FITMACHINE's SparkPeople Blog FITMACHINE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Another year gone by.... Okay - so when is it THE year to succeed? I might be a little gloomy here for a bit - mostly because its honest. I've been wanting to succeed at this for so long - but really loving to nosh more!!! <BR> <BR> I love food. I just have to figure out that I love being healthy more. <BR> <BR> If I figure it out - I will let you know how. <BR> <BR> My first behaviour change that I plan on doing is working out consistently. I hope to add just following the what to eat that spark gives me too.... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 13:38:21 EST I need a sledge hammer for my scale.... Wow! The scale is running my life this morning. It's UP 1.5 pounds this morning. I had to laugh because before the scale would make me eat more! Not this time. I am going to have a chat with my brain today. Here's what the chat looks like: <BR> <BR> "Stop freaking out. First things first. You had a very good eating day yesterday. I would rate it a B+ or even an A- compared to what you have pulled yourself out of. You might have had that little piece of chocolate - but so what? You s... Mon, 30 Jan 2012 12:31:10 EST EEK! Another goal met! Okay - I am crazy excited about this: I have hit another "Happy Plateau". The kind you pass through on your way to being healthier and thinner! As I said yesterday - I have made mini-goals of losing 2.5 pounds and then moving on. So I started at 165.5. My first goal was 160, but I felt overwhelmed even by that. So I decided I can do 2.5 in my sleep right? I have been yo-yo-ing around with 2.5 pounds at a time for years! I just want to keep going in the same direction this time! So I h... Sun, 29 Jan 2012 12:21:37 EST Heading down!!! Okay - I was off to a slow start - I really don't understand what I was thinking starting over CHRISTMAS! That was maybe an uphill battle. Regardless, I didn't give up thinking about it this time. Frankly, I can see my health being too affected. <BR> <BR> I was looking in this book the other day - and a healthy BMI for me is around 122. That freaked me out. I have to lose more than 40 pounds. That's 25% of me! When I think about the number like that I get a bit panicky. <BR> <BR>... Sat, 28 Jan 2012 12:07:17 EST heading backwards - lacking a lot of focus Okay - maybe I shouldn't have started this right over Christmas.... <BR> <BR> Thinking about how much fat I love to eat. How cruel is it that favourite foods are all the fatty ones? I think the reverse should be true - but maybe if it makes me feel better - I will start to love the skinny foods too. Doubt it - but we'll see.... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 17:43:12 EST okay... about the eating... Okay - so while I have been doing the 10 mnute workouts, something needs to happen about my eating. I am getting my period with is a period of eating despair in my life. I am going to try something new this month: not panicking... <BR> <BR> I also haven't been super focused on the food - I have just wanted to keep my fitness streak going. So, I am staying focused on fitness this week. I had planned to plan my menu - but that might not happen with all this Christmas insanity going on. ... Thu, 22 Dec 2011 11:39:39 EST Day 2 Well - today is Day 2. I had been overeating so much before I started Sparkpeople that I lost 1.5 pounds in the first day. I know it will slow down - but it just tells you how off the rails I have been.... <BR> <BR> I am following the "plate method" of eating that is in the spark book... <BR> <BR> I emailed a dear friend of mine to join Sparkpeople with me and be another Sparkbuddy, but I have to tell you - this is a great website, because even if she doesn't join, I can float around and ... Tue, 20 Dec 2011 11:11:23 EST Day 1 (Again...) Well, I turn 40 in days. I have been struggling with my weight for years. It affects so many aspects of my life - it's time to do something to turn that around. I have an amazing husband that is loving, honest, and incredibly supportive. I have three beautiful boys that are full of spice. they can ski black diamond runs easily. Even if I could get over my unbelievable fear of heights - I don't think I could physically keep up. I want to change that - forever!!! <BR> <BR> Today, I did ... Mon, 19 Dec 2011 14:12:35 EST