FOREVERTWILIGHT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=FOREVERTWILIGHT FOREVERTWILIGHT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Doing a Happy Dance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5454850 I just weighed myself and I'm down a total of 13.4 pounds. Woo Hoo! <BR> <em>236</em> <em>236</em> <em>236</em> <BR> <BR> The other day it was too cold outside to wear capris. (What?! It's AUGUST.) I was literally down to one pair of capris that fit me pretty well, and one pair of jeans that kind of fit me but were really unflattering. I knew I had to wear the jeans. <BR> <BR> I slipped on the size 12 jeans, the ones that were too small when I started, (and when I DID wear them afte... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 09:30:07 EST Down 10.6 pounds! :D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5446211 I'm just four days shy of a month back here on Sparkpeople, and I'm down over 10 pounds! I can't believe that it's been almost a month. It feels like it's just been a few weeks. <BR> <BR> I'm starting to see a real difference in my body. My arms look thinner to me. My stomach seems flatter. My jeans that I was previously busting out of actually FIT. (They're even maybe a little loose.) I was squeezing into a size 12 when I was more realistically a size 14. Now the 12's fit right out of the d... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 09:30:02 EST Getting through those rough moments... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5422894 Well, I'm on day six, and I have to say that mostly it's been easier than I expected. I don't feel as guilty when I eat, because I'm tracking my food and I know that what I'm putting in my body is healthy and the portion is acceptable. This has helped me enjoy my food much more, which seems to be limiting my cravings. <BR> <BR> BUT <BR> <BR> When I do have a weak moment (or minute, of HOUR), it is TORTURE. About once a day, almost every day, I feel like I want to cry if I can't just go into... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 10:18:58 EST The Cake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5420728 I have to say, I am shocked at how well I've done this weekend. I used to go MIA from Sparkpeople from Friday evening until Monday morning. (And then feel super guilty when I logged in.) I have successfully counted my calories through the hardest part of the week. Now if I can just hang in there for the rest of the day... <BR> <BR> Yesterday was my Mom's birthday party, and I'm proud to say that even though my husband baked the cake, at our house, and the whole house smelled like temptation,... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 12:54:22 EST Down 3.8 Pounds! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5418972 I weighed myself this morning, after two full days of tracking my food, and was shocked to see that I am already 3.8 pounds down! I know that most of it is water weight, but it doesn't matter. For me it was permanent water weight that I was carrying with me from my poor diet, and it's gone. A pound is a pound! <BR> <BR> I've managed to come in exactly where I wanted to the past two days as far as calorie intake. I haven't eaten anything salty or fried or full of fat. I'm so proud of myself! ... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 14:08:43 EST One Down! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417724 Yesterday was my first complete day, and I have to say, I'm proud of myself. My calorie intake was perfect. I didn't work out, but I was very active. I cleaned for several hours, sweeping, mopping and vacuuming my whole house. I was actually out of breath and sweating when I was done. Whenever I talked on the phone, I walked, instead of sitting on the couch. I know it's not much, but I'm trying to take baby steps. I'm planning on doing a real workout today. (Wish me luck! It's been awhile.) <... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 10:38:00 EST So disappointed in myself... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5416612 I haven't been active on Sparkpeople in awhile. And I have the extra pounds to show for it... <BR> <BR> I've gained 27 pounds since my last blog entry about 11 months ago. <BR> I am so ashamed of myself. <BR> <BR> Why do I do this to myself?! Every time I think I have everything under control, I slide off of the wagon and destroy my body. I've worked out maybe three times in the past four months. <BR> <BR> I have to get this under control. <BR> Wed, 10 Jul 2013 10:44:44 EST The camera is my frenemy (and other ramblings) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5037207 So I've lost 19 pounds. Which is GREAT! (If you ignore the fact that I've now lost pounds 17, 18 and 19 a couple of times over the past few months.) I'm really not sure what is going on. Why can't I commit, and stick to it, and ignore those pesky cravings like I used to be able to? (I'm sorry, did I say "pesky"? I meant TORTUROUS.) <BR> <BR> I'm 5' 2" tall and my weight is kind of stuck around 146. I wish there was a way to just grow another three inches. It would probably be easier than dit... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 10:06:42 EST GO, DIRTY GIRL! (With Pics!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5024714 So it's official. As of Sunday I am a DIRTY GIRL! WOO HOOOO! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l868929758.jpg"> <BR> (I'm the blonde on the right.) <BR> <BR> I have to say, if you have not done a mud run, you SHOULD. It is a blast! What I loved about the Dirty Girl was that it was not a competitive event. This meant that people of all fitness levels felt comfortable participating. Some of the obstacles were a little tough, but you were free to walk around the ones you d... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 10:37:44 EST Emotional Binge Confession http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5019440 Over the last 72 hours I've received a lot of bad news. I would write about it all here, but it's not my personal business to share. I'll just say that it involves a sudden surgery with a possible cancerous diagnosis of someone that I love, and the unexpected death of a young person who I did not know personally, but who was close to someone I love. On top of being grief stricken for my loved one who is suffering from this death, I had a lot of old horrible feelings come bubbling to the surfa... Fri, 17 Aug 2012 12:29:18 EST Either way it's hard, right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5015039 I saw a motivational poster the other day that really stuck with me. It said something along the lines of, "Working out and dieting is hard. Being overweight is hard. CHOOSE YOUR HARD." When overwhelmed by temptation, or tired, or just sick of counting calories, I've often thought, "If I don't keep going with this, what's the alternative?" If you think about it, It's kind of the same sentiment. <BR> <BR> Yes, this whole process of losing weight is extremely challenging. It requires determina... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 11:51:57 EST Bite the bullet... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4975935 So it's been awhile. <BR> I have no good excuse. <BR> But I'm back. <BR> <BR> I have yet to bite the bullet and step on the scale. I will say that I've had good days with my diet, and I've had bad days with my diet. I've had quite a few in-between days too. I've worked out on average probably once every week and a half the past month. <BR> <BR> I don't know how this happened. I can't think of the first misstep on that slippery slope. The kids were sick with fevers, there were parties, birt... Wed, 18 Jul 2012 10:36:24 EST You do it or you don't. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4907172 When I was running yesterday, I started pondering this whole new healthy lifestyle thing. The weight loss. The increased strength, speed, endurance. I was thinking about how far I've come. But how did I get here? How did this happen when it didn't happen so many times before? <BR> <BR> Was it just the desire that drove me? Did I finally just WANT it bad enough? I'm sure that's a big part of it, but the times that I failed, I wanted it so bad I cried. What was the secret ingredient? <BR> <B... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 10:14:56 EST The worst AND the best. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4904048 I tried to go for a run on Memorial Day. At 4:30, on one of the hottest days of the year so far. (I think it was 85?) None of my shorts were clean and I had to wear rolled up capris. The wind was blowing, and you would think that would be a good thing, but the wind was HOT, and it was literally blowing me back, like running into a wind tunnel, and kicking up dirt into my eyes. It almost blew my hat right off of my head twice. It felt like the soles of my shoes were going to melt into the side... Wed, 30 May 2012 10:04:28 EST My First 5K Experience (Pics!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4882770 Wow. Running outside? Much different than running in the gym on a treadmill. (The HILLS! Particularly downhill was a trip!) I promised myself that I would practice running outside a little bit before the 5K on May 12th, but it never happened. It rained so much in the town that I live in during the weeks leading up to the 5K that a lot of people's basements were flooded. And when it wasn't raining, it was cloudy and looked like rain. Luckily, the day of the event itself it was beautiful outsid... Tue, 15 May 2012 15:01:00 EST 20 Pounds Down! :D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4868807 As of yesterday, I am officially 20 pounds down! 20.2, to be specific. I am SO HAPPY about this. 20 pounds is such a huge milestone. Of course, every single pound counts. My 6 pound loss was great. 13 pounds was wonderful. But, there is just something about that nice round 20 pounds that speaks to me and says, "You are committed to this. You are really doing it. You have the drive." <BR> <BR> A NSV (Non Scale Victory) I had yesterday was that ALL size 8's now fit! Before it was just a pair o... Sun, 6 May 2012 11:52:30 EST What May will Bring http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4862766 How short is a month, really? I know personally, April went by very fast. It seems like it was only a week ago that I flipped the page on my calendar and thought, "Spring is really coming!" Now it's already May. Spring is officially here. The trees have real leaves, not just bright little buds, and the Lily of the Valley we have in the front yard is blooming. <BR> <BR> When I think "big picture," about how fast time can go by, it really gives me some perspective. Two months can seem really f... Wed, 2 May 2012 09:57:59 EST Strength Training and Crazy Measurements http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4854604 I weighed in today after a week of VERY hard work and strict calorie tracking, and I lost 1 pound. I was not unhappy about it, although I had expected more. A pound is a nice solid loss. And it is a LOSS, which is awesome. (I still haven't forgotten how it felt to work just as hard for three weeks and see NO loss at all!) I was a little disappointed that I didn't meet my mini goal, which was to be down 20 pounds by tomorrow. (I'm down 18.6 now.) But this journey has been so unpredictable. <BR... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 09:46:40 EST Plateau Busted? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4848084 In a previous post I vented about only losing 1 pound after two weeks of hard work. Towards the end of the blog entry, I was feeling okay about it. After posting I decided to pull back and really look at the Big Picture. I went back and looked at my weight loss graph here on SP. <BR> <BR> My weight for the past three and a half weeks has been 148. I had a one pound loss somewhere in the middle of that, which I immediately regained and kept on. I now believe that I was dehydrated the day I ha... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 12:21:43 EST What we can learn... (Dying to Meet Him) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4844146 Sorry about the double post. <BR> I just wanted to share this because it has affected me more than I thought it would. <BR> <BR> I have been following the Christian Post blog, Dying to Meet Him for awhile now. Since the first post in January. It's written by a girl named Elle. She is 30 years old, and has done so much damage to her body with an eating disorder that she is dying. She writes very openly about her experiences. <BR> <BR> Here is a link to her first post: <BR> http://www.christi... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 13:24:39 EST Is it...the dreaded PLATEAU?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4843769 I just weighed myself. And after 2 weeks I'm down exactly 1 pound. It actually adds up to being down only .2 of a pound, because of the mysterious gain I had previously. (Apparently I'm now one of those rare specimens who can track every morsel of food I put into my mouth and work out really hard 5 days a week and GAIN weight.) So in the past three and a half weeks I have lost 1.4 pounds. <BR> <BR> I have had my off days. The last two weeks I was sick four days and blew my diet and didn't wo... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 09:15:16 EST Entered my first 5K! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4840996 I just got through entering my first 5K! I'm running the Sole Burner (American Cancer Society) on May 12th with my sister. <BR> <BR> I. AM SO. EXCITED! <BR> <em>224</em> <BR> I am seriously floating around on cloud 9. <BR> <BR> About this time a year ago I was sitting around eating whatever I wanted and slowly growing out of my clothes. I couldn't walk up the stairs with a basket of laundry without getting winded. The walk up the hill to the pavilion at my family reunion made me so out of... Wed, 18 Apr 2012 12:50:07 EST FINALLY feeling better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4837368 I feel like I haven't worked out in a year. Which is funny, because it's only been about four days. I was feeling pretty lousy about myself this morning, but after realizing that, I feel a lot better. I'm at a place where not working out for four days feels like FOREVER. That's pretty awesome. <BR> <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> My diet has been horrible. I didn't want to count calories while I had a fever, and then it went beyond that. It tuned into a four day pig-out festival. Yuck. I know. <BR> ... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 10:12:22 EST Way to go, body! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4829956 Well, I've survived Easter. I didn't do as well as I would have liked with my diet, but I guess I didn't do as poorly as I could have. If only my Mom wouldn't have pressed me to take a gallon size zip lock baggie full of rice krispie treats... Covered in some kind of gooey maple candy substance.. <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> And then there were leftovers still in the fridge yesterday... <BR> <BR> Okay! OKAY! Not looking back. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a good day. We didn't have quite so muc... Wed, 11 Apr 2012 09:07:53 EST Love Story http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4821696 Today I've been married to my husband George for nine years. NINE YEARS! <BR> I can hardly believe it. <BR> <em>337</em> <BR> <BR> It seems like just last week we were teenagers flirting in World History class. A few days ago we were married. Just yesterday we were pregnant with our first baby. And now here we are, over twelve years later, married for nine years. <BR> <BR> I know a lot of Sparkers on here are working hard for their upcoming wedding. But even though I've been married for s... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 11:03:02 EST Mind Games! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4820082 I'm standing in my bathroom in front of the scale. My heart is beating in my ears. Just one small step and I'll see how all of the hard work and self control the past four days has paid off. I almost can't make myself do it, but at the same time, I can't NOT do it. I finally step on the scale, I close my eyes, take a deep breath, I look down... <BR> <BR> And I've gained almost an entire pound. <BR> WHAT?! <BR> <BR> Crestfallen. <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> But there's still HOPE! <BR> I ca... Wed, 4 Apr 2012 10:44:45 EST light bulb! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4813619 I was SO down yesterday. Seeing a gain on the scale AND the tape after so much hard work really threw me for a loop. BUT, today I weighed in again, and I'm actually down almost a whole pound! (So it was about a pound and a half less than my weigh in yesterday.) It's still not exactly what I was looking for after a week, but it's a loss, and I wont complain. The scale is moving in the right direction, and that's what's important. It would be nice to hit all of my weight loss goals, but my bigg... Sat, 31 Mar 2012 13:11:10 EST Trying not to sink... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4811989 I am so discouraged right now. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out. <BR> I stepped on the scale this morning, and I'm up half of a pound. Normally I would get a little irritated, and then brush it off. But I have been doing so well. Better than I usually do. It just doesn't make sense. <BR> <BR> The last week I have spent almost every single day at the Y. On cardio days I've been on the treadmill, pushing it as hard as my body will allow for an hour. I run for about 80% of t... Fri, 30 Mar 2012 10:03:03 EST The Y http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4809187 I have been going to the YMCA consistently for the past four days. I know this doesn't seem like a big deal, but it really really is for me. I have had a gym phobia since...well, since forever. <BR> <BR> I'm 30 years old and I've never actually had a gym membership. This is my very first time. I guess I always pictured the gym as a place where really tan buff guys go to growl at each other and admire their muscles in ceiling to floor mirrors. And where skinny bubblegum popping 20-something ... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 14:37:37 EST Girl on Fire http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4803766 The last couple of weeks have been really hard. I haven't been sparking as much. Not because I just forgot about sparkpeople or my sparkfriends. I just felt like I was losing my spark. I'm the type of person that gets introverted when I'm depressed or having problems. Part of it is because depression makes me lazy. Part of it is because I was embarrassed to be struggling so much for so long. (I wish I could be as forgiving of myself as I am of other people.) And a big part of it is that I fee... Sun, 25 Mar 2012 10:26:02 EST DON'T PANIC http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4788691 Okay. I just weighed myself. For the first time in about 5 weeks. (Since a few days before my second surgery.) <BR> <BR> I have gained 2.2 pounds. <BR> <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> It was difficult to log, but even more difficult to type out in a sentence. <BR> Does anyone have a paper bag for me to breathe into? <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> As upsetting as this is, I'm not going to panic. It was for a good cause. I wanted to be sure that I was going to heal properly, and that meant no calori... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 09:34:32 EST Phew! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4787326 It got rocky there for a little while, but it gives me pleasure to report that I am back on track! And it feels GOOD. Awesome! Phenomenal!!! <BR> (Triple exclamation point phenomenal!) <BR> <BR> Yesterday I came in right where I was supposed to with my calories. I did not eat one bad thing. I also worked out pretty hard. (As hard as I dared. I'm still testing the waters. I know my body isn't fully healed yet.) Today is setting up to be the same. I'm right where I should be for calories befor... Wed, 14 Mar 2012 12:53:38 EST Riding the Fence http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4781799 I've been riding the fence the last couple of days. Friday started off well, and then by dinner time I fell off onto the dark side. This is almost painful to write... <BR> <BR> I ate TWO cupcakes. Yes. Two. <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> And these weren't those fluffy, small 200 calorie cupcakes. They were the huge, dense cupcakes with heavy butter-cream frosting. In all fairness, I did not seek these out. Some of the parents from my son's class have gotten together and have been providing d... Sun, 11 Mar 2012 10:56:27 EST The spirit is willing... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4779105 But, alas, the flesh is weak. <BR> *sigh* <BR> <BR> I was more active yesterday than I have been since my first surgery. I did the dishes, swept the kitchen, cleaned the cat's litter box, and vacuumed. By the time I was done vacuuming I had a sharp pain in the middle of my lower abdomen. <BR> <BR> I guess this process is going to be slower than I originally thought. It doesn't help that I have a horrible cold. Usually when I get a cold I'm tired and congested for a few days, and then there'... Fri, 9 Mar 2012 12:01:22 EST SO happy to be here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4777126 It's been awhile. (What seems like forever.) I'm happy to say that after two surgeries, I am officially off restriction! I got the all clear from the doctor yesterday to resume normal activity, including WORKING OUT! <BR> <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I'm still going to have to take it slowly. My body is still healing on the inside and I get tired very easily. It could take 6 months to a year to be truly fully recovered. I did stop counting calories, but it wasn't because I gave up. It was actua... Thu, 8 Mar 2012 10:02:54 EST Another episode. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4723332 I'm typing this on my phone, so it will be short. Please excuse any typos. <BR> <BR> I ended up in the ER again on Friday night. Fortunately the bleeding slowed significantly on its own. I had another exam with inconclusive results. The blood work they did came back normal, thank God. So they sent me home and my doctor is going to see me first thing on Monday instead of waiting until the 8th. <BR> <BR> Hopefully this will be resolved quickly with no more recovery time added! <BR> <BR> In t... Sun, 5 Feb 2012 11:29:03 EST Quick Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4720158 I can't sit up for long, so I'm just going to give a quick update about why I've been MIA. <BR> <BR> I ended up in the ER the other night because of some bleeding issues. After seeing my own doctor just a couple of hours later I was told to stay off of my feet as much as possible. I've been in bed most of the time, and that seems to have helped. <BR> <BR> If I have another episode like that, or this doesn't get significantly better by my next appointment on the 8th, the doctor is going to h... Fri, 3 Feb 2012 10:15:06 EST Not what I expected. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4710336 On Friday night my husband took me out to dinner. We decided to go to Red Lobster because we hadn't been there in a few years, and I had this overwhelming craving for the Parrot Isle Coconut Shrimp. (With the yummy pineapple dipping sauce.) This was not like the pizza I indulged in not that long ago. This free meal was planned. <BR> <BR> There's a couple of reasons I did this. One, is that it will shake up my metabolism a little bit, and could potentially help boost my weight loss. I'm very ... Sun, 29 Jan 2012 13:32:28 EST 50 days of no more excuses http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4706935 Yesterday was my 50th day being active again on SP. Since December 8th I have survived 2 major holidays, both of my kids birthday parties, my husband's birthday, and a major abdominal surgery. I have still lost 12.4 pounds. That averages to about a quarter of a pound a day. <BR> <BR> I should be jumping for joy. And don't get me wrong, I am very proud of myself, and very happy. But it makes me wonder why I couldn't do it before. When NOTHING was standing in my way. I had so many excuses. I w... Fri, 27 Jan 2012 11:27:27 EST The Grind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4704873 This is how I feel right now. <BR> I wake up. I sit around. I track my food. I spark. I read. I watch tv. I play Sims 3. I go to bed. <BR> Now repeat... <BR> Over and over and again. <BR> <BR> I'm getting so restless. I'm bored out of my mind! I watch the Biggest Loser, and it motivates me, but at the same time it makes me frustrated that I can't work out. I think it would help if I got out of the house a little more. I haven't been out since Saturday. All of my friends and family are usuall... Thu, 26 Jan 2012 09:41:02 EST Wow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4700956 That's all I have to say. Just, WOW! <BR> I woke up this morning, and I measured my waist at belly button level. (Lower than my natural waist, where I carry a lot of my abdominal fat.) I told myself that I wasn't going to weigh myself again today unless that measurement was significantly less. It sounds neurotic to do that every day, but I've been tracking the swelling. It makes me feel less helpless. If I can't do anything to speed along this healing process, at least I can cheer my body on ... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 11:28:01 EST First time after surgery... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4698417 It's been two weeks since I had surgery, and I just weighed and measured myself for the first time. <BR> I was nervous. <BR> But I did it... <BR> and I was VICTORIOUS! <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Through this whole traumatic process I have still managed to lose 2.8 pounds! (I think I'm still swollen, so I'm still very curious about what the scale will say next time.) I also lost on the tape. The biggest drop was the .75 of an inch I lost on my hips. I also lost a quarter of an inch on my... Mon, 23 Jan 2012 09:20:35 EST By leaps and bounds! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4694822 I woke up feeling fantastic today! I actually got a really good nights sleep for the first time in about 3 weeks. My stomach swelling is going down rapidly, so I can sleep on my side much easier. I can't tell you how good that feels. <BR> <BR> I honestly did not expect to feel this good less than 2 weeks out of surgery. I actually feel better than I did before the surgery! I probably could have said that a couple of days ago, as long as I was keeping up on my ibuprofen. Which says a lot abou... Sat, 21 Jan 2012 09:18:11 EST Pizza & Positive Thinking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4691073 I ate pizza last night. Three slices. About 900 calories worth of pizza. <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> I did track it, and I didn't eat anything else for the rest of the night. (How could I? I was stuffed.) I ended up coming in at 1500 calories. I know that's not a terrible number. I just know I was over on my fat, and I don't even want to think about the saturated fat and all the other icky stuff. Normally this wouldn't shake me too much. It's not that big of a deal. I've had pizza one time ... Thu, 19 Jan 2012 11:06:39 EST I made it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4689236 I first just want to say that I have the most awesome bunch of spark friends ever. I'm so grateful for all of your well wishes and thoughts and especially for your prayers. You guys rock! <BR> <BR> Now on to the nitty-gritty. <BR> This is about to get gross, so like I always say, if you're squeamish (or male) read no further. <BR> <BR> Surgery went well. There was one unexpected thing, and that was that the doctor did find endometriosis. There was a film of it on my bladder and a few other ... Wed, 18 Jan 2012 13:42:04 EST Tomorrow...*sigh* http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4668434 I'm going to be MIA for a few days. Tomorrow I go in for surgery. <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Because I can't eat from the time I go to bed tonight (Nothing after midnight.) until probably 3 or 4 in the afternoon tomorrow, I'm not counting calories today. I'll only get to eat that early if I'm not throwing up or sick to my stomach when I wake up. I'm just going to try to make smart decisions, and aim for about 1500 to 1700 calories. So far for breakfast I've had a serving of Quaker weight c... Mon, 9 Jan 2012 11:09:23 EST 1 Month Results! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4665860 I started my new program on December 8th, so today is the one month mark. I just finished weighing and measuring myself, and I have to say, I am very VERY happy with the results. Not only did I have the holidays to contend with, but both of my children and my husband had birthdays within this month as well! <BR> <BR> So here goes... <BR> Drum roll please... <BR> <BR> I have lost EIGHT POUNDS! <BR> <em>346</em> <BR> <BR> On the tape... <BR> <em>207</em> <BR> <BR> Chest: Down a total of... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 10:34:57 EST Happy Birthday to my Little Buddy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4663598 Today is my son's 7th birthday! <BR> <em>409</em> <em>410</em> <em>19</em> <em>409</em> <em>410</em> <em>19</em> <em>409</em> <em>410</em> <em>19</em> <BR> Boy, does time fly! <BR> <BR> This is really brutal. My daughter's birthday is in December, then Christmas, then New Years, and then my son's birthday is a week later. So much temptation in such a short period of time! It's like a trial by fire. <BR> <BR> The party is today. Another birthday cake to cut. More cheeses and cracke... Sat, 7 Jan 2012 09:39:48 EST Pushing through it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4662255 This morning I woke up feeling awful. <BR> AGAIN. <BR> I had a HORRIBLE migraine. It felt like someone was trying to crack my skull open like a walnut. From the top of my head down to the bridge of my nose, and across my face from ear to ear, nothing but horrible pain. I could barely open my eyes because even the dimmest light made my head feel like it was going to explode. I took some Excedrine Migraine, and it got much better. I still have some pain, but it definitely helped a lot. I knew ... Fri, 6 Jan 2012 15:07:53 EST Blah. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4659227 <em>39</em> <BR> That is how I was feeling last night. Just...Blah. <BR> Warning! this is going to get icky and personal, so if you're squeamish, (or male) read no further. <BR> <BR> I had my pre-op appointment, where the doctor describes in vivid detail all of the horrible things he will do to me when I'm unconscious. It was in the afternoon, so naturally I was in a lot of pain. I knew because of how uncomfortable I was that I was due for my "monthly visitor." It gets extra bad around tha... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 10:37:32 EST