FUNKIBREWSTR's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=FUNKIBREWSTR FUNKIBREWSTR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ My name is Lyndsay and I "Self-Sabotage".. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5449307 So am I the only person who has to actually sit myself down and ask myself if I actually want something? I know that I want to lose weight, and I know what it takes to make it happen, but at the same time I just want it to come easy. I know that it will probably never be anything that comes easy and of course you have to work for it, but sometimes I actually have to ask myself if I really want it. My doctor wants me to start looking into bariatric surgery and I’m really not looking forward to... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 21:55:20 EST Baby Steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432475 I really want to make so much in my life change. And I can either make it happen or watch myself fail. Failure hurts so much. I don't want failing to be an option. I'm tired of letting myself down. So what I'm going to do is <em>227</em> . STOP letting myself down. STOP standing in my own way. STOP quitting in the middle of progress and allowing myself to fall back into the place I always land. I want to change for good. I want to be able to look back at myself on July 24th 2014 and say my go... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 22:52:03 EST My friends vs My struggle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5431191 I have pretty much been the overweight friend for about as long as I can remember. I have never been more than the fat one of the group. At some point, I started making friends with other people who were big like me so that I could talk to someone about how I feel. About how I want to lose weight and about how I wish I could change my body. This might sound weird, but my slimmer friends don't understand my struggle. When I feel proud of myself for getting 5 miles in an hour on the elliptical,... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 23:26:39 EST I don't know how to juggle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5431178 I'm young. I always need to remind myself that I'm only 23. I have such high expectations for myself, and I of course expect to see every change that I want to make as soon as I start trying. Life clearly doesn't work like that, but I still have a hard time accepting it. I want to eat healthier, I want to feel like I need to work out in order for my day to feel complete. I want to do better in school, I want to keep the job that I currently have and move up when given the chance. I want to be... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 23:18:46 EST What have you done right this week? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5423530 This week the only thing I've done right so far is make sure to get my squats and crunches in before going to bed. I want to see results but I haven't been eating right lately. It doesn't help that I'm not in control of the groceries, but I need to get myself on board and together. Tue, 16 Jul 2013 22:11:55 EST