GIRLIE603's SparkPeople Blog GIRLIE603's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Fight or Flight I'm not a person who gets sick often, so when I do I am always stunned with how defeated it makes me feel. I find I often can't just stop and rest up, and I try to defy the illness and push past it, which is typically a big mistake. <BR> <BR> Are you a person who fights and pushes too far in denial of illness, or are you one to just fly along with it, admitting defeat and just quietly wait for everything to run it's course? <BR> <BR> I am usually a fighter. I will push through, work thr... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 10:28:16 EST My Fitbit Agrees I had the following message from Fitbit in my e-mail: <BR> <BR> "For a big change in the new year, think small. Resolutions get broken, but daily and weekly habits stick." <BR> <BR> I've been talking about making new habits, and I'm happy that Fitbit agrees. Over the next couple of weeks I will be making and instilling new habits, one at a time. Some will come easier than others, as some just need to be renewed. I've decided to hit some of the "renewals" first. <BR> <BR> Habit #1 - ... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 10:50:42 EST Anything is Possible I have been loving the reminders coming to my calendar from 30 Days of Fit Food. Today's little reminder was awesome . . . <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am one of those people who cannot sit idly by and wait for healthy habits to come along to me. Knowing that is a blessing. Admitting that is never easy. Living that day to day is hard work for me . . . maybe not for others. <BR> <BR> Today's challenge was to track your foo... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 11:12:07 EST 2014 Habit Reinforcement December 27th . . . the time when people begin to think about New Year's Resolutions. I have no interest in resolutions, as they are short-lived. In the past I have set goals for myself, and often times, goals can be short-lived too. <BR> <BR> So I have begun to think about what I could do differently this year. I've read and analyzed some books in the past. I've written letters to myself. Somehow I need to find a way to rekindle my excitement for being healthy. So I got to thinking ... Fri, 27 Dec 2013 22:48:51 EST In Response to your Note to Self - Take 4 Hey Girlie603, <BR> <BR> I knew we missed a week. But I was busy, and yes, it was work. I know, just an excuse. But I really have been working long hours and dealing with a lot of stress. <BR> <BR> It is not the end of the road, and I am still working on goals. In fact, as I told you two weeks ago, I signed on to the Biggest Loser Team again. I just spent the afternoon connecting with all the members, providing info, and I'm really excited. <BR> <BR> I will admit that I've been a... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 15:32:20 EST Note to Self - Take 4 Wow! Where have you been? I left you alone for one week, and you just completely abandoned me. I expected you would call me out on the fact that I was absent a week. We were starting to get on a roll here, weren't we? <BR> <BR> Well, I'm checking in to see how you're doing. I know you're still trying, but you need to do better. I'm guessing you will use work as your excuse. Tell me if I'm right. <BR> <BR> Gosh, Girlie, I thought we were on to something. Tell me it's not the end ... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 15:25:39 EST In Response to your Note to Self - Take 3 Hi Girlie 603 - <BR> <BR> Thanks again for checking in and keeping me honest. I did have a small loss this week, and I felt like I had a much healthier week. <BR> <BR> You’re right, though. I still didn’t check-in at Spark each day, and I missed logging my food a few days too. I don't think I did poorly on those days, I just didn't take the time to log my food as I’ve been working a lot of hours lately, and even had a long day of work on Saturday that tripped me up a bit. But I hav... Sun, 18 Aug 2013 15:16:00 EST Note to Self - Take 3 Hi Girlie! <BR> <BR> I'm dropping you another note to let you know that I'm really happy about the progress you made this week. You had a loss this week, the first loss in weeks. Congratulations! <BR> <BR> You didn't check-in every day with your team, and you didn't log your food every day, but you did make some progress this week. I appreciate what you were able to focus on, and I am hoping we can focus on a few other things this week. <BR> <BR> First, in addition to our first th... Sun, 18 Aug 2013 14:58:56 EST In Response to your Note to Self - Take 2 Hey Girlie 603 - <BR> <BR> Thanks for checking in with me again this week and showing how much you care. I want you to know that I really did make some changes this week. I was just so busy and stressed at work this week that checking in at Spark and logging food was secondary. But I did try to keep my focus and incorporate some changes. And in fact, the scale budged a pound during the week. <BR> <BR> I really do appreciate that you're not beating me up for failing, and I promise to ... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 17:48:44 EST Note to Self - Take 2 Hi Girlie . . . <BR> <BR> I'm checking in with you for a second week, and I wanted to let you know what I think of your progress from last week's three challenges that I gave you. <BR> <BR> First, spinning the SparkPeople wheel daily . . . you made progress, but you didn't get in there every single day. But progress is a good thing, right? So don't beat yourself up, just try to do better next week. <BR> <BR> Second, you didn't log your food each and every day, but perhaps my goal wa... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 17:40:14 EST In Response to your Note to Self - Take 1 Dear Girlie 603 . . . <BR> <BR> I received your note asking me to do those three very simple things for you. Now, the old me might have gotten a little defensive. You're trying to point out some things that are very simple that I could be doing to stay on track. It seems so simple, but you see, the problem is that I've lost my motivation. <BR> <BR> Motivation aside, I am really going to try to honor your request this week. I'm going to check in daily with my team, I'm going to spin t... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 16:07:09 EST Note to Self - Take 1 Hey Girlie . . . <BR> <BR> I wanted to take the time to write this note to you and ask a few favors. I hope you will take the time to read this and do this for a week. Just one week! <BR> <BR> First, could you please be sure to stop into SparkPeople on a daily basis and spin the wheel? <BR> <BR> Second, could you try to log your food each and every day for just this one week? <BR> <BR> Third, can you check in with the Biggest Loser Orange Team chat daily? <BR> <BR> I know your... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 15:29:47 EST Somewhere in the Middle "Somewhere in the middle" is a response that Jonah gives to his dad, Sam, in the movie Sleepless in Seattle. It's a reference to the middle states, and living in the middle states is a great thing. I used to live "somewhere in the middle." <BR> <BR> The middle of the Oreo is the cream. I like the cream! <BR> <BR> The middle of a yo-yo is the string! I feel like I'm hanging from a string these days, and just floating on a breeze. <BR> <BR> The last time I struggled like this, I quit. W... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 12:37:16 EST My Kick Back Plan In my last blog post I mentioned I was trying to find a short plan to kick back into my healthy habits. I was a failure at Day 1 . . . but not by choice. I was working alone at a store, and spending time in and out of the bathroom when you're working alone is not a good thing. Especially when working at night . . . I could be in the bathroom and never know if someone came in or not. So the water drinking was put to a halt as soon as I knew my eight hour shift was going to be a lonely one... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 14:19:47 EST Wasting Time So I'm in the beginning weeks of two challenges, and I'm still struggling. I know the challenges keep me from REALLY gaining . . . so that's a good thing. But I really need to get back on track and stop making excuses. I'm even slipping on water . . . and water was my easiest thing! <BR> <BR> So my plan for kicking back into the healthy habits: <BR> <BR> Today - Water <BR> Tomorrow - Meal Planning and Shopping <BR> Monday - 24 hours of healthy eating <BR> Tuesday - Exercise Plan <BR> W... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 11:23:40 EST New Plan . . . New Goals Anyone who saw my last blog knows that I have been fighting with some really stressful situations. I've come to the realization that it's not just one stressful thing here, and another there. It has become bad news . . . recover . . . bad news . . . recover . . . bad news recover . . . and that cycle has not ended for a couple of months now. <BR> <BR> My opinion . . . poor management. <BR> <BR> I have new goals and a plan in place for the week, and I'm going to put them into motion. ... Sun, 12 May 2013 10:15:26 EST Fighting Back Against the Hammer Remember the whack a mole game at the local fair or carnival? <BR> <BR> So I've not been doing my best lately, and I'm starting to get disappointed with myself. I've let a huge amount of stress at work define me and lead me down the wrong path. <BR> <BR> I returned from vacation feeling like I would be changing things. I felt like most of the changes at work were behind me . . . the horrible new workspace (quarters so tight that you have to ask people to move their chairs in order to g... Sat, 11 May 2013 09:38:45 EST Fitness Personality For one of my challenges this week I was asked to do two quizzes that look at personality traits and can tell you what kind of fitness routine will work best for you. The first was an 8 minute color quiz to find out what your color is, and mine came up GREEN. As I read the results, my initial thought was, "That's not me!" I was concerned that I was not honest in answering the questions. There were some where I was on the fence, so I went back and retook the quiz. I answered differently o... Sat, 4 May 2013 16:00:23 EST Panic Mode It's official! I am in panic mode. Pre-vacation panic mode! <BR> <BR> I still have to pack. <BR> <BR> I hate to fly. <BR> <BR> I don't know what to pack. <BR> <BR> I hate to fly. <BR> <BR> I have to get boarding passes. <BR> <BR> I hate to fly. <BR> <BR> I need my ID and all my information for hotel. <BR> <BR> I hate to fly. <BR> <BR> I need to get everything squared away for when I'm away. <BR> <BR> I hate to fly. <BR> <BR> I need to buy some new socks. <BR> <BR> I hate... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 22:44:22 EST Unsettled . . . I am having one of those unsettled evenings . . . the kind where you don't quite feel right, to the point where you're completely unmotivated. Am I overtired? Am I sick? I'm definitely not myself. <BR> <BR> It's funny, when I get this way I feel like it's the end of the world as I know it. Yet in a few hours I could be completely fine. And then I will thank my lucky stars! But in the meantime, I am feeling icky and wondering . . . what is this? <BR> <BR> Blech-i-ness! (is that a ... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 22:18:10 EST Song In My Head The song stuck in my head this evening . . . Joe Purdy’s “I Just Can’t Seem To Get It Right Today” . . . which I’ve thought of often over the last few days. That's right . . . the last few days! As in more than one. It has been numerous days of me not getting things right. And I don't mean my food . . . or my exercise . . . I mean the big picture. The attitude, the motions, etc. <BR> <BR> But the lyrics say “I guess I’m gonna give up, oh Lord.” <BR> <BR> And thankfully, that part d... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 18:33:50 EST Calculations Are Not Good Stress + Me = Disaster <BR> <BR> I'm going through the motions . . . it just has not been a good couple of weeks. It is so easy to say, "Let things go." But it is harder to really do it. <BR> <BR> Changes at work have been really, really difficult. I'm usually one who can handle some change. In the past I have taken pride with how well I've managed job changes. But this has not been one of those times for many reasons. I'm disappointed in myself for the bad reaction, yet I realize t... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 20:04:58 EST Music . . . Good for the Soul Music has always been a huge part of my life. Lately it has played two really key roles. First, in motivation to exercise, as it really pushes me to move. Without music, I would quit any type of workout much quicker . . . no doubt! <BR> <BR> And second, for relaxation. <BR> <BR> I have been super-stressed lately. I'm doing new things at work. I have a new boss. And I'm moving into a work space that is half the size of my current space. Everything is changing, and I have little co... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 20:17:28 EST Veggie Time So one of the challenges this week in one of my groups was to go to a Farmers' Market. We still have snow here, so no local markets here. But, there is a local year-round farm stand a few towns over, and I went over last night after work and purchased some fresh veggies for the weekend. While most of what is there now is likely not locally grown, the produce always looks better at the stand then at the local grocery store (sorry, Stop and Shop). <BR> <BR> I have a pineapple to slaughter... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 15:20:20 EST About Bob Wiley My two challenges have me feeling great . . . I'm starting to get back into my groove. While the scale only showed one pound this week for the Biggest Loser challenge, I'm hoping that my weigh-in for Springing to Action will be successful in two days. And it would be AMAZING if I could finally hit that 50 pound mark next week! I have to wonder what the difference is . . . because I feel more energy for this challenge than I have in the past. My guess is that I'm coming up on the one year ... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 18:25:07 EST On Reasoning and Finding Reason So tonight I had dinner with a friend. She just lost her sister a few weeks ago, and I didn't know the reasons behind it. <BR> <BR> I'm a person who has to know facts so I can reason why things happen. I like to reason, and then say to myself, "Well that can't happen to me because . . . blah, blah, blah!" It makes me feel safe to reason away the bad things. <BR> <BR> When my younger sister died a few years ago at the age of 46, we were not sure of the cause. She was severely handica... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 23:41:19 EST Walk the Talk So I got this really nice goodie message from someone today and it really made my day. It was the Happy Face goodie that I got from JENNIK2. Thank you, girl! <BR> <BR> I won't tell you the message, but it really made me think. I always give off this great motivation, but lately I don't seem to be producing much on the scale. I have so many positives to celebrate. I've lost over 40 pounds. I did not gain over the holidays. I'm learning to maintain what I've lost. I've continued to "... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 17:42:20 EST Enough is Enough . . . New Challenges I've been complacent too long! <BR> <BR> I've been procrastinating! <BR> <BR> I've been hovering between the 45 and 50 mark for weeks, and I need to move forward. And so I have two great challenges in the works here on SparkPeople . . . The Biggest Loser Challenge . . . Rockin' it with the Red Team again, and the Springing to Action Challenge, which I've joined in Week 3. <BR> <BR> The timing is perfect, as Springing to Actions' challenge this week was to create a vision board . . . a c... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 22:34:55 EST There's Work To Be Done Oh my . . . I've got work to be done. <BR> <BR> It has been 234 days and I have lost 46 pounds. I have managed to somewhat maintain through some big challenges (vacation, Thanksgiving, the holidays). This is AWESOME news. But there is work to be done . . . new goals and new challenges for the year! <BR> <BR> So my goals for my Biggest Loser Challenge were . . . <BR> <BR> 1. Not to gain over the holidays and to lose a minimum of 10 pounds. <BR> 2. Drink a minimum of 8 Glasses of wat... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 12:37:30 EST Day 204 - It's All Good Day 200 has come and gone! <BR> <BR> If you’ve paid attention over the last few months, I used to say it was “Day ___ of consecutive days on plan.” However, I went on vacation and took a few days to just enjoy life without counting. I realized I could no longer say “Day ___ of consecutive days on plan.” I felt sad. I felt defeated. I felt like I failed. But the reality is that life happens. And while it is great to have consecutive days on plan, I kind of felt like I was setting my... Fri, 7 Dec 2012 10:58:02 EST My Book Project - Fit 2 Fat 2 Fit by Drew Manning - Update 1 So I have been reading this book, and for those who don't know, this book is about a personal trainer who purposely gives up his healthy diet and workout plan so that he can get inside the heads of his clients. I have hit the point in the book where he has gained about 75 pounds and is going to lose the weight. <BR> <BR> So, he has cleaned his pantry of all the "criminal" food and it is Day 1 of his Fat2Fit Stage. Nearly hours into the first day, he catches himself slipping. He started ... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 10:38:02 EST Weight Loss Book - Strategy In my last blog, I was coming up with strategies to combat Seasonal Affective Disorder, and one of my two strategies was to purchase a book on weight loss . . . the emotional aspect, not the science, and to blog about the book on a regular basis. I know the science of weight loss. You need a deficit of 3,500 calories to lose one pound. I've lived weight loss my entire life. It's not the science that messes me up, it's ignoring the science. So I wanted the emotional, not the science. <B... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 09:19:32 EST On Being Thankful and Recognition I am looking back over these past several months of changing my habits and my eating, and I'm so thankful for the progress I've made and the great people I've met along the way. No matter how dismal life may be, you can always make a list of things for which you are thankful and turn negatives into positives. I truly believe it is one of the keys to staying upbeat . . . well, that and a whole lot of sarcasm and humor. <BR> <BR> As the winter comes upon us, I begin to see the signs of SAD... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 10:05:06 EST I Left My Pound in EPCOT So my 14.5 pound loss in the challenge was not met, I was short by 1 lousy little pound which I think was a missed opportunity while on vacation. I know where I went wrong . . . it was EPCOT in Orlando. I love that park. <BR> <BR> My husband and I had a really nice dinner at one of the French restaurants. We shared a lobster bisque. I had filet mignon with scalloped potatoes. We shared a Creme Brulee. I had wine. It was our most expensive meal . . . both monetarily and calorie-wise.... Sat, 17 Nov 2012 11:03:51 EST Sucess or Failure? As part of the Biggest Loser challenge on SparkPeople, I had to set goals the first week. Here we are 10 weeks later, with weigh-in looming for the final week and I am looking back at those goals. <BR> <BR> The original question that I had was . . . is setting a higher than usual goal setting myself up for failure, or providing a challenge? <BR> <BR> My goals 10 weeks ago were . . . <BR> <BR> 1. Participate in the RTC and ITC goals, while encouraging others on the team and celebratin... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 18:11:53 EST Day 155 . . . Looking for some ooomph! So this is Day 155 . . . today . . . and I have to admit that I've been struggling all week. I missed my "planning day" this week, and everything has just been such a struggle. <BR> <BR> So, I'm thinking that it is time to try something a little different. I haven't decided what that "something" is yet. But I am going to need to have to find something that will give me that extra added "ooomph!" I need to stay on track. <BR> <BR> When I find it . . . I'll let you all know. Right now ... Sat, 20 Oct 2012 10:42:48 EST Success in Numbers I make it a point to say that I will not be defined by numbers. It's right on the front of my SparkPeople page. But every so often, there are some numbers that define me for a bit. This is one of those moments. <BR> <BR> I never want to be defined by my weight . . . you know, the big number that you see on the scale. I don't want it to own my life and "get me feeling down" when it becomes overwhelming. <BR> <BR> On a weekly basis, I never want to be defined by the number of pounds ... Sat, 13 Oct 2012 00:25:09 EST Time for Me This week the ITC was to pamper yourself. <BR> <BR> Easier said than done! <BR> <BR> Biggest problem with finding time to pamper yourself is fitting in the time. For me, pampering myself meant devoting time to one my favorite hobbies, card making. And I did take the time, and I shut out the rest of the world and it was GLORIOUS! Not only did I make some nice things, but I spent some extra time with members of an on-line community that I am a part of. <BR> <BR> After the pampering ... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 08:11:33 EST Pass or Fail? I hate the waiting game. <BR> <BR> This morning I went for blood work. They call it blood work . . . when back in the day they called it blood test. It really feels more like a test, so they should have never changed the terminology. <BR> <BR> I feel like I took the S.A.T.'s . . . the bar exam . . . my medical boards . . . I'm just waiting for the phone call with the big old pass or fail. <BR> <BR> Since my last "test" I dropped 37.5 pounds . . . so hopefully my numbers will be bet... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 11:27:59 EST It Is, Indeed, A Mystery So I panicked today as a realized I had this quilting class to attend. I signed up for this class back in May or June, but it slipped my mind until my calendar reminder popped. I should not have ignored those e-mails from the Quilt Shop that I thought were merely advertisements of store happenings. They were, indeed, supply lists and information. <BR> <BR> My point . . . because there is a point . . . is that the class is a "Mystery Quilt" class. You don't know what the quilt will look... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 18:29:45 EST Exercise . . . Help or Hindrance? This week’s RTC for Biggest Loser is a tough one for me, because in reality, I don’t find that exercise is helping me at all. Let me re-phrase that . . . I think that it would help if I could some answers and get past the pain. <BR> <BR> Now most people would say . . . she’s kidding herself. She just doesn’t get it . . . but I promise you that I do. At some point over the last year, I developed some muscular pain that is so far “undiagnosed.” For me personally, on a day I feel great I ... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 14:16:58 EST Hello, Debbie . . . Where are you? Hello, Debbie? <BR> <BR> Debbie? <BR> <BR> Where are you? <BR> <BR> I'm here . . . I've just been so ridiculously busy. My crazy trip to New york this past weekend . . . stalking all things "You've Got Mail, Upper West Side" left me tired and behind. In fact . . . here is a picture of the restaurant where Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan filmed the scene where NY152 and "shopgirl" go to meet for the first time, and he discovers that she is Kathleen Kelly. This restaurant is adorable and it has ... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 11:45:33 EST My Latest Drinking Habit - Read Carefully For those doing the Biggest Loser Challenge on SparkPeople, it is "Weigh-in Eve." I've been careful all week, and today is Day 119 of me being healthy and on track! <BR> <BR> Now . . . let me preface this by saying that things are not always as they seem. Remember that as you read this . . . THINGS ARE NOT ALWAYS AS THEY SEEM. <BR> <BR> I sit here on "Weigh-in Eve" in front of my computer with a 3/4 liter vodka bottle, drinking directly from the bottle . . . drinking . . . typing . . ... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 18:41:40 EST My Spark Discovery My Spark story began over three years ago. I became a member on July 22, 2009. It's hard to believe, but I actually remember the precise moment when I found SparkPeople. I was at my wits end disgusted with how successful I felt I was with life, and yet how unsuccessful I was with weight loss. I was married, had two beautiful children, had been with my company for just over 28 years, had a successful part-time job being super creative. And yet I was an overweight child, overweight teen, o... Sat, 15 Sep 2012 20:20:49 EST Rockin' Red Challenge So I've changed my team page color to red in honor of the Rockin' Red Biggest Loser Team. Today marked the end of Week 1 (weigh-in) and the start of Week 2. <BR> <BR> One of the team challenges is to sparkle myself and other team pages with our team color, so I can't do that without sparkling my own. <BR> <BR> Go red. <em>389</em> <em>345</em> <em>212</em> <em>252</em> Thu, 13 Sep 2012 12:08:59 EST Whatcha Gonna Do So another part of the Biggest Loser Challenge is that I need to have a plan for working on an item that has been difficult for me. I've decided that my vacation is going to be that item. I am going to have a plan in place for that two week period to stay on track and not go over. I know it can be done, so it's a matter of planning and fortitude. <BR> <BR> Step one . . . does anyone have suggestions for staying on track over a 2 week vacation? And this one includes a 24 hour car ride, ... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 22:38:19 EST Quiz Time As part of the Biggest Loser Challenge, I am taking a quiz and blogging my findings. Let's see how I do. <BR> <BR> I decided to take the nutrition label quiz, because it will be a good reminder and I may even learn something new. So here is the quiz I took . . . <BR> <BR> SparkPeople Nutrition Quiz - Are You Able to Interpret Food Labels? <BR> <BR> Quiz by Sarah Haan, Registered Dietitian <BR> Are you label able? Bring your food label knowledge to the table and see if you know the nut... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 13:37:01 EST Work in Progress As part of the Biggest Loser Challenge, I need to start looking at the things that are holding me back from reaching my goals. This is a tough one, because a few of them are somewhat beyond my control. But that doesn't mean I can't talk about it and face them dead on. <BR> <BR> So, five things that are holding me back or have held me back in the past. Hmmm . . . <BR> <BR> 1) Depression. I am one of those people who suffers from seasonal affective disorder, and just tries to muddle t... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 17:00:13 EST Failure or Challenge? Question . . . is setting a higher than usual goal setting myself up for failure, or providing a challenge. <BR> <BR> As part of the Biggest Loser on SPARK, I was challenged this week to talk about my goals and how I will accomplish them. Goals are such a funny thing, because over my lifetime I have spent more time not meeting goals than I have meeting them. Interestingly enough, the goals I break are typically the personal ones, so that makes it tough. It makes you wonder why you aren'... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 23:06:27 EST Back in the Day So way back in the day . . . I was successful at this journey. <BR> <BR> Back in the day, for this writing, was back in 2009/2010. I started Spark, was experiencing success, and then a few weeks later lost my sweet baby sister very suddenly. <BR> <BR> I stayed on my journey, and a few months later nearly lost my oldest brother, who fell into a depression after the loss of our sister. But I continued to plug along and successfully lost weight and was healthier than I had been in years.... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 17:24:45 EST