GEE-KNEE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=GEE%2DKNEE GEE-KNEE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ National singles awareness day is just around the corner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6092567 I don't think my valentine is going to be in town for Valentine's Day. He's got investor meetings in another state. So I think I'm going to make Valentine's Day a Jeannie-lovefest. I owe myself a massage for being sugar free all of January, so I'm going to try go for that massage on Valentine's. I have plans to go for a long beach walk in the morning with a girlfriend. I think I'll buy myself flowers, and unless I keep a single friend company, I think I'll catch a sunset. What a perfect... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 09:36:35 EST The scale is my friend today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6091241 Woo hoo! My weight is moving after a 3 week standstill. I was at a way higher than usual weight on New Years, but I've now dropped 18 pounds since then. I still have a ways to go to get back to where I like it, but this no sugar for the year seems to be working for me, I bought a new wii fit and it gets me to move my booty when I don't feel like moving my booty. I've been running pretty consistently. I'm feeling good. Without sugar the food craving are null. When things were standin... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 19:58:25 EST Dun, dun, dunnnn.... No Personal Record http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6090205 Well, I was hoping for under three hours for my half marathon and I finished in 3 hours 14 minutes. So I still have a goal for next time. I thought I could do it because I did 3 hours and 4 minutes last year at this event, and at the half marathon after that I did 3 hours and 49 seconds (with one port a potty stop-if I had just ran)... But the last half I did, it was record heat, and I did something like 4 hours. So I'm 45 minutes faster on this one. I'm also carrying an extra like 15 pou... Sun, 7 Feb 2016 16:42:48 EST I Can http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6089738 I have a half marathon in the morning. I'm hoping to finish in under 3 hours. I signed up to do the full next year. I think I can... I think I can... I think I can...(And hopefully later I'll be able to tell that I did) Sun, 7 Feb 2016 01:19:32 EST 7am http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6087541 It's not even 7 am and I've already ran 4 miles, did crunches, did wii hula hoop, and stretched. I'm at almost 9,000 steps. I have plans to walk with a coworker at lunch.. I'm looking forward to a good day and feeling strong. Yay for the morning work out. I love starting my day with good endorphins: Thu, 4 Feb 2016 10:00:16 EST I thought I could, so I did http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6083477 For New Years, I gave up sugar. When I say no sugar, I mean none of that processed stuff. So I have included breads, sauces, and anything that may have processed sugar no matter how trace of an amount it has. I even included fake sugar. I made it to the end of month one! Woo hoo, I'm 1/12th through this. I thought I could, and I did. I only went down 13 pounds this month, but I feel so much better. Im going to reward myself by buying a massage tomorrow. I knew the first month would b... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 21:33:56 EST change your thoughts, change your life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6081339 I've done something that is statistically a big deal. I've lost well over a hundred pounds and kept most of it off for more than 6 years now. I don't have great will power. Im not stronger than anyone else. I'm not more capable than anyone else, but I am determined. So after decades of being super morbidly obese, what clicked? Well, self love would be the answer. I use to see weight loss as deprevation. It was something I needed to do to make myself better because there was something wr... Thu, 28 Jan 2016 09:32:07 EST Strengthening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6079550 Health issues, which were resolved a year ago, made aerobic exercise less apealing for a while because I'd get a stabbing pain in my ovary and uterus every time Id run or jump around. Then after my hysterectomy, my core strength was just completely null. The first yoga class I attended after being released to workout again was so hard. Just sitting upright on the floor was hard. Lifting my legs was strenuous. So I didn't do much core work last year. I did a super easy begining yoga class... Tue, 26 Jan 2016 09:48:46 EST Weight standing still but feeling good none the less http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6078205 I've had a few salty meals lately and the weight has been at a standstill.. Give it time. I bet I see a big drop by midweek. I can retain water like crazy. My body feels better. It looks thinner to me. I have good energy. I'm feeling strong. <BR> I've been sugar free now 24 days. I think I need to set up a massage for the 31st to reward myself for making it through the first month. My cutie (the guy I've dated off and on this last year, whom I am totally smitten with) told me he gav... Sun, 24 Jan 2016 21:04:25 EST And I'm still moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6073502 I did my two miles this morning. I'm not running the whole thing yet, but I'm shaping it. It will be there soon. Tonight is yoga. I've been doing lots of wii fit hula hoop and my core is feeling stronger. Today is 19 days sugar free. I think at the end of the month, I'm buying myself a massage to celebrate 1/12 of my year without sugar completion. Over the three day weekend, I did 29 miles... And my healthy snowball continues to grow. In other areas of my life, things are not looking... Tue, 19 Jan 2016 09:49:10 EST Celebrating little milestones http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6071895 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/cc54415c-eede-4a9f-a052-80f948bb0a28.jpg">Still... Yay! 209... It's still a bigger number than I'd like to see, but it feels better than that 222.2 (my post New Years weight). 200 is just around the corner and it's the 190s after that. I did 12 miles this morning. I am hoping I can pull off a decent time for my half marathon that is coming up in February ... And woo hoo... Two cousins told me they'd do a full with me next year. i think th... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 15:20:58 EST quick update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6071512 I've had no sugar since 2015 and it feels easier every day. My mood feels more up and stable since I quit sugar. My energy is up. My food cravings in general are down. Last night, I had drinks with coworkers and friends... Yes, I attended two happy hours last night. I drank vodka soda water, and I attempted to eat healthy... I wasn't perfect, but not terrible... No sugar This morning I walked like 13 miles on the beach with a friend, then I did a little wii fit. It was perfect weather... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 01:49:16 EST My thoughts this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6068346 This morning I ran 1.5 miles and did 20 minutes of wii fit. I can feel my energy going up. I'm still going strong with the sugar free plan. If my dental appointment doesn't take too long, then running tonight with a friend as well. <BR> <BR> When I got on the wii this morning, and it said my weight.. It then said "that's obese". I struggled with trying to find my perfect stop weight as I was going down the first time, but I got down small enough that I zipped a pair of 0s and you could m... Wed, 13 Jan 2016 09:32:07 EST Rolling forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6068123 Tonight I went to yoga, but no running this morning. I'm still going in the right direction. I wasn't as tight as last week. Next week will even be better. 12 days sugar free... Other an maybe two handfuls of salted nuts, my diet was great. Those peanuts won't kill me... I just need to run them off in the morning,, Wed, 13 Jan 2016 00:32:10 EST Still moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6066551 I got up. I just intending to run the block, like my initial get back in the groove plan. I went for the 2 miles instead. I didn't run the whole thing, but a good part of it. Then I did 10 minutes of wii fit hula hoop... And im 11 days sugar free... And the snow ball is growing :) happy Monday! Mon, 11 Jan 2016 09:33:23 EST I'm up and running http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6066164 I got my wii fit u up and running. This was such a big part of my routine when I initially lost the 183 pounds. Every morning Id get up and take a body test. The hula hoop is my favorite, but it was slightly challenging. I have no core strength since my hysterectomy, so maybe this is a good way to build it back up. I realize I need new remotes to play all the games but I used it for a good hour. Today I also walked like 6 miles. Tomorrow I'm getting up at 5:00 and running the block a... Sun, 10 Jan 2016 21:10:18 EST Its moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6064971 Yesterday I passed up cake.. "No thank you cake"... I passed up chocolate. "No thank you chocolate".. And it didn't really feel that hard to do. I think the sugar may be out of my system. I am down from a crazy high of 222.2 to 213 (these are both higher number then I've seen in years), but I still feel bloated. So I might have another big drop next week. Next week, Im going to do more cardio. Sat, 9 Jan 2016 14:31:46 EST 6am and Already Feeling a Sense of Acomplishment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6062931 I use to run two miles, or more, nearly every morning. Then my kids started an earlier start school high school, needed reminders to wake up, needed rides, and my workout time became inconsistent. I have not gone out early morning to run in months, I think. I was having hard time envisioning myself doing it in my current state. My good friend suggested that I just get up, get dressed, and walk around the block. In ABA (I'm a behaviorist by day) we call this "shaping". We start with the ... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 09:14:10 EST Finding My Groove http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6060890 Starting out is always the hardest, wether it be starting a new job or being a first time mom. The same is true with fitness and food plans. I've slacked enough during the end of last year that I sort of feel like I am starting new. I am not back at the beginning, but I veered off course long enough that it's going to take me some time to find my groove again and get back on course. I've been sticking to my clean, no sugar diet this week, and I am actually feeling good about that. I walk... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 08:44:55 EST Doing well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6059748 Day four sugar free is going well. I'm the little engine that can, so I believe can do this a full year. I'm sweet enough without added sugar. I actually feel really good. My mood feels more stable and my energy is good. The idea that I'm not going to let myself get derailed by a sugar binge is a positive one. I didn't get all my stuff done yesterday, so I'm continuing the list after work. Ugh! I have to go back to work. Actually I might be going to yoga tonight... If yoga, then I'll... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 08:42:31 EST Goals for my day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6058930 Ive been on winter break the last two weeks. It's a perk to working in education. I didn't do everything over the break that I intended, but I got a few things done. Today I'm going to clean my room. It's very messy, but last year I organized my furniture so that I had floor space to do yoga... But that space is full of clutter currently. I'm going to clear it out. After that area is clear, I'm hooking up my new wii u and wii fit to my rarely used TV in my room and I'm finding all t... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 13:15:20 EST Holy Cow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6058435 Ugh! So I've been doing good since the new year, but December I was on a diet of wine and chocolate with lots of meals out and not so much fitness. Today I got real and stepped on the scale! Yikes! It said 222... I haven't seen that number in years! Now, I retain water very easily, so I'm checking it again in a few days and expecting a much smaller number just due to loss of fluid retention from salty New Year's Eve dining (seriously, I can gain 10+ pounds from eating salty foods and magica... Sat, 2 Jan 2016 22:14:05 EST I'm sweet enough without it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6057871 Day 1 of my resolution of no sugar for a year went alright. I've been weening myself off it for a week, so no huge food cravings or headaches. I did mess up a little. I had some leftover spinach dip from New Years. I ate a few bites before looking at the ingredients. There it was "high fructose corn syrup" in my feta, spinach, dill dip... Ugh! It's in everything!! It's not surprising that we have an obesity epidemic. I have plans to go walking on the beach with a friend in an hour, the... Sat, 2 Jan 2016 10:57:53 EST Welcome 2016... Bring on the inner peace http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6057134 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9c238a4d-6446-42fe-bb11-d38e7f0f0ca8.JPG">I like New Years, it's the reminder that today is a new day and I can make it what I want. Every moment really is ours to shape our lives, but this one just stands out. Today I am giving up sugar for a year. Today I'm letting go of things that aren't working for me. Sugar being one of them, although not the only one. I'm not indulging. Im tired of the yoyoing. Sugar is not my friend. I'm much ha... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 15:45:04 EST Hello, my name is... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6028359 Hello, my name is Jeannie and I'm a sugar junkie. So I've been on a sugar binge for over a week now... I'm feeling low energy. I'm feeling blue. It started on Halloween. I've eaten a ton of candy. It's going to stop today! I swear the first week is always the hardest, but I've done it before and I can do it again. I will have cravings. I will have withdrawals. I will Have determination and strength. I will be sugar free.. I'm sweet enough without it Sat, 7 Nov 2015 19:27:03 EST TGIF http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6023589 I am going to socialize this weekend a lot, but that means temptation. I want to endulge in moderation. I don't want to find myself in a sugar haze passed on the couch with wrappers all around me like the sugar junkie I can be. Tonight I'm going to stock up on the yummy healthy food, so when I go to my friends to help pass out candy and drink a few vodka sodas, I am surrounded by natural yummy food.. I'll get berries and salad. Some days a crate of berries is more fulfilling than candy f... Fri, 30 Oct 2015 08:17:58 EST long lost teddy bear http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6022353 I'm about to write about something very personal, and I'm probably going to delete this, maybe even right after I post it. My son just came in the living room with my childhood teddy bear and said, "mom isn't this yours". I slept with that bear for years, but the thoughts that flooded my head tonight, when I just saw it, were of the night I put him in a drawer. I was 16 and a very naive 16 year old. I had just gone on a date where I said "no", but was then over powered. I came home feeli... Wed, 28 Oct 2015 01:01:30 EST This weeks thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6020517 The last week wasn't my best week ever. I had the flu. One of my kids was cited months ago for alcohol possession and we had a court date for that. Dates were canceled. There were issues at work. My mood was just bleak and I felt scatterbrained. On Friday, I took my daughter to dinner where she gave me a lector about how I needed to be a strong independent woman and just get my stuff together. My son, when I said I felt blue, said "grattitude, tell me the three good things that happene... Sat, 24 Oct 2015 19:16:08 EST gratitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6016555 My friend gave me this book called "The Five Minute Journal". You start out in the morning writing what you're grateful for. The next spot is "what would make today great". Last is a daily affirmation. At night you reflect on 3 amazing things that happened today and what could have made the day great. Now I've read studies that say people who practice gratitude tend to be less depressed than people who don't. I've been taking a few moments of gratitude every night for years now. In lif... Sat, 17 Oct 2015 14:24:35 EST Crawling to the finish line http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6014073 Sunday I ran a half marathon... Well, it was more a crawl, than a run. I completed a Half marathon on Sunday. It was like 97 degrees. A vast amount of it was on the beach, facing the sun, with no shade, no breeze... No fun! It was brutal. Sweat dripping in my eyes. My feet swelling from the heat. It was the worst time I've ever done... And yet I'm glad I did it. I spent time with friends burning calories, making memories... And I completed the last of three halves needed for a nifty c... Mon, 12 Oct 2015 23:36:39 EST Celebrating Gains... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6004864 My weight loss journey is really more of a pursuit of health and happiness journey. Sometimes I focus on the numbers... That number on the tag of my pants, the one on that little box I keep stepping on, but it's not so much about the number. It's about quality of life. It's about longevity. It's about being able to climb a mountain to see a beautiful view or letting go of stress with an amazing run. It's about being able to fit in a plane to travel internationally and walking all day sig... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 10:11:37 EST The Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6004725 Today I did an easy 10.8 mile hike to help get ready for my up coming half marathon. I met 5 girls, early morning, and we all had our therapy time. One of them said sarcastically, "my husband tells me other women go shopping together". One friend responded "I hate shopping". I personally love shopping, but I do tend to meet a lot of friends for hikes and runs. This group does a lot of marathons and ragnars. They are a healthy group most of the time (with some happy hour exceptions). <BR... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 01:16:12 EST Peer Pessured Lunch Walks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6001758 So as I sit here eating my cauliflower for dinner, I'm feeling very excited about some news I got today... Drum roll please.. My coworkers want to start walking during part of our lunch break. I know it doesn't sound like a big deal, but it is. This means forced social fitness.. It will help build momentum that will help me move forward. Two years ago, my treatment team all did a daily lunch workout. It really was one coworker and myself that sort peer pressured the others into joining (... Mon, 21 Sep 2015 22:51:13 EST Short Term Goals are Easy Breasy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5998862 I have a date that I'm exited for in two weeks. Let's see how much I can tone up in two weeks. Let's see how clean I can eat for the next weeks. No crap for two weeks, that's easy right? No drinking for two weeks. Working out regularly for two weeks. I can do that. Even if it's only a few pounds, it's a few pounds. Plus I have a half marathon I need to start training for.... Longer term goals are to be down two sizes by my birthday in December. I can do that too. Next month I'm ta... Wed, 16 Sep 2015 23:47:31 EST Italy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5996746 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/663167dc-e761-465f-8971-e83a71f4dc50.jpg">I went to Italy the last few weeks of August. I walked everywhere. We walked 13-22 miles a day. I saw Rome, Florence, and Venice with a day trip to Pisa. I loved Venice the most. I allowed myself to eat whatever I wanted. The first few days it was a lot of carbs, so much that my body didn't feel good. I'm used to a better diet than that. So then I upped the salads and fruit, and reeled in the ca... Sun, 13 Sep 2015 17:53:37 EST Tomorrow is a brand new day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928376 This morning there was some kind of texting misunderstanding between my dude and I. It started out all kissy face emoji and snugly warm, but then it turned south after I joked about something and he didn't get it that I was teasing. I think he might have broken up with me, but he seems to have retracted it, so I'm not sure. I guess we can straighten it out later. I used to run to the kitchen for comfort, but today I'm just not hungry, like I'm making my self eat. I cried a little. I s... Fri, 15 May 2015 00:42:52 EST Be the little engine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927445 I have new running shoes. My 14 year old gave them to me for Mother's Day. She bought them with money that she earned doing henna tattoos at the school carnival. My daughter just turned 14 and arranged everything on her own for this booth. She brought in like $400. That's a big deal at 14. This year, she also won second place in an art contest and drew the yearbook cover. Growing up, I was often told why I couldn't. I was defeated mentally before I even tried practically anything. I t... Wed, 13 May 2015 10:27:08 EST Food for the soul http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927243 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/5/l950312503.jpg"> Today was beach walk and watch the sunset Tuesday. I came home and my daughter was complaining of not feeling well. I was prepared to brush it off and stay in, but evidently this new tradition means something to her because she came in with her shoes on and declared she was ready to go. We walked about 4 miles tonight on the beach, and then we found some comfy rocks and watched our Tuesday night sunset. There is something ... Wed, 13 May 2015 00:06:30 EST Just Go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5922687 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/5/l951819831.jpg"> Yesterday I woke up at 4 and grumbled to myself that I didn't want to run the half marathon I had signed up for. I was tired and a bit achy. I contemplated ditching my friends and enjoying my Sunday in bed. Somewhere in my head a little voice said "just go!". I battle it out with myself all the time..this voice won yesterday. I got up out of bed and got ready. I knew the plan was to go lay out by the pool at my friends h... Mon, 4 May 2015 21:54:44 EST half marathon tomorrow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5921378 I am running the OC half marathon tomorrow. It's not my first, but it's the first time doing the OC venue and I hear it's hilly. I've done lots of running lately, yet I'm not feeling ready. I'm sort of tired from the work week. I guess I just do my best and try better next time, if I don't finish in the time I want. Afterwards we are hanging out at my friends jacuzzi/swimming pool. Maybe I just focus on that. Sat, 2 May 2015 15:32:18 EST I ❤️ me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920453 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1721277971.jpg"> This is my motto this year. I believe the reason my weight came off 6 years ago is I learned how to care for myself. I ate like I loved myself and I nourished my beautiful body with healthy food. I deserve healthy food. I deserve a healthy body. I made myself strong with exercise. I made myself limber with yoga. I even ate cake on occasion and didn't beat myself up for it. I did beautiful hikes and moved my body any w... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 22:17:51 EST Yoga Night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919597 Today is Wednesday and that means it's yoga night. I can't wait. For me, it's not just exercise, its spiritual centering. There are great messages taught at yoga, like "be in the present". If you're depressed, you may be stuck in the past. Anxiety is often from living in the future. Peace comes from living fully in the moment you are in. good stuff learned in yoga. Sometimes I go for free yoga at my park. Sometimes it's on the beach or in a studio, but I always get something out of... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 10:04:03 EST Sunset walks and 10,000 steps a day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919419 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/0/l603823688.jpg"> Tuesday nights are officially "beach walk, then watch the sunset night" with my 13 year old daughter. Sometimes my son joins us. This is our plan that was set a month ago, and we are doing it throughout summer. We may have to ride our bikes, if parking gets bad. We also have a bit of a competition to see who walks the most steps in a day, with 10,000 set as our minimum goal. We will go for an evening walk, or a run, if o... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 00:39:12 EST Namaste my friend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916142 Namaste... Can I just say I'm currently loving yoga. I had a hysterectomy in December and when I had the green light to work out again, I had no core strength. I was sitting in the back, hating yoga. The instructor tells the class to "define the intention for the night"... My answer in my head "uh... I'm here, that's good enough"... And I kept going. Sometimes I took the child's poise option (they always suggest that poise, if you need to stop and rest)... But I kept going. I took the mo... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 01:21:41 EST Here I go again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5790627 Alright... My weight has snuck up. I fight it back down only to watch it sneak up more. I have had a tough year with some mystery health issues that have stressed me out, so obviously I need to focus more on stress management. I got divorced. I had my dad move in. There have been some stress at work.. Guy issues, family concerns, even surgeries... I'm not going to beat myself up, but it's time to get a little more stringent and meticulous with this. I am going back down... No more going... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 18:59:11 EST One More Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5543678 Im up two pant sizes and 25 pounds this year. This isn't the right direction for me. It's been a crazy year, with a divorce and two surgeries... I am not beating myself up. Life happens, but I can take back my control. I can pull it back together. I am going to enter the new year at least 10 pounds less than I am right now. I know how to do this. I know I am worth it. I can. I will! I am recommitting myself right now! Now!!! Sun, 17 Nov 2013 18:14:03 EST Stupid Infection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5356380 I had a thigh and butt lift. Loose skin after massive weight loss sort of sucks. I have been so off track since then. It was only walking the first three weeks. I got the okay to start running again a few weeks ago, but at the same time I had a few stitches redone that ripped at work. Then I got a surgical site infection. I took the antibiotics, but the redness never fully cleared up. My energy has been low since then. I did some yoga, and a few short runs... but I just couldn't get ... Tue, 14 May 2013 13:59:53 EST Dancing Legs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5300153 Friday, I went dancing. I had fun dancing. I am not a great dancer, but I enjoy moving around to a good beat. I went out with my coworker, who is a very sweet young woman. We started at a pub. We met a nice young guy who was new to town. We left the bar, in our heels, in search of dancing with our new friend. We asked some strangers that we met up the street about where the dance clubs were, and they told us to follow them. They led us to a bar playing hip hop music (I am more of an i... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 22:49:25 EST Mixed Feelings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5281965 Usually I am feel incredibly proud to have lost around 185 pounds. I mean it took a lot of work. Thousands of fitness minutes were spent burning calories and shaping muscles. There were walks, runs, hikes, bike rides, yoga classes, spin classes, aerobic videos, weight training, hula hooping, and other various activities that were built into my life... and so much sweat and hard work went into losing weight. My diet was changed completely. Food that was killing me was swapped out for food... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 01:02:16 EST Losing 544 pounds and gaining friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5265331 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1347818917.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have been on sparkpeople for a while now... I've lost 183 pounds and gained a better life. What I've gained means so much more to me, than what I've lost. I've gained strength, energy, endurance, confidence, a healthy lifestyle, muscle, years to my life expectancy, freedom, and friends. I love my spark friends because they are usually uplifting, positive, and like minded individuals that inspire me to live ... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 22:23:37 EST