GEE-KNEE's SparkPeople Blog GEE-KNEE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community New beginnings My supervisor has been doing this Whole 30 diet. It sound like clean eating at its best...just no dairy, no gluten, no sugar... I've been floundering this last month, so I'm getting ready to reel myself back in. It sounds very similar to what a friend explained the over eater anonymous has their people do. My supervisor looks fabulous. I'm thinking if I can cut sugar, why not try no gluten and dairy too. This seems like a healthy and doable plan. I had a break up this last month and ... Sat, 11 Jun 2016 11:30:06 EST Planning to plan My body is sore. I'm probably not going to do any hard core workouts for a few days, but I think in order to compensate, I need to keep my diet in check. I'm the free flowing Sagittarius. I'm not a huge planner. I like vacations where I explore.. No itinary. I have never been able to weigh and measure my food very meticulously. I'm better at eyeballing the amount and checking off the amounts I need in my head... 1 serving of oatmeal... Carb ✔️ Apple... fruit serving✔️ I did lo... Tue, 10 May 2016 09:29:19 EST My tinker bell half <img src=""> <img src=""> I did the tinker bell half today for my daughters birthday/mothers day. I didn't train very well because I had a lot of personal stress this last month. I did finish and with a descent time too( -Although I felt cruddy at the end-very cruddy) I was electrolyte deficient and dehydrated. I avoided the sports dr... Sun, 8 May 2016 18:16:08 EST Change starts with me So when I started this better health-weight loss journey back in 2008 it was purely out of the desire to be a better role model for my children. My daughter was getting chubby, and I knew change needed to start with me, the role model. I remember signing on to SP and it suggesting a goal of 60 pounds, and I laughed.. thinking, "like that's going to happen." That first year I lost like 120 pounds. Once I realized that I could, I rolled with it. It was fun. <BR> <BR> My daughter told me t... Fri, 6 May 2016 22:31:36 EST Bloom <img src="">I once pulled up a huge pile of overgrown morning glory and found this little agapanthus with a tiny little blooming flower on it. I remember looking at that flower and wondering how it bloomed in such adverse conditions. It probably never got sunlight and it was just completely covered.. and I decided I wanted to be like that agapanthus. I want to bloom wherever I am, no matter the environment. <i... Wed, 4 May 2016 22:20:30 EST Stressed Out... <img src=""> This has been a mofo of a week! I got a diagnosis for my son that explains a ton of things, but phrases like "lucky he's made it this far" and "if he stops medication, he could die" have plagued me with stress.. I love love my little guy and apparently his life is total gift. His pituitary gland is malformed, in the wrong location and missing a stem. Turns out my lazy 16 year old, who looks 12, isn'... Sun, 24 Apr 2016 14:58:53 EST just like a flock of seagulls, I Ran I just got back from spring break. I was so tired Monday that other than my 20 minute walk at lunch, I didn't get in any fitness. In fact I crashed pretty early that night. Yesterday was pretty much the same. Today I pushed myself to get out. I told myself, even if it's just a short walk, it will get you back on the routine. The funny thing is, I got out and I wanted to run, so I did. I was sick pretty much most of March.. April I'm getting it back on track. I've learned over the yea... Thu, 7 Apr 2016 09:12:23 EST I was lost... <img src=""> One day a couple years ago, while cleaning my room, I came across this old photo. I took a picture of the picture and texted it to a friend with something like "crap, I don't even recognize this as me anymore." My friend wrote back how it didn't look like me at all. I wrote her back, "I'm lost under all that fat"... And as those words were written, I just started balling. I was lost under all that f... Fri, 1 Apr 2016 23:26:10 EST Cruising through March I'm leaving for a cruise to Mexico/Catalina island on Monday. It's my first cruise. My plan is to continue to clean eat, and my friend says we are hitting the gym every morning after breakfast. I'm excited to spend my afternoon laying by a pool. I'm trying to decide if I want to take the retro red polka dot bikini or the retro cherry one piece. (Side note-back in the day when I was 300+ pounds, it would have been capri pants by the pool or avoid the pool all together). This month has... Sat, 26 Mar 2016 09:14:44 EST Life happens The last two weeks haven't been great. I had a stomach thing. I had some personal stressors. I just haven't made it out to do much exercise. I've done some, but not my usual. I've stayed consistent with no sugar for the most part, but I did have a few slices of pizza one night. I know most pizza has some processed sugar, so I fudged it a little. I also have eaten some tortilla chips, and not feeling super great about that. "Some" feels like an understatement. When you're tummy is upse... Sat, 19 Mar 2016 15:10:18 EST I Made It Two Months... No Sugar This is end of month two without sugar. I made it. I am feeling great. I am not hungry all the time. It's gotten super easy to pass things up.. things that I know will derail my goal and not make me feel good. I've lost 23 pounds so far. This sort of puts me at the weight I was stuck at most of last year before August, when I went to Italy. So another 20 would put me back at a weight that I wouldn't mind being. If I lost another 20 after that, it would me back in hottie status where a... Mon, 29 Feb 2016 08:49:17 EST Piece of Cake <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Kate Spade is using this quote on her bags and although I like the meaning, this quote rubs me wrong. I'm going to get it off my chest here and tell you why. Here is the thing, there are different types of happiness. There is the low risk and work type which usually have low pay off like the rush you get from sugar, and then there are things that require more work and/or risk that hav... Sun, 28 Feb 2016 11:06:51 EST Hello March This is turning out to be a good year (although we are only in February). I told myself I'd make it a good year and so far I have. First, by cutting out all the sugar, I'm eating very clean. This has been good for my body and my mood. I lost 18 pounds since January 1st, and Im enjoying a nice even mood. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I went to a baby shower. I was busy all morning and barely made it there on time. I was hungry, so I ate what was served, salad and lasagna. There may have been (... Sun, 28 Feb 2016 06:54:01 EST Vacation So it looks like I'm going on a cruise over spring break with a friend. This will be my first cruise. I was warned today by the friend I walk with at lunch that cruises can ruin a diet. When I went to Italy, I told myself "you're in Italy, and you may never be back.. Eat what you want". By day three I was, not to be crude, backed up. My body has aclamated to my high fiber diet. Pizza every night made my stomach ache and bloat like crazy. Nothing was moving through me. It was stuck. So I ... Wed, 24 Feb 2016 23:07:55 EST A reinforcement schedule I told myself no sugar for all of 2016 (this excludes your naturally accuring sugar in fruits and vegetables), and so I'm not eating bread, dressings, candies... I even did away with fake sugar (except for cough drops when I'm sick). So I made it past month one and I rewarded myself with a massage. My running friend (back in the day, I'd do stuff like get pie and coffee with my friends.. Now I have walking friends, running friends, hiking friends..all of Them really just friends-but it's ... Tue, 23 Feb 2016 09:38:57 EST Some Thoughts Today <img src=""> This is me at Christmas around 220 pounds.. <BR> <img src=""> Sorry it's not a great full body shot, but this is me at like 205 pounds earlier this month. I think you can tell that I am NOT horribly heavy looking. I could be thinner, but no one is calling me fat. <BR> <BR> Today I had a few interesting conversations, an... Mon, 22 Feb 2016 22:34:44 EST Do It Yourself <img src=""> <BR> This morning I am being a little lazy and just laying here drinking coffee and admiring my flowers. I am finding them extra pretty this morning. I have bought myself flowers every week since I've filed for divorce three years ago. Sometimes, rather than wait for someone to do something for you, you just got to do stuff for yourself. Sometimes the person you have to lean on, and support you, is... Mon, 22 Feb 2016 09:09:56 EST Back In My Groove <img src="">I did around forty minutes of wii fit last night. This morning, I ran four miles instead of my usual two. I'm feeling good again. Tonight I'm meeting a friend for yoga. <BR> <BR> Last night, I prepped my breakfast and lunch before I went to bed to ensure Id have enough time to run this morning. <BR> <BR> This morning I realized my golden retriever is probably good for walks, but I think I'm not ... Thu, 18 Feb 2016 09:22:21 EST Little lazy this week I was going to write a blog about how I haven't done any fitness minutes this week. I was feeling not too great about that. I had a flu the end of last week and stayed home Thursday, Friday, and slept all of Saturday. I didn't eat much those days. I didn't run today or yesterday morning. I ditched yoga last night. I told myself I'd run tonight, but it's raining. I was feeling tired... But then I remembered that I walked 8 miles on Sunday and 6 miles on Monday. I did a 20 minute walk wi... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 20:45:01 EST Positive Reinforcement In like 5 minutes I'm heading to go get a massage. It's my reward to myself for going a full month sugar free. I need to plan what I'm doing for my month two reward because we are halfway through the month. Maybe cute new running clothes, maybe I'll do a dance class (I've always wanted to try salsa or swing dancing), maybe weekend trip, maybe another massage.... Hmm I used to reward myself with dresses, but I've got like 60 dresses already... Maybe I'll go for tea at the Huntington libra... Mon, 15 Feb 2016 15:06:10 EST National singles awareness day is just around the corner I don't think my valentine is going to be in town for Valentine's Day. He's got investor meetings in another state. So I think I'm going to make Valentine's Day a Jeannie-lovefest. I owe myself a massage for being sugar free all of January, so I'm going to try go for that massage on Valentine's. I have plans to go for a long beach walk in the morning with a girlfriend. I think I'll buy myself flowers, and unless I keep a single friend company, I think I'll catch a sunset. What a perfect... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 09:36:35 EST The scale is my friend today Woo hoo! My weight is moving after a 3 week standstill. I was at a way higher than usual weight on New Years, but I've now dropped 18 pounds since then. I still have a ways to go to get back to where I like it, but this no sugar for the year seems to be working for me, I bought a new wii fit and it gets me to move my booty when I don't feel like moving my booty. I've been running pretty consistently. I'm feeling good. Without sugar the food craving are null. When things were standin... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 19:58:25 EST Dun, dun, dunnnn.... No Personal Record Well, I was hoping for under three hours for my half marathon and I finished in 3 hours 14 minutes. So I still have a goal for next time. I thought I could do it because I did 3 hours and 4 minutes last year at this event, and at the half marathon after that I did 3 hours and 49 seconds (with one port a potty stop-if I had just ran)... But the last half I did, it was record heat, and I did something like 4 hours. So I'm 45 minutes faster on this one. I'm also carrying an extra like 15 pou... Sun, 7 Feb 2016 16:42:48 EST I Can I have a half marathon in the morning. I'm hoping to finish in under 3 hours. I signed up to do the full next year. I think I can... I think I can... I think I can...(And hopefully later I'll be able to tell that I did) Sun, 7 Feb 2016 01:19:32 EST 7am It's not even 7 am and I've already ran 4 miles, did crunches, did wii hula hoop, and stretched. I'm at almost 9,000 steps. I have plans to walk with a coworker at lunch.. I'm looking forward to a good day and feeling strong. Yay for the morning work out. I love starting my day with good endorphins: Thu, 4 Feb 2016 10:00:16 EST I thought I could, so I did For New Years, I gave up sugar. When I say no sugar, I mean none of that processed stuff. So I have included breads, sauces, and anything that may have processed sugar no matter how trace of an amount it has. I even included fake sugar. I made it to the end of month one! Woo hoo, I'm 1/12th through this. I thought I could, and I did. I only went down 13 pounds this month, but I feel so much better. Im going to reward myself by buying a massage tomorrow. I knew the first month would b... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 21:33:56 EST change your thoughts, change your life I've done something that is statistically a big deal. I've lost well over a hundred pounds and kept most of it off for more than 6 years now. I don't have great will power. Im not stronger than anyone else. I'm not more capable than anyone else, but I am determined. So after decades of being super morbidly obese, what clicked? Well, self love would be the answer. I use to see weight loss as deprevation. It was something I needed to do to make myself better because there was something wr... Thu, 28 Jan 2016 09:32:07 EST Strengthening Health issues, which were resolved a year ago, made aerobic exercise less apealing for a while because I'd get a stabbing pain in my ovary and uterus every time Id run or jump around. Then after my hysterectomy, my core strength was just completely null. The first yoga class I attended after being released to workout again was so hard. Just sitting upright on the floor was hard. Lifting my legs was strenuous. So I didn't do much core work last year. I did a super easy begining yoga class... Tue, 26 Jan 2016 09:48:46 EST Weight standing still but feeling good none the less I've had a few salty meals lately and the weight has been at a standstill.. Give it time. I bet I see a big drop by midweek. I can retain water like crazy. My body feels better. It looks thinner to me. I have good energy. I'm feeling strong. <BR> I've been sugar free now 24 days. I think I need to set up a massage for the 31st to reward myself for making it through the first month. My cutie (the guy I've dated off and on this last year, whom I am totally smitten with) told me he gav... Sun, 24 Jan 2016 21:04:25 EST And I'm still moving I did my two miles this morning. I'm not running the whole thing yet, but I'm shaping it. It will be there soon. Tonight is yoga. I've been doing lots of wii fit hula hoop and my core is feeling stronger. Today is 19 days sugar free. I think at the end of the month, I'm buying myself a massage to celebrate 1/12 of my year without sugar completion. Over the three day weekend, I did 29 miles... And my healthy snowball continues to grow. In other areas of my life, things are not looking... Tue, 19 Jan 2016 09:49:10 EST Celebrating little milestones <img src="">Still... Yay! 209... It's still a bigger number than I'd like to see, but it feels better than that 222.2 (my post New Years weight). 200 is just around the corner and it's the 190s after that. I did 12 miles this morning. I am hoping I can pull off a decent time for my half marathon that is coming up in February ... And woo hoo... Two cousins told me they'd do a full with me next year. i think th... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 15:20:58 EST quick update I've had no sugar since 2015 and it feels easier every day. My mood feels more up and stable since I quit sugar. My energy is up. My food cravings in general are down. Last night, I had drinks with coworkers and friends... Yes, I attended two happy hours last night. I drank vodka soda water, and I attempted to eat healthy... I wasn't perfect, but not terrible... No sugar This morning I walked like 13 miles on the beach with a friend, then I did a little wii fit. It was perfect weather... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 01:49:16 EST Rolling forward Tonight I went to yoga, but no running this morning. I'm still going in the right direction. I wasn't as tight as last week. Next week will even be better. 12 days sugar free... Other an maybe two handfuls of salted nuts, my diet was great. Those peanuts won't kill me... I just need to run them off in the morning,, Wed, 13 Jan 2016 00:32:10 EST Still moving I got up. I just intending to run the block, like my initial get back in the groove plan. I went for the 2 miles instead. I didn't run the whole thing, but a good part of it. Then I did 10 minutes of wii fit hula hoop... And im 11 days sugar free... And the snow ball is growing :) happy Monday! Mon, 11 Jan 2016 09:33:23 EST I'm up and running I got my wii fit u up and running. This was such a big part of my routine when I initially lost the 183 pounds. Every morning Id get up and take a body test. The hula hoop is my favorite, but it was slightly challenging. I have no core strength since my hysterectomy, so maybe this is a good way to build it back up. I realize I need new remotes to play all the games but I used it for a good hour. Today I also walked like 6 miles. Tomorrow I'm getting up at 5:00 and running the block a... Sun, 10 Jan 2016 21:10:18 EST Its moving Yesterday I passed up cake.. "No thank you cake"... I passed up chocolate. "No thank you chocolate".. And it didn't really feel that hard to do. I think the sugar may be out of my system. I am down from a crazy high of 222.2 to 213 (these are both higher number then I've seen in years), but I still feel bloated. So I might have another big drop next week. Next week, Im going to do more cardio. Sat, 9 Jan 2016 14:31:46 EST 6am and Already Feeling a Sense of Acomplishment I use to run two miles, or more, nearly every morning. Then my kids started an earlier start school high school, needed reminders to wake up, needed rides, and my workout time became inconsistent. I have not gone out early morning to run in months, I think. I was having hard time envisioning myself doing it in my current state. My good friend suggested that I just get up, get dressed, and walk around the block. In ABA (I'm a behaviorist by day) we call this "shaping". We start with the ... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 09:14:10 EST Finding My Groove Starting out is always the hardest, wether it be starting a new job or being a first time mom. The same is true with fitness and food plans. I've slacked enough during the end of last year that I sort of feel like I am starting new. I am not back at the beginning, but I veered off course long enough that it's going to take me some time to find my groove again and get back on course. I've been sticking to my clean, no sugar diet this week, and I am actually feeling good about that. I walk... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 08:44:55 EST Doing well Day four sugar free is going well. I'm the little engine that can, so I believe can do this a full year. I'm sweet enough without added sugar. I actually feel really good. My mood feels more stable and my energy is good. The idea that I'm not going to let myself get derailed by a sugar binge is a positive one. I didn't get all my stuff done yesterday, so I'm continuing the list after work. Ugh! I have to go back to work. Actually I might be going to yoga tonight... If yoga, then I'll... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 08:42:31 EST Goals for my day Ive been on winter break the last two weeks. It's a perk to working in education. I didn't do everything over the break that I intended, but I got a few things done. Today I'm going to clean my room. It's very messy, but last year I organized my furniture so that I had floor space to do yoga... But that space is full of clutter currently. I'm going to clear it out. After that area is clear, I'm hooking up my new wii u and wii fit to my rarely used TV in my room and I'm finding all t... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 13:15:20 EST Holy Cow! Ugh! So I've been doing good since the new year, but December I was on a diet of wine and chocolate with lots of meals out and not so much fitness. Today I got real and stepped on the scale! Yikes! It said 222... I haven't seen that number in years! Now, I retain water very easily, so I'm checking it again in a few days and expecting a much smaller number just due to loss of fluid retention from salty New Year's Eve dining (seriously, I can gain 10+ pounds from eating salty foods and magica... Sat, 2 Jan 2016 22:14:05 EST I'm sweet enough without it Day 1 of my resolution of no sugar for a year went alright. I've been weening myself off it for a week, so no huge food cravings or headaches. I did mess up a little. I had some leftover spinach dip from New Years. I ate a few bites before looking at the ingredients. There it was "high fructose corn syrup" in my feta, spinach, dill dip... Ugh! It's in everything!! It's not surprising that we have an obesity epidemic. I have plans to go walking on the beach with a friend in an hour, the... Sat, 2 Jan 2016 10:57:53 EST Welcome 2016... Bring on the inner peace <img src="">I like New Years, it's the reminder that today is a new day and I can make it what I want. Every moment really is ours to shape our lives, but this one just stands out. Today I am giving up sugar for a year. Today I'm letting go of things that aren't working for me. Sugar being one of them, although not the only one. I'm not indulging. Im tired of the yoyoing. Sugar is not my friend. I'm much ha... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 15:45:04 EST Hello, my name is... Hello, my name is Jeannie and I'm a sugar junkie. So I've been on a sugar binge for over a week now... I'm feeling low energy. I'm feeling blue. It started on Halloween. I've eaten a ton of candy. It's going to stop today! I swear the first week is always the hardest, but I've done it before and I can do it again. I will have cravings. I will have withdrawals. I will Have determination and strength. I will be sugar free.. I'm sweet enough without it Sat, 7 Nov 2015 19:27:03 EST TGIF I am going to socialize this weekend a lot, but that means temptation. I want to endulge in moderation. I don't want to find myself in a sugar haze passed on the couch with wrappers all around me like the sugar junkie I can be. Tonight I'm going to stock up on the yummy healthy food, so when I go to my friends to help pass out candy and drink a few vodka sodas, I am surrounded by natural yummy food.. I'll get berries and salad. Some days a crate of berries is more fulfilling than candy f... Fri, 30 Oct 2015 08:17:58 EST long lost teddy bear I'm about to write about something very personal, and I'm probably going to delete this, maybe even right after I post it. My son just came in the living room with my childhood teddy bear and said, "mom isn't this yours". I slept with that bear for years, but the thoughts that flooded my head tonight, when I just saw it, were of the night I put him in a drawer. I was 16 and a very naive 16 year old. I had just gone on a date where I said "no", but was then over powered. I came home feeli... Wed, 28 Oct 2015 01:01:30 EST This weeks thoughts The last week wasn't my best week ever. I had the flu. One of my kids was cited months ago for alcohol possession and we had a court date for that. Dates were canceled. There were issues at work. My mood was just bleak and I felt scatterbrained. On Friday, I took my daughter to dinner where she gave me a lector about how I needed to be a strong independent woman and just get my stuff together. My son, when I said I felt blue, said "grattitude, tell me the three good things that happene... Sat, 24 Oct 2015 19:16:08 EST gratitude My friend gave me this book called "The Five Minute Journal". You start out in the morning writing what you're grateful for. The next spot is "what would make today great". Last is a daily affirmation. At night you reflect on 3 amazing things that happened today and what could have made the day great. Now I've read studies that say people who practice gratitude tend to be less depressed than people who don't. I've been taking a few moments of gratitude every night for years now. In lif... Sat, 17 Oct 2015 14:24:35 EST Crawling to the finish line Sunday I ran a half marathon... Well, it was more a crawl, than a run. I completed a Half marathon on Sunday. It was like 97 degrees. A vast amount of it was on the beach, facing the sun, with no shade, no breeze... No fun! It was brutal. Sweat dripping in my eyes. My feet swelling from the heat. It was the worst time I've ever done... And yet I'm glad I did it. I spent time with friends burning calories, making memories... And I completed the last of three halves needed for a nifty c... Mon, 12 Oct 2015 23:36:39 EST Celebrating Gains... My weight loss journey is really more of a pursuit of health and happiness journey. Sometimes I focus on the numbers... That number on the tag of my pants, the one on that little box I keep stepping on, but it's not so much about the number. It's about quality of life. It's about longevity. It's about being able to climb a mountain to see a beautiful view or letting go of stress with an amazing run. It's about being able to fit in a plane to travel internationally and walking all day sig... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 10:11:37 EST