FRENCHPRINCESSE's SparkPeople Blog FRENCHPRINCESSE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Surrounded by New-ness! Yes, I know I was gone for a very long time. A year to be precise... <BR> I had back surgery in March 2011 and pretty much vanished afterwards. I missed my SP friends, but recovery kept me away from the computer and things slowly faded. <BR> <em>2</em> <BR> <BR> Fast-forward to this fall, 6 months post-op. I was told by a friend about a challenge after seeing her and barely recognising her (she had lost 60 pounds in just over 3 months!). I decided to give it a try, knowing that I was 150 ... Sun, 18 Mar 2012 00:11:01 EST Food Panic and the Summer WonderLand My Summer Wonderland was going so well! After a Spring that felt more like fall, things are turning around. The weather is warmer and we finally have time to peak outside without getting rained on daily... <BR> <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> But things couldn't stay that simple, no! I just found out I MIGHT have a celiac-related problem. Apparently I fit all the criteria, or most of it, so I need to give a try to a gluten and lactose - free diet for a month and a bit. I also have to reduce my sugar... Mon, 20 Jun 2011 00:02:02 EST MIA Me is Back in Action! I have been MIA for almost a month and a half. Will I get forgiven? Are my Spark friends still here? (I have to say I dearly missed a few of you) <BR> <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> So - why have I been MIA for so long, when I was so good at showing up?? <BR> Well, it all started with laptop problems... After a few weeks of geeking it out and fixing all the issues I had, I had lost my SP habit. The weather was humid and the pressure low and my back a real pain. But the main reason I've been away i... Thu, 16 Jun 2011 02:56:47 EST Another step forward. I will be taking a new 'step forward' in my rehabilitation as of tomorrow. I will be adding two mild exercises that I will repeat 4 times a day for the week. The first is a stability stretch: you go down on all fours, lift one hand, and lift the opposite leg. This will help strengthen and stabilise my core. The second is a laying hamstring/hip stretch. <BR> <em>417</em> <BR> <BR> I will also continue to walk everyday: I walk about a half hour every day and have better days than others. My ... Tue, 12 Apr 2011 04:08:26 EST Getting "Back" Up :) One Month Post-Op Ah! Tomorrow will be the 1-month post-surgery mark. <BR> <em>411</em> <BR> <BR> I can still remember the week post-op I spent in the Hospital and how worried I was. Something was wrong and the MDs weren't sure whether I was going to have permanent damage or if it was temporary. I was in denial, telling myself nothing was wrong and that they were just being careful... And I am really happy to have been right!! <BR> <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> Fast-forward to today. To celebrate, I'm going on ... Fri, 1 Apr 2011 15:20:23 EST One step at a time I have been pretty consistent with the things I need to do and actually have to be very mindful of everything I do so that I don't end up pushing myself and doing too much... <BR> <em>230</em> <BR> <BR> But through this I am learning to know myself better and I am looking forward to the fresh start on life. From here on, I still have a lot of hard work to do (I still have trouble sitting down in a chair more more than 20 min), but I know that I can do it! <BR> <em>306</em> <BR> <BR> I r... Sat, 19 Mar 2011 21:12:54 EST Getting my life back! I started my 'exercise' today and it's really to say that 10 minutes of walking (yes, I did the full 10!) is a real workout right now. Lol. I even broke a sweat 2 minutes in. But it gave me the feeling that I'm on the road to getting my life back. <BR> <em>311</em> <BR> <BR> I have to admit that I do feel a lot more pain after this strenuous (not) walk. I was very careful not to overdo it and even went in going for 5 minutes and telling myself I'd keep on going if I was able to. But it wen... Mon, 14 Mar 2011 22:25:54 EST Back and Sparking!! So I posted an entry when I left the Hospital. Since then things have been very stationary. <BR> <BR> I had to go back to the Hospital a few days ago for a checkup as they had a worry about my incision. When I left the Hospital, I was brought home on a stretcher. This time, I went by car. It was hard to get in and out and we had to recline the seat and add a pillow. But even then - every bump in the road was hell. I was in so much pain when I got there and I had to get back!!! <BR> Well it ... Sun, 13 Mar 2011 23:52:16 EST One week in the Hospital... and the results. As you know, I came to the Hospital on Tuesday March 2nd for a lower back surgery scheduled in the afternoon. Unfortunately, the case before me had complications and I was bumped. I was really disappointed since it meant I would go home, wait at least a week for a call to have my surgery rescheduled and get the surgery a month later... or more! <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I was chatting with a resident while I waited in the OR (yes, I had made it to the door of the surgery room). She rememb... Mon, 7 Mar 2011 16:55:33 EST Post-Surgery Ramblings This will be a short blog since I'm still in pain. I went in for surgery Wednesday March 2nd early morning and was out at 12:30. I woke up hooked to IV meds and a 'pain pump' which worked pretty well. But I have a lot of pain and weakness in one of my legs, which is worrying the specialists. <BR> <em>282</em> <BR> <BR> The pain is getting under control and I'm waiting to get a MRI to see whether there is a problem. I think it's probably only inflammation, but they don't take chances and wa... Sun, 6 Mar 2011 15:33:47 EST And the Surgery will........... Well, I did get THE call today and I will be going under the knife today at 12:30pm Eastern time tomorrow Tuesday March 1st. That's pretty much bang in the middle of the day. <BR> <BR> I had a pretty hectic day with all the last minute stuff and am almost done planning and going over it all. Ah - the stress. <BR> <BR> So here's my plan for the next few days: I planned everything, made lists, charts and schedules. Lol. I'm funny like that, but it's the only way I can get a tad bit of control... Mon, 28 Feb 2011 23:48:01 EST Where am I at? ? ? I had a lovely message from Lyn on my last blog post and noticed that I haven't been posting either on this blog or on my new personal blog! <BR> <em>102</em> <BR> <BR> Things are pretty stagnant for me and I'm finding it hard to be my usual optimistic self. I'm just waiting and waiting and waiting. And receiving pretty disturbing letters from worker's compensation... I wonder whether they mixed my file with someone else's or where they get their info... <BR> <em>33</em> <BR> <BR> Well... Sat, 19 Feb 2011 23:37:28 EST Happy Birthday to Me! Yes, you read right, today I turn mighty 28... and I am feeling much better than I thought would, although I'm happy I didn't make big plans. My Mom & step-dad are coming over with Thai food and vino for a nice, low-key dinner. <BR> <em>410</em> <em>339</em> <em>44</em> <em>409</em> <BR> <BR> I'm still not sure whether I'll celebrate this week-end. I couldn't make plans because I'm on-call for the surgery, but I'm also bummed out lately since I've been stuck in this wait... Thu, 10 Feb 2011 19:28:34 EST My February Adventures I've taken on a few new fun projects this week. <BR> <em>189</em> <BR> <BR> I used to have a blog about a single girl's life and had left it aside lately since... well... I'm not single anymore. Lol. So I decided to start a new blog where I'll be rambling about the things I care about and that fill my life. <BR> I usually discuss my weight loss journey and daily life on here, but not really my passions. So my Blog will be the place for me to do this. <BR> If you're interested in fashion,... Fri, 4 Feb 2011 15:31:58 EST My Resolutions Suggestion... Well, every year people make New Year resolutions... And they feel motivated while the resolutions are new to soon forget about them. <BR> <BR> I decided to start something new this year: monthly resolutions. This way, I give myself 'goals' for the month, or set goals to achieve the resolutions. Either way, I stay motivated, can focus on smaller goals and achieve so much more! <BR> Also, at the end of each and every month, when I have achieved these goals, I can celebrate and reward myself f... Tue, 1 Feb 2011 16:08:15 EST Sunny Disposition I woke up early this morning after a night of sleeping much better than usual. I did some light stretches and fixed a nice breakfast of oats with blueberries (frozen) & vanilla extract. I also added a protein shake to the mix since I haven't been eating enough protein lately... <BR> <em>341</em> <BR> <BR> My puppy has been under the weather and seems to have some dog-cold... He wasn't looking great last night and is still pretty sleepy, but he seems fine overall. I was worried he'd get wor... Mon, 31 Jan 2011 11:19:12 EST Interpreting things in a positive manner Guess what: I got a call today and I won a custom made bicycle worth approx. $450!!! <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I'm really happy since I don't own a bicycle and, even with recovery, I won't be able to lace my rollerblades again for quite some time because of the bent-forward position and the chances of falling... So this gives me a goal for the summer 2011! <BR> <em>332</em> <BR> <BR> I decided to interpret this positively because of the two comments I got: <BR> 1st: Will you give... Wed, 26 Jan 2011 14:37:06 EST My Roller coaster I feel like life is a roller coaster. Through it all I always felt like there were ups and downs, but the roller coaster kept on going... Until lately. My roller coaster is stalled on the bottom of the hill and just waiting for the surgeon to come fix the mechanical problem so that I can start my slow progress up the hill in front of me. <BR> I found this chart on emotional roller coasters and I am right there between despair and hope. I can't wait to start ascending and hope I am never stuc... Tue, 25 Jan 2011 22:43:14 EST No Way! Not again!?!?!? Well I was awakened this morning by a call from the Hospital. I answered expecting the call from OR indicating at what time I needed to show up for surgery tomorrow... Instead I got a call from my Neurosurgeon's secretary informing me that the OR is cancelling about two dozen surgeries for tomorrow, and I'm one of them! <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I had spent the last few days barely sleeping and trying to get ready for tomorrow's big day... and now I'm in the dark again not knowing when t... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 10:50:04 EST Week-end before Surgery We're now Friday night, and I haven't blogged as much as usual lately... I've been pretty wrapped up with myself and have trouble sleeping well because of my upcoming surgery. <BR> <em>245</em> <BR> <BR> I had a pretty quiet week, stayed in mostly and tried to plan things for next week. I need everything to be in order by Monday since I'll be in the Hospital all day Tuesday and will come home the nest day. Also, my boyfriend won't be able to run errands much since he'll be my full time nur... Sat, 22 Jan 2011 00:19:43 EST Short Term Planning The past week has be a rough one for me. As you know, it started with my surgery date being cancelled... And I've had trouble shifting my focus away from the fears surrounding the surgery. I still managed to stay mostly positive though. The fear is creeping in, but I tell myself it's natural and part of the process. I do my best to put my worries aside and remind myself why I'm doing it. <BR> <em>52</em> <BR> <BR> On Friday, I had my pre-op appointment and it did help since many of my que... Mon, 17 Jan 2011 13:48:02 EST Playing with my Sanity Well... My day started with an early morning call from the hospital... The neurosurgeon got news today that the OR will not allow him to do my surgery on Jan 20th so my surgery date will be pushed forward. So I'm AGAIN waiting for a surgery date, which should take place about a week later. <BR> <em>56</em> <BR> <BR> See, my birthday is Feb 10th and I was really hoping to be able to go out to dinner for the first time around that date... But it probably will not be possible. Well, at least... Wed, 12 Jan 2011 21:00:05 EST Scared Sh@tless Well I received a call yesterday from the Hospital regarding my surgery date and it seems like it will be on January 20th - in less than 2 weeks! I tried not to give it much thought, but I have to face it and start planning for it. I will know on Monday for sure whether it is the official date and confirm the time... <BR> <em>12</em> <BR> <BR> I still wanted to plan just in case and started discussing the post-surgery return home. They used to keep patients in for 3 days post-op but, due t... Sat, 8 Jan 2011 19:23:04 EST Blah days!?!?!? I've been feeling down for the past week. I did get a bit of a cold, but I think it might be a bit more than that. My boyfriend too seems to be going down the negative path, although I'm showing a bit more resistance. I try to keep my mind focused... <BR> <em>414</em> <BR> <BR> I think I'm feeling a bit stuck. I've been trying to keep myself positive with promises of recovery, but since the new year seems to be starting for everyone but me, I think I am back in that spot where I want to mo... Thu, 6 Jan 2011 14:38:27 EST Resolutions version 1.0 Well I have decided to st myself goals for 2011. I feel in a weird place since I'm just awaiting for surgery and still in a grey zone: awaiting to start the long road to rehabilitation. It's a bit like the new year hasn't started yet for me and will start a few weeks after surgery, when I am able to start focusing on the road ahead... <BR> <em>128</em> <BR> <BR> But I can still set myself goals and prepare myself for the road ahead. I cannot lie to myself: 2011 will be a hard year to get t... Wed, 5 Jan 2011 16:51:20 EST Starting the year with a Smile on my Face Well it's finally 2011 and I was away for two full days. Well a new year is starting and I'm getting ready for my surgery. I really hope I get a surgery date soon since it's hard to get ready and prep when the date gets delayed and delayed. I need to prepare mentally... <BR> I'm trying to focus on other things and keep a smile on my face. But my stomach turns once in a while when I feel the now common feeling of fear the thought of lower back surgery brings... <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> W... Sun, 2 Jan 2011 23:11:07 EST Counting down the hours!! A new year makes us think about the changes we want to make in our lives and it makes us want to re-evaluate and improve ourselves. <BR> <em>204</em> <BR> <BR> Right now though, I am focusing on the weeks to come and making the changes I can before going in for surgery. The new year for me will start after my surgery when I start working towards my rehabilitation. But I need to start focusing right now and give myself the tools I will need to succeed. <BR> <em>249</em> <BR> <BR> I have ... Fri, 31 Dec 2010 10:53:05 EST How to feel Beautiful... I woke up this morning feeling tired, but also happy. I stopped taking Effexor (an anti-depressant) in September and it was hard emotionally. But lately I wake up feeling positive more and more often! <BR> I credit the Spark for some of it since I've been focusing on the half-full part of the glass and also sharing it and writing my thoughts on the site. <BR> <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> Today, I gave myself a mini-pedi since I decided I would do something to make myself feel beautiful as often... Wed, 29 Dec 2010 14:38:24 EST What will the New Year bring? We're now mid-Holidays and I've been thinking about the changes 2011 will bring. I will soon be undergoing lower back surgery and I am hoping to be able to rehabilitate and be active again. I am obviously worried, but also very hopeful... After years of living with pain and being the shadow of myself, I feel like I have a chance to claim back my life. So I'm about to enter a new year full of hope! <BR> <em>408</em> <BR> <BR> I am also starting 2011 in a new relationship where I have a grea... Tue, 28 Dec 2010 08:15:53 EST Post-Holidays and Christmas Partying!! Well my post-holiday time was a bit rough (I removed a few posts since I was receiving too many negative emails) as my boyfriend and I had an argument. But he has since realised his wrongdoing and apologised. I think that he is a loving man, but sometimes doesn't know how to communicate things. <BR> But at least, after a few days of thinking and sleeping on the couch he understood his wrongdoing and that he needs to be more respectful and mindful when he wants to discuss something with his p... Mon, 27 Dec 2010 00:32:11 EST Sun Day Fun Day I got back from the Scandinavian Spa a few hours ago after 6 hours of pure Bliss and am feeling completely slack! I put my PJ on and made dinner and I'm feeling exhausted. Lol. I guess jumping from steam baths to cold water really does take some energy... <BR> <BR> I did however go over my calorie allowance because my Mom and I grabbed a treat on the way home. The culprit is ONE chocolate croissant. I just have to make sure I don't repeat this and be very good for the week to come since the ... Sun, 19 Dec 2010 22:30:13 EST Beautiful Sun Day! So my Mom called me last night to ask me if I was free today to go to the Scandinavian Spa!! I obviously said yes and did a little happy dance. Lol. I got my bikini out, packed my ex gym bag (oh how I miss it) and am ready to go spend a day of R&R with my Maman. <BR> <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> I don't yet know if I lost weight (I've been Sparking for a week and decided to do weekly weight-ins since I have a tendency to become obsessed by the pounds if I weight myself daily). My bikini will be ... Sun, 19 Dec 2010 10:58:48 EST Book worming So I'm still not feeling at my best. I did sleep more than my usual today and did some book worming curled up on the couch. <BR> <em>149</em> <BR> <BR> Well it's almost time to go for a walk to the Grocery store. I can procrastinate since it's open until 11pm, but I do need to go. I need ingredients for a soup and some nice dessert for my boyfriend. Healthy variants obviously. But I'm craving a nice warm soup so much I might even cook it tonight......... <BR> <em>481</em> <BR> <BR> So I... Sat, 18 Dec 2010 18:41:05 EST Boooooo Well I woke up feeling off this morning and ended up with my head in the toilet first thing. Not the best way to start the day... So I figured I'd be nice with myself and would follow my body - well it just wanted to sleep so I stayed in bed and slept pretty much all day on and off!! I can't believe I was so tired... But I think the 4-hour sleep I've been getting is not enough. <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> So I had a snack mid-day and got up at night to a starving boyfriend. It's funny how h... Fri, 17 Dec 2010 00:35:28 EST Everything I do have... Ah - I'm feeling good! Day 3 and I stayed in my calorie allowance today!! I'm feeling foolish to be so proud, but at the same time I intend to be foolish and celebrate the small stuff. Because it's really the small stuff that counts in life. <BR> <BR> My day was quiet. I spent a nice Monday in with my man (who was home too) and we ended up watching movies tonight (which is why I'm up so late). One of my next goals will be to go to bed earlier in order to get more sleep. I know it's importan... Tue, 14 Dec 2010 03:04:29 EST Day 1 Summary Well the day went pretty well. I did lots around the house considering that I didn't take my max dose of morphine today. My boyfriend and I did some cleaning around the house, I gave my little dog his weekly bath and he smells like chocolate now :) and I made a nice dinner with nice (small) juicy steaks with sautéed mushrooms, garlic, herbs and steamed broccoli. For some reason, this sounds like a very very decadent dinner, but I love cooking (and eating)... <BR> <BR> Tomorrow, I'll be hav... Sat, 11 Dec 2010 22:08:29 EST Welcome me Well here it is. My first day - my decision to re-join the universe and be open about my struggles. <BR> I recently realised that I needed some sort of a stepping stone to make the changes I need to make - and then I remembered this website. I like the way it's organised and, although I won't be able to use the fitness tracker much until I start rehabilitation, I will be taking advantage of all the other features. I want to be accountable. <BR> I do realise that I'll have ups and downs (and ... Sat, 11 Dec 2010 16:14:11 EST