FITGRL124's SparkPeople Blog FITGRL124's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Rough August...September not much better August was rough; so far September is going in the same direction. I think almost every day I eat way more than I should even if I try to be good. I haven't been to the gym in over a month. I did walk a little bit last week. <BR> <BR> I'm so tired of being in a spiral. I do good for a while. I do bad for a while. It is this awful spiral that I can't keep doing. <BR> <BR> Health is important! I keep forgetting mine. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Wed, 16 Sep 2015 21:07:26 EST Friday's here finally here This has been a so-so week. On Monday, I felt strong and ready to go. I had a great day and worked out to a Leslie Sansone DVD. Tuesday, again, was feeling good, ate well and went to the gym. Wednesday, my friend, who always wants to eat out asked me to go to my favorite local burritos place. Granted, I had a grilled chicken burrito with black beans, rice, pineapple and broccoli with thai sauce and wrapped up in a spinach wrap so it could have been a lot worse but when I got home, I felt... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 10:04:54 EST Happy August Here I sit this crisp cool Sunday morning thinking about how 2015 has gone thus far with fitness and health. I had a goal (as on my spark page) to reach 170 by August and instead I've gone in the wrong direction. As of yesterday morning (Aug. 1st) I was 193.4. I hate that number. Yes, hate is a strong word but I do, I hate it. <BR> <BR> I was watching Extreme Weightloss this past week (with Chris and Heidi Powell as the trainers) and there was a girl on there named Rachel who's journey... Sun, 2 Aug 2015 10:53:47 EST Weight Loss 2.0 Check In #2 Okay folks - advice, help, etc!!!!!!! I need it. However you look at it, I need it. I don't understand why I get fired up and get to feeling great, doing good things for my body (eating lots of fruits and vegetables, exercising and drinking plenty of water) and then <em>530</em> like a firework, it all comes to a screeching halt. I just don't understand. I mean, I'm not sucking profusely, but I'm not doing great. Some days I just feel lost, like I'm not sure what I'm doing. I've tho... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 11:07:02 EST Weight Loss 2.0 Check In! Hey friends!! So, I'm here and I'm actually doing quite well. I'm feeling more on point and more in tune with listening to my body this time around. I am only eating when I'm hungry and trying to take the cues. I read an article last week that said if you're really hungry that an apple will sound good and you will want to eat it; if it doesn't sound appetizing than you're probably just masking one of the following - boredom, depression, anxiety, or stress. It really hit home for me and I... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 20:32:13 EST Weight Loss 2.0 I've decided that I'm starting this journey for the LAST TIME! <BR> <BR> GOALS: <BR> <BR> 1. I want to feel good in my clothes. <BR> 2. I want to have more energy. <BR> 3. I want to become stronger. <BR> 4. I want to feel better in a bathing suit. <BR> 5. I want to gain a more positive outlook because life is good. <BR> 6. I want to have less back pain. <BR> 7. I want to be more active with my husband. <BR> 8. I want to look at myself in pictures and like what I see. <BR> <BR> THINGS I L... Sun, 31 May 2015 19:32:20 EST Next time... that I want to be lazy or feel like "I'm so tired, I'm just going to sit down or lay down for a while" I should reference this! I was looking up some easier exercise ideas so that when I able to health wise, that I will start working out again. <BR> <BR> Check out this pic that I found on They have some pretty neat, motivational stuff on their site! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 15 May 2015 20:36:29 EST Looking back at pictures I was transferring pictures this morning from an old cell phone to my computer to get some new canvases made for the house. I came across some old pictures of myself from 4-5 years ago. They made me so mad!!!! Realistically, they should be motivating because I was thinner, in a size 4 and obviously I've done it before, so I can do it again and stay there right? Well, the honest truth is, I don't know! I did it before. It was really hard. And then I just let myself go. I don't even th... Sun, 10 May 2015 09:02:55 EST Nineteenth Full Week of 2015 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'm still here - still struggling - still working - still going - not sure what I'm doing really! <BR> <BR> The first part of 2015 started out very well! January to March I lost 13 pounds. I've since gained back 3 pounds and now I'm just being steady. I'm not gaining and I'm not losing. <BR> <BR> I don't know what to do! I still have no answers to some health issues that I'm having and hubby is having. It's... Sat, 9 May 2015 19:57:11 EST Fifteenth Full Week of 2015 Whew!! I have been struggling a bit lately! I have had it from all sides! Stressed to the MAX! I have been trying to do the best that I can with eating. I have been sticking the nutrisystem okay except the weekends. They are really hard and I feel like they hinder me a bit. <BR> <BR> Exercise has been really tough too!!! I do walk while I'm at work between 1 to 2 miles but additional activity is hard. I am having some health issues with my back and my stomach that really causes me pa... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 20:45:37 EST Eleventh Full Week of 2015 Week eleven was pretty good. I was able to stay on track with my nutrition until Saturday. I had one reward day and then was back on track on Sunday. <BR> <BR> Working out last week was pretty non-existent but I am FINALLY over my sickness so I'm going to be able to get back on track!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> #icandoit #goodby50 <BR> <BR> <em>9</em> Mon, 23 Mar 2015 19:07:03 EST Tenth Full Week of 2015 <em>527</em> <BR> <BR> Yep, this was me this week! It stinks!! I've been battling it all week and I finally went to the doctor yesterday. I have a sinus infection and am now on antibiotics for 10 days. <BR> <BR> I'm disappointed that I wasn't able to do my thigh challenge this week. I was doing so well! I am hoping that with a few more days of rest that I'll be on the mend and will be able to get back to it. I'll be behind but who says that I can't continue it into April if need be... Sun, 15 Mar 2015 11:07:13 EST Ninth Full Week of 2015 And I did not lose any weight again this week!! But I talked to one of the Nutrisystem counselors and they advised switching my dinners and my lunches. I'll try that and see what happens. <BR> <BR> I am VERY happy to say that I've been able to do my thigh challenge every day this week! And I also rode the gazelle twice. YAY for workouts. I'm starting to do better there! <BR> <BR> I had a pretty uneventful week otherwise. I worked. I watched some tv. Yep - pretty boring. <BR> <BR>... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 11:40:36 EST March 2015 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And to wrap up February - it was a tougher month than I wanted it to be. I only lost 0.4 pounds. I ate out more last month than I did in January and although a reward once in a while is okay because we should not be deprived, I think my particular body likes to hold onto the junk way too month. In mid February, I was down 2.4 pounds and then Vday came and I ate out twice during the last full week, so I gained ba... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 09:46:33 EST Eighth full week of 2015 And last week....I don't know what happened during the eighth week. <em>38</em> <BR> <BR> I had Mexican, I had Pizza and of course, I gained 2 pounds. <BR> <BR> Yes, I knew that was going to be the result. And I did it anyway. <BR> <BR> This journey is progressive. I need to figure out what makes me do give into the emotional side of eating junk food and find ways to do something else. <BR> <BR> I am confident that I can do it. It's just a matter of figuring out what works b... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 09:11:59 EST Seventh Full Week of 2015 I just realized that I missed my usual Sunday/Monday blog of the year. Better late than never, right?! <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Last week went fairly well. Food wise, I was spot on other than a bit more dairy than required. The weekend was a reward because my husband and I had a little V-day celebration. <em>129</em> I ate whatever I wanted and did not feel guilty about it. <BR> <BR> That brings us to this week. I did well with nutrition but I did not make it to the gym one day. ... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 17:34:59 EST Sixth Full Week of 2015 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is exactly how I felt today! I was out of it! lol! <BR> <BR> The sixth full week went well despite that I wanted to eat bad foods. I don't know if it was hormonal or what but I wanted to eat bad. My NSV was that I stuck to my plan. My only "splurge" was my reward meal. Hubby and I went to one of my favorite places and I had a turkey burger with a light beer. It was delicious but the following day I wa... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 17:43:06 EST Fifth full week of 2015 I had a good week 5. I was able to stick to my nutrition. I did have a reward meal with hubby and I enjoyed every minute. I was right back on track the next day! I LOVE that I'm finally figuring out how this works. <BR> <BR> Off for now! Let's make week 6 even better! <em>41</em> Mon, 2 Feb 2015 21:07:57 EST January 2015 Wrap Up I can't believe tomorrow is the last day of January! I'm very happy to say that this month of my transformation has been amazing! <BR> <BR> I feel like I've found the determination this year that 2014 was lacking. I've had some NSV this month including the fact that I skipped pizza this week and stuck to my plan. <BR> <BR> The only part of my month that I'm still working on is the gym. I've only made in there once a week but hey it's better than none at all. <BR> <BR> SW: 188 <BR> CW... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 20:03:30 EST Fourth full week of 2015 Hello Spark World!!! How are you? I'm feeling fantastic!!! <BR> <BR> This week was better. I didn't really crave like I did last week. I've determined last week was a hormonal thing! Sometimes being a woman stinks! <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I made it to Planet Fitness one time this week. My goal was three! <em>40</em> I went on Monday but Wednesday I had a migraine and then Friday I was exhausted! I've been putting in 55-60 hour work weeks this month and by the time Friday comes, ... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 12:06:01 EST Third full week of 2015 This week was a little bit harder nutritionally. I craved some foods (especially this weekend) that I'm not currently eating (chips, pizza, alcohol, burgers). I'm trying to avoid these things right now because I know that moderation is key and last year I didn't do a very good job with moderation. Last week was very stressful and therefore I know that's why I was craving these foods. However, I'm happy to say that I did not give in. <BR> <BR> So far my stats are pretty good. I'm down ... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 20:08:26 EST Second full week of 2015 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> The second week of the year went great! I made a pack with myself to try to be more positive. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I had a SUPER stressful work week but I did not let it get me down. This proves that I CAN really do this! I just have to stay focused on the end goal at hand. <BR> <BR> I stuck to my nutrisystem foods. The food w... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 19:50:36 EST First full week of 2015 It is here. Today begins the first seven days of 2015. I just read Chris, SparkGuy's blog/email. It rang true for me. "You have this gung ho attitude about the new year and then you return to work and within two weeks, you realize everything is the same." I know that happens to me every year and then at the end of the year I sit, realizing, nothing is different, it's all the same and I am usually at the same weight or heavier like in 2014. <BR> <BR> How is this year going to be differe... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 10:06:33 EST Happy New Year & 2015 GOALS! Here it is! The time of year when almost EVERYONE writes down those resolutions. You know. those things that people hardly ever carry out past three weeks. #notthisyear <BR> <BR> So, I don't want to make resolutions this year. I just want to start the first of year with good thoughts. So far today, I'm not really cutting it. I feel sad. But, I'm going to post a few things that I hope to accomplish in the year. <BR> <BR> 1) Manage stress <BR> 2) Utilize the gym more (Aiming for 2 hour... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 16:24:40 EST Thinking about 2015.... Hey friends! I haven't talked to you in a while via a blog! December always get so crazy with the holidays and I've had A LOT going on at work so needless to say I haven't been able to blog very much. I've been checking in with my favorite teams though so at least I haven't disappeared completely. <BR> <BR> I've been thinking lately about what is holding me back from achieving my goals. I know that stress is a big factor. When I'm stressed, I tend to want to eat too much. How can I mak... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 21:58:45 EST December.... I am a day late but <BR> <BR> HAPPY <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> It's hard to believe that it's already December. Where has this year gone? I had a mission at the beginning of this year to lose the weight that I had gained and here I sit, 10 pounds even heavier. <BR> <BR> BUT <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Over the past few months I have really learned A LOT a... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 20:24:13 EST Spark Tracker ? Does anyone know if the spark tracker automatically logs steps and then let's you know when you sync it? It so strange that I can't see any numbers and when I tap it, nothing happens. I really hope this helps me stay on track. <em>192</em> Mon, 24 Nov 2014 21:30:20 EST I'm a fighter, are you? The journey to healthy is hard! I joined SP in 2008. I wanted to get thinner, more fit and be healthy! Here I sit, 6 years later, with more knowledge but still not where I want to be! <BR> <BR> When you start your journey, you're on fire! You're ready to succeed. Everything you read is new and exciting. Any exercise that you try is new and exciting. After the excitement wears off, things become stagnant and then you lose heart. A lot of times what happens is that whatever weight you'... Thu, 20 Nov 2014 19:45:50 EST ModCloth Inspiration.... Long time, no talk! lol! <BR> <BR> I've been browsing ModCloth this morning and have determined many different pieces of clothing for inspiration! I know that the recommendation is to make a "motivation board" to use for inspiration. I was thinking about that and thought...what inspires me; clothes & shoes! When I'm healthier, thinner and fit, I like to look good. I enjoy wearing cute clothes and shoes. <BR> <BR> Since my weight gain, I do not feel good in my clothes anymore. I am... Sun, 9 Nov 2014 10:57:08 EST Top Reasons That I Want To Be... <em>9</em> HEALTHIER <BR> -I want to be healthier because I want to live a long, full life with my hubby. <BR> <BR> <em>342</em> THINNER <BR> - I want to be able to have my husband hold me like this because its romantic. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <em>182</em> STRONGER <BR> - I want to participate in a 5K <BR> - I want to be a runner <BR> - I want to be able to feel good in jeans with sexy legs <BR> <BR> <em>332</em> FEARL... Sun, 28 Sep 2014 19:59:16 EST Heart Healthy <em>26</em> <em>26</em> <em>26</em> <em>26</em> <em>26</em> <em>26</em> <em>26</em> <em>26</em> <em>26</em> <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> I did the American Heart Association Walk today. I've never done one before but I thought it was a good cause and felt that I should do it. Hubby walked with me so it was a great thing for both of us to do. <BR> <BR> I learned a lot about our heart that I didn't know. And I heard a survivor story of a man who's had three major heart surgeri... Sat, 27 Sep 2014 22:16:53 EST Happy Friday!!! <BR> Hi Friends! How are we this wonderful day? I am feeling pretty good despite that this week hasn't been the best nutritionally or with exercise. I've rested three days but I do have a job where I'm on my feet a lot so that helps. I ate well the early part of the week. However, starting Wednesday, things went a bit array. Not horribly but a little. However, I am feeling pretty good mentally with being more conscious of my choices and eating smaller portions and that makes me happy!... Fri, 19 Sep 2014 10:46:51 EST How much will YOU lose in 16 weeks? This is the header that I see everytime that I open SP! Well, that was over 10 weeks ago that I put this up and I've lost 5 pounds. I do realize that 5 pounds is not bad...I just wanted it to be more. <BR> <BR> Somewhere between need and want is where the problem lies! <BR> <BR> I have been doing better this week though. <BR> <BR> NSV's: <BR> <BR> 1) Monday I wanted to have beer but I said NO. <BR> 2) Tuesday I was EXHAUSTED but did Leslie Sansone walking DVD instead. <BR> 3) Tonight... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 19:56:51 EST Watching Biggest Loser... is me. Although I'm not as heavy as that group, everything else is me. <BR> <BR> 1) Fear <BR> 2) Belief <BR> 3) Confidence <BR> 4) Love <BR> <BR> I lack all of these in myself. I've been battling this weight loss now for almost 6 years. The first three were fine. I was working out. I was eating healthy. I was feeling amazing. And then <em>530</em> my knee decided it didn't want to play anymore. Over the last three years, I've been struggling to get back to where I was before and... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 14:11:55 EST Frustrated, Sad... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This cycle makes me annoyed. It makes me sad. It makes me frustrated. <BR> <BR> I do not know what is going on with food but I need to figure it out. I feel like I'm making no progress! My stomach feels like it's so big! <em>39</em> I am not comfortable in dresses or fitted clothing. It's quite depressing. <BR> <BR> My trainer is a virtual trainer but available any time. He sends me what foods to eat an... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 19:50:20 EST Week of Sept 8th to 13th Hey everyone! I've been thinking about how I can help hold myself a bit more accountable! The trainer is really helping however stress sometimes does get the best of me and then I cave on bad food. Exercise is not really the problem now that I'm able to do it. If I just make myself do it, there's no issue. I can easily do 30 to 60 minutes a day with one or two rest days per week. <BR> <BR> However, food, is a problem! For the past few weeks, I've been doing well M-Th and then on Friday,... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 20:43:53 EST Trainer is mad... I had my third check in yesterday with my trainer. I was honest and told him that last week's stress got the best of me and I ate pizza and burgers (more than once)! <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> He sent me a message today to tell me that I need to get my stress under control and to stop eating. The first month we worked together, I did awesome and was seeing some changes. Over the last two weeks, I have lost no inches or weight. Now, to be honest, I was surprised that I didn't gain anythin... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 11:00:01 EST Hey Sparkies!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Hehehehe! I thought this was a cute Labor Day hello!! I don't have many plans for the remainder of the weekend but I'm okay with it. <BR> <BR> This past week I felt defeated! I feel like over the last six weeks that I've really been putting in time at the gym and eating well 80% of the time! So, what's up? I don't really know. I've been working to try and figure it out. I am not 100% sure but I do hope tha... Sun, 31 Aug 2014 11:04:15 EST Checking in... Hey everyone! I've been a little MIA checking in here. But, I'm doing good. I'm still sparking along. I've been feeling stronger in all regards. I've been staying on track with my workouts and I've been able to get most days spot on with nutrition. <BR> <BR> Today I had Mexican for lunch with the office. I could have really off the reservation because I have this <em>129</em> for Mexican food. However, I ordered two grilled chicken tacos (only chicken), and I added some pico de ga... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 13:47:07 EST Workout even when you don't want to.... Working out doesn't have to be something you always want to do. However, when you do it, you'll feel accomplished and proud! <BR> <BR> Today I did not feel well. But I worked out anyway. It feels good to be done with my workout and feel like I actually did something today! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sun, 17 Aug 2014 21:09:32 EST Blood work normal..... I am frustrated right now. I'm happy that my labs came back normal. All of them! However, it still doesn't explain my fatigue. Like right now, I'm so sleepy and I need to find some energy to workout. I do not know where that energy is going to come from. I could go to sleep right now. I realize that my doctor says "workout more, lose weight" but I feel like that's the easy answer. I really feel like something else is going on but when the blood work comes back normal, what do you do? ... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 19:38:29 EST Yearly doctor's visit <BR> I do not like going to the doctor. I mean, when you tell your physician that you're always tired, one would think she would be more concerned. She said "you've gained some weight since last year" I explained that I was aware and that I am finally back in a position where I can exercise again. I explained that I was really doing well over the last month and hoped to have this weight off soon. She said "well, since you're overweight, and haven't been exercising, that's probably why y... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 10:58:59 EST Happy August Friends! It is here. It's a new month!!! <em>67</em> I cannot believe that it's August already. <BR> <BR> My July was pretty good. I took a nice long needed break from everything and then on the 14th hit the restart button! <em>529</em> <BR> <BR> Stats since July 14th include: <BR> 1. I have lost 9 pounds <BR> 2. I have started strength training 5-6/week. <BR> 3. I have done cardio 3-4/week. <BR> 4. I have been prepping food and staying on track. <BR> 5. I have been having one/week chea... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 11:15:30 EST Day 52 Progress & End of First Week "Restart" Hey everyone! I have some exciting news to share! I bit the bullet and signed up this week with an online personal trainer. They create food plans and weekly nutrition plans for me. I have to check in bi-weekly with pictures and progress measurements. I am really motivated by this. My trainer has stayed in contact with me every day since I started. <BR> <BR> Oh and I've had some great strides. No pizza, stayed at home to eat tonight. It's my cheat day which isn't really a "cheat" l... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 20:52:06 EST Day 46 (week 1 restart) Progress Hey everyone! This was week 1 of my restart. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I did great Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday. Thursday was very stressful at work and I caved. Friday was also stressful and I was really tired. I should have stayed home and slept because that's what my body really needed but instead I went out and had pizza, beer and ice cream. I failed to listen to my body. Saturday was better and I actually walked when ... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 10:01:01 EST Finding Mojo! So, I've been thinking today about ways that I can find my "mojo" It's been missing and I need to get it back! I found a great article on this that really hit home for me. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>2/08/16/you-lost-it-7-ways-to-get-your<BR>-mojo-back-yeah-baby/ </link> <BR> <BR> I'm going to take some of the advice from this column. <BR> <BR> 1. I am going to meet with a personal trainer. <BR> 2. I texted a friend today to see if she wants to meet twi... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 17:14:26 EST Day 38 Progress Okay - so I've been MIA! I went on vacation. I enjoyed myself wholeheartedly. <em>298</em> <em>462</em> <em>461</em> <em>464</em> <em>298</em> <em>462</em> <em>461</em> <em>464</em> <em>298</em> <em>462</em> <BR> <BR> Technically, I'm still on "vacation" mentally because I'm taking a break from wearing my body bugg and counting calories. I'm trying to figure out the plan that I will begin on July 14th. Now, my ultimate goal would be to lose 32 pounds in 16 w... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 11:52:44 EST Happy July (Day 30 Progress) <em>283</em> <em>232</em> <em>283</em> <em>232</em> <em>283</em> <em>232</em> <em>283</em> <em>232</em> <BR> <BR> Happy July! What big plans do you have this month? My plans for June fell short but I'm not stopping this fight! However, I did get in 3049 fitness minutes in June!!! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow, I have a meeting with a personal trainer. I think I need a swift kick in the pants so I'm looking forward to that! <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> My progress over the last few days ha... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 12:37:54 EST Day 21 Progress Hello friends! Today was better than yesterday. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I got up this morning and put away some clothes, straightened the house a bit and then did an upper body strength workout. Afterward, I watched a Lifetime movie. I took a little nap after that. This afternoon, hubby and I went on a long walk and that was nice instead of laying around the house. This evening after dinner, I splurged and had a homemad... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 20:45:41 EST Day 20 Progress (or not) My rear-end is being handed to me on a big platter and at the rate I'm going that platter just keeps getting bigger! <BR> <BR> I think I am a food addict. I have never said that before. <BR> <BR> I averaged this weeks calories and my daily average was 2598 which is not good. My average should be around 1500 and that way I could actually lose a pound. <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> <em>28</em> <em>234</em> <em>28</em> <em>234</em> <em>28</em> <em>234</em> <em>28</em> <em>234</e... Sat, 21 Jun 2014 21:07:31 EST