GMINYARD's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=GMINYARD GMINYARD's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Fear - You can't keep me down anymore! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794828 Fear is an ugly part of my life. I have lived with it for such a long time, I don't know what I would do without it. That has to change in order for me to succeed. <BR> <BR> Most of my fear is based on what I look like or what people think. Or should I say, what I THINK people are thinking. I pride myself on being quite the mind reader sometimes. I can just look at someone and somehow an entire conversation about how fat I look that day is had in a matter of moments, in a glance. HA - stupi... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 18:59:56 EST Such a ROUGH day for me and my kiddo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781738 So I had an extremely difficult morning with one of my daughters. I have been working out of town A LOT (5 weeks was my last stint) and I think that every one of my daughters are dealing with it in a different manner. One of them, has gained a substantial amount of weight. This both terrifies me and makes me feel guilty! I am SO afraid that she is heading down the path that I have. I feel guilty because I haven't been home to help her. WHAT am I going to do?? She didn't fit in to any of her c... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 15:07:06 EST Goals for October 20-November 20 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5518108 October - November Goals <BR> <BR> <em>185</em> Exercise 6 days per week: <BR> - 3 days per week C25k <BR> - 3 days per week other (bike, elliptical, swimming, etc.) <BR> <BR> <em>34</em> Start to incorporate some type of strength training 3 days per week. <BR> <BR> <em>347</em> Log ALL my food every day, even if I am over. <BR> <BR> <em>9</em> Lose 8 pounds. Sat, 19 Oct 2013 22:57:32 EST Before Pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5321836 I had my husband take some before pictures for me yesterday. I was expecting to see someone completely out of shape, but what I saw in my pictures was bad, really bad. I told my husband to pretend like he hadn't seen them and then had the realization that he has to look at that EVERY day. Cue waterworks. I had a total melt down. He gave me a hug and told me that he thought I was beautiful, but man was that a wake up call. I am very grateful to have a wonderful husband that is supportive and t... Sat, 13 Apr 2013 13:24:59 EST 2.5 Years - OUCH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5317731 I was looking back through my blogs and kind of laughing to myself. It is a very poignant reminder of not only where I was at, but where I expected to be at this point in my life. As with so many on SP, I made some bad choices. I got off track. This time will be different. Right now I am looking forward - to running another 5k, to tracking all of my food, to weighing in, to making this a life change. It has been nice to get back on and see the progress that some of you have made - I am so pro... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 22:22:31 EST "Free Day" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4848319 So I did really well this week as far as eating and exercise go. I had been reading that you should have one day a week where you have a "free day" because it keeps your body from gong in to starvation mode when you start eating less calories. That means (to me) that I can eat what I want within reason on one day. What I want is not necessarily good for me. <em>334</em> Anyway, I ended up eating some foods that I had been looking forward to all week (french fries and a cheeseburger), but gu... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 14:35:30 EST Supersize Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4296300 I have always wanted to watch Supersize Me, but haven't until challenged by my Wildflower team. It was one of those things that as I watched, I kept thinking, you know fast food is bad, so why are you so surprised? I guess that I had downplayed the amount of damage that it could do because I like the fast part of it and frankly, it tastes good to me now. I have also downplayed countless other bad choices in my life and it has landed me in the spot that I am now - overweight and unhappy. Time ... Mon, 13 Jun 2011 17:09:57 EST Accountability Vow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4135603 I, Gina, do hereby solemnly vow to hold myself accountable. To not lie to, cheat or fool myself from this day forward. I promise to honor myself by looking to see the truth, name it and receive it openly. I will call myself out if a moment of weakness should occur. I agree to then forgive myself, put it behind me and begin again. I will not tell myself I’m doing more than I actually am. Nor will I short change myself to believe the opposite. I swear to respect myself enough not to beat myself... Fri, 1 Apr 2011 22:43:48 EST I did it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3968691 I am writing this blog to mark a momentous occasion - I actually ran the 3.1 miles in a 5k without stopping. I was so excited when I realized that I was going to finish (around mile 2.5) that I almost started to cry and got all choked up. Then I had to get my head straight so that I could breathe through it and actually finish. Lol. Anyway, a few of the reasons that running a 5k is so important to me are: <BR> <BR> 1.) I have a great support system in my family and they are going to be at my... Fri, 28 Jan 2011 10:48:15 EST Encouragement from an Unexpected Source - my little Rosie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3919071 Yesterday was my sweet baby's 4th birthday. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l168281877.jpg"> <BR> I know, I know, she is not a baby. However, she is my last, so still my baby. Anyway, we had all sorts of fun things planned for her big day. I asked her where she wanted to go (Papa's pizza), what she wanted to wear (an Elmo dress), and what kind of cake she wanted. I expected her to say something like chocolate with chocolate frosting because I happen to know that is he... Wed, 12 Jan 2011 19:36:58 EST New Shoes and Running http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3910166 So I went on my last run of week 2 of Couch to 5k, but my first run with my new shoes. I went to Portland Running Co. and had them fit me with shoes (thanks for the suggestion Rachel). WOW!!! What a difference! I felt like I could go forever. I ran 2 miles. I think I actually dreamed of running last night. I also signed up for the Shamrock Run in March. Yay! I think that I have caught the bug. Wish me luck... <em>312</em> Mon, 10 Jan 2011 12:48:35 EST 2011 Here I Come http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3869051 I am ready for 2011 to come because this is MY year! I have never started off a year with so much optimism or a running start like this. Thank you to everyone who has given me support through comments, emails, and calls. I love all of you! So...drumroll please....my goals for 2011. <BR> <BR> 1.) I am going to set weekly mini goals for 6 days out of the week. I will post them on the My Goals section of my Sparkpage. <BR> 2.) I am going to be under 200 by Mikayla's birthday on January 20th. <B... Wed, 29 Dec 2010 11:17:22 EST Telling the truth & Measuring http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3859177 Yesterday I went to the mall with my girls to see Santa. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l564089521.jpg"> <BR> We waited in line for over two hours. The kids where really good, but needless to say I got really stressed out. Also, I saw someone I haven't seen in a while... a long while... like 60 pounds ago. I instantly wanted to eat. Funny that seeing someone who saw me thinner made me want to eat which would make me heavier. Ugh. Anyway, I got home and made a salad. Yay me... Thu, 23 Dec 2010 11:33:41 EST Kids hear everything! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3847810 As most mothers do, I know that kids are like sponges. They hear and FEEL so much more than we realize. That is a big part of why I have been working to lose weight. I want to be a good role model and hopefully spare them some of the pain that I have felt being overweight. That being said, I do not watch what I say about myself enough. I am one of those people that joke about themselves as a defense mechanism and because, honestly, I really do feel bad about how I look and how I think others ... Thu, 16 Dec 2010 16:26:09 EST Moving On http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3841449 For the past few months, I have been a no show. Not just on Sparks, but in life. I have been very depressed. So depressed that I didn't want to participate in anything besides sleeping and eating. Sparkpeople made me feel guilty because I wasn't doing what I should be. Honestly, I didn't want anyone to know how bad I actually was. I am finally feeling better, and slowly getting back to my life. Thank you to everyone that supported me during the these difficult months and to those who continue... Mon, 13 Dec 2010 12:47:19 EST Another Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3638197 I am off and running this week (pun intended). I haven't lost a lot of weight in the past 2 weeks, but I have been cheating a bit. I am very happy to have a great support system in my family. My parents saw me for the first time since I started (or shall I say restarted) SP and they gave me so many compliments - thanks Mom and Dad. I am feeling better and running farther all of the time. I keep trying to look at that and not get overwhelmed by the amount of time I need to continue working bef... Tue, 14 Sep 2010 17:09:40 EST Great Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3567361 I was sitting here working and looked out to see my beautiful little girl running through the yard. She is so precious and so worth all of the bumps in the road (like Saturday when I ate breakfast out). No matter what, I have to give this everything I've got, because even the smallest change it makes for her is worth it. What a beautiful day to be making a change with all of my spark friends who have been so supportive. You guys rock and I know that I can do this. Woot woot. <em>30</em> Mon, 23 Aug 2010 20:16:08 EST What a whiner! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3536861 I have been feeling really down about how things are going in my life. I feel as though it is out of my control, and not in a good way. As of late I have been praying with a lot of "why is this happening to me" and "why aren't things changing". I decided to buy a new NLT Bible and read the book of Job. WOW, that really put things into perspective. EVERYTHING that he had was taken away and yet God was still able to say that he was a "man of complete integrity." (JOB 2:3). Would that God coul... Sat, 14 Aug 2010 15:09:13 EST