GEE-KNEE's SparkPeople Blog GEE-KNEE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Measurements of Success For the last two years, I've been battling, and losing, a weight gain. I am heavier than I've been in years. I am still about 100 pounds less than when I started, but I am not where I should be. I think I had an "ah-ha" moment last month where I sort of figured it out. When I first started on this journey, I was motivated by the process. I wanted to being a healthier role model. I didn't even think I could lose weight at first. It was a side effect of taking care of myself and being a ... Tue, 19 Sep 2017 22:36:12 EST I Can Do This Last week, I was crazy on sugar. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I was having issues concentrating. I was high anxiety and depressed. I finally realized I had an issue. I am on day eight of no sugar. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>c0-4e0d-9015-b040aa930f01 </link> <BR> <BR> I've managed to get out and walk/run at least 5 times this last week. I am feeling clear headed again. I am feeling pretty good. My mood... Sun, 16 Jul 2017 17:40:29 EST Frenemies Maintenance is hard. It really means discipline for the rest of your life. Its hard. Anyways... Ive gained weight this year. This week, ugh, this month.... I've been soothing myself with food. I realized I don't feel good. I don't feel like I feel when I am taking care of my body. It's like this frenemy I've been leaning on. It makes me feel good in the moment, then gives me anxiety and depression throughout the week. My mood is all over and my energy isn't there. I realized I've bee... Tue, 11 Jul 2017 10:48:45 EST Frustrated I am struggling. I keep eating. I work out sometimes, but it hasn't been consistent. I've taken out frustrations with my love life with food... old habits reappear. I don't want to regain the all the weight that I've work so hard to lose. I've motivated others, and see them thin now... and I'm feeling chubby. It's got to stop today. It needs to stop for no other reason than I deserve better. My knees have been achy. I get a little winded walking around. My clothes.. well... the next... Fri, 12 May 2017 00:03:46 EST 2017 and My Promise to Myself My weight is up. I fluctuate. I have successfully kept off about 140 pounds for 8 years now. I need to release about 50. I have no doubt that I can do it. I know how to do it. It's going to be done. I am planning on purging the kitchen and getting a gym membership this week. I need to re tweak a few things. I need to go back to a few things that I know work for me. <BR> <BR> I thought, "maybe I'll make a few resolutions". I decided not to this New Years. I do have goals that I've... Sun, 1 Jan 2017 20:54:15 EST Let's end this year like it started This year my New Years resolution was no sugar... none... I made it like 3 months, then I had a hiccup. Then I pulled it together, then another hiccup. I lost 15 pounds the first 3 months of the year. Let's end the year, like I started it. For the next month and a half, I'm going to be diligent about my health and fitness. I'm not a slave to sugar. I'm capable and able to get myself back in shape. I like the way I feel when take good care of my body. Thu, 17 Nov 2016 08:58:43 EST Bling, The medal is going up on the wall <img src=""> I've done a number of half marathons over the last 5 or 6 years. I hang my favorite medals on my wall. I like beach themed ones. Im currently training for my second full marathon. I'm doing a marathon in Huntington Beach, surf city marathon. They have my favorite medals, little tiny surf boards. Being that I'm training for 26 miles, I will be doing like a half marathon or more every weekend for t... Sun, 16 Oct 2016 16:57:36 EST Goals I have two big things planned for February. The first, is my second full marathon. I'm so far from marathon ready, so that is going to take some serious training. My coworker gave me her running program tonight. She told me I needed to get on it because it's a 16 week plan. She said she was going to bug me about it. The second thing, is the application for the spring enrollment for the credentialing program I want to get into is due in February, it requires a whole lot of hoop jumping t... Thu, 13 Oct 2016 22:58:03 EST 12 miles today Today I did a 12 mile beach walk with my friend. I like walking with friends... The last I did this walk, it felt hard. It wasn't hard today. I think I'm getting it back. I've done a lot more running lately. It feels good to know that what was hard, isn't hard anymore. Sat, 17 Sep 2016 17:32:17 EST Planning One of my coworkers lost a ton of weight on the whole 30 meal plan... it's really clean eating and you don't eat sugar, grains, beans, gluten, alcohol, and dairy. I did it early summer and made it 3 weeks. There is four of us at work doing this currently, but I am not as strict with myself as the others this time around. I've learned that I don't do well with absolutes, except with sugar because sugar is a trigger for me. I lost 8 pounds the first time around and then gained 10 because I... Thu, 15 Sep 2016 08:54:42 EST People make fitness more fun According to my phone app, I did 17.69 miles yesterday. <BR> <BR> Half was for fitness in the morning. The other half, I did, in flip flops, on a first date. It was for fun. I am tired today. I was up late doing this crazy beach walk where I showed this guy around town. He had just moved to my town from LA. He said he hadn't ventured out yet. i felt the need to take him to the end of the beach path and passed all these restaurants and up this little hill to a spot where there is a ve... Mon, 12 Sep 2016 23:53:49 EST I am on the list My emo mood seems to be dissipating. I think the good food and exercise are helping. I've got multiple projects going on in the house. I have had doctor and orthodontist appointments for the kids. I am gathering application information for grad programs. I'm selling a car. I am still working on my yard overhaul. I am trying to utilize the last of my summer vacation to get the most done that I can do, before life gets busy... so on my checklist is "walk 90 minutes". It's just as import... Mon, 15 Aug 2016 17:42:11 EST It Starts With Self Awareness It's funny how the moment I start to beat myself up over bad choices that I slip into some self loathing complacency. I just didn't care as much about what went into my body last week. I ran lots of errands, but I didn't get up and run.. or even walk. Then because I didn't take care of my body, my mood was low low low... tears and mommy tantrums last week. Bad food effects our hormones, our sleep, how we feel, our energy level... our tolerance and mood. Then the viscous cycle creeps in and... Sat, 13 Aug 2016 13:01:04 EST Mid Summer Blog I finished the yard and I am quite happy with it, although I want to swap out some yellow day lilies for pink ones. I want to swap out white alyssum for pink. It's all shades of white, yellow, and pink. I want the retro girly house. <img src=""> I think once everything fills in, it will look lovely. <img src=""> I like being a girl,... Tue, 2 Aug 2016 11:41:42 EST The Never Ending Yard Work <img src=""> <img src=""> I've spent the last three months taking out my lawn and putting in a drought tolerant landscape. Today it will be done. Then I'm painting the exterior of my house.. Then I'm building a small deck.. Then I'm doing the back, taking out the carpet.. Redoing the kitchen... im sure its burnt like a million calories... Mon, 1 Aug 2016 11:46:23 EST I'm a Size 12 Sexy Beast :) <img src=""> I've been divorced for a few years now. I was really thin during the divorce and I've gone from 2s to 12s since then... But I'm still not in the 28s that I wore in my 20s and 30s. It's a battle for me. I had a date last weekend with a guy I went on one date with last summer. I open up a little about my big weight loss and show my train pictures. <img src=" Sat, 30 Jul 2016 00:16:06 EST Im putting away the scale for a few weeks According to the Whole 30 program that I am doing, I wasn't supposed to weigh myself for 30 days. I don't know why this one is so hard for me. I saw my weight go down quickly and this week it went up a tiny bit... but that's not what this is about. It's about health and I am feeling good at the moment. I even think I look more slender at the moment. My energy seems to be up a bit. My blood sugar is probably more steady because my hands aren't shaky and I am part chihuahua. I've done a w... Fri, 8 Jul 2016 11:16:37 EST Some Fourth of July blog Today I walked 9 miles with a friend, otherwise known as "therapy". I worked on my garden with my mother. I ate very healthy. I'm feeling good. I'm about to go to the grocery store, then I'm going to do some laundry.. I'm Hoping to have a happy fourth by relaxing and keeping my dog company. Today I thought of what independence has meant to me. Beyond the rights and freedoms giving to me by the state, it's me freeing myself from food addiction. It's being free from controlling spouse... Mon, 4 Jul 2016 19:23:07 EST Yard work <img src=""> I'm a school district employee. It's summer, but I'm working summer school. I've had the last two weeks off. I go to work on Tuesday. Well, I've spent my two weeks meeting girlfriends for walks and hikes, taking care of appointments for the kids, and working on my yard. I'm doing my city's lawn to garden program. I'm taking out existing grass and replacing it with a drought tolerant landscape. ... Sun, 3 Jul 2016 10:20:55 EST Walking with the kids <img src=""> My son just started taking thyroid medication last week. He has had these weird bursts of energy in the middle of the night. Yesterday he did something that he's never done. He asked if we could go hike the loop at our nature center. Usually I ask him to do stuff with me and he says no.. Today he asked. He went voluntarily. Yay! So today I did a short hike/walk with my son. Oh.. And after more ... Fri, 1 Jul 2016 06:32:48 EST Week one of the whole 30 I'm one week into The Whole 30. I'm NOT eating grains, beans (they can cause inflammation), dairy, sugar, or alcohol at all for 30 days. I'm not eating anything that's a substitute for these food.. No gluten free fake anything. The sugar was the easiest because I cut that out back in January. I am not supposed to weight myself either, but I did and I've dropped a few pounds already. What's hard about this for me is the alcohol. I'm not a big drinker, but I'm a social drinker.. I went to... Mon, 27 Jun 2016 09:49:57 EST New beginnings My supervisor has been doing this Whole 30 diet. It sound like clean eating at its best...just no dairy, no gluten, no sugar... I've been floundering this last month, so I'm getting ready to reel myself back in. It sounds very similar to what a friend explained the over eater anonymous has their people do. My supervisor looks fabulous. I'm thinking if I can cut sugar, why not try no gluten and dairy too. This seems like a healthy and doable plan. I had a break up this last month and ... Sat, 11 Jun 2016 11:30:06 EST Planning to plan My body is sore. I'm probably not going to do any hard core workouts for a few days, but I think in order to compensate, I need to keep my diet in check. I'm the free flowing Sagittarius. I'm not a huge planner. I like vacations where I explore.. No itinary. I have never been able to weigh and measure my food very meticulously. I'm better at eyeballing the amount and checking off the amounts I need in my head... 1 serving of oatmeal... Carb ✔️ Apple... fruit serving✔️ I did log my foo... Tue, 10 May 2016 09:29:19 EST My tinker bell half <img src=""> <img src=""> I did the tinker bell half today for my daughters birthday/mothers day. I didn't train very well because I had a lot of personal stress this last month. I did finish and with a descent time too( -Although I felt cruddy at the end-very cruddy) I was electrolyte deficient and dehydrated. I avoided the sports dr... Sun, 8 May 2016 18:16:08 EST Change starts with me So when I started this better health-weight loss journey back in 2008 it was purely out of the desire to be a better role model for my children. My daughter was getting chubby, and I knew change needed to start with me, the role model. I remember signing on to SP and it suggesting a goal of 60 pounds, and I laughed.. thinking, "like that's going to happen." That first year I lost like 120 pounds. Once I realized that I could, I rolled with it. It was fun. <BR> <BR> My daughter told me t... Fri, 6 May 2016 22:31:36 EST Bloom <img src="">I once pulled up a huge pile of overgrown morning glory and found this little agapanthus with a tiny little blooming flower on it. I remember looking at that flower and wondering how it bloomed in such adverse conditions. It probably never got sunlight and it was just completely covered.. and I decided I wanted to be like that agapanthus. I want to bloom wherever I am, no matter the environment. <i... Wed, 4 May 2016 22:20:30 EST Stressed Out... <img src=""> This has been a mofo of a week! I got a diagnosis for my son that explains a ton of things, but phrases like "lucky he's made it this far" and "if he stops medication, he could die" have plagued me with stress.. I love love my little guy and apparently his life is total gift. His pituitary gland is malformed, in the wrong location and missing a stem. Turns out my lazy 16 year old, who looks 12, isn'... Sun, 24 Apr 2016 14:58:53 EST just like a flock of seagulls, I Ran I just got back from spring break. I was so tired Monday that other than my 20 minute walk at lunch, I didn't get in any fitness. In fact I crashed pretty early that night. Yesterday was pretty much the same. Today I pushed myself to get out. I told myself, even if it's just a short walk, it will get you back on the routine. The funny thing is, I got out and I wanted to run, so I did. I was sick pretty much most of March.. April I'm getting it back on track. I've learned over the yea... Thu, 7 Apr 2016 09:12:23 EST I was lost... <img src=""> One day a couple years ago, while cleaning my room, I came across this old photo. I took a picture of the picture and texted it to a friend with something like "crap, I don't even recognize this as me anymore." My friend wrote back how it didn't look like me at all. I wrote her back, "I'm lost under all that fat"... And as those words were written, I just started balling. I was lost under all that f... Fri, 1 Apr 2016 23:26:10 EST Cruising through March I'm leaving for a cruise to Mexico/Catalina island on Monday. It's my first cruise. My plan is to continue to clean eat, and my friend says we are hitting the gym every morning after breakfast. I'm excited to spend my afternoon laying by a pool. I'm trying to decide if I want to take the retro red polka dot bikini or the retro cherry one piece. (Side note-back in the day when I was 300+ pounds, it would have been capri pants by the pool or avoid the pool all together). This month has... Sat, 26 Mar 2016 09:14:44 EST Life happens The last two weeks haven't been great. I had a stomach thing. I had some personal stressors. I just haven't made it out to do much exercise. I've done some, but not my usual. I've stayed consistent with no sugar for the most part, but I did have a few slices of pizza one night. I know most pizza has some processed sugar, so I fudged it a little. I also have eaten some tortilla chips, and not feeling super great about that. "Some" feels like an understatement. When you're tummy is upse... Sat, 19 Mar 2016 15:10:18 EST I Made It Two Months... No Sugar This is end of month two without sugar. I made it. I am feeling great. I am not hungry all the time. It's gotten super easy to pass things up.. things that I know will derail my goal and not make me feel good. I've lost 23 pounds so far. This sort of puts me at the weight I was stuck at most of last year before August, when I went to Italy. So another 20 would put me back at a weight that I wouldn't mind being. If I lost another 20 after that, it would me back in hottie status where a... Mon, 29 Feb 2016 08:49:17 EST Piece of Cake <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Kate Spade is using this quote on her bags and although I like the meaning, this quote rubs me wrong. I'm going to get it off my chest here and tell you why. Here is the thing, there are different types of happiness. There is the low risk and work type which usually have low pay off like the rush you get from sugar, and then there are things that require more work and/or risk that hav... Sun, 28 Feb 2016 11:06:51 EST Hello March This is turning out to be a good year (although we are only in February). I told myself I'd make it a good year and so far I have. First, by cutting out all the sugar, I'm eating very clean. This has been good for my body and my mood. I lost 18 pounds since January 1st, and Im enjoying a nice even mood. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I went to a baby shower. I was busy all morning and barely made it there on time. I was hungry, so I ate what was served, salad and lasagna. There may have been (... Sun, 28 Feb 2016 06:54:01 EST Vacation So it looks like I'm going on a cruise over spring break with a friend. This will be my first cruise. I was warned today by the friend I walk with at lunch that cruises can ruin a diet. When I went to Italy, I told myself "you're in Italy, and you may never be back.. Eat what you want". By day three I was, not to be crude, backed up. My body has aclamated to my high fiber diet. Pizza every night made my stomach ache and bloat like crazy. Nothing was moving through me. It was stuck. So I ... Wed, 24 Feb 2016 23:07:55 EST A reinforcement schedule I told myself no sugar for all of 2016 (this excludes your naturally accuring sugar in fruits and vegetables), and so I'm not eating bread, dressings, candies... I even did away with fake sugar (except for cough drops when I'm sick). So I made it past month one and I rewarded myself with a massage. My running friend (back in the day, I'd do stuff like get pie and coffee with my friends.. Now I have walking friends, running friends, hiking friends..all of Them really just friends-but it's ... Tue, 23 Feb 2016 09:38:57 EST Some Thoughts Today <img src=""> This is me at Christmas around 220 pounds.. <BR> <img src=""> Sorry it's not a great full body shot, but this is me at like 205 pounds earlier this month. I think you can tell that I am NOT horribly heavy looking. I could be thinner, but no one is calling me fat. <BR> <BR> Today I had a few interesting conversations, an... Mon, 22 Feb 2016 22:34:44 EST Do It Yourself <img src=""> <BR> This morning I am being a little lazy and just laying here drinking coffee and admiring my flowers. I am finding them extra pretty this morning. I have bought myself flowers every week since I've filed for divorce three years ago. Sometimes, rather than wait for someone to do something for you, you just got to do stuff for yourself. Sometimes the person you have to lean on, and support you, is... Mon, 22 Feb 2016 09:09:56 EST Back In My Groove <img src="">I did around forty minutes of wii fit last night. This morning, I ran four miles instead of my usual two. I'm feeling good again. Tonight I'm meeting a friend for yoga. <BR> <BR> Last night, I prepped my breakfast and lunch before I went to bed to ensure Id have enough time to run this morning. <BR> <BR> This morning I realized my golden retriever is probably good for walks, but I think I'm not ... Thu, 18 Feb 2016 09:22:21 EST Little lazy this week I was going to write a blog about how I haven't done any fitness minutes this week. I was feeling not too great about that. I had a flu the end of last week and stayed home Thursday, Friday, and slept all of Saturday. I didn't eat much those days. I didn't run today or yesterday morning. I ditched yoga last night. I told myself I'd run tonight, but it's raining. I was feeling tired... But then I remembered that I walked 8 miles on Sunday and 6 miles on Monday. I did a 20 minute walk wi... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 20:45:01 EST Positive Reinforcement In like 5 minutes I'm heading to go get a massage. It's my reward to myself for going a full month sugar free. I need to plan what I'm doing for my month two reward because we are halfway through the month. Maybe cute new running clothes, maybe I'll do a dance class (I've always wanted to try salsa or swing dancing), maybe weekend trip, maybe another massage.... Hmm I used to reward myself with dresses, but I've got like 60 dresses already... Maybe I'll go for tea at the Huntington libra... Mon, 15 Feb 2016 15:06:10 EST National singles awareness day is just around the corner I don't think my valentine is going to be in town for Valentine's Day. He's got investor meetings in another state. So I think I'm going to make Valentine's Day a Jeannie-lovefest. I owe myself a massage for being sugar free all of January, so I'm going to try go for that massage on Valentine's. I have plans to go for a long beach walk in the morning with a girlfriend. I think I'll buy myself flowers, and unless I keep a single friend company, I think I'll catch a sunset. What a perfect... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 09:36:35 EST The scale is my friend today Woo hoo! My weight is moving after a 3 week standstill. I was at a way higher than usual weight on New Years, but I've now dropped 18 pounds since then. I still have a ways to go to get back to where I like it, but this no sugar for the year seems to be working for me, I bought a new wii fit and it gets me to move my booty when I don't feel like moving my booty. I've been running pretty consistently. I'm feeling good. Without sugar the food craving are null. When things were standin... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 19:58:25 EST Dun, dun, dunnnn.... No Personal Record Well, I was hoping for under three hours for my half marathon and I finished in 3 hours 14 minutes. So I still have a goal for next time. I thought I could do it because I did 3 hours and 4 minutes last year at this event, and at the half marathon after that I did 3 hours and 49 seconds (with one port a potty stop-if I had just ran)... But the last half I did, it was record heat, and I did something like 4 hours. So I'm 45 minutes faster on this one. I'm also carrying an extra like 15 pou... Sun, 7 Feb 2016 16:42:48 EST I Can I have a half marathon in the morning. I'm hoping to finish in under 3 hours. I signed up to do the full next year. I think I can... I think I can... I think I can...(And hopefully later I'll be able to tell that I did) Sun, 7 Feb 2016 01:19:32 EST 7am It's not even 7 am and I've already ran 4 miles, did crunches, did wii hula hoop, and stretched. I'm at almost 9,000 steps. I have plans to walk with a coworker at lunch.. I'm looking forward to a good day and feeling strong. Yay for the morning work out. I love starting my day with good endorphins: Thu, 4 Feb 2016 10:00:16 EST I thought I could, so I did For New Years, I gave up sugar. When I say no sugar, I mean none of that processed stuff. So I have included breads, sauces, and anything that may have processed sugar no matter how trace of an amount it has. I even included fake sugar. I made it to the end of month one! Woo hoo, I'm 1/12th through this. I thought I could, and I did. I only went down 13 pounds this month, but I feel so much better. Im going to reward myself by buying a massage tomorrow. I knew the first month would b... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 21:33:56 EST change your thoughts, change your life I've done something that is statistically a big deal. I've lost well over a hundred pounds and kept most of it off for more than 6 years now. I don't have great will power. Im not stronger than anyone else. I'm not more capable than anyone else, but I am determined. So after decades of being super morbidly obese, what clicked? Well, self love would be the answer. I use to see weight loss as deprevation. It was something I needed to do to make myself better because there was something wr... Thu, 28 Jan 2016 09:32:07 EST Strengthening Health issues, which were resolved a year ago, made aerobic exercise less apealing for a while because I'd get a stabbing pain in my ovary and uterus every time Id run or jump around. Then after my hysterectomy, my core strength was just completely null. The first yoga class I attended after being released to workout again was so hard. Just sitting upright on the floor was hard. Lifting my legs was strenuous. So I didn't do much core work last year. I did a super easy begining yoga class... Tue, 26 Jan 2016 09:48:46 EST Weight standing still but feeling good none the less I've had a few salty meals lately and the weight has been at a standstill.. Give it time. I bet I see a big drop by midweek. I can retain water like crazy. My body feels better. It looks thinner to me. I have good energy. I'm feeling strong. <BR> I've been sugar free now 24 days. I think I need to set up a massage for the 31st to reward myself for making it through the first month. My cutie (the guy I've dated off and on this last year, whom I am totally smitten with) told me he gav... Sun, 24 Jan 2016 21:04:25 EST