FRAGILEWRITER's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=FRAGILEWRITER FRAGILEWRITER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Measurement Loss Slowing - As it should http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232714 Friday, February 1: waist 35 1/2, hips 41 1/2, 21 1/4 <BR> <BR> Friday, January 25: waist-35 3/4, hips 41 1/4, 24 1/4 <BR> <BR> Friday, January 18: waist-36 1/4, hips 41 3/4, thigh-24 1/2 <BR> <BR> Friday, January 11: waist-36 1/2, hips-42, thigh / Fri, 1 Feb 2013 07:10:47 EST Measurements http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5222812 Friday, January 25: waist-35 3/4, hips 41 1/4, 24 1/4 <BR> <BR> Friday, January 18: waist-36 1/4, hips 41 3/4, thigh-24 1/2 <BR> <BR> Friday, January 11: waist-36 1/2, hips-42, thigh / Fri, 25 Jan 2013 10:01:54 EST Normal is pretty easy,... so far http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212486 The Normal Plan: eat like I have to for the rest of my life. I skip meals if I'm not hungry, I load up on veg if I feel like it, I eat out with my son,... what ever. It all has to balance and it has to feel normal, but dialed down. Again, I'm not weighing myself, I just want to fit into my old skinny clothes again. <BR> waist- 36.1/4 unchanged from last Friday <BR> hips-41.1/2 down an inch <BR> thigh-24.1/2 new measurement <BR> Fri, 18 Jan 2013 06:02:26 EST This is not a diet. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5200736 I'm not even going to use a scale. I don't care how long it takes. I am so fed up with punishing myself for a short while, to look good for an equally short while. Then I get lazy, gain it all back and face another round of shame. <BR> meanwhile, I have yummy skinny clothes that I really miss. The stuff I eat now, and the amount I exercise =those yummy skinny clothes. Fat foods and no exercise = fat clothes. <BR> It's easy really. <BR> I am already the skinny girl, because I act like it. I m... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 15:02:02 EST Best Bet Diet Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4790273 Over the last few weeks I got a little lax when it came to taking all my vitamins (there's SO many). I finally noticed that my overall health started to deteriorate. <BR> I'm back to the vigilant vitamin-taking and I'm feeling pretty good again. <BR> <BR> Meanwhile, I've noticed that I really only have so much physical energy to be spent in one day. If I work out, even half as much as I would like, I have very little energy to spend writing. Even though I'm getting very few calories, my wei... Fri, 16 Mar 2012 09:29:26 EST Epiphany - I'm safe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4754543 A thunderbolt hit me yesterday. <BR> <BR> I eat too much because I was taught that if I didn't eat enough I'd DIE. <BR> The truth is, I am surrounded by food, I live near a grocery store and we have a good income. I don't need to eat as though I was about to hike through a snow storm for 20 miles. I'm safe. <BR> <BR> I eat too much because some fat on me makes me 'less attractive' and I won't be attacked by horny deranged men and jealous girls. Not like this has ever happened, but it was wh... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 07:59:54 EST A new way to look at weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4730121 Old Thought: I've tried, for years, over and over, to lose weight. I've succeeded, but then let down my guard and it all came back. Sound familiar? <BR> <BR> New Thought 1: Since I have changed my diet in August I have experienced dramatic and rapid changes to the quality of my health and life. I have actually SEEN the effects of eating differently. (Anti-inflammatory foods to vegetarian to vegan) <BR> <BR> New Thought 2: There has been a lot in the media lately about using a calorie restri... Thu, 9 Feb 2012 07:42:51 EST I think I'm sliding into a depression http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4726973 Usually, I don't know it 'til it's over. <BR> Despite feeling good from my diet, I've noticed that my breath, sweat and pee smell funny, like plastic. <BR> Most recently, I'm tired all the time, always want to sleep, do not want to engage with people and have no desire to get anything done, even started. <BR> If I'm right, and this isn't just MS rearing its ugly head, this would be the first time I could feel it coming on. <BR> Next, I'm going to tell a few friends that I think I'm depresse... Tue, 7 Feb 2012 11:36:05 EST MS update. Meat = Constipation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4719913 It's confirmed, for me anyway. Animal tissue brings on constipation. <BR> My husband's been away this week, so I've gotten a lot of writing done, but have neglected cooking. Which means I've been having a lot of Thai take out with my son. I pick out all the chicken, but surely some has slipped in. Also, there is the odd bits of squid and the occasional shrimp I've had. And then there is a little bit of egg here and there. Holy Doodle but I have gotten constipated this last week! He's coming ... Fri, 3 Feb 2012 08:04:49 EST MS Best Bet Diet going well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4704729 First, the cold has been well and truly gone for days. <BR> I'm doing my weekly Avonex (interferon) shot every 10-14 days. <BR> I only squeeze in half-3/4 dose. Seems to lessen the flu symptoms. <BR> Diet is easy now that the evidence that it makes me feel so well. <BR> The volume of vitamins is way less irksome now that I have a system. <BR> Gawd Bless Cold Weather!!! Thu, 26 Jan 2012 08:21:22 EST I hate to coax the gods to smite me but,... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4689264 I really think the cold is gone. <BR> i did half a shot of Avonex yesterday and the flu symptoms weren't that bad. <BR> I think the cold finally just ran its course. <BR> The cough is pretty much gone and the 3D technicolour dreams have abated. <BR> Wed, 18 Jan 2012 13:52:39 EST Oh for gawd's sake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4686130 I had a pretty decent weekend and yesterday I actually felt better. However, I had a dreadful night coughing and now I feel sick again. <BR> I've been avoiding my interferon shot because it would lower my immune system. Counterintuitively, I'm going to try my shot today and see if I feel better. As we know, MS can change course on a dime, so why not. <BR> If I don't feel somewhat better tomorrow, I'm going to call my GP for a check up. <BR> Tue, 17 Jan 2012 07:48:18 EST MS Best Bet Diet Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4677817 Today is the first day that I feel 'normal' after my massive cold. I'll still take it easy though. <BR> I'm back into the vitamins. <BR> Food Plan: going well. * Now that I don't eat meat I am no longer constipated. <BR> Exercise: I've had to take some time off this because of the cold but I'm looking forward to getting back to it. <BR> Haven't done an Avonex shot since Jan 1. No flare in symptoms. <BR> Outcome: 7/10. I feel really good. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/3... Fri, 13 Jan 2012 08:48:17 EST Best Bet Diet Working Well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4665754 ,... too well. <BR> With my interferon shot (Avonex) and the diet and the mega vitamins, my immune system has been shut off. I still have a huge cold. Every day I get a little bit better, but it still owns me. <BR> <BR> In my tinkering i have: suspended the shot, stopped the vitamins, but have carried on with the diet because it's now natural) <BR> <BR> I'm so tired of this cold. Sun, 8 Jan 2012 09:40:16 EST BB Diet: I'd like to say I feel better, but http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4655060 I have a cold again. And interesting upshot (try to follow my logic, faulty that it might be) is this: <BR> In brief, MS is an overactive immune system. <BR> I used to never get colds, while the MS was otherwise savaging my body. <BR> I take a weekly interferon shot to turn down my over active immune system. <BR> Now that I am eating better and somewhat controlling my over active immune system, the shot leaves me wide open for whatever virus is floating by. Evidence: the last two times I did ... Tue, 3 Jan 2012 19:35:03 EST Back from Jamaica and ready to go. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4646981 Right, tomorrow's the day. <BR> I got all my vitamins, except for the manganese, which still proves illusive. <BR> Tomorrow, I begin lopping out huge swathes of my diet to see what I'm sensitive to, and what I am not. <BR> <BR> Eat: Lean meats, fish, vegetables and fruits. (vegetarian so I am going to eat legumes, with Best Bet's Blessings) <BR> Don't eat: Gluten, Dairy, Legumes, Refined Sugar, any foods to which YOU are sensitive. <BR> Reduce: Saturated Fat, Omega 6 (not 3), non-gluten gra... Sat, 31 Dec 2011 17:59:09 EST MS Best Bet Diet & Feeling better, and worse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4629955 I have a cold, and I don't. I haven't had a cold for years, and always put it down to my overactive immune system. However, for days, I have had all the symptoms of a cold: tired, feverish, coughing, sneezing, runny nose, watery eyes, snoring (which I only do when I have a head cold), lack of appetite. And yet, I seem to be going through the motions only. The machine inside doesn't feel like it has a cold. Huh. <BR> <BR> Meanwhile, I'm having a hard time taking all my Best Bet vitamins, and ... Sun, 18 Dec 2011 08:36:23 EST Starting the Best Bet Diet (for MS) Blog Early http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4623686 I'm starting now, even though I haven't got all the vitamins yet, and even though I haven't entirely converted to the Best Bet Diet eating plan, I'm alarmed at my hair. It seems to have stopped growing, and I'm afraid to comb it because so much comes out every time I do. <BR> I've had two knowledgeable people (though not doctors) suggest that I am not getting enough protein. <BR> I don't eat meat, rarely eat fish and the Best Bet Diet deletes legumes, lentils (which includes all soy). I can'... Tue, 13 Dec 2011 07:21:30 EST Best Bet Diet Outline http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4615037 <BR> The scientific theory: <BR> In those with MS, intact proteins leak from the gut into the bloodstream. <BR> The immune system is activated. <BR> The Best Bet Diet aims "to halt the activation of the immune system, reduce inflammation, strengthen the blood-brain barrier, and heal a leaky gut." <BR> <BR> Eat: lean meats, fish, vegetables and fruits. <BR> Don't eat: Gluten, Dairy, Legumes, Refined Sugar, any foods to which YOU are sensitive. <BR> Reduce: Saturated Fat, Omega 6 (not 3), non... Tue, 6 Dec 2011 14:40:51 EST I had skinny, then I got healthy, now I want both. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4560881 God Damn I was thin. And I ate almost nothing, which I now see was really making my MS symptoms bad. <BR> Then I got a new diet, designed just for MS care. I feel like a real person again. However, a real fat person. <BR> Now I need to maintain the good MS diet, but figure out how to take in less of it, but still feel good. <BR> OH, and I really do need to get more exercise, but I find going to the gym just so boring! Mon, 31 Oct 2011 07:15:58 EST OMG I went to the gym! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4511984 Baby Steps Fri, 30 Sep 2011 11:47:25 EST Hopefully, today will be better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4506170 Okay, yesterday didn't go so well. By 11am, I was sicker than I've ever been from my weekly interferon shot. I'll try again today. Tue, 27 Sep 2011 07:25:07 EST I'm back, in every way. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4504242 At the beginning of August i was shown a way of eating that reduced my inflammation and pain, and then addressed some of my digestive problems. I loved it so much that I could resist and now I'm much heavier than I ever meant to be. My fat is FAT and that is not tolerable. From today, I will eat well, and a little less. Hell, I might even go to the gym! Mon, 26 Sep 2011 07:23:39 EST It got worse, the it got better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4429888 Yesterday a child was left to scream for so long, and so loud that I actually went over to ask if I should call an ambulance (ok, I was being quite sarcastic but,...). <BR> After that, remarkably, we serenely passed from the late afternoon, through the evening and into night with only normal urban noises. Really, it was quite shocking. Tue, 16 Aug 2011 08:24:54 EST A Massive Rant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4427501 I live in a pretty urban neighbourhood: gardens, trees, cats & dogs,... and about 15 kids under 5 who only scream. Two or three times a day they are joyfully raped and murdered. <BR> Now, our neighbours car alarm has gone off repeatedly through the night. It would never occur to them to shut the freakin' alarm on in the POS. It seems to be more important to wake everyone else up seven times through the night. <BR> Ahhhh,... I hate my 'hood,... but I love my house so we can't move. Mon, 15 Aug 2011 06:37:15 EST I've lost my Way (eigh?) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4425800 I've felt so lousy wih the heat, and the people coming and going, and my husband constantly under foot, and trying to get the healthy foods I need, that the calories, and the promise I have made to myself have been TEMPORARILY forgotten. <BR> Today, I must do better. <BR> Sun, 14 Aug 2011 09:05:44 EST Acceptible Weight Gain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4408370 After two days of mayhem and travel I've gained a little weight, but not nearly as much as I was afraid of. I stayed true to my eating plan, even if I took too many calories. I guess it all paid off. Today, I'm back at it with enthusiasm. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l634923018.jpg"> Fri, 5 Aug 2011 08:24:01 EST I'm not even going to look http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4406102 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l640341378.jpg"> Thu, 4 Aug 2011 06:13:36 EST A Little More Chaos Please http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4404853 Today, and tomorrow, are going to be nuts. I'm not even going to try to estimate calories. I'm just going to stay mindful of portions and appetite vs hunger. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/4/l447507020.jpg"> Wed, 3 Aug 2011 14:30:10 EST Definitely not a straight line http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4398932 I actually ate a little recklessly yesterday, but probably still kept near my target calories,... and yet I'm down today. Huh. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/3/l832684594.jpg"> Mon, 1 Aug 2011 06:37:43 EST up. but,... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4397023 I can feel my hip bones a little more. <BR> This weight loss business is not a straight road. It took a long time to gain the fat, it's going to take a long time to lose it. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l640744305.jpg"> Sun, 31 Jul 2011 06:39:50 EST Here is what I've Learned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4395308 I expend a lot fewer calories than most people. Maybe it's because I have MS and have grown used to not moving around much. <BR> Following Dr. Weil's Anti-Inflammatory Diet makes me feel great. <BR> I gain weight at 1000 cal but I lose at 640 cal. <BR> I need to attend more to the vitamins. <BR> I can have Grain or Legumes. <BR> I need to fill up on all of the veg. <BR> I need to get all of the water. <BR> I feel like myself when I weigh less. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/... Sat, 30 Jul 2011 06:30:31 EST Diet Reversal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4393444 Crappity crap. I was pretty good yesterday, I thought, but I was immobile in bed all day with a roaring head ache and a screaming back. My weight is up. Oh well, I'll try again today. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l12484351.jpg"> Fri, 29 Jul 2011 07:31:57 EST I Want to Look Like This http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4391358 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l50645.jpg"> Thu, 28 Jul 2011 07:37:21 EST Not a Number but a Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4388980 It seems to me that it's not a special number on the scale, but a sufficient change to suggest that I have 'arrived'. If I could stay at 159 and still have nothing that jiggles inappropriately, I would. And even when the number on the scale doesn't move, my body is still changing. It's the approaching arrival that I have to keep in mind, not the number on the scale. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l158483530.jpg"> Wed, 27 Jul 2011 07:13:51 EST I won't be down tomorrow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4388242 I just had the best smoked salmon of my life Tue, 26 Jul 2011 20:13:27 EST Not a Diet, a Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4384222 I' ve seen the glow of Lithe and Lean, and I want it back. <BR> <BR> I’ve realized my mistake. I conceived of my diet as a finite process, that one day it would be done. <BR> It’s never done. It is who you become and it is no longer a diet, it is a life. Mon, 25 Jul 2011 07:48:10 EST