GINNJEN1974's SparkPeople Blog

Monday Feb. 4

Mon, 4 Feb 2013 06:32:24 EST

Time to get it going. I need to step it up. Whatever is causing me to be sick just wants to hang in there. Today I am going to try and put in an effort to move and eat healthy. I can do this and so can you. Weather its sickness or sluggishness or whatever. You can do it.

Finding love for Yourself

Sat, 2 Feb 2013 10:38:27 EST

Do you love yourself? I often think not to much of myself. Do I hate myself for letting my weight get so high. Did I not love myself enough to realize and reverse the direction I was headed. The answer is complicated. I have been known to hurt myself on many levels. I was not always kind to myself. I used drugs, my body, and my soul up. I was running from myself and who I am.

I am sure most of this makes no sense. Being a survivor doesnt always mean we come away unharmed. We are b...

How did you push

Fri, 1 Feb 2013 07:22:23 EST

As you know I have been feeling unwell. This has not been a good push but I wanted to hold myself accountable either way. I hope you final push of Jan was better than mine. I still am fighting whatever I have and fear that it just doesnt want to leave. I probaly need some downtime but between work and family that is not really something I can do.

Have a great friday all!

Lose at least 1 pound. (nope been eating whatever I wanted no gain though)

Exercise delib...

Stuffy everything

Mon, 28 Jan 2013 07:33:15 EST

I feel like I am coming down with a cold. Yesterday I managed to login here and that was about it. Today I am doing more here. It doesnt take mych no matter how I feel. I am drinking lots of water in hopes of flushing my system. Cant remember if its feed a cold, starve a flu or the opp. I sure hope this isnt the flu we have already had it twice in my house and I sure cant afford to be down too many days.

Fast Food should be illegal

Sat, 26 Jan 2013 09:39:03 EST

Can you imagine this happening? I at times wish that it was. Yesterday was not one of my finer eating days. I went on a fast food binge of sorts. I am not beating myself up for it. I will do better this weekend. I am going to leave yesterday behind.

Being an addict to food is the worst. You cant stop eating it. I have had issues in the past with other addictions. They were at least able to be avoided. They had to because the risk to myself and my family was to great.

F...

Final Push (6 days left)

Fri, 25 Jan 2013 06:46:50 EST

In January already. Cant believe that but it seems that is the case. I got to thinking what I would like to do with them and this is what I came up with.

Lose at least 1 pound.

Exercise deliberately three of the six days.

Drink more water around 40 oz a day. I know it should be more but will have to work my way up.

Continue to blog. Shouldnt be a problem.

Anyway friday is here have a great weekend everyone!!

24 days later

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 07:10:44 EST

I have been back with the Spark around 24 days now. I thought I would take stock of just what I have accomplished. I stepped on the scale and found I have lost just a bit over two pounds. Not a huge loss but it is a loss. Shows me I am going in the right direction. It also shows me that I really need to get a grip on just what is and isnt going in my mouth.

I have managed to move my body a bit more than the norm. I need to make this another conscious effort each day. I am not a b...

The Amazing Beta Fish

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 07:32:16 EST

My daughter decided she wanted to set up a fish tank again in our new house. We hit three different places and got everything she needed minus one thing. So I told her we would go out the following day and get what she needed. Finally all ready she headed upstairs to prep her tank.

Shriek!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She screams like some kind of crazy person, asylum crazy. My skin crawls and then I hear crying. She is a super sensitive kid. My fish I c...

Do you ever do these??

Tue, 22 Jan 2013 05:58:54 EST

Got this from Kaseycoffs blog, thought I would give it a shot. Working on day two of 2 am wake ups so the brain is sluggish

1) Where is your cell phone?

In my purse aptly named the black hole. Stuff goes in and rarely ever sees the light again.

2) Spouse?

Yes. He is currently off doing a training mission.

3) Your hair?

Way to long often I pull my own hair just by sitting if I dont keep it all corralled

4) Yo...

Did it get done?????

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 04:58:20 EST

I wrote out a to- do list for this last weekend. 15 things I wanted to accomplish. So did I get it done here is ther rund down.

1.Laundry (around 14-16 loads total family of 4) DONE!!
2.Up and down stairs 12 times ( usually only do this the bare min. of 3 to 4 times) All but 30 steps
3. Clean my desk off ( this is my hurricane zone always looks like a diaster has struck) DONE!!
4. Eat two healthy breakfasts DONE!!
5. Do 40 squats DONE!! plus 10 more
6. Ru...

Sunday Inspiration (Poem)

Sun, 20 Jan 2013 08:44:27 EST

Needed to find an inspirational quote for my list. There are many out there but I decided in leiu of that to try my hand at a poem about just what I am trying to accomplish. I hope that it may ring true for others here as well.

Continue Forward

Living in this moments grace
We go forward and face
Paths to an unseen place
Finding a minds new space
Dont do this in such haste
For in it you only waste
Your desire to win this race

...

To Do Lists (Weekends)

Sat, 19 Jan 2013 08:12:03 EST

Is this something that is helpful or not. I find they can be. If you write down what you would like to accomplish say for the day, week, or month. Today I will focus on a weekends worth. Its just 48 hours and if you factor in sleeptime, meals and me time you are looking around 29-30 hours.

So I am going to list 15 things I will accomplish this weekend. Heres my list:

1.Laundry (around 14-16 loads total family of 4)
2.Up and down stairs 12 times ( usually only do th...

Got to move my body

Fri, 18 Jan 2013 08:16:02 EST

but am so exhausted all the time. I know this is not a good excuse to not get in my fitness. I know it is part of this new lifestyle that I want.

I have to find a way to get it in. I need to for it not only helps the body but the mind. Today my goal is to take five minutes and do some form. I will work my way from there. I know it doesnt seem like alot of time but right now that is what I can give. who knows maybe it will trun into more than five.

Have a great Friday al...

Midway thru Jan.

Thu, 17 Jan 2013 07:33:34 EST

Seems time is going faster and faster the older I get. I guess that is okay, not real sure how I should feel about it. I know I want to make changes perm. ones this year. I am doing okay with the small steps. I know it will take time and continued presence. I can do this and so can you whatever your goals are.

Robot Baby

Wed, 16 Jan 2013 08:09:13 EST

My youngest daughter is a junior in HS. She is taking a health and wellness class. This week her assignment was to bring home a baby. No not the real deal but a robot one. I pick her up from school and she is already looking frazzled. They have a baby carrier for it and she proceeds to get in the car meanwhile it starts to cry. She figures out what is the matter and we head home.

I want to see this little invention as we did not have these when I was in school. So I pick it up and...

Thankfulness

Tue, 15 Jan 2013 08:21:30 EST

This is something that I wanted to address today. I dont always say thank you for things that I should. Life seems to get away and it just somehow slips my mind. This is a poor excuse for not saying it.

As you all know this year has already had some struggles for my family. Not major life or death ones but still valid ones. My hubby was in a car accident, he was unhurt. I should have been so happy he was unhurt instead I focus on our deductible. Five hundred is just alot of money ...

Weekend Busyness

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 07:23:17 EST

Well it seemed to help keeping the hands busy. I did not overeat and accomplished quite a bit around the house which is always good. I get two days off a week so need to learn to make the best of them.

I tracked all day Sunday food wise which is a first since coming back to the SPark. I am going to call that a NSV. it so helps when I plan out just what is going in my mouth. I will say I wanted to eat but somehow managed to just say NO

Anyway its a new week all. Lets mak...

Busy Hands

Sun, 13 Jan 2013 05:00:39 EST

Need to find a way to have them all the time. Maybe this way I wont be constantly reaching for food. I eat even when I know my body is full. It makes no sense yet it happens all the time.

This year I am going to really try and find more ways to avoid hand to mouth grazing. Not to sure about the total plan of attack but I know it involves busy hands. Whats the saying " Idle hands is the devils playground". My playground must be a salty, fried sweet place.

I am going to d...

500 little words

Sat, 12 Jan 2013 08:04:36 EST

I have often wondered if you could express this journey in five hundred words. I know for each person how that got here is going to vary. I thought I would put mine down. Give it a real hard look.

I used to be the other end of the spectrum when it comes to this sight. I at one time weighed a whole eighty-nine pounds. I controlled every morsel of food or lack of it. I went days without eating. That was a very unhealthy time in my life. Things were so beyond my control that my weigh...

Progess is in the details

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 08:17:47 EST

Well, this has been a rough start to the new year. Those of you reading my blog have read about the wreck and the flu hitting home. I have managed to not hit McD's out of stress and for that I am happy. I have noticed I am still not being totally honest with my food. I have over eaten a few days and I am sure where I too step on the scale it just might show. However, my mind is still set I just need to get the mouth motivated too. Details. Its all about them. I need to work out a better way t...

DMV update

Thu, 10 Jan 2013 08:00:20 EST

Well went and accomplished switching my license over. It wasnt an all bad experience which was nice. However 82 dollars later and I have a paper one for the next 10 business days. I look crazy too. My last one I looked like a mugshot and this one is worse. I also noticed how much of a double/triple chin I have. You arent allowed to stretch your neck out to make it appear otherwise and no smiling either. The smiling was no issue, not a big one by way of my teeth are a mess.

I am gla...

DMV approaching may appear closer than viewed in mirror

Wed, 9 Jan 2013 06:18:47 EST

Today will be a long day. That is okay. Have to head down to that dreaded Dept. of Motor Vehicles. Must renew my license before it expires. Not looking forward to the 50-55 dollar price tag on that but what can one do. Its one of those evil neccessities. Plus, the lines are usually long. I am not real big on lines so today will be a test to my patience level. I am going to take a book by an author I adore and see if that helps with the anx. of it all. My daughter is going to so I will have co...

Car update/ 1 week back at it update

Tue, 8 Jan 2013 05:51:33 EST

Not a whole lot to report other than they found it. Yup they lost it for a whole twenty four hours. They towed it too the wrong body shop. They are saying it need two rims and some stearing arm replace so far. Hubby is missing his vehicle to say the least. Looks like he will be without it for at least another week considering the rims are not even made anymore so they have to find something close. That and the shop seems real busy so I dont know.

On the plus side I have made it on...

Maybe Monday

Mon, 7 Jan 2013 08:25:25 EST

Have you ever had a maybe kind of day. I have them more than I should. Maybe I will (fill in the blank) today. Yet somehow it turns into another future event and even then still a Maybe. I have seem alot of blogs around about what one can acomplish if they set their minds and bodies to it. Lists and checking it off seem to be a tried and true system. I am thinking this could be a good way to start doing more I dids instead of maybes. Not to sure how big of a list but I will have to work out t...

Spark On Sunday

Sun, 6 Jan 2013 09:45:41 EST

Just a note today. Its Sunday and today I plan on spreading the Spark. How you say? People join this great site each and every day. This we know to be a fact. More and more people are fighting the battle of the bulge. (sorry about the pun but fitting all the same) Not everyone will keep it up and one of the reasons is they need support. Maybe they dont have it at home, maybe they dont get it here. Today I am going to welcome at least five new people. I think that it helps to know there are o...

5 Hard Facts

Sat, 5 Jan 2013 07:44:42 EST

1. I let myself get this big.
2. I am addicted to food.
3. My will power is usually lacking.
4. I sabotage myself and let others do it too
5.I hate exercising.

Wow looks like alot of negative here, I know. This isnt about that however. I just wanted to see it in black and white. Now how do I fix this?

1. I realise I did this to myself. I know that I do not want to get any bigger. My body lets me know each and every day this is not acceptable.
<...

Turning 39

Fri, 4 Jan 2013 05:19:50 EST

I used to think 30 anything was so old. Of course this was when I was 16. The thought of ever being this number was unthinkable. Today I sit here and look back on my 30's and think what have I done. The answer is not a simple one and probably one I will reflect on most of the day.

I do know a few things, I have learned so much about life in general. I have learned how to keep my marriage thru all its ups and downs. I have gotten one of my two girls to graduate high school and am wo...

Wreck it, stress much

Thu, 3 Jan 2013 08:19:14 EST

Yup my hubby decided yesterday was the day to wreck his envoy. He was not hurt and for that I am so grateful. It became a three ring circus though. The tow company lost his vehicle and we are waiting to hear if it ended up where it should have. Looks like we also have to pay 500 dollars when it is all said and done too if they do not total it. Oh well. I stressed alot and we joked and we got him a rental that took over two hours to do as well. A really really long day. Guess what though I di...

1 day, 1 week, 1 month

Wed, 2 Jan 2013 07:56:22 EST

yesterday made it day 1 no MCD's I drive by it daily on the way to wor and I swear its a becon in the night of saturated goodness. I managed to not turn in. Now onward to a whole week. Should be able to do it and have in the past.

New Year Scale Slap

Tue, 1 Jan 2013 04:25:46 EST

I have been away a few weeks. I have been unkind to myself by doing so. Got on the scale and boy what a slap in the face. Gained all the weight I had lost back. I am not surprised and I will not let it defeat me. I will get back on track not because its a new year though it seems so many of us start each time again at this time.

Anyway I am back and for those of my friends on here thanks for still being here for me.

Be back after the Holidays

Thu, 29 Nov 2012 07:24:31 EST

This time of year I struggle with so much. From the food to mood. I know you all will understand. I may be back before to just say hey but I got to thinking about how unfair it is to just drop off. So there it is in a nutshell.

Missed a blog.. broke the streak!

Fri, 2 Nov 2012 06:49:19 EST

Darn it! Life just hit a bump I guess. Hit many a pothole these last two weeks. Seem to want to eat eat and eat and well my weight gain has shown it. Plus almost tmo so that added too as well.

I am thinking this month I need to focus on tracking better. i have let that slip too. I am unsure if i will be weighing myself either too much. The holidays are always a rough patch for me. Always has been. I will plug on though no worries.

Anyway heres to finding some NSVs in t...

Madam Ginnjen is in!

Wed, 31 Oct 2012 07:24:52 EST

What does your future hold. If your stopping in today say hello and give me two things your favorite color and a number between 1-10. Then I will drop in by your page and leave you a goodie with your fortune in it

Tommorrow brings Halloween

Tue, 30 Oct 2012 04:22:11 EST

I know this is not always celebrated by everyone either because it doesnt exsist wherever they live or religious reasons. I am not doing a whole lot tomorrow myself. However on here Madam Ginnjen will be in so drop in to my blog and I will give you a reading. I will post it as a goodie on your page more details tomorrow.

Have a great day all!

Stephen King Inspiration

Sun, 28 Oct 2012 12:14:36 EST

Figured since it was almost Halloween I would pick someone who is associated with horror and find wisdom and inspiration for the upcoming week. There are people who love his books and movies. I personally like most of his movies but struggle at times with his books.

1. The place where you made your stand never mattered. Only that you were there... and still on your feet. (liked this alot, our journey of course had a starting point but I think in the end it will not matter as much) ...

Keep busy bee

Sat, 27 Oct 2012 05:47:18 EST

This is my motto for today. Need to stay busy. Plus trying to get motivated not just with what I am doing here but with another passion in my life. Photography. Its about time again for my too make my models (daughters) step in front of my lense. I need to come up with an interesting way to shoot them.

Will have to ponder this today keeping not just my hands but my mind busy too

Friday Flub

Fri, 26 Oct 2012 05:55:39 EST

Cant say this has been a shiny week for me. Am too afraid to even go near my scale. I will do it but for now am playing the avoidance game. I seem to have also tweaked my back. I had issues with an epadural years ago and it seems to be that spot that wants to hurt. Oh well I will plug on.

Anyway on the positive side it is friday and that is always good. I am going to redouble my efforts this weekend and see if I can get back on track. Just a few more days and the hubby goes back to...

National Denim Day

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 07:10:11 EST

Break out your favorite jeans today. For those that have to wear a uniform to work well heres a little background of the origins of Denim.

Denim is easily the most versatile fabric on the planet, and the most popular. From the early Italian sailors to 1930¡äs cowboys and into this very day.
The word ¡°jeans¡± is thought to have come from a type of material, called ¡°jean¡± that was round in the 1600¡¯s. The material was named after sailors from Genoa in Italy, because they w...

Vacation needs to end

Tue, 23 Oct 2012 07:45:28 EST

Hubby took some time off work. Two weeks to be exact, I get so thrown when he is home constantly. Oh well this too shall pass. I love him dearly but not so much when he wakes me at two in the morning. I am running behind here too. Going to be a day I think but I will press on with a smile knowing a nap is coming once I get home from work. Will need it.

Anyway all have a great day.

Monday Member Tool - Polls

Mon, 22 Oct 2012 08:02:40 EST

Another thing here at the site that can be quite helpful. The polls make you think about all the things like what or how we eat. When is the hardest time when it comes to mindless eating. They have polls about just about everything. Mindset, exercise, food plus you earn a few point with just two clicks. Cant beat that. Check it out and if you arent already doing it give it a shot. Make sure though you actually think about the answer and see how it is fitting in or how you can make it fit.

Sundays Talk Show Queen Sense

Sun, 21 Oct 2012 05:00:01 EST

Yep this Sunday we are going to use Oprah. She has had a very public battle with everything in her life from her weight to who she is as a person. I personally like her, I think she is living a life that many can relate too. She wasnt always this huge megastar, she had rough beginnings and made herself into what she is today.

1. I think that when you invite people to your home, you invite them to yourself. (I invite you into my life each day. Being open allows for us to learn just ...

Saturday Strategy

Sat, 20 Oct 2012 09:29:55 EST

I have found I need to come up with one for my weekends seem to really be hard to follow my program. I dont know what yet but I am going to figure it out. I know I need to try and stay busy and keep away from shopping or being outside my home during peak eating times.

Will keep you all posted to see what I come up with

Late late late

Fri, 19 Oct 2012 08:24:42 EST

feel like the white rabbit this am. My alarm is acting up and I actually slept hard for once. So now I am running around like a mad woman. Have to be on my way to work in about a half hour. Am dressed sucking down coffee and sneaking in a few Spark minutes.

My weigh in was a turtle this week. Hope next week is better.

Anyway have a great friday everyone.

Halfway thru Oct.

Thu, 18 Oct 2012 08:00:20 EST

We are already here. This month has been a bit more of a struggle for me. Somehow I am managing to not have a serious gain but seem to been just holding in there. Will take that. As the holidays approach I find my mouth just wants to be fed. I hope to make it thru them with little to no weight gain.

I know I am not alone here. Plus the hubby decided to take time off and that always throws a wrench into how I function. Amazing how that works.

Anyway the weekend is just ar...

Wednesday Word- Path

Wed, 17 Oct 2012 06:53:22 EST

Noun

1 : a trodden way
2 : a track specially constructed for a particular use
3 a: course, route , b: a way of life, conduct, or thought
4 a: the continuous series of positions or configurations that can be assumed in any motion or process of change by a moving or varying system
b: a sequence of arcs in a network that can be traced continuously without retracing any arc

We are on a path here. One that I am sure at times feels like it is never go...

Coffee time

Tue, 16 Oct 2012 07:43:01 EST

I love my mornings. Get my coffee and head to the Spark to get in some motivation and just set my day on a positive path. I blog and earn some points too. Head to my favorite groups and check in to see what is going on in Sparkland. A great way to start each morning. All a bonus indeed. How do you start your mornings?

Member Monday Tools- Blogs

Mon, 15 Oct 2012 08:01:23 EST

Its Monday already. Boy the weekend sure went fast. Had alot to do and got most of it done. Its that time again for us to talk about another Tool this site offers that can be so helpful to us along this journey.

BLOGS!!!!

This isnt for everyone or so you think. I say it is. Everyone has something to say be it today was a good day to I need some support. Plus there are so many other things going on. If you take just three minutes I bet you will find you have something t...

Presidents Lie Usually (great words)

Sun, 14 Oct 2012 09:11:00 EST

I am not huge on politics and the more I see what comes out of their mouths I am usually disappointed. However I came across these great words and wanted to share them.

1. “I am a success today because I had a friend who believed in me and I didn't have the heart to let him down...” Abraham Lincoln

(We need to be that friend to ourselves so that we too can be a success in whatever we endeavor.)

2. “If your actions inspire others to dream more, learn more, d...

Blah blah blah

Sat, 13 Oct 2012 06:17:54 EST

What a title but definately describes how I feel. However I will not let it run my day or eating. TOM is hitting with a vengence. Makes things always fun....NOT! What can you do except pray for menopause lol.

Have yardwork to do today or tomorrow. Weather permitting we will get it done. Says rain all weekend so we will see.

Not to much else going on other than the usual day off housework and what not.

Hope everyone has a great weekend rain or shine.

Weigh In- Oct. 12

Fri, 12 Oct 2012 07:12:50 EST

This week has been a bit all over the place. However I did make some moves with tracking food better and even moving. however MN moved in too and so did bloat and pain this time too. I managed to combat the bloat and stayed the same weight wise. I will take that. The pain too will pass. Anyway just wanted to post my weigh in good or needs work.

Hope everyone is going to have a great weekend. I have some yardwork in mine but will be good can count it as exercise and should be the l...