FL_SUNSHINE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=FL%5FSUNSHINE FL_SUNSHINE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Fast Break - Post Yo Goals! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4633845 I'm also going to post it on my computer desktop, because I'm on my computer ALL THE FREAKING TIME!!! <BR> <BR> Fast Break Goals: <BR> <BR> *Stretch 5 min/day (I do this most days at school, but NEVER at home! And it feels SO good!!!) <BR> <BR> *Drink (8) 8oz glasses of water each day (I'm going to fill a pitcher with the amount of water and go from there. I drink WAY too much diet pepsi (if that's possible!!!) <BR> <BR> *Post my Goals where I can see them. Okay...here's the real rea... Wed, 21 Dec 2011 10:14:57 EST Dec 21, 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4633819 A year ago today, David was getting ready to propose to me. I think we had a relatively quiet day filled with video games and naps. Oh, and he was FREAKING OUT! lol He was all on pins and needles because the next day he'd get the ring back from the jeweler and he would propose to me. Quite sweet actually. :) <BR> <BR> Anyhoo, I've been feeling...ick...in regards to my weight lately. More than that, I've been having issues with my wedding band. Mind you, it fit before I tried to get i... Wed, 21 Dec 2011 09:57:22 EST February 2, 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3985491 I can't believe my last blog post was in 2009. I honestly don't know if anyone is reading this anymore, but I feel compelled to write tonight. I have been feeling just awful about myself lately. It wasn't until I said the words out loud to my fiance, David (Yes, FIANCE!), that I was motivated to start to do something about it. I'm going to get my good habits back in place. Today I started tracking my food again. Having an android phone makes this MUCH easier than it was before. I can ... Wed, 2 Feb 2011 22:07:31 EST 5 Point Challenge....Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2079876 Yup...there was no Day 2 because I didn't do anything good yesterday. :P <BR> <BR> <BR> Today, I think I've made some pretty good food choices today. Baked potato over mashed, green beans over fatty salad dressing, steak over quesadilla, cheerios w/ banana over scrambled egg and ham sandwich...so I'm pleased with those choices. <BR> <BR> I haven't done any exercise yet, and I can give you all the excuses in the world, but I won't. I did dance around with my kids during youth choir today... Wed, 20 May 2009 20:58:09 EST 5 Point Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2073530 So, today I get two points: one for this blog and one for my water. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I'll shoot for three. I'm gonna throw in some sort of exercise...maybe some strength with squats. <BR> <BR> Baby steps! Mon, 18 May 2009 21:11:59 EST Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep............... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1939385 So, I finished Twilight last night. <BR> <BR> he he <BR> <BR> And I'm very pleased. Now I've just got to watch the movie. : ) <BR> <BR> Oh, and I am SO tired today because I haven't been sleeping because I've been reading, but that's okay. This is a series I will TOTALLY read again. <BR> <BR> And I've still been being nice to myself. Success there! <BR> <BR> Our Palm Sunday cantata rehearsals went REALLY well, so I'm excited about it. I'll still be freaking out and super anxious...... Fri, 3 Apr 2009 09:51:13 EST Dreams http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1929506 So, yesterday was a better day. Not productive at all, but better emotionally and mentally. I have a few friends who, I've learned, have similar "bad self-talk" issues. I wonder how much of this is a woman thing? My best guy friend asked me about that once. His wife doesn't and he has NO idea why it's so easy to believe all the bad stuff. I know it's not going to be this monumentous change overnight, but I didn't cry at all yesterday, which is a plus on the two previous days. <BR> <BR>... Tue, 31 Mar 2009 11:15:13 EST Taking care of myself: Step #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1926080 Okay, so the first thing I'm going to do to try to get the health part of my life back on track is blog. This is a "safe place" for me to share my feelings and what's going on, and when I check in more often, I feel more connected. I'm not sure if I'm going to blog EVERY day, but at least once a week, if not more. <BR> <BR> When I start to focus on "weight loss", I go crazy. It bothers me when what someone ate that day is the only thing they can talk about, myself included. I have a HORR... Mon, 30 Mar 2009 11:49:22 EST I'm moving to Jacksonville!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1876219 So, I just got off the phone with the principal, and I told her I'm in! :) She was happy. Now, because of all the budget stuff, they can only hire me on as a part timer. Which means I'll have to get another part time job of some sort to make ends meet, but I'll get my teacher's certification while I'm teaching, and I'll be starting a new chapter in my life. Yay! Also, she offered me the first floor of her house if I need a place to stay when I first move out there. Isn't that sweet? :... Fri, 13 Mar 2009 13:36:09 EST Insomnia http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1874979 My sleep schedule has been SO messed up lately. First I blamed it on the time change. Then I blamed it on stress. I think stress has a little bit to do with it, but I'm just...lonely. Not lonely in a "oh, I'm so blue" type of way. Just lonely in the "I'm missing having a person" type of way. My bro in law asked me the other day if I knew the real reason my ex left me (this was a 4-year relationship that ended in 2005). I thought about it and had some answers, but I'll never really know... Fri, 13 Mar 2009 01:46:44 EST Headed to Jacksonville http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1808969 Well, I'm leaving today to go visit my college friends, Shawn & Staci, in Jacksonville. Thursday and Friday I will be teaching at the middle school, doing masterclasses with the different choirs. The principal will be observing to see how I work with the students. Hopefully this will solidify the fact that they want me to teach there in the Fall. <BR> <BR> Things are kinda crazy right now with the economy and people losing jobs. If I do get this position, I will consider myself blessed a... Wed, 18 Feb 2009 11:10:30 EST Pretty good day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1742186 So, I've been conscious of my choices today. Until I changed my physical activity for the week, I was within my calorie range! Woo! But I'm not anymore. ha! But I am below 2000 for the day, and I'm pretty darn sure I haven't done that in a long time. I'm not hungry. It's 8:09pm. My Dad just bought ice cream and apple pie. I'm not going to have any. And if you read this, ask me tomorrow if I ate anything else. KEEP ME ACCOUNTABLE!!! <BR> <BR> But PLEASE be nice!!! :D <BR> <B... Mon, 26 Jan 2009 20:10:04 EST Love Yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1693585 I got this in my inbox today through Spark. I get daily quotes/reflections sent to me and this one kind of hit home. <BR> <BR> ********************************* <BR> <BR> "Self-love is the only weight-loss aid that really works in the long run." <BR> <BR> - Jenny Craig, diet guru <BR> <BR> Battle scars from the Diet War <BR> <BR> Like Martha Graham, who said that "The body is a sacred garment. It's your first and last garment; it is what you enter life in and what you depart life wit... Tue, 13 Jan 2009 09:37:19 EST a better day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1691604 First, I want to say <em>304</em> to all of my wonderful friends who have given me nothing but love and support. I don't know why I've been so all over the board lately, but today was a much better day. Here are some things I did differently: <BR> <BR> *I watched less tv <BR> <BR> *When I went to the fridge to "eat just because", I chose an apple. It was very good, and it held me over a lot longer than a piece of pizza would have. <BR> <BR> *I did not eat out at all...didn't even pick... Mon, 12 Jan 2009 20:12:07 EST i feel crazy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1683486 Every time I think about trying to eat better, it seems like I do worse. This knee-jerk reaction of feeling deprived and not able to do it kicks in. I....simply don't know. <BR> <BR> My ankles are swollen today...probably haven't had enough water, but I'm gaining...and the last time my ankles were swollen it was directly related to my weight. I'm ....sad that I feel this way. The last time I got up here was in AZ, and I was not happy. So, I'm here now and it's happening again. But I ca... Sat, 10 Jan 2009 20:51:39 EST It's 12:00am....do you know where your snack is? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1666869 NOT in my belly! I just thought about going to get some food....just because. I'm not hungry....was just gonna get something. There's not anything good to GET! <BR> <BR> But I'm not going to. <BR> <BR> On a different note, my sister gave me a baby play pen gate thingie. I'm using it for my cat, Mai Ling. She's kinda senile....gets lost behind doors, sinks, toilets, under the futon....so I have her set up on the floor (no more ungraceful fall/jumps off the futon) with cushions, towels &... Wed, 7 Jan 2009 00:01:32 EST 1573 by 2:29pm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1664111 That's what I'm up to calorie-wise. If I stayed within my calories today, I'd only get 300 more for the day. In my world, that's not realistic. It's the little things that are adding up, so now I know what to better work on tomorrow. And I'm going to try for no late night snacking. I can feel the weight I've gained...uncomfortable bras, wearing the same 4 shirts over and over...yikes. Though, I was able to find a new pair of jeans a few weeks ago... <BR> <BR> It's stress. I know it's ... Tue, 6 Jan 2009 14:31:47 EST Letter to Self http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1629816 Gerard J.Musante: Psychologist and founder of the residential facility Structure Housein Durham, N.C. <BR> <BR> "Write yourself a letter. Start with 'Dear Me,' and describe what it's like to be you right now. Let yourself know how dissatisfied you are. Capture everything you are feeling now so that you can read it in the future to help you maintain your motivation." <BR> <BR> ****************************************<BR>************************* <BR> So, I read this article above and thought... Mon, 29 Dec 2008 13:29:25 EST 2008: the good, the bad, and the messy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1626619 So, I'm supposed to reflect on the year...See what went well, see where I went wrong, see what I can take to help me succeed next year. Here goes! <BR> <BR> What experiences helped me grow? <BR> <BR> This has nothing to do with food, but I have been to more funerals this past year than I've ever wanted to attend in my entire lifetime. I've gotten to the point where I don't have a complete nervous/emotional/mental breakdown when this occurs. I'd say that is part of the growing experience.... Sat, 27 Dec 2008 22:44:46 EST Blowin' it = Blowin' up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1613159 So, I've pretty much sucked today. Breakfast was good, but it was all downhill from there. First there was the waiting too long to eat something thing, then there was the plain ol stuffing my face thing. It's funny, because I know I shouldn't be eating it when I'm eating it, but I eat it anyway. I weighed myself this morning. Part of me thinks I should put the scale away for a while. I think that just because I start to make changes for the better that I'll see results right away. Yeah... Tue, 16 Dec 2008 15:53:28 EST bloggin' fool! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1611976 So, this is my third blog for the day...is that a good thing? Or a sign I'm spending way too much time on the computer. Let's ponder that. <BR> <BR> So for lunch I wanted Chinese food, but I just couldn't bring myself to go in there. I knew it would make me sick, and there was NO way I'd be able to track that. So then I stopped by Tijuana Flats....walked away from that one. I know! Olive Garden soup, salad, & breadsticks. Did you know that a single breadstick has something like 120 ca... Mon, 15 Dec 2008 20:49:23 EST Help! I need suggestions! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1611906 I need to get outta the house tomorrow. Can you give me suggestions of things to do that don't require spending money or lotsa gas? It's not snowing here...in fact, the weather was rather nice today. I seriously need to de-stress. I will take any and all suggestions. Thank you! Mon, 15 Dec 2008 20:01:17 EST Cool stuff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1611187 It's been so long since I tracked my food, I didn't notice the updates! Now it not only tells you the total for the day, but the total for each meal, AND how many remaining calories/carbs/fats/proteins you have for the day. That's awesome! <BR> <BR> Oh, and I worked out today. I found exercisetv on brighthouse ( I believe they have a website too). It's pretty cool! I did about 5 minutes with Jillian Michaels (and realized she's smokin' crack!), then I did 2 minute tank top arms, then I ... Mon, 15 Dec 2008 11:12:08 EST Thank you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1607200 I cannot get over the support that I have in the members on this site. Seriously Ladies, thank you. The first instinct was "What can we do to help?" I love you gals. <BR> <BR> Well, I input my stats, went with Angela's suggestion of being able to lose what I put on by March, and am going to try to get back on track with making healthier decisions. <BR> <BR> What happened? Stress. Stress and my inability to monitor it and keep it in check. My go-to is food, and even though I know on ... Thu, 11 Dec 2008 23:38:02 EST I want to scream! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1606682 Apparently I'm not "kickin'" as hard as I should be. <BR> <BR> I'm SO MAD right now, so this email will be slightly altered so as not to sound like a sailor. I've gained weight...I think I'm up to 310lbs right now. What's that....+22 lbs? Yeah, I'm a rockstar. So, I was wearing a pair of jeans on Thanksgiving, there was a nail sticking out of my sister's sofa. I went all day without a hitch, but right before I'm getting ready to leave, my jeans get snagged. Yup, I have a hole now. So,... Thu, 11 Dec 2008 16:03:31 EST Still kickin'... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1536269 I've been MIA...though there hasn't been much action going on. <BR> <BR> Weight loss I have none, and I haven't been doing much exercise either. <BR> <BR> On the flip side, my possible teaching job is progressing. I'm going up to the school next week to do a 2-day masterclass...and while I'm there the principal wants to see me work with the classes. And she may want to ask me a few questions...i.e. "What can I bring to this program? How would I change it?" Let's just say I've got a li... Tue, 28 Oct 2008 09:53:00 EST I worked out 4 times last week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1509359 ...even worked making pizzas for 2 mornings, which is an on your feet type of thing. <BR> <BR> I didn't eat more than I usually do. <BR> <BR> I gained weight. <BR> <BR> Isn't that awesome?! Mon, 13 Oct 2008 11:35:01 EST Wha....?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1504100 So, Saturday I moved pumpkins. <BR> <BR> Monday I went to the YMCA, 30 minutes on the eliptical + strength training. <BR> <BR> Tuesday I went to the YMCA...30 minutes on the eliptical. <BR> <BR> Wednesday was a LONG day at church and work. Good day, but long. I didn't make it to the Y, and I was sad... I was looking forward to working out. Wha....?! <BR> <BR> Thursday (Today), I woke up at 8:30am, went to the YMCA...30 minutes on the eliptical to then come home, shower, eat breakfast,... Thu, 9 Oct 2008 20:32:09 EST 44,000 lbs of pumpkins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1497390 The pumpkins are coming, the pumpkins are coming!!! <BR> <BR> Saturday a big truck pulled up to my church with 44,000 lbs of pumpkins for our yearly pumpkin patch. We started at 9am, finished a little bit before noon...and it was awesome! :) This girl right here helped moved ALL the pumpkins and I feel so strong! Besides a bruise on my chest from almost being impaled by a pumpkin handle, I'm good! When I woke on Sunday I could feel the muscles in my chest, arms, shoulders and legs. It ... Mon, 6 Oct 2008 10:52:47 EST I feel better today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1494985 Thanks for being there for me. :) Sat, 4 Oct 2008 18:44:59 EST RANT http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1494160 Well...I guess it's not much of a rant, as the yelling and pure blind anger is gone because I'm tired. <BR> <BR> Today I seriously considered taking up a new eating disorder. Obviously I already have one if it's possible for me to gain 20 lbs over the span of 4 months. So, why not find one that is on the other side of the spectrum? <BR> <BR> Why? Because it's not a joke. <BR> <BR> And today I threw blame around all over the place. Do you know how HARD it is to change habits that were... Sat, 4 Oct 2008 01:49:09 EST My clothes don't fit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1484957 Well, I can still get them on my body, but I feel like a sausage when I'm wearing them. <BR> <BR> Why? <BR> <BR> I've gained....I can't believe I'm going to say this...19 lbs. <BR> <BR> Yup. <BR> <BR> This doesn't happen overnight, but apparently in my world, it doesn't take very long. I remember, back about 4 months, weighing 288lbs. Today, I weighed myself and weighed 307.4. <BR> <BR> That is a GAIN of 5 lbs/month. WOW! <BR> <BR> How does one do this? Rather, how did *I, ME, ... Mon, 29 Sep 2008 11:28:19 EST Goals for Today, 9/16/08 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1461519 <em>194</em> <BR> <BR> <em>140</em> <BR> <BR> <em>265</em> Tue, 16 Sep 2008 09:05:24 EST It's not okay. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1460514 304lbs <BR> <BR> Yup. That's what I weigh right now. No exercise and eating pretty much whatever I want...even when I'm not hungry. <BR> <BR> It's not okay. And who cares that I'm still signing into Spark if my weight is just going up? What's so freakin' hard about it? Eat less, exercise more. That's what you do if you want to lose weight. I know there's other crap. But it's all just an excuse. <BR> <BR> Frankly, I don't even know that I can see myself thin. <BR> <BR> Uhhhh...... Mon, 15 Sep 2008 17:30:26 EST Still not there... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1449642 So, I've been more conscious of what I've been eating, but haven't been making the best choices ALL the time. I still haven't gotten to the gym either. <BR> <BR> I'm really hating my clothes, clothing options in stores, the fact that I can't buy cute shoes (size 12W ladies - Mens sneakers, Payless MAYBE, or $70+ online...that's really expensive for shoes), and I've been dwelling on comments that have destroyed me in the past in regards to my weight, clothing choices, and food. I'm consci... Tue, 9 Sep 2008 12:50:17 EST State to hit obese workers with 'fat fee' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1442295 "Alabama state employees who don't try to lose weight will have to pay part of their health insurance premiums." <BR> <BR> <link>articles.moneycentral.msn.com/Insura<BR>nce/InsureYourHealth/AlabamaHitsObeseW<BR>orkersWithFee.aspx </link> Fri, 5 Sep 2008 08:54:06 EST loss? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1440432 Well, I weighed myself today, and I'm down 1.2 lbs. 300.4. <BR> <BR> I haven't been SPECTACULAR with my water, but I have been drinking a lot more. I've still been a snacking banshee though, so I'm gonna stop that. I'm just not comfortable right now with how my clothes are fitting or not fitting. I'm hoping I'll have some money left over from my paycheck so I can buy some healthy food and actually EAT it. Thu, 4 Sep 2008 09:24:30 EST Up, up and away http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1429434 So, I'm back where I said I would never be...but what can one expect with dessert every night or chips as a snack? <BR> <BR> 301.6 to be exact. Did I need a seatbelt extender on the airplane? No, thankfully. But this is just ridiculous. <BR> <BR> I've been very upset/pis$ed about my weight and what people think about my weight loss. It's this feeling that I will hold more value as a person if/when I lose weight...but currently I'm not worth that much because I'm fat. And yes, I do real... Fri, 29 Aug 2008 09:59:19 EST unhinge jaw, insert food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1387889 lol, seriously not good. <BR> <BR> Anyhoo, I talked to my pastor a bit today. Told him I was a wreck, emotional, sad, crying, angry...that I couldn't handle stuff like that. I didn't cry, but I was teary and laughing all at the same time. It was after I heard today that I needed to sing TWO songs for the service tomorrow, saw the bulletin w/ Aaron's picture on the front (the young man who passed was only 29), and saw that the final song being played as people exit is from Boys II Men "So ... Thu, 7 Aug 2008 23:24:54 EST bad food day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1384923 ...and I don't think it's gonna get much better. <BR> <BR> I'm a church music director...in case you didn't know. Something that I've been called on to do is sing at funerals/memorial services. Before I started working at this church, I had never been to a funeral, and I was perfectly fine with that. Well, so far I've had to do 3...all in a row. This was a few months ago. Not good, didn't like it, but did it anyway. <BR> <BR> Is this in my job description? Not specifically. I've even... Wed, 6 Aug 2008 15:37:19 EST Day 1 of Micro Mania!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1383019 So, it's 7:23pm. I can't really eat anything else for the rest of the day. I'm having issues with this. <BR> <BR> I've done pretty well so far, but apparently "lost it" at dinner time because I had a bun w/ my hamburger. Are you freakin' kidding me?! So, I'm PUNISHED and can no longer have a bun with my burger and can not eat anything for the rest of the night. Yeah yeah, I know what you're thinking..."it's not punishment..." Or maybe you're not thinking that, but I AM!!! lol <BR> ... Tue, 5 Aug 2008 19:29:18 EST small victories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1378557 So, yesterday I gulped down ALL my water. <BR> <BR> Today, (victory #1) I didn't eat ice cream. <em>100</em> It's a crazy smile because I was even OFFERED GOOD ice cream, but chose to be responsible and get to church early to get some stuff done. I had to go to the church office to get some music and I walked instead of taking my car (victory #2). It's not that far, but it's like parking further away from the store, ya know? <BR> <BR> On my way home, I was HUNGRY. (victory #3) No b... Sun, 3 Aug 2008 22:26:59 EST glub...glub...glub.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1376765 <em>91</em> <BR> <BR> <em>91</em> <BR> <BR> <em>91</em> <BR> <BR> <em>91</em> <BR> <BR> <em>91</em> <em>29</em> <BR> <BR> <em>91</em> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> <em>91</em> <em>15</em> <BR> <BR> <em>91</em> <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!! <em>104</em> Sat, 2 Aug 2008 22:27:21 EST Day 1 run-down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1376644 <em>42</em> <BR> <BR> Yeah...so, no walk. Ice cream consumed. WAY over my calories. Still want to eat even though I'm not hungry. <BR> <BR> But I'm on my 5th glass of water. I think I'll float away if I drink more, but I'm gonna have to float if I want to at least reach ONE Of my goals! <em>48</em> <BR> <BR> Oh, and I got an increase on my credit card limit. EVIL PEOPLE!!! So, I'm going to make believe it's not there. I DON'T NEED MORE DEBT, PEOPLE!!!! Sat, 2 Aug 2008 21:09:12 EST Day 1 hahahaha http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1376089 Okay, today I say "enough is enough". <BR> <BR> What am I going to do? Well, I've tracked my food. I plan on going out for a walk with my sister. I WILL NOT eat any ice cream today. And....I'm going to try to drink all 8 glasses of water. Yup. That's my plan. <BR> <BR> Wish me luck! <BR> <BR> ********************************** <BR> So, it's probably 2 hrs since writing this blog...and I ate ice cream. Yup. Why? Many reasons: "If you eat it now, then you won't have to eat it l... Sat, 2 Aug 2008 13:49:03 EST day 2? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1366959 So, yesterday, I tracked EVERYTHING. Didn't measure out things, but I've been doing this long enough to know how many is too many tortilla chips...and that 4 cupcakes is too many. Yup, you heard me. I ate FOUR cupcakes...broken up into two different times of day, but still. Anyhoo, I ended the day at 2330 calories. Now, that is with my being CONSCIOUS of all my decisions...and caring at least a little bit. <BR> <BR> Today is day 2 of a number of uncountable days. I had a late breakfas... Tue, 29 Jul 2008 12:24:14 EST YIKES! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1364474 I'm gonna track today, even if it KILLS me...which I know it won't. Even though I might die inside a little bit. <BR> <BR> All I've tracked is breakfast and a snack and I'm almost up to 1100 calories. <BR> <BR> wow <BR> <BR> And this is with me being conscious of what I'm putting in my mouth. And also thinking about how much WORSE the past couple of weeks have been. <BR> <BR> Okay...I'm tracking for the rest of the day. See what kind of damage I do. <BR> <BR> Wish me luck. Mon, 28 Jul 2008 12:55:54 EST I'm an Auntie! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1362361 ...AGAIN! :) <BR> <BR> My best friend Becky just had her first baby - it's a girl! Her name is Daphne Victoria. She's SO beautiful and so perfect. Mommy, Daddy, and Daphne are all doing very well. <BR> <BR> There is a little cause for concern though. Daphne, otherwise very healthy, has vertical twitching of her eyes/eyelids. It's sporadic, but the doctor's aren't quite sure why. She's going to have a catscan tomorrow to check it out, so if you could please keep Daphne and her famil... Sun, 27 Jul 2008 14:50:02 EST Ummm....no http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1352971 I've not been doing well. Eating poorly, not exercising. <BR> <BR> That's about it. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone is doing better than me with their eating and exercise. Keep on keepin' on. Wed, 23 Jul 2008 00:01:44 EST My kitty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1351482 My cat, Mai Ling, is almost 20 years old (if not already). <BR> <BR> She's having a bad day. <BR> <BR> :( <BR> Tue, 22 Jul 2008 12:34:16 EST