FLYSHOPGIRL's SparkPeople Blog FLYSHOPGIRL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community It's here. School started for me last Tuesday. Right now, it's all just meetings and professional development, which is fine. We have family conferences on the 8th and 9th, then kids come on the 12th. <BR> <BR> I spent this summer working on me. I went to the gym a lot, and depending on which scale you look at, I lost anywhere from 7-12 pounds since mid-June. I relaxed, ate well, read books, took walks, went to concerts with Brad, and while I thought about school a lot, I didn't do much related t... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 10:28:38 EST "Health Score" My gym offers everything you can possibly imagine. Everything from a bazillion classes all day long to a medispa where you can get botox if you want it. <BR> <BR> I don't really have a use for botox, but I did take advantage of one of their "tests" today. The Health Score. Basically, it's a smallish blood test to check cholesterol levels and a few other things as well as a short fitness test. One of the things it checks is weight and body fat. Sadly, not one of my scales is right. I we... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 22:17:42 EST 3 Days. I have three days with kids left. One with parents. And one to pack up my room and make it easy for the custodian to move my crap and clean my room this summer. <BR> <BR> And I joined a gym. I know SP says you don't need a gym. I know that there are lots of online and DVD resources out there. I know that running costs like no money and there are lots of things that I can do just using my body weight. <BR> <BR> But I can't do this by myself. <BR> <BR> One of my families joined a gym ... Sat, 25 May 2013 08:12:44 EST Imperfection "It is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of someone else’s life with perfection.” – Bhagavad Gita <BR> <BR> I came across this quote this morning and I think it encompasses what I really need to hear sometimes. I think sometimes that we get caught up in what things should be, what our lives should look like, how our careers should progress, and what or who we should become in life. <BR> <BR> When that happens, we feel and sometimes internalize the added ... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 11:28:45 EST Sisyphus...a modern tale Sisyphus was "condemned to an eternity at hard labor. And frustrating labor at that. For his assignment was to roll a great boulder to the top of a hill. Only every time Sisyphus, by the greatest of exertion and toil, attained the summit, the darn thing rolled back down again." You can read the whole tale here:<BR>hus.html <BR> <BR> Sometimes I think that this is my fate. Somewhere along the line, I did something terrible and this is my punishment... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 09:15:42 EST Interesting... I've been on spring break this week, and have spent most of it patiently waiting. <BR> <BR> I waited for Brad to come by before he left for Argentina on a fishing trip for 8 days (he actually left today, but we kept hoping there would be time together before he left--we got a couple hours on Tuesday thankfully... Today I waited to hear he'd landed in Houston, and talk to him before he left the country altogether so that I might actually SLEEP while he's gone...) The past two days I waited ... Sat, 30 Mar 2013 01:02:23 EST Relax and Restore We have a donation-based yoga studio in town that I love. I saw on FB last week that one of the instructors was going to be doing a relax and restore workshop yesterday. I signed up and, despite nasty weather, went. <BR> <BR> As I was driving to the studio, I got rather weepy. I had to tell myself that it was okay to take this time for me. That voice in my head that tells me taking time for me when there is work to be done is being selfish and unprofessional started. I cried and thought... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 11:07:09 EST Reflection... It's been a long, trying week. <BR> <BR> After my last blog post, I went to my director to figure out a solution and we MAY have one. It will inconvenience a couple people, but they don't feel I am worthy of being asked to present about anything anyway... My director is supposed to present at a different part of the conference as well the same day, so we needed to come up with a solution that she can be comfortable with too... So this may be a non-issue soon. <BR> <BR> The following ... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 10:52:08 EST Just when you think... that things are finally falling into place... <BR> <BR> I spent most of the weekend working. I will admit to taking Sunday off and not getting out of my pajamas, not leaving the house, and having a good, old-fashioned sob-fest with West Wing via Netflix. <BR> <BR> Monday, I met a gal for breakfast with whom I am supposed to present at a conference. We got things all planned out and both felt very good about doing our individual parts and having things mesh together well. When I left to ... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 23:41:10 EST Reflection Well, here are the good things: <BR> <BR> 1. I am eating well. I cooked, and I haven't had anything fast foodie on the way home at night. This weekend, I will cook pork chops and potatoes and chicken with mushrooms to have on hand for meals, and maybe shop some for a few more meals. The emeals thing is GREAT, but I am still not energetic enough to deal with cooking when I get home, so healthy leftovers it is. <BR> <BR> 2. I am getting better about keeping track of those things which I nee... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 08:15:44 EST Perspective The scale is still screwed up. Today, it said I weighed anywhere from 193 - 207 pounds. I checked the old-fashioned kind, and I am still at 185, so we'll go with that. I didn't do anything to EARN a lost pound this week, though I did eat well, so I can handle staying there for now. <BR> <BR> I flipped on the TV this morning and there was an ad for Cindy Crawford's skin care line--Meaningful Beauty or something. This star, that star, all of whom look far younger than their mid-40s or olde... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 12:17:38 EST Progress...or something like it. Seems like I named a post this before... <BR> <BR> I sobbed a friend about my huge increase in weight this week and she asked what kind of scale I was using. <BR> <BR> I have a digital, spendy kind! <BR> <BR> She suggested two things. <BR> <BR> a) reset the @#$% thing. It is probably registering something weird because of the tilt of the floor or something. <BR> <BR> b) compare what it says to what a regular old fashioned one says. <BR> <BR> So I did. <BR> <BR> I think the scale heard... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 00:01:43 EST Frustrated. I stepped on the scale yesterday to weigh in for the diet bet. Up 4 pounds. <BR> <BR> Today, I stepped on the scale just to see if there was a change. and there was. Up another 5 pounds. <BR> <BR> HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE? 9 pounds in a week? <BR> <BR> What's most difficult is moving ON from it. As of yesterday's gain, the diet bet says I need to lose 11 pounds in 23 days...and it posted on my FB for me (thanks for that) that I'm 714th in a group of like 735 and have a 4% chance of suc... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 10:45:40 EST Work Day... Started off well enough. <BR> <BR> Got up at 5, showered and ready to go by 6, had leftover breakfast casserole, made a salad to take with me, stopped for a coffee, and headed in. <BR> <BR> I worked steadily until almost 1 with very few interruptions, sitting in a half hour staff meeting early on, and got a lot of things finished. Grade reports are ready, assignments with their explanations and letters are ready, and my classroom is mostly clean. I need to scan and copy some things for ... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 22:48:12 EST Need to vent....and a worry. I mentioned to my mother this morning on IM that I needed to get up and run, make something to eat, and had a few errands to run before I take her to the doctor. Just conversation, you know? Her response? <BR> <BR> "What for? You don't need any of that stuff. Running is going to kill you, breakfast can be just toast, and there is no need for you to go anywhere for anything today--it's too cold and you shouldn't be spending any money. Why do you waste so much time and money on crap that do... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 11:29:44 EST 2013 has arrived! I started yesterday with a run on the treadmill--I'm not looking at mileage yet, just going for time. It's still a mixture of run and walk, but it's movement at least. <BR> <BR> Last night, Brad came over for a while and I made lemon and prosciutto stuffed pork loin and asparagus for dinner and made a parfait of sorts with fresh raspberries, vanilla ice cream, and champagne in a champagne glass for dessert. The dinner was amazing. Parts of the dessert were good, but I think that it woul... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 20:02:26 EST ER is nothing like the tv show... So last night, shortly after I posted my blog, my mom called and said she was dizzy, her head and neck hurt, and she felt like she could pass out at any second. <BR> <BR> I live just across the parking lot, so I threw on shoes and a jacket and ran over. She wouldn't let me call an ambulance, instead wanting me to drive her to the ER. <BR> <BR> So we took a trip to the ER. <BR> <BR> We've done this before. Usually on a Friday or Saturday night or VERY early morning. Something doesn't fee... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 13:42:21 EST Planning for new adventures New Year's is approaching fast. <BR> <BR> As it stands right now, Brad and I are doing exactly...nothing...for New Year's. We might have dinner here at my place, but we are definitely not heading to Pueblo. There's a good chance that he has some meetings to attend at a very large hotel with whom he will begin business dealings with in 2013 on New Year's Day. So he may not even be able to spend the evening with me at all, having to prepare for whatever meetings there are. <BR> <BR> I'm ... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 20:04:54 EST Care-Givers Brad made an astute observation the other day. He said part of our problem, why we never have time for us, is because we feel obligated to take care of everyone else. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, everyone else knows this. <BR> <BR> Example: It is Christmas Break. I don't have to be at school. I have received 10 requests to stop whatever I am doing and GO: to school to do the day care program, water plants, feed classroom pets, meet someone there to unlock the office, come to fix the copier, h... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 10:53:51 EST Last night... I was feeling very sorry for myself last night. <BR> <BR> Part of it had to do with the emotions I don't deal with at the holidays. I admit I don't, know I should, but it makes things less complicated for everyone else if I don't and just tuck it all away. <BR> <BR> Part of it had to do with everyone around me celebrating with their husbands, kids, and extended family. I won't lie...I envy them. We've been together long enough, we ought to be able to do the same... A 20 minute Christm... Wed, 26 Dec 2012 10:07:15 EST Christmas Blues The holidays are generally pretty difficult for me emotionally. When I was 19, the day before New Years, I came home from work to an ambulance in the driveway. My dad had been feeling kinda rotten, post-kidney transplant (August), and had been in the hospital over Christmas. We'd had ambulances come for him before--it was REALLY difficult for either (or both) of us (mom and I) to get him into a car--he was a lot bigger than both of us. Mom followed in her car and told me to just stay at h... Tue, 25 Dec 2012 23:00:56 EST Food. People keep saying you need to "eat to live, not live to eat." I have to say that's difficult, especially when you like to cook... <BR> <BR> The other night I had a baked sweet potato for dinner. Nothing fancy, just the baked sweet potato with a little salt and pepper and butter. Yesterday morning, when Brad asked what I'd like for dinner when I came up, I told him pot roast...with little red potatoes and carrots. And that was what he made. It was fabulous. <BR> <BR> I started looking ... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 16:30:16 EST That Voice... You know the one. The one that tells you you aren't worthy, aren't worth it, shouldn't bother. The one that asks how on EARTH did you let yourself get like this? <BR> <BR> The one who tells you that when your gonna-someday-be-husband goes to the gym, he's not going to get "healthy" for himself. He's doing it to scope out someone who is hot and clearly cares more about herself than you do...someone with confidence, a fabulous sense of humor, and no baggage. <BR> <BR> The one that, whe... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 23:01:43 EST Sunday... Well, the roommate has retrieved her husband from MI and has relocated to Pueblo. They move into their new house tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I've put my treadmill back into the spare room, rearranged the living room, cleaned the bathroom in detail, cleaned the kitchen, and put my bedroom back the way it should be. I'd had to move a lot of stuff into my bedroom, and it ceased to be my "retreat" fairly quickly. <BR> <BR> I've missed the "alone." It's not that I didn't like having someone to cha... Sun, 25 Nov 2012 22:53:34 EST Flu... I haz it. <BR> <BR> I have had it since Wednesday. <BR> <BR> I know exactly what has caused it: <BR> <BR> 1. Having a roommate for whom I have to get up early enough to ensure I am gone before she gets up so that she has enough hot water for a shower and so that I am not in her way when she is getting ready for her day. <BR> <BR> 2. Work that keeps piling requirements and requests on me on top of any actual teaching and planning for aforementioned teaching I have to do. I am working ... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 13:58:57 EST Yoga...take 482. I went "back" to yoga today. <BR> <BR> I noticed some things. <BR> <BR> I notice that I get very anxious when there are boys in a yoga class...especially when they share mat space near me. They could be 500 years old and I am still anxious. The ones today were young...23 or so. One of the two asked how long I'd been practicing... I said off and on for a few years... And he said he'd been coming about 2 weeks. Admirable. Until he out-yoga'd me. <BR> <BR> I notice that I prefer t... Sun, 28 Oct 2012 22:53:20 EST The Saga Continues... My roommate has obtained gainful employment as a teacher! It's half time, at a school in Pueblo, but it's a job. <BR> <BR> And her husband has no idea how to handle this. <BR> <BR> He had her convinced she would be coming home the first weekend in November, that she had no business trying to get a job out here. <BR> <BR> And now he has to move. Plan it by himself and get it done on his own because she CAN'T help him pack and plan and stuff from here. <BR> <BR> Because he's young..... Sat, 20 Oct 2012 09:09:30 EST In an instant... everything can change. <BR> <BR> Two women died in a tragic car accident in the middle of town this morning on a busy street, during prime "get the kids to school time." They were walking across a busy street, not at a crosswalk, with a baby in a stroller. A baby is motherless, other children are motherless as well. Husbands are grieving. The driver of the car that hit them probably wasn't driving fast, wasn't texting, probably wasn't on the phone, and was probably paying attention becaus... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 23:59:39 EST Well, errybody else is bloggin' tonight so.... I suppose I will too. I wrote what follows on the blog that no one can access. Sometimes I write prose...sometimes poetry. Sometimes I vent frustration and cuss a blue streak all the things I want to say on facebook in retaliation for other people's stupidity but can't because I have families who are FB friends. I share parts of my blog with my kids to show them that yes, in fact, their teacher DOES write, if only for herself sometimes, and not always lesson plans and assessments. But to... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 21:46:38 EST Roommates and other adjustments The roomie situation is working out somewhat. I'm never here, and I think that helps. <BR> <BR> My schedule hasn't changed much but I do relish the weekend mornings that she is working at Kohl's and is gone...the house is quiet. I can clean if I want to. I can do my nails. I can nap on my couch. <BR> <BR> It's those tiny things that are keeping me sane. <BR> <BR> She's a great person and we have a lot in common, but it's hard to live with someone else. <BR> <BR> If you watch Big Bang ... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 12:26:52 EST Progress...or something like it. I'm down to 187. <BR> <BR> It's not a lot, but coming from 194 (my highest that I will admit to) it's enough for now. <BR> <BR> I've been too busy to eat, and I haven't always made the BEST food choices (damn Drifter's (our version of in-n-out burger) the last few weeks. I cancelled my gym membership, haven't been running or using the treadmill, but I have made it to yoga once or twice a week or done some vinyasa at home. <BR> <BR> I'm eating salad at lunch and hard boiled eggs. <BR> <... Mon, 3 Sep 2012 12:14:53 EST Mindfulness I was really mindful of the things I chose to do this week. I was mindful of the time I spent on the hojillion projects I had going on at school and organized them well. I made lists, I prioritized what I was doing, and I didn't multitask, which is huge for me. I get distracted pretty easily. I even said "no" when some asked for help when I was in the middle of something...and no one got angry, which is sup rising... I was able to get a ton of things done, and except for a few little thi... Sun, 29 Jul 2012 09:55:06 EST Strength...and beauty I stayed the night in Woodland Park last night. I've been forcing myself to be okay with driving up there on weekend evenings since Brad'll be up there almost full-time for a few months at least, and if I can't go up there, then we don't see each other. This going a month or two with not actually existing in each other's space can't continue, you know? We don't live together, and for him to commute between here and WP every day would be a mess financially--the gas alone is almost half a ta... Sun, 22 Jul 2012 11:13:39 EST I feel it starting already... I go back to school on the 1st for professional development. Then we have family conferences on the 9th and 10th, and kids come back on the 13th. <BR> <BR> Because of this, I have to get my classroom unpacked, put together, and ready to go by the 1st of August. My team and I are the only ones who have been in to do that, save one other teacher who did hers in four hours at the beginning of July. She didn't have much to do--she teaches the middle school level and there's not a lot of "st... Thu, 19 Jul 2012 09:34:02 EST Strong Arms When I'm on summer break, I watch Good Morning America. It's a ritual. I have watched it since the days of David Hartman, and I've grown up with it. I've watched it change and evolve into what it is today... <BR> <BR> That said, I've also watched how the hosts have changed over the years. There hasn't been one I disliked, really, but I have really enjoyed a few of them. <BR> <BR> One that I really admire is Robin Roberts. She's a good journalist, certainly, but I admire her drive mos... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 10:59:49 EST Marathon weight loss challenge So on FB, I'm involved in a weight loss challenge that is being hosted by a blogger: Run with Jess ( My friend Lynne who runs marathons but still struggles with her weight invited me to the group. My other friend Sarah (the one who lays around all day, eats out every day, and still manages to lose 10 pounds every week) is involved as well. <BR> <BR> Her blog post today talked about getting rid of that nagging voice that tells us we can't do things. We can't ... Wed, 11 Jul 2012 11:46:00 EST Finding my inner Homer Simpson I went to school today. I promised myself that I would not go to school until after July 4, and then I would adhere to when the office staff was in (because Emili took my KEYS!) until I absolutely have to come in on August 1. Well, it's after July 4, so I held my promise! My plan was to move my furniture back from whence it came and maybe unpack some stuff. I got tennis balls put onto the tables in my room and replaced a few on chairs, and moved everything where it needs to go. I have a co... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 21:58:15 EST Frustrating For the record, it is very frustrating when friends who spend their days doing nothing, napping, and going out to eat lose four pounds over the course of the same week that I spent working out for 30-60 minutes almost every day and watching what I ate like a hawk, measuring EVERY serving, every spoonful and I gained. <BR> <BR> I want to be happy for her, but this really isn't fair. *stomps foot* I am working my ass off, knowing full well that I am going to struggle to keep working out and ... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 10:43:23 EST Dear Treadmill, You are the best gift I ever bought myself. I didn't pay full price for you, but I am happy you are here. I promise to never let you collect dust, or laundry, but I can't promise to keep the cat hair off of you...the cat hair is everywhere, and it only belongs to one of the two cats. Sorry. <BR> <BR> Thank you for taking me out of my funk. <BR> Thank you for being available when I feel like running...or walking...or wagging. <BR> Thank you for not being too loud for my neighbors downsta... Sun, 8 Jul 2012 23:15:39 EST Back in the saddle... Well, I caved the other day and bought a FoodSaver. I'm a single gal, you see, and when I cook, halving recipes leads to disaster--I'll inevitably screw up halving something and bugger up the whole recipe. So, I choose instead to just cook the whole thing and save the rest for later. I love to cook. (I hate the cleaning up part, but I love to cook.) Unfortunately, lots of my leftovers get ruined in containers in the freezer...or the container dies altogether when it launches itself out o... Thu, 5 Jul 2012 21:39:44 EST Waldo Canyon is 45% contained... and things are somewhat back to normal for most in our little hamlet. Most areas have had evacuations lifted altogether so people can go home or at least back to pre-evacuation status, which means that people can go home, but just have be ready to pick up and leave again if something changes. <BR> <BR> This has been a hell of a week. <BR> <BR> 17659 acres burned <BR> <BR> 346 homes destroyed <BR> <BR> 2 deaths--two people didn't leave their house it looks like... <BR> <BR> Miraculousl... Sat, 30 Jun 2012 23:29:22 EST 346 homes, 35 streets... damaged or gone altogether. In the span of just a few hours on one night--and that is just a preliminary number...there could be lots more because they are having to go through the neighborhoods on foot. <BR> <BR> There's a community meeting tonight to let people know on those streets whether they still have a home or not. <BR> <BR> I can't imagine being one of those people...having to go into a room...with your neighbors and a member of the mayor's staff and counselors and f... Thu, 28 Jun 2012 18:38:15 EST Suddenly...Beavis and Butthead aren't so funny anymore. Fire! Fire! Fire! hehehehehehhe.... <BR> <BR> Yeah. Not funny. <BR> <BR> Waldo Canyon Fire came to visit my beautiful city yesterday afternoon. It was bad enough knowing it was in the mountains I loved, but the conditions were juuuuust right for it to jump all containment on our side and get down into the Canyon, getting itself settled into some of the most beautiful neighborhoods we have. Peregrine, Mountain Shadows, Rockrimmon... Rockrimmon is about 5 minutes from my house across I-2... Wed, 27 Jun 2012 08:58:20 EST Overheating...and other fun stuff. (sarcasm) I drove 1.5 hours to Wheat Ridge, CO yesterday afternoon to take the PLACE test for Gifted/Talented. I hate driving to/through Denver for lots of reasons. Especially on my own. Just gives me anxiety. The drive up was pretty pleasant until I got there... My little red Jeep overheated about four blocks from the testing site. I was stressed ALREADY...didn't need that. I managed to get to the testing site, park under a tree, and go inside to worry about my hot car and how the hell I was goi... Sun, 24 Jun 2012 12:03:27 EST De-Cluttering Part II Well, the bed went, and I'm slowly getting rid of a few other odds and ends via (great invention when you just want to get rid of things...) I keep telling myself that the stuff I am getting rid of is just's nothing amazing. I tossed a few knick backs that I can't remember how I ended up with and finally tossed the ugliest vase was my grandmother's..and that was the only reason I was hanging on to it. I didn't even remember it being in her HOUSE much less... Wed, 13 Jun 2012 12:54:38 EST Tuesdays.... We have a local pub running club that runs on Tuesdays...last week's run garnered 1700 runners in one night. It's a 5K course through downtown, and generally it's a lot of fun. Summer is usually a busier time than any other time--it's warm, people want to be outside...and the beer at the end is cheap! It started with a friend of mine and me going together. We had another friend of ours join us after a while, and when the two of them fell out ('s like high school with them...), I sta... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 12:26:29 EST De-Cluttering There's a website, <link> </link> . There's a mission every day to tackle the cleaning of some aspect of your house. You can get reminders on Facebook or in email, and you get an overview early in the week of the week to come. I've used it off and on for a few years, and it's nice to know that you don't have to do everything all at once. Every little bit "blesses your home" she says. It doesn't have to be perfect...just has to happen. There's no right way to mop a floor,... Sun, 10 Jun 2012 17:59:47 EST Conferences, a Work Day, and a Study Group... Three more days. I have conferences all day tomorrow, but have about 3 hours during which I can work in my room with no families...I have a lot to put away, and in that I have to dress up, and it'll be 200 degrees in my room (no AC!), I can't get all I'm limited with what I can get done. <BR> <BR> Then Tuesday is a work day, which means I CAN get dirty, but I need to get everything OUT of my room by myself--my desk, tables, our custodian can wax my f... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 22:45:35 EST 10 Days 10 days until I can start thinking about me for two months. <BR> <BR> 10 days till I can sleep in. <BR> <BR> 10 days till I can do things I *want* to do. <BR> <BR> 10 days till I can cook when I'm ready, not stuff it all into one day. <BR> <BR> 10 days till I can go to the gym, or out to run, when I want to...without feeling like something else is falling by the wayside when I do it. <BR> <BR> 10 days till I can have wine without worrying I'm having too much. <BR> <BR> 10 days till I ... Mon, 21 May 2012 21:39:30 EST Clean Eating I started having organic produce delivered 2x a month through door to door organics out of Longmont ( Our school is using it as a fundraiser (a certain percentage goes back to our school) but I'm using it as an excuse to get good, local produce. This week's bitty box (the smallest one designed for 1 person) had lots of fruit (I substituted out a few things), fresh carrots (with the dirt still on em!), beautiful green beans, lettuce, a bunch of spinach, and a cucu... Sun, 6 May 2012 20:36:34 EST