FLYING2007's SparkPeople Blog FLYING2007's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Eat to Live I have heard so many people on spark talk about this book "Eat to Live" it seems a little extreme but I think I need to get back to basics. I have been so focused on "not gaining the weight back" that I think I am sending that message out to the world- gain the weight back. The power of the mind is an incredible thing. So I am chosing for the next 6 weeks to focus on good nutrition and being really active and I will see where my weight is at that point. <BR> <BR> I am a big fan of Jen... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 19:44:50 EST Hurt my knee- Now what do I do??? Seriously- I am freaking out! My kids and I went down a double black diamond yesterday and it was an epic fail for Mom! I could feel that my left knee felt weird as I was laying there waiting for my son to rescue my poles but it wasn't until later when I iced and rested it and then tried to get up that it feels really stiff and odd. I am going to rest it a couple of days and see how it is but what do I do for activity in the meantime. I know I can do some weights for my arms but anything ... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 09:06:01 EST Plan for this week I met with my trainer last week and I feel really good. My plan for the week was to track everything I ate and to measure everything. I am working towards measuring everything better but for now I am doing the best I can. Today was tricky. I had planned my Easter dinner and when I got to my sisters I had the worst headache- it was all coming from my neck. I actually ended up icing my neck and laying down for a while after dinner which helped but was a big bummer because everyone was havi... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 20:07:41 EST Meeting with my trainer My zumba instructor is a personal trainer. I feel like she has become my therapist. Poor woman! I usually see her about 4 x a year just for a little check in, she does a fitness assessment to see where I am at cardiovascular wise, strength (push ups) and flexibility wise too. She also weighs and measures me. I am usually looking forward to seeing my progress. That came to a screeching halt this summer and my progress has stopped and gone backwards over the fall and winter. It really su... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 19:51:01 EST Tried Bikram Yesterday I crossed something off my bucket list! LOL! I have always wanted to try Bikram Yoga. I went all by myself- I begged all my friends and noone was interested in coming with me- shocker! I think I hated it! Although I did leave and grab a schedule so I may go back and try again. In theory I should love this. You burn a million calories and the stretching in the heat feels really good. But it is soooo hard! I paid $10 for the first 10 days and I can go as many times as I want-... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 08:11:39 EST Sodium My week was so-so. I ended up a pound. I don't really think that is a true pound gained because I feel like I ate too much sodium this week and I didn't drink enough water this weekend. My workout mojo has been non- existent but i have made it to every workout I have planned. Last week is behind me and I am not giving up so I am moving forward. We are leaving next Sunday for a 4 night ski trip- mostly me and the kids with my sister and her kids but my husband is coming up for one day wit... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 11:56:19 EST Brownies I am trying to be a good mom/wife tonight and I have a really special Valetines dinner planned. I got "healthy" steak tips (they are actually marketed that way- they are still amazing!! and green beans for dinner and then I splurged and made ghiradelli brownies in the shape of a big heart and a smaller heart. I have already counted out all my points and even allowed some for ice cream with the yummy brownie so yum! However, I was sitting here thinking about my son coming home from school ... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 15:11:38 EST Tapping into motivation I have been having a great week and a half. I feel like I am back into the swing of making good choices, setting goals and reaching them and seeing progress on the scale (at least the right direction- lol). So now I am looking a head to this weekend and I am getting nervous. It looks like I will have adult social plans both Friday and Saturday night. I am worried about the wine. I know it sounds like I have a drinking problem- I don't. I just really like have a social glass of wine or t... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 07:26:48 EST 1/2 lb down and I feel great! Ok- I met all of my goal last week and I was rewarded with 1/2 lb down on the scale. That may not seem like a huge accomplishment to some but I am really happy with that. 1. It was not a gain!!! 2. I went back to lifting weights 3 x this week and worked out a lot so I probably have more muscle than I did a week ago. 3. I had a few rough days and I did NOT give up!! <BR> <BR> I will not give up on this battle. I feel like I am in a battle and this is defining who I am. I want to be a... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 07:30:38 EST Figure it out already! I reconnected with a scrapbookers blog (Cathy Z) who is so funny. She is so real about life. We are just about the same age, have been married the same amount of time and yes both struggle with this weight thing. I hadn't been on her blog in a while because my scrapping mojo has left me since I am all confused with the digital aspect of pictures and scrapbooking. So I hadn't kept up with her other issue- her eat well move more campaign. She recapped her 2012 where she started at a certai... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 07:49:49 EST Changed my weight loss ticker I have recommitted to weight watchers and with that I have changed my weight loss ticker to show my weight now (well last week when I started this) and a shorter term goal to break down my long term goal into more reasonable terms. It feels really good. Cleaner if you will. No more baggage of where I have been or where I want to be in what seems like a million years. I want to lose 36 pounds- I have already lost 4 so now it is 32 lbs. So doable!!!! I feel good where I am at but I am sti... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 09:58:19 EST Weight Watchers or not? I had an appointment with the Physician's assistant at my Doctor about weight management. Her philosophy is to count calories and keep your glycemic index low and steady throughout the day by primarily focusing on high protein foods. She encourages her clients to use My Fitness Pal to track calories and nutrients. I have been doing so for a couple of weeks and I am really challenged. I had decided to drop WW and just use MFP. It felt really scary but I didn't feel like I could do both. ... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 07:35:42 EST This is what success is made of... I gained weight over the holidays- shocker! I partied too much, worked out too little and did not make time for my healthy habits. Is that the end of my journey? Heck no! My former self would have just thrown in the towel but there is no way I am going to do that. I know what to do. I am looking forward to getting back on track. I know that I feel better when I eat lots of fruits and veggies, healthy fats, protein and whole grains. Sugar makes me tired and makes me crave more sugar so... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 07:50:08 EST Feeling very blessed I got to hug my kids when they came home from school yesterday. That is all that matters, right. My heart is breaking for the families in Conn and elsewhere that are unable to do that. I can't even imagine. <BR> <BR> I have my health, I am active, I have the means necessary to buy wonderful fruits and veggies and healthy food. I am able to indulge at a party or two and/or skip a workout and still get back on track. I have been able to purchase fun gifts for my family and friends. I c... Sat, 15 Dec 2012 11:29:55 EST Envy A friend at Zumba has literally had weight falling off of her right in front of my eyes. She looks tremendous. Our instructor has made a big deal out of me- I am even on her website as a success story. She just posted a before and after shot of Barbara on her facebook page and it made me so envious. Crazy right? She has made a big deal of me so why am I jealous? At this same time I read an article in Self magazine about Envy and how it can be used for good. Before reading this article ... Sat, 8 Dec 2012 08:00:43 EST W5D2- 8 minutes straight twice! I was really nervous about this workout. I think my nerves are coming from thinking about my upcoming 5 k- eek! I am getting this confidence with each of these workouts that if I can do this I can do the next and then the next- until I am confident that I can do whatever I put my mind too. Pretty cool. Tue, 13 Nov 2012 13:50:35 EST W5D1- So proud of myself!! I really can't believe I have not blogged about every step I have jogged with this Couch to 5K program. I am so amazed at myself. I was a little bummed out that when I got a new phone in the middle of the program it wiped out all my workouts in the app but I know I did them because holy moly I can run 5 minutes straight now! and I did it 3 times today! I did not want to work out today- can I say it again- oh my gosh my motivation was negative a million but I gave birth to this fabulous pe... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 18:46:27 EST W3D1 sick but I did it! I have had a bad cold/fever nastiness. Usually I will at least try to do a zumba class but I have been terribly unmotivated. I did however have a couple of glasses of wine trying to drown the fever out of me- didn't work.... I should have done W3D1 Sunday and then D2 yesterday but I was dragging my feet. I think I was nervous about the run 3 minutes straight part of this week and you do that twice. Well this morning I woke up still feeling yucky but I really don't want to give up on this ... Wed, 24 Oct 2012 09:40:18 EST W2D2 much better I slowed down some- chose a different flatter route and my app worked perfect with my new C25K playlist. I didn't start to be uncomfortable until just at the end of the 90 seconds of jogging. I guess that is how this is going to work? If I stick with it I will become more and more comfortable with longer stretches of running. Good to know. I so enjoyed the beautiful fall weather here in New England it is the perfect temperature for jogging. I was wearing just the right clothes so really... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 07:29:26 EST C25K week one done started week 2 I started C25k last weekend at the gym with my kids. I ran on the treadmill and just tracked the time that way. The typical pace for my jogging was only 4.0 mph or a 15 min mile. I felt pretty good. Then I ran outside in the woods behind my house using the C25k app- it was a little frustrating because halfway through the run it started back at the warm up again. Also, I didn't know I needed to add all the songs in my playlist so I only had one song and then I was able to add another one ... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 13:40:52 EST Strong Core Needed We went to Children's Hospital yesterday and it makes me sick to my stomach to say this but my daughter actually has a fracture on her L5 vertebrae that will not heal without surgery. The Dr said he would "LOVE" to do surgery but if she got a really, really strong core- like a gymnast then she could potentially live without pain and without surgery. So she needs a strong core. We are up to the challenge. She was so cute- she was really happy because they told her she can start working bac... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 08:42:41 EST Digging Deep through the tough times My poor baby 13 year old daughter has had a now chronic problem with her back. She has had stress fractures and long story short it has not been fun. We finally got in to a specialist at Boston Children's Hospital and whoa do they work fast! We had an appt Tuesday then they sent her yesterday for a cat scan and now they are having a follow up appt tomorrow. This has effected my workout plan. I had planned to do at least 4 workouts this week. Monday morning, Tuesday night done- then Wedne... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 15:31:38 EST Thought for today I am reading the Suze Orman book 9 STeps to Financial Freedom. The first couple of steps are to look at how you feel about money going back to your first memories of money. I realized that as a young girl my Dad had a lot of success by working really hard building his business. That in turn made me stand out among my friends and I was kind of embarrassed by that. I know that sounds dumb but I felt like I didn't earn it and I guess I felt therefore I didn't deserve the attention- for examp... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 08:11:16 EST I am back Facing the music- I weigh 206- that is up 10.5lbs since I last posted my weight on SP. I have been sooooo negative with my progress. That stops now. I am putting my head down and tracking everything. Making a plan for activity and following through. No more excuses! I know I can do this. Mon, 1 Oct 2012 07:36:41 EST It wasn't pretty but I lost a pound! This week I started out rough- eating my kids easter candy- I was so mad at myself. Then I find once I get that sugar in me it rages, you know that urge to have more of anything. By Wednesday I smartened up and bagged it all up and gave it to my husband to hide. I did ask both kids to do that for me but they didn't. My daughter was mad that I ate so much of her candy. I am not proud of myself for that but I did ask repeatedly for them to hide it from me. I just didn't have the willpower... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 12:24:45 EST Rough days in NH I have been having a rough week but boy was that put in perspective last night after the shooting 1 mile from my home. The police chief of the neighboring town was killed in a drug bust gone bad. He was someone a few years ahead of my husband at his high school. It is just so unbelievable sad. He was only a week or so from retirement and he is quoted as saying he just had one more thing to take care of and then he would be done. What an amazing perspective- I was thinking oh my gosh why ... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 17:08:17 EST Been sick Waah- I have been sick with a fever since Thursday. I took it as a sign that i needed to rest. I did fine with my eating for the week. I drank a ton of water. I did not exercise at all- i just needed to rest. I feel like I have had a victory of sorts because typically when I am sick all I want to do is eat and for the first 2 and 1/2 days I ate what I had planned. However, Saturday night when I was getting ready for Easter I started snacking on the Easter candy. Not good. Yesterday I ... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 07:55:32 EST Gratitude and results from Wednesday In yoga the other day we were instructed to breath in everything we were grateful for. It was a powerful reminder of how important that is- to be grateful. I find myself with a lighter heart when I focus on that rather than all the things I could bitch about. <BR> <BR> Today I am grateful that I was able to do 30 pushups in a row. I wanted to test myself for my repeat fitness assessment I have scheduled for next Thursday. That is 2 more than I did last time and I think I could do even mo... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 10:32:41 EST Food/Activity for Tuesday Eat clean- pretty much- We did not have whole grain pasta for the chop suey that I made for dinner but otherwise everything was clean <BR> Stayed within WW points <BR> over 100 ounces of water <BR> walked 45 minutes with my doggie- we got a little lost <em>20</em> <BR> 60 minutes of zumba <BR> 30 minutes of yoga <BR> I was tired by the end of the night the yoga was a perfect end to my day! I could feel my legs were tired in the middle of zumba from my little hike but I am sure that I will ... Wed, 4 Apr 2012 12:56:14 EST Food/activity log for Monday clean eating - everything but my hamburger roll <BR> switched graham crackers for 12 almonds <BR> stayed within ww points <BR> 100+ ounces of water <BR> <BR> Did 40 minute strength program - including about 40 pushups over 3 sets! <BR> 60 minutes of zumba <BR> 20 minute walk with dogs <BR> <BR> I feel good. I am a little hungry- not really sure why- I have made a huge veggie soup and had a big bowl of that. Tue, 3 Apr 2012 14:28:43 EST Cheers to a new start I really love the blogs on sparkpeople. One resonated with me. It was from someone (wish my memory was good but can't remember who) who like me, had a large amount of weight to lose and was in the middle of their journey. They decided to not look at is as a million mile journey but they divided it into sections. That is what I am going to do. I have lost 82 lbs to date- yeah go me! I just passed a big milestone getting into onederland. Going into the one-hundreds has been a sort of hea... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 07:58:05 EST Saying Goodbye The daily spark blog of saying goodbye has hit me today. I have said goodbye to so many things. The easy ones- goodbye to my old really ugly, worn out and of course huge clothes. The shame of being overweight. Goodbye to the 200's- that was fun and I can finally say it for good!!! Goodbye to having no energy to live my life. Goodbye to not caring about anything from the way I look to what junk I put in my wonderful body. Goodbye to sitting on my butt for days on end. Goodbye to shelte... Tue, 14 Feb 2012 07:40:51 EST The head game of one-derland I have been trying so hard to get out of my own head. What is it with going to onederland that messes with me???? The last time I really made a great effort to lose weight this is where I stumbled. I reached the 190's - everyone was giving me great compliments- I felt like a million dollars I had tons of energy- everything was going great. But then I got it in my head that I didn't want to gain weight. That was my focus. Currently my focus has been getting to onderland. I got there 3 w... Tue, 7 Feb 2012 09:54:55 EST I'm going to get there! I realized I haven't posted since November. So much to write about- I am sure I won't remember it all! December was rough. I did ok- I am sure I lost weight but I can't remember how much. I guess I am not focusing on the number which works for me. My zumba instructor is doing a new website and she asked me to do a testimonial and I had to go to a photo shoot. What a fabulous honor. It was really hard work! Who knew??? I am really bummed though because she asked me to bring in a pair ... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 08:40:49 EST I did it- I ran an entire mile!!! I am so excited! I did it- I ran an entire mile all at once! I knew I could because I ran 5 minutes straight the other day without being uncomfortable winded. At first I thought ok- I know I can do 5 minutes so I just did it and then little things would creep into my mind- like oh my back hurts or I tweaked my knee a little but I would just try to focus on my breathing and another minute would go by. I think I would like it better running outside- I just need to get brave enough to run in... Thu, 10 Nov 2011 21:23:58 EST Inspired Did anyone read the dailyspark blog- 8 goals for the last 8 weeks of 2011 (or something like that)? It so inspired me. I really hate how negative everyone is at this time of the year- you always hear oh its so hard, blah, blah- I just really love to hear/read some positive slant on this wonderful time of the year. Last year right before Thanksgving was when I recommitted myself to this lifestyle change. I remember at Thanksgiving filling my plate with salad, squash and other veggies- turk... Wed, 9 Nov 2011 11:46:56 EST Hello, I ran 5 minutes straight at the gym! I went to the gym today with my kids for them to get oriented to the machines at the gym. The trainer said- ok mom you can go on the treadmill or whatever. I actually had planned to just tag along with the kids but I realized I was not wanted there. So I got on the treadmill. No ipod, no jogbra (ugh!) just me and this machine. I started out walking 3 mph and then realized I could do way more than that and got up to 4 mph walking fast. I thought hmmm I wonder if I can jog a little at thi... Tue, 8 Nov 2011 18:46:27 EST When people start noticing and getting nosy I have lost a lot of weight now. Yeah- go me! So I get people saying stuff to me which is nice. A lot of my zumba friends are really supportive. They are always saying how great I look and how they can notice that I am shaping up. They certainly see me working hard just like them. This morning- I looked good. One of the regular ladies said in between songs- you really look so great- made me feel good. At the end of class however, another intermitent participant that I have known for ... Mon, 7 Nov 2011 12:26:47 EST I own clothes that other people wear!!! My son and I went to a meeting at his school last night. When we were walking in we were following another football mom who always dresses really nice. I was admiring her sweater from the back and her really great boots. When we got in to the meeting I realized that I own the sweater she was wearing. It is really cool and so pretty. It made me feel so normal. I have clothes that another really put together, normal sized person wears. That is me! So great! Thu, 3 Nov 2011 20:05:13 EST Long time since I blogged Idon't know why- I have a lot that I needed to have recorded for myself over the last month. I had days where I questioned why am I up 2 lbs this week? Maybe because I had wine on Sunday night before my Mondayweigh in? Then I had the hungry horrors and I made pumpkin spice cookies and ate a bunch of them, felt awful but didn't gain much because the rest of my week was good. So I was able to just move on. Then my work outs have been terrific. My neck issue has not resolved, I am going to... Tue, 1 Nov 2011 08:04:22 EST Size 14!!!! I went shopping yesterday because currently I only have 2 pairs of pants,jeans that are size 18 and are too big. I was wearing a top the other day that my husband said did nothing for me- it was a shirt that was too big and it had ruffles all down the front so he was probably right. He said I should go buy some new clothes that fit. That was really nice especially give our current $$ situation. Idid just get a nice bonus so I figured I would go for it. Sooooooo I went to Coldwater Creek... Tue, 4 Oct 2011 09:17:48 EST Really? there are new jean sizes??? I dared to go out of my comfort zone and went jean shopping. Here I have been thinking that I want to get down to a 14 or 16 and get some new jeans and now the stores are all by waist size???? Ugh, double ugh. I don't know what my waist size is. The largest they had at this store was 32. I went to this denim store with my sister to get her a gift card for her bday. She went into the store ahead of me and I walked in right behind 2 young girls. Well the first thing that made me feel unw... Sat, 1 Oct 2011 20:53:30 EST shoulder injury I think I may have overdid it this month. I have been feeling a kink in my right shoulder and on the side of my neck. Last week I actually had 2 massages. The first one they put me with heat and then the massuase was late so it was on for 30 minutes. It felt good at the time but later- ow! That night I did a workout called athletica which is zumba and strength training. My neck/shoulder felt even worse. I scheduled another massage on Friday and knew I would need to rest after so I did.... Thu, 29 Sep 2011 09:04:54 EST stretch marks I receive daily emails from Jillian Michaels which are very inspiring. Today I read about a woman who lost 94 lbs! Quite amazing. I then looked at the q &a portion of her website and there was a question about stretch marks and will they go away. Jillian was honest and said no all stretch mark do not go away when you lose weight. They fade but they all don't go away completely. She went on to say that she looks at her stretch marks as a badge of honor. (yes, that gorgeous goddess of fi... Mon, 19 Sep 2011 08:37:44 EST Halfway there! I lost another 1.5 lbs this week to bring my total to 64.2lbs. My goal weight is 150 so I have 63.5 lbs left until goal so I am a little more than halfway there! I have done that already so I know I can do it again. <BR> <BR> Last night I did not want to go to zumba. I had a really rough day. My son was diagnosed with a concussion from his football game on Sunday. Then I took my daughter for a back check up and poor thing had a bloody nose for 30 minutes. I was just exhausted. But I... Tue, 13 Sep 2011 20:22:20 EST I have such clarity Not sure if it is eating better or working out more or maybe just weighing less but I feel such a clarity in my life. Having struggled with depression, clarity is sunshine to me. So many days I have just wanted to curl up and go back to bed. That is just not living. <BR> <BR> I have so much energy that my house is cleaner than it ever has been. That gives me more energy. Coming home to a mess drags me down. I love being on top of all of that. Last week I had a cooking day- my girlfr... Thu, 8 Sep 2011 08:21:12 EST More Progress Yesterday I went to a 2 hour zumba blast. It is 20 minutes cardio kickboxing, 40 minutes strength training, 40 minutes zumba an 20 minutes fusion which is a nice mix of pilates and yoga. I was easily able to do it and only mildly hungry at the end. Usually I am ravenous. Angela had this incredible healthy stuffed french toast- made with whole wheat bread, bananas, flax seed etc. I am sure that it was not the lowest in calories but she gave us each a small slice with canteloupe after clas... Tue, 6 Sep 2011 11:14:41 EST I just really love Sparkpeople! I am just so impressed with the group of people here on SP. Yesterday I read a blog about a woman that continued to workout through cancer treatment. How can you not get yourself off the coach and away from the TV after you read about someone as tenacious as that? I love reading Dean's blogs about the psychology of all that we are going through. Today I read a blog from January that hit home- he said "Blowing the small stuff out of proportion is what causes the big problems." Amen. <BR> ... Thu, 1 Sep 2011 08:36:35 EST Summer Wrap up Historically there have been 2 times during the year that are particularly challenging for me. One is the holidays, big surprise and the other is summer. The last couple of weeks were a little discouraging to me given that I gained 5 whole big huge entire pounds on vacation. It took 2 weeks to get them back off. Now looking back on that I feel very successful. I have taken off my vacation weight immediately. So I enjoyed my vacation, really enjoyed my vacation. But this summer I am do... Wed, 31 Aug 2011 10:56:47 EST Achievement "Achievement is the knowledge that you have studied and worked hard and done the best that is in you. Success is being praised by others. That is nice but not as important or satisfying. Always aim for achievement and forget about success.” - Helen Hayes - quote borrowed from Yoovie <BR> <BR> Boy do I love this quote. I am back from my awesome annual vacation to a lakehouse with my sisters and their families. We always have a terrific time. Lots of relaxing, laughs, card playing and night... Sun, 14 Aug 2011 08:11:29 EST