FRACKTHATNOISE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=FRACKTHATNOISE FRACKTHATNOISE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Easing on into it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5600211 Confession: I am just like everyone else. In fact, I am so much like everyone else that I'm going to describe a situation below and you're immediately going to start nodding in an emphatic way because you know exactly what I'm talking about. <BR> <BR> Here goes. <BR> <BR> It's a brand new day. It's the day you decided you're going to change the entire world. It'd the day you're going to try something new. It's going to be AMAZING. In fact, you go out hard and fast and you work so very har... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 14:15:49 EST A Hello (and an Apology) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593564 Two months to the day since I last blogged and I find myself in an odd space. <BR> <BR> I find myself looking at SparkPeople and seeing so many new faces on the teams I'd been on (Hello there!) <BR> <BR> I find myself needing to come back after a very public 'farewell' post. <BR> <BR> I find myself feeling the need to make an apology. <BR> <BR> Funny thing about the word 'apology' - it doesn't mean what a lot of us think it does (at least, it doesn't always.) <BR> <BR> As Defined by... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 12:39:48 EST A farewell. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5541027 Dear Sparkfriends, <BR> <BR> I know, I've been gone for a long time now. I keep promising that I'll come back. I keep trying to find ways to motivate myself to do so. <BR> <BR> Well, I've done a lot of thinking and planning the last few days. <BR> <BR> I've thought about what's fitting in my life. <BR> I've thought about what's literally not fitting. <BR> I'm thinking about who and what I want to be. <BR> <BR> And I hate to say that I feel like I've outgrown Spark - but, I'm thinking... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 11:05:55 EST Day 498 - Sticking to plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5527378 You know what the hardest thing is about getting your lifestyle under control? <BR> <BR> It's avoiding early burnout. <BR> <BR> Pacing, as it turns out has it's place in all things - not just in running or racing. This week, I'm taking slow, careful steps into getting back into a healthier lifestyle. So far, I'd say I've kept up about half of what I need to be doing, and that's not too bad. <BR> <BR> The things I want to do: <BR> <BR> 1. Run 3 -4 times a week <BR> 2. Eat healthy, proper... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 11:44:45 EST Day 496 - GIGA, is true in all things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5525698 It's been a long, long time SparkFriends - and I sincerely mean it wasn't you, it was me! <BR> <BR> To put it simply, I thought I could just go ahead and maintain in the land of 185. I thought I could just be okay there. And then, like the ocean's waves erode at the shoreline my own careless behavior and inattentive demeanor definitely had effects upon the progress I made over the past year and a half. Like GIGA says - garbage in, garbage out. I'm not complaining, I mean, my actions (or inac... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 15:26:26 EST Day 447 - Ups and Downs and Ups http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5480679 Well, guys, I'm here! <BR> <BR> I'm alive! <BR> <BR> I haven't given up! <BR> <BR> It's been a very, very busy last month for me. Mostly, I got to spend a lot of time with family and in front of a sewing machine. I spent five very magical days travelling to and enjoying DragonCon. I had a great trip. I've also been eaten by work. So, now that all of that is over and I have a moment to breathe I can finally let you guys know what I've been up to. <BR> <BR> Last month there was my family r... Mon, 9 Sep 2013 14:11:39 EST Day 409 - Who is this ranty-Mc-Rantperson?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442110 <BR> <BR> Good morning everyone. <BR> <BR> I wanted to thank all of you for your kind words and supportive comments on my last blog. I think I should take one moment to clarify - I don't think that there is anything wrong AT ALL with people who want to compare their times and compete with one another. I, personally, am having an insecure, uncomfortable moment with it. It's MY issue. Do I think anyone in my running groups thinks less of me because I run slower than them? None of the ones I... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 10:13:32 EST Day 407: Catharsis http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5439601 Preface: I'm not looking for a lot of cheering on for this blog. I just want to vent. Believe me, this blog is more cathartic than.. update-y. I have sat debating for a while if I ought to share this post with people on Facebook as well. I'm not sure how some of my friends will react to it. Still, since I have chosen to share it, I hope my friends will take it for what it is: Catharsis. I know it's not completely rational and I do know all the cliche sentiments that go with how I'm feeling. A... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 10:18:50 EST Day 406 - Busy, Busy Bee http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5438524 Well, the title of my blog is misleading. I'm busy, just not at work. <BR> <BR> I hate weeks like this. I especially hate them in my current condition. Firstly, I don't have any billable work to do. That means that I'm doing a lot of reading and research. A lot of organizing. A lot of trips to the water cooler. A lot of stuff that while sometimes interesting and valuable often feels like busy work. <BR> <BR> After all, I have to come to work. I have to give them my 40 hours. It's just tha... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 11:40:42 EST Day 401: ALL the bad habits! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5433051 Good morning everyone! <BR> <BR> What can I say, blogging once a week is about all I can tolerate at this instant. I'm killing myself at work trying to put in as much overtime as possible to accrue vacation time so as not to be forced into taking DragonCon off unpaid. So, for example, I came in on Sunday from 3:30 to 8 and worked on stuff. The problem is that only billable work is supposed to count toward my overtime. so, while I have already put in 5.5 hours of OT and yielded 2.75 hours of ... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 11:35:38 EST Day 393 - Maintaining http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5424131 Good morning, all! <BR> <BR> I know, I know, I haven't written anything for a while. <BR> <BR> I know, I know, for me blogging is a great way to keep accountable as well as keep my mind focused on the task at hand (namely, continuing a healthy lifestyle, posiitve attitude, and the side effect of those two things which is weight loss.) <BR> <BR> I know, I know, I'm a delinquent. <BR> <BR> I'm sorry. <BR> <BR> I spent all of the last two weeks since the Independence Day holiday pretty m... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 11:35:36 EST Day 388: What I Learned from Walking Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5408616 So, in an effort to accentuate the positive I decided to really try and focus on being in a positive headspace during my walk today. Rather than focusing on how much I'd rather be running my course (I'm not going ot lie, I still thought about it as some amazing runners passed me) I let my mind drift to things I don't usually have time to think about. <BR> <BR> You see, when I'm running I have a million things running through my brain (and it's clear, all at the same time, it's weird.) I'm t... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 13:30:27 EST Day377: Conundrum http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5407198 Conundrum: A confusing and difficult problem or question. <BR> <BR> I have one. <BR> <BR> You see, I have these races I've signed up for - a couple of which I out and out cannot compete in either because of pace limits (Like the Scranton Marathon), or a literal inability to participate (Like the Triathlon which is at the end of July.) <BR> <BR> However, I have a couple of grey-area races now, too. <BR> <BR> First, I have the Firecracker 5K coming up this Thursday. In theory, I can walk ... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 09:47:17 EST Day 372: Dirty Girl Mud Run Photo and Ramblings. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5404490 Today's Happy-Place Photo: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1535289372.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Good Morning, Sparklers. <BR> <BR> This morning I awoke to a scale that said 187.8. <BR> <BR> I did not curl up into a ball, no matter how much I really, REALLY wanted to. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I did pretty badly on the food front. I started off really well while I was at work and then I went to a games night hosted by my brother and proceeded to eat way too many Kit-K... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 10:40:13 EST Day 371: Time for a Reckoning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5403477 This morning absolutely sucked. <BR> <BR> I got on the scale. 186.8. That is 5.8lbs up in a week and a half. Some of it has to be due to the antibiotics and steroids as well as water retention at this time of the month. Still, I'm certain more than a little of it has to do with eating poorly, emotionally, and conveniently. <BR> <BR> Today I'm going to go and make friends with the exercise bike in the basement gym at work. It's going to be long, boring and stupid. To try and combat the bor... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 11:34:53 EST Day 370 - Back to Work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5402318 I mean this blog title in every single sense of the word. <BR> <BR> I'm back at work today. Back to the grind. Back to everything... <BR> <BR> I'm back to tracking food and exercise minutes, too. So what if my only exercise is in the form of walking. Well, I'm going to walk the crap out of the world until August. I WILL TAKE ALL THE STEPS. <BR> <BR> Some of you mentioned that it was a little weird that I didn't seem all that concerned about my eye in the last post and a bit overly concer... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 11:02:29 EST Day 365: One year and a ridiculous hurdle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396253 Well, I had wanted to write a victory blog for my one year blog. However. things haven't been so good here in my world. <BR> <BR> Last Thursday I had to go to the hospital - I had to go in about three weeks ago for PVD, partial vitreous detachment. What it is is when the gel in your eye on top of your retina detaches. Not a big deal and nothing you can really do about t. the problem is, that it can be a precursor to retinal detachment. <BR> <BR> And, last thursday my retina did detach. <B... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 11:40:36 EST Day 359: Just Keep Swimming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387921 I'm not going to lie, any effort put toward weight loss this week has been purely nutritional. <BR> <BR> In short, I feel like a slug. I bailed on my workout buddy on three separate days (Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday) due to this crazy new project I'm working on. I'm getting in to work at 8AM and not leaving until 6. I'm really working hard - and all this mental effort is definitely coming out as physical depletion. <BR> <BR> So, the plan today is to bail over lunch and go for a run. J... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 10:58:04 EST Day 358 - One year Assessment (WITH PHOTOS) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386904 I know it's a week early; but, today I got my one year assessment results from the weight loss study. <BR> <BR> I haven't talked about it a lot lately so some of you may have no idea what I'm talking about. A year ago I joined a two year study following the impacts and results of technology on young adults abilities to achieve and maintain weight loss. I started the study at 220lbs after managing to lose ten pounds on my own in the six months prior. On the day of my assessment I weighed in ... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 12:09:20 EST Day 357: Rules for Packing Lunch http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5385622 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/3/l8366180.jpg"> <BR> <BR> That, my friends is what breakfast and lunch looks like on a regular work day. <BR> <BR> You see, I don't cook. Ever. Anything. So, getting things that are pre-packaged is important to me. <BR> <BR> So, what are my rules? <BR> <BR> 1. Represent all basic food groups. Protein, Carbs, Fats, Sugars. Well, I should say, sweets. I have a wicked sweet tooth and the only way to keep it at bay is to have something sweet ... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 09:37:51 EST Day 356: Back at my low http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384293 Well, this morning I managed to step on my scale and get a pleasant, happy surprise. <BR> <BR> 183.8. <BR> <BR> Alright, so my lowest I ever saw was 183.4 - but I'm not going to quibble over under half a pound. <BR> <BR> I had an awesome, active week last week. <BR> <BR> Last Saturday was the Decker's Creek Half marathon. Monday was a recovery day. Tuesday was a 18 mile bike ride. Wednesday was an Insanity day. Thursday was a 15 mile bike ride. Friday was Insanity. Satuday was the Mud ... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 09:39:16 EST Day 355: Morning Hike http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5383438 So, this morning was awesome. Mostly because I hit my target step count and calorie burn goal before noon. <BR> <BR> Today I decided to take Jack out for a hike on the Rachel Carson Trail. As you'll see from the pictures below he really enjoyed himself. <BR> <BR> I have some pretty gnarly blisters on my right heel, but that's because of poor sock choice. All in all it was a good day. Now all I have to do is mind what I eat and I'm all set for a healthy day! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://ph... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 13:58:39 EST Day 354: Recap: Dirty Girl Mud Run http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382570 This may be the fastest I've ever put up a race recap ever. <BR> <BR> I cannot hold in my opinions and thoughts on this race. <BR> <BR> So, without wasting any more precious time. <BR> <BR> The Facts: <BR> <BR> Race: Dirty Girl 5K Mud Run <BR> Cost: $50 - $80+ <BR> Weather: Overcast, 70+ Degrees <BR> Start Time: 11AM <BR> <BR> <BR> If you're the running type, or know someone who is, it is impossible to miss the latest trend: Mud Runs and Obstacle courses. They speak to people's inner ... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 15:44:07 EST Day 353: Some Serious Mirror Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381349 So this morning was unusual. <BR> <BR> I actually felt flipping compelled to look at myself in the mirror. Half nekkid. <BR> <BR> Seriously, how often do you do this? <BR> <BR> How often do I usually do it? Never. I may stop in front of a mirror in the morning to make sure my clothes actually match or check my hair on the way out the door; but, to stop and look at myself? The thought alone makes me nervous. <BR> <BR> It almost always starts the same. I catch a glimpse of some part - my... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 10:54:30 EST Day 352 : Continuing the Streak http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380082 Admittedly, my Streak is four days long - but that is better than 0! <BR> <BR> This morning started off with what I am calling the perfect bike ride. A friend of mine from the running club has been kind enough to meet up with me on Tuesday and Thursday mornings. We usually go for runs, but her knee was bothering her after Decker's Creek, so we decided to bike instead. It was AMAZING. <BR> <BR> First off, it was a nice, cool 65 degrees. Second, the trail was mostly empty due to threat of ra... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 09:16:06 EST Day 351: Decker's Creek Half Marathon Recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379094 So, I ran Decker's Creek Half Marathon this past Saturday. I feel I need to build up to my feelings on this race. <BR> <BR> First off, the amount of training I'd done prior, especially in relationship to the amount of training I did before Boston Trail or the Pittsburgh Half was absolutely abysmal. Seriously. I was running 3-5 miles at tops 3-4 days a week. I was lazy. I just didn't have my mojo. I was coasting after the Pittsburgh Half - which was what my goal was. I had no idea what I int... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 11:58:44 EST Day 350 - A Day of Do-Overs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5377774 I woke up in a foul mood this morning. <BR> <BR> So foul, in fact, that I ignored my alarm telling me it was time to get up and pack my bag up and get on my bike. Instead, I stayed in bed. <BR> <BR> Then, when finally got my butt in gear I come to my car and find that I evidently left the lights on all night. Hello, Dead Car Battery. <BR> <BR> An hour later I'm biking in to work and I'm cursing my quads. Hello, 13.1 miles talking back. <BR> <BR> Then I get to my desk and I find that I... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 10:07:28 EST Day 349: Sometimes Blogging Feels Obligatory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5376656 I have to admit, I was at my most successful when I was blogging the most often. I don't know if that is a bi-product of being on Spark to track my food more or what; but, I can promise you that it is my goal to get back on the daily blogging wagon, even if it is just a paragraph or two. <BR> <BR> So, I'm five days in and my tracking has been honest and it's been consistent. I'm not going to lie - it came as a shock to see that I was actually eating closer to 1800-1900 calories a day (I add... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 11:15:48 EST Day 344: But, I want to be a Cheetah! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5371590 Well, guys, I've had a very deeply philosophical past few days. <BR> <BR> I have my first Half Marathon since Pittsburgh this Saturday and I'm spending a lot of time thinking about what that means. Mostly, though, I'm dwelling on what I hope to accomplish with this race and what my goals are for this particular outing. <BR> <BR> Confession time: I have totally slacked since the Pittsburgh Half. I go to bed on Friday nights thinking I'll get up and go for the SCRRC runs.. and then I sleep ... Wed, 29 May 2013 14:29:32 EST Day 331 : So, how'd that candy jar treat you? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5358425 I really do hate the lack of self control I have when it comes to sweet things. I mean, I look at it and it's -there- and I can't not eat it. <BR> <BR> This, friends, is why I can't bring Skinny Cow products, more than one cup if ice cream, candy, or 'treats' of any kind into my home in any quantity beyond one. <BR> <BR> We talked at the group meeting this week about hunger vs. cravings and I'm still thinking about it. About not eating just because I look at the clock and it's 'time.' Or,... Thu, 16 May 2013 10:19:26 EST Day 330 - Tracking, oh the TRACKING! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5357201 Good morning everyone! <BR> <BR> Well, in the spirit of full disclosure I haven't tracked anything that has gone into my mouth since March. Yeah, I know.. I know.. I know. <BR> <BR> I mean, I really know. Because if there is anything that stuck with me from last night's group meeting it is that those who track their intake, even in a small way, are more likely to be successful than those who don't. Me, I've been fab at training and meeting my fitness goals; but, although I'm getting more p... Wed, 15 May 2013 09:29:05 EST Day 329 - Half Marathon Re-Cap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5356213 Morning, everyone! <BR> <BR> So, contrary to what you may have thought I did not actually die following the Pittsburgh Half Marathon. I know, I promised an update right after; but, well I had a tough time finding a few minutes to get my head on straight and to really process the race. <BR> <BR> The day started at 5:00AM with leaving my poor dog to hang out and wait for me to come home. I got to the office around 5:30, parked like a real jerk, and then waited. Come 6:30 I realized I needed ... Tue, 14 May 2013 11:25:11 EST Day 317 - Freak outs and Brain Speak http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5343312 We are officially three wake-ups away from what will be my first Pittsburgh Half Marathon. It was originally planned to be my FIRST half marathon, but I'm impulsive and decided to go the distance beforehand so I knew I could do it. <BR> <BR> So, yeah, I know I can do it. <BR> <BR> So why, exactly, am I freaking out? <BR> <BR> We're going to say that my last Half Marathon took me three hours. I have three and a half hours to make it to the ten mile point. If I don't make it to the ten mil... Thu, 2 May 2013 13:37:19 EST Day 308 - I do it for the Medals (sort-of) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5334788 Midnight blog! <BR> <BR> Well, I've pretty much managed to set my race schedule for the rest of the year. With the exception of August, November, and December I have a race at least every month. Big races. Half Marathons and Marathon! <BR> <BR> In the most stupendous news, I've signed up for my very first Triathlon! I'm going to compete in the Sprint level distance - mostly because I'm not very confident in my swimming ability. The Triathlon is on July so I have plenty of time to build up s... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 00:15:03 EST Day 305: My First Half Marathon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5331511 My goodness, guys, I've been brewing on this blog! <BR> <BR> Before I get to the meat and potatoes referenced in my title I figure I should cover a couple of quick things. First and foremost, Dad is out of the hospital. He's home and doing well. Second, the scale graced me with 183 again this weekend. My weight loss might be slow; but, it's still happening. I'm okay with the slowness, it just means it's going to be more likely to stay away in the long term! <BR> <BR> Now, as to the title of... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 09:47:47 EST Day 300-something: Life's been a little difficult lately http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327599 Happy Lunchtime, Sparklers. <BR> <BR> I'm sorry I've been MIA for about two weeks now. Things, have been, well difficult. <BR> <BR> First and foremost last Thursday I went and got my hip fixed. She did such a good job that I went out and ran nine miles. It felt really good until miles 5 and 7. I stopped and stretched then, and my mile-pace after stretching was actually faster than when I started! <BR> <BR> My weight and food and emotional health has been all over the place, though. My da... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 12:33:10 EST Day 288: Insanity Fit Test and other AMAZING News http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310608 insanity Prequel. <BR> My new measurements! <BR> And AMAZING plans! Wed, 3 Apr 2013 20:23:01 EST Day 287: Or should I call it day 1? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308793 Good Morning everyone! <BR> <BR> One month and three days until the Pittsburgh Half Marathon! <BR> <BR> I can't believe it. It's coming up so quickly that it's making me a little nervous. Though not as nervous as I was yesterday. <BR> <BR> At 5PM yesterday I embarked on my first run in both my new shoes and since my last crushing 8 miler a week and a half ago. You know, that run where a dude laughed at me in addition to ridiculous hip pain. <BR> <BR> And yesterday's 3 miles was fantast... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 11:24:34 EST Day 286 - Injuries don't just affect what's broken http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5307210 Goooooood morning! <BR> <BR> Welcome to April Fool's day - I haven't fooled anyone yet and I'm currently waiting for my hip to admit to April Fooling Me. <BR> <BR> I don't know how long I've been complaining about my hip now; but, it came to a head this past Saturday when I actually had a race. On Friday night i had laid out all my gear, affixed my race number and went to bed looking forward to the competition. <BR> <BR> Instead, I woke up with a soreness in my hip that I knew would keep... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 09:12:31 EST Day 280: Plans and Opportunities http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5300810 If you guys haven't noticed by now I should tell you: I'm a planner. I'm the kind of girl who knows what she's going to wear for the week and what she's going to eat for the week. I know pretty much how far I'm going to run and what I'm going to do to try and make my minutes fit into my life. <BR> <BR> Really, there aren't too many situations I don't go into a plan with. <BR> <BR> Which is why the last few weeks have been such an anomaly for me. Not only have I not been planning my runs I... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 12:59:50 EST Day 277: The (Best) Worst Run Ever. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5297742 Well, it had to happen sooner or later. <BR> <BR> I had to have a bad run. <BR> <BR> I had to have the kind of run where my body and my mind just betrayed me. <BR> <BR> This morning was an eight mile training run on a local trail. The trail itself should have been forgiving, except, well crushed limestone may as well be cement when it freezes. Except, well, bike tire ruts don't do anything good for the knees. <BR> <BR> Of course, complaining about the trail doesn't make my run seem so... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 23:04:15 EST Day 276 - And I'm Feeling Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5296032 Good Morning, Sparklers! <BR> <BR> I've spent the last two days off from work and I'm spending this morning waiting to hear if I have an early dismissal today. Things are light and quiet in these parts; so, that means I get to take time off without regret or worry. I love it! <BR> <BR> So, I had all these amazing plans. I wanted to finish my kitchen. I wanted to get the sewing room back in order. I really wanted to get in a run. Ugh. Run. I haven't run in almost two weeks. I decided to give... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 09:55:26 EST Day 269: Rapidly approaching 31. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5287729 Well, as of this coming Tuesday I'll be bidding a fond farewell to the year that was spent as 30. I had a hard time turning 30 - not like a depressed, sad kind of hard - but the uncomfortable, recognition of one's place in life, assessing kind of difficult. <BR> <BR> I spent 30 working on myself. Something I really think I should have done sooner; but, can see why I didn't. <BR> <BR> It took comfort in where I was to be able to focus on fixing my perspective. It also took a change in life... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 12:43:00 EST Day 275 - Back to Tracking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5283925 Well, Guys, I'll admit it's been fun. <BR> <BR> It's been nice not to have to stress about counting everything. <BR> <BR> It's been really, really nice not to think about my deficits. <BR> <BR> Today, however, I've got my head back on straight and my focus has returned. <BR> <BR> I'm hoping for my Birthday to be down 1 -2 Pounds. <BR> <BR> I can totally do this. That, friends, would be the best Birthday present to me, ever. <BR> <BR> The Birthday is Next Tuesday. I know what it tak... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 12:24:31 EST Day 274 - One year in and Running Pains http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5282336 A year ago today I had what I'll call 'a moment.' <BR> <BR> I realized that in about a week I was going to turn 30. I realized that what I wanted in life was very, very far from my grasp. <BR> <BR> At 29 I'd traveled to lots of places, been very successful at my chosen profession, and I'd even settled into a job I loved. I was on the cusp of purchasing my first home and felt independent. <BR> <BR> But, I felt like I was missing something. <BR> <BR> First off, I knew I was unhealthy. I ... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 10:29:08 EST Day 265: Procrastination http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272432 Hey everyone! Here's a quick, overdue, and simple blog. <BR> <BR> I've missed you guys. <BR> <BR> First reason I've put this blog off: I wanted to do a vlog and show off my new haircut. <BR> <BR> It's short and fun. Just look up "Katherine Hegel short hair" and you'll see what it looks like. Now look at me and mentally slap that haircut on me. Yeah, that's right. I look just like Katherine Hegel now :-P <BR> <BR> Reason number 2: I got angry. <BR> <BR> Angry isn't even the word. I hav... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 09:52:00 EST Day 253 - A Rant Unrelated to Weight or Healthy living http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5265712 Good Morning Sparklers. <BR> <BR> For the first time in a very long time I lost sleep last night over an argument. <BR> <BR> It gets more ridiculous. I lost sleep over an argument with someone I have never personally met. <BR> <BR> Like a lot of people on this site I'm pretty "Online Social." I meet people through networks and we have those cursory sort of friendships where we comment on blogs and know quite a bit about one another's lives. Sometimes those friendships are more than curs... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 09:20:41 EST Day 252 - Victories and Struggles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263360 Happy lunch to you guys, Sparklers! <BR> <BR> As you guys may have seen from my previous blog - last night I had an epiphany and I had to declare it to the entire world. I'm a runner. Not a 'great' runner, or a 'talented' runner - but just a plain old runner. I run for fun and fitness. I like it. <BR> <BR> Today as I walked in all I wanted to do was tell the world, "Guess what? I run!" Because, well, up until now I've felt like I had no right to say such a thing. I don't know what switch f... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 12:20:26 EST I am a real runner - the day doesn't matter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262712 Quick blog before I go to bed. <BR> <BR> Simple statement: I am a real runner. <BR> <BR> I may be a slow runner. <BR> I may be uncoordinated. <BR> I certainly don't look like one and often don't feel like one. <BR> <BR> But I am one. <BR> <BR> I'm a woman who can run 10 miles. <BR> <BR> I'm a woman who finds joy in even breath and measured strides. <BR> <BR> I can run. <BR> <BR> I do run. <BR> <BR> I'm a runner. <BR> <BR> Not a fake runner. Not a jogger. Not someone who just... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 22:46:46 EST Day 245: Somethings even -I- won't blog about http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256336 I've blogged about a lot of things on here. Depression. Insecurity. Muscle Pain. Humility. (Well, and lots of positive things, too - like victory, pride, accomplishment.) <BR> <BR> There is one thing I won't blog about in any level of detail: the Gastro-Intestinal issues I've had for the last two-three days. Use your imagination. It's worse. <BR> <BR> Suffice it to say I'm still dealing with it and I am an unhappy camper. Hoping to have everything taken care of this evening so I can get bac... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 14:54:23 EST