FYRPIXI's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=FYRPIXI FYRPIXI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ October 13, 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5797347 I haven't posted in a while. I'm staying busy lately. It seems I'm always working on something. When I'm not at the preschool, I'm thinking about projects for my class and taking care of my boys. When I'm not taking care of the boys, I'm working around the house. And now it's hockey season and Halloween is quickly approaching so I'm working on costumes. I'm busy, but I like it. I'm trying to take better care if myself. Because I'm staying busy, I'm having less trouble sleeping. I am eating be... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 10:08:33 EST Missing : 1 Pedometer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772760 I managed to lose my pedometer this weekend. I have no idea what I did with it. I've checked all of the clothes I've worn, and every surface of my house. Hopefully it will magically appear some day soon. It's really a bummer though. I like being able to check it through the day and see where I am. It lets me know if I need to pace around the house a bit. Drives my poor husband crazy. <BR> <BR> Work is going pretty good. We meet our students tomorrow and our first class is Tuesday. The only p... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 16:51:51 EST first day of work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767545 I. Am. So. Tired. <BR> Like fall into bed while the sun is still up tired. I got up at 5, for no real reason other than my nerves were getting to me and not letting me sleep. I got my day started and got the boys going. I walked L to school, and because there's about an hour and a half from the time I drop him off and when I needed to be at the preschool, I went home (school is halfway between school and church), and then turned around and went to church. We got to know everyone a little and ... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 17:50:29 EST first day of school http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766646 I dropped my oldest off at 2nd grade today. The house is so quiet with just me and N. N and I start pre school tomorrow. I'm excited and nervous. Mostly nervous to leave N with someone I don't know. But I know it will be OK. <BR> I'm spending the day cleaning the house. I think it will help to have things done so I don't have to worry about too much this week. Mon, 25 Aug 2014 10:15:56 EST back at it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761547 No walk today. Woke up to a nice storm and wasn't willing to walk in the downpour. So I grabbed Jillian Michaels Cardio Kick boxing. Whew! That kicked my butt. 25 minutes of non stop moving. I'm so glad I did it. <BR> Hubs has been steadily losing weight the last few weeks and I'm so happy for him. Having him on the journey too makes things a little easier. <BR> I had told myself that I would lose 20 pounds before I turn 30. I have 97 days left, and have only lost 1 pound. I need to start re... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 17:06:36 EST blargh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761030 I'm really nervous about starting this job. OK, let's be honest, I'm more nervous about walking to and from work, with N. It makes my anxiety flare up thinking about it. I'm not really worried about being around littles since it's something I enjoy. But I do worry about being an aide and being helpful. I don't want to mess up. The week I start, well we since N will start pre k that day too, L will return to school. I'm trying to figure out how to schedule everything so everything gets done an... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 20:32:02 EST Slacking Off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760408 I haven't done much the last few days. I just don't wanna. I've been stressed with the changes that are about to happen around here. I mean, I'm going to have a job and I haven't held a title other than "Mama" in 8 years. That's a bit scary. Even though I'm just working in a daycare environment, it's nerve wracking. I'm still trying to figure it all out so that everyone gets where they need to be on time. <BR> <BR> It's not an excuse though, and I need to get back on the horse and suck it u... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 16:44:31 EST I Got a Job! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758924 Short walk this morning (little people with little bladders), and again no yoga last night. But I did get L a backpack and lunchbox for school, and walked around the store getting ideas for his birthday. <BR> <BR> So I interviewed for a position at our church's pre-k program a few weeks ago, and found out today that I got a teacher's aide spot! I'm so excited! Not only does it mean a little extra money, which is of course great since we are trying to increase our savings for a down payment ... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 11:39:18 EST 8/12/2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758170 No yoga last night. Hubs got home late from work and after dinner and putting the boys to bed, we were both worn out. Mondays. So tonight we will double up to get back on track. I did take the boys and pup to the park this morning for a fast walk. I only got a mile in before we had to head home. The boys had friends coming over (I don't know about other moms, but I get so much stuff done when friends come over!). <BR> <BR> I gained a pound over the last few days. My portions are off (darn H... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 10:08:27 EST Cleaning Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757638 I finished off last night with 2 yoga videos, and some body weight exercises (squats, push ups, crunches, planks), and finished off with some stretching. I'm a little sore today, but I know it's because I did something for my body. I didn't walk pup today. Hubs went to work early and I needed to go to school to register my oldest. Since I didn't want to listen to them complain about taking 2 walks, we just walked up to school to complete registration and back. Sadly, pup is full of crazy ener... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 14:47:27 EST Today Has Been Kind of Great http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756960 My morning kicked off with a two mile walk with pup and no kids. Just the two of us and Pandora. We were able to go further than we can with the boys and much faster. And let's face it, a workout is easier with good music. I got to hang out with an awesome group of two year olds at church. They had me cracking up. Then home for lunch. Leftovers from dinner that Hubs made for me. I went to bed early last night and didn't eat dinner. I just wasn't hungry. But my appetite is back today. The boys... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 15:15:27 EST August is Hot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755840 It's 103 outside right now. Please excuse me while I make like a vampire and stay way from the windows. <BR> <BR> I only had a short walk this morning thanks to our cat stalking us (we have an indoor/outdoor car, who prefers to be out more than in, we got a new pup last month and the cat won't come within 20 feet of her, and pup just wants to play, so when we go for walks, our cat walks behind us and gets pup riled up and makes for a sucky walk, but a great arm workout) (please don't leave ... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 15:17:46 EST August is Hot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755839 It's 103 outside right now. Please excuse me while I make like a vampire and stay way from the windows. <BR> <BR> I only had a short walk this morning thanks to our cat stalking us (we have an indoor/outdoor car, who prefers to be out more than in, we got a new pup last month and the cat won't come within 20 feet of her, and pup just wants to play, so when we go for walks, our cat walks behind us and gets pup riled up and makes for a sucky walk, but a great arm workout) (please don't leave ... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 15:17:32 EST Yoga! It Really is a Workout! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755218 Hubs and I embarked on a 30 day yoga challenge a few days ago. Each day is a new video, and they last anywhere from 10 to 15 minutes. I missed Tuesday night (day 3), so yesterday I doubled up and did days 3 and 4. I am feeling it today! It was mostly ab focused and it was hard to get through, but I did it! And the boys and pup and I took a good walk this morning that ended with pup very tired, Bear (7) hungry, and Bug (4) screaming because he had fallen and scraped his hand, like 5 blocks fro... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 15:42:00 EST Stupid Chips http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754581 After a rough night last night (I had a pain in my rib that just wouldn't go away, kids wouldn't go to sleep, Hubs and I got into it) I broke my good food streak and had some chips. Ok, like half a bag of chips. The big bag. And a bottle of my favorite tea. I now feel very tired and unmotivated. It's all starting to make a lot of sense to me. I have a feeling I will be looking up some nutrition books at the library this weekend. <BR> <BR> Has anyone lese noticed a difference in how they feel... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 18:08:52 EST Normal on the Outside, Crazy on the Inside http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753601 So, Hubs left for his trip last Sunday. Saturday night I had a panic attack and started having some pain in my left arm. <BR> <BR> Voice in Head : You are probably having a heart attack. That pain? It's your heart. Your going to have a heart attack and die while he is gone and the kids will be in the house by themselves and they won't be able to call anyone since your cell phone dies every hour. You're going to die, and then it will either cause the boys to die or it will cause them sever m... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 12:01:56 EST 20 Before 30 - Gearing Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744599 I'm so super excited about my challenge. Tomorrow I go grocery shopping for the week and I'm looking forward to picking healthy options for myself and my family.I still haven't figure out an exercise plan though. I love strength, but I'm not a big fan of cardio unless it's something kick boxing or kenpo related. I feel so strong when I do them. Wed, 23 Jul 2014 00:30:02 EST 20 Before 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743819 In 4 days, I will be starting a challenge. On that day, I will have 120 days until my 30th birthday.I want to lose 20 pounds before I turn 30. It's going to be hard and there will be ups and downs, but I think I can do it. Part of this challenge is for me, and part is for my husband. If I am healthier, I will eat healthier, and so will he. I'm so excited! Mon, 21 Jul 2014 23:03:12 EST April 24, 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5679777 I am so sore. I know now why bodybuilders move the way they do. I thought it was because of how big their muscles were, but now I know its because they are still sore from their workout! My workout today wasn't overly hard, but since I'm so sore from yesterday (and the day before) it was difficult. But I'm going to keep pushing. I have a day off soon, and I'm so looking forward to it. Tonight, I'm giving myself the night off. I got the kids in bed early, and km going to lay in bed and read an... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 20:58:37 EST April 23, 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678909 Instead of the workout I dreaded, today I tried P90X3 MMX for cardio. Oh. My. Goodness! That was so intense. I had to modify some of the moves and didn't do one set at all! It was only 30 minutes long, but felt like an hour. I loved the P90X Kenpo video (made me feel like Buffy), but this is a whole new beast. I'm going to keep trying it, and one day, I will do the whole thing. <BR> <BR> Day 4 of 90 Wed, 23 Apr 2014 18:45:08 EST April 22, 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678280 Work out number 2 is done for the week! I'm so proud of me for putting in the time. I was much less hungry today, thank goodness. Thursday I'm hitting the grocery store for some healthy meal ingredients. I'm dreading tomorrow's work out. I know it's hard. I've tried it before and couldn't make it through, but I'm going to get as far as I can and hope I make it through! <BR> <BR> Day 3 of 90 Tue, 22 Apr 2014 22:57:33 EST April 21, 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677175 Easter brought out a new me. I worked out for the first time in months. I went to church for the first time in weeks. My husband quit his second job, because he was hired by a new company, that will hopefully pay more. <BR> Last night I went on a huge binge. Nothing I ate seemed to be enough. After I worked out, I ate even more. I was starving! I ate so much junk, trying to get that need for sweets to go away. Hopefully the hunger after a workout goes away or I'm just going to eat those cal... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 14:58:14 EST April 6/7, 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666141 OK, I have a plan. Each week, I'm going to set a goal. It may be little or big, depending on my week ahead. I want to go to Comic Con in May. I know I can't lose a lot of weight in a month, but my goal is 5 pounds. I would like to weight 145 pounds this time next month. <BR> <BR> My first goal for the week is to drink only water and milk. No soda, juice, tea, or coffee. <BR> My second goal for the week is to work out twice this week. Each workout will last at least 30 minutes. <BR> My third ... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 01:13:43 EST April 5, 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665138 I'm terrible at trying to be healthy. Somehow, I keep buying soda and eating crappy food. I continue to not exercise. I get angry at myself, and do nothing about it. I know that I'm just making myself sick, but even though I know that, its like I don't care, even though I do. I don't like looking in the mirror and not liking what I see. I don't like having a closet full of clothes and not wearing them. I don't want to be overweight when I turn 30 later this year. I'm giving myself until Novem... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 15:53:16 EST Stressed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625123 It's been about 20 days since I last exercised. I'm really not good at this. Between lack of working out, and bingeing on crappy food, I'm not feeling too great about myself. My house is an absolute mess because I'm too lazy to do anything about it. I'm a bit down and a bit stressed. We were told that we have until the end of the year to buy the house we live in or find some where else to live. Our credit isn't great, and we have hardly anything in our savings. Instead of buckling down, I've ... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 22:07:45 EST Not Giving Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5606611 I missed a few days of exercise. Normally, I would do this and then not work out for weeks (or months), because let's face it, sometimes it's nice to move around without that workout pain. But tonight I jumped right back in to my Chalean Extreme videos and worked out while everyone is in bed. Tomorrow is a rest day according to the schedule, but I will probably go ahead and work out after having so many days off. <BR> <BR> Hubs took the week off this week. He is still working his night job, ... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 21:47:40 EST Clutter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5605776 I can't seem to concentrate today, so I'm working on getting some of the clutter out of the house. I hate clutter, but I tend to put things down and forget about them until I have a pile of stuff. I was hoping to be in bed by now, but my sheets are in the dryer, and it's a little older, and takes forever to dry. So I"m cleaning up the living room (and typing) to keep myself awake. Every where I look there is clutter and it's making me crazy. I think a big part of my lack of concentration toda... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 00:14:01 EST Speed Bump http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5604868 I had planned on working out yesterday. Hubs had been running a fever for two days, and yesterday it was 102, so I sent him to urgent care. He was there for over 6 hours, with a diagnoses of an unknown infection. They are concerned with his white blood cell count (which can of course be high due to infection, but they couldn't find any, so the fear is cancer, especially since he has had it before). He has to go back for another test next week to see if the antibiotics are bringing it back to ... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 23:53:05 EST I'm Doing It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5603494 Today will be my 4th workout of the week. I'm hating them (but in a good way)! The first two days were strength, and I love strength. I love pushing myself. But last night was a "recovery." Someone lied. It was cardio and light strength. I thought I was going to die. I didn't finish the workout but did get more than halfway through. Instead of being upset, I'm proud of myself. It was a hard workout! I thought I was going to throw up. This will be the first time I've completed a whole week's w... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 14:57:18 EST And I'm Back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5600054 Let's face it, I really suck at being healthy. I would rather hang out onthe couch than do something else. I'm noticing that my bad health habits are also causing bad money hbits. I dipped into my saving this week just so I could get fast food. How completely nuts is that? I'm totally broke (from eating out), so let's just pull money from my vacation fund so I can be unhealthy and poor. So damn stupid! <BR> <BR> So we are going to try again. Not only do I want to be healthy and eat things in... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 12:11:39 EST one of these days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5487244 I still havent exercised. See a trend? Im just being lazy, theres no excuse. I have been on my feet more. I painted a scarecrow for our door, and am working on making the boys costumes. I have a strength workout, I just havent done it. Mon, 16 Sep 2013 12:40:48 EST getting better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5485392 Still no real exercise, but i did track my food yesterday. I went over in calories, but was proud that I tracked. Baby steps! Sat, 14 Sep 2013 13:01:00 EST getting nothing done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484350 Ive been binge eating this week. Ive been stressed after a not so nice letter from my mom and snags in costume making. Ive been craving anything full of carbs and sugar. Starting today, im giving up soda again and only drinking tea and water. I will track my meals today. I set a system of alarms on my phone to go off through out the day. If I can get the boys on a schedule and to sleep on time, I can work out. Fri, 13 Sep 2013 08:15:22 EST chips http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5482740 I was doing pretty good yesterday. That is until Hubs brought chips home. And then I ate half the bag. Fail. Then things started to snowball and I threw in soda and cookies. Wed, 11 Sep 2013 12:59:24 EST slow start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5481609 Still no workout to be had. I couldnt get the kids to sleep last night, so I didnt workout. But i did do a decent job with food yesterday. Made pretty good choices (probably because we have no sweets or chips in the house), but did overeat a bit. Tue, 10 Sep 2013 12:00:14 EST My Name is Amanda, and I'm a Quitter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5479737 There, I said it. I've never once stuck to my fitness and weight loss goals. I'm done. I'm done being someone I don't like. It's not complicated. People lose weight every day. So why not me? What is it about me that makes me not stick to a program? I understand missing a day here and there when things get busy, but I don't just miss a day. One days leads to weeks, which leads to months. And it's not just working out, once I miss a workout, I use it as a free for all. I will eat everything in ... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 18:03:39 EST February 16, 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5252513 20 days until we leave for our honeymoon. Can you say strict diet? I'm still no where near where I wanted to be. Last week I tried to fight off a cold, and last night it hit me really hard. Hopefully I can keep up my exercise and just barrel through it. I took yesterday off since I could feel myself getting sicker (overly tired, slightly dizzy, a little nauseous), so today I'm just going to bust through it and take it easy the rest of the day (yeah right, three day weekend and we volunteered ... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 10:59:20 EST January 5, 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5191520 Day two of p90x is done! I hurt! I'm probably going to take a walk later to help with some of the soreness. Today was cardio and i was tired by the end of it. Sat, 5 Jan 2013 12:11:28 EST January 4, 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5190470 SO, my whole "journey to a better me" thing hasn't gone well. Too many good foods during the holidays and being so busy that no one wanted to cook, has resulted in weight gain and no exercise. Last week I started p90x for who knows how many times now, did two days, and took a day off because I was really sore. And then didn't start again. So I started again today, and added TurboJam to it. I am sore. I am tired. But it's about damn time I stick with it. <BR> <BR> I made many resolutions thi... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 18:32:02 EST November 21, 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5142718 Starting tomorrow, I'm going on a journey. I'm not going anywhere, but instead I will be be starting an experiment. Can I go one year being as healthy as possible? Why tomorrow? It's my 28th birthday. Seems like a good time to start right? Wrong! Who is dumb enough to try and get healthy during the holiday season? To start on Thanksgiving? Did I mention I'm in charge of Christmas cookies? I don't just make one kind, I make about 15! But I know it's time. I want to be healthy before I turn 30,... Wed, 21 Nov 2012 15:47:03 EST October 18, 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5103824 This week has not been great. Too much fast food. Too little working out. But even though I had many interruptions, I managed to get in 40 minutes of TurboJam today. Very excited. I got most of the moves down on the second try and made it through the entire workout without stopping, but then, I did have a little one who wouldn't lay down for nap and a dog who was driving me crazy. I had to pause every 5 minutes to deal with something. Unfortunately I hate getting up early, and I don't want to... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 13:45:59 EST October 7, 2012 (Sunday Goal Setting) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5089905 Here were last weeks's goals <BR> <BR> Keep to my work out schedule <BR> Keep up with my cleaning schedule <BR> Healthy foods (1 cheat day) <BR> <BR> Goals for October: <BR> Exercise! <BR> Watch portions and sweets <BR> Clean out the house for fall <BR> <BR> I kept up with my workout schedule until Thursday. This cold or whatever it is, is lasting forever. I'm finding it hard to workout while coughing the whole time. My cleaning schedule, yeah, not even going to go there. I had abou... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 11:24:05 EST October 1, 2012 (Hello October!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5082710 Had a great day. Hubby and I had a movie date and saw Pitch Perfect. It was really good. I got all dressed up and everything. Got up and did Turbo Sculpt this morning. Feeling pretty sore right now. <BR> <BR> Goals for this week: <BR> <BR> Keep to my work out schedule <BR> Keep up with my cleaning schedule <BR> Healthy foods (1 cheat day) <BR> <BR> Goals for October: <BR> Exercise! <BR> Watch portions and sweets <BR> Clean out the house for fall <BR> Mon, 1 Oct 2012 19:20:58 EST September 30, 2012 (I Hate TurboJam) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5080372 I made a promise to myself. I'm going to workout out. I'm going to lose weight. I'm going to finally be able to wear the cute fall clothes I have. Ok, that's more than one promise. I'm really doing it this time. I've figured out the hows, and I'll be posting motivational sayings throughout the house. I've taken a before picture I can look at when I don;t want to work out. October is going to be my month. Not only am I cleaning up my body, but I'm also cleaning out my house. I have a plan for ... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 09:50:37 EST September 25, 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5074152 Not doing so good with the exercise. Still walking to and from school each day, and I've figured out how to add some strength in to my day (randomly, lol, I do a few sets of whatever I can while doing other things), I just have to work on getting more cardio. Last week L turned 6! We went to an arcade type place where I chased N all around. They had a pizza/salad/pasta buffet, where I had a nice big salad. We played laser tag, and rode bumper cars. It was an absolute blast. L is having a grea... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 09:26:31 EST September 17, 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5063244 Saw the cardiologist this morning and he is letting me exercise! I have to watch for symptoms to return, but he doesn't hink it will be a problem. The murmur is still there so he has scheduled an echo for four weeks from now. Hubby and I are finally thinking similar after a really nasty fast food binge this weekend. After feeling really sick we are both more commited than ever before. I'm going to try and get in a workout tonight, and stating tomorrow I'm going to get up a little before I ha... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 12:59:35 EST September 10, 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5052285 Made an appointment for the cardiologist, but can't get in until the 17th. I hate waiting. I think the worst part is not being able to work out. With the weather changing, I really want to go out and walk or put in a video. I have tons of jeans that I can't wear because they are too small. Some I'm close to getting into and others are still a bit off. Unfortunately this lack of exercise is causing me to stay fairly steady on the scale, but gain inches. <BR> <BR> Hubby and I celebrated our 6... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 10:09:20 EST September 5, 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5045238 I'm really missing working out. It's hard to watch Hubby go to the gym every day and see the changes in him. I really wanted to reach my first big goal by the 19th (get back to my oldest son's pre baby weight by his birthday). I'm so close! About three pounds away. I want to get there and steady (or of course lose more and get closer to my final goal). It's frustrating. I've been really thinking about just exercising any way, but I don't want to do any damage until we find out more. <BR> <BR... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 09:21:59 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5037784 I saw my doctor on Monday. She ran another EKG, and confirmed the murmer and has referred me to a cardiologist for an echo. Until then, I'm not allowed to do any exercise. Nothing that will get my heart rate up, just to be safe. Little do they know that I'm walking two miles a day. It's not a lot, and it has nothing to do with me, but I have to do it because L started school this week. We live half a mile away, so I walk him to and from. It gives us extra bonding time and I actually get to hu... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 17:26:23 EST August 20, 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5023921 Went to urgent care today. They couldn't figure out why I'm having the lightheadedness. Gave me motion sickness pills and an exercise to do. When the doctor listened to my heart, he heard a murmur, so he ordered an EKG, which showed abnormalities. Said not to worry about it for now unless I have chest pains and to follow up with my primary doctor. Tomorrow I'm going to try to take the medicine and maybe get in my first workout in over a week. Tomorrow the boys have a dentist appointment and t... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 20:09:59 EST