GOT2BMEMOMMYOF3's SparkPeople Blog GOT2BMEMOMMYOF3's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Today... It was such a nice surprise to wake up and find that my most supportive spark friends had stopped by my previous blog post and added some heartfelt words of inspiration and wisdom, as well as a gentle reminder that no matter where we are on our journey we are a human, and as such we will face temptations is what we choose to do with those temptations and cravings that will make a difference in the long choice at a time. <BR> <BR> So it is with you in mind, my dear ... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 01:02:57 EST Struggling with dissapointment... I am so dissapointed in myself right now... The moment I realize the scale no longer moves downward I give up and give in. My latest series of binges has left me spiraling out of control. <BR> <BR> At first I was in denial, and took it upon myself to lower meds that I was convinced were the source of weight gain...not the greatest idea, however it has worked out ok in that I have been feeling much better with reduced meds. But my weight continued to creep up. <BR> <BR> I'm not used to weig... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 01:32:33 EST Hey there! I'm still sorta here. Ive just been trying something different at the seems to be working out nicely. I'm still using the SP trackers though...they are my favorite part of SP...after spark friends of course!! <BR> <BR> Hope everyone is doing well! It's kinda late but here's a little toast to the new month..."come on spring!!" **cheers** Sun, 4 Mar 2012 23:26:13 EST Keeping going! Just a short blog to share my best streaks so far; I've done 9/9 days for both tracking food and no mindless eating in the evening! <BR> <BR> Those two things build on eachother since I won't eat at night until I see where I'm at from the day (except if stomach is full out grumbling - then fruit or granola bar) and tracking calories during the day has me well aware of not wanting to go way over by eating calorie laden junk food at night. <BR> <BR> I've been logging everything that goes in m... Mon, 30 Jan 2012 23:49:40 EST Slow and steady wins the race! Well I'm gonna start with the good part, and that is that I'm sticking with tracking food and excersise. I thought the food tracking was something I never wanted to do again...but it's coming easily and helping me with my food choices. I still have my bites of chocolate throughout the day, but every piece is tracked, accounted for, and fit into my calorie range. That feels good. I've turned down iced tea in favor of water (yes of course I want the iced tea! But I wanted that chocolate more), ... Wed, 25 Jan 2012 19:32:03 EST For the record Its been 24 hours since I quit smoking. The first days are the hardest, so deserve to be noted. <BR> <BR> I'm on day three of my spark streaks for a number of things including logging food, at least ten min of exercise per day, and avoiding mindless eating in the evenings as the biggies. <BR> <BR> Happy with my baby steps start!! Tue, 24 Jan 2012 23:55:55 EST Another healthy change! I'm quitting smoking as of tonight. <BR> <BR> It's not something I've ever been very proud of. <BR> <BR> If I'm going to make healthy changes for life, I need to do this too! <BR> <BR> Mon, 23 Jan 2012 21:47:38 EST Overcoming self imposed obsticles I have a confession to make; I am one of those people who want results but put in very little effort! <BR> <BR> That said, I have put myself to task to change this way of thinking! <BR> <BR> The theme I keep coming accross is 'small, managable, steps'...this does not mean get off the couch and walk to the kitchen, bathroom, bedroom, etc. it doesn't mean keep doing what you've always done and hope for a change. It certainly isn't just about reading spark success stories and wishing you were ... Sun, 22 Jan 2012 15:33:17 EST Where to start? Just some aimless thoughts flying around in my head tonight... <BR> <BR> It seems to me that it would be 'easier' to excersise if I lost weight I put off exercise. But I know I need to exercise to lose weight. <BR> <BR> Similarly I put off changing portion sizes and stopping night time snacking...because I can't seem to wrap my brain around that it's possible to lose weight! <BR> <BR> I have done somewhat better about not going too over board on junk food...but it's the choco... Wed, 18 Jan 2012 22:59:56 EST A better idea... Thanks to the feedback I had from the blog post I wrote yesterday...I've decided to rethink my goals. <BR> <BR> - Before snacking ask myself if I'm hungry or need to eat <BR> - Don't skip meals and then eat the first thing I can grab <BR> - Make sure to plan for all meals, not just supper <BR> - Allow myself to have treats in moderation <BR> - My goal is to make better food choices, but not to deprive myself <BR> - Have a glass of water or brush my teeth to stave off a craving <BR> - Try to ... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 22:13:18 EST Not the best idea ever Day one; no binge <BR> Day two; no binge <BR> Day two point five; no binge... <BR> <BR> SO WHY DID I GO EAT ALL THOSE CHIPS!! <BR> <BR> Pros: <BR> 1. Chips taste good (for about 15 seconds) <BR> 2. Chips have a satisfying crunch to them <BR> <BR> Cons: <BR> 1. Chips make the inside of your mouth feel horrable after eating them <BR> 2. Chips don't taste so great after eating the first few handfulls <BR> 3. They make you feel bloated <BR> 4. They give you gas <BR> 5. Add hundreds of calorie... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 00:28:52 EST Happy new year! I'm heeeeeeeere...again! Lol I'm soo predictable... But this year I have a different plan of attack. I'm going to focus primarily on overcoming binging and emotional eating. This is my main area of struggle....and it's one I'm hitting head on! My plan is to work at consciously deciding whether or not a food is nutritious or junk food, and whether i'm physically hungry or not. This could be interesting! <BR> <BR> Here's to day one (round one) of curbing binge eating and emotional eating. <BR... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 12:13:17 EST Little treats can be very high cal...!! Timbits...(doughnut holes) can, and will blow your calorie range if you decide to eat them...even consciously knowing this will happen, and still choosing to eat them, doesn't make them any better for ya! Same goes with any other deceivingly small, high cal treat! Course we already know <BR> <BR> So I caved to the Timbits...I don't even particularly like Timbits, but one flavor was calling my name. I knew full well they were gonna throw me...but not exactly by how much! 750 cals f... Tue, 21 Jun 2011 01:49:31 EST Doing good! Guess it's as good a time as any to check in! <BR> <BR> I've been doing well with staying in or fairly close to my calorie range. I've been very conscious of what I put in my mouth....making sure to track every bite. <BR> <BR> I've exercised more days then not. Choosing between walking, elliptical, and Biggest Loser Challenge for the Wii has allowed me to change things up as often as I want. I like that! <BR> <BR> I know this might all sound kinda boring; probably the reason I haven't bl... Thu, 16 Jun 2011 23:31:38 EST Finding my groove! Today I stayed in my calorie range, did not binge, no junk food came home with me from a large shopping trip, and I exercised for 30'min tonight! <BR> <BR> Yup..I'm getting there, to that place that makes me feel good about what I'm doing and why! <BR> <BR> It's for my overall health...not just weight. I need to use under used muscles, regularily break a sweat, improve my stamina and endurance, feel good about what I'm doing...and more! <BR> <BR> Today my nine yr old son, J, asked if I wa... Sun, 12 Jun 2011 02:25:25 EST So far so good... Since starting tracking food on June 8th, I've also started exercising! I'm veeeeeeery (insert unmotivated word here) when it comes exercise of any kind...whether it be planned exercise or run of the mill 'oh-gee-I-just-might-have-to-use-some-ener<BR>gy' kind... Ok, ok...shhhh don't tell any one... *to solve a problem, one must admit they have one in the first place** It's the 'L' word... It's true. I have three young boys, and generally I'm busy doing any number of things related to raising ... Sat, 11 Jun 2011 01:44:57 EST When it's good...!! Feeling pretty great right now! I went on my first 'long' walk in ummm...ages!!! My hubby's home about everyother night right I traded time on the couch vegging out with him, for a walk. Just me, my puppy, iPod and water bottle! Went on grassy fields and gravel roads...first walk in years that I felt good about walking! I've been using the good walking shoes, that I bought back in Jan or Feb, for grocery runs and they were nice and broken in. I gotta tell ya...I was begin... Thu, 9 Jun 2011 01:29:22 EST What the..?! Well...I didn't expect to lose weight with the tiny changes I'm making...but I sure didn't expect to gain!! Wonder what that's all about?! Only hoping on the scale every 5-7 days or so...just to keep myself in check...but today I saw a number I'd NEVER seen before...just went OVER my highest!! Ouch! <BR> <BR> Ok, ok... Not gonna freak out... But my normal fluctuations of 6-8 lbs at any given day usually fall in a certain this is weird! Specially since I'm eating more fruits and v... Tue, 7 Jun 2011 20:11:17 EST Doin' ok... Portion size control, day one, going well! Just making sure to limit portions to roughly half of what I normally have. I dont feel deprived at all...but also dont feel overly full either...just right. <BR> <BR> I seemed to have a fraction or two more energy today...feeling better about this health thing just being short term...*fingers crossed* I took away my morning coffee, but sometimes have it in the afternoon when out or at a friends if anything, and replaced it with fruit/spinach smooth... Fri, 3 Jun 2011 23:21:31 EST Little by little... Ok, just checking in! <BR> <BR> I've successfully cut out morning coffees with lotsa added sugar quite easily. I replaced that with a morning smoothie with whole fruit and yogurt. If I'm really craving something I mix another of those really curbs the cravings! I've experimented with adding spinach too and that is an unexpectedly nice addition. Healthy but no compromise on taste! <BR> <BR> My energy levels are still low...seem to be not quite as bad tho..all bloodwork came back no... Thu, 2 Jun 2011 01:26:51 EST Feeling it! Ok, so I haven't done anything major...but I did stick to my no coffee with lots of sugar plan...done day two! <BR> <BR> Only had two smokes today, with the intent to quit...hopefully in a day or so. <BR> <BR> I did not binge today, so that's good. Everything I ate was completely in moderation, if not actually proper portion sizes. <BR> <BR> I really had trouble moving arms and legs felt heavy and I was extra drained. No good reason for it...will keep trying to plug along. <... Sun, 29 May 2011 01:31:24 EST Honesty... This is gonna take a lot more commitment and effort than I originally thought. Back in January I got caught up in the high of trying something new in the new year...and then my mental health failed and I focused on getting through the day and looking after my kids. It's been a rollercoaster and not one I'd like to get back on anytime soon. <BR> <BR> My mental health (recently diagnosed as bipolar rather than depression) seems to be quite stable. I'm on a few different medications...and they... Sat, 28 May 2011 01:45:20 EST First thing... Well I know what its going to be...I'm going to cut out the coffee I drink with two large scoops of sugar and milk. I normally have one coffee a day...and I know I can cut it out and be fine. No more hot, sweetened coffee. I'll keep my iced capps with white milk for now...I only have them when I go into the city, about twice a week. <BR> <BR> I am going to add stretching and at least 20 squats a day with weighted (2-3lb) arm curls. I know I can do this...cuz I don't have to change, and I on... Fri, 27 May 2011 10:43:24 EST Denial, excuses, and a plan... I have been in denial... <BR> <BR> The truth is that if I deny what is real then I can continue without changing anything...which is easier. <BR> <BR> But it's not really. <BR> <BR> Not when you see some clothing in non-plus sizes that you'd really like to try on...but the truth is nothing less than size 22...or maybe 20...but either way it's not good. <BR> <BR> Not when your hubby still oooh's and ahh's at the sight of you...but you've been wondering for a very long time, probably al... Thu, 26 May 2011 20:56:08 EST Attainable goals... A Spark friend asked me to join her in meeting at least one attainable goal per day with in these categories: <BR> <BR> Nutrition <BR> Active Living <BR> Self Care <BR> <BR> She said to make them as small as I wanted, but just do something. <BR> <BR> That was just the invitation I needed to spark a belief in my own ability to get back up and keep on trying unil my lifestyle becomes naturally healthier. <BR> <BR> Recently it has seemed like too much effort. I lapsed back into not carin... Fri, 25 Mar 2011 23:48:21 EST Not off track...!! It just occured to me, in the past 15 minutes, that I'm not really as off track as I thought I was! Maybe I just took a different track, or slowed down quite a bit, but I'm still ON a track!!! That feels more hopefull already! Getting back on track sounds hard!! But gaining a little speed or changing course a wee bit does not!! Huh!? You can't quit you can't quit the process that goes along with choosing food to eat. You may not make a great choice, but that doesn't mean you have... Mon, 7 Mar 2011 22:54:51 EST March... It's been a bit since I've written...but I'm still here. My goals right now are small so that I can build on them. <BR> <BR> First off is to choose water instead of other beverages about 80% of the time...or basically most of the day. <BR> <BR> Second is to think about what I'm eating and how much I'm eating on a regular basis again. Making better choices about 80% of the time. <BR> <BR> Third is to continue to shut down at night earlier than I used to. I rarely am up past midnight any mo... Thu, 3 Mar 2011 22:20:42 EST Thanks.. Thanks to everyone who keeps sending their encouragement and support!! <BR> <BR> I am no where near up to par...but I do contine to try to make healthier food choices and limit the treats. The new medication I'm on is zapping almost all of my available energy!! <BR> <BR> Take care and have a great Valentines Day!!! <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> <em>247</em> <em>247</em> <em>247</em> <em>247</em> <em>247</em> Mon, 14 Feb 2011 10:28:02 EST Quick update.. I haven't gone anywhere...just got myself an ipod touch and I can look at sparkpeople and update my food and fitness tracker from there...but it's not so great for comments and blog posts. Sparkmail me if you want to catch up...cuz it redirects right to my normal inbox. Once the 'honeymoon' period is over with my new gadget I'm sure I'll be on here more!! I'm just not used to getting new high tech <BR> <BR> Take care!! <BR> <em>41</em> Thu, 10 Feb 2011 17:25:53 EST Getting back on track... So far I have done my first day of nutrition tracking since the beginning of last week. It sure does feel good to know I can pick right back up where I left off...and it was so much easier than I made it out to be too!! <BR> <BR> I think the big trick is starting the day off knowing you are going to track your food...that way you consciously keep track of what you eat and how much you are eating...a quick peek at label never hurts either!! <BR> <BR> Here's to keeping on, keeping on!! <BR>... Mon, 7 Feb 2011 22:02:52 EST I know I can...!!! First, I must say, one of the main reasons I am still here is cuz of wonderful sparkfriends like you!! <BR> <BR> I was knocked off balance this week...and in the past I would have given up. This time that is SO not gonna happen!! <BR> <BR> I read a few things that clicked for me today...and to paraphrase; do not focus on setting goals with negative words such as don't, won't, lose etc... instead use positive words such as I can, I will, I'm going to, etc. I have posted a link to the article... Sun, 6 Feb 2011 01:31:00 EST Unexpected... For those of you who have followed my blog...and have offered your wonderful support and encouragement...I thank you!! <BR> <BR> I would like to take a quick moment to update you on where I'm at...and what's happening for me. I am really trying to figure out how I'm going to incorporate my goals for a healthier me...with some personal upheaval and figuring things out. Now more than ever I need to try to stay on track...and I am NOT finding that easy!! <BR> <BR> I have been preliminarily di... Sat, 5 Feb 2011 13:36:04 EST Huh... I went for coffee this morning with two good friends...then went to my dr.'s apt. I've spent the rest of the day mulling over the outcome of my dr's apt. Will know more later...still struggling. <BR> <BR> I had my youngest with me, and hubby called in sick last night (he rarely does that!) cuz I've been quite a mess....and so he was the one taking care of our older two kids today. My lil' dude and I managed to spend somewhere around 4 hours at Walmart today. That IS possible...but it doesn't... Thu, 3 Feb 2011 22:31:03 EST Here...still...not going anywhere Just wanna let any SP friends know that I'm not ignoring you if I don't write or comment... <BR> <BR> I'm just having to figure how to pick myself up and put myself back together. <BR> <BR> I'm hoping it doesn't take me long...but I'm having trouble finding balance right now... <BR> <BR> Gotta pull it together before I fall apart... <BR> <BR> Take care! <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>2</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Edited later on to add: <BR> <BR> I'm thinking a big part of it is my hubbies schedule...... Wed, 2 Feb 2011 19:42:40 EST I'm gonna rock February!! I feel like I'm graduating this month from 'just starting up' to 'gettin my butt in gear'!! <BR> <BR> The plan is to use the Biggest Loser Challenge for the Wii as my daily work-out. On alternating days I will do strength training with exercise videos and cardio with the elliptical machine in addition to the B.L.Challenge. <BR> <BR> I have been trying to eat within, or close to, my calorie ranges. I've been adding more fruits and vegetables as well as trying to up my protein and water intak... Mon, 31 Jan 2011 23:07:16 EST Spark Friends I would like to invite you to join the team "Spark Friends". <BR> <BR> I created this team so that I could invite friends from several teams to share together on one page. You are welcome to invite your friends to join us and do the same!! <BR> <BR> You can find the link for the 'Spark Friends" team on my spark page under spark teams! <BR> <BR> Hope to see you there!! <BR> <BR> <em>41</em> Sun, 30 Jan 2011 17:20:13 EST Month two, day 4 personal challenge January 26, 2011 - February 26, 2011 Goals: <BR> <BR> <BR> Exercise for at least 10 min, once a day! <BR> <BR> Track all foods every day! <BR> <BR> Eat within food ranges! <BR> <BR> Sleep 6-8 hours per night! <BR> <BR> Keep a motivated, positive attitude! <BR> <BR> <BR> Day 4 <BR> ~~~~ <BR> <BR> Exercise: <BR> None (might do yoga after I'm done here) <BR> <BR> <BR> Food: <BR> I did not track my food today...I will hazard a guess that I'm somewhat over on my cals...I ate in moderati... Sat, 29 Jan 2011 23:42:15 EST Month two, day 3 personal challenge.. January 26, 2011 - February 26, 2011 Goals: <BR> <BR> <BR> Exercise for at least 10 min, once a day! <BR> <BR> Track all foods every day! <BR> <BR> Eat within food ranges! <BR> <BR> Sleep 6-8 hours per night! <BR> <BR> Keep a motivated, positive attitude! <BR> <BR> <BR> Day 3 <BR> ~~~~ <BR> <BR> Exercise: <BR> None <BR> <BR> <BR> Food: <BR> Blew my calorie range again...770 cals on polishing off the cookies!! I would have eaten in range other wise. SO did NOT want to track food t... Sat, 29 Jan 2011 01:15:09 EST Month two, day 2 personal challenge January 26, 2011 - February 26, 2011 Goals: <BR> <BR> <BR> Exercise for at least 10 min, once a day! <BR> <BR> Track all foods every day! <BR> <BR> Eat within food ranges! <BR> <BR> Sleep 6-8 hours per night! <BR> <BR> Keep a motivated, positive attitude! <BR> <BR> <BR> Day 2 <BR> ~~~~ <BR> <BR> Exercise: 35 min <BR> Biggest Loser Challenge - daily work-out plus extra challenge: squats, punches <BR> <BR> <BR> Food: <BR> Blew my calorie range...not a good idea to buy cookies!! Dran... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 23:36:05 EST Gonna try something new... Ok...I need to change it up a little bit. I have spent the past month blogging about feelings and goal setting...which is fine. This month I'm going to try blogging about action!! <BR> <BR> <BR> January 26, 2011 - February 26, 2011: <BR> <BR> <BR> Exercise for at least 10 min, once a day! <BR> <BR> Track all foods every day! <BR> <BR> Eat within food ranges! <BR> <BR> Sleep 6-8 hours per night! <BR> <BR> Keep a motivated, positive attitude! <BR> <BR> <BR> Day 1 <BR> ~~~~ <BR> <BR... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 02:00:14 EST One month Sparkversary... <em>515</em> <em>515</em> <em>515</em> <em>515</em> <em>515</em> <em>515</em> <em>515</em> <em>515</em> <em>515</em> <em>515</em> <BR> <BR> I just went back to my first blog post since starting back up...I enjoyed reading what I wrote then...and I'm ok with where I'm at now. <BR> <BR> More importantly I'M STILL HERE!!! <BR> <BR> I am doing a buncha writing and soul searching right now...the only thing that feels really ok right now is writing everythi... Wed, 26 Jan 2011 14:16:33 EST Not so bad... Still trying hard incorporate my goals into my day... <BR> <BR> Still tracking food...Still making mindful choices... <BR> <BR> Did get way more sleep last night... <BR> <BR> Heading to bed early tonight!! <BR> <BR> G'night <BR> <BR> <em>102</em> <BR> <BR> Edit: I am STILL awake!!! Tue, 25 Jan 2011 23:02:38 EST Fingers crossed... I am seriously struggling right now...most of it has to do with sleep and being exhausted. <BR> <BR> It's 8:50pm and by 9pm I intend to turn the light off. My entire house is shut down...I am actually in bed writing this. I very rarely bring the laptop to bed...but I figured it would help me shut down. I have been going to sleep between 2:30am and 4am for several nights now...I figured out the problem but it'll take too long to explain right now. My two yr old is awake...and is in bed beside... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:00:06 EST Brownies and ice cream...yum!!! I am very pleased with my progress so far! I can't see much difference in the numbers...both inches and weight...but I can tell that my thinking has changed!! <BR> <BR> Today we celebrated my youngest son's second birthday. Traditionally we have some kind of cake for birthdays, and this time, of course, was no different. <BR> <BR> My 8yr old and 4yr old helped make brownies this afternoon. I felt a little apprehensive about eating some later...but seeing their excitement won me over! We don... Sat, 22 Jan 2011 23:20:05 EST Just a thought... Sometimes, when I have a bad food day, I try to remind myself that I used to eat bad almost everyday....and once in a while have a good day. <BR> <BR> When I look at it this way I don't see the failure in too many calories...I realize I have turned a full 360!! Now I am quite conscious of what I put in my mouth...even if it is 'bad'. I exercise more than once every 6 months. I know I am making an effort. Way more effort than I ever have before. <BR> <BR> If you are reading this, that means ... Sat, 22 Jan 2011 02:06:19 EST I would prefere it if no one saw this!!! I wrote this in a comment to a fellow SK sparker...and figured I'd post it here too...for all to see!! (ack!) I am NOT proud of the choices I made today...but I realize they were MY choices and I could have stopped each of these...I must stay strong when away from home... <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> "Trips into S'toon are tough!!! I made two today!!! I felt so good about the first trip...only an iced cap...not so bad. <BR> <BR> Did a second trip when I picked my puppy up from the v... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 21:24:38 EST Are we there yet?! I am feeling impatient!! I know working out and watching/tracking what I eat is going to get me to where I want to be...but I wanna be there NOW!!! <BR> <BR> I stay in my nutritional ranges 6 out of 7 days is becoming much easier to figure out what I can and can not eat. I feel WAY less tempted to binge or eat junk food. I really feel like I'm making progress on that front. <BR> <BR> Working out is coming slower for me. I am averaging 3 times per week. While this is more than I did... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 00:48:58 EST Woohoo!! (Just so ya know...this isn't a sob story!!) <BR> <BR> I felt like crap today!! Sore and achy with no energy!! <BR> <BR> I often do a lot of SP reading...articles...blogs... you name it. It keeps me going. Today the thought of exercise was too much...but here are a few things I read: <BR> <BR> -read several of the 'most popular' blogs. <BR> <BR> -saw several before and after photo's. <BR> <BR> -read a blog about excuse busting. <BR> <BR> -read the words: Stop just trying, start just do... Wed, 19 Jan 2011 00:28:07 EST Just blog... The only reason for this post is to not let myself slide. I know blogging, itself, won't keep me here and committed...but the act of actually doing one of the things I planned to do, every day, will!! <BR> <BR> I'm mostly on track food-wise...but I've battled all night with a niggling feeling that I need go find something to binge on...!! I haven't binged since starting up with SP again...and that is ONE thing I don't want to find myself doing again!!! It's SO hard to stop that habit once yo... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 00:31:21 EST Ugg.. Didn't do a whole lot today...just a laid back version of my normal house-work and running around after my three boys (and puppy). I'm not in a great mood. <BR> <BR> I have laundry on the go and the dishwasher loaded and ready to run when the laundry is done. I already laid out the kids clothes for tomorrow, did hair cuts, gave them showers, and tucked them in bed. All but one, that is. My almost two yr old is still awake...just chillin here beside mommy. I think we'll be heading to bed earl... 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