GLINDAGOODWITCH's SparkPeople Blog GLINDAGOODWITCH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Desperation A short while ago I attempted to come back here to Spark. Only to fall into my usual trap of over eating. This time I have managed to eat myself into a personal record braking 100 pounds over weight. I have been eating junk food and sugar for the entire past month. It's so bad that I can feel it coming out of my pores. In the past I have lost 80 pounds. I know how to succeed in weight loss. I have all the tools I need available to do it. Soooo I'm back again to make those pounds disappear. <... Mon, 9 May 2016 11:43:37 EST I hope it sticks this time <em>88</em> I am back again. I've been very busy taking care of my mom who is in hospice. She is 90 years old. Unfortunately I have gained about 20 pounds since the last time I was here in January. This makes me about 240 pounds. I have weighed myself yet. That's just a guess. I know I've gained a lot because none of my clothes fit. Today I am going to do a workout for the first time since January. <BR> <BR> Wish me luck! <BR> <BR> G <BR> Thu, 7 Apr 2016 11:37:25 EST Just keep trying Here I am back again. It's been a rough couple weeks. I have been dealing with issues concerning my daughter, my mom and myself. I am the sole caregiver of my mom who is 89 years old. Don't get me wrong, I love my mom dearly and I feel honored to take care of her. She is a very special little lady. Everyone who comes in contact with her loves her. <BR> <BR> As far as my weight is concerned I am really struggling. I have gained at least 50 pounds in the past year and I was already 30 pounds ... Sun, 10 Jan 2016 10:35:17 EST Major blow out! These last few days have been a major blow out as far as my food and fitness are concerned. I have done nothing but eat and sit on my rump. I am at my all time heaviest weight. I am in the worst shape I have ever been. I have eaten so much junk and sugar in the past few days that it feels like its coming out of my pores. YUCK! I feel HORRIBLE! Today has been a good day so far. I am drinking a lot of green tea and sticking to lots of fruits and veges. Lets hope I stay on track from now on. <B... Thu, 24 Dec 2015 14:29:02 EST Senior center workout I just got back from an exercise program at the Senior Center (53 y/o here). It was awesome! Lots of stretching and some low impact aerobics. It was great! I just discovered what they have there. It will be a great place for me to go to socialize. I take care of my mom who is 89 years old. Not complaining.....she is a sweetheart but this will be a good place for both of us to get out of the house and do some things that we like to do with other people. She is going to start going to a quiltin... Fri, 11 Dec 2015 16:09:49 EST Good day sunshine! The Beatles 1966 <BR> <BR> Good day sunshine! <BR> "Good Day Sunshine" <BR> <BR> Good day sunshine, good day sunshine, good day sunshine <BR> <BR> I need to laugh and when the sun is out <BR> I've got something I can laugh about <BR> I feel good in a special way <BR> I'm in love and it's a sunny day <BR> <BR> Good day sunshine, good day sunshine, good day sunshine <BR> <BR> We take a walk, the sun is shining down <BR> Burns my feet as they touch the ground <BR> <BR> Good day sunshine, g... Wed, 9 Dec 2015 15:47:28 EST Time to shift gears This past year I have been dealing with extremely toxic people. I have been pushed mentally to limits I never thought I had. I have also gained about 60 pounds. I am now at the heaviest I have ever been. Saturday I put myself into an extremely emotional state. Because of these certain people. I said a lot of things. Things that have ultimately hurt myself. With not one response from them. Ok.....I'm going to be perfectly honest. I started drinking wine about 2 weeks ago to help me relax. Ha! ... Mon, 7 Dec 2015 17:19:42 EST New day, fresh start..... I had a very emotional weekend. I did very poorly with my eating and I didn't even exercise. That is in the past though. One day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time. <BR> <BR> Peace! <BR> G <BR> <BR> <em>425</em> Mon, 7 Dec 2015 12:08:59 EST Yay for sleep! I woke up this morning feeling well rested. Now I can face my day with confidence that I will make healthy choices and give my mom (89 y/o) lots of hugs. <BR> <BR> I have two new kittens (to add to my other 5). Ha! Yes it's ok if you call me the crazy cat lady. Because it's true! <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> Today is going to be a peaceful one. I am going to spend most of my time either here and reading the bible. <BR> <BR> Have a dandy day all! <BR> <BR> <em>88</em> <BR> G Fri, 4 Dec 2015 11:38:38 EST San Bernardino shootings THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS GO OUT TO ALL THAT IS INVOLVED. I live in Riverside County, California not far from the shootings. San Bernardino is not far from here (about 35 miles). I consider this hitting close to home. I know now how vulnerable we all are. <BR> <BR> My Thoughts and prayers go out to all whose lives have been effected by this. My thoughts and prayers go out to the entire world! We are all hurting. Please be kind to one another. Pray for one another and give many, many hugs. <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> <em>88</em> <em>247</em> ... Thu, 3 Dec 2015 17:43:13 EST YAY!!! 30 minutes low impact aerobics and 15 minutes upper body strength training. It's always so nice to finish a workout. I'm still feeling a little on the low side but I will be better. I have faith that I will. <BR> <BR> <em>88</em> Tue, 1 Dec 2015 15:20:43 EST Totally opposite direction... The last couple weeks have been hard for me. I suffer from extreme hunger when I am sleep deprived. I have certain ailments that cause me to lose sleep. I have gained some weight back that I have lost. Since this has happened for some reason I am less motivated to exercise. This is totally out of character for me. Throughout my life I have exercised on a regular basis. I have had several gym memberships, I was a Yoga instructor years ago. I can't tell you how many exercise classes I have take... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 17:00:50 EST The benefits of exercise that we don't even think of When we think about exercise we automatically think about strength increase, weight loss, calories burned....YADA, YADA, YADA..... <BR> <BR> There are other things that we don't even realize are occurring. <BR> <BR> And here it is... <BR> <BR> 1. When you exercise you are being forced to be in the moment. <BR> <BR> You may not realize it because your mind may wander here and there but ultimately you have to snap back into the moment because if you don't you will end up falling on your f... Wed, 18 Nov 2015 14:02:06 EST Back again! I'm gonna make this stick this time. No more messing around. I am at the heaviest weight I've ever been. I feel horrible. <em>15</em> <BR> <BR> I have lost up to 80 pounds before in the past so I am confident I can do it again. The main thing I have to do is stay in close contact here with Spark. Stay in the element as much as possible. <BR> <BR> For my exercise today I did 45 minutes of low impact aerobics and I walked for 10 minutes. Now I'm off to study the bible (the book of Romans... Mon, 16 Nov 2015 18:04:17 EST Make every one count I just got done with a great workout. I have learned throughout the years to make every workout count. Keeping in mind that every exercise class is only about an hour, every interval is only about 30 seconds, 10 reps of lifting weights only lasts a short time. In other words the ever loving burn of those muscles is only temporary. With this mindset it helps me to put things into perspective. MAKE EVERY ONE OF THEM COUNT. You never know what tomorrow will bring. So, If I push myself extra hard... Sun, 25 Oct 2015 16:25:53 EST NEWS FLASH! THE RANDOM ACT OF KINDNESS FAIRY CHALLENGE STRIKES AGAIN! The Random Act of Kindness (RAK) Fairy strikes again! Her goal is to spread the wonderfulness of doing something positive and kind for a complete stranger or someone you know of course. Once you have done so pass the Fairy's wand on to someone else. <BR> <BR> Basically, in our world today people are hurting. We need to be kind to one another. Every little bit helps. <BR> <BR> You can copy and paste this entire message if you want to someone elses comment board, a message board or team page.... Wed, 21 Oct 2015 18:21:31 EST NEWS FLASH! THE RANDOM ACT OF KINDNESS FAIRY CHALLENGE STRIKES AGAIN! The Random Act of Kindness (RAK) Fairy strikes again! Her goal is to spread the wonderfulness of doing something positive and kind for a complete stranger or someone you know of course. Once you have done so pass the Fairy's wand on to someone else. <BR> <BR> Basically, in our world today people are hurting. We need to be kind to one another. Every little bit helps. <BR> <BR> You can copy and paste this entire message if you want to someone elses comment board, a message board or team page.... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 13:46:00 EST Time to BE HONEST I've been coming to Spark for a few years now. I have always had weight issues stemming all the way back to my childhood. The older I got the bigger I got. In my early 40's I joined Weight Watchers and lost 80 pounds. The time went by so fast it all seemed so easy. So I hung on to that premise that it would be easy to do it again. Well, here I am 52 years old and I'm 90 pounds over weight and absolutely miserable. I've tried periodically throughout the years to lose the weight again only to f... Thu, 15 Oct 2015 20:46:14 EST NEWS FLASH! THE RANDOM ACT OF KINDNESS FAIRY STRIKES AGAIN! The Random Act of Kindness (RAK) Fairy strikes again! Her goal is to spread the wonderfulness of doing something positive and kind for a complete stranger or someone you know of course. Once you have done so pass the Fairy's wand on to someone else. <BR> <BR> Basically, in our world today people are hurting. We need to be kind to one another. Every little bit helps. <BR> <BR> You can copy and paste this entire message if you want to someone elses comment board, a message board or team page.... Thu, 15 Oct 2015 17:12:59 EST Ok so I got a little carried away Sometimes my mouth isn't connected to my brain and it just rambles on and on. While at the grocery store today I was at the meat counter. I have a lot of knowledge about some things and protein is one of them. So, I started rattling off to the poor unsuspecting meat counter guy (who I might add was smokin' hot!) about the difference between vegetable protein and animal protein. How they both consist of amino acids. Vegetable protein (except for soy and a couple others) doesn't have the compl... Wed, 14 Oct 2015 15:07:36 EST NEWS FLASH! THE RANDOM ACT OF KINDNESS FAIRY CHALLENGE STRIKES AGAIN! Dear Fellow Sparkers, <BR> <BR> <em>90</em> <em>90</em> <em>90</em> <em>90</em> <em>90</em> <BR> The Random Act of Kindness (RAK) Fairy strikes again! Her goal is to spread the wonderfulness of doing something positive and kind for a complete stranger or someone you know of course. Once you have done so pass the Fairy's wand on to someone else. <BR> <BR> Basically, in our world today people are hurting. We need to be kind to one another. Every little bit helps. <BR> <BR> Y... Wed, 14 Oct 2015 10:45:12 EST Random Act of Kindness Fairy Strikes Challenge #1 Dear Fellow Sparkers, <BR> <BR> I am going to begin a random act of kindness challenge. The Random Act of Kindness (RAK) Fairy will post tasks for you all to spread the wonderfulness of doing something positive for a complete stranger. Once you have done so pass RAK Fairy's wand on to someone else. <BR> <BR> Basically, in our world today people are hurting. We need to be kind to one another. Every little bit helps. <BR> <BR> These tasks are very simple.... <BR> <BR> Here's some ideas... ... Tue, 13 Oct 2015 10:46:18 EST PHEW!!! My workout today was OVER THE TOP! <BR> <BR> Here's what I did... <BR> <BR> 15 minutes Hasfits Insanity workout <BR> 10 minutes Prevention workout <BR> 20 minutes Biggest Loser Bootcamp <BR> 15 minutes Body Project Low Impact <BR> 10 minutes Zumba <BR> <BR> I burned 733 calories! If I stay at this rate I have total faith that my very large derriere will shrink. <BR> <BR> HA! <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> Mon, 12 Oct 2015 16:18:34 EST YOWZAAAAAA!!!!! My exercise regimen for the day went very well! I feel like I'm on top of the world! I got and entire hour in today of the works that I posted in my previous blog post. I have been doing the workouts on Youtube for some time now and I LOVE THEM! Some of them are very powerful. I workout harder doing them then I ever have when I went to the gym and trust me I have had gym memberships for years. The best part of doing them is THEY ARE FREEEEEEE!!!! Sun, 11 Oct 2015 15:47:19 EST I'm BAAAAAACCCCKKKK! I have been gone for awhile dealing with some issues. I let myself go in the midst and gained a ton of weight. Back to square one as far as my fitness level is concerned. <BR> <BR> Today's exercises will be..... <BR> I just took a 5 minute walk up and down a humongous hill! <BR> <BR> For the rest of my exercise I will do one hour of awesome exercises that I have found on Youtube. And the best thing about them is they are 100% FREEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! <BR> <BR> Now, you will notice that I only ... Sun, 11 Oct 2015 13:20:41 EST Food, ecstasy and agony One feature of the insanity of my addiction to food that I am recovering from is the need to be in control. I try to control my feelings with food. I try to control situations. I am highly trained in certain areas of which I am very proud of. No need to get into them. There have been many times when I felt the need to share my knowledge in an over powering way. <BR> <BR> I exercise a lot. Unfortunately, I also eat a lot. I was discussing this with my personal trainer today. We were discu... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 17:00:48 EST Obsession, compulsion, powerlessness and surrender First off, here's a positive body affirmation for the day... <BR> <BR> "My body is unique and doesn’t need to look like everyone else’s" <BR> <BR> I just watched a good video about the 1 step <BR> <BR> Go here to watch it <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> "We admitted we were powerless over our addiction - that our lives had become unmanageable" <BR> <BR> First of all, notice how it says "we" not I. What this tells me that I am not alone. The... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 15:07:06 EST You mean I'm not the only odd ball? I found this really cool free workbook about eating disorders online. <BR> <BR> Here's where it is.... <BR> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>lications/Step%20Workbook%20Done.pdf </link> <BR> <BR> So far I have learned that I am not alone. No matter how bizarre some of my behavior patterns have been there's actually other people out there that have done the same thing. <BR> <BR> You mean to tell me that there are actually folks out there that have done the same... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 19:57:28 EST My name is Glinda, I'm a compulsive overeater..12 steppin' it Last week after one of my major food binges I literally got down on my knees and begged God to help me. I was so upset, angry, disgusted, exhausted and at my wits end. Then came the "chin up" part. I told myself, "Today is a new day". I tell myself that day would be different and I would succeed. Then it starts all over again. I immediately start to obsess about food and how I think I can manipulate it to get it to do what I wanted. Of course this means to lose weight. Again, I started t... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 16:46:03 EST Coming Clean I have had issues with eating at night for over a year now. I do well all day long then at about 5 or 6 pm I get this little voice in my head telling me it's okay to eat because I have done well for the day. Then when I start eating I look at the calories of each servings instead of looking at the whole picture. For instance I tell myself, "It's okay to eat this because it's only 200 calories" I never look at the whole picture <BR> <BR> What it boils down to is I am lieing to myself. It's ti... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 13:52:16 EST Another notch in my belt Today has been a great day! I had a great workout this morning and I've stuck to my food plan for the day. I am looking forward to a good night sleep (Crossing my fingers) then I have a Zumba class to go to. After that I'm going to work in the garden then relax and read. And of course spend some time here on Sparks. <BR> <BR> KEEP SPARKLING IN ALL YOUR SPARKLED SPARKINESS!!! <BR> <BR> <em>88</em> Mon, 2 Sep 2013 21:20:18 EST Zumba! I discovered Zumba (A dance fitness class) a couple months ago. It is so much fun! When I do it all my worries and burdens lift right off my shoulders. Also when I do it a shake things that I never even knew what I had. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> After Zumba I am home to read my book and have an enjoyable day with my mom. She is 87 years old. <BR> <BR> HAVE A DANDY DAY! <BR> <BR> <em>88</em> <BR> <BR> Sun, 1 Sep 2013 09:44:17 EST HAPPY SATURDAY! Today is my favorite day of the week for some reason or another. I am looking forward to having a great day. I have a workout scheduled for later this morning then I'm home to enjoy the rest of my day. My mom and I started something. At 2:00 pm we turn off the computers and television until 6:00 pm. Our first day was yesterday. It was great! I actually sat and read a book with no distractions. Looking forward to doing the same today. <BR> <BR> PEACE TO YOU ALL! <BR> <BR> <em>88</em> ... Sat, 31 Aug 2013 09:17:28 EST My Mom Back in January my 87 year old mother was diagnosed with breast and kindney cancer. She had mastectomy in June and she recently had her kidney removed. During the surgery for the kidney they discovered that she had problems with her bowels. They had to remove some of them. The surgery lasted 8 hours. Since then she has totally changed. She is very weak. She is also depressed. She is home with me now after spending two weeks in the hospital. I am a nurse. I am taking very good care of her. Ev... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 11:54:28 EST WOOT! WOOT! I slept very well last night. BIG BONUS! I'm actually on a roll. Four nights in a row good sleep. Most of the time I'm lucky to get one night sleep. <BR> <BR> Today is going to be a great day! I have Jesus by my side, I am going to the gym for an hour and a half then home to read the bible and read a book. <BR> <BR> More later......... <BR> <BR> <em>88</em> Fri, 30 Aug 2013 09:30:23 EST Accountability Partner? Anyone out there need an accountability partner? I would love to hook up with you! Let me know if you are interested. <BR> <BR> PEACE! <BR> <BR> <em>88</em> Thu, 29 Aug 2013 18:23:39 EST Gonna try again A few months back I decided to step away from Sparks for awhile. I had made up my mind that being here was causing me to be focused on food too much. So I chose to step away for awhile. What a DISASTER! I have gained 30 pounds on top of the 170ish that I already weighed. DUH! Now here I sit absolutely miserable because of the weight gain. I finally decided to get back into the game. I have all the tools to succeed. I have started Weight Watchers again (I lost 60 pounds while on it in the past... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 17:10:50 EST Blessed Be! Today has been a great day so far. I just got back from a 3 hour workout at the gym. Now I get to enjoy the rest of my day. I am truly blessed to live in a peaceful home. I live with my 87 year old mother whom I adore. I have 6 cats which are my life. Today is going to be a day of embroidery and art. I have some movies planned also. And of course I will be spending time with Jesus reading his word. <BR> <BR> Here's to a happy life! <BR> <BR> PRAISE JESUS! <BR> <BR> BE WELL EVERYONE! <BR> ... Sat, 11 May 2013 15:08:41 EST Fast food. Is it really ok in moderation? Absolutely not! I haven't had fast food in 3 years. I kid you not! I mentioned this in another blog entry. Some one said to me that we shouldn't try and eliminate it completely from our food intake A little every now and then is OK. Really? Hmmmmm...... <BR> <BR> I don't think so.... I look at it this way, we quit smoking because it's bad for us. We are constantly trying to eliminate unhealthy food and substances from our lives. And we are constantly looking for healthier foods to eat. <B... Mon, 6 May 2013 12:57:42 EST So here I sit Trying to get over a horrible case of bronchitis. It's been at least 5 years since I have been sick. I kid you not. Not even a sniffle. I'm amazed that I don't have some kind of disease. I spent my late childhood to my mid teens abusing every (or so it seems) street drug that existed back then. Not too mention sexual promiscuity. By the time I was 14 years old I was an I.V. meth user. This was about the time when AIDES came into the picture. I've tested numerous times. Zip, zero, nada.... <... Mon, 6 May 2013 10:41:58 EST LAKE ELSINORE, MURRIETA, WILDOMAR..... Anyone from my area? I'm lookin' for partners in crime. <BR> <BR> Hope to hear from you soon! <BR> <BR> PEACE! <BR> <BR> G <em>247</em> Sat, 4 May 2013 17:32:02 EST I'm back! Me and my big ideas. I stepped away from Sparks for awhile thinking I needed a change. Did it help? NO! I've gained weight since I left. <BR> <BR> So here I sit on my big butt (sorry for the visual). Lookin' forward to see you all again. <BR> <BR> Much Love! <BR> <BR> G <BR> <em>247</em> Wed, 1 May 2013 17:00:58 EST Gluttony Definition <BR> Habitual eating to excess. <BR> <BR> Basically this means that we practice self service when we practice gluttony. We focus on the food to solve our problems. We eat because it makes us feel good. We eat to celebrate happiness, sorrow, contentedness. We keep stuffing our mouths looking for an answer. We practice gluttony because it is instant gratification. The problem is over and over again we stuff our faces only to feel horrible, fat, we feel like a failure. After awhile ... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 14:02:41 EST My Beautiful Daughter! I am so proud of her. She's 26 years old, has an awesome job, and she is going to school full time to be a Chemical Engineer. <BR> <BR> Here she is....The beautiful Lydia Anne <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Wed, 2 Jan 2013 12:30:45 EST I need your opinion I have an idea for a team. It's about sharing our knowledge with one another. it's based on the knowledge that we have learned through out years of diet and exercise. No matter if we've been successful or not. The amount of information we have learned along the way is insurmountable. <BR> <BR> The team is also based on knowledge that we already know and are still learning along the way. <BR> <BR> Here's my ideas for the team..... <BR> <BR> REMEMBER: I need your honest opinions. Please l... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 14:06:01 EST You know it's time to resolve to lose weight when. You know it's time for a New Year's resolution to lose weight when you step on a talking scale and it says, "One at a time, please!" <BR> <BR> <em>246</em> <em>40</em> Sat, 29 Dec 2012 10:03:14 EST Another New Years Resolution I resolve to stop driving away with the gas nozzle still in my car <BR> <BR> <em>246</em> <em>334</em> <em>40</em> Fri, 28 Dec 2012 11:26:10 EST My New Years Resolution My New Years resolution is to learn under water basket weaving <BR> <BR> <em>246</em> <em>40</em> Thu, 27 Dec 2012 10:07:41 EST Kinda freaky I just had a nightmare about sugar plum fairies. Kinda freaky to think that they would dance around my head. <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Wed, 26 Dec 2012 09:08:16 EST New Pictures Here's a couple new pictures of my family and I <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> My son, daughter, daughter in law, my new grand baby Mercedes, and yours truly <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> My son, daughter and I <BR> <BR> <BR> Mon, 24 Dec 2012 11:03:15 EST