500 calories with no effort whatsoever. <BR> <BR> But when I weighed myself this morning, I was down to 159.2, so it's all good on the diet front anyway. Even though I'm finding myself hungry again, I'm really not tempted at all to cheat this time, becaue I DO NOT want to start at UTD ... Sun, 3 Jul 2011 13:37:39 EST Moving worries...and now I don't feel like eating much at all. Well, I find myself feeling anxious yet again. June is turning out to be a short month as far as my timesheet goes. It started and ended with a weekend, and then there's the July 4th weekend, and then there's the fact that I missed a couple of other days and I haven't really been getting in on time, so it's going to end up being short, and I only have two paychecks left until I move and suddenly find myself unemployed...and apparently now I'm sharing my office with someone who is going to sta... Thu, 30 Jun 2011 19:10:06 EST Stress, Anxiety Yesterday, I decided to actually start using the measurement tracker to track things other than my weight. I thought it would be a particularly good idea to keep track of my waistline, hip and thigh measurements, just so I would have some other points of reference I can look to during those times I know are likely to be coming, when the scale has stopped moving for several days and I need some sort of reasurance that what I have been doing is paying off. While I was doing that, I figured I mi... Wed, 29 Jun 2011 17:09:22 EST Too Freakin' Hot Here When you think about it, summer is actually the perfect time to try to lose weight. No big holidays, except maybe the fourth of July, and that one's not too hard. It's not like Thanksgiving or Chirstmas, or even like Halloween or Valentines Day. It's not really a big "eating" holiday, nor is it directly assoiciated with candy or chocoloate in any way. I mean, we'll probably go to my aunt's house, and there will be food, but I'm sure I can restrain myself to one hotdog and whatever fruits and ... Tue, 28 Jun 2011 02:17:17 EST OMG, I'm so hungry... I just want to go home and eat something! Earlier today, I was thinking, "This is going so well, this is so much easier than last time I started..." Ha ha ha. Well, actually, things are still going pretty good. I'm not thinking of giving up now or anything. But I do want to eat something! Breakfast and lunch were pretty light, especially compared to what I've gotten accustomed to lately. It's halfway through the day, and I think I've eaten a little over 650 calories, so I've got plenty of cal... Thu, 23 Jun 2011 17:32:43 EST Time to Start Over. Well, looks like it's been exactly one year and one week since the last time I blogged, so I'm guessing it's been about that long since I was on here at all. Last time I was on here, I had lost over 25 pounds, and my goal was to lose about 10 more. Unfortunately, that never happened. Instead, life happened: my new job, a busy school year, etc. At some point, I just let myself go, and I think I've gained back almost all the weight I lost, although I really don't know, because I haven't had the... Wed, 22 Jun 2011 14:57:40 EST New Job! So busy, lots of stuff... I guess I kind of disapeared for a couple of weeks, but I've been really busy, what with a math class I already dropped, A-kon, starting two community education classes, and getting a new job! <BR> <BR> The math class is hardly worth mentioning, even though that's what took up the majority of my time for the week and a half I was in it. I never should have tried to take a math class during a short semester...I was behind before I even got started with it...oh well. <BR> <BR> The Cutie Honey... Tue, 15 Jun 2010 03:29:59 EST Started Working on My Cosplay I've started making my Cutey Honey cosplay outfit. I bought all the pieces, anyway, so now it's just a matter of putting it all together...I bought a plain black unitard, and I'm going do some alterations, add red fabric to the top of it and turn it into a halter. I also need to turn the thigh high boots I bought into knee length boots...and then there's plenty of little details to take care of, accessories to be's a simple costume, but I think that makes it all the more important t... Tue, 25 May 2010 03:58:53 EST Graduated Today! Also, No Longer Overweight! I ended up making all A's this semester...barely, but an A's an A, so I guess all the stress paid off in the end ^_^ Today was graduation. And... <BR> <BR> The ceremony itself was pretty unorganized. A lot of people didn't get into the auditorium because it filled up (including my grandmother and my aunt), and I also didn't like how they did the ceremony itself...they let the speakers talk for way too long, and then didn't bother to announce which degree anyone actually got (or even make a d... Sat, 8 May 2010 04:30:26 EST Cosplay stuff again... And I've decided that I really want to cosplay...CUTIE HONEY! :P <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> ^_^;; Definately need to start sticking to my diet again for that one, you know? Lose another 25 lbs... <BR> <BR> Oh man, body suits...scary stuff, people 0_0 <BR> <BR> Actually, I'm half tempted just to go for it now (I am feeling pretty confident lately...possibly overconfident), but I don't know...maybe there's a way I could make modif... Tue, 4 May 2010 02:17:12 EST Almost done! Graduation is FRIDAY! All the term projects are in, and I have just two more finals, one in game design and one in Excel. No big deal, it should be an easy week ^_^ I think I'm going to just barely swing an A in all my classes, as long as I make A's on my remaining finals. <BR> <BR> Friday is graduation. I never did send out any invitations. I had declined to order any when the school bookstore would not print both the degree and the certificate I had earned on the invite. I had planned to either buy some online ... Mon, 3 May 2010 05:59:05 EST Semester Wrapping Up Term Projects...AAAAHHHH!!! <BR> <BR> I already turned in one and I have two due tommorow. One is finished, the other is...not started ^_^;; <BR> <BR> At least I have been wearing real clothes this this point in the semsester, I have been known to start wearing pajama pants to school, so at least this year I've graduated to wearing a pair of too big jeans and too big t-shirts (although I do plan on dressing up for tommorow's presentation). <BR> <BR> If anyone would like to take a... Tue, 27 Apr 2010 13:20:53 EST Wednesday is Splurge Day I guess that Wednesday is now my official "splurge day." It's just that Wednesday has now become the day I typically hang out with my friends, and my a lot (my friends are mostly male, there are only three girls in the group including me ^_^;;). So it's hard not to eat with them. And really, I don't do TOO bad...comparatively. It's not like I'm matching the amount the guys are eating, at any rate. Today we went to CiCi's and I had a salad (w/ranch dressing), two pieces of pizza ... Thu, 22 Apr 2010 02:49:36 EST Been Busy (& Sick) I've been pretty busy for the past week and a half. I did end up finishing off that birthday cake, but at least I've left the ice cream alone since the cake's been gone ^_^;; <BR> <BR> Of course, I have gotten pretty off track with my weightloss anyway (I don't even remember the last time I actually exercised), but I think that's because the end of the semester is drawing near and I'm getting kind of stressed out trying to finish up all my classwork. I have a bunch of term projects due in a ... Sun, 18 Apr 2010 02:44:54 EST Me vs. the Birthday Cake Unfortunately, it seems the birthday cake is winning... <BR> <BR> To explain: My 25th birthday was on Tuesday, so that night I went out to eat my parents--Outback Steakhouse, which was wonderful, but I would have enjoyed it more if I had not accidently slurped down a giant glass of sangria in under five minutes without thinking about it...they really shouldn't serve wine with straws ^_^;; (or with rum, for that matter). <BR> <BR> Then I celebrated again on Wednesday with my friends. It was... Fri, 9 Apr 2010 02:53:05 EST Denouncing the Internet Fellow Sparkers, I have had a sudden revolation and have decided to denounce the internet. I have just decided that I am morally opposed to its presence in society, and that it serves absolutely no purpose whatsoever. No good comes from it. I know now that all of the evil in the world comes from the internet and its influences, and so after today, I am having my internet access turned off, and I will live a life without any electronic devices whatsoever. <BR> <BR> Yes, I am also throwing out... Thu, 1 Apr 2010 13:24:31 EST Photo of New Outfit (Before & After Photos) I took a picture of my new outfit (or one of my friends did, rather), so here it is: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I had said it was "60's inspired" - it isn't a hippie dress or anything, but the sillouete of the dress and the sunglasses reminds me of Audry Hepburn as Holly Golightly in Breakfast at Tiffany's, which is one of my favorite movies (one time I used part of it for a monologue for drama class, the part where she's drunk -... Thu, 1 Apr 2010 01:46:21 EST My New Problem With Clothes Shopping that almost everything I try on looks great! I'm starting to fit into size 8's, and I've never had so many options before--normally, if I tried something on and it looked good at all, I would buy it, because I could never find much that did look good, and most of the time I would have to settle for something that looked just okay... <BR> <BR> But now, I can go into Ross, pick up several different dresses off the rack, and they all end up fitting and looking incredible! Today I found so... Tue, 30 Mar 2010 03:04:10 EST