GIRLNUMBERTHREE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=GIRLNUMBERTHREE GIRLNUMBERTHREE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Words make a difference http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5803320 I have a confession. I am a bit of a word nerd. I've always loved the power of words and spelling. I'm not as nerdy about grammar. Little things like your and you're or the correct use of bare and bear are peeves that used to bother me a lot, and suddenly this week I saw something about the words we use that made me both laugh and take a look at how I'm using words. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l2427492.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I love this. <BR> <BR> It's made ... Thu, 23 Oct 2014 10:36:53 EST Like a 4 year old starting full-day preschool, Pitfalls of downtime http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802634 This past week has been, um well... <BR> (dramatic pause) <BR> well, I'm not sure I have the words. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1391751843.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1853884941.jpg"> <BR> Every single day for the past week or so, when I've gotten home from work I have unintentionally taken a nap. Even on the days I really carefully, conscientiously, and purposely tried to NOT nap, I have fallen asleep like a four year ... Wed, 22 Oct 2014 08:23:41 EST Pinteresting Perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5798535 This morning I sat down on Pinterest to get some affirmation/motivator things I could print out and have as a reminder of why I'm pushing myself. <BR> <BR> Big Mistake. <BR> <BR> Color me crazy but I've never really looked at the health and fitness section of pinterest before. And if I were in a different mindset I could easily have gotten super discouraged at the images and messages on there. In the first few rows showing there were not one, not two, not four, but five images that refere... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 07:55:38 EST My life is like candy crush http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5797420 I realized after posting earlier that my life is a lot like the game candy crush. Each time I get stuck on a level I have to keep retrying, sometimes for months until I figure out a way to beat the odds and get through. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2090928642.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1601684377.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I guess I should admit that I kind of stink at candy crush. But I don't have to stink at applying the same l... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 12:18:08 EST Back to life, back to reality... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5797237 I've been struggling this weekend. So much stress going on and coupled with other issues like funerals, ex issues and some $$ complications and I've had a really hard time getting myself out of the funk. I'm sure my plowing through life in order to get past my own struggle-y feelings is also contributing to things so I suppose the healthiest thing is to at least recognize that I am struggling with all of it, and to sort out the things in all this that I can do something about and figure ou... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 07:04:40 EST Late Night, early morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795014 It's late at night....or really early morning... I figured I should take advantage of being awake and blog - I made the decision at the very last minute to not attend my grandmother's funeral. I had a lot of mixed emotions, but really the determinate was that financially it would have pushed me to the brink. I'm trying my hardest to keep things in check so that wouldn't have been very good. I have mixed emotions about not going - but at the end of the day i think it was the right choice. ... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 03:07:51 EST Ch-Ch-Changes for Week 3...looking forward to week 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794045 So this week I reduced my calorie range. I'm basing the new range on want for loss, lack of activity/ability to really move, and diligence in trying my best to meet my body's needs, without extras. Maybe I'm crazy. My previous GP encouraged me to ONLY eat up to 1200 calories a day - but at that rate I felt so starvy. Working with a trainer at the gym, it was suggested I eat between 1600 and 2100, which was better, but with the hip thing - I can't really get a workout in to justify eating ... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 12:26:30 EST Weighty Thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793352 My grandmother passed away this past week. I am grateful she has escaped the prison that is Alzhemier's disease, but I will miss her. It's a strange phenomena as you age to see people who are parents and grandparents pass away. Don't get me wrong - I am not a stranger to death. I lost my younger sister when I was 14 (she was 10), my youngest daughter, my Dad, my other grandparents, friends...and I know there is grief, even when we are happy. <BR> <BR> I've been introspective a lot this w... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 11:02:06 EST Week 2 weigh in, Christmas Projects http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791537 So week two weigh in, and I've lost another .8 of a pound. Nothing huge, but it's something. I realized I needed to seriously change the way I was seeing my workout info because it kept adding calories I could eat, and so I had been......but I want the deficit. Thanks for the help fixing that! So now I can log my workout in without being obsessed with possible delicious points I could use! <BR> <BR> I've been hard at work after my IRL job long hours - this year with both girls leaving ... Fri, 3 Oct 2014 07:19:03 EST Monday, Monday... so good to me...Monday Morning, it was all I hoped it would be.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5788892 I've recently come to a good place with Mondays in my life. For years I've dreaded the return to my work life and Mondays with all the stress that returns with it. This week, I feel a difference in that I am not dreading it, in fact I'm welcoming back the normalcy of the daily grind. :) <BR> <BR> Last week was... frustrating. The final word on my hip is that they are going to treat it as a stress fracture because they feel like it will be less invasive in the long run. On the one hand I'... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 08:21:09 EST and so we wait and weigh in day!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5785446 Do you know what's more frustrating than a hip fracture diagnosis? Doctors that can't agree on the diagnosis. The ortho doc says fracture, my GP says possible but really he doesn't think it's as bad as the Ortho guy says - In fact, he really feels like it's more of a stress fracture. My GP (who was formerly an ortho dr.) has really stuck in his heels about NOT doing the surgery (instead he'd like activity modification and rest). So he's consulting a second Ortho, and I've agreed to let ... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 12:07:10 EST and Just as the Tides are Turning (aka listen to injuries) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784656 So..... <BR> <BR> How was your weekend? <BR> Good, Good.... <BR> <BR> let me tell you a funny little story. A little over a week ago when leaving the gym I stumbled off the curb and if you know anything about heavy people, we fall hard. I landed on my hip and leg and got up slightly embarrassed, knee scraped, ego bruised, but only for a few moments. <BR> <BR> It hurt. I mean, it hurt a lot. I figured I'd rest it and it'd be better. <BR> but it didn't get better. <BR> and my version... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 10:09:14 EST I'm In!! BLC26 Expectations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5782021 <BR> <BR> Did you see that? <BR> <BR> Probably not, after all I'm a ninja now. All about moving stealthily away from crapola and Training ourselves in the way of all that is good and healthy and productive.... <BR> <BR> I wasn't sure I'd get in with being late to the party and all, and to be honest I was a little hesitant but decided that if a team would take me on I'd do my all to be a good team member. I've talked with a bunch of friends I've met on here and their experiences in BL C... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 00:00:20 EST Eating the Elephant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781532 I didn't go to the gym yesterday. <BR> <BR> Instead I went home and just went to bed. Part of me just felt so exhausted by the toll yesterday took on me, and I could feel the stress creeping up on my anxieties. Rather than over analyze things any further, I made the choice to just stop. Stop stressing, stop worrying, stop feeling so hurt, stop harping on my issues. I realized mid stop that I've fallen into victim mode, and i don't want to be a victim. <BR> <BR> As I laid there resting a... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 09:46:42 EST pitfalls http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781063 I'm frustrated this afternoon. Trying to not let petty stupidity get me down. I'm PMSing and so I'm feeling frustration more intensely. I've decided with all the changes I've been in to begin to close chapters of my online social media life.....FB in particular. I'm rarely there, and when I am I'm always disappointed by little things. I used to joke that FB makes me not like people I wanted to like in real life. LOL I guess it's the power of anonymity that makes people forget they are... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 14:40:53 EST All About Me (the post in which you find out more than you wanted to know) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780179 Name: Laura <BR> Current location: At work, GA <BR> Height: 5’ 8” <BR> Starting weight: at beginning of my journey 344, currently 287 <BR> Goal weight: 180 <BR> When do you want to reach your goal? I'm working on short term goals of 20 pounds at a time, and overall 120 ish pounds by March 2016. <BR> When is your birthday? March 21 <BR> Eye color: hazel (blue, green, gray) <BR> Hair color: Dark Brown <BR> Piercings / tattoos: one piercing in right ear, two in left <BR> Single or taken: si... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 09:24:47 EST Weekend Success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780119 Oh how I love long weekends. Since a I work a 9/80 schedule it means that every other Friday I am off one extra day. It's a blessing truly. I somehow always feel so much more at rest, tho never fully ready to return to real working life Monday mornings. <BR> <BR> This weekend I did get to the gym (wahoo), I did get in some sewing, and I did get in some good time with my kiddos. I know these days are in short supply before they are all off on their own, so I'm trying to appreciate them ... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 07:55:44 EST It's no limits thursday! Eating out advice? Workout shoes?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777864 So when I got back in gear with eating at the beginning of this month, I made a deal with myself that twice a month, on my Thriday (that is my work Friday), I would let myself eat whatever I wanted. I was hoping to hedge off some of my insane cravings since to earn this I'd have to pack lunches and plan dinners accordingly on all the other days. This is the first one in September for me. I indulged in my trusty old favorite chicken biscuit this morning for breakfast - and you know what? ... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 10:19:11 EST rambling headway http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777038 It's hump day - and I'm up and at work already. I don't think I slept very well, but I did get to bed earlier so that is good. AND, my FBS this morning was improved....okay only by three points, but it was improved. I'm determined to have a "normal" FBS by March. I know I can do it. <BR> <BR> I've been nursing a back injury from a workout last week that is now affecting my hip (blah) - I need to go back to the gym, but don't want to make this worse than it is. I resent the injury and ... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 07:05:55 EST no lies. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5776549 i've come here a hundred times to write, to put out into the universe my feelings, and yet, I find myself backspacing and deleting my thoughts just as quickly. <BR> <BR> I've hit a point in this journey that I don't want any part of this to be lies. Tracking for the past couple weeks has given me perspective and at the same time motivated me to get control of my calories. It's not perfect, but slowly it IS working. I had deluded myself into thinking that one little candy bar wasn't goin... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 12:19:18 EST