FITGRL124's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=FITGRL124 FITGRL124's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Workout even when you don't want to.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761661 Working out doesn't have to be something you always want to do. However, when you do it, you'll feel accomplished and proud! <BR> <BR> Today I did not feel well. But I worked out anyway. It feels good to be done with my workout and feel like I actually did something today! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1990039302.jpg"> Sun, 17 Aug 2014 21:09:32 EST Blood work normal..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759832 I am frustrated right now. I'm happy that my labs came back normal. All of them! However, it still doesn't explain my fatigue. Like right now, I'm so sleepy and I need to find some energy to workout. I do not know where that energy is going to come from. I could go to sleep right now. I realize that my doctor says "workout more, lose weight" but I feel like that's the easy answer. I really feel like something else is going on but when the blood work comes back normal, what do you do? ... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 19:38:29 EST Yearly doctor's visit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757494 <BR> I do not like going to the doctor. I mean, when you tell your physician that you're always tired, one would think she would be more concerned. She said "you've gained some weight since last year" I explained that I was aware and that I am finally back in a position where I can exercise again. I explained that I was really doing well over the last month and hoped to have this weight off soon. She said "well, since you're overweight, and haven't been exercising, that's probably why y... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 10:58:59 EST Happy August Friends! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751012 It is here. It's a new month!!! <em>67</em> I cannot believe that it's August already. <BR> <BR> My July was pretty good. I took a nice long needed break from everything and then on the 14th hit the restart button! <em>529</em> <BR> <BR> Stats since July 14th include: <BR> 1. I have lost 9 pounds <BR> 2. I have started strength training 5-6/week. <BR> 3. I have done cardio 3-4/week. <BR> 4. I have been prepping food and staying on track. <BR> 5. I have been having one/week chea... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 11:15:30 EST Day 52 Progress & End of First Week "Restart" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5747152 Hey everyone! I have some exciting news to share! I bit the bullet and signed up this week with an online personal trainer. They create food plans and weekly nutrition plans for me. I have to check in bi-weekly with pictures and progress measurements. I am really motivated by this. My trainer has stayed in contact with me every day since I started. <BR> <BR> Oh and I've had some great strides. No pizza, stayed at home to eat tonight. It's my cheat day which isn't really a "cheat" l... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 20:52:06 EST Day 46 (week 1 restart) Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742618 Hey everyone! This was week 1 of my restart. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l560752842.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I did great Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday. Thursday was very stressful at work and I caved. Friday was also stressful and I was really tired. I should have stayed home and slept because that's what my body really needed but instead I went out and had pizza, beer and ice cream. I failed to listen to my body. Saturday was better and I actually walked when ... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 10:01:01 EST Finding Mojo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737440 So, I've been thinking today about ways that I can find my "mojo" It's been missing and I need to get it back! I found a great article on this that really hit home for me. <BR> <BR> <link>www.forbes.com/sites/joshlinkner/201<BR>2/08/16/you-lost-it-7-ways-to-get-your<BR>-mojo-back-yeah-baby/ </link> <BR> <BR> I'm going to take some of the advice from this column. <BR> <BR> 1. I am going to meet with a personal trainer. <BR> 2. I texted a friend today to see if she wants to meet twi... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 17:14:26 EST Day 38 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737282 Okay - so I've been MIA! I went on vacation. I enjoyed myself wholeheartedly. <em>298</em> <em>462</em> <em>461</em> <em>464</em> <em>298</em> <em>462</em> <em>461</em> <em>464</em> <em>298</em> <em>462</em> <BR> <BR> Technically, I'm still on "vacation" mentally because I'm taking a break from wearing my body bugg and counting calories. I'm trying to figure out the plan that I will begin on July 14th. Now, my ultimate goal would be to lose 32 pounds in 16 w... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 11:52:44 EST Happy July (Day 30 Progress) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729845 <em>283</em> <em>232</em> <em>283</em> <em>232</em> <em>283</em> <em>232</em> <em>283</em> <em>232</em> <BR> <BR> Happy July! What big plans do you have this month? My plans for June fell short but I'm not stopping this fight! However, I did get in 3049 fitness minutes in June!!! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow, I have a meeting with a personal trainer. I think I need a swift kick in the pants so I'm looking forward to that! <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> My progress over the last few days ha... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 12:37:54 EST Day 21 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5723632 Hello friends! Today was better than yesterday. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1780738192.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I got up this morning and put away some clothes, straightened the house a bit and then did an upper body strength workout. Afterward, I watched a Lifetime movie. I took a little nap after that. This afternoon, hubby and I went on a long walk and that was nice instead of laying around the house. This evening after dinner, I splurged and had a homemad... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 20:45:41 EST Day 20 Progress (or not) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5723030 My rear-end is being handed to me on a big platter and at the rate I'm going that platter just keeps getting bigger! <BR> <BR> I think I am a food addict. I have never said that before. <BR> <BR> I averaged this weeks calories and my daily average was 2598 which is not good. My average should be around 1500 and that way I could actually lose a pound. <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> <em>28</em> <em>234</em> <em>28</em> <em>234</em> <em>28</em> <em>234</em> <em>28</em> <em>234</e... Sat, 21 Jun 2014 21:07:31 EST Day 19 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5722373 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/7/l471275342.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Well, I made it through the week and it's finally the weekend! Wrapping up the week, it's been difficult. I haven't done all that great with nutrition. I had bits of goodness but then I also had days where it wasn't so good. I'm okay with it though. I had a rough week and there were days that I let things get the best of me. <BR> <BR> Today was not one of those days. I ate well for breakfast and then for lun... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 20:56:25 EST Day 18 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721623 I've been exhausted this week because I haven't been sleeping well. The last couple of days, I left my long hours and my lack of sleep get the best of me and dictate bad food. <BR> <BR> Today, not so much! I still didn't sleep that great last night however I ate around 1100 calories today with a lot of variety. I didn't eat as many vegetables as I would have liked to but it wasn't too bad. I drank over 105oz of water today. And I did my upper body strength workout! <BR> <BR> NSV's <B... Thu, 19 Jun 2014 20:47:13 EST Days 16 & 17 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721289 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1353285284.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Tuesday & Wednesday were rough! <BR> <BR> I went way overboard on my calories both days. Tuesday night I got home late and therefore splurged on chips and beerita. Yesterday, I am not sure what happened but I just ate all day! <BR> <BR> I am not going to let it get me down though. I'm going to keep on plugging along and although there are going to be snags in the road, I do not want to wear the size cloth... Thu, 19 Jun 2014 10:17:43 EST Day 15 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719381 Today sucked! It was not a fun Monday! I feel like I've been saying that a lot more lately. <BR> <BR> This morning I get to work and I have to talk to a nasty woman who was trying to refer US a patient. My front desk girl couldn't get it through her head and therefore I had to speak to her. She was not nice! <BR> <BR> Then I had to deal with the hospital on an issue that I'm having trying to get my medical students to observe the physician. They will not be touching any patient or an... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 21:13:27 EST Day 14 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5718700 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1534364188.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I spent a nice day with my parents for Father's Day! We ate at Olive Garden but I ate off the 575 calorie or less menu. However, I did have a mini blizzard afterward. <BR> <BR> If I had stopped there that would have been okay but hubs and I went out for dinner again tonight. He had mowed all day and I had shopped with my parents and hung with them all day. It was late. We caved. We had a greek salad and p... Sun, 15 Jun 2014 21:38:28 EST Day 13 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5718097 Happy Saturday!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> I had a great day fully of activity!!! Hubby and I went on a walk this morning before breakfast and then we hung around the house. This afternoon we went and hit golf balls before doing some more shopping. I LOVE to shop if you haven't been able to tell in reading my blogs. <em>334</em> I found two pair of warm ups for $1 a piece, yoga shorts for $2 and then a maxi dress for $5. I love deals!!! <BR> <BR> Right now I'm off to watch some t.v. befor... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 22:00:26 EST Day 12 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717831 I was pooped yesterday! The best part of my day is that I was able to get out of work a little early. Considering that my evenings have been nuts this week and I've been working late, I am so happy about this! I took some "me" time and went shopping. <em>30</em> The worst part of the shopping experience is the size pants that I had to get. I shopped at my favorite store and three summers ago, I was a 5/6. Yesterday I got two new crops and they were a size 11/12. This is obviously wh... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 12:06:21 EST Day 11 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716773 Today sucked! Not nutritionally really or with exercise but otherwise today sucked. Cranky, crabby people who feel entitled! UGH! I'm tired of having people like that in an out of my office and it seems that they have come in the thousands lately. I've been in a terrible mood this week and today it escalated. I was very crabby to hubby when I got home and that's terrible. BLAH! I just want to crawl under a blanket for days and not come out!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> I should have known that toda... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 21:19:25 EST Day 10 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716047 Today was hard. I caved a bit. I had one slice of pizza at lunch and two beers. It could have been worse too though so it will be okay. <BR> <BR> NSV's <BR> <BR> - 124 minutes of moderate activity today <BR> - Healthy homemade mexican instead of restaurant mexican <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> Wed, 11 Jun 2014 20:58:30 EST Day 9 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715297 Kicking butt, taking names! Haha -that's the kudos that I received from my body bugg tonight. So, needless to say, today was good! <BR> <BR> I stayed on track with calories even though I really wanted to splurge this afternoon. I did a strength training workout tonight and it was hard. I only managed to make it through one set but I am going to do it again and work up to three sets. <BR> <BR> NSV's for the day: <BR> <BR> - Lots of water <BR> - Plenty of vegetables and fruit <BR> - Str... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 22:05:41 EST Day 8 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714496 Thanks everyone for helping me see what my NSV for yesterday was. This morning I got up and had a good breakfast. I tried to fit in plenty of fruits and vegetables today. I walked with hubby after work and managed to have calories to spare so I was able to eat some hot air popcorn. <BR> <BR> I was in kind of a bad mood today for some reason. I am hoping tomorrow is better. <BR> <BR> NVS's for the day: <BR> <BR> -I was STARVING after my workout and knew that I couldn't make it home. I ... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 21:00:27 EST Day 7 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713744 Well today wasn't so great. I did good with breakfast, good with lunch and then this afternoon I was so bored! I took a nap and then opted for dinner out with dessert. I exceeded my daily calories by over 2000. I'm thinking now about what I could have done differently and I think when I wanted to go out tonight, I should have had a protein shake and worked out instead. Hubs tried to talk me out of going out and I would not give up. He is so sweet and hates to tell me no so we went out. ... Sun, 8 Jun 2014 22:23:39 EST Day 6 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713105 Today felt like a pretty lazy Saturday. Hubs and I slept in, went to breakfast, did a little grocery shopping and then hung out around the house. I should have done some spring cleaning but I've really gotten lazy with that too. <BR> <BR> Anyway, we watched some baseball and then we went for a walk. After our walk, we had frozen yogurt but I opted for sorbet instead with a little fruit topping, a couple of gummie bears and some sprinkles; 295 calories. <em>530</em> <BR> <BR> NSV's f... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 22:47:00 EST Day 5 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712851 Hey peeps! Sorry day 5 is actually arriving on day 6. Yesterday was crazy busy at work and then hubs and I had a late date night so I was zonked when I got home. We went and saw a MLB baseball game and it was so much fun! We tried a new restaurant and split our dinner. I ordered a small garden salad and he ordered a jalapeño BLT wrap with homemade potato. When our meal came, he split his and I split mine. It was definitely enough for both of us but helped us not feel so full! During t... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 14:23:42 EST Day 4 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711592 Dead tired...yep that's me! I went to work at 8am and got home after 7pm. UGH! Work was nuts! Clinic got really backed up and therefore my eating got all screwed up. I couldn't eat some of what I had planned and I ate on the go a lot. <BR> <BR> I didn't end up doing any additional activity today however at work I walked 8344 steps and had 1 hour and 47 minutes of moderate activity. I think that's plenty for today. <BR> <BR> I ended up eating 1575 calories today. I created a deficit ... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 20:52:53 EST Day 3 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710817 Well, middle of the week here! Yep - this is where things start to get difficult. I start to get tired and by Friday the control is lost. <BR> <BR> I stayed on track today. I was able to eat well and clean and I had got in a great workout! For the first time in a long time, I was exhausted and starving after my workout which means it was good!! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I had 1634 calories today, and burned 491 with exercise so I created a deficit! <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> Yes, the... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 21:18:27 EST Day 2 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710027 Today was a little bit tougher than yesterday. I was very stressed at work and that made me want to eat more. The good news is that I chose healthy snacks like a big plate of vegetables with light ranch however this was in excess. In addition, I ate 1/2 of an energy bar after dinner which was also not in the plan. <BR> <BR> I had a little bit bigger breakfast which I thought would decrease the desire for more food during the day. Not today. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I ended up having 1673 c... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 21:24:05 EST Popular Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709550 <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <BR> <BR> I have awesome Spark Friends! I logged in this morning and much to my surpirse, my "New Months are a Fresh Start" was voted as a featured blog post! How exciting!!! <BR> <BR> This was a GREAT way to start my day!! <BR> <BR> <em>212</em> Tue, 3 Jun 2014 08:28:07 EST Day 1 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709210 <em>355</em> <BR> <BR> Today is day 1 of my new journey. I had a pretty good day! I did my best to make good choices today. This journey is all about choices. The hardest choice today was regarding dessert. I have always had an issue here but I took 1/2 serving of mini chocolate chips and mixed it in 1 tbsp PB2 powdered peanut butter; 80 calories and felt like I was cheating! If you've never had PB2, I highly recommend it. You mix it with water and it's delicious! Plus, one servin... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 20:17:17 EST New Months are a Fresh Start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708441 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1158387502.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It has arrived! With June brings sun, summer time, and more healthy treats not just ice cream! <BR> <BR> I was thinking today about what yummy foods that are out during summer that I love. <BR> <BR> <em>491</em> Watermelon! <BR> <em>45</em> Strawberries! <BR> <em>488</em> Tropical fruits like pineapple and melons! <BR> <BR> And you can't forget the veggies... <BR> <BR> <em>368</em> Lettuce! <BR>... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 22:32:10 EST Weekend Crash! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704629 Happy Tuesday everyone! This weekend was a HUGE crash; FAIL!! I had <em>76</em> every day (one day, twice in the same day). Yes, I know. I need to find a way to eat other things. I need to exercise when I want to eat ice cream. I need to find ways to do something else. I've heard it all and tried everything. I don't know why I keep gravitating toward it. <BR> <BR> Today I did pretty well. I wanted to stop at the ice cream shop on my way home from work. I stopped myself. Tonig... Tue, 27 May 2014 20:05:45 EST NSV's and other ramblings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5702368 I had a few NSV's this week. <BR> <BR> I walked every day. <BR> <BR> I had healthy breakfasts every day. <BR> <BR> I did one day of strength training. <BR> <BR> BUT.... <BR> <BR> I cannot kick this stupid ICE CREAM <em>468</em> habit. I was thinking tonight (while I eating cold stone despite having a cone earlier in the day) that I have eaten ice cream or frozen yogurt four days this week. <BR> <BR> Let's back up...Tuesday was my only official splurge night. I had frozen yogurt... Sat, 24 May 2014 21:05:19 EST Fitness & Nutrition http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5701025 I am making progress in this department and I'm so excited! After my knee troubles, I didn't know if I would be able to really do much exercise other than chair stuff again. However, I've walked with hubby every day for 32 days. In addition, I'm starting to feel "off" if I don't workout. I had a goal to get 2500 fitness minutes this month and right now I have over 1800. I think I'm going to get there. YAY!! <BR> <BR> Oh, on another side note, I am finally starting to understand my em... Thu, 22 May 2014 20:40:04 EST Quick Monday Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698704 Okay - so the scale read 167.6 this morning. I'm upset about this however it was much to be expected after the weekend. No worries! <BR> <BR> Today was great! My nutrition log was updated so if you're curious as to what I ate, it's all there. I stayed under 1500 calories today. I had over 2 hours of activity and I drank 9 glasses of water. <BR> <BR> One huge hurray was that tonight, I could have fit in popcorn but instead, I'm drinking tea! Oh wait - another hurray is that today at ... Mon, 19 May 2014 20:11:35 EST Weekend of Purging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5697891 I ate all the crap food in the house this weekend. I decided that if I want to accomplish any goal that I have, I am going to have to eat better on a more regular basis. So, I decided to eat any ounce of junk food including candy that was still sitting around from Christmas (peppermint bark - yum). <BR> <BR> I also decided to fully commit to SP! I've been logging my food on My Fitness Pal for a long time but I lost weight before when I logged on SP so I've decided to commit again fully ... Sun, 18 May 2014 20:50:02 EST Good morning!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5695577 Happy Thursday Spark World! I am feeling good about choices this week but this morning I stood on the scale and UGH! It's up to 163. I am not happy with this but I saw something this morning that resonated with me. <BR> <BR> "When you think about giving up, imagine where you could be in three months if you don't.....still want to quit?" <BR> <BR> This is exactly what I needed. Yes, the scale is being stupid but if I throw in the towel, well that's not the answer. <BR> <BR> I will con... Thu, 15 May 2014 10:14:54 EST Are You Ready? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5693214 It's May 12th. I could sit here and dwell on the past four months. My weight has been less than wonderful but you know what, it's not healthy to dwell on the past. I'm tired of dwelling on the past. <BR> <BR> I started reading Bob Harper's Book "Are You Ready?" and there are parts that really resonated with me. There are parts of the book where Bob asks about previous baggage - forgiving ourselves, forgiving the past, the people who hurt us, or shaped our minds. I got to thinking and ... Mon, 12 May 2014 09:06:01 EST Something's gotta give! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5688027 <BR> I just updated my spark page. I realized on my main page that I have been updating my weight since Aug. 2013. I had a goal then to lose 30 pounds. I am still at the SAME weight as I was then. Hum?? Something's gotta give! <BR> <BR> Plans get sidetracked, my brain says screw it and I just eat whatever I want. It's ridiculous but true. <BR> <BR> Anyway - just ranting and struggling still!! Mon, 5 May 2014 12:41:28 EST Posting & Goals! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681532 <BR> I haven't posted a blog in almost 2 weeks! Geez!!! <BR> <BR> I always do this though. When I'm doing good, I check in often. I post new information, update my journey, etc. However, it seems like every time I struggle, I become a hermit in a shell. <em>461</em> <BR> <BR> So, let's give an update. <BR> <BR> <em>192</em> My weigh in this week S.U.C.K.E.D! 164lbs! WTHECK?? <BR> <BR> <em>194</em> Water is going VERY well. I'm getting 10-14 glasses per day. <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 10:54:39 EST What do I need? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672342 Do you ever ask yourself what you need? Maybe what you need in that moment or maybe what you need in your career, personal life, or even this weight loss journey. Sometimes I ask that question and I do not have an answer. I know that we don't have to have the answer but I really struggle with this. I feel like I've been failing a bit in my journey lately and I really need to figure out what it is that I'm missing so that I can find it and get things back in order. <BR> <BR> I have been e... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 21:00:59 EST Get Clean April Week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670688 This week sucked! I got an F for sure!!! Monday - Thursday went okay but on Friday, I binged on pizza and tonight I went to a crab house with the hubs and splurged like there was no tomorrow. Hubby said that I shouldn't feel guilty later because just because I'm giving in doesn't mean tomorrow (and the remainder of the month for that matter) can't be clean. <BR> <BR> I already feel guilty. <em>2</em> <BR> <BR> I look at myself in the mirror and I do not like what I see. I sit dow... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 19:52:53 EST Get Clean April Week 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665981 Hi spark friends! This week was pretty difficult. I made it until Friday and was so tempted that I didn't think I was going to make it through that day. I did. Saturday came and I wanted to throw in the towel and go out to eat. I didn't. I worked in the morning and then I came home. I had a little bit bigger lunch that I normally do but it helped keep me full in the afternoon so that I didn't snack. Hubby and I had pasta for dinner but I used shirataki noodles so that were very low in ... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 21:00:31 EST You should watch this http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665938 If you have time - you should watch this video from Olivia (BL winner) and her husband! It's a great inspiration! <BR> <BR> <link>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=usD8<BR>NKE3hnU&list=UU12_vewFlGm_9v4ZPFCKb5g </link> <BR> <BR> Go to YouTube and visit MyFitspiration by Olivia/Hannah and watch "The fat trap, how we fell in" It's great! Sorry the link isn't working. Sun, 6 Apr 2014 19:51:44 EST In four days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664446 Today is Day 4 of eating clean April challenge. It's hard! I want to eat candy at work now even though I never craved it before! And I can't stop thinking about cherry coke zero. I don't drink much of it but I can't stop thinking about it! That would hinder my plan huh?? <BR> <BR> Anyway, I feel like other than that I've been doing pretty well this week. I definitely feel pretty good which is nice; not that I felt bad before but trying to stay clean is making me feel fresh and health... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 16:10:26 EST Get Clean April http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662074 April is going to be about getting clean; getting healthier. For the past few months, I've felt like I put in all this "effort" but it's really half a$$ed. I am really tired of it. The only thing that I have been able to really accomplish in 2014 thus far is that I'm working out more consistently and staying hydrated. As far as eating goes, I do well for three or four days and then <em>530</em> I cheat and I go off the deep end. I either binge on chips or Mexican. It's a weakness of m... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 20:36:39 EST March Recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662065 My March goals were simple. <BR> <BR> <em>309</em> Monthly Fitness goal 1000 minutes, Worked out 2675 <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> The remainder of my goals were not met. I splurged more than once a week. I ate sweets despite wanting to avoid them. <BR> <BR> Again I maintained. <BR> <BR> Nutrition = C <BR> Fitness = A+ <BR> Water = B <BR> Weight = F <BR> <BR> Overall = C <BR> <BR> April starts today....stay tuned for April's goals! Tue, 1 Apr 2014 20:23:22 EST Happy Tuesday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656506 I feel like I had a good day despite the fact that my body bugg logged 2 hours of activity (including my workout) and yet it only said I've burned 2009 calories today. I feel like that's messed up! <BR> <BR> <em>194</em> I drank 89 oz of water today <BR> <em>472</em> I made healthy protein pancakes for breakfast (delicious actually)! <BR> <em>474</em> I ate an orange for dessert! Yes, fruit! YAY! <BR> <em>324</em> I rode my stationary bike for 30 minutes <BR> <em>320</em> I ... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 20:21:23 EST Today I get.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655700 <em>277</em> I ate seeds and fruit for one of my snacks today. <BR> <em>194</em> I drank 85oz of water (almost 90!) <BR> <em>320</em> I did my ST and pilates workout (PLUS I walked a lot and danced to HAPPY a lot today)! I am in love with this song! <em>335</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> My negative is from the pringles that I ate at lunch. I wanted to avoid them and then my mouth started watering. Ugh! <BR> <BR> Calories: 1600 <BR> Activity: 2466 <BR> Deficit: 866 ... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 20:59:20 EST Getting a Good Grade http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654164 When I was in school, I thought about my grades a lot. I strove for perfection. I wanted an A+ on every test. I was quite disappointed in college when I got B's once a a while. In fact, that has spilled over into life and as I've gotten older, it seems there are only certain portions of my life that I work hard to get A's. Work for example is one of those. I want to be perfect. A+'s all around really. My personal relationships A+'s all around. My relationship with myself, food and nu... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 21:05:13 EST