GIGGLGAL76's SparkPeople Blog GIGGLGAL76's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Sunday is a fun day! This morning the dog woke me up (as usual) at around 5:30 am. I get up, put clothes on, take her out, and when we get back, she promptly takes my spot and falls asleep. Instead of getting crabby, I take this time to update my spark, and make chicken and tortellini soup with the leftover tortellini. I know myself. If I had left the tortellini out, I would have eaten a huge lunch (well, if I remembered to eat lunch) with tortellini and too much marinara sauce, and way too much parmesan. In... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 08:36:29 EST why do I eat when I am not hungry? A lot of blogs and threads have already covered a lot of the more common, including stress, emotion, boredom, etc. For me, there are several reasons why I would eat when I was not hungry. If I am bored, this certainly can be the case, although that can also be handled by drinking water or chewing gum. That one is easy to tackle. If I feel like I, whether because I worked out hard, or because I had a difficult day, etc., "deserve" this food or that, I often will eat more than I should. Thi... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 09:18:42 EST woohoo! under 140! Today, for the first time since my bout with severe depression, I weighed in under 140 lbs. True, this was after a 5 mile run with temp in the upper 70s, but I got on the scale and saw 139.4! I still have more than 10 lbs to go, because I am not counting losing water weight, but still an indication that even though it may be harder and slower this time, I can do this a second time and succeed long term! Sun, 10 Jun 2012 10:11:05 EST sabotage I have heard a lot on here lately about sabotage, either by close friends and family, or by those people not close but forced to socialize with, such as coworkers. Fortunately, I have the most supportive family. My husband loves healthy food, loves being active, listens to me when I ask for a date where we cook something new together instead of going to a restaurant, or go for a walk or play at the park instead of going to the movies, and will bring me flowers instead of other treats. My b... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 15:30:38 EST This made my day yesterday I was on my way home from work, listening to another doctor on the People's Pharmacy talk about how the food that people eat is making them ill, the communities, the culture in our country, all of this is leading to what he called "diabesity," which I thought was an interesting way of putting it. I'm getting more and more depressed, because a lot of the things that he was mentioning are things like canned vegetables have tons of BPA, things that we think are healthy really aren't. He's maki... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 14:49:13 EST skinny jeans! so I finally am feeling like I am losing weight, and my husband is finally able to see it. He told me that I may not have lost much weight, but I certainly look like I have definitely lost some volume. So I took some measurements, and I have lost inches everywhere. The next step for me was of course to take down my skinny jeans (I know, a lot of people say it is not good to keep these, but oh well) I actually got them on and zipped. Of course, my hips in those jeans were the definition o... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 20:14:35 EST kinect One of the things that my husband and I bought right after the wedding was an XBOX 360 kinect. I used the ea sports 2 personal trainer for a little while, but got bored (there were too many breaks, the breaks were too long, and if you don't do it on exactly the day you say you will, they count it as being skipped). However, we bought just dance 3 a few months ago, and that one is super fun! Last night, I was playing just dance 3, and before I knew it, an hour had gone by. An hour that I s... Thu, 22 Mar 2012 14:56:33 EST Just 1 complaint here I am going to do what I told myself I wouldn't do. I'm going to complain about this gorgeous weather we've been having. You see, if it hadn't been beautiful and warm all week last week, and still beautiful and warm this week, I wouldn't have gotten spoiled by getting to run outside the last 3 runs I took. And if it wasn't so warm and beautiful out now, I probably wouldn't be as tempted. However, in order to get my entire run in on time (whether I run outside or on the treadmill) to get a ... Tue, 20 Mar 2012 06:55:37 EST ok, I need help so, I had a board game party yesterday. These are always fun, and we are just nerdy enough that we really enjoy these game days. However, when I host, I have to make sure that there is plenty of food on hand, and inevitably others bring snack food, sodas, chips, etc. For example yesterday I made teriyaki wings (and my husband made hot wings) and I had healthy snacks available like pumpkin seeds and dried cranberries. However, somebody brought my favorite chips that I rarely get (garden of... Mon, 19 Mar 2012 18:18:56 EST changing small things my husband and I had been slowly falling into a trap where we would go meet with friends less and less, so there we were, at home, night after night, and we were going to bed earlier and earlier. Sometimes, we would get home from work, take out and feed the dog, eat dinner, then be in bed by 6! We decided we would make the bed off limits until 8 pm. Well, it has only been this week so far, but it seems to be working in my favor. I was a little worried, because out of bed puts me closer to... Fri, 16 Mar 2012 07:17:02 EST what an awesome run! Today, the weather is gorgeous. Unseasonably warm, supposed to get to 72 today. So, despite having a million things to do, my husband and I scheduled a morning run. We harnessed the dog, and took a quick (ha ha) 4.5 mile jog through the park. Despite the humidity, which is still hovering around 91%, by the time I got home, I felt amazing. This weather can continue indefinitely, as far as I am concerned. Thu, 15 Mar 2012 10:46:39 EST NOOOOOOOOO! so I have finally gotten into the habit of exercising. Every morning (yes even before work and church) I work out in some way. Every day but Monday and Friday (when I do yoga instead), it is off to the fitness center on my apartment complex. It is nothing much just a single elliptical, 2 treadmills, a bike, and some weights, but I go and do 4 miles on the treadmill, nearly without fail, for several months. Today, I left around the same time I always do, and got there (around 6:45) only to... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 08:18:41 EST well, its been a while again So I've gained some weight again. But I have a success to report. After sustaining a small injury (strained a muscle in my foot going from treadmill to trail running) I have been on the treadmill again. Thursday, I wanted to get my workout done is less time with a longer stride (fewer impacts total) so I sped things up as much as I could. Now, I am about 25 pounds heavier than I was when I ran my one 5k (time 29:40) but on Thursday I ran 3 miles in 29 minutes. Yes, it was on a treadmill... Sat, 23 Apr 2011 10:18:29 EST Being ok with gaining weight...(ok, well, not freaking out, at least) Yesterday I weighed myself. I have been exercising more these days, changing it up more often, sometimes running on the treadmill, sometimes on the track, sometimes outdoors, and sometimes playing ultimate frisbee. I am also tracking my nutrition more consistently. So, when I went up two pounds overnight, after not having lost any in a very long time, I was (understandably) a little upset. I was just weighing myself before my run, and I was in short shorts and a jogging bra, everything wa... Wed, 7 May 2008 15:11:58 EST Yay, spring at last! I have spent this entire week in a perpetual good mood. I got what I needed to get done, I ran more than I have in weeks, I auditioned for another show, basically life is wonderful. Usually, when I audition for something and I don't prepare as well as I could, and therefore don't do my best, usually I beat myself up over it. Not only did I not beat myself up for not preparing enough (I found out that I needed to prepare 32 bars of a Sondheim song the day before the audition), but apparentl... Fri, 4 Apr 2008 18:27:19 EST Valentine's Day So many people celebrate today with chocolates, candy, special dinner reservations with loved ones. To many of these, special food is somewhat equal to special people. Many people don't even know how Valentine's Day originated, so I am going to tell that story. There was a Roman man named Valentinus, or Valentine to us, that was a Christian priest when it was not safe to do so, around 280 AD. The emperor made a decree that practicing the Christian religion was illegal. Valentine was arre... Thu, 14 Feb 2008 10:14:30 EST My body rocks! Every once in a while I will push my body in a workout further than it has ever been pushed before. When I'm running, that's either pace (my best on a treadmill is 8:46 per mile for 5 miles) or how far I run. Well, today I pushed my body to run 7.1 miles without stopping! I've completed longer runs, but I've always stopped somewhere in there for a rest or a bathroom break or something, but today I never stopped, and I rarely slowed down. My joints got sore, but it was worth knowing that I... Thu, 7 Feb 2008 15:20:03 EST I am so stressed out today! Today even started stressful. I woke up 30 minutes before I had to catch a bus that I still needed to walk 10 minutes to get to! I barely had time to eat breakfast and take medication before I had to get to the bus, and I barely made it. After that class, I had two hours before my next class, so I went to the gym to work out a little, and ran 3 miles. Then I went to class, and after class, I thought I was supposed to have my voice lesson, so I went up to my teacher's studio and saw that t... Mon, 28 Jan 2008 15:57:14 EST More motivation! As if finally being the healthy/ slender person in my family, having more energy, not having as many digestive problems, and the imminent threat of diabetes if I quit aren't enough reasons to keep to my "healthy living plan" (I have decided that calling it a diet makes it too easy to "cheat"), I got a small part in Guys and Dolls. I was called back for the part of Sarah, but the part that I got was one of the Hot Box girls. Regardless, I have not been on stage in a full length stage product... Sun, 20 Jan 2008 16:40:40 EST I broke my "rules" Yesterday I ate over 3000 calories! I started out fine, I had a few strips of bacon and some cereal for breakfast, I had mini corn dogs and a little soup for lunch, bringing my calorie total to under 600 calories. However, for dinner I ate a huge plate of spaghetti, garlic bread, and curly fries. None of it really tasted good. At that point I was over calories for sure, but I was at about 1700 calories, still redeemable. At that point I decided I needed ice cream, even though I wasn't hu... Fri, 14 Dec 2007 09:53:36 EST The one time when being a loser is desirable! I apparently really gain and lose water weight easily. As long as I eat approximately the same amount of calories and drink about the same amount of water every day, and that amount is conducive to either maintaining or losing weight, I do lose weight. However, if I eat between 12o0 and 1350 calories every day except one and that one I eat 2000, I will gain a whole bunch of water weight and will not lose weight as easily. Some people can rely on the law of averages. I can't do that as eas... Wed, 12 Dec 2007 15:15:05 EST I feel so fat! Well, I know I'm not, but I gained 3 pounds this weekend! I went from 131 on Thursday before my run to 134 today before my run! I changed my weight, changed my goal date and am going to change my mindset and eating habits once and for all! In order to help that happen, I am setting the following medium term goals: I will write down everything I eat, every day, even if I'm ashamed of it or don't want to know how much I ate, I will drink water and tons of it, I will stear clear of salty food... Sun, 9 Dec 2007 16:24:21 EST Frustration It is really frustrating that this summer I really ate poorly, ran less in terms of distance per run (although I also played ultimate frisbee), and I still lost 4 pounds, yet now I am running more, eating less (for the most part), and I have gained 4 pounds. It happened mostly this month, and I think switching birth control had something to do with it, and if its anything like the last time that I had a birth control with a steady dose, I'll lose the weight once my body gets used to the new ... Thu, 29 Nov 2007 13:26:59 EST Resolutions for 11-16-07 I have little to do today, so my list will be short. I will eat between 12oo and 1350 calories today, I will drink at least 80 oz of water, I will stop at the post office, the bank, and the pharmacy, I will warm up and practice with people in my opera workshop scene (hopefully pictures posted later!) which will be performed later tonight. I will catch up and write up all the feldenkrais exercises I need to, and I will remember to turn them in this week! I am taking a two day rest period th... Fri, 16 Nov 2007 14:24:06 EST Resolutions 11-13-07 Ok, so even though my boyfriend and I revisited the pizza shop at which we had our first date (although it wasn't as romantic the first time, it was about 8 or 9 and I hadn't eaten anything since breakfast that day), I still kept it between 1200 and 1350 calories. I only ran 2 out of the 5 that I planned to run. I didn't finish the feldenkrais exercise, but I did start looking at my German Diction music. I started cleaning my room a little. All in all, I did fairly well yesterday. Today ... Tue, 13 Nov 2007 15:10:19 EST Resolutions 11-12-07 Today, I am going to try and get back to posting and updating my resolutions every day. They can almost always be split into three categories; eating and exercise, school-related, and cleanliness and organization. In the eating and exercising category, I resolve to eat between 1200 and 1350 calories and run at least 5 miles. For the school related, I will finish my feldenkrais exercises for last week, and start looking at my German piece for Vocal Diction. For cleaning and organization, I... Mon, 12 Nov 2007 10:00:12 EST I can't believe it's been a year! I can't believe my boyfriend and I have been together for a year! That simulaneously feels too long and too short! He has been one of my major inspirations in my journey to better health (and looking better naked ;) ). We may have had our first fight-ish thing last weekend, but that has only made us more secure together. Last night we cooked together, and usually when we make gyros, I eat more than one. Well, I ate more than one piece of the flatbread that was too crispy on the edges (st... Mon, 12 Nov 2007 09:42:47 EST I didn't emotionally eat! So, my boyfriend pulled something really insensitive last night. We were lying in his bed, cuddling together, at about 11:30, when he asks, "Would it be mean if I said I wanted to sleep alone tonight?" Now, this may seem reasonable, but if you read between the lines you might pick up on why I was a little upset. My point was that I realize that he needs some alone time, we spend a lot of time together, but his timing was lousy. Anyway, even though I gave him every opportunity to stick to ... Sun, 4 Nov 2007 11:20:12 EST Ewwww...sugar! lol I did it. I took the plunge this morning. Make your own Belgian Waffle, complete with a toppings bar including two raspberry sauces, a strawberry sauce (my favorite) and a blueberry sauce, not to mention whipped cream. Estimated calories of the whole waffle, strawberry sauce and whipped cream combo? about 650-750 calories. In other words, about half of my total alotted calories, not to mention the sugar that I would have been consuming. I have tried to just eat some of it and then throw... Wed, 31 Oct 2007 09:13:48 EST Why is my body wierd? Okay, so I realize nearly every female, and quite a few males, thinks that his/her body is strange. I am starting to accept mine. After losing all this weight, I am finding it harder and easier. When I was overweight, my problems were simple; everything was too big and fat except my boobs, which were too small. I have actually accepted the (now even smaller) size of my breasts, even though it is harder to find sexy bras in the girls department. My body has lost weight in strange ways. S... Mon, 29 Oct 2007 17:48:28 EST Todays resolutions and how I've been frustrated so far So, last night I resolved that I would get up at 6:30 so that I could make 7am Sunrise Yoga this morning. I only hit the snooze button once, but I forgot to change out of my pajama pants(I usually sleep in wind pants or sweat pants the night before Sunrise Yoga, so this isn't that strange) and lost several minutes going back and changing. I ended up leaving to late to get there on time, so the time that I would have been yoga-ing, I looked up when the next yoga or powerflow class was and di... Mon, 1 Oct 2007 13:56:09 EST I've grown less consistent; hopefully I can change that While I have gotten to the point where exercise is a high priority, superceded only by schoolwork and the functions regulated by my circadian rhythms, my eating has been somewhat erratic. Also, I find myself not accomplishing things after making lists in my head or even on paper, because if I'm the only one who sees the list, I'm the only one who knows what didn't get done. So, I think I am going to go back to making my lists into resolutions on my blog, so that the thought that others migh... Sun, 30 Sep 2007 10:57:38 EST Why I love getting into the best shape I can I was looking at my SparkTeams today, and I realized that about half of them don't apply anymore! When I started on Spark, I had trouble with insomnia, depression, heartburn, and was almost 25 lbs above my goal weight. At that point I had lost more than 20 lbs, and I still had those problems. After several months on Spark, I am able to sleep well, I don't have heartburn unless I eat something that disagrees with me, the depression is greatly greatly reduced, and I have lost more than 18 of... Fri, 28 Sep 2007 12:24:15 EST Should I settle for looking just "good?" So, I was complaining to my boyfriend how every week I lose the same three pounds (its always water weight, thats how I can do it every week). He said, "You don't need to lose any more weight, you look really good. I don't want you to get stuck in the rut of 'I just need to lose a few more pounds.'" Okay, I understand his concern, I mean he's been around quite a few people who do or in the past have had eating disorders, and I know he's just concerned that I'll starting purging again or so... Fri, 28 Sep 2007 08:05:18 EST I'm back! For real this time Ok, I had trouble keeping up with this summer. And by that, I mean...I logged on only a couple of times. I did really well for a while, and at one point, I saw a 125.8 on the scale. Unfortunately, I gained several lbs the last week or so, and so I am back to around the weight I was in the beginning of the summer. I am back to logging my food and trying to exercise more, as that was one of my big problems the last couple of weeks. I also changed my goal weight (again) beca... Sun, 2 Sep 2007 21:08:54 EST I'M BACK! YAY! Hey, haven't been on the site for almost two weeks now, and although I haven't gained any weight, I haven't lost any either. I had a stressful couple of weeks, moving back home and trying to find a job, plus my birthday was in there somewhere (I'm now 20). I have also been trying to keep up with the running, and my seasonal allergies have died down enough so that I can run outside these days. I'm on an ultimate frisbee team that my boyfriend captains, and there are twice weekly practices u... Thu, 31 May 2007 13:34:04 EST Exercise, and why people have always thought I was crazy When my mother was still healthy enough to exercise, she and my dad and I would go to the gym together (my brother was and is a three sport athlete, he would be too busy or tired to go). I remember every time the conversation between her and my dad would be pretty much the same: "Did you enjoy your workout?" "No, I hate exercising and I hate to sweat." Ha, that's my mom for you, she's never sugar coated anything. I could never understand why she did the exercise she did if she didn't enjo... Wed, 16 May 2007 14:02:46 EST Accomplishments I accomplished several things yesterday, most of which are firsts for me. I ran twice in one day (finals are stressful) with a total of 9.5 miles run. The only thing I regret about running that much is I am a little sore today (I haven't been sore from running for a while, which was a pretty good indication that I needed to up my mileage) If I was going to run 65-75 miles between May 12 and May 25, I have run 19.5 so far, which means I have just 45.5-55.5 to go! I went out to get a gyro ... Wed, 16 May 2007 13:47:38 EST Update I ate a lot last night. Needless to say, I went over that 1300 calorie limit I set myself, even though I really didn't eat much during the day. So, today, I ran a total of 9.5 miles. I ran 3 this morning before my piano jury (we'll see how well I did on that) and then right after I went back to the SERF. My goal was 6, I ended up doing 6.5, and I could have done more. I love running! I love the energy it gives me, I love the burn when I do it, I love to run. I am so happy that somethin... Tue, 15 May 2007 16:39:28 EST I did it! Since I am a Vocal Performance Major, the most important final I have every semester is my voice jury (this is basically where I go and sing for the entire voice faculty, and they give me a grade based on this performance). This semester was even more important than most because it not only determined whether or not I would be accepted into the Opera Workshop program, but also whether or not I would be allowed to continue my path as a Music Major. I passed, I passed, I passed! I don't know... Mon, 14 May 2007 12:13:10 EST Impulses I have always been a creature of impulse, fly by the seat of my pants, acting mostly on whim. As you may guess, planning eating is difficult for me. I used to have my appetite and insulin resistance as an excuse (for those that don't know, extra insulin flooding your system makes you crave the things that put it there in the first place). Now my insulin is under control for the most part, and my appetite is greatly diminished, but I still indulge in "oh that looks good, I'll eat it and wor... Sat, 12 May 2007 10:36:17 EST I feel like crap I have less than 4 hours to practice before I have to perform two movements of a Beethoven Sonata in my piano masterclass, I didn't run today and probably won't, my ankle hurts which is the main reason I didn't run today, and I don't know how to fix that. I mean, I realized that I was rotating my ankle in a strange way to correct for the turns on the track, and it feels better than it did, but it still is really sore, and tender to the touch. I was having an emotional sick day Tuesday eveni... Fri, 11 May 2007 14:33:41 EST Body image Today, I looked at the scale and saw a number that I never thought I'd see when I started this journey. I then looked in the mirror, and was disappointed in what I saw. I don't know if I expected to see superbabe in the mirror just because my weight was low and I ran extra today, but I just saw the same thing I always see. I can tell myself that I have lost close to 40 pounds, I can tell myself that I am in the best shape of my life, and others can tell me what a huge difference that they ... Thu, 10 May 2007 14:54:14 EST ups and downs today I knew today was going to be a bad day for eating, because my schedule was thrown off by having to spend 5 hours in the shop. In order to sort of counteract that, I ran 2.5 miles today on my own, even though I don't usually run Mondays unless I go with Joe. However, even all those hours in the shop probably weren't enough to burn off nearly an entire bag of Sun Chips (Hey, at least they aren't Doritos, right?) plus a Mounds Bar, plus a Baby Ruth. The thing is, I was hungry for all of these... Tue, 8 May 2007 00:55:57 EST stomach problems So, the first time I experienced this feeling, it was between 5:00 and 6:00 in the morning, and I was staying in a hotel room with my family. It started just with a strange feeling in my upper abdomen, a feeling I have come to recognize and dread, almost like the feeling that a muscle gets when it is taut and being worked hard. It then progressed to a pain unlike most I have experienced, it wouldn't stop, I managed to drag myself to the bathroom, where I lay curled up in fetal position, fee... Sun, 6 May 2007 15:37:00 EST I made a better bad decision today About a year ago, had I gone into the cafeteria with the best intentions of just getting cereal with milk, and smelled those pancakes, I would have eaten two huge pancakes drowned in two packets butter and two tubs of regular syrup. These days, I have made a habit of checking the menu before heading down to the cafeteria, and since I saw that there was going to be pancakes, I resolved to have one pancake with margarine and half a tub of light syrup. The only thing that I ate that I did not ... Sat, 5 May 2007 17:09:14 EST Better mood! I am in a much better mood than I was in when I wrote my first post today. In order to motivate myself to go the gym, I told a friend who was nagging me to hang out with him that I had to run. I ended up jogging about 4.14 miles, and my knee doesn't hurt as much as it did before I ran, although it was one of the main reasons I stopped when I did. I also got myself down to 130.3, and I will change my ticker later. It's strange though; Tues after my run I was 131.9, Wed after my run I was 1... Thu, 3 May 2007 14:45:38 EST My knee hurts :( Ok, so as I run further distances, I have to run on the track, because the treadmill has a 30 minute limit, and my allergies and asthma act up outside. Running 5 miles in 46.5 circles (the middle lane of our track is 9.3 laps to the mile) is killing my knee. The thing I don't understand is why is it always my right knee, the track goes both ways. You know, on Sun, Tues, Thurs, and Sat you run one way, and on Mon, Wed, Fri you run the other way. anyway, I really want to run today(I never t... Thu, 3 May 2007 09:07:59 EST resolutions for 4-23-07 Today, I will eat less than 1350 calories. I will run 3 miles in 30 minutes or less. I will finish my paper at a decent time. I will try any way I can think of to find my key. I will copy my music for my audition, and get someone to take a nice picture of me. I will not be discouraged if the scale says a number higher than the one I want to see. I think thats about it. Mon, 23 Apr 2007 10:29:29 EST My horrible day yesterday plus what I'm going to do today to turn it around Yesterday I went to the Farmer's Market because it was the first outdoor market of the 07 season. I bought some fresh cheese curds, and if you've never had them, don't try them, they are so good and very addicting. I ended up eating the whole bag, which was 1200 calories, plus a scone, a pastry that was kinda like pie crust dipped in cinnamon and sugar, a small light smoothie from Jamba juice, and I bought jam for the bread that I made later, and I ate quite a bit of that, both the jam and ... Sun, 22 Apr 2007 09:09:06 EST