GMEISSNE1's SparkPeople Blog GMEISSNE1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Boo! <img src=""> So here we are again. 2 steps forward, 4 steps back. I am at my new heaviest. This is the first time I FEEL fat. I feel rundown and have no energy or willpower or morivation. It has been a rough year, and I have put on about 40lbs since my last birthday alone. I suffered/am suffering from a bout of depression brought on by a whole lot of things that I won't get into. However I am tired of getting winde... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 23:25:13 EST Keep on keepin' on. Ok, I went back to the gym today, which is the 2nd time in 5 days...not great, but not bad either. <BR> <BR> I am having a hard time with the mental part. I used to EASILY do the cycle for an hour. I was on it for about 7 minutes before I couldn't do it anymore. <BR> <BR> I need to get back in the game. I need to get myself motivated to kick some booty! I think changing gyms might help, because of a change in scenery. I also should really start doing at least ONE road run a week. Not just ... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 13:09:02 EST Back at the gym So today I FINALLY made it to the gym. <BR> <BR> I did finish my workout, but I started all the way back at week one. It was challenging, but not as challenging as when I first started. I recovered pretty quickly. <BR> <BR> I weighed myself, and I am holding at 243 for now, but I am excited to see that start to drop again soon! <BR> <BR> I am going to have to change gyms soon, because the Y is more expensive and has more restrictive hours than the local YouFit. I may kick myself next sum... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 11:04:00 EST Not a setback, a slowdown. So I was really concerned a few weeks ago about my workouts suddenly backsliding. I couldn't breathe, my legs were cramping way too easily. I was getting scared. Suddenly, the night after my last terrible workout, BAM! My nose started running and did not stop for a week, at which point it solidified and completely blocked it up, and my chest became ridiculously congested and I couldn't sleep because I was coughing all. the. time. For about another 2 weeks. Finally, things are starting to feel... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 13:48:13 EST Oh Yeah!!!! I had a GREAT workout!!!!! I did a 15 minute mile, and I also did the bikes for 30, and got a couple of good stretches in, as well as a little core strengthening yoga... <BR> <BR> So...yeah, good day. Mon, 26 Aug 2013 23:08:56 EST Well darn So I have pretty much fallen off the wagon. I have been over calories and under on exercise for over a week. I put on 5 lbs, and I can't seem to stop myself. What the heck is wrong with me?? Sat, 24 Aug 2013 00:10:47 EST *Fair warning: This is a long post, and I am about to get gushy about my husband.* <img src="">I hadn't been to gym for about a week. I don't like it. It's partly because we have been really busy getting ready for back to school/work, but partly because I haven't made it enough of a priority. <BR> <BR> I haven't made myself enough of a priority in general. I have really put myself on the back-burner, especially for the last couple weeks. I have a tendency to prioritize my family before myself, and I really need to keep ... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 01:04:42 EST Back! Disney was great, but exhausting! I need a vacation from my vacation! <BR> <BR> I was a little scared to get on the scale Monday, but I did it, and I haven't gained anything, but I didn't lose either. I will take it! I ate a TON Of bad for you but so delicious food! I also walked for like 15 hours that day and drank what seemed like 2 gallons of water. <BR> <BR> I got back to the gym today, finally, and on to my official training plan. I started an interval plan, with a 1 minute run/3 minut... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 20:47:16 EST Disney Vacation!!! So this morning Greg's dad came for breakfast. He is a hearty breakfast kinda guy, so we had the works: Pancakes, bacon, sausage patties AND links, rasberry breakfast buns, etc. I was good, and only had 1 pancake, 2 strips of bacon, 2 sausage links, and water. It was a big breakfast, which I usually don't like, but I knew it was coming so I didn't eat a lot last night so I would be able to eat it today. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow, really really early, we are leaving for Disney! We are only going to... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 09:47:26 EST Plan Update When I first "restarted" Sparkpeople, I posted a plan. Here is the updated version. <BR> <BR> 1. BUY A FREAKING SPORTS BRA <BR> 2. At 30lbs lost, buy those sweet NewBalance shoes you saw <BR> 3. Sign up for Dirty Girl <BR> 4. Seriously, do the damn strength training. <BR> 5. Keep working out 5-6 days a week. <BR> 6. Incorporate some road runs. <BR> 7. Follow C25K interval plan starting 8/12/13 <BR> 9. Don't die doing Dirty Girl. Sun, 4 Aug 2013 13:35:11 EST Bad News/Good News The bad news is I still can't run. I tried, with my compression sleeve, and it felt better, but I still couldn't get to my normal pace, and even then I couldn't do the same distance. I did the cycle, and that was much better. I was able to do 45 minutes and 7.9 miles, which is slower than my regular pace, but I was trying to take it easy. I didn't experience a lot of pain, just some mild pain towards the end. I did some good stretching, so now I am just going to do CT for 2 days, and skip the... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 13:26:02 EST Saturday Ok, so I decided not to do any workout today. I didn't want to make the shins worse, although they didn't hurt much after about 9am. <BR> <BR> I got some compression sleeves, which are pretty cool. I almost immediately felt better. A lot less tightness in my calves. We shall see over the next few days. I also had a fitting for running shoes, and found a pair I really like, for $200....and a pair that's nice as well, for a more reasonable $120. Sat, 3 Aug 2013 23:51:58 EST Stupid shoes... So I went to the gym this morning, knowing it would be my only opportunity today. I was determined to do that damn 2.2, since I couldn't do it yesterday. I wore the right shoes, and even did some warm up before my warm up so that I would be ok. <BR> <BR> No such luck. I managed .7 miles at 3.75mph, and then I couldn't do it anymore. My right shin hurts and my left foot hurts. Even now, at 12:15 in the afternoon, my shin is still bothering me. Looks like it's biking and rowing for me for the... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 12:18:21 EST Time for shoe shopping. I have a pair of running shoes. I have used them for running twice. Usually I run in my crosstrainers. The second time that I used these running shoes was tonight, and it, like the last time, ended badly. I was supposed to run 2.2 miles and I only did 1.75, and I still feel like my feet are falling off. I am not overstating when I say it was excruciating. I had to take them off to walk out of the gym. It's probably good though...maybe the other people in the gym were so distracted by me walki... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 21:29:27 EST 11 lbs down! Weighed myself at the gym and I am down another couple pounds! Woo Hoo! Wed, 31 Jul 2013 20:21:06 EST Puerto Rican food and weightloss are like oil and water and more oil. And some fat too. I am a mixture of hispanic and German-Jewish. I got the ability to get a good tan, but I have to work at it a little more than pure hispanics, dark eyes and hair <BR> <BR> Let me explain to you how freaking awesome family dinners are. Schnintzel and Latkes, and arroz con pollo and mofongo, Saurbraten and Bratwurst, gandules with chorizo, spatzle and streudel, tostones and get the drift. <BR> <BR> I am pretty good at making good decisions; load my plate with salad first, then eat... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 11:23:17 EST Saturday I caved last night/early this morning around 1230am and had a jr cheeseburger no mayo from wendys, as well as medium fries and a medium coke. It was my first coke in over 2 months and it was SOOOOO good. I knew that I was going to do my long run today, so I had the extra calories. <BR> <BR> I did 3.5 in 55 mins, or a 15:47 mile. Not bad, if I do say so myself. I still had some energy to burn (which is amazing because I got like 5 hrs of sleep last night) so I did 30 on the cycle too. <BR> ... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 11:47:39 EST Weird day at the gym... The gym was full of weirdos today. <BR> <BR> An old man on a bike was pedaling slowly while singing really loud, surrounded by like 10 other bikes and ellipticals with people on them, and the tv on. Then in the womens locker room, there was an old lady sitting butt naked on the bench eating a bag of chips for like 15 minutes. She might still be there. Wed, 24 Jul 2013 13:48:14 EST Not a great day Well, yesterday was a good day for a lot of reasons. <BR> <BR> Today was NOT good for a lot of other reasons. My youngest son had a really rough day, and it didn't get any better. On top of that, I dealt with a lot of ridiculousness between doctors and insurance all day today too. <BR> <BR> On top of that, and <BR> <BR> this one is pretty shocking..................people on Facebook were being stupid. <BR> <BR> After that nonsense,I had enough pent up anger to burn 798 calories in like... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 22:52:36 EST 9 lbs down! 117 to go! I lost some more weight! YAY! <BR> <BR> When I started weighing myself, before I got back on spark, I was at 275, so I really have lost 19lbs, but I have only been tracking on here for a month or so. <BR> <BR> It was a pretty awesome experience. I got on the scale at the gym, and, like I always do, slid the large weight to 250, and slid the small one to where I was last time, 263. It didn't budge. It was still sitting at the bottom, not even moving. I was puzzled, and checked the big slide,... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 12:11:39 EST Just venting... So, there is one thing with Spark People that bugs me, like...a lot. <BR> <BR> I am fine with little things, like that the food stuff is not always dead on, and the same goes for fitness, but nothing is perfect, and Spark is pretty awesome. <BR> <BR> <BR> Except for this one thing..... <BR> <BR> I absolutely can not stand when people comment on someone elses blog or message board post without reading the whole post, or making sure they are fully aware of what is going on before they comm... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 23:02:44 EST Pacing myself Today the legs felt a little better. I didn't push it too hard though. I did not get to 5mph, or even 4 for the most part. I warmed up at 3 for five minutes, then kept it between 3.5 and 3.7 for the duration. I did get to 4 for a couple of minutes towards the end, but I tried to just keep an even pace, rather than doing intervals. I felt good, wasn't out of breathe at all, and still burned quite a few calories, so I am ok with it. <BR> <BR> I like to push myself. I like to see how far/fast I... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 23:03:06 EST Another day, another.... 3lbs down! <BR> <BR> SOOO glad! I needed some good news today! <BR> <BR> My run today wasn't awful, but still not back to normal. My pace was 18:30 mile. Usually between 16 and 17, so not fantastic. I did some extra stretching, and tomorrow is JUST cross training and strength training (upper and core) I should get some extra rest in case they are trying to heal. <BR> <BR> I took a picture today in the gym mirror. I want to remember where I am coming from, so if I ever decide I DON'T... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 18:34:21 EST Tight Muscles So yesterday my run was less than stellar. <BR> <BR> It was my 1.75. It's an easy run, and I usually try to challenge my pace on it. I usually push myself to do slightly longer fast intervals and slightly shorter slow intervals. I try to keep my heart rate in the weightloss/aerobic range. You know, get a good, short workout. <BR> <BR> I could barely WALK it, much less actually get a good pace. I usually warm up for 5 minutes at 2.5/3mph, and then for the rest of the time I keep it above 3... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 14:21:45 EST The Dealio So I have been eating during the day. I am not super duper hungry or anything. It's more like crazy cravings. I ate 6 Hawaiian Sweet rolls for lunch. I regret nothing. <BR> <BR> At the gym, I did my 1.75 miles, but I did it at like a 20 minute pace. My calves burned like crazy. I REALLY hope I don't have an injury. I am hoping that I just haven't been drinking enough water lately, or getting enough sleep. If I correct that, I am thinking I will be back on track. <BR> <BR> The scale at the ... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 21:02:16 EST Woah... Just looked again at my calorie tracker. <BR> <BR> I burned over a pound just in cardio exercise this week, nevermind watching what I eat... <BR> <BR> Awesome. Sat, 13 Jul 2013 00:14:48 EST Pennance I have been pretty stressed the last few days. <BR> <BR> With it being summer, and my kids being home, I have been to playground after playground, the beach, the YMCA waterpark, the movies, the bouncehouse, and we have been trying to find other things to do to keep them entertained. They are getting pretty tired of me though, and are having a harder and harder time behaving (especially when it rains, as it does frequently, and they are stuck inside). <BR> <BR> Last week, D had summer camp, ... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 16:28:48 EST what the heck? So apparently, yesterday, when I entered in my mileage, I hit 0 instead of a decimal and it thinks I ran 1055 miles in 30 minutes... <BR> <BR> I fixed it, but it still is reporting that I am WAY over my mileage goal. WTH sparkpeople? <BR> <BR> <BR> Anyways, 3.5 in 56 minutes today. w00t. Thu, 11 Jul 2013 11:11:32 EST alrighty then so i was supposed to just do strength training today, but since I only did half a run and strength training yesterday, I figured I would do the other half today. So i did it, and then I went downstairs and know what? Finish up for an extra 1.75 to really get on track again! So I did it. I did another 1.75 and felt a lot better about it! My pace was a little lacking, but it's ok because I knocked it out anyways. <BR> <BR> I probably would have done more but I didn't have headph... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 13:27:24 EST Bad workout The goal was 3.5 miles today...I pushed through 1.75 because I wore different (crappy) shoes....My feet hurt sooooooo bad I could barely walk, nevermind run! <BR> <BR> So now I am behind by 1.75 miles for the week. Not a happy girl right now! Tue, 9 Jul 2013 19:51:51 EST 5 lbs down! Only... yano...120 or so to go....but progress is progress! <BR> <BR> Slow and steady 1.75 miles today. I am really hungry today! Worried about going over my calories! GAH! Mon, 8 Jul 2013 18:30:23 EST "Pain is weakness leaving the body" I read that somewhere last night.... <BR> <BR> How freaking Spartan is that?! <BR> <BR> I did my first 5 mile walk/run in over 10 years, and my pace is better than it has been all week; 16:48. That's 56 seconds faster than I have been doing all week so I am really happy about that. <BR> <BR> The only real pain I have so far was in my foot for about 10 minutes after I stopped. My knees were bugging me a little during the run in the last 1.5 miles or so. I think when I improve my form and lo... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 12:15:45 EST Don't buy crappy food. Here's another tip: <BR> <BR> When you are trying to lose weight, and you are a chronic overeater, don't bring crappy food in the house. <BR> <BR> At CVS I had $7.00 in ECB's, and I had a total sale of $6.49. I grabbed 2 packs of M&M's to make it to $7. I told myself I was going to give them to my husband, which I did. Then I ate a pack this morning. GRRRRRRRRRRRR.... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 08:45:48 EST Do what works, not what you're told. 190 days. (pitiful) pushups, squats, lunges and side crunches this morning. <BR> <BR> Mini Revelation: For YEARS I have heard that I should eat the biggest meal of the day in the morning, and then the smallest at dinner time. I have heard how it will make me healthier, skinnier, and that if I ate more in the morning I wouldn't be hungry at night. Blah blah blah...I have never been a big breakfast eater, and I am always FAMISHED at night, so I always failed miserably when I tried this. <BR> ... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 19:39:19 EST Stop being whiney That's a note to me, not anyone else. <BR> <BR> I had a headache today and really didn't want to go to the gym. I did it, but I didn't have a great workout. I only did 2.5 miles in an hour versus 3.5 yesterday. I probably could have done more but I was being lazy. At least my head felt better afterwards. <BR> <BR> SN: The angrier Jay-Z is the better I run. Tue, 2 Jul 2013 18:52:51 EST 191 days to Dirty Girl Mud Run Today was workout one. <BR> <BR> 3.5 Miles in 61 minutes and 502 calories, so about a 18 minute pace. <BR> <BR> I honestly thought I wouldn't make it past the first mile, but once I did, it went by pretty fast. <BR> <BR> Biggest issues were my own self consciousness about being simultaneously the youngest and fattest person there, the lack of a good sports bra, and the gallons of sweat pouring off of me. It was really gross. <BR> <BR> This is day one, so I have the most motivation. I know... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 10:51:14 EST #1 is done Got the Family a YMCA membership. Now I just need to make sure I go! <BR> <BR> On the hunt for a good sports bra, but in the meantime, i don't know...duct tape and cellophane? Sun, 30 Jun 2013 21:23:15 EST I dont even know what to put here Its too damn late for this nonsense. <BR> <BR> Here is the plan: <BR> <BR> 1. Sign up for YMCA membership <BR> 2. Get a good sports bra (or three). <BR> 3.Use gym or lap pool at the YMCA at least 5 times a week <BR> 4. Sign up for 5k Mud Run for my birthday with 3 of my friends <BR> 5. Don't die doing the mud run. <BR> 6. No more soda, gatorade, etc. <BR> 7. Go to bed before 3am. What the heck is wrong with me that I am up this damn late?! Sun, 30 Jun 2013 03:04:31 EST Results I am having mixed feelings today, because so far the scale hasn't budged much, and I haven't lost a single inch off of anywhere! <BR> <BR> I feel accomplished because I am doing exercise (and enjoying it), and I am keeping in my calorie range, and I am trying to focus on that but it would REALLY be great if the scale would move a little faster and those inches would fall off a little faster. <BR> Mon, 19 Sep 2011 01:31:10 EST Thursday.... Well...the scale hasn't budged... I know that it's my fault. <BR> <BR> I definitely didn't stick with it as much as I could. I need to keep making the right choices, and I need to keep healthy, low cal foods on hand so I am not eating whatever is around. I also need to exercise daily, no matter what, and really push myself to give it 100% throughout the whole workout. Lately, when I am doing Zumba, I find that I am only halfheartedly going through the motions, and not putting a lot of effor... Fri, 16 Sep 2011 12:47:36 EST Whoops! So, I weigh myself daily, because I am obsessed, but I only record it on Thursdays. <BR> <BR> I haven't had a good couple days, so when I got on the scale this morning, I was pretty pissed, but not shocked, that I had GAINED a couple pounds. <BR> <BR> It was just the push I needed! I did an hour of Zumba this morning, and I am back on track with eating (so far) today. I am going to do another hour this evening, just to keep up the momentum! <BR> <BR> I need a good week! Wish me luck! Mon, 12 Sep 2011 12:24:47 EST Counting the steps forward... I keep having this battle with myself about getting in shape. Here is my mantra for those rough times. <BR> <BR> Although my body doesn't want to work at full steam the entire time, I can now do an hour of cardio without feeling breathless and winded at the end. <BR> <BR> Although I can't see it in the mirror yet, the needle on the scale keeps heading counterclockwise. <BR> <BR> Although it's hard work and I have to be conscious of my efforts at all times, I feel that I have more energy, a... Sat, 10 Sep 2011 09:48:03 EST Rockin and Rollin! I did really good today! <BR> <BR> I had a couple obstacles, but I powered through! <BR> <BR> For one, I didn't have water with me at work bueno, so instead of chugging water, I ate my lunch and my snack (all pre-portioned of course) at about 11 am. <BR> <BR> THEN my husband ended up having to stay at work really late, and asked me to run him some food. He isn't dieting, so he wanted McDonald's. I couldn't resist, and got a value meal. I didn't realize it until I had shoved my ... Mon, 5 Sep 2011 21:51:26 EST Learning my limits I started out pretty well today, I had a good, low cal but healthy breakfast, and a snack. My mom called and wanted to go out to eat for dinner. I agreed, thinking we were going to one place, and knowing exactly what to get. I was trying to get on my tracker on my phone all day, so I didn't know exactly where I stood today, but I knew I was pretty safe. When she picked me up we decided to go somewhere different instead, and we ended up sharing appetizers and drinks.... <BR> <BR> So now I am ... Thu, 1 Sep 2011 20:55:40 EST YES! 3lbs GONE! I was feeling kind of down because I had a mediocre workout tonight...I wasnt winded or achey or anything, I just felt really tired so I didnt give it my all. I was planning on how to make up for it tomorrow when I figured I would weigh myself....I got on the scale and my eyes almost popped out of my head! I actually scoured the house to find something that I knew the weight of to check that the scale was accurate...So one 5lb bag of flour, and stepping on and off the scale about a dozen time... Wed, 31 Aug 2011 22:35:36 EST Excuses Excuses We all do it, and it's silly. <BR> <BR> Everytime I think about really eating right, or exercising, there is an excuse. "When I live on my own, it will be easier to have healthy foods", "I am just stressed right now, I need to give myself a break", "I will start exercising when the weather is better", etc. <BR> <BR> No more excuses!!!!! Mon, 15 Aug 2011 10:31:47 EST Back again and again I may get sidetracked, but I will keep coming back. I am having an extra burst of motivation, which is frustrating, because I just had all my wisdom teeth extracted, and I am not supposed to do anything....I cleaned for like an hour yesterday and my mouth definitely was not happy. So now, I am planning. My husband and I want to have kids sometime soon, so I came up with a baby-plan. Part one, of course, is losing weight and checking my vitals. I know I am in pretty good health, besides my wei... Sun, 14 Aug 2011 23:36:54 EST Attitude adjustment Faking happy isnt easy. I keep trying to change my attitude, and smile through stuff, but it's hard. I know that I am going to have to get some help, and I am going to have to talk to my husband about how I am feeling, because I don't think he knows. <BR> <BR> I am concerned because the only time I feel ok is when I am busy. Yesterday, the way I kept busy was shopping. I could feel myself getting a little manic high (learned behavior from my mother, I have been tested almost yearly for mani... Sat, 9 Apr 2011 13:52:04 EST Where it all went wrong... In the beginning of February, my workout buddy couldnt go to a Zumba class so we skipped that day. The following Monday, my grandmother got really sick and was admitted to the hospital. She was in the hospital for a couple weeks, and I was there with her everyday that I could. She passed away February 22nd. I havent been to a Zumba class since the end of January. The funny thing is if she could have she would have told me to go since she had struggled with her weight later in life, and was al... Wed, 6 Apr 2011 10:34:23 EST Yay! So, not only did I eat pizza AND cake yesterday, but I STILL didnt go over my calories, AND I did an hour of high impact Zumba, and Dance central, so I burned most of my weeks calories! I actually had a deficit day! AWESOME! lol <BR> Im excited now, because I know I can do this. I didnt go to bed hungry, and I didnt go wanting. Eating more veggies definitely helps, but the exercise thing is gonna be rough. Once I am doing it, or after I am doing it its fine, but getting me to do it is a pain. Fri, 14 Jan 2011 10:09:43 EST